death is a really scary thing.. to think someone can just,, disappear... when i was younger i was more desensitized to it because in my head "only other people die, not friends or people in my community". I've been following a lot of artists on furaffinity and the amout of times it's said "cannot watch an account marked deceased" is crazy. an amazing and phenomenally influential artist by the name of jazz sparklefur passed away a few months ago, i never knew who they were until after they died, but apparently all the sparklefur/kidfur artists knew them and it was devastating. on their furaffinity i saw a timeline of their partner commenting every so often saying how much they love and miss them, happy birthdays, etc. i went all the way back and saw the reaction of the partner finding out they passed. it makes my heart hurt now that im realizing that death is a very real and scary thing and how close it is. 8 billion people, but only one like that one, only one that's special in the way this one is. i can't believe how incredibly strong the partners and friends are for continuing to move forward in life despite losing someone that changed it completely. despite how crushing and heartwrenching it feels, it's still so beautiful that the internet can preserve something so astronomically unique as the inside of the mind of someone the world has lost.