i love watching the first ep of merlin right after i’ve seen the finale bc i watch their fight scene and think of when merlin told arthur in those final hours how he used magic to hit back, and arthur just says, “you cheated!” like. yes. of course he did. the beanpole. that’s your concern?
and then i think of how young and innocent they are and how nothing bad has happened yet and i get upset
the torture and the joy are inseparable













