trash punk

Hey there! I make comics about my struggles with mental health issues (BPD, depresion, anxiety, etc.) Thank you for checking out my work!

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your art style+quality skyrocketed in just 2 years! that's amazing, I love to see that even if you've been gone from tumblr for awhile, you never stopped making art, that's also something to really admire. I've read your post about your anxiety about coming back, so you shouldn't force yourself to create a certain type of art. Always take care of yourself first.

wow this is so kind thank you so much!! :') it's been a long time since I revisited this style and I wanted to put extra time & care into creating these comics <3 I really appreciate your support despite my inconsistency. I hope you have a lovely day!

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shoelaces #61

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shoelaces #60 - conditional love

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Long time no see

hi :) hope you’re doing well!

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Are you ok? Please post saying you are still here

I’m still here! you’re a dear to have worried about me, I’ve just needed space away from this blog. I am at a place again now where I want to return to doing art so hopefully you’ll be seeing more of me in the future <3

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“it’s all.. still here?”

after almost 2 years of hiatus, I wasn’t sure if I could ever return to this blog. if there’d be anything to return to. as much as I love art and the freedom that these comics gave me to express my feelings, coming back felt like a defeat. I wanted to believe that I was better, that I didn’t still deal with the problems I wrote about. I needed time to step away, figure out some things myself, get therapy, and most importantly - grow. I didn’t want to admit that I’m still mentally ill & that as much as I’ve changed, there’s still a lot of room for improvement. and that I had returned to my old habit of bottling everything up inside. through quarantine and starting a new job, I was finding less and less time to draw at all. but I realize that life is way to short to do anything that doesn’t make me happy. I don’t want to waste even more time neglecting what I’m passionate about. and I think it’s important to give myself the space to explore my feelings through my art again.. 

there’s been an incredible amount of renewed interest in this comic, a sudden outpouring of notes and messages of support. I can’t say thank you enough to those who have cared enough to reach out. it’s amazing how much of a community formed around this blog, even without me here. I’ve been able to connect with so many lovely people and I’m touched that my words can reach others who are struggling. 

I want to apologize for my absence, but I’m eager to be back. I hope we can find growth and happiness together. thank you all. 

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to those of you who are also mentally ill going through this crisis: take care of yourselves. we will be okay. the world is a terrifying place right now but it often takes a major setback in order for society to take the necessary steps forward. this may take months to resolve but we will survive. take each day as it comes and remember that things will be okay again. be kind to yourselves, protect your health, and know that we are all in this together.

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haha i’ve wasted so much time

now it’s too late too late too late

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The future doesnt frighten me too much, its that everything will change and Ill be the same. That is what spooks the heck out of me. Im good at changing but only in bad circumstances :/

i totally get what you’re saying, life is constantly changing & it is so so hard to adapt to it. but the thing about people is that we often grow and change in ways we can’t rly see at first. it’s slow and can be difficult but you are capable of shifting your mindset or your routine in small ways to help ease urself into a new situation. i’ve felt so far behind everyone else around me for a long time now but the good thing is that i’m aware of it. there’s things i know i probably can’t change about myself but i also have areas i can work on & improve. there’s no pressure to change but u also should allow urself the opportunity to grow. it’s ok to take things at ur own pace. change is so fricking scary but i’ve found that most of the time it’s for the better and leads u to many more opportunities and friendships and happiness. things will be different in the future but it doesn’t mean that they will be bad & it doesn’t mean u will be left behind.

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Its not much of a Ghost Story but im like 90% sure theres ghosts in my house in very specific spots and one keeps tripping me over when I leave the bathroom.

ok dang that’s weird!!! i have lil things like that happen to me all the time at my parents house, like sometimes i hear my name being whispered randomly??? it’s usually stuff that’s super small but still spooky & not easily explainable?? just mini hauntings like the ghosts are just messin with ya lil bit. be careful tho dude even if ur just tripping don’t hit ur head or anything!!!

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There's this person in my bio class, who's pretty chill and funny, and I've been talking to him for a month or two since we play the same sport. And it's really funny everytime we interact because he's like,,, 6'4" and I'm legit 5'3", so I'm always looking up at him. And it's the most terrifying feeling ever, but whenever I look at him or talk to him and he smiles, my entire body does the anxiety jump but in a good way, and I don't think he likes me back, but I hope he stays for a while.

this is SO CUTE omg i hope that whatever ends up happening with u guys that he continues to make u rly happy!!!! <3

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instead of "Ask me", I want you to tell me your story

Tell me about:

Why you’re single

How’s your relationship going?

What do you dream about at night?

What are you afraid of?

What’s your favorite song?

Tell me about the book you’re reading

A poem or song lyric that won’t leave your head

Tell me about your secret crush

Where would you go if money wasn’t an issue

What’s your deepest wish

Do you believe in magic?

Tell me a ghost story

What’s the weirdest thing that has happened to you?

What do you need to get off your chest?

What are you mad about?

What are you excited about?

Are you afraid for the future?

Fill my Ask Box

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inktober day 4 // freeze ((someone requested i draw my oc eating a huge ice cream sundae so it was perfect for this prompt lol))

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Hows my fave doing? (Thats you)

ahdksjdksj u are so cute omg ;v; i’m doing ok!!!! school has been rly brutal so far this semester & im exhausted always but i’ve been trying to make time for drawing again & it’s been helping a lot

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inktober day 3 // bait

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inktober day 2 // mindless

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inktober day 1 // ring

(im a week late but here it is yall!!!! inktober 2019 here we go)