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[satorusluver]

Welcome to my blog, where I ramble and sometimes I write. JJK + DN content. I write 18+ works, so minors DNI.

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[3-aem]

okay let’s do this again

[satorusluver]

Kudos to all the really popular writing blogs with big followings and loyal, active fans and close mutuals because my autistic ass is so antisocial I didn't even bother to try getting popular.

[satorusluver]

Once again I am in crisis mode and thus taking a break from proper writing but I will get back to it as soon as I'm able.

[mikami]

Hi! I've heard here and there that Anime!L is not nearly as iconic as Manga!L I have read the manga and watched the anime and yet I fail to see this? I mean I do notice that anime!L is more sensitive and seems a bit too attached to light but idk I wanted to ask your opinion! in your eyes, what are the main differences between manga and anime L ? <3

I don’t know about iconic, but manga!L and anime!L are definitely different, largely thanks to that added scene in episode 25.

Most of the first half of the anime covers the manga very accurately and there are only little changes to L’s behaviour. I think what those changes all have in common is the attempt to make L... cuter? It’s not major, but I think it does change how the viewer perceives L’s “social awkwardness”. I don’t have evidence for this, but I imagine an anime-only viewer is overall more likely to view it as genuine cluelessness rather than disregard.

And this of course ties back into the rain scene in episode 25 where we see L experience some genuine grief and sorrow - and more importantly, acceptance of his death. In the manga, L never thinks he has lost until he literally hits the floor dying. Until the end, he is doing his thing, investigation. Anime!L for some reason knows he’s going to die and just... makes his peace with it? 

Likely enough this is because anime!L actually has a negative view of himself. It comes up in the rain scene when he states that all he says is nonsense that shouldn’t be taken seriously and it is further elaborated on in the Monster Speech from the Relight OVA. While that OVA is non-canon, I do think this particular speech gives us an impression of what kind of psychology for L the anime-writers had in mind when they made episode 25.

The anime version of L sees himself as a monster posing as a human - he is resentful of himself for being incapable of building real connections and he sees himself in Light.  The monster speech ends like this:

If I were to encounter such a monster, I would likely be eaten by it, because in truth, I am that monster.

And contextualizes why anime!L accepts his death - all along, he’d thought that if he met his equal he’d wind up destroyed by his own sin reflected in another.

Absolutely none of this applies to manga!L.

Though manga!L is also aware that he is a bad person, he just truly could not care less. Manga!L is certain of himself to the fullest - he lives for himself, for his own entertainment, and he’s perfectly fine doing so. 

Manga!L is, simply speaking, that bitch.

He’s rich, he’s confident, he puts himself first, he does what he wants, he disregards social rules because they do not please him, he’s just... honestly, we could all stand to be a bit more like that? A bit, at least.

I like him a LOT more than his anime counterpart.

[satorusluver]

Never gonna understand the Wammy defenders with their "oh Wammy's House wasn't that bad for the successors, they said they expected the first successor attempt would fail anywa-" THEY DROVE A KID TO SUICIDE FROM THE PRESSURE. And the second kid became a serial killer and THEN tried to commit suicide! They put baby L in a padded room! None of the successors we know of after that came out mentally okay either. WTF.

Anyway I'm the number one Wammy's House hater, FUCK that place.

[satorusluver]

If Beyond (1st gen successor) ran away from Wammy's House in 2002 and Mello (4th gen successor) ran away in 2004, that means they went through two more generations of potential L successors in two years or less. Wtf was going on at that place?? Were kids just backing out because of the pressure? How quickly were they determining who was successor material and how quickly did they change their minds? And how involved was L in all this, given that he never even met Beyond and only spoke to Mello a few times?

[satorusluver]

i would LOVE to see a hands post, specifically for beyond but the others are always interesting too

My hc for Beyond's hand size goes along with the rest of my hcs about his appearance (tall and lanky, although that's also just canon). Tbh I might do like, a full character profile about his background/appearance because I have a specific vision of him lol.

[cyberskepticism]

he's my favourite can you tell

[satorusluver]

How unhinged of me would it be to make hand headcanons for the DN and JJK guys...

[sapphickocho]

having Beyond not be absolutely unhinged and off his rockers in a fic is like having pizza without the sauce

[roycohn]

there's an old anne rice interview circulating on twitter rn that i remember reading ages ago where she makes a pretty salient point about how submissive men who have bdsm fantasies etc will go to a sex worker and basically order the ala carte version of their fantasy to be performed in real life but women don't really have that same option and certainly not at the same point of availability so they read her horny books instead. and honestly that argument has been in the back of my mind every time people get on their high horses about the popularity of booktok romantasy novels or heated rivalry or whatever the "women are horny and we're upset about that" cultural property du jour is ever since. women, especially straight women, have so few outlets for their sexual desires, especially if they have a partner who doesn't share them, and i will never understand why "someone ELSE'S private sexual fantasy makes me uncomfortable and therefore they should not be allowed to engage with it, even if i am in no way being affected by it or even aware of it at all" is such a popular party line among allegedly progressive young people.

[satorusluver]

Guitarist Mello and drummer Matt x lead singer reader live rent free in my head.

[satorusluver]

I cannot stress enough how fucking tired I am of governments demanding our faces and/or IDs to access the Internet. I just started reading 1984 and already the "constantly being monitored by an anti-sex-for-any-reason-other-than-procreation government" thing is hitting too close to home.

[satorusluver]

No idea if it'll actually make a difference in my content getting flagged but I'm gonna start censoring n*fw due to the whole age verification thing.

[bottom-growth]

1. villainize pornography as the cause of all society’s ills and a threat to children

2. expand the definition of pornography as widely as possible to include your political enemies.

3. ban “pornographic” content. punish and villainize “pornographers”. enforce this with an opaque, automated system that makes it impossible to appeal. creators lose momentum on the platform, and decide posting is no longer a viable use of their time.

4. collect, consolidate, and sell data on all users consuming “pornographic” content. promise that this won’t be used to harm consumers. let people “voluntarily” choose to stop using the site.

5. successfully ban and censor content about sex education, LGBT people, and feminism for “child safety”. everyone who benefits from this content will suffer in darkness, but the gambling and AI porn ads flow freely 👍 <- YOU ARE HERE

[satorusluver]

Anybody else get 70% done with a WIP only to have no idea how to finish it because you started on an inspired whim with no proper outline and thus wind up with a whole bunch of mostly-completely-but-not-quite-done WIPs or is it just me?