ayo finally making a new pinned post because i got rid of the other one
✧Latest edit: June 27th, 2025, 7:00pm (Added OC playlist)
Before that: June 21st, 2025, 4:30pm (Revised a bunch of stuff)
Disclaimer: Casually, I type in all lowercase with punctuation only for clarity, but the actual writing pieces (story, lore posts) will NOT be in that kind of grammar. I prommy 👉👈
I mainly post about my OCs (see below the cut). I do have interests but the fandom stuff isn't anything I post about frequently
like, I'm not entirely invested enough in fandoms to post fancontent if that makes sense? I just kinda enjoy the stuff and sometimes look for fanart that other people made, and me reblogging it isn't ultra common even if I do sometimes
Interest examples for reference: Persona/Megami Tensei, ADoFaI (+neo cosmos), Rhythm Doctor, Terraria, Pokemon, Fire Emblem, Lobotomy Corp. & Limbus Company, not really an "interest" but Doki Doki Literature Club slaps
Other stuff that isn't as defining: Miitopia/Tomodachi Life, Rhythm Heaven, Don't Starve, Advance Wars, Undertale/Deltarune, Animal Crossing, Mario/Zelda/Kirby/Pikmin (various things I figure I know way more about than a normal person despite not actually having a "particular" interest in it), probably more stuff too
(clears throat) now, here's the stuff I'm here to talk about! look below here
my funny OCs are the kind that have a whole story and like 50+ pages of lore attached, which is why I really want to talk about them because otherwise I would just take it to my grave and that would be sad. I wish I had like, a fandom to talk about them with, but they only exist in my head and I barely ever write my WIPs so I'm in limbo
overall the tone/genre is a Persona 3 kind of thing if that makes sense? I view it as psychological horror but at the same time I don't feel like I can call it proper horror if it's not really the main focus (it's not in your face very much, it's just a gloomy setting where messed up shit kinda happens on occasion and can be very jarring).
things will be tagged but beware blood/gore, death, disease/vomit, body horror, heavy unreality/dreamcore/surrealism at times, etc.
it's meant to be this kinda lore-iceberg vibe? the best way I can explain it is that someone could ask something like "why did [character] do that?" and it might as well be the opposite of occam's razor, where the explanation is an absurd rabbit hole. in the context of the whole OC story it tends to clear up a lot of things when I decide to do that, but I know some people Do Not Like That so I felt it was worth warning in y'all in advance that I write like that and it's on purpose
I have multiple different worlds/universes that I work on, but despite them being completely different settings, the tone is mostly similar. There's also a slight overlap in characters that kinda makes it into AUs? It's complicated and my own fault
the main one is HAVEN, but there are also Yuvania and NovaTide as well as some others that aren't big enough for their own tags
because I used to have a song link in my intro post, I impulsively decided to make a little youtube playlist of songs that I like that I feel are relevant to my OCs (to varying degrees) that I could share to pin down the vibe more for people because my explanation was vague
if you see that most of the horror songs are missing, that's because I omitted them on purpose for the sake of this because, frankly, any of the "unhinged shock factor" scenes would be a bad first impression due to the rest of the lore generally not being Like That
some are also missing because of spoiler reasons; some of the songs relate to the lore in terms of later stuff that's meant to be a plot twist
(note that some are covers due to them being the main versions of those songs that I listen to, usually for OC voiceclaim reasons ngl)
[Whole Playlist]
Cadmium Colors by JamieP
Self Proclaimed Angel by KAT
孤独の宗教 by syudou
廃墟の国のアリス by mafumafu
Fall Apart Heart by Kairiki Bear
theory of i by tart
WozWald by NiruKajitsu
weathergirl by FLAVOR FOLEY
FIRING LINE by tart
Metronome by CircusP
No.2 by Takuto
Copycat by CircusP
I would say more here, but I feel like I should make specific stuff like character sheets into their own posts
I'm super down to like, talk to people about it and answer questions (well, within reason considering story spoilers), I am a chronic yapper
also, since people don't seem to like pressing the Like button...
I'll just say it right here, "blease like my posts if you liked it," yes it doesn't do anything but it lets me know that people actually see my posts, and I know people wouldn't necessarily reblog like, chapter 13 from someone else's OC story to their own blog
Even if this is from a WIP (it's cropped from a fullbody and the rendering doesn't even go below the picture at the moment), I wanted to post it since I brought it up earlier. Stuff like the white outline were added after I cropped it just to make this look finished for the post
Björn's a little worse for wear, the twink death is really hitting him hard..
His original design was never posted on Tumblr because it's old and I don't actually have the drawings anymore (he's technically one of my oldest OCs as in irl time) but he was some kind of silly anime boy and now he's some kind of desheveled anime man. I've played even more into that since last time. Before, he was mostly clean shaven—yeah, he had some stubble going on, but as of late I've just been making him extra scruffy where his beard could probably use some cleaning up
Actual info about him will be in the remake of his character intro post
(For anyone who might not know his design, the long neck is intentional)
i should've put this on my last post but (also will delete this one later) i never realized that 90% of my posts were in communities and Not Here so the stuff here is an oddly specific collection of things, huh.
that's why i need to put the more up-to-date stuff here, but it also does mean i have some stuff already made that isn't on the blog yet so that's cool
(sorry for all lowercase incoherent post, wanted to get this out and will delete later. turned out longer than anticipated because i always yap)
ouh i know my last post was an update saying i would clean up my outdated posts and make the new intro and stuff and then i proceeded to not do that (i try not to make multiple "apologizing for not posting" posts in a row, but that's also why i seem to just disappear)
since i just got a notif that i got a new follower i just wanted to say like, yeah i'm still trying to get on it... i'm just vaguely making a backlog because every time before this when i made a bunch of posts it was genuinely me posting them AS i finished like, making 3 posts a day in the mines and that doesn't work very well once i "crash" after tbh
art and writing stuff, though! i'm not changing much of anything it's the same characters as always it's just that the old bjorn lore was from right before i changed some stuff about him (well, the story. it's later on time wise so he does know why his memories are split)
for instance there's a new bjorn ref WIP, i'm not just making this up.
those 3 project myriad drafts that i promised and never made are also on the table for things i'll get to next, and the new intro was like half done when i forgot about it but that's actively in my tumblr drafts
put a cut here because my "explanation" for the long stretches between posts turned out kinda heavy/tmi with the topic being mental health and it became a vent at the end. Someone just followed me and i don't want that to be my first impression w/o a warning tag so here
even if i'm better than before (see other post) i'm like. pretty much always in a weird headspace. not in a "i need a break" kind of way because sitting alone in my room all the time doing nothing is probably the problem itself and not the solution, and when i do post it makes me feel really good! it's just forcing myself to make the content so i have something TO post yk, mostly my ocs just live in my head and not in complete paragraphs if that makes sense
plus like, mostly about the depression that i be out here getting actual messages and then not responding to them, then once a week passes i'm like "oh shit they're gonna be annoyed with me if i respond this late" and then. not responding even more because i'm nervous/afraid and not in the headspace for someone to be upset with me (spoiler: i never am) and now i have project myriad related messages from like a year ago where i just ghosted the people and the ask in my inbox from 230 days ago (unrelated) that i wanted to answer but haven't gotten to yet. i intend to get back on those but also i will be doing it nervous so hopefully nobody hates me 👍
oh man adding this to also say there's absolutely a trauma reason i'm "afraid" (more just nervous) that people are gonna hate me and i kinda flinch in response to notifications. i'm trying to heal but that's the thing, that involves making new positive experiences to tell my brain it's not actually all bad but it's hard when things often vindicate that anxiety yk. such as people actually being annoyed and not liking me, it becoming a feedback loop where they're annoyed because of my stress behaviors, and i feel like i don't have a safe environment to re-learn how to talk to people after isolating so long because strangers without any existing connection seem to lose interest right away when i make a mistake
and everybody's so nice for the most part! the problem becomes the fact that i just can't respond for some ungodly reason and then i "ruin" it so to speak. you're all so cool... i'm not ghosting anybody out of malice, i don't even know why i'm doing it i'm just. exhausted after holding one conversation likely because i'm not used to it or something
sorry for it being kinda venty i don't really have any friends so i don't have anywhere else to really say this, this is the watered-down kinda version because it's public, mind you, because there's a lot that i wouldn't share for "not feeling appropriate to put here" and "i don't want to" reasons
thanks for reading, idk how to say "please be gentle" when i don't want strangers who find my post to be mean about it (or at least, the warning that i will block people if they do, can't control the public and i'm the one who chose to post after all) but yea i'm working on stuff alright
especially working on stuff as you may see in the other post that i don't have to deal w/ that work situation anymore so i have free time
Ayo, so... I'm probably gonna be actually posting here (and on the other blogs like Project Myriad) again. Basically, due to an irl situation change I'm feeling a lot better than I have for the past 2-3 years and feel like my soul is back in my body.
Every time I've "come back [to Tumblr]" in that time period has been from sudden bursts of motivation that had me make a ton of posts in the span of 1 week and then I would crash and not touch anything for several months. I'll probably clean up some stuff (for instance, the fact that Björn's bio post here is more of a NovaTide one and then every single post after is for Haven) and redo my intro to be more up-to-date now.
The context is "oh my god that job was killing me" and now I don't work there anymore. I never noticed just how bad the burnout was until the mental 5-ton anvil on my back was suddenly gone (I left only a couple days ago). I used to love makin' stuff about my OCs, especially since I'm kinda... desperately lonely in terms of "people who care enough where I can yap about [them]." I do have friends but none of them are interested in that stuff especially when my infodumps are LONG. I was always meaning to post that kinda stuff here to meet new people and to try and get interactions, but as you probably noticed I was just complaining about it and then not actually posting 'cause I had like NO energy ever and could never bring myself to grind away at a drawing that would get 0 notes anyway. Now that I'm feeling like myself again, I'm back to enjoying the act of making stuff instead of it being a chore so it won't feel nearly as bad.
Within a couple days of me "catching up" on those communities I'm in I immediately fell back again and have had them at 99+ for ages, so I'm kinda sorry about the fact I don't think I can/want to read every single post that happened since then, but that was never really an obligation anyway (just a personal thing that I try to do).
context: sometimes my irl friends and I play singleplayer games together, like we make eachother play our favorite games and we all sit and watch them play it (this is why I'm busy sometimes, usually on the weekends) so I've been playing persona3 again with my buddy
anyway I wanted to say "this is what I look like" (or well, what I try to look like, I haven't actually been able to transition but shhhh)
You see this little freak? They're gonna have the worst time of their life.
(/j, but y'know how I like to treat my characters)
[See, I did make 3 different versions over time!]
This is going to be the main character (they/them). I've already talked about them before in various posts, but now for the first poll... naming them. I haven't picked out their name yet!
Related posts:
- Lore: Rypurs (Species)
- Current info on: Protagonist (01)
Despite being a rypur, they don't know what those are at first. They woke up here one day without any memories other than their name.
When I first put this in my drafts, I wasn't biased, but since it's taken longer than expected my vote is absolutely on Zindy because that's what I've been calling them in my head sometimes. This is still gonna be based on the poll, though. I also have some people without Tumblr accounts who I might ask, so their votes won't show up here.
while I've been working on the rest of those portraits, I ended up starting another project on the side. it's currently called "Project Myriad" as more of a development name, but it's a less serious thing I'm working on. the project is meant to be a little collaborative, where everyone comes up with ideas to make the whole thing.
imagine the type of interactions like "what should this OC's personality be?" and "oh! what if this new one had pink hair?" but on a larger scale because it's around a lot of different things in the project.
the first poll is up right now, and there are 2 infodump posts that relate to my normal lore too. the sideblog is @project-myriad.
I'm sharing it here because I'm having a great time :) this blog will still get posts, but you can probably tell I don't post that often anyway
update: since a little bit ago I finally got some motivation back, I went and made actual portraits for the set of low effort ones I basically just posted a month ago. they have souls this time (I think)
also the other one got the colors on Chou's normal outfit swapped, this one is correct
Personality: Loud, aggressive, reckless, immature, reserved, cute, flirtatious, self-loathing deep down, deeply caring deep down but doesn't admit it.
Powers and abilities: Lightning summoning (she summons lightning and manipulates it as she desires), phasing (teleportation), limited levitation, manipulating electric objects such as making the lights flicker when she's upset.
Backstory: She was abandoned in the ruins of her home by her older brother, forcing her to spend most of her life alone, and her brother turned evil, so she's fixated on getting rid of her younger self to spare herself that guilt.
Hobbies and skills: Fixing machinery, inventing weapons and stuff like that, combat.
