🦎june days of productivity | wrapup, 7/2/26🦎
well. it's July now. wow.
Everything definitely did not all get done from my initial goals list - which is a bit frustrating because I really tried not to be overly ambitious when writing it. Many productive things were done in the past month and that is a kind of victory, but some big and very-important-to-me ones were not. I'm unsure how to find the balance between self-compassion and accountability here… Work ended up taking a lot out of me, plus family responsibilities and some unexpected problems (the last few days of June, in particular, felt like one thing after another; this is my third time starting to write this post because new happenings interrupted).
The biggest goal for the month was progress on grad school applications, and those are… not much further along than where they started. I'm honestly feeling rather bad about that right now, and just… somewhat depressed in general. But that's mostly because I'm emotionally exhausted (and slightly sleep-deprived again) from the aforementioned Happenings; it will pass. There's nothing to do but keep trying in July.
I did start the new job (having big and kinda mixed feelings about how it's going, but hey, it's a job!). Reading did not happen every day (total: 22/30), but did increase from the amount I was doing previously, which I'm choosing to count as a win. Tutoring was the highlight of my month, I think, and the part that feels the most like true progress (definitely still learning and making plenty of mistakes, but I think I love doing this).
I did find the weekly posting challenge helpful. The regular updates sort of forced putting things into the perspective of my overarching goals (which at least means more awareness of when I'm getting bogged down in daily struggles), and I think also encouraged me to frame stuff more optimistically (because if I'm going to be putting thoughts out onto the open internet, it feels like there's a certain responsibility to not fill that content with negativity or an unhealthy mindset). Most significantly, although I wasn't a super active poster, the sense of community has been very comforting and grounding; not many people I currently interact with irl have academic interests, so connecting with others who do makes this all feel more possible. Much gratitude to @studywiththevampire and everyone who's been involved <3 <3 <3
I'm planning to take the weekend to reevaluate and plan, then hopefully start the first entirely-July week fresh. Not making a decision yet on whether to try posting again or keep this next stage private, but the experiment was definitely beneficial!
details from the final week + two days, for the sake of completeness:
grad school applications:
at least thought about SOPs and scribbled down a couple thoughts
skimmed some interesting papers
tutoring last week was more complicated but i enjoyed our discussion immensely!!
continued working at job (231 phone calls in one shift on Monday… i'm so grateful to have employment at all right now, and aspects of the work [public health surveys] are indeed interesting and important, but goodness gracious can it be tedious and draining…)
had another stinking interview (got my hopes up enough for the rejection to hurt but oh well)
parents were traveling so Sibling and i were in charge of dogs, one of whom has complex medical needs
returned library book (which somehow wasn't actually late?? think they gave me a bonus renewal because the library systems were undergoing an upgrade)
📖: The Mabinogion (Sioned Davies’ translation), The Return of the King by J.R.R. Tolkien
🎵: A Symptom of Being Human by Shinedown, Manaka Matsumoto's violin version of Mozart's Rondo alla Turca