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if i wanted to be a true art theory student i would say this was my journal intime film on tumblr, in an indie surrealist way into the minds, accordingly to the website's myth, in the era of social media. But idk i just use this as a dump for cool and random interests stuff or things. also sort of essay textposts

[shunflowercat]

But I thought, of the wren's singing, what could this be if it isn't a prayer ?

So I just listened, my pen in the air

- mary oliver, I happened to be standing.

[ooh-la-literati]

I was gonna say this last week, but I kind of feel like Lexi as a character improperly feeds into a fanbase who relates to her. Because it's not that Lexi doesn't get disrespected by her friends (she does and i understand her); it's that some people who watch her think she can do no wrong. It's the 'pat on the back' that "she's got it all together", but coupled with excuses when she can't even correctly convey 'big businesswoman rules' like she should be able to. Apparently, "Jules is old enough to know not to display nudity" (but Lexi should be "old enough" to direct clear, decisive rules to an inexperienced art student and take responsibility when delegating tasks, like a grown adult with the assigned duty she's been given to do). Lexi thinks "Christians are judgmental," but she wrote a play judging her close peers. She's often viewed as superior while the rest of "the girls are immoral for their choices," [but she was fine falling for a Christian drug dealer to kids (love Fez; this has nothing to do with him)]. "Jules is judgmental of virgins" [not what she said at all] (but it's fine if Lexi is judgmental of having sex and simplifies/stigmatizes transmissions of herpes). Little Miss "let me do a play for self-expression but I promise, it's out of good intention" gets defended vs Jules doing an artistic piece where she's called "selfish" for being too focussed on self-expression. Do you guys not understand that Lexi's just as screwed up as the rest of them and the biggest hypocrite? Lexi's just as damaged, you guys. And her actions aren't inexcusable just because she's been hurt, like every other Euphoria character. Lexi is just so judgmental, while faking that she's got it all together, it feeds into the ideology that she's "better" when she doesn't even deal with her own things. Everyone else gets turned into caricatures as Lexi gets to be the perfect, mature sweet baby angel in viewers' eyes.

[shunflowercat]

I got a nap to have but getting this in my reblog feed cause i gotta formulate some things. I like lexi but always been baffled most people's reaction to the play in season were...in favor of lexi ? Like bro. She made a play out of people she knew and loved's trauma and sexual lives and mental illnesses. As crappy as cassie is I, too, would have stormed on stage and made a scandal or yelled at my sister if she had made a play staging my hypersexuality and trauma in the face of everyone I know, that's some special kind of disrespect. I haven't seen s03 and don't plan to but I see where you're going and I agree. Lexi's the one character the audience can relate to the most, watching from afar and safely these teenagers now adults doing fucked up shit and feeling bad, so I think that's why there's a "she can do no wrong" effect around her. But there's also this puritanism that links with the way the united states are going these days and euphoria seems to have taken this direction too. Also the thing with jules painting ? Apart from transphobia I don't get what makes people hate jules that much for this one this lmao, jules did other shitty thing but the hate around the painting is ?? I like that you put the play and the painting in perspective, it speaks a lot.

[ieatratsyummy]

They could never make me hate you, complex female character whose reaction to trauma was not pretty and digestible like how people think it should be.

[tooquirkytolose]

Actually I love the two throuples in Sense8 because one is Kala in love with her husband Rajan but also kinda cheating on him emotionally (and then sexually) with her boyfriend Wolfgang that she's mentally linked with and then when Rajan finally meets his wife's boyfriend his reaction is

And then Lito,Hernando and Dani doing this

[manofmoth]

dan howell who ran away from his hometown the second he could and never looked back. dan howell who had a crush on a boy from the internet and moved himself in on the premise of needing to do laundry. dan howell who grappled with his sexuality for years before it broke him. dan howell who was promised his creative dream be fulfilled only for youtube to shaft him at the last minute. dan howell who turned around and wrote You Will Get Through This Night and Doomed because he needed to make art in order to survive. dan howell who took the time he needed to save his own life and come back on his own terms. dan howell, raised christian, realized no god was going to save him so he decided he had to. dan howell who again and again clawed his way into the light. made his own life the way he wanted it to be. fought back. dan howell, staunch disbeliever in red-string theory and fate and heaven because he worked every day of his life to get where he is and absolutely fuck some mythical entity who wants to take credit for that.

[shunflowercat]

I like my men how i like my coffee : i'm addicted to trauma and anxiety please leave me alone.

[shunflowercat]

Monologue of a mother, D.H Lawrence, in Selected Poems.

[shunflowercat]

So there you go. I'm starting to like-like a girl. But the thing is well i was really trying to build a friendship with her. And i know we said at the start "so yeah we wanna build friendship" and all. So i've been really trying to stay on that side. But i've left the city for a month and we kept in touch and i hate that i was supposed to be single and discover myself and do my thing and not meet that much new people and also my future plans and stuff for studies and everything and i do not give that up ABSOLUTELY NOT but it also disturbs that a bit like its or would be an ajustment. I really didnt think i would feel that for someone that soon... i mean i know i actually have to talk to her about my feelings for her at some point. But i wish they could magically disappear and it will be full platonical. And again maybe they will because i do have trouble categorizing my feelings and maybe i just feel a deep tenderness and friendship towards her idk. But then she keeps saying these things like my good night texts made her smile and fall back asleep very nicely in the middle of the night and that she misses me and she said once that she imagined her plushie was me when i told her i would hug her when she was a bit sad and stuff and we also exchanged kisses on hands and very cute goodbies last time (but that could have been a friend thing, i do that with my close friends) but then it could just very well be a strong friendship right ? I mean i know from my part it could because i am a little bit in love with all my friends and i do tend to act very romantically towards them. but i also don't wanna lose her friendship cause i actually enjoy the person that she is and the time we spend together and i also want like the friendship to be the basis and center of every single one of my relationship by that point in life. And i dont think i will lose her friendship but it would shift something and im not sure i want to. Anyhow i'm scared a bit and it's back to tumblr being my emotional dumping point sometimes i guess whooopps

[hardnphast2009]

My favorite posts from #greeningoutfordnp from Twitter

Context: people on Twitter dyed everything green because dnp have been on a break and I thought Tumblr people should know

[shunflowercat]

Rare aesthetic : the Crous' college student rooms in France greening out for dnp

[specific90saesthetics]

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

Hashtags passed peer review, @glintglimmergleam

[shunflowercat]

I swear it pisses me off so hard today's social media critique because. WHY DO YOU THINK THAT IS HUH. Tik tok just came outta nowhere and it's the youth's biggest problem ?? Every single issue there is in social media, let it be addiction, attention span, insults, harrassment, sexualisation of women, fetichization, p*do, etc etc...are really just continuation of the world we live in. Social media aren't an issue. They are the modernism progress consecration of society's issues it didn't want to look in the face and hid under the rug. So now instead of attacking the real issues and trying to find answers to the problems we act like social media's the problem. Denial's so heavy smh.

(ALSO : and the good think like artsy stuff, music, information, etc etc... are looked down upon when people just have more access to it and it's less elitist. Oh so what now young people want to do more art and less badly paid useless work and can learn new things online? No shit. They figured out it was fucked and they have more access to the things they like now. Boohoo. So sad. #against industrialisation thought. But # for hobbies and living a soft life u like)

[lycanthrology]

[attempting to flirt] if i was stuck in a timeloop id desperately explain my situation to you every single reset

[arbitraryexistence]

Ever since reading my first time loop-based book as a preteen, I’ve had a Secret Time Loop Code Word. It’s been the same word all these years. I’ve never written it down anywhere or told anyone what it is, just kept it tucked away in my brain. That way, if someone I know ever confided in me that they were stuck in a time loop, I would have a way to confirm it: I would tell them the time loop code word and instruct them to find and talk to me again on the next loop. Of course, if it’s a time loop, I wouldn’t remember telling them the code word. But they’d remember it. So if someone ever came to me and said “I’m stuck in a time loop, and the time loop code word is [X],” and it was indeed the word I’ve secretly held onto for most of my life, I would know that we had had this conversation in a previous loop and that they were telling the truth.

Will this ever be useful? Almost certainly not. But hey, there’s nothing wrong with having a completely absurd contingency plan. In case of time loops.

[jackhawksmoor]

[moonfruito]

put aside the shipping discourse for a moment and lets talk about how the duffers portray the abused female body as spectacle in this show. that scene where kali was running through rooms and rooms of dying pregnant women? karen fighting through her grievous, near life-threatening injuries to be a mother? the treatment of el/jane's character? over and over this show makes victims of its female characters and makes it 'ok' by having them be strong and fight back. the constant dehumanisation of jane throughout the show and the denial of her autonomy by entrapping her in a relationship the moment that she escaped her prison and gained a scrap of freedom is not by chance. it is a consistent and concentrated effort to keep her in constant pain and clip her wings so that she can never heal and her wounds stay open, just so that we can sit back and entertain ourselves watching her try to fight for her freedom with her supernatural powers without ever giving her real narrative power. the whole operation of el's creation was built off of the exploitation and torture of vulnerable pregnant women by a power-hungry man, but the show never reckons with that legacy. the suffering and abuse of female bodies becomes backdrop, a prop aiding the dark tone and aesthetic of the show rather than a serious narrative theme that jane should be grappling with as a descendant of that legacy. instead, she becomes an continuation of it. her suffering is an extension of her mother's: a tortured woman being controlled and used by men around her in a bid for power, ultimately reduced to a plot device as the narrative succeeds over her.

[shunflowercat]

You could write a whole essay and you would be right🙏 thank you so much for articulating this in words

[sihain]

Having a queer character believe he won't find love and proving him right is not good writing.

Having a character grow up in solitary confinement and then ripping her away from the only family she's ever known to live a life of solitude once again is not good writing.

Having a character be in love with his best friend and then just compare it to a high school crush is not good writing.

Having Eleven say that Mike has always been the person who truly understood her after showing us in the previous seasons that he only sees her as a superhero IS NOT GOOD WRITING.

Having two girls be abused by a man with power for the majority of their lives only to leave them dead and alone as a direct consequence of the trauma they suffered IS VILE WRITING

[gayofthefae]

Using this post on everything forever this bullshit comes up so much 😭

[shunflowercat]

A thing or two about ST and how mainstream media doesn't understand itself (+ the power of fandom)

A thing that will always baffles me about mainstream media is how little creators (that are all about money and pleasing everyone without causing much waves) understand their own characters and world building. In no world i will believe in conformitygate because those people are not smart, they are not the exceptional writers we're making them out to be or what. The Duffers are two white men with success and money. Watch them recycle everything they put in ST into all their other projects because they are incapable of moving on, stepping out of their comfort zone, and create something new. Will was never gay because he's gay. Will's gay, gay in a small, convenient, silent and self accepting, gay white cis way and conforming, because it brings large audience and money. Queer couples will never get as much screen time, as much graphic kisses and sex scenes as do straight ones in mainstream media. 'S also why most of the time they'd rather forward self acceptance and coming out as representation than queer intimacy. Same shit with "badass" women and same shit with poc, their presence is more about looking good, to show you aren't bigoted as a creator and for quotas or something, then actually giving their characters depth and layers and a story that isn't an oppressive trope disguised as emancipation. I would have so much to say about that but yeah for another time. Anyhow.

About the plot holes. And the world building. And the characters.

The fandom notices. People notice. And I will say something oh i just know so many elitist in my movie and literature classes would hate but goddamm you fanfiction writers are so more talented than they ever could be. Because you see it. And you add depthness onto it. Because there is no money to come corrupt the yearn to create. Because you want to do justice to those characters and worlds. Because you itch to create.

Might be controversial but i've stopped watching/buying anything harry potter related in years except fanfictions. Because sometimes it's so far away from rowling's writing it feels like stealing from her. And that's alright for me. Steal the work they couldn't respect. Do justice to the characters and creations of works their creator couldn't do because of their own biggotry or lack of imagination or yearn for money. Steal from them, but do not give them a cent or clout.

And I just know. If you'd have the time and ressources, you could write original stories 10 times as better. Because if you are as much invested in making someone else's work more complete, add your piece to the edifice whether by respect or spite or both, analyse, think about, make wips, etc etc, then what could you do with your own ? Thought fan work is also enough if that's all you wanna do really i just meant to say it's incredible y'all go in very interesting directions and partake in the act of creation and have your own references and universes and way of writing it's so cool 🙏

To further how interpretation and reader/spectator's place in creation is meaningful, i suggest Umberto Eco.

Anyhow, keep creating and stop giving clout to rich people who couldn't give less of a shit about their characters and worldbuilding. Also watch sense8, they got cancelled, shat on by netflix and yet did a better epilogue finale in their 2 hours rushed last episode than ST who got 5 season and netflix full support and budget lmao. (And their storyline was ACTUALLY planned from the start. Sense8 and Wachowski supremacy, always. Will never get over it.)

[insomniac-arrest]

it’s all “accidental hand touch” this and “brief longing gaze” that, where’s my support at for “reaching up and fixing someone’s collar for them” crew??

the intimacy disguised as helpfulness! the lingering contact! the optional subdued “you look nice” as they stand too close!!

expand your pining vocabulary people

[homoqueerjewhobbit]

“let me show you how to tie your tie” masculine initiation subtext.

[literaryvein]

L. V., excerpts from the afterword: a haiku of sorts

[literaryvein]