defining myself

[invisibleicewands]

Alan Rickman (21 February 1946 - 14 January 2016)

[scifi-gk]

I miss #AlanRickman. I wish I had gotten to see him on stage, live. By all accounts, he was magnetic and quite entrancing up there, no matter the scoundrels he played. I would also love to have an audiobook of his reading Sense and Sensibility. That would be a treasure now.

[scifi-gk]

Good morning. ☀️ https://www.instagram.com/p/Cc0ApEIL6M6/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[princeandcrow]

General wizarding world headcannon: There would definitely be pensiere bars where you pay to look at memories. Some would be smut/kink, some happy memories, or violence etc. Some people probs get addicted. I’m thinking opium den aesthetic.

[scifi-gk]

Wow. What a fantastic “what if.” I’m much less angst or dark leaning than an opium den aesthetic embraces but there are so many ways and levels a writer could explore with this idea, even someone who longs for a brighter ending.

[tale-xistime]

So I’d just like to say a few things.

The show is dead. We al know this. And poor Red is just, he’s not gonna survive this. So in thought of all that.

FUCK THIS SHITTY SHOW. SAY IT WITH ME NOW GUYS, FUCK THIS SHOW.

good. Now that we’ve all got that out of our system, I wanna say one more thing, one thing that I’ve been saying since this all went to AU hell.

THE BLACKLIST IS NOT MY CANON.

This is not the ending Liz deserves, and Red sure as hell does not deserve the hell that canon keeps putting him through. And I know with this news, that most people may drop out of the fandom.

But I urge you. Please please, don’t.

I will respect you if you do, and really all the more power to you.

But I want to stick it to these fucking writers. I am going to continue writing and blogging lizzington, because it’s my OTP. And they can’t take that away from me. I refuse to let them.

Lizzington is mine. Mine and yours.

We can’t give up because of these bastards. Red and Liz deserve better than what has been given to them in this specific AU, Bc that’s all canon is a hell-fic alternate universe, so I am going to give it to them.

I hope that you guys will stick with me in this. If you guys don’t stay I will understand, but just think of all the better worlds that we can put these characters in.

Grieve Liz. I sure as hell am. Grieve this show. I sure as hell am doing that too. But just remember as you go about this, that this doesn’t have to be the end. It shouldn’t be. I refuse to let it be. As a good friend on here once said Canon is just the sandbox you choose to play in. So let’s all go and make/play in a better sandbox. This doesn’t have to be it for our OTP. I don’t want to let things end and die this way. Just because some bastard writers are terrible at their jobs.

Red and Lizzie deserve better than half-ass plots and no consistency. So I plan on giving it to them. Now as cheesy as it sounds, who the hell is with me?

[meetmeatthecoda]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[scifi-gk]

@tale-xistime , you make valid points. Honestly, I have divorced myself from the show by inches since season 5. I felt that once they embraced the idea of Daddygate for as long as they did they put the characters in an untenable situation they couldn’t easily undo. If you think of someone as your FATHER for 2 years (the timing is iffy but it was for a long while they embraced that particular lie) you change how you interact with them, you change how you allow yourself to think of them.

Even these two f-ed up people. Resurrecting Lizzington after Liz accepted for so long that he was her father was, at best, disturbing. Even in fanfiction, I have not seen a well thought out, well written, not skeevy approach to untangle that mess that makes any psychological sense without it ooking me out.

But the show really put the gun to their own head, in my mind, when they had the audacity to ignore the hanging threads that they left (Liz’s second memory wipe, the absolute shift in her attitude towards Red from one episode in season 3 to the next, the ignoring of the fact Red never lied to Lizzy and the breadcrumb trail he’s been leaving since the pilot, etc) for our conspiracy theories and jumped off the bridge of audience-baiting instead of just skirting the edge like they had been doing with the one-two-punch of Keenler and **spitting** taking Redarina seriously.

For the first, I know many of my favorite fans on Twitter and Tumblr support Keenler and I don’t want to offend, but for me I never saw the foundation for it other than Diego and Megan were young and pretty together and their characters were alone and, maybe, lonely.

I loved them as partners and close friends. Ressler’s boyscout nature to hold the line and Liz’s ability to play in the grey areas and make the hard choices. THAT was an awesome partnership.

But for romance?

No. I could only see them hurting one another. Red could handle Liz’s nature of not being held by the rules but every time Liz walked on the dark side she would disappoint and hurt Ressler and, while that’s great drama for work partners to deal with, it’s not healthy for romantic partners.

It’s their characters, how they’re wired, that made them a bad match, imo.

And maybe the reading of the pilot script in which Ressler was originally older and disliked/distrusted Liz from the start played a part, too. Honestly, I like his character. He’s come a long way and held up under tremendous pressure with those plot curve balls he got to field. That pressure made him more of the man he was, not less. He stayed the line even when he strayed a little. Liz, on the other hand, went FAR afield. And that was great for their friendship because then he had support and lack of judgement when he pulled himself back. But as romance? No. I felt Liz was NOT a good and healthy match for him. She would wreck him, and at her leisure and without much thought about it, too. Red could take that and push back and remain as he was (he SOMEHOW got over her faking her own death, fcol), but Ressler…would eventually resent her. So for the Keenler angle, yeah, I could see them sleeping together in the heat of the moment - that is actually kind of canon for him - but not a true lasting romance.

And, I would have accepted the Keenler falling into bed angle if it was genuine, but it wasn’t. It was just sh*t-stirring by the creators/writers. I’m actually surprised that fans of his character weren’t more offended by this, by Liz using him like that and him letting her. If I were less focused on the core characters of the show (Liz and Red) and more about the tertiary characters, this would’ve pissed me off. But what was beyond the pale for me was the show jumping off into taking the second point seriously: Redarina.

This so-called theory gets me so angry and stirred up for so many valid and reasonable reasons that I’m not even going to get into it. It’s well rebuffed in many a Tumblr post. I will simply state that it’s ridiculous and wrong for so many reasons just like Daddygate was but far more objectionable. And every time Liz was baited by the writers by such things, I lost more and more respect for her character and her original abilities as a profiler, as well as my faith in the writers/creators of the show.

The bottom line is they took a strong, beautiful, brilliant, moral, compassionate character, who was light and life to Red and RUINED HER, all to toy with the audience/fandom. And, make no mistake, the writers/creators thought it was FUNNY to toy with the fans, to set them one against another over the most ridiculous ideas instead of doing their JOBS by writing clever and compelling characters and storylines that hid the truth in the scripts. It seems that once the fandom worked out FRed the writers decided they didn’t want to be clever anymore. No. I lost faith in them long before this ending.

Lizzington will always be real to me. But IF I were to remain in this fandom (lets be clear: writing Lizzington or doing art, NOT watching the show), most of season 5 and the whole of the rest of the series would have to be rewritten and would go AU. To me, that is almost an insurmountable amount of Fix-it. Which is sad. I miss the heyday of TBL, when we could discuss honest theories based on clever clues folded in by talented writers who respected the audience to be more than a mob. That said, I’ll still give a like to #Lizzington if it pops up on my dash. Why wouldn’t I when I’m such a sucker for #RarePairings, which, after all, is what Lizzington has turned out to be.

RIP TBL.

[scifi-gk]

@meetmeatthecoda I have always loved your tags, hon. 😍 She said:

I have not completely disappeared, my friend. But what was there to say? Ever since the show decided to make Liz a v̶i̶o̶l̶e̶n̶t̶, m̶u̶r̶d̶e̶r̶o̶u̶s̶ A̶l̶a̶s̶k̶a̶n̶ w̶h̶o̶ y̶a̶n̶k̶e̶d̶ h̶e̶r̶ d̶a̶u̶g̶h̶t̶e̶r̶ o̶u̶t̶ o̶f̶ t̶h̶e̶ l̶o̶v̶i̶n̶g̶ c̶a̶r̶e̶ o̶f̶ R̶e̶d̶ a̶n̶d̶ a̶b̶a̶n̶d̶o̶n̶e̶d̶ h̶e̶r̶ w̶i̶t̶h̶ a̶ l̶i̶a̶r̶ w̶h̶o̶ o̶n̶c̶e̶ t̶r̶i̶e̶d̶ t̶o̶ k̶i̶l̶l̶ h̶e̶r̶ b̶u̶t̶ w̶a̶s̶ t̶i̶m̶t̶i̶m̶’s̶ m̶u̶m̶m̶y̶ t̶o̶ f̶e̶e̶d̶ b̶r̶o̶k̶e̶n̶ g̶l̶a̶s̶s̶ t̶o̶ b̶a̶d̶ m̶e̶n̶ a̶n̶d̶ b̶u̶r̶n̶ t̶h̶e̶m̶ a̶l̶i̶v̶e̶ “strong woman, able to match wits with Reddington” there really hasn’t been much crafting of a story with depth to discuss. I mean, the show chose to go with “shock and awe” (from Wikipedia: “Shock and awe (technically known as rapid dominance) is a tactic based on the use of overwhelming power and spectacular displays of force to paralyze the enemy's perception of the battlefield and destroy their will to fight.”) and, boy howdy, did they destroy my will to fight. But I’ve still been around in the fandom…skimming #Lizzington posts and watching a whole lot of people get cheesed off and, many even, behaving badly because of it. I tried to keep my head down on the battle field and offer a sip of kindness where I thought it was safe. I think I’ll always do that because, like it or not, Lizzington started out as canon and there’s no retconning me. I love ya still, @meetmeatthecoda . 🥰

[alyblacklist]

From Jon Bokenkamp on Twitter.

WOW.

[scifi-gk]

I’m not actually surprised by this.

[tale-xistime]

So I’d just like to say a few things.

The show is dead. We al know this. And poor Red is just, he’s not gonna survive this. So in thought of all that.

FUCK THIS SHITTY SHOW. SAY IT WITH ME NOW GUYS, FUCK THIS SHOW.

good. Now that we’ve all got that out of our system, I wanna say one more thing, one thing that I’ve been saying since this all went to AU hell.

THE BLACKLIST IS NOT MY CANON.

This is not the ending Liz deserves, and Red sure as hell does not deserve the hell that canon keeps putting him through. And I know with this news, that most people may drop out of the fandom.

But I urge you. Please please, don’t.

I will respect you if you do, and really all the more power to you.

But I want to stick it to these fucking writers. I am going to continue writing and blogging lizzington, because it’s my OTP. And they can’t take that away from me. I refuse to let them.

Lizzington is mine. Mine and yours.

We can’t give up because of these bastards. Red and Liz deserve better than what has been given to them in this specific AU, Bc that’s all canon is a hell-fic alternate universe, so I am going to give it to them.

I hope that you guys will stick with me in this. If you guys don’t stay I will understand, but just think of all the better worlds that we can put these characters in.

Grieve Liz. I sure as hell am. Grieve this show. I sure as hell am doing that too. But just remember as you go about this, that this doesn’t have to be the end. It shouldn’t be. I refuse to let it be. As a good friend on here once said Canon is just the sandbox you choose to play in. So let’s all go and make/play in a better sandbox. This doesn’t have to be it for our OTP. I don’t want to let things end and die this way. Just because some bastard writers are terrible at their jobs.

Red and Lizzie deserve better than half-ass plots and no consistency. So I plan on giving it to them. Now as cheesy as it sounds, who the hell is with me?

[meetmeatthecoda]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[scifi-gk]

@tale-xistime , you make valid points. Honestly, I have divorced myself from the show by inches since season 5. I felt that once they embraced the idea of Daddygate for as long as they did they put the characters in an untenable situation they couldn’t easily undo. If you think of someone as your FATHER for 2 years (the timing is iffy but it was for a long while they embraced that particular lie) you change how you interact with them, you change how you allow yourself to think of them.

Even these two f-ed up people. Resurrecting Lizzington after Liz accepted for so long that he was her father was, at best, disturbing. Even in fanfiction, I have not seen a well thought out, well written, not skeevy approach to untangle that mess that makes any psychological sense without it ooking me out.

But the show really put the gun to their own head, in my mind, when they had the audacity to ignore the hanging threads that they left (Liz’s second memory wipe, the absolute shift in her attitude towards Red from one episode in season 3 to the next, the ignoring of the fact Red never lied to Lizzy and the breadcrumb trail he’s been leaving since the pilot, etc) for our conspiracy theories and jumped off the bridge of audience-baiting instead of just skirting the edge like they had been doing with the one-two-punch of Keenler and **spitting** taking Redarina seriously.

For the first, I know many of my favorite fans on Twitter and Tumblr support Keenler and I don’t want to offend, but for me I never saw the foundation for it other than Diego and Megan were young and pretty together and their characters were alone and, maybe, lonely.

I loved them as partners and close friends. Ressler’s boyscout nature to hold the line and Liz’s ability to play in the grey areas and make the hard choices. THAT was an awesome partnership.

But for romance?

No. I could only see them hurting one another. Red could handle Liz’s nature of not being held by the rules but every time Liz walked on the dark side she would disappoint and hurt Ressler and, while that’s great drama for work partners to deal with, it’s not healthy for romantic partners.

It’s their characters, how they’re wired, that made them a bad match, imo.

And maybe the reading of the pilot script in which Ressler was originally older and disliked/distrusted Liz from the start played a part, too. Honestly, I like his character. He’s come a long way and held up under tremendous pressure with those plot curve balls he got to field. That pressure made him more of the man he was, not less. He stayed the line even when he strayed a little. Liz, on the other hand, went FAR afield. And that was great for their friendship because then he had support and lack of judgement when he pulled himself back. But as romance? No. I felt Liz was NOT a good and healthy match for him. She would wreck him, and at her leisure and without much thought about it, too. Red could take that and push back and remain as he was (he SOMEHOW got over her faking her own death, fcol), but Ressler…would eventually resent her. So for the Keenler angle, yeah, I could see them sleeping together in the heat of the moment - that is actually kind of canon for him - but not a true lasting romance.

And, I would have accepted the Keenler falling into bed angle if it was genuine, but it wasn’t. It was just sh*t-stirring by the creators/writers. I’m actually surprised that fans of his character weren’t more offended by this, by Liz using him like that and him letting her. If I were less focused on the core characters of the show (Liz and Red) and more about the tertiary characters, this would’ve pissed me off. But what was beyond the pale for me was the show jumping off into taking the second point seriously: Redarina.

This so-called theory gets me so angry and stirred up for so many valid and reasonable reasons that I’m not even going to get into it. It’s well rebuffed in many a Tumblr post. I will simply state that it’s ridiculous and wrong for so many reasons just like Daddygate was but far more objectionable. And every time Liz was baited by the writers by such things, I lost more and more respect for her character and her original abilities as a profiler, as well as my faith in the writers/creators of the show.

The bottom line is they took a strong, beautiful, brilliant, moral, compassionate character, who was light and life to Red and RUINED HER, all to toy with the audience/fandom. And, make no mistake, the writers/creators thought it was FUNNY to toy with the fans, to set them one against another over the most ridiculous ideas instead of doing their JOBS by writing clever and compelling characters and storylines that hid the truth in the scripts. It seems that once the fandom worked out FRed the writers decided they didn’t want to be clever anymore. No. I lost faith in them long before this ending.

Lizzington will always be real to me. But IF I were to remain in this fandom (lets be clear: writing Lizzington or doing art, NOT watching the show), most of season 5 and the whole of the rest of the series would have to be rewritten and would go AU. To me, that is almost an insurmountable amount of Fix-it. Which is sad. I miss the heyday of TBL, when we could discuss honest theories based on clever clues folded in by talented writers who respected the audience to be more than a mob. That said, I’ll still give a like to #Lizzington if it pops up on my dash. Why wouldn’t I when I’m such a sucker for #RarePairings, which, after all, is what Lizzington has turned out to be.

RIP TBL.

[why-is-it-always-autumn]

You know what I don’t get?  When fanfic authors apologize for long chapters.  It’s like?  You gave me bonus content, for free, and you’re sorry about it?  Bruh.  I have already named my firstborn after you.  Dude.

[why-is-it-always-autumn]

You know what else I don’t get?  When they apologize for short updates.  It’s like: look at these new words I gave you!  Sorry I didn’t give you even more free words.  Bro, that’s at least two words that I did not have yesterday.  For free.  Dude.  Thank you.

[why-is-it-always-autumn]

And another thing: when people drop out of nowhere with a surprise update and then apologize for it taking a while.  Like, dude, I wasn’t expecting anything, and you gave me words.  I thought this fic was abandoned, but wait: there’s more.  You just popped in and reminded me that this is a Good Fic that I should probably reread.  You made my goshdarn day.

[why-is-it-always-autumn]

Basically fanfic writers are under no obligation to publish anything so when they do update it’s always a net positive because the story is longer now, and I have something to read, so thank you so much to everyone who writes fic at whatever pace or quantity they want.

[darthlivion]

me, at anyone ever:

[scifi-gk]

Have you ever had a fanfic make you literally sick to your stomach because it was rec’d as romance by half a dozen different people but should’ve actually been labeled #DeadDoveDoNotEat? I’m all for constructive criticism but no matter what I say it’s not gonna make this one better (it actually makes me raging angry in so many different ways I totally feel the “I can’t even!” crawling up my throat right now). I’m torn about bookmarking it (on AO3) just so I know to AVOID it should it once again be rec’d to me (and I lose my marbles and crack it open again in desperation for SOMETHING to read based on my rare-pair). I’m not looking to throw shade but there should be some kind of warning.

[moneypowxrglory-deactivated2022]

Elizabeth Keen deserves better

Elizabeth has been the flip-floppiest character on The Blacklist and I resent the writers for it. She goes from not caring about who Red really is (“I don’t care for who you were I care for who you are and that’s the only thing that matters”) to trying to convince him that such is among the questions to which she “deserves answers.”

I feel that the writers are doing her an incredible disservice. We’ve seen the potential Red and Liz have together in the early seasons, especially 3A. They WORK on-screen as a team. They have the most chemistry out of anyone on the show. They seriously BELONG together. Given this, I am confused as to why the writers insist on piting them against one another every fifteen seconds. Where is the fun in that? Sure, maybe it was a half decent idea when Tom was still around. However, at this point it’s honestly quite annoying and it’s making fans hate Elizabeth when she deserves so much better. Again, fans know how good they are together, even those who aren’t Lizzington shippers.

The Blacklist seriously needs to go back to its roots. STOP piting Red and Elizabeth against each other. They’re a (married) team. They work sooooo well together. Please stop depriving the show and its viewers of this incredible dynamic!Both them and the fans deserve better. Stop trying to convince me that Elizabeth hates Red twenty seconds after her admitting to him that she loves him.

Sorry for the rant, just needed a quick vent! feel free to chime in with your thoughts/opinions on this xx

[scifi-gk]

I really miss Alan Rickman.

[tonydaily]

It’s like calisthenics. You might have missed a couple things, you know, doing time as a Capsicle.

[wolfhuntsmoon]

WAIT. 

HOLD UP. My history senses were a tingling reading this, and I did some fact checking. Turns out… 

Joseph Pilates was a German who immigrated to NEW FUCKING YORK CITY in 1926 to start teaching his Pilates method (originally called “Contrology”) there, promising it would help rehabilitate wounded soldiers returning from WWI, AND those with disabilities/chronic illnesses (as he himself had suffered from several as a child, the inspiration for the method’s conception). He published several best selling pamphlets in the 20s and 30s, and had a star studded clientele in the 30s which included some of the best and most famous boxers, then dancers, of the day.

Steve Rogers… had a nurse for a mum. 

Steve Rogers… lived in New York, knew its stars and culture well.

Steve Rogers… had multiple disabilities/chronic illnesses from a young age. 

If anyone WOULD know about Pilates and actively PURSUE Contrology (as it was called back then by Pilates himself until the 50s/60s, but Steve would know Pilates as the FAMOUS INVENTOR GYMNAST DUDE, the ONLY one at that point doing this activity, which does open up new dimensions to the joke as Steve hearing Tony ask if *your thing* was Pilates the dude himself, hur-de-hur-de-hur SUCH GAYNESS) as an activity, it would be HIM and he’d probably know about it from the source himself, or at least hearing from Joseph’s other patients, OH MY GOD this scene is just Steve reaching a whole new level of EPIC TROLLING I CAN’T BREATHE. And Tony is standing there all smug, thinking he’s been So Clever to get one over the old fossil, haha Rogers suck my iron dick WHEN REALLY Steve has just Had Enough of this Modern Bullshit Thank You Kindly and is now reacting to e v e r y t h i n g with total wide eyed incomprehension and blue eyed innocence. 

This might be one of the best jokes Marvel has ever pulled off, holy shit, because I guarantee you, EVERYONE LAUGHED in the cinema hearing it, but for COMPLETELY THE WRONG REASONS ASGKHJDGKJAJKHFKL  

Okay, I think I’m done now. *heavy breathing*

@silentwalrus1 @galwednesday I feel this is something you guys would appreciate given your characterisations of Steve in your fics (which I adore btw, thank you so much for sharing it!)

[scifi-gk]

It’s your right. Use it. #Vote https://www.instagram.com/p/CHBkg6EANBI/?igshid=vkblk6ttet3e

[theodoredimas]

I have so many well researched unwritten stories.

[randomslasher]

No matter what a post on tumblr tries to tell you, your moral and ethical stances will never be determined by what you reblog and what you scroll past. Don’t let manipulation tactics force you into doing anything you don’t want to do.

[randomslasher]

I find it very interesting to note the times in which this post has a sudden resurgence. It often follows very stressful, upsetting events, where a lot of “REBLOG THIS OR YOU SUCK” posts start appearing on this site. 

So I’ll say it again: it is okay if you come to tumblr to escape upsetting news. It is okay if you’re just here for fun and fandom. It is okay if you do not want to use your tumblr as a place to read about or spread the current events that are circulating. It is okay if you need a place to decompress and just relax. There are other ways to be involved in/support causes and you are allowed to set boundaries on social media platforms without it being indicative of your belief systems. 

Your beliefs, values, ethics, and moral stances are not determined by whether or not you reblog something. 

[scifi-gk]

Me and DH catching up with the first new episode of #AgentsOfShield

Daisy: Malik?

Coulson: In order to save SHIELD we have to save Hydra.

Me (to DH): [blink] Wait. What? That’s flawed logic. What happened to the fact that Hydra was here on Earth since the experiment the blue guys ran off-book waaaaay back in our ancient history?

DH: [blank look]

Me: Come on. The guy with the weird snake hair who got all up in Daisy’s brain and broke her a couple years ago? Took over Ward’s body? Stranded on an alien planet? Any of this ringing a bell?

DH: [blink]

Me: [still ranting] It doesn’t make any sense to think that WW2 Hydra was the only head. They’re a freaking cult that has been around for a thousand years. You think this one kid is going to end them, fcol?!

DH: Maybe they were writing the episode with guys like me in mind...you know, people who completely forgot about that part of the canon?

Me: [muttering] It feels like a lot of shows lately write for guys like you.

🤨

[jotonomy]

do you ever have periods where your entire soul is like i cannot take on new narratives. i keep thinking there are all these shows i would totally be up for watching but i just cannot take on a whole narrative right now with new characters and new worlds and…

[jotonomy]

Can this post make it to 10,000

[milkshakemicrowave]

“the emotional climate must be right” is something I have been saying for yeeeaaarrrs regarding when I may or may not start a new show or a rewatch!