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I just finished reading your long- very long comment and damn that was long; I feel bad for those that read my posts now. Lol.
Note to self: keep future posts short.
You said a lot of things. I was laughing my butt off through most of them- the shade and the Tacos? Gurl!
But- the bit about toxicity...
Do you mean to say I'm 'toxic' like the person you mentioned because I speculate on Jikook fights and break ups or what?👀
You lost me there for a sec.
I have a few of those 'you are toxic' blah blah blah sitting in my Asks and messages and I don't respond to them because none of them makes sense to me.
They all sound to me like an expression of pain than concerns. Why people can't express themselves without an emotional incentive beats me.
I was following your train of thought to see what the actual concerns about my posts were but your expressions took on a rather performative tone and I got lost again. Felt like you were putting on a show to solicit a bravo from spectators you only know of?
-with the attack on my personality, my sense of humor, calling me proud- or was it arrogant?
I was gonna joke about medals and giggle to myself but- Lol.
Seriously, is there an ongoing fight between you and I that I don't know of?
I really don't see anything wrong with drawing my attention to something I may be doing or may have done wrong if I'm doing so.
Clearly you've been around my blogs for a while but never said a word about anything to me up until now? It's confusing.
What stops you from reaching out, pointing out things you have issues with etc.
There are people that have reached out to me, dialogued with me and and hell, stay on my neck sometimes but it's always fun to have these little conversations.
1. The reason Jikook Antis exist.
This was in reference to comments I receive accusing me of inciting hatred towards Jikook because of the Jikook 'drama' I talk about in my blogs. Some claim Jikook antis exist because of me so no, I wasn't referring to persons who disagree with my opinions as Jikook Antis.
2. You are 100% sure I am not an introvert.
Thank you? My mama would be proud. I'm passing for an Extrovert, soon y'all won't know I'm an alien! Go me! Lmho
Also, I don't think any one is a hundred percent an introvert or extrovert? Introverts are introverted to a degree, as are extroverts. I think we all have a mixture of both in us inspite of what the text books say.
Introverts may exhibit extroverted tendencies sometimes and vice versa and no I am not talking about ambivertedness- an introvert may be shy one minute, brave and bold the next. (Censored? The label here is something I get called often. I reclaim it by making light of it now but was insensitive nevertheless. Sorry.)
I think the most frustrating thing as an introvert or even extrovert is when people assume you are a 100% either and so expect you to be that person to them all the time.
I yodeled one time at Church and now they won't stop trying to induct me into the choir- like I can't sing in public without crying. Why bother me?
Personally, I burn out when I dabble in my extrovertism for longer periods which leads me to often close up and recoil, shutting everything and everyone out.
I hate it when people put me in a box and label me as bipolar, or an introvert or extrovert or complain about my mood just because of the expectations and the disappointments that comes when I don't meet those expectations people have of me based on their perception of me as either an extrovert or introvert.
I would appreciate it if you limit your critiques of my work to my work and not attack my personality.
3. The comment I found Bizarre
I shade a lot in my posts- I'm shady like that. I know. I think those that have been exposed to my posts much longer have noticed that bit about me.
What some don't know however is I share a lot of inside Jokes and leave hidden messages to my best friend whom I've mentioned in some of my posts in the past.
She is the one that encouraged me to start this blog not to build an audience and shit, or try to convert souls for Jikook or fight any one's perception of them but as an outlet for me to express myself.
She's been on here much longer than I have- I don't do social media well because they burn me out with the whole you have to post consistently to keep your account going- the algorithm. Sigh.
And the numbers scare me too.
She said Tumblr was a better platform for me because there are no analytics and so I wouldn't know how many people see my posts. Said it would be like writing in my journal except I get to hear people's thoughts and opinions too-
Come to think of it, was she tired of hearing me go on and on about Jikook? This bitch! Lol
She said she was going to read my posts and so I hide these little messages for her in each post- the twilight references, all the references you mock. Bless you.
She got me into Jikook fan fiction. And she had me read an ABO for the first- which I liked surprisingly.
That ABO reference was for her. If she finds it she will take a screenshot and share it to me. It's how I know she reads my blogs.
I found it weird that that person would pick that up and write a whole dissertation about how that is wrong when it had nothing to do with anything.
5. Substantive Issue- Jikook
A lot of people have complained about the Jump cuts in some of my posts. I have to apologize for those.
Some posts are continuations of conversations I have in my inbox about Jikook. And so when I take the conversation to my wall it can trip people.
Y'all would have to get used to that I'm afraid. I post those when I'm going back and forth with more than two people on the same topic and so I just post my opinion publicly for everyone.
And when I recieve several Asks about Jikook on the same topic I just pick one Ask and discuss it all in there as a response.
It would be better if I had a group chat in such moments but Joining anything with more than two people terrify me and activates my social anxiety and stage fright. I'm fucked up, I know.
With regards to JK and his introvertedness I think I have shared my thoughts on that several times and so I said I agree with all the people who disagreed with my opinion based on that. They had valid points.
As I've said, It's not always that JK and JM Jikook. I mentioned in a post, how people seem to forget that when the cameras come on it is work for Jikook. They are not there to love on eachother two four seven. It's Bangtan Sonyeondan not Bangtan the love sick show.
Sometimes they will give us moments other times it's it's gonna be dry. But that don't mean there is something wrong with them- I have said this several times now. Are you sure you read my blogs? Damn.
What I found issues with is the person who said JK was having an 'episode' in that instance. I disagreed then. I disagree now.
JK would not be having an 'episode' while JM wouldn't do anything about it. That would contradict the narrative JM himself spins on their relationship.
I have mentioned, when I was discussing JK's love language, that one thing that sets Jikook apart from the other ships involving JK is how JM reads JK.
I used the Taekook VLive vs the Jikook new Jersey VLive as an example of moments where we see the difference between those two ship.
JK was nervous in both but only one of those two he is alleged to be intimate with sensed he was anxious and nervous and consciously tried to do something about it- JM knew exactly what to do in that instance.
And so while I agree with the assertion that JK could possibly be having one of those I hate mondays moments, I disagree with the whole he was having a manic episode narrative.
As much as that narrative tries to explain JK's mood in a logical way it also touches on his mental health which is a much heavier discussion to have publicly especially since it's within shipping context to be honest.
I don't mind the discussion, just saying it's equally problematic and of much dire consequences than speculating that two people had a fight or argument.
And talking of receipt- where is the proof JK was having an episode? Are y'all his psychologist? Did his doctor call y'all. And my personal favorite- y'all got that from a 5 mins video??
It is not my place to speculate on someone's mental health. In fact, I don't want to engage in that kind of conversation at all. Hits too close to home.
And I don't mean to hold the mirror to your face. I'm just saying we can question each other's opinions without the anger and attacks.
We can do that here. My DM's always opened for such discussions. No need to get bloody.
I don't know what I did to make some of you hate me so much but whatever I did, chileee here is an apple🍎🍏. Take two.
I don't think for people and I don't expect or want people to think for me. If you don't understand anything you can simply ask.
I am not here to convert any one to believe Jikook is real. I really don't care what others are out there saying about Jikook.
What I post about them is what I believe about them. They are my private thoughts and delusional truths.
How I say it shouldn't be any one's business. Freedom of expression and all that jazz.
What I believe about them is equally nobody's business. I have the right to believe whatever I want to believe.
Any critique that curtails these fundamental human rights I won't listen no matter the slurs that gets thrown with it.
You said something about being called out- had no ideo until you mentioned it. Called out for what please? What did I do? Elaborate.
The part about pride and hypocrisy was equally confusing- where did that come from? Feels like a one sided conversation to me. Not gonna lie.
I don't care for the hostility but I value sharing of knowledge and information. So tell me, what is the problem?
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