Its 1:42 in the morning and I finally have stopped to sit down and re evaluate my life choices. Let's review. I woke up this morning with a pretty bad headache, I could have gotten up and started the day but knowing I would eventually crash I decided to wait and ask my fiancee for advil. We didn't have any so she went to the store and I went back to sleep. Now I have a two tier, half sheet, and smash cake to get done today for some clients of my cake business but I was sure I would have time and tried to relax. Eventually she got back with not only advil but chocolate pretzels. She loves me so. Anyway I took some and crashed again until I was woken up around noon to her saying mom brought lunch come eat. Headache gone I got up and after food started gathering what I needed to get started and writing my shop I ing list out. I SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS YESTERDAY. to be fair I should have baked all the cake yesterday and only decorated today. But I digress. I left the house only after my mother called to say she needs cupcakes for a party I need to attend later in the day and my boss asking if I can come in š. I Finally get all my stuff and make it back to the house to make the poor life decisions to 1 make my moms cupcakes first and 2 worry more about my hair and make up for this "party" (was a total stupid bust) than getting my customers orders done. Well I get the cupcakes done and leave at 5:30 only to think I'm going to be gone an hour and not be home until 8:30 where the loves of my life are waiting on me. I have a fuck ton of stuff to do and after I get some progress done baking all the layers to my 2 tier I decided to take a break and love on them. Back at it I ice the 2 tier and begin what was supose to be adding marshmallow spider webs..... I bought marshmallow fluff on accident and it was a disaster that I just kept on doing.. I even started using melted white chocolate to "save" it and yea it looks like a frat house jizzed on my cake. Im devastated.... I'm tired... and I still have 2 more cakes to do. There's a lot that I could have done differently today that would have prevented the all nighter im about to have to pull to make sure the people counting on me get what they need. But since I literally can't change anything I did im going to sit in my chair and rest a bit then get up and haul ass getting my shit done. I may be severely depressed and very bad at procrastinating but I cant just quit on my dreams. Anyway dumb rant over enjoy my jiz cake.
