joey

she/her | fangirling over fiction | woc

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The Holy Trinity

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our violent ends is one hell of a masterful dagger of a book as in yes, it snipped away at all my heartstrings and gave me my own violent end.

not only did i kept perusing on knowing the dangers but i also went on to fell in love with said book. i mean look: roma, juliette, marshall, benedikt, celia, alisa, rosalind. the emotions and the feels this dagger has infused into me and proceeded to pull out by the end.

im still reeling and im perpetually filled with numbness.

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finished rereading tvd and the last chapter still feels like my heart is being robbed and now my heartstrings are hanging loose with no more feelings to string and pulse into my brain.

our violent ends will be my destruction :,)

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yall im rereading these violent delights

u bet im listening to all too well 10 min ver on repeat as i sob and continue to our violent ends and sob again and honestly rip future me.

yes this is self-inflicted mental pain why am i doing this idk please

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sobbed for 6 minutes straight after finishing the last episode of your lie in april

i am forever broken

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i finished fruits basket & didn't cry. yeah it was very sad & depressing, but these glands didn't leak.

am i emotionless or do i have trouble processing sadness and instead repress those emotions?

anyway anime recommendations anyone?

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also i'm like almost done with fruits basket season one and OH MY GOSH I'M LIKE THIS CLOSE TO CRYING OVER THE FACT THAT I RELATE TO YUKI AND KISA ON A DEEP LEVEL AND EVERYBODY TOO AND I WANNA CRY BUT I'M NOT GONNA. dear gosh i might tho at season 2. don't spoil pls :)) also why is the manga so expensive and it's not available in any bookstore online rn 😔😔

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Christmas special???

yeah it's like mini stories of roma & juliette when they were younger in chloe gong's blog :))

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i listened to the entirety of sour prom before finishing the last half of these violent delights. then i read the roma juliette christmas special.

in short, ms chloe gong cooed at my heart, cajoled me to give it to her, wrenched it flat, and gave it back to me with a very nice smile.

somebody tell me i'm not alone.

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s&b spoilers!!

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i need an emotional support goat named milo to fight off the volcras in real life aka homework/school (featuring me trying to heist milo out of the first army camp or barmaid or jesper, i have books as weapons)

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SHADOW AND BONE SPOILERS

LAST WARNING

finished binging the show and i'm going to curate a list of my fav scenes and some others that struck to me:

MILO, THE GOAT. the fact that he's there for emotional support is *chef's kiss.* from now on i NEED a goat named MILO for MY emotional support.

EPISODE 7 KAZ AND INEJ SCENE (didn't cry, not much of a cryer, but i needed to take a breath) and KAZ CALLING THEM “MY CROWS” (me: dying)

Kaz saying “I need you” to Inej. mother of saints his love is vibrating through the screen and i'm not complaining because MY love for Inej is also vibrating back to the screen.

the fact that ep 5, if i'm not wrong has like 3 KISSES (two of them darklina ofc y'all being fed)

the darkling/general kirigan coming back to kiss Alina again?! it's cute not gonna lie (but he's a manipulator and a literal murderer so kinda hard to see it as cute)

JESPER. he's such a joy in the show. (IMAGINE WYLAN VAN SUNSHINE AND NIKOLAI LANTSOV I'M GONNA CRY AT SEASON TWO PLEASE THERE BE A SEASON TWO)

this show might have persuaded me to be a malina shipper (before i was meh on both ships)

HELNIK. THIS SHOW MADE ME LOVE HELNIK EVEN MORE. PLEASE I NEED TO SEE THE ENEMIES TO LOVERS OF NINA AND MATTHIAS AGAIN BUT 🚨CROOKED KINGDOM SPOILERS🚨 WE ALL KNOW HOW IT'LL END

I LOVE EVERY FREAKING MINUTE OF HELNIK. THEY'RE JUST OH MY GOSH. I LOVE WHEN THEY ATE WAFFLES.

FEDYOR. liked him at first until he disrupted NINA AND MATTHIAS EATING WAFFLES (an absolute disgrace).

to netflix, i need a season two to see HELNIK, my Crows (all of them), the very handsome and very talented dancer NIKOLAI LANTSOV.

how am i gonna wiat for season two.

this is gonna be absolute torcher.

ok i'm gonna give some alina & mal & darkling scenes.

the servant saying something “start with her Shu eyes” BOY IT HIT WAY CLOSE TO HOME along with the first army in Kribirsk.

never knew i needed somebody like Alina (Jessie Mei Li) to be on the TV who looked like me, but oh what a glorious feeling to not see another fully white protagonist who saves the world (not that there's anything wrong with that, just that there's a lot of it).

mal is WAYYYYYYY better in the show imo

still don't like the darkling. handsome? yes. manipulator and might kill you in the snap of his fingers? also yes. possesive? yes. “a man of his word”? certainly not.

OH AND DAVID LOOKING AT GENYA AT THE WINTER FETE. I AM MELTING.

KAZ HOLDING A GOAT.

LEIGH HUGGING ALINA.

also kaz LITERALLY defeating the darkling and just poofing out (sorry crow cane)

mikhael and dubrov are the best friends i need in real life

NO MOURNERS. NO FUNERALS.

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SHADOW AND BONE SPOILERS

I LOVE THE GOAT.

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CROOKED KINGDOM & RULE OF WOLVES SPOILERS

i keep wishing and praying for a crow cameo in rule of wolves and chant their names and then i remember. my heart shatters every single damn time. i didn't expect it to hurt this much especially after THAT.

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RULE OF WOLVES SPOILERS

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LAST WARNING

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HOW CAN LEIGH DO THIS TO ME? THAT DEATH WAS ALREADY ENOUGH, YOU NEEDN'T REMIND ME OF THE ONE THAT STILL SCARRED ME (FRANKLY I DIDN'T EXPECT IT TO HURT THIS MUCH BUT IT DOES) TO THIS DAY. not much of an easy cryer in books, but i might cry in joy (or in sadness depends how this book dicate my feelings) in the latter half of this book.

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NINA IS SO BEAUTIFUL. INEJ IS IN HER AERIAL SILKS. OH MY GOODNESS. HIGHLIGHT OF MY WEEK. * screaming continues *

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INEJ'S KNIFE IN THE TRAILER. I REPEAT HER KNIVES. JESPER & KAZ SPOKE. THE TRAILER LOOKS SO GOOD NOW I'M GONNA BLAST LIKE A SUPERNOVA BECAUSE OF THE EXCITEMENT. IT LOOKS SOOOOOOO GOOOOD. ALSO ZOYAAAAAAAAAAAAA. WHO IS THE LADY IN THE FIRST PICTURE? YES HALF OF THE CROWS ARE ON THE MISSION. WAITING FOR NIKOLAI SOBACHKAA & WYLAN VAN SUNSHINEEE

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the lyrics on ‘street by street’ by laufey gives me kaz brekker vibes except it's not about a boy, it's jordie.