Run fearless.

• Sarah • Retired college runner • Clinical trial nerd • welcome to my self discovery journey • ॐ

[thecalminside]

Anything you avoid in life will come back, over and over again, until you’re willing to face it—to look deeply into its true nature.

-Adyashanti

[notbeingnoticed]

[positivelypastelpink]

You have way more potential than you think 🌱

[expressions-of-nature]

[inkflowergarden]

I found a bunch of old notes from my art journal and thought I’d share them. Feel free to take whatever message you need the most right now.

[borderlinereminders]

Please stop attacking the past versions of you. They were doing their best at the time and they got you here. It’s amazing how much progress you’ve made and how much you’ve grown but please don’t think your past self lacked worth in any way.

[sunsetsandhope]

sometimes i feel so sorry and want to apologize to my past self, I've never treated them right or with respect and blamed them for things they did, but they did good.

[night--hawk]

@theaeolianharpist

[runner-vs-the-world]

She back!!! featuring pics of my recent vacay to Florida

Hiiii tumblr friends, it’s been a hot minute! There’s a lot that has happened… where to even start!!!! First off: my ED recovery has been my life. It’s been more like anorexic-vs-the-world than runner-vs-the-world…. and now i feel more and more like just Sarah-vs-the-world (lmao i do have that as a sub-tumblr that was originally for ED recovery stuff).

Anyways, I don’t run much anymore because I am more than a runner. I have felt like i didn’t belong on this blog because i’m no longer “training” or “fast” and that somehow that makes me no longer worthy of this platform. So this is my proclamation to the world that you are enough. YOU choose what and who you are. YOU choose if you want to label yourself as a runner or not. For me, that label still feels too challenging and anxiety provoking. Because I am more than a runner! Figuring out who i am and what else i like to do has been HARD…. but SO REWARDING. I couldn’t have done it without taking that first leap into recovery and deciding to be all in.

So cheers to recovery. Cheers to growth. Cheers to new beginnings.

Just wanted to pop in and say hi. If you have made it this far, thank you. I really appreciate your investment in my journey too :)

With love,

Sarah

[runner-vs-the-world]

still relevant a year later... i’m still a social media ghost with no interest in sharing updates for humans that i know irl (but when social media makes so many people depressed it’s like i also don’t want my post to be the cause of someone else's despair). 

but ironically it’s the “fame” of this tumblr account that keeps me from posting more. i have no interest screaming into the void anymore... i’ve crossed paths with too many unsafe people who use my vulnerability against me, and who feel entitled to judge my life and choices. at the same time, this is my era of refusing to live in fear/shame/silence any longer. so here’s to hoping toxic people will decide i’m too much trouble to fuck with in the first place... and being their worst nightmare if they do :) 

[forkeepsblog]

Could I just say something real quick? 

It’s all coming. Whatever you’re starving for, whatever that ache is that stings your bones, it’s coming. The love, the happiness, the adventures, and the creativity that you are seeking, it is all coming for you. Here’s the thing, don’t let your right now get away. The things you find mundane, keep them. Store them in the pocket of your favorite coat like found pennies. They aren’t futile. Do not let them cause you to feel empty and hollow. They are going to be worthwhile. Keep the hunger for what is coming, but please, keep a tight grip on these little ordinary moments that are happening right now, because they – these tiny pieces of this ordinary affair you find yourself in – are the foundation to your extraordinary. And I promise you, if you begin to recognize your right now, you’ll see your extraordinary coming.  

[heavensghost]

entering into my evil girl era (finally standing up for myself)

[runner-vs-the-world]

aka the era of disappointing anyone/everyone before disappointing yourself... so in the wise words of Glennon Doyle, “who do you need to disappoint this week?” 

[runner-vs-the-world]

She back!!! featuring pics of my recent vacay to Florida

Hiiii tumblr friends, it’s been a hot minute! There’s a lot that has happened… where to even start!!!! First off: my ED recovery has been my life. It’s been more like anorexic-vs-the-world than runner-vs-the-world…. and now i feel more and more like just Sarah-vs-the-world (lmao i do have that as a sub-tumblr that was originally for ED recovery stuff).

Anyways, I don’t run much anymore because I am more than a runner. I have felt like i didn’t belong on this blog because i’m no longer “training” or “fast” and that somehow that makes me no longer worthy of this platform. So this is my proclamation to the world that you are enough. YOU choose what and who you are. YOU choose if you want to label yourself as a runner or not. For me, that label still feels too challenging and anxiety provoking. Because I am more than a runner! Figuring out who i am and what else i like to do has been HARD…. but SO REWARDING. I couldn’t have done it without taking that first leap into recovery and deciding to be all in.

So cheers to recovery. Cheers to growth. Cheers to new beginnings.

Just wanted to pop in and say hi. If you have made it this far, thank you. I really appreciate your investment in my journey too :)

With love,

Sarah

[inkflowergarden]

There is a story you’re destined to tell, a story that already lives within you, burning brightly like a sacred, life giving flame at the center of the temple that is your body. Let it reveal itself through you. Let a stream of images spontaneously emerge in your mind’s eye, let  the words speak for themselves. Feel into your story, get in touch with the ancient art of storytelling, storytelling as medicine, elixir for the soul. Let this story express itself through you, let it guide you, teach you, heal you, transform you, let it bring you back to life.

[motivatedaily]

[goodbye-friends36293-deactivate]

Gender abolition, but make it:

clothes sorted by body shape and style, instead of gender

removing unnecessary gender markers from non-medical documents like a driver's license

genderless bathrooms where the stalls have floor-to-ceiling walls for privacy

abolishing gendered toys, colors, professions, hobbies, etc.

they/them as the default if you don't know someone

And NOT:

trans and non-binary people being barred from identifying with and expressing their gender

[smokeinsilence]

have you ever noticed you pick up little habits and phrases from the people you love? it’s no wonder our hearts are so easily broken when people leave. we become a reflection of the people that we care about and those personality traits stick with us even if the people don’t

[viridianmasquerade]

I make my ramen the way a friend taught me in eleventh grade. Every fall, I listen to a playlist made for me by a boy I drove across a border to hook up with. I eat sushi because a girl who won’t talk to me anymore made me try it, and Indian food because my best friend’s parents ordered for me before I knew what I liked. There are movies I love because someone I loved loved them first. I am a mosaic of everyone I’ve ever loved, even for a heartbeat.

[livixdunne-blog]

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[championsaremade]

everyone, meet Pabst 🥰🤩🥺

[runner-vs-the-world]

Waiiit is (s)he named after the beer PBR hahah

[runner-vs-the-world]

One year ago today on Snapchat lol 😂