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Wow. It has been years since I’ve posted on here.

But. I’m going into my third year of teaching. And I’m desperately trying to refill both my school supplies and my care cart for my students.

If you have any ability to help, I would be so incredibly grateful. And if not, I completely understand.

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foulserpent

if someone you know draws mouths like this watch out because at any moment they may post erotica of a nonhuman character humanized into a skinny white cisman in a top hat and monocle

foulserpent

everyone saying ‘this is weirdly specific’ definitely was not on tumblr in like 2011-2013, which i mean i guess i cant fault them for

julian2006

me when feeling suspiciously relaxed: what responsibility have i forgotten

areweforgiven

being mentally ill is so embarrasing how can you explain to a normal person that you had to psych yourself up for half an hour to like get off the floor

mysharona1987

CNN headline writer is *so* done.

cloudsinsummertime

hot take: hrt, gender therapy and trans surgeries should be free

cloudsinsummertime

if cis people don’t have to pay to have a body that doesn’t make them dysphoric, neither should trans people

daisto-deactivated20181027

So by that logic does that mean that I should get anti-depressants and all the other pills for my mental issues for free because the people who don’t suffer from them don’t have to pay to have them?

cloudsinsummertime

yes

fun-with-colors

And does that mean that corrective lenses should also be free, because people with good vision don’t need to pay to see clearly, and that devices to aid in mobility for people with limited mobility (from crutches to (practical) canes to wheelchairs to prosthetics) should also be free, because people who don’t have limited mobility don’t need to pay for them?

cloudsinsummertime

yes? why does everyone in the notes keep trying to come up with gotchas lmao everything to do with healthcare should be free

tabbytheravioli

Then by that logic, healthy food and clean water should be free because without food and water we will die. Also, without water, hygiene will be minimal therefore increasing the chances of disease.

bintilleil-deactivated20200510

Yes. People should have access to a healthy happy life and the whole point of a society is to support eachother and work together. how brainwashed by capitalism are you to think food and water shouldn’t be free in an ideal world.

cherryseltzer

this post is such a wild ride every time. ‘so by this logic, people should have free access to the things they need to live and survive?????????’ like yes bitch, all of it !!!

creepy-like-heaven

damnselfly-b-deactivated2022042

quick protip: if someone is crying or freaking out over something minor, eg wifi not connecting, can’t find their hat, people talking too loud, do NOT tell them how small or petty the problem is to make it better. they know. they would probably love to calm down. you are doing the furthest possible thing from helping. people don’t have to earn expressions of feelings.

shoren18

I’m just gonna put it out there that if someone’s freaking about something small, they’re really freaking out about something big that they’re trying to deal with, or something long term that’s been building up, and that little thing is the straw that broke the camel’s back.

I don’t know, try and give people the benefit of the doubt. Don’t be the next straw on their broken back.

jrkaplonski

Needed this today.

animate-mush

People don’t actually go from 0 to 60. If you think they did, you have failed to notice how long they’ve been at 59.

autisticxprowl-deactivated20201

People don’t actually go from 0 to 60. If you think they did, you have failed to notice how long they’ve been at 59.

buttonpoetry

“I have stopped bringing flowers to the grave of the teenager I used to be.”

— Blythe Baird, from If My Body Could Speak

werenotreallystrangers

Who comes to mind?

pigmenting

sometimes i forget how many times i’ve picked myself off the floor, how many times i’ve washed away smudgy makeup and put myself to bed. how many times i’ve said no to something unhealthy. said yes to something good. how many times i’ve treated myself with kindness and patience. i forget how many times i’ve tended to wounds and made peace with my own anger. if i was taking care of a body that was not my own, i’d believe i was doing everything i could. so here’s to remembering that i’m doing the best i can.

aplacecalledsilence-deactivated

Things Tumblr will never tell you about recovery.

An ode to the people we became.

1. Dying is not beautiful. Once you’re gone, that’s it. No coming back.

2. I know you think all the king’s horses and all the king’s men can’t put you back together again but maybe that isn’t the point. They told me we aren’t here to ‘fix you’, we’re going to help you live with this. Some people completely recover others don’t, you only need to focus on your own journey. I know you want all the time you lost to destruction back. But no amount of wishing will make it return. I’m sorry.

3. We’ve become numb to the line between healthy and unhealthy. Sick and well. Saying you aren’t ‘pro Ana’ or ‘pro Mia’ but having dangerously thin emaciated girls on your blog makes you a paradox. Eating disorders aren’t a lifestyle. They’re illnesses. When I scroll through the ‘thinspo’ tag I wonder whether any of them are still alive. I read the comments of before and after recovery photos and I think about the inbetween. The bit no one wants to hear about. It’s not cute to watch the people who love you cry because they think you’re dying and you don’t know how to tell them that you don’t know how to stop. I wish I could say all this to the person I knew who died at a healthy BMI.

4. If you ever enter treatment you’ll know that leaving it is one of the most terrifying prospects ever handed to you. They talk about the no man’s land, the stuck between a rock and hard place, the uncertainty that comes with new ground. Pitch a tent there. Leave it at the first possible opportunity. And if you find that the tent has become a home don’t be afraid to ask for help.

5. Nostalgia is a liar, we all know that. Perhaps our minds are wired differently in the way they keep telling us sick was comfortable. And you keep trying to force your mind to remind you of the bad times, that this isn’t the right way to go but this loneliness drives your mind numb and the heaviness in your heart is too heavy but I am telling you the weight of this world is not yours to carry.

6. This could go either way. Letting go means none of it has happened and you feel as if you need it to have happened except maybe it’s still happening maybe it’s still happening. Keep fighting. This is the aftermath of the aftermath.

6. There’s a fine line between talking about something and romanticising it.

7. You know what? Sometimes therapy works. Sometimes medication works. Sometimes neither work. Stop hating on people because you think their coping mechanisms are ‘neurotypical’.

8. When you break your leg you go to physio. Healing is hard work. Some of it must come from you. Relapse doesn’t make you a failure.

9. There are places on the internet that would have you believe your sadness is something desirable, exclusive to you. Please leave them. You don’t need that kind of toxicity.

10. Find something else to define you. You’ll need it when life is for living again but you can’t find anything else about yourself but sadness because they told you destruction was the only thing that made you special.

11. If you are a boy with an eating disorder or not a teenager you are still valid. You were always valid. I’m sorry they made you feel like your pain was subordinate.

12. Get help if you feel like you need it and can. You don’t need to be on the verge of death to reach out. Seriously.