Summary - Regulus Black is breaking up with James potter
Story is posted on Ao3 -https://archiveofourown.org/works/86969671
James was tired, he was tired of being hidden and tired of living a lie. The lie that was Regulus Black.
The second heir to the Black fortune, his best friend’s little brother, the same kid he would make fun of on the way to class. James would make fun of Regulus’s hair, the same hair James would be pulling on later that night.
Regulus knew he could never be with James for anything more than a hook up that left them both unsatisfied and wanting more. They would whisper soft words in each other’s ears, soft things that they knew could never be true.
James was a golden boy in every way possible, top of his class, star player, perfect girlfriend but that wasn't enough for James. He needed Regulus.
Neither of them know when it became more than sex, it just did. The nights that used to be spent making love under a tree turned into a picnic to watch the stars and steal kisses they knew weren’t theirs to have. James was selfish, he wanted more of Regulus and that frightened Regulus.
The more their hookups became a relationship, the more Regulus was planning to end it. He knew their love was vile, that their love would never be accepted. Regulus knew it was time when the night before James said he loved him. Regulus froze in shock, no one has ever loved him, not on that level. James said it like a statement while Regulus heard it as a curse.
Regulus got ready to meet James under the tree, the tree was far away from the campus and was hidden from windows. Regulus prepared his breakup speech, it was short and cruel like how everything he said was, or at least that's how he thought everything he said was. If James didn't accept his breakup, Regulus was ready with a dagger to threaten James. He thinks that will work
James got ready as well, he put on his best cologne, sucked on a mint, put on the clothes Regulus liked. James was clueless on how the way his night was going to play out.
Regulus arrived early and stood against the tree, he was shaking, in denial of what he had to do.
James arrived and saw his love, Regulus standing like a dream, the moonlight hitting him in a way which made the stars jealous and the sun wanting more. When James looked at Regulus he saw the only man he’d ever be able to love, he saw his dream finally in reach but what he didn't know was this is the night he will have to wake up from that dream.
James stood in front of Regulus, ready to take him into his arms.
“ you look like a dream, you always look good in my color” James spoke like a whisper. Regulus was wearing red. Was it on purpose or was it to make this moment more cruel?
Regulus looked down at his shirt, ‘fuck i am wearing his colors’ Regulus thought to himself while taking a deep breathe. The air hit his longs like an axe to a tree, it was cold and made him feel exposed.
“James, we need to talk.” Regulus finally let out while he had his hand on James’s chest, stopping him from getting any closer.
James flashed a smile and kept approaching “ we can talk later, Reg.” He said while moving in to kiss Regulus’s neck. Regulus leaned in, not by choice it was like his body wasn’t his.
Regulus pushed James back before he could be blessed by his lips “ no i mean it, Potter. We need to end this.” Regulus’s voice cracked when he said Potter, it made him feel smaller. James stared at him, taking in the seriousness.
James’s life flashed before his eyes, he saw his lover slipping away, he would be doomed to a boring wizarding job, have a kid. James didn’t mind the idea of having kids as long as it was with Regulus. “You don’t mean that. We have something special, Reg.” James said as a plea.
Seeing James look so pathetic made Regulus want to scream, James wasn’t making this easy. James called him ‘Reg’, such a cruel thing to do. Regulus sighed, “ I can't do this, this isn't working for me anymore. We can never be together.”
James was crushed, he felt like crying, screaming, begging. James reached out for Regulus “ we can make this work, i can be whatever you want me to be, please. Regulus we can make this work, please let me make this work. You are all I need, please.” James started to beg.
Regulus was breaking down inside, he wanted to kill James to shut him up. “ Stop it, you aren’t making this easy. I don’t want this, I don't want you.” Regulus started to get louder, he was trying to not cry or lash out. He was failing.
James’s sadness was turning to anger “ You are just afraid, you are scared that you will love me like how i love you! Why wont you just let me in? Fine, say you don’t want me but I know what we have. You are afraid to be yourself, pathetic.” James didn’t know if what he was saying was real or just anger taking over him.
“Shut up, James. You don’t know shit.” Regulus’s eyes started to water but he had to fight it.
Regulus didn’t think it would come to this but that's how it turned out. Regulus didn’t know what he was going to do with the dagger but he knew he felt like using it. Regulus pushed James to the tree, holding the dagger to his throat.
“I’ll cut your throat. That’ll shut you up.” Regulus was acting out of anger, love. Regulus held the dagger with a shaky hand and tears running down his cheeks. Regulus has never felt so loved, it was intoxicating.
James was shocked with how fast Regulus had him pinned. Even though Regulus was threatening him, he couldn’t help but notice how beautiful Regulus was. The moon was hitting him just right, his tears were shining like stars, his hair was sitting perfectly. James was in love.
“ You're beautiful.” James said with a soft tone.
Regulus froze, he was threatening James and all James noticed was his beauty. Regulus let James go and dropped the dagger. The moment the dagger hit the ground so did Regulus’s tears, they were pouring out and he couldn't control it.
James watched as his lover broke down. James knew he had to do something, he pulled Regulus into his arms, trying his best to comfort Regulus.
Regulus pushed him away, not giving himself a moment to enjoy the other’s warmth. Regulus didn’t know what to do, so he ran. Regulus ran to the only place he felt safe, the cave.
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