PAIRING: lee jeno x fem!reader (ft. jaehyun and jaemin)
GENRE/CW: smut, angst, eventual fluff, porn with plot, unprotected sex, cunnilingus, fingering, choking, blowjob, using panties as a gag, spitting, edging, squirting, mentions of fighting, blood, usage of nicknames, slowburn if you squint, emotional trauma, lmk if i missed anything!
WORD COUNT: 18,321 words. (18.3k)
PLAYLIST: here.
SYNOPSIS: Jeno Lee was a walking academic hazard—hot, broody, and failing just about everything that wasn’t football. Enter you, his new tutor: organized, overachieving, and absolutely not here for his attitude or his annoyingly perfect jawline. But between late-night study sessions, petty insults, and one very inconvenient almost-kiss, things start spiraling—fast. He’s supposed to be you project. You are supposed to hate him. Instead, you both are one sarcastic comment away from either a breakdown or a makeout—and honestly, it could go either way.
WARNING: 18+ content, minors dni (the full fic will include smut).
A/N: hihi, angels! i'm finally back with a jeno fic aaa thank you my girls @jaeminvore @hoondrop @gojosmojodojo for giving me ideas and listening to me losing my shit over this fic <333 i hope y’all enjoy reading it <33 all likes, comments, reblogs are highly appreciated! it keeps me motivated! iloveyou all and happy reading <33
Chapter 1: Raised in Shadows, Told to Shine.
Comparison.
The core of all insecurities. The onset of overthinking. The path to self loathing.
That’s what comparison does to a person—drive them to the edge of insanity in hopes of turning into something; into someone the others will look up to, compare themselves to.
It was a bad thing per se, but it was motivation enough for Jeno to work harder in order to leave the country, to get away from his family.
The reason? His mother ever so conveniently happened to have fallen in love with a rich guy, someone who never knew what struggle meant, and Jeno was just four back then. It didn’t take much time for him to settle into the lifestyle, however, no matter how much he could have prepared to face his step-brother, he simply couldn’t bother looking him in the eye.
Why? Because he was known to be the epitome of perfection. Jung Jaehyun was the son every parent wanted, the student every teacher was fond of, the doctor every nurse wanted to work with.
The sweet dimple on his cheek was a great asset in melting the hearts of everyone in his proximity or afar.
Jeno on the other hand, wasn’t quite sure why he wasn’t considered to be enough, especially when he got decent grades throughout his school life, he wasn’t a bother, kind to those who were around them, but it changed.
It changed when he got daily reminders of how he wasn’t even close to how amazing and successful his step brother was.
That’s when things started looking down for Jeno. He stopped caring about the grades, he wasn’t sure why he was supposed to put up a I’m so good, so smart act in front of others when there was no reason for him to do that.
Others didn’t bother doing the same for him.
Rather, he tried to work upon the only thing he was passionate about, the only thing that mattered to him—football.
Despite winning several trophies for playing the sport, his parents labelled it to be useless, which broke the last fragment of his heart, shattering it to the point of no return.
Which would explain his current demeanor—moody, permanent scowl on his perfectly sculpted face and no care for the others around him. His sole focus being football, which is also the reason behind his current dilemma.
“Being an excellent player in the sports team does not guarantee you your scholarship, Mr. Lee,” Jeno’s teacher incharge spoke up, taking off her specs right after reviewing his annual grade report, “you’re failing three out of five modules, and if you don’t start getting back on track soon, then I’m afraid you won’t be able to play in the team anymore.”
Fuck.
Jeno had been neglecting his studies, he admits, yet he never thought that he’d reach this point. It’s not that he wasn’t smart, he simply had no motivation to go on with his studies. His parents could easily pay the university to keep him around, however, he wanted nothing from them, which also explains why he got himself a scholarship in the first place.
“I’m sorry if I’m late.” Jeno’s eyes snapped wide open, turning back to see his step brother entering the teacher’s cabin.
“Why are you here?” Jeno asked, a muscle in his jaw twitching but Jaehyun only smiled.
Jeno’s professor was equally stunned, probably even more with her jaw wide open at the appearance of such a handsome young man.
“I called him in since your parents were busy,” his professor said, handling Jeno a letter, “go and find your tutor in the council room, she’ll be helping you with the upliftment of your grades, Mr. Lee, and now if you’ll excuse us, I’ve got to fill in your brother with your current situation,” she said the last part awfully sweetly as Jaehyun sat down in one of the vacant chairs, smiling at her kind tone.
Jeno scoffed, the demeanor change around Jaehyun went crazy and he wasn’t a fan of it, especially when he was called in to complain about his mistakes.
He simply wanted to leave the university and never come back.
He waited, taking deep breaths before punching the wall, not being able to contain his anger. The impact did hurt, yet he paid no heed to it, the blood dripping as he walked towards the council room to get over with the day.
The name written on the sheet wasn’t unfamiliar to him, rather it only wearied the already infuriated boy as he knocked on the door of the student council room, which was empty except for you sitting there, working on a few papers which appeared to be the newsletter for the month.
“Come in,” you allowed, not looking up as Jeno made his way inside the room, observing the surroundings where he’s never been before.
Then he looked your way, taking in your appearance. You looked cozy in your university varsity jacket, your specs sitting on your nose as you buried yourself in reading whatever it was that you were reading. He couldn’t deny you looked pretty in a way that’s comforting to eyes.
With no words exchanged, he pushed the letter towards you, which finally made you look up at the source of disturbance, your eyebrows raising slightly as you most certainly did not expect the star football player to visit you in the council room, which he’s never been to before.
He simply stood there, hands shoved into his pockets while still looking around, and you took a second to grab the letter, skimming over to read and understand that the letter was given by Mrs. Kim, the teacher in charge of your department, requesting you to take up the few teaching sessions you had applied for, Jeno being the student you’ll have to teach for the same.
You clicked your tongue, folding the letter exactly as it was before pushing it his way, your arms folding across your chest as you finally spoke up, “I reject. I don’t wish to teach you.”
His eyes were quick to snap towards you, finally staring right into your own eyes, irritation clear as he pushed his tongue on his inner cheek, eyebrow raised.
“Aren’t you supposed to kiss your professor’s feet, given that you’re in student council? And here I thought you’d be a good girl.” Jeno rasped, resting his arms on your table, leaning down to your level.
You chuckled, expecting the exact response from him, “this is exactly why I don’t want to waste my time on you—you athletes don’t wish to study, you just require a passing grade, for which I don’t have time to spare.”
“What the fuck do you mean waste your time?”
“Lee Jeno, you’ve got more money with you than your bank account can handle, so I’m sure losing your scholarship won’t do you much harm,” you said with a sickening smile, “you’ve got no interest in studying, your attendance record states that oh so proudly.”
“You don’t know shit about me,” Jeno seethed out, messy hair strands falling over his eyes.
“I know everything I need to know about you. Now excuse me, unlike you, I actually have work to do,” you said, passing him a tight lipped smile, not letting the proximity faze you.
“You—”
Jeno’s sentence was cut short with two sharp knocks on the slightly ajar door, a head peeking in, successfully garnering your attention. You could feel your mood doing one eighty with the sudden intrusion of this stranger—whom you didn’t wish to be a stranger around anymore, your eyes softening, lips parting as you stared at him in awe.
Meanwhile, if Jeno thought that the day was done being a bitch to him, then he was wrong because the level of irritation that bubbled up in him the moment he saw the change in your expressions.
“Sorry to interrupt, may I get in?” Jaehyun asked, smiling his usual dimpled smile, which had you swooning in record time.
You could practically see veins of frustration popping out on Jeno’s neck, “no. Your work is done, you should head back home,” he groaned, but Jaehyun only looked you way, continuing to get in, looking your way.
“I’m Jaehyun, Jeno’s elder brother. I can’t thank you enough for agreeing on giving him tutoring lessons, especially with how busy you must be with council duties,” he spoke up, shaking your hand, which was smaller in his warm, big hands.
Jeno scoffed, “she’s not—”
“Of course, Jaehyun! It’s my pleasure to help him out, and it’ll only help me better with my extracurricular credits! It’s no problem,” you nodded, a gentle smile on your face as your eyes practically twinkled with excitement, taking in the beauty that Jaehyun beheld.
It was ridiculous.
It was absurd how just two sentences; paired with a sweet smile from his brother, were enough for you to change your decision, in the span of two seconds at that.
He tightened the hold he had on the strap of his black bag, “no fucking need. I’ll find another tutor,” Jeno deadpanned, walking out of the room, not paying attention to Jaehyun who called out his name in the background.
He wouldn’t let you use him to get to his brother.
With that thought, he decided to detour and make his way to the gym, trying to blow off steam by practicing punching, each one getting progressively stronger as his mind replayed the difference in your behaviour when it came to him and his brother.
It didn’t bother him that his knuckles were bruising, he knew he needed this extrinsic pain to get rid of the obvious hurt he felt each day.
And he couldn’t understand why he felt so affected by your actions, especially when it was the first time you had met.
Jealousy was indeed a bitch.
Chapter 2: Surrendered to the skirt.
Two days passed by and Jeno’s mood showed no progress in terms of improving, rather, he felt worse each time the memory invaded his brain. He tried his best to sit down and open the first module of the unit he had to study.
It’s not like he was bad at studying, he was just a bit out of practice, and well, his mental health wasn’t doing much to help him get any better.
Just when he was about to actually get a hang of getting into the topic, the doorbell rang. His parents were out for business, as usual, and his step brother was busy doing morning shifts, which meant that he was alone at the mansion, minus the myriad of worker staff they had to take care of the place.
Essentially, he had to get down to see who it was at the door, only to spot you leaning against the doorframe as one of the attendants had asked you to wait. He stopped, observing you from the staircase as you typed something on your phone.
Why were you here after clearly rejecting him? Why were you here when he’s clearly told you he doesn’t want you to be his tutor?
Scoffing, he walked down the stairs and towards you, standing right in front of you, clearly invading your personal space as he decided to lean against the same side of the thick door frame with his brows raised.
You took a second to take in his appearance as he was clad in casual gray sweatpants with a black tank, which honestly did nothing to hide his muscles.
“Why are you here?” Jeno asked with a bored tone.
“I’m here to teach you, remember?” You gave him a pointed look.
“And I clearly told you I don’t wish to study from you, it’s better if you leave now. I’ll just tell Mrs. Kim that you taught me,” he said, almost turning back to go inside.
“And have them wondering how you failed even after getting tutored by me? Yeah, I don’t think so,” you shook your head, inviting yourself in without second thoughts.
“Y/n, I’m not fucking kidding, you should leave. Besides, the one you came for isn’t at home at the moment,” he muttered bitterly.
That caught your attention, “oh? Busy with a job then?” You asked, looking around the exquisite paintings hung at the entrance of his place.
“Are you gonna leave or do I have to call the guards to escort you out?”
You chuckled, “you really don’t want the previous year questions I have? The council students get them each year you see, they’re bound to guarantee you good marks,” you explained with a smirk.
Jeno groaned, his lip bitten as he tried to think if tolerating you would be worth the questions, but his football career was at stake and there was no better option but to accept it.
“What’s the catch?” Jeno asked after a few seconds, sighing with defeat.
“Nothing at all. We both know that you need these papers to get the grade that you wanna achieve and I’ll get my extra credits,” you reason.
“You just wanna meet my brother,” he said dryly, “either way, you won’t get to see a lot of him, he’s always at the hospital, working and being the perfect son he is. Plus, he’s definitely not into uni students,” he looked you up and down, soon gulping and looking elsewhere.
You were clad in a pretty skirt which showed off your legs—which you did wear in hopes of crossing paths with Jaehyun, but you completely missed how Jeno was staring at your body.
He wasn’t sure if it was out of hatred that he stared at you, or it was admiration because you were one of those people he despised—overachievers.
You were in the student council, got good grades and professors favoured you, it wouldn’t be a surprise if your parents loved you for being the ideal daughter. It most certainly didn’t help that your appearance seemed as if you were the sweetest, kindest angel on earth, which wasn’t the case when you were around Jeno though.
“I’ll manage,” you shrugged, “so, I need your final word, Mr. Lee.”
“I am sure I can find better tutors than you,” he raised his brows, challenging you and you didn’t look fazed at all.
“I am quite literally the best, professor Kim asked me to tutor you for a reason, besides, no one’s gonna agree to help you out with exams being only one month away,” you made your point, extending your hand for him to finalize his decision.
Overconfidence. He sighed.
Jeno stared at your extended hand, thinking of the bigger picture here. He’d get tutoring and would be able to score decent grades if he gets back to his usual routine of studying.
Downside? He’d have to face you each day.
Sighing and keeping his feelings in check, he simply nodded, taking your smaller hand into his as he accepted the offer, suddenly aware of the warmth of your palm and how it leaves a tingling feeling behind as you shake his hand firmly with a smirk.
“So, where are we gonna study?”
Chapter 3: Silent room, a loud mind.
Turns out, it’s not that easy to sit down and just teach Jeno.
Given the amount of classes he had missed, or rather, the amount of classes he had managed to attend, it was clear that he didn’t even have the basic idea of the syllabus for the semester modules.
Moreover, you had already pissed him off by mentioning how you didn’t expect him to have such a clean and organized room, as if you had already decided that he was going to be a messy human.
Moving forward, you both sat down next to each other with your laptop open in front of you as you made him write down all the topics he needed to cover for the next month, forming a sort of timetable of a kind.
It was surprisingly peaceful between you two, as if you both wished to get over with it as soon as possible, behaving as civilly as you could but there was this one thing that Jeno couldn’t stop doing.
Overthinking.
It’s the way you looked his way with disappointed and concerned filled eyes whenever he messed up, the way his jaw clenched when you told him to do better, the way he couldn’t help but stare at your glossed up lips as you looked around his room, eyes settling on his childhood pictures which were framed.
It was also new to him to actually interact with people outside of his football team, especially girls. He couldn’t remember the last time he had talked to one. He wondered what was going on in your mind, he wondered if you were silently judging him through it all.
That’s all what people in his life did anyway.
“You were cute as a kid, what happened to you now?” You joked, chuckling as you looked his way, only to find his mouth slightly agape.
He hadn’t expected you to say that, and he certainly didn’t want to retort back with something that would ruin his mood, “I grew up to be hot is what happened to me,” he replied smoothly.
“Oh, so you do know how to joke around,” you raised your brows in surprise. It was indeed the image he had formed over the years. The image of him being nothing more than a rude jock who wouldn’t even reply to someone nicely.
Now that you were actually interacting with him, you were going to find out how many of the rumors were true about him.
He only leaned closer at your statement, you could see his muscles flexing as he rested one arm on the table in front of you both, “it’s not a joke, love. I am hot.”
You scoffed at the term of endearment, suddenly aware of his scent now that he was so close to you, “and egoistic too,” you helpfully added.
“Rightfully so.”
Your childish argument was interrupted that very second as the door to Jeno’s room swung open, revealing the exact man you came to see.
Jaehyun was smiling, dressed in black slacks and a button up shirt as he welcomed you here, and you were quick to notice Jeno’s mood turning fowl that very second.
“Thank you so much for coming here, Y/n. Let me send a few snacks and drinks for you both while you study,” he smiled, and you rushed up to stand, not even bothering about the pen that fell down as you did so.
“Jaehyun,” you walked up to him, much to Jeno’s dismay, “oh, you don’t have to do anything,” you smiled sweetly, and he only shook his head softly, grabbing your arm.
“Don’t worry about it, just sit and relax, okay?” He squeezed your arm, going downstairs and you sighed with a smile. Even his scent was perfect to you.
“You done daydreaming?” Jeno asked, deadpanning once his brother had left.
“You done solving the question?” You retorted.
He sighed, as if his energy was drained already, “yeah, just check and get this over with,” he said, handing you the binder and looking elsewhere.
It was probably the first time you actually paid attention to his dejected tone, as if he didn’t have the energy to fight back, and you obviously didn’t wish to irk him more, especially when he looked so frustrated right now. Thankfully, a lot of his answers were indeed correct, which was another surprise to you.
He was smart, he just simply didn’t wish to study.
“Something wrong?” He asked, cocking his brow and you blinked, “you’re actually not as dumb as you portray yourself to be,” you mumbled, checking everything thoroughly.
It should’ve been insulting to Jeno per se, but even the slightest amount of approval was a big thing for him, causing the corner of his lips to curl up. He felt insane, the amount of emotions he felt in a single day was perhaps the reason for the same, courtesy of you.
He was glad Jaehyun didn’t enter the room again, sending in a servant staff to give you the snacks instead, which maintained the peace throughout the session.
You couldn’t help but notice how well he concentrated once there was silence in the room, your eyes focused on his hand gripping the pen, making it seem more veiny than it already was.
Also, you didn’t miss the hint of a smile ghosting his face when you told him he did a good job right before leaving, which made you think of a few things, one being—
He looked beautiful with a smile.
Chapter 4: You can’t read my mind, so read my lips.
As much as Jeno loved the comfort of his room, he really wanted to avoid you bumping into Jaehyun again.
Even the thought of your interactions, your fake sweet smiles, made him wanna punch the wall. Jaehyun really had it easy and Jeno never understood why, it was no joke that Jeno was decent looking as well, talented in his own way, and a kind hearted person who just happened to have a protective wall around him so as to not get hurt any further.
Which is why you had been tutoring him in the library from the past ten sessions, his own personal request to avoid having privacy with you.
Heck, even Jeno didn’t know it was his own mind trying to protect him, which is why he couldn’t let anyone in, anyone.
Which made this situation far from ideal as he had you pressed against the library wall, no distance between you both as you closed your eyes in pure distress.
“What the actual fuck is he doing here?” Your question was directed more to yourself, which confused Jeno further.
He poked his tongue into his cheek, annoyance creeping through, “what the fuck is going on?” He asked.
“Shhh, not so loud,” you pressed your palm against his mouth, “just hide me.”
He rolled his eyes, grabbing your wrist effortlessly, pinning it above your head, “you don’t tell me what to do, yeah?” He mumbled, flustering you under his gaze before your eyes travelled back to where you were looking initially.
He sighed in annoyance, looking back at the direction of your supposed fear.
Na Jaemin. Another of Jeno’s football teammates.
“Why are you hiding from Jaemin,” he asked, brow raised as he leaned into you.
“Ugh,” you groaned, “he’s my ex, he shouldn’t even be in the library, he’s never here!” You were stressed and Jeno smirked devilishly.
“Fucking hell, you’re the girl he keeps on stalking and crying about?” He chuckled, “let me call him,” he turned away for a second.
You used your free hand to grab his nape, “don’t fucking move,” you mumbled.
Perhaps you were too harsh with the grabbing, also not calculating the proximity enough, because Jeno’s nose was brushing against yours, lips close to the point of touching, and a low groan escaping his lips as your name rolls out his tongue in the most angry grunt ever, “what the actual fuck are you doing?”
“J—just let him leave,” you mumbled, gulping and closing your eyes, his mint breath fanning your face as heat crept up your neck, up till your ears.
“What will I get out of it,” he asked, his free hand resting on your waist now, “why should I help you?”
“I’m literally helping you study, Jeno,” you seethed out.
“Look at me when I’m talking to you,” he groaned, making you open your eyes, staring into his deep ones now, suddenly feeling small under his gaze, and well, his body.
“What?” you asked, looking away to check if Jaemin had left, pushing Jeno away the second you confirmed it.
Jeno, however, wasn’t having any of it.
With a scoff and the shake of his head, he grabbed your wrist again, twisting it behind your back, not putting too much pressure so it just hurt but still made it clear how he would not let you go so easily, “you can’t run from me.”
“Let go, I fucking swear—” you let out, squirming around and pushing him, he didn’t budge at all sadly.
“You do realize I’m a lot stronger than you, right?” He chuckled.
“Fuck—what do you want me to do?” You rolled your eyes, jaw clenching as you looked at him.
Before he could answer, your eyes widened in fear yet again as you yanked his arm so forcefully, he had no chance to balance himself, a yelp leaving his mouth as you ran and he was following right after you.
Jaemin was back and you could just not deal with his ass anymore, hence the overwhelming response. Fight or flight? Flight for sure. Dragging Jeno into it might be a stretch but hey, whatever helped you run away from the gremlin, right?
“Y/N,” Jeno hissed yet again, once you stopped by your seat, gathering both yours and his belongings scattered across the table from when you were studying a few minutes back, before getting up to find a book, before seeing Jaemin roaming around the halls of the library.
It was quite amusing to Jeno if he was being honest, a mix of feelings as you grabbed his wrist effortlessly yet again, your eyes set on the exit door leading to the parking lot where Jeno’s Ferrari Purosangue stood proudly.
“Get in!” You screamed even though you were far from the threat (read: Jaemin) now.
“That’s my car in case you forgot—”
“Now.”
“So fucking annoying—” He grumbled, with a small smile playing on his lips.
You looked so bothered as if you were chased by Ghostface and not Jaemin, even though you probably wouldn’t run away from the prior. It was comical regardless, the long breath you exhaled once you were comfortable on his premium quality car seat, head leaned back fully.
You opened your eyes after a few seconds only to find Jeno’s eyes on you, face curved into an amused look. You stared at one another for a second, two seconds, three seconds—and he burst out laughing.
It was probably the first time you saw him laugh like that—so freely, without any care in this world. It was loud but breathless, making his eyes crinkle with small crescents forming, his perfectly aligned pearly teeth showing as he went on, laughing at your disheveled state and crazy response to everything that happened the past twenty minutes.
You were calm and composed for the most part, it was rare for you to look this frustrated over anything, which came as a surprise to Jeno, the whole situation seemingly pure comedy to him.
You observed him so carefully, your own lips twitching into a smile and before you knew it, you were laughing alongside him so normally as if two friends were laughing over a joke.
A weird sort of warmth spread over your body, it made no sense honestly, you were pinned to the wall just a few minutes back and Jeno looked as if he’d burst into flames with his anger, and now he’s laughing at your disheveled, non-composed state.
Once Jeno caught you staring back at him with glittering eyes, and a little smile, he froze. It was easy for him to come back to his senses (read: put his walls back up) which only made your smile drop too. It was awkward, both of you looking elsewhere while clearing your throats, definitely not something you expected.
“Uh—sorry about that, yeah,” you mumbled, playing with the loose threat of your sweater sleeve.
“Yeah, no problem,” he retorted, turning the car engine on to start driving.
Why was it awkward? Because you laughed together like two absolutely normal individuals? Because you had Jeno pinning you to the wall to avoid your ex?
Or because you almost kissed. Almost.
The ride back to your apartment was silent, no songs playing in the car, just the small buzz of engine, and the nail tapping on the screen of your phone—to avoid any kind of conversation happening, also clearly missing out on how Jeno glanced at you every few seconds, the speed of his thoughts running faster than his own car.
“I’ll—see you tomorrow then?” Your voice cracked as you said so, wincing slightly at your own tone.
Jeno was about to chuckle again, yet he covered it with a low cough as he mumbled a yes, as you opened the door once he stopped in front of your apartment.
That’s it, you were leaving, and his eyes didn’t leave you till you disappeared into the apartment.
He gripped the steering wheel tighter, groaning as he banged his head into it, a low horn sound only frustrating him further. It was hard for him to drive after, the scene of you being so vulnerable yet glaring at him like a scared little vixen trying to look brave, replayed in his mind.
No, he couldn’t drive, couldn’t focus on the road anymore, stopping the car at a random parking lot of a fast food chain, grabbing his phone to pull up Instagram, specifically Jaemin’s account.
He didn’t have to scroll much to find the picture he was looking for—his teammate, Jaemin, standing right next to you with his arm resting on your waist. Jeno didn’t know why that picture left a bitter taste in his mouth all of a sudden, knowing well how badly Jaemin fucked up when he cheated on you.
And now the asshole is running after you again.
You didn’t deserve that, you deserve someone better—someone perfect like you.
He went back, not having it in him to look at the picture again, instead, going to your account now. It looked professional, all your posts being highly calculative to make your feed look pleasing. Your highlights, however, had this one particular picture—a picture of you smiling without a care in the world, so raw, so genuine, so beautiful.
Beautiful.
Jeno thought you looked beautiful, and it made him angry.
He was angry—because deep down, he desired to be the reason for your smile.
Chapter 5: Pretty in pink, but my head’s in the dark.
Jeno made you smile.
You did know that laugh was contagious, however, you didn’t think you’d actually give in to Jeno’s sweet chuckles.
Sleep didn’t come to you easy when the constant reminder of the study session poked the back of your mind, not to mention what happened in the library earlier, where you and Jeno almost kissed—
No.
You shook your head. Such niche experiences never falter you, so why was this such a big deal?
Another groan left your mouth, but alas, your body was relaxed enough to sleep so you woke up energetic the next day. It felt oddly friendly when you saw Jeno at the University, and he threw a two finger salute your way, you waved back before going your way.
“You’re zoned out, again.” Karina, one of your classmates, pointed out and you sighed as she rambled about how you needed to let some guy in, quite literally, to blow off some steam, which you clearly weren’t doing, hence the stuck up energy.
Being descriptive about it didn’t help either—yet another reminder of how Jeno’s body was pressed against yours this hour, yesterday.
Heat crept up your neck, urging you to pack up and leave the room. It was hot, stuffy almost for you to do anything, which is why you found yourself studying at the empty seat of the University park.
You had to face him again, of course, there was no escape to that, and as if the universe was testing you, the time passed by way too quickly for your liking and soon, you found yourself standing in front of the main door of Jeno’s place.
Before you could even ring the bell, the door opened to a huffing Jeno, almost as if he ran downstairs, but how did he know—
“Hey,” he whispered, looking around.
He didn’t wait for your reply, simply grabbing your wrist and dragging you inside, your skin burning at the unexpected touch, but you didn’t shake him off of you, only asking in a low tone, “what are you doing?”
“Shh,” Jeno mumbled, as though he was trying to avoid someone, or rather, trying to hide you from someone. His efforts were futile, however, once he heard that stern voice of his mother booming through the walls of his mansion.
Now you get why Jeno was in a hurry, the look on her face had a chill going down your spine.
You felt Jeno stiffen alongside you, his hold on your wrist now tighter, uncontrollably so.
“You must be the new tutor for Jeno,” she said, scrutinizing every bit of your existence, Jeno’s jaw clenched at her unwavering gaze.
“Yes ma’am, It’s a pleasure meeting you,” you tried to say, only for her to cut you off.
“Trust me, darling. There must be no pleasure in helping Jeno, but I do hope he learns a thing or two from you—you look like a smart young lady, hopefully, a positive influence on him.”
You looked at her with your mouth open slightly, not believing the sight in front of you. No mother should look down on their children like that, ever.
“Mrs. Jung, I hope we’re talking about the same Jeno because he is amazing at studies, he grasps concepts faster than I do, and then I believe I’m the one who’s learning from him right now!” You smiled, full of enthusiasm, feeling Jeno’s hand dropping down from your wrist.
“In fact, I’ve never seen anyone play football so perfectly while also being so brilliantly academically smart, I firmly believe his grades will shock you this time. Now, if you’ll excuse us, it’s time for our tutoring session.”
You passed her a small smile, the shock clear on her face, before grabbing Jeno’s hand and taking him along with you—to his room. You didn’t look back, simply closing the door as you breathed out with a pissed expression.
Jeno’s heart was beating fast, he wasn’t sure if he had words to speak at this moment, so staring at you was all he could do.
You spoke for him.
You defended him.
No one’s ever done that, no one cared enough to understand, moreover, it didn’t help how you looked angrier than him at the situation.
“W—Why?” Jeno couldn’t keep his voice in check, “you didn’t have to—say all that.”
That’s when you turned around, facing him. All your anger disappeared once you focused on his face, so vulnerable, so confused, so desperate to know your answer.
“Jeno,” the gentleness in your voice only made him gulp and look down at the floor, “I hope you don’t believe a word she says, because that’s not true,” you spoke, inching closer.
You were not one who was good at making people feel better, Jeno of all people at that, however, this gave you an insight of why Jeno is the way he is—closed off, hence the lack of words from your side, but you knew you had to say it.
That’s the thing, we judge people too quickly, you always had snarky remarks for him, not knowing how deep they cut him. He looked shaken right now, traumatized, especially because you experienced a part of his life which he never wanted to share with anybody.
“Jeno, you’re doing so well, you know that right?” You whispered, as genuine as possible, your fingers grabbing his own, which made him look up at you finally.
He was shaken, not from his mother’s words—he was used to them—but from yours.
“No one’s ever said that,” he spoke so silently, you almost missed it. You held his hand tight—being almost angrier than him while answering his mom back—he isn’t sure if he’ll ever be over that.
Jeno didn’t realize his eyes were glistening.
“What?” You breathed out.
He gulped yet again, jaw clenched now as he struggled to get his words out, the floor being the most interesting thing to him, “defended me. No one’s done that.”
“I—is that why you hate Jaehyun? Because people only see him?” You asked, wincing at the question when you saw him stiffen again, a sharp pang in your chest once he brushed your hand off of his.
“Don’t. Don’t fucking go there.”
“I didn’t mean—”
“Oh I fucking know what you mean. Everyone sees him fuck—you see him, because he’s perfect, right? That’s what he is, perfect,” he seethed out, “you don’t know what it’s like—to live in someone’s shadow,” there was a flash of pain in his eyes.
You stayed mum, letting him speak.
“Every place, every room, every fucking person just sees him,” he muttered, “I need to better, but it’s never enough, because he already did it—Jaehyun did it better. You look at him the same way as others do, and me? The afterthought—the failure.”
Your heart broke a little, guilt settling in because unknowingly, you fueled the same anger and trauma for him.
“Jeno,” you mumbled, “you’re not a failure.”
“You don’t know me.”
“I’m starting to,” you spoke, and he looked up, “and thank god you’re not Jaehyun,” you chuckled, fingers ghosting near his jaw, your touch featherlight, making him suck in a deep breath.
“Why?” He asked, voice barely above a whisper, eyes hopeful, which scared him.
“Because you’re real, you don’t fake your emotions. You don’t smile at somebody who you don’t care about, you get angry, messy, you let yourself be shown how you are,” you lip twitched slightly as you said so, your own heartbeat rose at the sentences you so easily uttered, “that’s what makes you a human, Jeno, a human who’s trying his best, which is what matters.”
He blinked.
He wanted to speak, but he couldn’t, simply leaning into your touch with his eyes closed.
“You’re you, the stupid jock who’s not scared of anything, yeah?” You tried to make him smile, which helped as you saw his lips curving up.
Midway through your sentences, you genuinely questioned yourself about why you even like Jaehyun, it was honestly just your mind playing games with you.
“You scare me,” he muttered.
“Why?”
“Because you say things so convincingly, it makes me wanna believe you.”
“Then why don’t you?”
“Just—don’t say it when you don’t mean it.”
“I do,” you said in a breath, his eyes on yours now, more intense than ever, “I mean every word.”
He stared a little longer, staring at you unamused as if you’d laugh in his face right this second. You didn’t.
“You’re serious,” he said, voice hoarse.
You nodded softly.
Jeno took a single step forward, the air around you so tight, it felt like a rubber band stretched to its max, on the verge of snapping back.
You inhaled sharply once Jeno’s cold hand brushed the hair on your shoulder, grazing against your bare skin, moving up your nape.
“Do you have any idea what you just said to me?” He murmured, eyes locked on yours, turning you around easily to pin you against the wall—something he liked to do, apparently.
“Tell me,” you mumbled.
If someone told you two days back that you’d be in Jeno’s room, calming him down before getting into a compromising position with him, you would have laughed in their faces. It was reality for you now, something that made you feel so unconventionally flustered.
The way he brushed his thumb along your jaw, slow and deliberate, made you shiver, “you’re making me forget that i’m supposed to hate this—feeling anything.”
You were hanging on the last bit of your sanity, drowning in Jeno’s scent, his nose brushing against your cheek, hand gripping your waist, heat radiating off of your body.
“Jeno—”
“Say it again,” he whispered.
“Say what?” You breathed.
“That you’re glad I’m not him.”
You chuckled under his hold, your voice still shaking, “I’m so glad—so fucking glad you’re not him.”
His breath sounded like a curse, lips hovering a breath above yours, you could feel his hesitation against your skin. He wasn’t sure if he had the right to touch someone as perfect as you, yet you didn’t stop him, the space in between you was so tight, it might as well elicit electricity.
You couldn’t breathe, couldn’t blink, only leaning into his touch, resting your hand over the top of his on your jaw. The touch was faint, yet you could feel it everywhere.
You held your breath as he leaned in—
Knock.
Jeno swore under his breath as you flinched, it physically hurt him to step back.
“Jeno?” Of course, it was Jaehyun who had to interrupt you two.
Your hands trembled as Jeno moved to the door, and you quickly turned towards the desk, rushing to sit down, pretending that nothing had happened—that you didn’t almost kiss Jeno a few seconds back.
“Fuck,” he muttered, eyes furious with a hint of daze in them. “Yeah?” His voice came out strained as he asked Jaehyun through the door.
“Mom wants to talk to you,” He said.
“Be right down,” he answered, shaking his head, staring at your way one last time, holding eye contact for a second, letting you see just how much he hated this situation, veins popping in his neck.
Then he opened the door, closing it behind him and disappearing from your eyesight.
You stayed there, overwhelmed, lips tingling, pulse racing.
A truth burned your skin in an excruciating pain.
If he had kissed you, you wouldn’t have stopped him.
Chapter 6: I can go from A to Z, but U is what I want.
Jeno hadn’t texted you all night.
Not that you waited, except, you did.
He never came back to the room after Jaehyun called him out, you waited, till you couldn’t anymore and had to rush out before your mind drove you to the edge of insanity.
So you grabbed your bag, rushing to the first place you thought of—the courtyard behind the Science block. It was calm, no student in sight, thankfully.
Your five minutes of calm ended a second too quickly, a voice calling out your name in its full glory. You cursed the universe for treating you like this and you didn’t have to turn around to figure out who it was.
Jaemin.
“I gotta admit, I didn’t peg you to fall for the broken type.” He stepped out smiling as insane as a villain who hasn’t moved on does.
“Still stalking me?” You rolled your eyes, “get a fucking job.”
“I call it being invested,” he smirked, shoving hands in his pockets, “it’s honestly a downgrade, going from me to Jeno.”
“Not again,” you muttered, grabbing your book which you had just taken out.
“I mean, trading me for Jeno?” Voice full of pity.
“As if you were an option, Jaemin,” you turned sharply.
That shut him up for half a second.
“I just don’t get it,” he said, voice colder now. “He’s always angry, I was angry, I made you feel something, can he say the same?”
Your head was hurting by now, as you mumbled yet another shut up, only to be stopped by Jaemin as he grabbed your arm.
“What? He’s the angry, tortured type. You’re into hopeless projects now?”
“I’m into honesty,” you snapped, “something you don’t offer.”
“What does he have that I don’t?”
“Self awareness maybe,” a voice came from behind you, low, cold, almost lethal.
Jeno was here.
“Let go of her,” he said, dead-eyed, he was ready to snap.
And Jaemin did, a scoff leaving his mouth before he smirked, “great, speak of the devil.”
Jeno raised his brow, “you done?”
Jaemin chuckled, “not even close.”
You sighed, “of course not,” this day couldn’t get worse.
“You really think this is love or whatever?” He said, looking at Jeno but his words were directed to you instead, “he’s gonna burn you someday, and you’re gonna let him.”
Oh god, you were not having any of this, why was this conversation even happening? It made absolutely no sense.
Jeno moved faster this time, but you blocked his chest with your arms, “enough,” you said sharply.
“Ask him to leave.” Jeno said, voice low.
“Jaemin, just leave,” you said, turning to him.
But he didn’t, and so Jeno did, shoving past you as you rolled your eyes, Jaemin’s sinister smile only widening, getting so close to him, he had to lean back slightly.
“Don’t test me, and don’t come near her again, or else I won’t be this patient.” Jeno spoke.
“Aw? You’re gonna hit me in front of her, Jeno?”
“I don’t need to, she already cut you deeper than I ever could.”
Jaemin blinked, clenching his jaw, before turning to you, maintaining eye contact, “she’s not your girl, Jeno.”
“You don’t know that,” he gritted his teeth.
“You’ll come back,” Jaemin’s jaw ticked as he said so.
“Hold your breath until I do,” you replied.
That was it, he left. It wasn’t silent, nor dramatic, but with enough tension to let you know that he will be coming back.
Once he was gone, you shoved Jeno, hard.
“The fuck was that?”
“What? I came here trying to find you, only to witness you talking to him.”
“I didn’t want it to happen either, but the world hates me,” you mumbled, grabbing your bag and walking away with Jeno following you behind.
“I fucking hate that he still gets to talk to you, why does he have access to you?” His voice rose and you prayed no one would hear him, thankfully this area was empty.
“He doesn’t, and why do you even care?” You asked, with distress clear on your face, “pretending like I mean something to you in front of Jaemin is just as worse, Jeno.”
“I—”
“No, you won’t even talk about last night, as if it didn’t happen,” you snapped and he froze, “you didn’t even come back to your room.”
His silence was your answer, and you knew this conversation wasn’t gonna go any further, Jeno couldn’t do that—he was scared of opening up, and he was scared of answering those questions, so even though you were hurting on the inside, you let him be.
“Tomorrow, library, at five. Be on time.” You mumbled, leaving him behind you.
“Fuck—fuck!” Jeno punched the wall next to him. He didn’t want you to go—the first person who ever tried to understand him, took his side, defended him. He was beyond scared of letting his guard down, so he groaned, sliding down the wall.
“How do I even tell you I want you?”
Chapter 7: I stayed, even when it was easier to run.
The library was too quiet for how loud your mind was. The sound of your pen dragging across the paper felt almost intrusive as you tried to finish your assignment.
It had been three nights since the library fiasco.
Two nights since the almost kiss.
One night since the blow up with Jaemin.
You almost didn’t wish to come here, yet here you were, with the sample test papers ready, clad in your little black skirt, a cardigan too loose for you, waiting for Jeno to show up—hoping he would.
The clock ticked. He was a solid nineteen minutes late now, another minute and you’ll get up to leave. That’s when you heard the lazy footsteps approaching your side, the farthest corner of the library. You expected him to sit in front of you, yet he opted to sit right next to you, so close you could feel the fabric of his jeans brushing against your thigh. He took a seat without permission, like he had the right to be, like nothing had happened.
He came in like guilt personified, shoulders hunched, hoodie loose, hair an unbrushed mess of indecision. And when he saw you?
He hesitated.
You didn’t look up, simply sliding him the sheet of questions to solve, the air around you turned weighted. His pen scratched, your leg bounced, you sipped water and he watched the corner of your mouth, practically burning holes into you.
It was unbearable.
This tension—it’s not a war but there’s rarely ever any peace. Catherine and Heathcliff reincarnated, except you weren’t on a moor, you were in a library, trying not to fall apart across the wooden study table.
Just yesterday, he burned through Jaemin like jealousy was oxygen.
He couldn’t stop staring, yet he solved the questions for forty minutes, sliding the sheet back to you for checking, expecting some sort of conversation now, anything, even a little hum of acknowledgement from your side, but none of it happened.
He watched you scribble your pen over the margin, circling a few things, ticking the others, lip bitten in concentration. He observed you so intensely, how your eyes flicked across his answer sheet, but you didn’t look his way, not even once.
“You won’t even talk to me now?” He asked, keeping his voice in check.
“Four answers wrong, you did pretty well, can do better still,” you mumbled, passing him the paper.
“Y/N,” he sighed, tired, he was afraid of this happening—letting you down, and that’s exactly what he did. Running away from his problems was what Jeno always did, he wasn’t perfect, he knows it, but he wants to try and be better, better for you.
“You came late,” you said, still not looking up.
“I didn’t sleep last night,” he exhaled, jaw clenched.
“Not my problem,” you retorted.
“I was thinking.”
“You should study instead.”
“You hate me now, huh?” Jeno leaned forward, voice flat.
You blinked. The question hit out of nowhere.
“I don’t hate you,” you replied carefully. “But I don’t know how to deal with you either.”
“That’s not an answer.”
“No, Jeno. It’s the truth. And that’s more than you’ve been giving me.”
He looked at you then, really looked—eyes narrowed, jaw tight, like he was keeping a war behind his teeth. His eyes were empty, yet so full of you.
“I don’t know how to do this,” he said, quietly. “I don’t know how to be—good at this, with you.”
“And yet you’re good at disappearing. You’re good at leaving me hanging like none of it mattered.”
You weren’t yelling. You didn’t need to. Your disappointment was louder than any raised voice.
Jeno sat back in his chair, breathing shallow. “You kissed me back.”
Your throat tightened, “you didn’t kiss me at all.”
“Exactly,” he muttered. “Because I would’ve ruined it. Ruined you.”
You shook your head slowly. “No, Jeno. You didn’t kiss me because you’re scared of how much you want to.”
His hands balled into fists. “And you’re not?”
“We’re not talking about me.” You looked away.
He scoffed, turning to look at you fully, leaning in with his hand now resting on your thigh, burning the skin with his touch.
“You want honesty, huh? So here it is—I’ve been thinking about you, about everything that’s happened in the past few days, no one’s ever messed with my mind so much and it fucking scares me. You’re messing me up—”
You couldn’t hear more, not when he was so close, not when he poured his heart out to you. Nothing about you two was normal, even your heartbeat was synced with how abnormally high they were.
“Shh,” you mumbled, covering his mouth with your palm, and even the rude gesture calmed him down—your touch calmed him down.
“You have an exam tomorrow.” You said and he stared, “study, pass the exam, and we’ll talk, yeah?”
He blinked, almost as if you showed him mercy, and gave him a chance to do something, to prove that he’s worthy of being near you. His scholarship, football, future—everything was at stake, but did he care? No. He cared about not letting you down. He wanted to prove himself to you.
“You—you promise?” He asked, gripping the extra sheets and notes you passed his way.
You nodded, eyes softer now. You didn’t wanna hurt Jeno, you could see just how hard he tried to fight with his demons, but this time, you wanted him to win.
“I’ll be waiting.”
You turned to leave then, leaving Jeno with his thoughts as he watched you leave, eyes on your legs. He gulped, looking back to the paper to find a line scribbled in your handwriting.
You already know the answer, you’re just afraid of getting it wrong.
It wasn’t about the question, it was about him.
He just wanted to be worthy enough to stand in front of you and say I didn’t fuck this up this time. So he started, he worked all night, solved as many sample problems as he could, everything felt like a punch in the gut but he couldn’t give up, not this time.
Jeno couldn’t sleep at night,
I’ll be waiting.
That’s what you told him, and he was looking forward to it, because for the very first time in his life, someone wasn’t waiting for him to fail.
He woke up before his alarm had the chance to ring, didn’t care about his mother’s remark on how he woke up on time for once, or how Jaehyun gave him a long, unreadable look. Jeno didn’t react, he had bigger problems to tackle today.
You were just as restless as him if not more, checking your phone every few minutes as if you’d get any text from Jeno. He must be busy studying, you hope that was the case.
He walked into the exam hall calm, focused, terrified. He didn’t skip questions. He didn’t zone out.
He solved the final problem two minutes before time and rechecked every line like his life was hidden in the margins.
When he walked out of that room, his shirt clinging to the back of his neck from sweat, his palms aching from gripping the pen too hard—he knew. He’d done it. Or at least, he hoped he did.
Yet, he didn’t text you, he wouldn’t until he got the results.
Chapter 8: Jealousy is but a red thread around my throat.
You waited, not loud, but silently.
Two whole days, you held your breath, even planned on visiting the football practice to just get a glimpse of Jeno, yet you couldn’t muster enough courage to do so. God, you were so affected by everything he did, and this felt so very suffocating, waiting on someone. You knew what you felt, there was no point in denying it, however, you couldn’t figure out how it happened, so quickly at that.
Heck, even Jaemin was more present in your chat inbox, even though you never replied to him, it just made you wonder if your time with Jeno was just a hoax.
Did you imagine it all?
On the other hand, on the other side of the city, sitting in a dim room with sunlight pouring in, Jeno was drowning in darkness.
The exam portal was open in front of him, he refreshed the page every two seconds, not being able to sit still. His hands were shaking, not from fear but from want. From the feeling of your voice telling him that you’ll talk to him once he proves himself.
He gave up the wait, the result wasn’t out the whole day. It was three in the morning when the notification woke him up like a jolt.
Results were out.
He rushed to check it, the numbers stunning him as his jaw hung open.
83%
Not perfect. But more than enough.
Enough to pass. Enough to stay on the team.
Enough to say, Look. I did it. I’m not a fuck-up. The first thing he thought of was you. So he typed—just two words.
Jeno:
I passed.
Because he didn’t know how to say what he really wanted to—I passed, and all I could think about was your voice. I passed, and I still don’t feel whole unless you tell me you’re proud. I passed, and it’s not enough if I can’t show you.
Your reply came back six minutes later.
You:
I knew you would.
It was soft, gentle. But was it enough for Jeno? No. It should’ve been enough, but it wasn’t.
He didn’t reply, he didn’t text you again. He opted to skip the lectures for the day and stay in his room, blinds closed, only darkness consuming him.
You knew it was hard for Jeno, you knew you shouldn’t wait for his reply or him approaching you—he was too scared to do that, which is exactly why you grabbed your bag and went to his place the first thing in the morning. Maybe Jeno needed time, but you had to check.
You rang the bell, your heart pounding as you did so, expecting Jeno to open up and see you. Once the door opened, your pulse stuttered.
Jaehyun.
Of course, it had to be him.
“Y/N,” he said your name smoothly, “didn’t know you were coming by.”
You hesitated with a small chuckle, exhaling the breath you were holding, “is Jeno home?”
He nodded, stepping aside to let you in, “yeah, he’s in his room, didn’t come out this morning at all.”
“Oh,” you said softly, wondering if he was alright.
There was a pause, an awkward silence after that, you felt heavy, wanting to go upstairs but you weren’t sure if you were allowed to.
Jaehyun closed the door behind you. “He’s been off since the results,” he said, voice low. “I thought passing would help, but I don’t know. He kind of shut down again after telling us he passed.”
You gulped, chest tightened at the revelation.
“I came to check up on him, I’m not sure if he wants to meet though.”
“He’d want to see you.” Jaehyun said, smiling sincerely, “you’re good for him.”
Your eyes widened at that, “I’m not sure he thinks that.” You tried to smile, “can I go to his room?”
“He locked the door, I think he’s sleeping,” Jaehyun said apologetically.
“I don’t wanna bother him.” You smiled sadly, “those are good pictures,” you mumbled, looking at the wall full of frames, particularly the ones with Jeno in them.
“Yeah, I took most of those,” Jaehyun replied with another smile, he knew you wanted to talk to Jeno so he suggested something, “Maybe if you take him something to eat? I can give the breakfast he skipped—”
“Oh no, I can run to the bakery and get something—”
Then you noticed a movement in your peripheral vision, you turned around to find Jeno. He was standing down the hall, his fluffy hair a mess, eyes wide as if he didn’t expect you to be here—especially with Jaehyun.
“Hey,” you breathed out.
No reply.
“Y—you didn’t reply, I came to see you,” you tried speaking again.
However, his expression didn’t change and suddenly, you felt like you shouldn’t have come here at all. He was frozen even when you said you wanted to make sure he was okay. Then he came back to his senses, clearing his throat.
Jaehyun left the room, letting you two be alone.
“Why didn’t you ask for me?” He whispered, just sadness in his voice.
“I did, that’s what I came for,” you tried to explain.
Jeno stared at you, he was so broken inside he couldn’t let himself believe it. You dressed up, all pretty, your eyes so soft, your lips turning into a pout of disappointment. You looked perfect, and you came here for Jeno? He just could not believe it.
“You were talking to him,” Jeno said, referring to Jaehyun, his voice broken.
“He opened the door, what can I do?” You shook your head, trying to explain, “you didn’t even text back, Jeno.”
“I don’t know what to say,” he replied, “I’ve never done this before. I’ve never had someone wait for me and mean it.”
Your lips parted to reply but he wasn’t done.
“You said you’d talk to me after the exam,” he went on, voice sharper now, “but when you showed up, you let him open the door. You let him tell you how I was.”
“I didn’t—” your voice faltered, “I didn’t come for him.”
“Didn’t look that way.”
That hurt. You flinched. “Jeno, why are you doing this?”
“Because I waited for you,” he snapped. “I sat in that room like a fucking idiot thinking you’d come to see me. Not make small talk with my brother or compliment his photography.”
“You heard that?” You froze, it wasn’t your intention to do any of that.
“I heard everything, every second you spent without taking my name,” he said.
Just like that—he hurt you. Every conversation was about Jeno, every single one. He just couldn’t see it.
“I thought I was getting better,” he admitted, quieter now. “I thought passing the exam would mean something. That it would be enough.”
“It was,” you whispered. “Jeno, it is. I am proud of you.”
“Then why didn’t it feel like it?” His voice broke on that line. He ran a hand through his hair, pacing a step away, then back, like his own body was a prison.
You stood frozen. Every word hit somewhere different.
“I wanted you to come,” he said, softer now. “Not to check in. Not to ask if I’d eaten. I wanted you to come for me. Just for me. You don’t get it, Y/N.”
“No,” you stepped forward. “You don’t get it. You think everything is about being chosen or abandoned. But not everyone’s trying to leave you, Jeno. Sometimes people show up. But you keep slamming the door in their face.”
He turned away. “Then go.”
“I came for you.” You said one last time, your eyes watering, not being able to contain the hurt you held in them.
“Well, maybe you shouldn’t have.”
That one landed like a punch.
Your mouth opened. Then closed. You nodded. Just once.
“Fine.”
You turned.
And you left.
And this time, he didn’t stop you.
Chapter 9: I know that I’m hard to read, but you got me here to stay
You spent most of your morning crying alone in your student council room, but it just wasn’t enough, not when you were being wronged every second of the day, not when the person you wanted kept running away from you no matter how hard you tried. At least you did.
You couldn’t run away though, you had an important meeting with your council at six in the evening, by that time, you had done everything to make yourself look normal again, but your mind was entirely elsewhere, in another realm, a realm where things were different.
Jeno, on the other hand, left his room as soon as he realized how wrong everything had gone. All afternoon his own words replayed in his mind, how he asked you to leave and how you left a single tear drop on the floor before you turned around and left.
Maybe you shouldn’t have.
It felt like biting into something rotten, saying that out loud to you. Like watching the one and the only thing he wanted turn and walk away. You didn’t yell back, you didn’t beg, you went still, and left. He saw you leave—he made you leave.
And he let you go anyway. Because that’s what he did. Because pushing people away was easier than asking them to stay.
Until now.
Now he was pacing in his room like a caged animal, hoodie still damp, heart in his throat. He kept hearing your voice in the hallway. Kept seeing your face. Kept remembering the way you reached for him and he didn’t reach back.
His chest felt tight, his limbs tense. He couldn’t stay here, not in this house, not knowing you might never come back.
He had to find you.
So he ran. He ran to the courtyard, not caring about the rain pour, soaking him up from head to toe. You weren’t in the library, not in the council room, the classrooms were empty. He was panicking.
That’s when he heard a voice, turning around the corner of the athletic department, he walked straight into one of his football teammates he couldn’t stand at all—Minjae, a loud-mouthed asshole, smiling like a madman.
“Fucking hell, Lee Jeno, you look like shit.” He grinned.
Jeno didn’t answer, he was in a hurry, he had to find you, to make things right with you, he was about to push past Minjae when—
“Oh, by the way,” he smirked, “Jaemin told us a lot about how you finally landed his ex, the pretty goody two shoes, Y/N.”
Jeno froze, jaw clenched at the mention of you and Jaemin in the same sentence, coming from an asshole at that.
“Didn’t think you’d have a go at someone like her. She seems to like guys who have more brains than biceps.” He laughed at his own joke.
“The fuck did you just say?”
Minjae laughed. “Chill, man. I’m just saying—props to you, seriously. Girl like that? All polished and pretty and loyal? I mean, not that it’ll last. Girls like that don’t stay with guys like us. She’ll figure it out eventually.”
Jeno’s vision turned black.
“Say that again,” he said, voice like static.
Minjae raised his hands. “Relax. You don’t need to get all—”
The punch landed before he could finish.
Minjae hit the ground hard, water splashing up from the impact, the rain pouring down heavier now. He tried to shove Jeno back, but to no avail as he bent down, his fist colliding with Minjae’s jaw again.
Jeno wasn’t fighting Minjae per se, he was fighting every single voice that told him he wasn’t enough, that he could never live up to his brother, that he could never be with someone as perfect as you. That’s what he believed too, till you actually became real for him.
His mind was elsewhere when he took a blow to his jaw, lip bleeding now, Jeno stumbled but scoffed before punching him again, and again, till his knuckles were shredded, a throbbing in his jaw which almost felt like fire.
It was only when someone pulled him off of Minjae, Jeno stopped, spitting out blood in the rain slick grass. Everything hurt, but not as much as his burning chest.
“Are you insane?” Someone yelled his way, “what the fuck is wrong with you?”
Jeno didn’t bother answering, pulling out his phone and rushing away, typing out texts to you.
Jeno:
where are you?
please say something
i’m so fucking sorry Y/N
i didn’t mean it
i didn’t mean any of it i swear
Y/N please
No response. His messages were just there, unread, and unanswered. He simply didn’t know why.
He didn’t know how you had been in the private meeting room for the past hour, student council prep being a whole scheduling disaster, handling arguments about clubs and their out-of-the-worldly budget demands.
You were half awake at best, distracted by the storm that brewed outside. Your phone vibrates once, then again, and when you finally pull it out to check the numerous missed calls—your screen goes dark. Perfect, just on the day you didn’t bring your charger or powerbank.
The feeling in your gut—it wasn’t good, which is why you excused yourself mid meeting, something you never do, to rush back home. You were soaked as you ran to your apartment, close to the University, thankfully. You plugged your phone in to charge as you rushed to take a shower, hoping the hot water would soothe your nerves. It didn’t.
You kept thinking about Jeno, about the fight at his place earlier, how he asked you to leave with the saddest look in his eyes, and how badly it hurt you. You were out of the shower in fifteen minutes, toweling your hair with one hand and rushing to check your phone with the other, not expecting a myriad of notifications.
17 Missed calls.
6 Voicemails.
26 Unread texts.
The last of which made your blood run cold.
Jeno:
Y/N please
i’m outside
You rushed to the front door, and he was there—leaning against the wall beside your entrance, hoodie clinging to him, hair wet and plastered to his forehead, eyes closed and him wincing like he couldn’t hold himself up anymore. Like it hurts too much to exist. Hands bruised, lip split, and he opened his eyes—bloodshot, glassy.
“Jeno,” you gasped out loud, “w—what happened?” You said, going close to him.
“I tried to find you,” he said, voice wrecked, “I tried but I couldn’t, I thought that maybe you blocked me.”
“No—I was in a meeting and my phone died, god I’m so sorry—fuck, come inside.” You shook your head in distress.
“Y/N,” he groaned, and you gently helped him when he didn’t move, like he wasn’t allowed to, “I fucked up.”
“Shh, come inside, it’s cold,” you whispered and he nodded after a moment of hesitation. You tried to be calm, you tried to take control of the situation for once and he listened, this time he did when you took him to your room.
You didn’t ask how this happened to him, only guiding him to the bathroom, “you’re soaked and bleeding, take a shower, i’ll put your clothes in the wash and dryer.”
He opened his mouth to say otherwise, but you didn’t let him, grabbing a fresh towel and handing it to him.
“Are you sure you want me here?” He asked, vulnerable.
“I wouldn’t have opened the door otherwise, Jeno, I do.”
He nodded, swallowing hard as he disappeared into the bathroom without another word and you worked your washing machine and dryer, sitting down right after, exhaling and letting your guard down, hands shaking with worry.
You were glad Jeno was taking his sweet time inside, because you had no clue how to go on with this situation. Jeno stalling coming out simply because he was ashamed, also consumed in how good your shampoo smells. He was at your place, in your bathroom, all bloodied up, why? Because he couldn’t be normal for once and let you in.
His walls came crashing down each time you came closer to him, but this time, he didn’t want them to go back up the second he touched you, this time, he wanted you inside with him.
His clothes were dry very soon and you kept them in your room, waiting outside by the sofa, letting him come out all dressed up. The water stopped soon, the door creaking as he came out, and you were sitting on the sofa, hair still wet.
Then Jeno opened the door, you stood up at the noise, and he looked your way in a silent plea to ask you if he could sit next to you, and you nodded. He held up the bloodied towel, “I’m sorry,” he whispered, and you smiled softly, taking it away from him.
The silence was too loud after as you both sat next to each other, you waited for him to say something, waited for the reality of tonight to settle in—to make sense, to stop trembling beneath your skin. And then he spoke as you took out your medicine kit, gently grabbing his hand to take a look at his bruised knuckles.
“Y/N,” he took your name as if it was the only thing he knew.
He watched you kneel in front of him, your eyes not angry, just steady, quiet, and unbearably kind. His fingers trembled in yours, you gently pulled the sleeve back, pressing a warm damp cloth to the wounds, making him wince slightly at the contact.
“Sorry,” you breathed out.
“I deserve worse,” he breathed back.
“No, you don’t,” you said, looking up at him.
He laughed under his breath, “why are you so kind to me? I don’t deserve it, Y/N.”
“You don’t get to decide what I give you, Jeno,” you replied, “you’re bleeding, again.”
“Not my first time.”
You gripped him tighter, “and that’s supposed to make it better?”
“No,” he said, voice low, “just means I’m good at it by now.”
You didn’t answer. Just ripped the antiseptic packet open a little more forcefully than necessary and pressed it to the bruised line of his knuckles. He flinched.
“Good,” you muttered. “Means you still feel something.”
“God, Y/N—”
“No,” you snapped, trying your best to act normal but you both were far from that, “not yet.”
You cleaned the split in his skin with the kind of precision that only comes from anger—controlled, careful, but deeply furious.
“You don’t get to act like none of this mattered,” you said, eyes locked on his wounds. “You don’t get to disappear into your guilt and then show up bleeding and say I didn’t know where else to go. That’s not enough.”
His jaw clenched. “I didn’t come for a reward.”
“Good,” you said coldly. “Because you’re not getting one.” You wrapped gauze around his hand slowly, tight enough that it would sting.
He didn’t pull away.
“I came because I thought I’d lose you,” he said through his teeth, “I came because I’m fucking terrified that I already did.”
“Who’s fault is that?” You said, standing up, “you keep doing this thing, you pull me in, let me see you and then the very second it gets real, you shut the door in my face.”
“I know,” he said. Loud. Frustrated. “You think I don’t know that? You think I don’t see the way you look at me when I say the wrong thing? Like you’re trying so fucking hard not to walk away?”
“You told me to go!”
“I didn’t mean it!”
“Then don’t say it!” You shouted, “don’t look at me like I’m everything one second and then act like I mean nothing the next!”
“I didn’t think you’d stay.”
“I stayed!”
You were both breathing hard now. Staring at each other like you didn’t know whether to cry or kiss or throw something, You still stood in between Jeno’s legs, him looking up at you. Jeno ran a hand through his damp hair, pacing a few feet before turning back to you, eyes wide and glassy.
“I ruin things,” he said, “I always have. I don’t know how to love something without fucking it up. But I wanted you anyway—I still do.”
Your throat tightened. “And I’m supposed to what? Carry all of that? Be your exception?”
“No,” he said, stepping closer. “I just need you to see that I’m trying. Even if it’s ugly. Even if I’m bleeding and loud and afraid. I need you to see me, and stay anyway.”
You stared at him.
He looked like someone who hadn’t slept in days. Someone who’d gone through hell and walked straight into another fire because you were at the center of it.
Your voice cracked, “you don’t make it easy.”
“I know.”
You looked down at your hands—his blood still faintly on your fingertips. He reached out slowly. You didn’t move. Not when his fingers curled around your wrist. Not when he pulled you in his lap, not when his forehead leaned into yours like he was holding on for dear life.
“I hate that I hurt you,” he whispered. “But I’d rather burn with you than freeze without you.”
“I wasn’t gonna leave, Jeno.”
“I know.”
“Then why—”
“Because I’m sick,” he said suddenly. “Sick of being the one who’s always too much. Too angry. Too wrong. I get one thing right—one fucking exam—and even then I screw it up by throwing a punch at someone who talks shit about you and then picking a fight with the only person who’s ever actually looked at me like I could be more.”
Your breath hitched. You grabbed the gauze, wrapped it around his hand. Tighter than needed.
“Then be more, Jeno.”
He stared at you.
“Be more,” you repeated, “because I’m tired of being in love with someone who’s so determined to hate himself.”
That silenced him. Fully. Until he spoke again.
“You’re in love with me?”
The words dropped like a bomb between you.
You froze. Swallowed. Refused to take it back, chuckling to yourself at how easily you let go and told him that, “yeah—god help me, I am.”
Then you tried to move back, only his arms wrapped around your waist tighter, holding you in place, “you don’t get to say that and walk away.” He growled.
“Who said I’m walking away?” You mumbled, holding onto his shoulder for support.
It was unreal, how close you guys were but still not close enough, it was never enough.
“You’re mad at me,” Jeno stated.
“I should be mad.”
“I’m mad too,” he added.
“Good,” you rolled your eyes, trying to move again.
But he didn’t let you, not this time, his thumb brushing your cheek.
That was it. That was when Jeno finally let go. He couldn’t delay this anymore, not again, not when you were right in front of him, not when your soft lips brushed so tenderly against his bruised ones, not when you told him you were in love with him—not when he knew he had to have you.
He surged up and into you—hands gripping your face, mouth pressing against yours like it was the only way to breathe. It wasn’t gentle, it wasn’t neat, it was everything you’d been holding back.
Lips slotted together, you could taste blood on your tongue from where he was hurt before, which only made you groan into the kiss, he was frustrated, so frustrated, not having it in him to let go for even a second.
You gasped, arms flying up to clutch at his shoulders, pressed chest-to-chest, his body was warm—too warm—and you could feel his tension in every line.
You broke the kiss first, panting, eyes wide. “You shouldn’t—” you tried to say, especially when his body was hurting.
“I have to,” he breathed, leaning in again. “Let me, just once. Please.”
You didn’t stop him, grabbing his nape and pulling him into you once again, because when Jeno kissed you again, it felt like pain, penance, and pleasure all in one. It was as if he was trying to earn your forgiveness with his mouth, trying to pour out everything he couldn’t say to you, groaning into your mouth when your hips shifted over his lap.
“I fucking—” He said midway the kiss, “god I—”
You shushed him gently, “you don’t have to say it.”
“I love you,” he breathed out, forehead pressed against yours, eyes earnest and full of life for the first time since you saw him, “I don’t care if it’s too early, I can’t fucking not say it, I love you, I—”
Before he could ruin the moment with the spiral in his throat, before he could pull back in fear, you pressed your lips against his like it was the only thing anchoring you to the earth.
He responded like he’d been starving. Mouth hot, desperate, hands gripping your waist like the world was falling apart and he only had seconds left to memorize you. The kiss was brutal in the way it made you feel, there was no choreography to it, no elegance—just lips, teeth, breath, and aching hunger.
His mouth was swollen. Your lips, bruised from how much he kissed you like he didn’t know how to stop.
“Tell me to stop,” he breathed.
You stared at him. “I don’t want you to.”
Then you grabbed his jaw once you heard him wince, “does it hurt?” You asked, pecking his jaw, trailing kisses all over.
“It’s the only thing that doesn’t hurt,” he whispered, letting your lips take over, tracing every bit of his face and neck, his eyes closing with the fire that you ignited within him.
“This feels like a dream,” he whispered.
“It’s not.”
“But it could be,” he added, almost to himself. “You—like this, in my lap, in your apartment, touching me like I’m not a monster.”
You cupped his face again, guiding his eyes to yours, “you’re not a monster, Jeno.”
“You don’t know the things I’ve thought.”
“Then tell me.”
His voice cracked, “I thought I’d die if I didn’t see you again. I thought that maybe I’m already ruined and maybe I don’t deserve you but I can’t stop loving you anyway. I thought—”
You kissed him again. Slow this time. Deep and aching, “then stop thinking,” you whispered, “just be here—with me.”
His fingers trembled as they curled into the hem of your shirt.
“Can I?”
You nodded.
He pulled the fabric up carefully, reverently, and you helped him, raising your arms until it was off. His breath hitched. Not because of how you looked—but because he was looking at you like that.
Like something sacred.
You grabbed the back of his hoodie, tugging. He hesitated for a split second before pulling it over his head. The sight made your breath catch.
His torso was littered with bruises, some dark purple, some fading yellow. His ribcage dipped where the muscle was taut with tension. You reached out, fingertips grazing over a particularly harsh mark near his side.
He flinched. “That one’s from earlier.”
Your jaw clenched, “you shouldn’t fight because of me.”
“I wasn’t,” he said, “I was fighting every voice in my head that said I wasn’t worth your love.”
You kissed the bruise.
He gasped.
“I hate that they ever made you feel like that.”
His hands slid back up to your sides, lips brushing your jaw. “You make it go quiet.”
“I want to,” you whispered.
Your kisses grew slow again, heavier with emotion than desire. You could feel his heartbeat where your chest pressed into his, your hands in his hair, his head tilted just enough to deepen the kiss. You rolled your hips slightly in his lap, and he groaned again, burying his face in your neck.
“Fuck, Y/N—”
“Jeno,” you murmured, your nails dragging softly along his back, “look at me.”
He lifted his head. His eyes—wild, glassy, full of everything he couldn’t say.
“I love you,” you said again. “I’m not afraid of it. So don’t be either.”
He leaned forward, pressing your foreheads together.
“I don’t want to lose you.”
“You won’t.”
“You’re so fucking pretty, did I ever tell you that?” He mumbled against the skin of your neck, brushing his lips all over before placing open mouthed kisses over the expanse of your clavicle, “so fucking pretty.”
Jeno wasn’t gentle anymore, not when he’d been craving your presence, craving you. He couldn’t help but treat you like a reward, like he finally had won the only thing in life that actually mattered to him.
He was quick to grab your waist and flip you over, getting on top of you on the couch that was too small for things he had planned in his mind. It was almost like a dam breaking the way his mouth was on your neck, biting, sucking, claiming you.
“Jeno—” you mumbled, your back arching as you felt his body pressing into you, fingers wrapped around his wet locks as he marked your skin with every ounce of desperation he had, his fingers mapping out every inch of your body as if he’s afraid he’d forget it—as if he could ever forget anything about you.
The warmth of his hands brushed over your bra clad nipples, a whimper leaving your mouth. Jeno wasn’t undressed yet you could feel him getting hard, and god you wondered just how big he was, grinding into you as if he was already inside your cunt.
“I hurt you so fucking much,” Jeno mumbled, lips ghosting over your tit, “now I’ll hurt you in the way you want me to,” he said with dark eyes, yanking your bra down enough for your nipples to show, latching his mouth to you all in light speed.
All his life Jeno couldn’t take control of anything, but seeing you shiver under him just made sense to Jeno, he had to take control—he had to make you feel so good, you wouldn’t ever look at anyone else.
“You’re fucking crazy,” you whispered, already disheveled with how needy you were, wetness pooling in your panties, soiling the new pair you had put on not too long ago.
“Yeah? You drive me crazy, baby,” he chuckled, and that sound went straight to your pussy. Jeno was hot, so fucking hot, but him using nicknames on you with his deep tone—only god knows how you would survive this.
You bit your lip to conceal your moans, which only infuriated Jeno, biting your nipple harshly to make sure you scream, “don’t fucking hide your pretty voice,” he said.
His hands went to your other breast and he gave it a tight squeeze, your eyes were on him as you watched his lips parting, letting his tongue make contact with the tip of your very hardened nub. He bites down on your nipple, making you cry out, but quickly soothes it with his tongue before switching to the other side, he wants to drive you wild with pleasure, to possess every inch of your body.
Lost in the haze of pleasure, you surrender yourself completely to Jeno’s possessive touches, letting him have his way with you. The room fills with the sounds of your moans and his desperate sucking, a symphony of carnal desire. In this moment, there is nothing but you and Jeno, and the burning hunger that consumes you both.
Jeno’s hands roam across your body, his touch electric against your skin. He grabs your hips, pulling you flush against him as he claims your lips in yet another searing kiss, tongue delving into your mouth, hot and hungry, making you more hungry for his touch—for him.
“I—can’t,” you whimpered, wanting more of him.
Jeno chuckled, “can’t even speak now, hm? What happened to the feisty lil’ girl who couldn’t shut up?”
“Fuck, shut up,” you mumbled, tugging on his hair harder, which only made him groan and squeeze your tits harder, coming up to brush his lips against yours, hot breaths intertwining as he smirks, hand travelling down your body, very close to the hem of your shorts.
“Want me to shut up?” He asked, squeezing your neck with slight pressure, your mouth opening in a gasp—he took the opportunity to spit in your mouth, watching your eyes widen as watches you gulp it down, “good fucking girl,” he mumbles.
You were too gone to function anymore and you had just started, but you knew one thing—whatever Jeno wanted, you’d let him do it to you.
That man was no less than a Greek god with how sharp his features looked, especially in the dim light of the room, muscles flexing, abs on full display as he held himself up on top of you to press kisses all over.
In a swift second, he pulled you up to unclasp your bra, throwing it away somewhere to continue pressing hot mouthed kisses down the valley of your breasts, and down your tummy, caressing it with the pad of his thumb, spending a good few seconds covering the expanse of your skin.
You breathed harder once he reached the waistband of your shorts, his hooded eyes, almost drunk, looking up at you before he swiftly pulled them down, throwing them on the floor somewhere.
He couldn’t be gentle even if he tried, not when he was this thirsty, holding your legs open as he settled in the limited space that the couch held for him. Madman—that’s what he was and you couldn’t help but moan when he got closer to your panty clad cunt, burying his nose in the wet fabric, sniffing the scent of your arousal, groaning as he locked your thighs under his arms, which flexed harder now.
You moaned his name as if a broken record repeating the same thing over and over again and he only mumbled things you couldn’t hear in your cunt, licking the already wet cloth, biting his lip at the first taste of you, “fuck—you’re so fucking perfect,” he says licking you harder, kissing your inner thighs alongside, leaving bites all over—he was feral.
He slid your panties to the side, and the sight he had in front of him drove him to the edge. Jeno was an impatient man, yes, he was messy, he was not the softest, but seeing you like this just made him realize how much crazier he could be.
That first taste emboldens him and he dives in like a man starved, lapping at your folds like he’s trying to consume you entirely.
His desperate tongue delves deep inside, fucking you with rapid strokes and curling to hit your sweet spot. You cry out sharply at the intense sensation, fingers tangling in his tousled raven hair to hold him in place. He grips your thighs tightly, holding you down and open for his onslaught as he devours you.
Jeno zeroes in on your clit, flicking and circling the sensitive bundle of nerves rapidly. Your back arches off the couch as he suckles hard on the throbbing bud, two fingers pumping inside your clenching hole.
“Fuck—Jeno, I’m gonna cum!” You wail, thighs trembling violently around his head as your climax approaches rapidly. He doubles his efforts, fucking you harder with his fingers and lashing your clit mercilessly with his tongue.
He curls his fingers to stroke your G-spot with every thrust, drawing out more of your copious arousal to lap up greedily. Your walls start to flutter and clench around him as the pressure builds unbearably.
Jeno chuckled, the vibrations sending shockwaves through your body. “You like that, baby?” He practically purred, before sucking your clit into his mouth, flicking it with his tongue.
“Fuck—yes,” you gasped, your head falling back against the couch. Jeno was relentless, his tongue exploring every inch of you, driving you closer and closer to the edge.
“Don’t stop,” you pleaded, your thighs trembling as you stared at the ceiling with your mouth open, desperate for air.
Jeno pulled back for a moment, looking up at you with a wicked grin, “you want more, kitten?” He teased, running a finger along your slit, “go on then, beg for it.”
You groaned in frustration, but you were too far gone to care, “please, Jeno,” you begged, fueling his ego.
“Shhh, be a good lil’ kitten for me, yeah?” He mumbled into your core mindlessly, sending shivers up your spine as your thighs shake. He didn’t stop, but just when your ecstasy was about to crash—
He stopped.
You let out a frustrated groan and Jeno only got up with the essence of you sprawled over his chin, his hard on begging to be freed.
“Fuck?” You asked, trying to get up on your elbows, looking at him incredulously.
He only gave you a once over, tongue poking his cheek from inside before he came closer, swooping you up in his arms easily as you yelped, eyes wide as he carried you to the bedroom, “no patience, huh?” He asked.
He was proud of himself for making you this weak, for cracking your high wall down so he could see you, so he could ruin you. Jeno was possessive, especially after knowing what you and Jaemin went through, he wanted you to have the best, and he was willing to be the best for you.
“I—I was gonna cum!” You said, holding on to him for support.
“Did I say you could?” He replied smoothly.
“What—Jeno what the fuck?” You whined and he only chuckled.
“Be patient, love, or else you won’t be coming all fucking night, yeah?” He said as he let you get down on the bed.
You looked so innocent, eyes watery, hair messy, looking up at him like an angry little kitten trying to look tough. He climbed the bed and you moved back, till your back hit the headboard and he hovered above you, caressing your cheek as he cupped your jaw, tilting your head up to look him in his eye. Your heartbeat speeding up yet again, and good lord you loved being manhandled by Jeno.
“What are you thinking?” He asked, thumb pushing on your lower lip.
“Nothing.” You mumbled.
He leaned in closer, “not thinking of my cock inside your pretty little cunt, hm?” He asks, watching you shiver at the thought, “by the time I'm done with you, you’ll be begging me to let you cum.”
Your jaw clenched as you slide your hand up Jeno’s torso, tracing all the way from his abs to his neck, his own body reacting to your touch, cock twitching inside his pants by the time your hand rested on his nape, pulling him even closer so your noses were touching.
“You know, Jeno, you talk big game. Don’t make promises you can’t back up,” you mumbled to rile him up.
Jeno’s eyes flashed with a mixture of lust and irritation at your challenge, “oh, you’re going to regret those words,” he whispered, his hands gripping your hips possessively. “I’m going to make you beg for my cock, baby.”
He punctuated his statement with a sharp thrust of his fingers, two of them plunging deep into your sopping wet pussy. You gasped, your back arching off the bed as he worked them in and out, stroking along your sensitive walls.
“Fuck, you’re so tight,” he panted, his thumb rubbing firm circles on your clit. “I can’t wait to feel this perfect little cunt wrapped around my cock.”
You moaned, your hips rolling to meet his hand as he fucked you with his fingers. “Then stop talking and do something about it,” you shot back, your voice breathy with desire.
Jeno chuckled darkly, withdrawing his fingers only to bring them to his mouth. He sucked them clean, his eyes never leaving yours as he savored your taste. “Mmh—delicious,” he purred, “but I’m not done playing with you yet.”
Before you could protest, he was pushing your thighs apart and settling between them. His tongue delved into your folds, lapping at your arousal like a man starved. You cried out, your fingers tangling in his hair as he devoured your pussy with single-minded intensity.
He worked you over mercilessly, his tongue and lips and teeth finding all the right spots to drive you wild. You bucked against his face, your thighs trembling as the pleasure built inside you. Just when you thought you might burst, Jeno would back off, leaving you desperate and aching for release.
“Jeno, please,” you whimpered, tugging on his hair in a futile attempt to guide him back to where you needed him most, “I need to cum. Please let me cum.”
He lifted his head, his chin glistening as he looked up at you. “Not yet,” he shook his head, his fingers continuing their maddeningly slow circles on your clit, “I want to hear you scream first.”
“I fucking can’t!” You breathed out, trying to control your moans again, “someone’s gonna hear and—ah—complain about it,” you said, which only made him scoff.
“Is that it, hm? Have it your way then, princess,” he mumbled, yanking your soiled panties down all the way, balling it up in his first to make a gag out of it and shoving it down your mouth, “now you can scream all your want, Y/N.” He said, taking your name in his deep voice.
And if you weren’t crazy before, now you had reached your limit of madness, even a poke from his side was like a pleasant burning wound to your skin, his actions also made you realize just how hungry Jeno was for being the one in control.
You squirmed beneath Jeno, feeling utterly at his mercy as he continued his torturous teasing. The gag in your mouth muffled your moans but couldn’t silence them completely, much to Jeno’s enjoyment. Your body arched, yearning for more, desperate for release.
“Such a needy lil’ thing, aren’t you?” Jeno growled, his fingers still circling your sensitive bud, “I can feel how wet you are, taste how wet you are, dripping for me, hm?”
His words made you clench, fresh arousal coating his fingers. He gathered some of your slickness and slowly dragged it up to your throbbing clit, applying just the right amount of pressure. Your hips bucked up in hopes of seeking more contact.
“Hm—so responsive,” Jeno purred, looking pleased with himself, “I could do this all night—keep you on the edge, begging so desperately for me.”
“Please—” you tried to say around the gag, your eyes pleading, you were so close, teetering on the brink of an explosive climax. Just a little more.
But Jeno seemed determined to deny you that satisfaction, easing off right as you were about to fall over into your state of euphoria, frustration bubbled up inside you, mingling with the overwhelming lust coursing through your veins.
“You’re going to have to do better than that, baby,” Jeno taunted, nipping at your inner thigh, “I want to hear you scream my name—let everyone know who you belong to.”
His fingers circled, feather-light touches that drove you wild with need. You thrashed beneath him, incoherent noises of desperation spilling from your lips. Jeno just chuckled darkly, clearly enjoying your plight, removing your gag to hear you gasp loudly, his name on the tip of your tongue.
Jeno was cruel, so cruel the way he denied your orgasm yet again with a smirk playing on his face, a whole one eighty from how he was an hour back and you were crying by now, something he seemed to enjoy too as he licked your face, tasting the salty teardrop you let out, “this makes me wanna ruin you more, y’know?”
“Fuck—Jeno, let me cum please,” you sobbed as he took you in his arms.
“You wanna cum, hm?” He asked as you settled on his lap, his hard on pressing against your thigh as you nodded, “fuck, you look so pretty crying like that for me, like a doll, a doll for me to use, hm?”
You couldn’t take it anymore, getting off and undoing his pant buttons as he watched you with amusement how you struggled to take off his pants and boxers, only to find his cock waiting for you, hard and proud.
Jeno’s cock was throbbing, hard and ready to burst, as you took him into your mouth, your tongue swirling around his tip in a teasing manner. You could taste the salty beads of precum leaking from his slit, the flavor sending a jolt of desire straight to your core.
“Fuck—baby,” Jeno groaned, his fingers threading through your hair as you bobbed your head, taking him deeper into your throat. “Your mouth feels so good. Keep going just like that, good girl.”
You moaned around his length, the vibrations making him shudder. Your own arousal was dripping down your thighs, coating them with your slick essence. The wet sounds of your slurping filled the room, mingling with Jeno’s heavy breaths and grunts of pleasure.
“Shit—fuck, take it easy, I won’t be able to hold back," he panted, his grip on your hair tightening, “I’m gonna fucking come down your throat if you keep sucking me like that.”
You redoubled your efforts, eager to taste his release. Your tongue flattened against the underside of his shaft as you sucked harder, determined to milk him of every last drop. Just as you felt him start to swell, signaling his impending orgasm, you pulled away with a pop.
Jeno’s eyes jolted open, a mix of confusion and frustration flashing across his face. “What the fuck, baby? Why the fuck did you stop?”
You just smiled coyly up at him, licking your lips. “Because I want you to come inside me. I want to feel you fill me up with your hot cum, or are you too much of a coward to fuck me?” You teased, your grin making him scoff.
God he loved you.
Jeno growled, a predatory gleam in his eyes. In a flash, he grabbed your hips and flipped you onto your side, your back pressed firmly against his torso.
Before you could even process the sudden change in position, he was lined up at your entrance, the head of his cock nudging your slick folds.
“Teasing me will only get you punished,” he warned, his voice low and husky with desire. “I’m going to fuck you so hard, you won’t be able to walk straight for a week.”
With that promise, he slammed into you, burying himself to the hilt in one powerful thrust. You cried out at the sudden intrusion, your back arching as he filled you completely. Jeno set a brutal pace, pounding into you with wild abandon.
You let out a sharp cry as Jeno’s thick cock stretched you open, filling you so deeply that you could feel him bulging through your lower abdomen. The feeling of his hard length pulsing inside you sent shockwaves of pleasure through your body, making you arch your back and press your ass against him.
“Lord—ah yes,” you gasped, grinding against him, “you’re—so fucking big.”
Jeno grunted in response, his fingers digging into your hips as he continued to pound into you at a furious pace. The sounds of skin slapping against skin and your needy moans filled the room, mixing with the creaking of the bed frame beneath you.
“Shit, your cunt is so tight,” Jeno mumbled, his breath hot against your neck. “Squeezing my cock like a desperate doll—you were made for me, baby. Made to take my dick and milk me dry.”
His filthy words only heightened your arousal, making you clench even tighter around him. You could feel your orgasm building again, the tension coiling in your core as he hit that special spot deep inside you with each thrust.
“Please don’t stop, not this time,” you pleaded, your nails digging into his thighs. “Fuck me harder, Jeno. I’m so fucking close.”
He was quick to flip you over again so you were resting on your back, his hips settling in between you as he held your thighs up, your legs resting on both his shoulders with ease as he snapped into you harder, plunging his cock with more need, as if he was a monster hungry for lust and only lust.
Jeno snarled, his hips snapping forward with a newfound vigor. One hand moved around to rub firm circles around your clit, pushing you closer and closer to the edge. Your body began to tremble, your breath coming out in short gasps as you found yourself on the brink of ecstasy.
“Cum for me,” Jeno demanded, pinching your clit hard, “I want to feel you cum all over my dick, baby.”
With a scream of his name, you practically exploded, your pussy clamping down around him like a vice as your orgasm crashed over you. Your body convulsed, your back bowing as wave after wave of intense pleasure washed through you, which shocked Jeno because you weren’t just having an orgasm.
You were squirting all over his cock.
Jeno followed shortly after, his cock pulsing as he spilled his release deep inside you, as he breathed hard, watching you with surprised eyes.
“Fuck,” he groaned, grinding against you to prolong your shared climax, “you’re so fucking hot, so fucking mine.”
You whimpered at the feeling of his hot cum painting your walls, the sensation making your pussy flutter around his shaft. Jeno held you close as you both rode out the aftershocks, his softening cock still buried inside you.
“You’re mine,” he mumbled, “say it.”
“Yours—I’m yours,” you breathed as best as you could.
“Again.”
“I’m yours, Jeno.”
“Fuck—again.”
“So so fucking yours, I’m all yours Jeno.”
“Mine,” he whispered, so possessive.
After a few moments, Jeno carefully pulled out and rolled you onto your back. He pressed gentle kisses along your jawline and down your neck, his touch soothing and tender in contrast to the rough passion from moments before.
“That was intense,” he murmured, nuzzling against your collarbone, “I don’t think i’ll ever get enough of you, baby. You’re fucking addictive.”
You smiled up at him, reaching up to cup his face. "I could say the same about you. The way you fuck me, it’s like you’re a fucking beast.”
“Was I too harsh?” He asked, placing soft kisses all over, “I’m sorry I just lost control—you have no idea how badly I need you, I don’t think I can stop,” he confessed.
You kissed him again, “then don’t stop, just don’t.”
That’s all he needed to hear for the night, that you were finally his, and he was yours. He smirked, the night was just getting started.
Chapter 10: Hate me less? You love me more.
You don’t remember how the night ended, not when Jeno kept his promise of how you wouldn’t be able to walk anymore once he was done with you, and he was precise about it. He was far from done when he made you fall apart on his cock so many times, you lost count.
It was a crazy switch up once you both were done, he took care of you, almost like he was made for it, helping you clean up in little bathtub which was definitely too small to fit the both of you, yet he helped you bath, a faint blush on his face as you laughed once he tried to act sly, touching you again when you were so sensitive and overstimulated.
Turns out, Jeno can be super clingy when he has to be, also not letting you go once you get out of the tub, helping you dry your hair, helping you moisturize your body, helping you smile by kissing you every few seconds.
He held you to sleep, not before hearing you say you actually want him and it’s not a dream. Jeno doesn’t remember if he ever felt this way before, this warmth called happiness that you provided him so easily.
“I love you,” he mumbled to your sleeping figure, he was whipped, already thinking of your future together. Yeah, maybe it all happened too quickly, he still wouldn’t have it any other way. He wouldn’t mind getting through all the hurt again if it meant that he’d wake up to you sleeping next to him—to you loving him.
It was perhaps the best day of Jeno’s life.
The air felt different today.
Not because of the weather, which was finally warm and breezy after days of storm and stress, but because Jeno was walking beside you—not behind, not ahead—beside you. His fingers were laced with yours, his thumb brushing over your skin every few steps like he was still checking if this was real, he still couldn’t believe it.
It was.
You passed the main quad slowly, in no rush. The two of you didn’t need to say much. Conversations dimmed as you walked through. You could feel the glances, the whispers.
Someone definitely said your name. Then his.
And then, clear as day, they whispered.
“Wait—are they actually holding hands?”
Jeno didn’t flinch.
Not like he would’ve, weeks ago. Not like the boy who couldn’t stand being seen, being known. Instead, he just grabbed your hand a little tighter—casual, sure, and completely unbothered. His expression said it all—Yeah, and?
You chuckled. “Think they’re combusting?”
“Oh, definitely,” he said, tugging you closer with a smugness he barely bothered to hide anymore. “Especially that one girl who’s walking with me, who swore she’d never even look at me.”
“She wasn’t entirely wrong,” you teased. “You were kind of a menace.”
He groaned, tossing his head back, “were?”
You laughed, and it made him smile, soft and full, the kind of smile he used to hide and now gave you freely.
“You’re doing that look again,” he said, side-eyeing you. “Like you’re psychoanalyzing me.”
“Maybe I am. Can’t help it. You’re a walking dissertation, y’know?”
“Yeah? What’s the title?”
You looked up at him with a shrug. “How to fall for someone you’re supposed to hate.”
That made him stop walking.
You blinked, startled, but he was already turning to face you, his hoodie sleeves pushed up just enough to show the fading bruises on his knuckles—old reminders of the version of him you never gave up on.
“I’m glad you did,” he said. “Fall for me. Even when I made it so damn hard.”
You smiled slowly, the kind of smile that made his breath catch. “You still do.”
“Yeah, well,” he squeezed your hand, “at least I’m hot.”
You were too busy rolling your eyes to realize you’d just walked past Jaemin and his friends until the entire bench went awkwardly quiet. Jaemin looked up, eyes flicking from your joined hands to your face, and then to Jeno—who didn’t even spare him a glance.
He was too focused on you. Too content stealing a bite of your ice cream like it was the most natural thing in the world.
“Let’s go,” you muttered, trying not to laugh as you nudged him forward.
Jeno followed. No hesitation.
Because this, the hand holding, the quiet teasing, the stares that didn’t matter anymore, this was normal.
And for the first time in his life, Jeno finally understood: Normal didn’t mean boring.
making sounds in the studio with your boyfriend..?
✩˚｡⋆ pairing - boyfriend & girlfriend
✩˚｡⋆ genre - smut (18+)
✩˚｡⋆ warning - sex, dirty use of words, explicit content, spicy, erotica, filth.
you sigh softly and glance at the clock ; it was 7:35 pm, you look at the studio where han was in with his members and groaned in frustration and irritated. he had promised that he'll be quick and will spend time with you later, though it seems like that's never going to happen.
you pace around, trying to think of a solution to get the members to leave and your eyes light up. you quickly went upstairs and into your room, rummaging through your wardrobe and found the black, lacy and proactive lingerie set you bought last week without han knowing.
the corner of your lip ticked upwards as you picked up the lingerie set and walked closer to the mirror, hovering it above your body. you bit your lip in mischief, pondering about how han would react if he saw you like this.
you began to take off your clothes, piece by piece and wore the silky, satin lingerie set that hugged your flawless curves and that hourglass figure of yours. you admired yourself in the mirror again. a provocative, ouvert lingerie set crafted from ultra-sheer black mesh and high-shine patent leather that left virtually nothing to the imagination. The cupless shelf bra featured a rigid underwire that lifted and framed under your breasts, leaving them completely bare beneath a web of minimalist elastic straps.
this would surely make him horny, you thought as you wore your hair down. long, ink-dark hair hangs past the shoulders in a heavy, natural sheet, catching the room's light with soft, realistic sheens rather than glossy plastic perfection. you grabbed your phone and took a picture of you in a compromising position, sending it to han.
meanwhile, han was in the studio with his members. working on their upcoming comeback ; THIS & THAT. bangchan: "right, so we need to quantize those sixteenth notes; the timing is drifting off the grid." the members nodded their heads to his words. han: preferably, i think we should also-"
suddenly, his phone dings with a notification. his words pauses and the members look at him expectantly, thinking he'll ignore the message. han glanced at the message from you, his thumb hovering above the screen, not opening it yet.
he looked back up apologetically at the rest of his members. "give me a second..." the members sigh but nod. he opened the message. his gaze locked and dilated, his mouth slackened into a breathless line, his jeans getting uncomfortable tight.
changbin stared at han with furrowed eyebrows. "han? what is it? it looks like you saw a ghost." han cleared his throat and he got up, his cheeks scarlet red. "uh, it's nothing... but it's getting late... I'm really tired. can we continue this tomorrow?" the members looked suspicious but also concerned by his reaction.
lee know: so suddenly? you were so eager to work on-" han gently cuts him off with a sigh. "i know, i know... but I'm really exhausted. it's almost 9:30 pm." the members exchanged glances but nodded slowly, still in doubt but decided to not push further. seungmin: "fine, let's finish this tomorrow. it's later after all."
felix: "then, we'll see you tomorrow, han..?" he gave a nervous smile and nodded, scratching the back of my neck. the rest unaware of his growing arousal. they started walking towards the door, some of them glancing back at him with suspicion but they finally left.
han's jaw tightened and he walked up the stairs and into your room, to find you laying in the bed. that infuriating smirk never leaving your lips. "are you crazy..? trying to make me lose control infront of all of my members?" he asked rhetorically and walked closer to you, his gaze dropping to your exposed legs, his tongue unconsciously sliding over his bottom lip.
you chuckled softly and stood up, wrapping your arms around your neck like a tease. "i knew this would get your attention, at last." those words sent shivers down his spine. "so you were trying to fetch my attention? how bold yet cute of you, sweetheart..."
his eyes darkened as he gripped your hips and pulled your body flush against his muscular, toned body. "fucking minx... your actions comes with consequences. you know that by now." he states hotly, his breath fanning over your neck, trying to not lose control
"that's why i did it..." you whisper in his ear softly, music to his ears. a low groan rumbles in his chest as he pulls you closer. "you should help me produce the songs... with that slutty voice of yours." he immediately threw you over his shoulder and took long strides towards the studio.
he plugged the microphones into an audio interface and adjusted the input volume levels to avoid distortion and turned back at you with renewed, burning desire. you raised your eyebrows and looked at the set up and back at han. "what's this for-" he smashed his lips against yours, devouring them like a starved animal, cupping your cheeks. "for this." he says in between kisses.
you groan softly and kiss him bag with hunger, nipping at his bottom lip. his tongue slides in your mouth, exploring the entirety of it like he was born to do so. he wasn't wasting any time. that's for sure.
after the brief make - out session, han seized your wrists and slammed them against the wall, his mouth latching onto your neck. he tore your lingerie away in impatient handfuls, fabric ripping under his grip. the moment you were bare, he shoved you onto your stomach and yanked your hips up, spreading your thighs wide with his knees.
his fingers plunged into your cunt without preamble, two thick digits pumping hard while his thumb ground against your clit. you were already dripping, slick coating his knuckles as he worked you open. he withdrew his hand and replaced it with his cock in one brutal thrust, burying himself to the hilt. the sudden stretch tore a cry from your throat.
han set a punishing rhythm immediately, hips snapping forward with relentless power. each drive forced your body forward on the studio couch, your breasts bouncing up and down. he gripped your hair at the roots, wrenching your head back as he fucked you deeper, the wet slap of skin echoing through the room.
"fuck, you're tight," he snarled, releasing your hair to seize your hips with both hands. his fingers dug into your flesh hard enough to bruise as he held you immobile, using your body like a sleeve for his cock. he pulled almost completely out before slamming back in, his balls striking your clit with every impact.
without warning, he flipped you onto your back and shoved your legs apart. his mouth found your nipple, teeth scraping before he sucked hard, marking the tender skin. he drove into you again, the new angle letting him grind against that sensitive spot inside you with each thrust. your nails raked down his back, drawing blood, but he only fucked you harder.
han grabbed your throat, squeezing just enough to make your pulse race beneath his palm. his free hand found your clit again, rubbing tight circles while his cock pistoned in and out of your soaked cunt. the headboard slammed against the wall in time with his thrusts, the entire couch shaking beneath you like an earthquake.
he pulled out abruptly and flipped you onto your hands and knees. his palm cracked against your ass before he spread your cheeks and spat on your tight ring. han pressed his cock against your asshole and pushed inside, forcing past the resistance until he was buried deep. the burn made you gasp, but he didn't pause, already starting to thrust.
"Take it," he growled, reaching around to pinch your clit while he fucked your ass. his hips snapped forward with increasing force, his cock stretching you open with every stroke. your arms trembled beneath you, but he held your hips steady.
han reached forward and grabbed your hair again, pulling you upright against his chest. one hand wrapped around your throat while the other worked your clit in rough circles. he fucked up into your ass with short, brutal thrusts, his teeth sinking into your shoulder, making you cry out in ecstasy.
"cum," he ordered, fingers moving faster. your body obeyed, orgasm crashing through you as your ass clenched around his cock. he kept thrusting through your climax, chasing his own release until he pulled out and spun you around.
he shoved you onto your back and straddled your chest, his hand pumping his cock furiously. thick ropes of cum painted your face and tits, some landing on your tongue as you opened your mouth to catch it. han watched with dark satisfaction as his seed dripped down your skin.
"next time... don't tease me or i'll fuck you until you pass out." he whispered that sent a jolt of electricity through you. he looked back at the recorder and chuckled darkly and looked at you. "your cries, your moans, your groans... they're all recorded... i'll definitely use them as a sample in the upcoming songs."
"pervert!" i say, though there was no real bite to it. he grabbed your waist and pulled you into his arms, gently kissing the top of your head. "only for you..." he said contently as the two of you sit on the couch, trying to catch your breaths after those previous activities.
a smirk tugged at the corner of hyunjin's lips as his eyes locked onto yours. He pushed himself off of the wall and stalked towards you like a predator stalking its prey.
"we have seven minutes, we should make the most of it. Don't you think?" he asked with a seductive and sensational tone.
my eyes enlarged at his words, a lump forming in my throat. I could feel the temperature of the room starting to get more and more hot.
"are you crazy? we're enemies!" i finally state, finding the right words. Hyunjin walked closer, backing me into a wall. He placed one hand on the wall, beside my head.
his voice suddenly turned low as he gazed into my eyes with desire and lust.
"who said enemies can't have sex? i want you. Right now." his eyes flicker down to my lips briefly then back at my eyes, his eyes silently seeking for consent.
a deep shade of rosy pink appeared on my cheeks, my heart hammering rapidly as he inches closer. I couldn't even utter a word. I look up at him, my lips parted without even realising it.
"you're taking too long..." he then captures my lips into a heated and passionate kiss, his veiny hands already starting to explore my body. He tastes like a mix of cigarette and mint.
i respond back eagerly, my actions contradicting to the words i said earlier. My arms wrap around his neck, pulling him closer until there's no space between us. Our bodies flushed against each others. My tongue slides smoothly in his mouth as a soft moan escapes my lips.
hyunjin groaned in pleasure, his lips traveled to my neck, marking me with open-mouthed kisses and intense love bites that will last for who knows, how many months? he then broke the kiss, a string of saliva connecting from his lips to mine.
he picked me up in a bridal style and tossed me onto the bed, already unbuttoning his shirt frantically. His shirt that was once on, lays discarded and forgotten on the floor. Hyunjin's hand slipped into my skirt and into my panties, feeling how wet and damp you are down there.
i let out a soft gasp and look up at him, my eyes fluttering shut.
"a-ah, hyunjin." i moan his name making his eyes darken even more.
he thrusted two fingesr inside me, curling both of them.
"that's right, baby... say my name... while i fuck you with my finger..." he breathes out, his hand going faster with every moan that escapes from my mouth. I let out a guttural moan as he hits my g-spot expertly.
"hyunjin... i... i'm close!" i cry out as i feel my climax building up, nearly reaching its peak. He smirked and went even more fast.
"then cum for me, let it all out." he said imperatively, encouraging me. I let out a loud moan as I finally cum. His fingers coated with my sticky semen. He brings it up to his lips and licks them clean.
"you taste luscious, baby.. but we're not done yet... we're nowhere near done." he then unbuttons my shirt and slides off my skirt and panties together. Hyunjin paused, running his tongue over his lips as he takes in the scenery. Me sprawled out on the bed, looking vulnerable and sexy.
"fuck... you've been hiding all of this from me, huh?" his control snapped and he unhooks my bra with practised ease and quickly latches his lips onto my nipple. Sucking it deeply, his tongue swirling over it.
i grip his hair tightly, another soft moan escaping my lips yet once again.. this feeling... his lips sucking my breasts. Fuck, i'm supposed to hate him... I'm supposed to push him away but this..? it feels so good..
his free hand rolled my other nipple between his fingers, pinching it and squeezing it lightly while his mouth leaves bites marks on my other breast. His lips then leave my nipples and drop down to my stomach, leaving soft kisses and bite marks, where only he can see.
he settles in between my legs, parting them as he stares at my exposed pussy that's dripping wet again... he dived in and starts eating me out with hunger and desperate need. Sucking on my clit while squeezing my breasts. I throw my head back in pleasure, guiding his head. I don't want this to finish..
he then looked up. "i need to be inside you.. raw..." he quickly pulled out his extreme long, hard dick that was already leaking with precum at the tip. "are you ready?" i bite my lip and nod courageously. "please fuck me hyunjin... i need your cock in me.." hyunjin's patience snapped and he thrusts into me, his hand lightly squeezing my neck as he pounds into me with every breath he took.
a guttural grunt escapes from my lips, my eyes rolling back. I felt like i was on cloud 9. My face showed ecstasy and pleasure. Hyunjin doesn't stop his pace. Instead, he increases it, going faster and faster until his dick is basically hitting my womb.
the room was filled with sounds of skin slapping, moans overlapping each others and more. He hits a particularly sweet spot which caused me to yelp due to the intimacy and stimulation. Tears of ecstasy starts to form in my eyes, my legs shake atrociously as I feel another orgasm coming.
"i- I'm gonna cum!" i shout and finally cum all over his dick. Hyunjin collapses on top of me, both of us breathing heavily and trying to catch our breaths. That was... Something. His dick stays buried deep inside me as he peppered my face with soft and tender kisses, contrasting with his earlier rough demeanor.
"you did so well... so tight for me.." he praised, placing another tender kiss on the tip of my nose, a soft smile forms on both of our faces.
a grunt escapes felix's lips as he climbs up the tree. he glances up briefly, the window was wide opened, as if it was inviting him to come inside. he climbs up a few more until he finally gets to the window. felix let out a soft sigh of exhaustion and ducked down, making sure his head wouldn't hit on the window and walked in.
meanwhile, you were in your room, changing into your pajamas. you lifted your shirt up and tossed it aside recklessly, only leaving you in a black, lacy bra.
felix stopped in his tracks. his pupils dilated. his adam's apple bulge through his neck as he swallows hard. a dent forms in his leather, black jeans. he didn't even realise it because he was too busy admiring your hourglass figure that makes him want to devour you, whole.
he quickly snapped back to reality, trying to get his shit together. he looks up again. shit. this isn't where he's supposed to be... he mistook your house for his friend's one. he internally curses himself for making such a silly mistake. he had to leave.. he looked back at you, still changing into your pajamas, he took this as an opportunity to sneak out but as he stepped back "silently", the floor creaked loudly. his eyes widen in panic and looks back at you, who was now staring at him with a shocked face.
as you heard the floor creak, you jolt around in surprise. you freeze, your eyes widening as you see the... school's heartthrob?! you were about to scream but he quickly took long strides towards you and covered your mouth, the other hand pulling you flush against his body.
"don't make a sound, princess. Be quiet for me..." he whispered softly. you were still in shock and disbelief. a mix of emotions washing over your face as you lock eyes with him for the first time.
he holds the eye contact and slowly removed his hand after ensuring that you'll be quiet. "what the fuck are you doing in my room?! you crazy pervert! how could you sneak up in a girl's room and watch her undre-" suddenly, you were cut off by his deep voice that sent shivers down your spine.
"relax... you've got it all wrong... i mistook your house for a friend's.. and that is my fault.. but... since I'm here, shouldn't we make some memories before i leave?" he asks casually, trying to seem nonchalant but a small smirk tugs at the corner of his lips that instantly betrayed his facade.
"you jerk! leave now before i-" you got cut off again. this time, he backed you into your desk and stood uncomfortably closer. "what will you do if i don't leave? are you sure that you want me to? tell me you don't want this." he asks with a serious face as his eyes bore into your hazel, brown eyes.
you couldn't speak after that. your heart started beating rapidly. butterflies forming in your stomach. "i-... i.." you look at him again, your knees go weak as he stares back at you with newfound intent and lust. "tell me... tell me you want me to leave..."
you gather the right words and look at him with lust and something unexplainable.. "don't leave... i want you to... i want you to stay... please?" his patience snaps at your plea and he lifts you up by your thighs and set you on the desk before scattering the papers off of the desk. he leans in and kisses you deeply, his tongue briefly sliding across your lower lip before devouring your lips like a starved man.
a small gasp escapes your lips but he greedily swallows it and grips your waist tightly. his tongue finally exploring the entirety of your mouth. your eyes flutter shut, your legs wrap around his waist and you arms wrap around his neck, pulling him close. he groans softly as he feels your legs wrapped around him.
he breaks the kiss and looks at you with desire. "you're wet, aren't you?" your heart skipped a beat and i clear my throat, your cheeks flushed with embarrassment. "w-what are you talking about.. I'm not wet." he smirked and leaned in closer, his hot breath fanning just right above my lips. "let's debunk that, shall we?"
without waiting for your response, his hand already started to travel south. heading for the waistband of your panties. he pulled at it and snapped it against your skin teasingly and pulled it down without hesitation. his gaze dropped to your now exposed pussy that's dripping wet. the centre of the panties already damp, it was like a flooded house down there.
he bit his lips and looked up at you. "liar... you're all damp and wet for me. you can't resist me can you?" he asks with a mocking tone that made you blush furiously. he suddenly dropped to his knees and blew hot air on your core, making you moan softly. hearing that made his ego boost, he dives in without a warning and starts eating you out like a ravenous lion devouring its prey.
your eyes widen and you let out a guttural sound of pleasure. your eyes then flutter shut, enjoying this heated moment. your pussy getting devoured by the school's heartthrob. he sucked hard on your clit and teasingly stroked the entrance of your clit, causing you to shudder softly. he then began to pump his finger in and out of you simultaneously while licking your clit.
his free hand moves up to squeeze your breast through the fabric of your bra. caressing it and circling your nipple. your hand shoots out to grip his hair, guiding him as your head falls back to the wall, curses escaping your mouth.
he adds another finger, stretching you out completely as he starts thrusting them inside you rapidly. he sure wasn't wasting any time... you soon began to reach your climax and shooted your sticky, white substance all over his fingers without a warning.
he groans softly and pulls his fingers out and sucks them off deeply, making sure that he didn't waste a single particle of your semen. felix leaned in and kissed you passionately, letting you taste yourself on his lips.
"we're not done yet, baby... i still need to feel your tight pussy." he let out a soft chuckle and lifted you off of the desk and walked towards the wall and set you down. you bit you lip, feeling extremely horny and quickly helped him take off his shirt and unbuttoned his jeans. his dick was noticeable as it was sticking out in his boxers, precum already staining it. felix slipped his boxers off and grabbed one of your leg, hooking your leg around his waist.
"are you ready?" he asked, ensuring that you're comfortable with this. I nodded my head vigorously. "fuck me... i need it." his eyes flashed with triumph as he thrusted in you, his cock already disappearing into your pussy as he fucks you hard, setting a brutal pace. "you're so fucking tight for me... ah, you feel so good." he compliments, his eyes closed, his hands moving to grip your hips that will leave marks and pulling it with every thrust.
your eyes rolled back, it felt too good... a series of rowdy moans come out of your mouth that bless his ears every time. felix groans as he starts thrusting more fast now. destroying every inch of your pussy, clearly forgotten about the fact that he had to meet up with his friend. "cum for me, princess. i want to see you tear apart..." he demanded, trying to hold back his own release. he wants to see you come before he does...
with a final groan, you came all over his dick. this was your second eargasm.. and it was even better than your previous one, fuck. he bites his lip and chases his own release, still thrusting in your pussy until he finally came, filling you up with his hot, warm seed. felix rests his head in the nape of your neck as he holds you close, his cock still buried deep inside you.
the room smelt like sex, it was filled with sounds of our heavy breathing. we try to catch our breath, recovering from our sex session. "that was... amazing..." you say breathlessly, looking at him again. your cheeks flushed. "you're amazing..." he responds back, a smile forming on his face.
he sighs softly and pulls out slowly and grabs his boxer, sliding it on. "we... we should do this more often.. from now on, you're my sex partner." your breath hitched at his words. "sex partner..?" you repeat as you watch felix put on his shirt and jeans. he looks at you and smirks. "you heard me. with a fuck-able body like yours... I'd be completely addicted and horny. and I'm sure you'd the say the same thing about me. Right?" he asks rhetorically, already showing off his abs.
your eyes widen and you slap his shoulder playfully and scoff. "don't get too full of yourself now..." you say, trying to sound serious but a small smile betrays your words. he chuckles softly and looks at you. "feisty now, huh? see you later, princess..." he pecks your lips gently, his actions contrasting with his previous rough demeanor. he then left your room with satisfaction and content, jumping out of the window slightly..
— this is how i imagined each of straykids members do when they try to muffle their moans by biting on your flesh as they fucked the shit out of you. forget restraint, they need grounding.
HEY— this is an 18+ post! please proceed witu viewer's descretion as this piece contains graphic smut thenes not suitable for minor readers. MDNI!!!!
CHRISTOPHER CHAHN BAHNG
Chan tries so hard to stay in control, but when he’s buried deep inside you, that control slips. He has you in missionary, legs wrapped around his waist as he fucks you with deep, powerful strokes. His face is buried in the crook of your neck, hot breath fanning against your skin.
Every time he thrusts particularly hard, a low, guttural groan tries to escape him. He bites down on your shoulder, not too hard at first, but firm enough to muffle the sound. “Fuck… you feel too good,” he growls against your skin, teeth sinking deeper as his hips snap forward. His bites are possessive but caring, leaving clear marks he’ll kiss tenderly later.
He loves the way your body jolts when he bites harder, the way you clench around him. “Sorry, baby… can’t help it,” he rasps, voice strained, before biting again to silence another moan as he pounds into you. His hands grip your waist tightly, using your body as leverage while his teeth stay latched onto your shoulder or neck. When he gets close, his bites become more desperate and messy, almost like he’s trying to ground himself. He cums with his teeth sunk into your skin, groaning deeply into your flesh as he fills you up. Afterwards, he licks and kisses every bite mark apologetically while whispering how perfect you are.
LEE LEEKNOW MINHO
Minho is a teasing sadist even when he’s losing control. He has you on all fours, one hand fisted in your hair as he fucks you hard from behind. Every deep thrust makes him groan, and instead of letting the sounds out freely, he leans down and sinks his teeth into your shoulder blade.
The bite is sharp and deliberate, meant to muffle his pretty moans. “Quiet… or I’ll bite harder,” he whispers, voice sweet but threatening, right before his teeth dig in again. He loves the way you whimper when he bites, the way your pussy clenches around him. He alternates between soft, teasing nips and hard, possessive bites that leave clear teeth marks.
He’ll bite the back of your neck, your shoulder, even the curve of your waist if he can reach it. Each bite is accompanied by a low, muffled groan that vibrates against your skin. When he’s close, his rhythm becomes punishing and his bites turn almost feral. He cums with his teeth sunk deep into your shoulder, groaning loudly into your skin as he fills you. Afterwards, he licks the bite marks almost apologetically while calling you his pretty kitten.
SEO CHANGBIN
Changbin is loud, intense, and completely unable to stay quiet when he’s lost in you. He has you bent over the edge of the bed in a deep doggy-style position, his powerful body completely covering yours from behind. His thick, muscular thighs slap against the back of yours with every brutal thrust, the sound wet and obscene in the room.
Every time his fat cock slams deep into you, hitting that perfect spot that makes your toes curl, a deep, guttural groan builds in his chest. He tries to hold it back, but he can’t. Instead, he leans forward, pressing his broad, sweaty chest against your back, and sinks his teeth hard into your shoulder. The bite is strong and possessive, his jaw clenching as he muffles a loud, animalistic moan against your skin.
“Fuck— baby, you’re so tight,” he growls, voice deep and rough, the words vibrating through his teeth into your flesh. His massive hands grip your snatchable waist tightly, fingers digging deep into your soft skin as he uses your body like a handle to pull you back onto his thick cock. The contrast is overwhelming. His huge, muscular frame against your smaller one, his teeth sunk into your shoulder while he pounds you mercilessly.
The position lets him hit even deeper, and his muffled moans become louder, more broken. He growls into your skin, teeth clenched tight as his hips stutter. He cums with a loud, deep, muffled roar, sinking his teeth hard into your shoulder as thick ropes of cum flood deep inside you. His whole body shakes against yours, muscles flexing as he holds you in place, refusing to let go until he’s completely emptied himself.
HWANG HYUNJIN
Hyunjin turns even something as raw as biting into something almost poetic. He has you riding him slowly, his back against the headboard, hands gripping your hips as you sink down onto his cock. His head falls back at first, long hair messy, lips parted in pleasure. But as the intensity builds and his thrusts become deeper, needy moans start slipping out.
He suddenly leans forward, burying his face in the curve of your neck and shoulder. His teeth graze your skin teasingly at first, then sink in with a low, breathy groan that vibrates against you. “You feel too good… I can’t stay quiet,” he whispers hotly before biting harder, teeth pressing into your soft flesh as he snaps his hips up sharply.
The bite is firm but graceful enough to leave a clear imprint, but never truly painful. He loves the way your body jolts when he bites, the way your pussy clenches around him in response. His long fingers dig into your waist as he uses your body to bounce you harder on his cock. Every deep thrust is paired with a new bite. On your collarbone, the top of your breast, the sensitive spot where your neck meets your shoulder.
Then he'd moans against your skin, teeth grazing before sinking in again. His voice is breathy and beautiful, even when muffled. As he gets closer, his bites become more desperate, almost frantic. He holds you down on his cock with one hand on your waist while his mouth stays latched onto your shoulder, moaning loudly into your skin as he cums deep inside you. Afterward, he gently kisses and licks every bite mark, admiring how pretty they look on your skin while whispering how perfect you are.
HAN JISUNG
Jisung is loud, desperate, and completely unable to stay quiet when he’s inside you. He has you in missionary, legs wrapped around his waist as he fucks you hard and fast. His face is buried in your neck, hot breath fanning against your skin with every thrust.
Every time his cock hits that perfect spot deep inside you, a loud, broken moan tries to escape him. He solves it by sinking his teeth into your shoulder, muffling the sound against your skin. “Fuck— baby, you feel so good I can’t—,” he whimpers before biting down harder, teeth digging in as his hips snap forward desperately.
His bites are messy and needy, lots of small, overlapping marks all over your shoulders, neck, and collarbone. He can’t control himself. The harder he pounds into you, the harder he bites, using your body to muffle his loud, whiny moans. “I’m sorry— you’re too tight,” he whines pathetically against your skin, teeth still latched on.
When he gets close, his thrusts turn frantic and sloppy. He buries his face completely in your neck and bites down hard on your shoulder as he cums, moaning loudly into your flesh while filling you up. His whole body shakes against you. Even after he finishes, he keeps his teeth gently pressed against your skin for a few seconds, breathing heavily, before he starts kissing and licking the marks apologetically.
LEE FELIX YONGBOK
Felix’s deep voice makes his muffled moans incredibly sexy. He has you in missionary, body pressed close to yours as he fucks you with slow, deep rolls of his hips. His face is buried in the crook of your neck, lips brushing your skin.
Every time he bottoms out, a low, rumbling groan builds in his chest. He muffles it by sinking his teeth into your shoulder, the vibration of his deep voice traveling straight through the bite. “You feel so fucking good, angel,” he groans against your skin before biting harder, teeth pressing firmly into your flesh as he grinds deep.
His bites are sensual and possessive. He loves leaving a trail of marks across your shoulders and chest. The combination of his deep voice, his teeth on your skin, and his thick cock stretching you open is overwhelming. He’ll switch between soft, teasing nips and harder bites that make you gasp. “Can’t stay quiet when you’re this tight around me,” he moans, voice beautifully low even when muffled.
When he’s close, his thrusts become deeper and more intense. He holds you tightly and bites down on your neck as he cums, groaning deeply into your skin while filling you up. The feeling of his teeth and his low, vibrating moans pushes you over the edge with him. Afterward, he gently kisses every bite mark, his deep voice soft and loving as he tells you how perfect you felt.
KIM SEUNGMIN
Seungmin tries to stay composed, but you feel too good for him to stay quiet. He has you pinned beneath him, fucking you with sharp, precise thrusts. His face is in your neck, and every time a moan threatens to slip out, he bites down on your shoulder.
The bite is firm and teasing. “Can’t even stay quiet for me?” he mocks softly against your skin before sinking his teeth in again. His bites are tender, never too painful, but hard enough to leave clear marks and make you whimper. He loves the way you clench around him when he bites. “Pathetic… getting wetter every time I bite you.”
He keeps one hand in your hair, pulling your head to the side so he has better access to your neck and shoulder. His thrusts are relentless, each one paired with a new bite. When he’s close, he bites down harder, muffling his rare but beautiful moans as he cums deep inside you. And even that bite couldn't hide how desperate his moans are spilling ending up with his whole body rigid. Afterwards, when you tried to open it up with he'll act as if that thing never happened.
YANG JEONGIN
Jeongin gets surprisingly possessive and eager when pleasure overwhelms him. He has you in doggy style or spooning, body pressed close as he fucks you hard. His face is buried in the back of your neck or shoulder, breathing heavily.
Every deep thrust makes him moan, so he solves it by biting down on your shoulder. “Noona… you feel too good,” he groans before sinking his teeth in, trying to muffle the sound. His bites start a little shy but quickly become more confident and possessive. He loves leaving marks on you, clear evidence that he was there.
As he gets more lost in pleasure, his bites become harder and more frequent. He grips your waist tightly with one hand while biting your shoulder, using your body to pull you back onto his cock. “I can’t stop… you’re too tight,” he whimpers against your skin, teeth still latched on. When he cums, he bites down firmly on your shoulder, groaning into your flesh as he fills you up, making up pull his head up just so he could gasp the pleasure out. Afterward, he becomes very soft and clingy, kissing the bite marks gently while asking if he was too rough.
a grunt escapes felix's lips as he climbs up the tree. he glances up briefly, the window was wide opened, as if it was inviting him to come inside. he climbs up a few more until he finally gets to the window. felix let out a soft sigh of exhaustion and ducked down, making sure his head wouldn't hit on the window and walked in.
meanwhile, you were in your room, changing into your pajamas. you lifted your shirt up and tossed it aside recklessly, only leaving you in a black, lacy bra.
felix stopped in his tracks. his pupils dilated. his adam's apple bulge through his neck as he swallows hard. a dent forms in his leather, black jeans. he didn't even realise it because he was too busy admiring your hourglass figure that makes him want to devour you, whole.
he quickly snapped back to reality, trying to get his shit together. he looks up again. shit. this isn't where he's supposed to be... he mistook your house for his friend's one. he internally curses himself for making such a silly mistake. he had to leave.. he looked back at you, still changing into your pajamas, he took this as an opportunity to sneak out but as he stepped back "silently", the floor creaked loudly. his eyes widen in panic and looks back at you, who was now staring at him with a shocked face.
as you heard the floor creak, you jolt around in surprise. you freeze, your eyes widening as you see the... school's heartthrob?! you were about to scream but he quickly took long strides towards you and covered your mouth, the other hand pulling you flush against his body.
"don't make a sound, princess. Be quiet for me..." he whispered softly. you were still in shock and disbelief. a mix of emotions washing over your face as you lock eyes with him for the first time.
he holds the eye contact and slowly removed his hand after ensuring that you'll be quiet. "what the fuck are you doing in my room?! you crazy pervert! how could you sneak up in a girl's room and watch her undre-" suddenly, you were cut off by his deep voice that sent shivers down your spine.
"relax... you've got it all wrong... i mistook your house for a friend's.. and that is my fault.. but... since I'm here, shouldn't we make some memories before i leave?" he asks casually, trying to seem nonchalant but a small smirk tugs at the corner of his lips that instantly betrayed his facade.
"you jerk! leave now before i-" you got cut off again. this time, he backed you into your desk and stood uncomfortably closer. "what will you do if i don't leave? are you sure that you want me to? tell me you don't want this." he asks with a serious face as his eyes bore into your hazel, brown eyes.
you couldn't speak after that. your heart started beating rapidly. butterflies forming in your stomach. "i-... i.." you look at him again, your knees go weak as he stares back at you with newfound intent and lust. "tell me... tell me you want me to leave..."
you gather the right words and look at him with lust and something unexplainable.. "don't leave... i want you to... i want you to stay... please?" his patience snaps at your plea and he lifts you up by your thighs and set you on the desk before scattering the papers off of the desk. he leans in and kisses you deeply, his tongue briefly sliding across your lower lip before devouring your lips like a starved man.
a small gasp escapes your lips but he greedily swallows it and grips your waist tightly. his tongue finally exploring the entirety of your mouth. your eyes flutter shut, your legs wrap around his waist and you arms wrap around his neck, pulling him close. he groans softly as he feels your legs wrapped around him.
he breaks the kiss and looks at you with desire. "you're wet, aren't you?" your heart skipped a beat and i clear my throat, your cheeks flushed with embarrassment. "w-what are you talking about.. I'm not wet." he smirked and leaned in closer, his hot breath fanning just right above my lips. "let's debunk that, shall we?"
without waiting for your response, his hand already started to travel south. heading for the waistband of your panties. he pulled at it and snapped it against your skin teasingly and pulled it down without hesitation. his gaze dropped to your now exposed pussy that's dripping wet. the centre of the panties already damp, it was like a flooded house down there.
he bit his lips and looked up at you. "liar... you're all damp and wet for me. you can't resist me can you?" he asks with a mocking tone that made you blush furiously. he suddenly dropped to his knees and blew hot air on your core, making you moan softly. hearing that made his ego boost, he dives in without a warning and starts eating you out like a ravenous lion devouring its prey.
your eyes widen and you let out a guttural sound of pleasure. your eyes then flutter shut, enjoying this heated moment. your pussy getting devoured by the school's heartthrob. he sucked hard on your clit and teasingly stroked the entrance of your clit, causing you to shudder softly. he then began to pump his finger in and out of you simultaneously while licking your clit.
his free hand moves up to squeeze your breast through the fabric of your bra. caressing it and circling your nipple. your hand shoots out to grip his hair, guiding him as your head falls back to the wall, curses escaping your mouth.
he adds another finger, stretching you out completely as he starts thrusting them inside you rapidly. he sure wasn't wasting any time... you soon began to reach your climax and shooted your sticky, white substance all over his fingers without a warning.
he groans softly and pulls his fingers out and sucks them off deeply, making sure that he didn't waste a single particle of your semen. felix leaned in and kissed you passionately, letting you taste yourself on his lips.
"we're not done yet, baby... i still need to feel your tight pussy." he let out a soft chuckle and lifted you off of the desk and walked towards the wall and set you down. you bit you lip, feeling extremely horny and quickly helped him take off his shirt and unbuttoned his jeans. his dick was noticeable as it was sticking out in his boxers, precum already staining it. felix slipped his boxers off and grabbed one of your leg, hooking your leg around his waist.
"are you ready?" he asked, ensuring that you're comfortable with this. I nodded my head vigorously. "fuck me... i need it." his eyes flashed with triumph as he thrusted in you, his cock already disappearing into your pussy as he fucks you hard, setting a brutal pace. "you're so fucking tight for me... ah, you feel so good." he compliments, his eyes closed, his hands moving to grip your hips that will leave marks and pulling it with every thrust.
your eyes rolled back, it felt too good... a series of rowdy moans come out of your mouth that bless his ears every time. felix groans as he starts thrusting more fast now. destroying every inch of your pussy, clearly forgotten about the fact that he had to meet up with his friend. "cum for me, princess. i want to see you tear apart..." he demanded, trying to hold back his own release. he wants to see you come before he does...
with a final groan, you came all over his dick. this was your second eargasm.. and it was even better than your previous one, fuck. he bites his lip and chases his own release, still thrusting in your pussy until he finally came, filling you up with his hot, warm seed. felix rests his head in the nape of your neck as he holds you close, his cock still buried deep inside you.
the room smelt like sex, it was filled with sounds of our heavy breathing. we try to catch our breath, recovering from our sex session. "that was... amazing..." you say breathlessly, looking at him again. your cheeks flushed. "you're amazing..." he responds back, a smile forming on his face.
he sighs softly and pulls out slowly and grabs his boxer, sliding it on. "we... we should do this more often.. from now on, you're my sex partner." your breath hitched at his words. "sex partner..?" you repeat as you watch felix put on his shirt and jeans. he looks at you and smirks. "you heard me. with a fuck-able body like yours... I'd be completely addicted and horny. and I'm sure you'd the say the same thing about me. Right?" he asks rhetorically, already showing off his abs.
your eyes widen and you slap his shoulder playfully and scoff. "don't get too full of yourself now..." you say, trying to sound serious but a small smile betrays your words. he chuckles softly and looks at you. "feisty now, huh? see you later, princess..." he pecks your lips gently, his actions contrasting with his previous rough demeanor. he then left your room with satisfaction and content, jumping out of the window slightly..
a smirk tugged at the corner of hyunjin's lips as his eyes locked onto yours. He pushed himself off of the wall and stalked towards you like a predator stalking its prey.
"we have seven minutes, we should make the most of it. Don't you think?" he asked with a seductive and sensational tone.
my eyes enlarged at his words, a lump forming in my throat. I could feel the temperature of the room starting to get more and more hot.
"are you crazy? we're enemies!" i finally state, finding the right words. Hyunjin walked closer, backing me into a wall. He placed one hand on the wall, beside my head.
his voice suddenly turned low as he gazed into my eyes with desire and lust.
"who said enemies can't have sex? i want you. Right now." his eyes flicker down to my lips briefly then back at my eyes, his eyes silently seeking for consent.
a deep shade of rosy pink appeared on my cheeks, my heart hammering rapidly as he inches closer. I couldn't even utter a word. I look up at him, my lips parted without even realising it.
"you're taking too long..." he then captures my lips into a heated and passionate kiss, his veiny hands already starting to explore my body. He tastes like a mix of cigarette and mint.
i respond back eagerly, my actions contradicting to the words i said earlier. My arms wrap around his neck, pulling him closer until there's no space between us. Our bodies flushed against each others. My tongue slides smoothly in his mouth as a soft moan escapes my lips.
hyunjin groaned in pleasure, his lips traveled to my neck, marking me with open-mouthed kisses and intense love bites that will last for who knows, how many months? he then broke the kiss, a string of saliva connecting from his lips to mine.
he picked me up in a bridal style and tossed me onto the bed, already unbuttoning his shirt frantically. His shirt that was once on, lays discarded and forgotten on the floor. Hyunjin's hand slipped into my skirt and into my panties, feeling how wet and damp you are down there.
i let out a soft gasp and look up at him, my eyes fluttering shut.
"a-ah, hyunjin." i moan his name making his eyes darken even more.
he thrusted two fingesr inside me, curling both of them.
"that's right, baby... say my name... while i fuck you with my finger..." he breathes out, his hand going faster with every moan that escapes from my mouth. I let out a guttural moan as he hits my g-spot expertly.
"hyunjin... i... i'm close!" i cry out as i feel my climax building up, nearly reaching its peak. He smirked and went even more fast.
"then cum for me, let it all out." he said imperatively, encouraging me. I let out a loud moan as I finally cum. His fingers coated with my sticky semen. He brings it up to his lips and licks them clean.
"you taste luscious, baby.. but we're not done yet... we're nowhere near done." he then unbuttons my shirt and slides off my skirt and panties together. Hyunjin paused, running his tongue over his lips as he takes in the scenery. Me sprawled out on the bed, looking vulnerable and sexy.
"fuck... you've been hiding all of this from me, huh?" his control snapped and he unhooks my bra with practised ease and quickly latches his lips onto my nipple. Sucking it deeply, his tongue swirling over it.
i grip his hair tightly, another soft moan escaping my lips yet once again.. this feeling... his lips sucking my breasts. Fuck, i'm supposed to hate him... I'm supposed to push him away but this..? it feels so good..
his free hand rolled my other nipple between his fingers, pinching it and squeezing it lightly while his mouth leaves bites marks on my other breast. His lips then leave my nipples and drop down to my stomach, leaving soft kisses and bite marks, where only he can see.
he settles in between my legs, parting them as he stares at my exposed pussy that's dripping wet again... he dived in and starts eating me out with hunger and desperate need. Sucking on my clit while squeezing my breasts. I throw my head back in pleasure, guiding his head. I don't want this to finish..
he then looked up. "i need to be inside you.. raw..." he quickly pulled out his extreme long, hard dick that was already leaking with precum at the tip. "are you ready?" i bite my lip and nod courageously. "please fuck me hyunjin... i need your cock in me.." hyunjin's patience snapped and he thrusts into me, his hand lightly squeezing my neck as he pounds into me with every breath he took.
a guttural grunt escapes from my lips, my eyes rolling back. I felt like i was on cloud 9. My face showed ecstasy and pleasure. Hyunjin doesn't stop his pace. Instead, he increases it, going faster and faster until his dick is basically hitting my womb.
the room was filled with sounds of skin slapping, moans overlapping each others and more. He hits a particularly sweet spot which caused me to yelp due to the intimacy and stimulation. Tears of ecstasy starts to form in my eyes, my legs shake atrociously as I feel another orgasm coming.
"i- I'm gonna cum!" i shout and finally cum all over his dick. Hyunjin collapses on top of me, both of us breathing heavily and trying to catch our breaths. That was... Something. His dick stays buried deep inside me as he peppered my face with soft and tender kisses, contrasting with his earlier rough demeanor.
"you did so well... so tight for me.." he praised, placing another tender kiss on the tip of my nose, a soft smile forms on both of our faces.
— this is how i imagined each of straykids members do when they try to muffle their moans by biting on your flesh as they fucked the shit out of you. forget restraint, they need grounding.
HEY— this is an 18+ post! please proceed witu viewer's descretion as this piece contains graphic smut thenes not suitable for minor readers. MDNI!!!!
CHRISTOPHER CHAHN BAHNG
Chan tries so hard to stay in control, but when he’s buried deep inside you, that control slips. He has you in missionary, legs wrapped around his waist as he fucks you with deep, powerful strokes. His face is buried in the crook of your neck, hot breath fanning against your skin.
Every time he thrusts particularly hard, a low, guttural groan tries to escape him. He bites down on your shoulder, not too hard at first, but firm enough to muffle the sound. “Fuck… you feel too good,” he growls against your skin, teeth sinking deeper as his hips snap forward. His bites are possessive but caring, leaving clear marks he’ll kiss tenderly later.
He loves the way your body jolts when he bites harder, the way you clench around him. “Sorry, baby… can’t help it,” he rasps, voice strained, before biting again to silence another moan as he pounds into you. His hands grip your waist tightly, using your body as leverage while his teeth stay latched onto your shoulder or neck. When he gets close, his bites become more desperate and messy, almost like he’s trying to ground himself. He cums with his teeth sunk into your skin, groaning deeply into your flesh as he fills you up. Afterwards, he licks and kisses every bite mark apologetically while whispering how perfect you are.
LEE LEEKNOW MINHO
Minho is a teasing sadist even when he’s losing control. He has you on all fours, one hand fisted in your hair as he fucks you hard from behind. Every deep thrust makes him groan, and instead of letting the sounds out freely, he leans down and sinks his teeth into your shoulder blade.
The bite is sharp and deliberate, meant to muffle his pretty moans. “Quiet… or I’ll bite harder,” he whispers, voice sweet but threatening, right before his teeth dig in again. He loves the way you whimper when he bites, the way your pussy clenches around him. He alternates between soft, teasing nips and hard, possessive bites that leave clear teeth marks.
He’ll bite the back of your neck, your shoulder, even the curve of your waist if he can reach it. Each bite is accompanied by a low, muffled groan that vibrates against your skin. When he’s close, his rhythm becomes punishing and his bites turn almost feral. He cums with his teeth sunk deep into your shoulder, groaning loudly into your skin as he fills you. Afterwards, he licks the bite marks almost apologetically while calling you his pretty kitten.
SEO CHANGBIN
Changbin is loud, intense, and completely unable to stay quiet when he’s lost in you. He has you bent over the edge of the bed in a deep doggy-style position, his powerful body completely covering yours from behind. His thick, muscular thighs slap against the back of yours with every brutal thrust, the sound wet and obscene in the room.
Every time his fat cock slams deep into you, hitting that perfect spot that makes your toes curl, a deep, guttural groan builds in his chest. He tries to hold it back, but he can’t. Instead, he leans forward, pressing his broad, sweaty chest against your back, and sinks his teeth hard into your shoulder. The bite is strong and possessive, his jaw clenching as he muffles a loud, animalistic moan against your skin.
“Fuck— baby, you’re so tight,” he growls, voice deep and rough, the words vibrating through his teeth into your flesh. His massive hands grip your snatchable waist tightly, fingers digging deep into your soft skin as he uses your body like a handle to pull you back onto his thick cock. The contrast is overwhelming. His huge, muscular frame against your smaller one, his teeth sunk into your shoulder while he pounds you mercilessly.
The position lets him hit even deeper, and his muffled moans become louder, more broken. He growls into your skin, teeth clenched tight as his hips stutter. He cums with a loud, deep, muffled roar, sinking his teeth hard into your shoulder as thick ropes of cum flood deep inside you. His whole body shakes against yours, muscles flexing as he holds you in place, refusing to let go until he’s completely emptied himself.
HWANG HYUNJIN
Hyunjin turns even something as raw as biting into something almost poetic. He has you riding him slowly, his back against the headboard, hands gripping your hips as you sink down onto his cock. His head falls back at first, long hair messy, lips parted in pleasure. But as the intensity builds and his thrusts become deeper, needy moans start slipping out.
He suddenly leans forward, burying his face in the curve of your neck and shoulder. His teeth graze your skin teasingly at first, then sink in with a low, breathy groan that vibrates against you. “You feel too good… I can’t stay quiet,” he whispers hotly before biting harder, teeth pressing into your soft flesh as he snaps his hips up sharply.
The bite is firm but graceful enough to leave a clear imprint, but never truly painful. He loves the way your body jolts when he bites, the way your pussy clenches around him in response. His long fingers dig into your waist as he uses your body to bounce you harder on his cock. Every deep thrust is paired with a new bite. On your collarbone, the top of your breast, the sensitive spot where your neck meets your shoulder.
Then he'd moans against your skin, teeth grazing before sinking in again. His voice is breathy and beautiful, even when muffled. As he gets closer, his bites become more desperate, almost frantic. He holds you down on his cock with one hand on your waist while his mouth stays latched onto your shoulder, moaning loudly into your skin as he cums deep inside you. Afterward, he gently kisses and licks every bite mark, admiring how pretty they look on your skin while whispering how perfect you are.
HAN JISUNG
Jisung is loud, desperate, and completely unable to stay quiet when he’s inside you. He has you in missionary, legs wrapped around his waist as he fucks you hard and fast. His face is buried in your neck, hot breath fanning against your skin with every thrust.
Every time his cock hits that perfect spot deep inside you, a loud, broken moan tries to escape him. He solves it by sinking his teeth into your shoulder, muffling the sound against your skin. “Fuck— baby, you feel so good I can’t—,” he whimpers before biting down harder, teeth digging in as his hips snap forward desperately.
His bites are messy and needy, lots of small, overlapping marks all over your shoulders, neck, and collarbone. He can’t control himself. The harder he pounds into you, the harder he bites, using your body to muffle his loud, whiny moans. “I’m sorry— you’re too tight,” he whines pathetically against your skin, teeth still latched on.
When he gets close, his thrusts turn frantic and sloppy. He buries his face completely in your neck and bites down hard on your shoulder as he cums, moaning loudly into your flesh while filling you up. His whole body shakes against you. Even after he finishes, he keeps his teeth gently pressed against your skin for a few seconds, breathing heavily, before he starts kissing and licking the marks apologetically.
LEE FELIX YONGBOK
Felix’s deep voice makes his muffled moans incredibly sexy. He has you in missionary, body pressed close to yours as he fucks you with slow, deep rolls of his hips. His face is buried in the crook of your neck, lips brushing your skin.
Every time he bottoms out, a low, rumbling groan builds in his chest. He muffles it by sinking his teeth into your shoulder, the vibration of his deep voice traveling straight through the bite. “You feel so fucking good, angel,” he groans against your skin before biting harder, teeth pressing firmly into your flesh as he grinds deep.
His bites are sensual and possessive. He loves leaving a trail of marks across your shoulders and chest. The combination of his deep voice, his teeth on your skin, and his thick cock stretching you open is overwhelming. He’ll switch between soft, teasing nips and harder bites that make you gasp. “Can’t stay quiet when you’re this tight around me,” he moans, voice beautifully low even when muffled.
When he’s close, his thrusts become deeper and more intense. He holds you tightly and bites down on your neck as he cums, groaning deeply into your skin while filling you up. The feeling of his teeth and his low, vibrating moans pushes you over the edge with him. Afterward, he gently kisses every bite mark, his deep voice soft and loving as he tells you how perfect you felt.
KIM SEUNGMIN
Seungmin tries to stay composed, but you feel too good for him to stay quiet. He has you pinned beneath him, fucking you with sharp, precise thrusts. His face is in your neck, and every time a moan threatens to slip out, he bites down on your shoulder.
The bite is firm and teasing. “Can’t even stay quiet for me?” he mocks softly against your skin before sinking his teeth in again. His bites are tender, never too painful, but hard enough to leave clear marks and make you whimper. He loves the way you clench around him when he bites. “Pathetic… getting wetter every time I bite you.”
He keeps one hand in your hair, pulling your head to the side so he has better access to your neck and shoulder. His thrusts are relentless, each one paired with a new bite. When he’s close, he bites down harder, muffling his rare but beautiful moans as he cums deep inside you. And even that bite couldn't hide how desperate his moans are spilling ending up with his whole body rigid. Afterwards, when you tried to open it up with he'll act as if that thing never happened.
YANG JEONGIN
Jeongin gets surprisingly possessive and eager when pleasure overwhelms him. He has you in doggy style or spooning, body pressed close as he fucks you hard. His face is buried in the back of your neck or shoulder, breathing heavily.
Every deep thrust makes him moan, so he solves it by biting down on your shoulder. “Noona… you feel too good,” he groans before sinking his teeth in, trying to muffle the sound. His bites start a little shy but quickly become more confident and possessive. He loves leaving marks on you, clear evidence that he was there.
As he gets more lost in pleasure, his bites become harder and more frequent. He grips your waist tightly with one hand while biting your shoulder, using your body to pull you back onto his cock. “I can’t stop… you’re too tight,” he whimpers against your skin, teeth still latched on. When he cums, he bites down firmly on your shoulder, groaning into your flesh as he fills you up, making up pull his head up just so he could gasp the pleasure out. Afterward, he becomes very soft and clingy, kissing the bite marks gently while asking if he was too rough.
