Blog By Singing Owl

Growing through the trials and triumphs. Advocating on Mental Health Awareness. Comorbid here. Amateur photography, my writings should be linked in…CPTSD WARRIOR. Arts, reblogs, it is what it is. ~Mama to an Angel 👼Girl, Mama to the best, Bonus Mama, Grandma, Wifey for Lifey~

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“I’m in pain because the day is ending and somehow l am never healing.”

— Anne Sexton, A Self-Portrait In Letters

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I just don’t wanna even speak. I just am so tired sometimes!

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I’ve seen complete dicks as psych drs and complete asses as psychotherapists.

They may have been more diagnosed than me. Not judging, just saying, make a change of need be.

•BOUNDARIES. Have your back, be your own advocate!•

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It’s so fucking heavy. I have to keep going. But it’s heavy. It’s heavier feeling alone. I have 1/2 a friend if that, and I don’t want or need to be a burden. Ha. Yay.

I’ll make it. It’s •HEAVYYYY•

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I’d like to think I can still do anything if I try hard enough.

They call me disabled. I’d like to think I’m still able.

Here’s to giving 41 more years of my best (and worst) trial and errors.

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I promise, I feel alone. I just don’t know many like me.

I isolate. It’s not healthy.

I don’t have all the answers or all the best tools.

I’m just trying adjust a hard time to have a better time.

It hurts. It hurts to feel alone.

If you feel alone, well…I guess we are just one in the same then really.

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TRIGGER WARNING :

This one is huge to me.

I haven’t checked my sober dates lately to let them roll over like flip phone cell minutes of yesteryear!

Approximate begin date of my sober day and year.

This is huge. I have struggled with this sh urge always and sui ideation (TW) just know I will not act on it and it is situational and not medicines and will and does pass sometimes the same day sometimes in a couple days, and sometimes a week.

It’s hard to feel broken down.

Look how far I made it.

It wasn’t for nothing.

My child shares their success on this with me and we keep an open dialogue and we celebrate that.

(That is handled beyond me I am not a professional I know the seriousness of this).

Plz celebrate all your successes and plz don’t judge me for when I was so self destructive.

Plz help me forgive me and let me show I bounced back.

Even when it’s been so hard to not hate myself.

When I lost everything, I did keep it together. I never thought I could. •I finally did•

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Thank you for hanging with me.

Here’s my opiate free non-struggle update. I just live in pain.

That is the struggle when I have it.

I have daily neck degeneration, daily herniated discs in back and etc with back.

I have chronic other pain in my body.

It’s how I gauge I am alive. Ha.

After being on morphine drip before, fentanyl, Roxycodone, Percocet, down to low grade like Tramadol…

I think I like me better without my mind and mood clouded by any pain med. I DO know Ppl MUST have them!

I don’t knock the ones who do.

I do know for me, it’s a responsibility not to be at risk with these in my body.

Love sent.

If you celebrate a sober date, celebrate each milestone Plz.

You deserve that. (I haven’t checked I wanted to share)

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put yourself first and dont fucking apologize for it.

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I loved it. It’s true. And ps, this is not just for girls!

•May I erase the toxicity within myself as much as I possibly can to be healthy for myself and others•

•May I always disengage in toxic behaviors that are just familiar and cozy but I’m not ok with.•

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““People fear what they don’t understand.””

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“You have galaxies in your head, do not let people tell you you cannot shine.”

— explorinqmyself

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If you have never faced this dark time you cannot judge the ones who do so go have a seat every Karen and Kyle and Southern Bible Belt (I can obviously say that due to my location) thumping fake Christian who wants to point a finger. Sit. Down. Educate yourself. Thanks, I just get angry being demonized over natural emotions for myself. It’s called a chemical imbalance. Not Luciferanism.

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I am tired of the back and forth push pull crap with narcissistic shit .

Love me or leave me alone, is all I ask and that isn’t asking too much.

Over the power trips ppl need 🤷🏻‍♀️