calling from the soul

auri | 20 | nb genderfluid, any pronouns | p5r, isat, twewy, utdr

[snowdinstars]

hello :)

im auri!!

im currently writing defying the roche limit (shuake-centric au) on ao3 and have a few oneshot ideas rotating in my brain. im aurivee on there

i kinda rb whatever i feel like on here but it's mostly fandom stuff. my current main fandoms are p5 and p3, in stars and time, undertale/deltarune, disco elysium, and slay the princess, though i do rb other stuff from time to time :) i also think about shuake/akeshu, narumitsu, and madohomu a lot. im very rb heavy and very socially anxious so i dont make a lot of my own posts on here. one day i promise

im terrified of initiating conversations but if u wanna be mutuals and yap with me im always down!!

i dont tag spoilers usually but if there's something i frequently post about that you're trying to avoid spoilers for lmk and i'll start doing so!

uhh idk what else to put here. how do you do these pinned post things.

[battle-for-dyke-island]

this is what healthcare is like as a disabled person

[sundered-stars]

The second one especially hurts because that's a "therapy" I've been through.

[18-footer]

WE’VE NEVER BEEN THIS BACK BEFORE

[bluevelvet-room]

nothing but respect for MY pride flag

[chronicgirlfail]

"i be profen" .. uhhh okay? and michael be jordan

[pretentiouslimericks]

It feels like I’ve talked about this before, but to me the funniest version of Portal is if Chell is deaf.

Like, most of the major story beats, at least the ones that directly affect her, have a prominent visual component so she’s following along with the basics. But she has no idea who cave johnson is, or what wheatley was trying to explain to her, and she certainly wasn’t hurt by any of glados’ insults.

but the best part of this headcanon is imagining glados checking chell’s personnel file years down the line, noticing the word “deaf” for the first time, and just going “WHAT???”

[emptyjunior]

Glados learning sign language so Chell can hear at least one of her excellent monologues and Chell just closes her eyes

[junebug-jamboree]

[baxs-tblr]

Being a fan of a morally grey character is frustrating because people will try to reduce them to either being an innocent little angel or a completely heartless monster and both of these interpretations just take away what makes the character interesting

[akechidefender]

Cognition

[tymamomimi]

me gettin obsessed with p5 right now with both p4r and p6 hittin the ground running is actual diabolical timing

[pocket-deer-belly]

it was never really "cringe culture" it's always been about harassing the poor, neurodivergent, queer, fat and non-white.

[tdaywasamaritale]

pride on tumblr is so fun!!!11!!! the heart turns into a rainbow when you hit the like button 😆😆😆 the tumblr staff and algorithm continues to be exceedingly transphobic and especially transmisogynistic. trans women are getting banned left and right for merely existing. please don’t let another version of rainbow capitalism distract you

[tikihoneybee]

my piece for @knifesedgezine!!!!

leftover sales are now open!!

[marimeigh]

[flaskrobonoid]

anytime i do a character ask game I am reminded that this is the kind of person I am and its awesome i lov e my this

I DID NOT MAKE THIS IMAGE IT’S BY @BEDPUP ON TWITTER!!!!!

[snowdinstars]

PERSONA 6 IS REAL

[snowdinstars]

pspspsps persona friends

a casting call for an english fandub of chapter 4 of p5x has just opened up :] i'm involved as the project as a va and wanted to share because i think it's gonna be really neat

they're planning on dubbing the rest of the main story and the synergies (confidants/social links) as well!

if ur at all interested in voice acting go check it out, you don't have to be familiar w p5x :]

[lacystar]

ive made the joke of "haha all the pts were at the shrine at the same time joker and sumire were which implies they deliberately chose not to invite him" to my friends and written it off as a writing mistake but I really just sat with it and. oh my god. all of his friends didn't invite him.

the phantom thieves are still friends with joker in the new reality. they have the new years party. they are happy to see him. but he is now an afterthought. there is no more texting him to go to the palace or hang out or darts or anything. he has become secondary in their life because the problems he helped them work through never occurred in the first place-- and their bonds are largely built on him acting as an assistant to them. I dont doubt that there will still be phantom thief hangouts in maruki's reality and that they'll stay good friends, but joker no longer gets priority nor special attention. he's facing a degree of abandonment which, potentially, can explain some of his motivation to get the old reality back. He no longer has a use to them, and depending on how you read joker that could be a worst fear realized for him.

this makes the akechi thing even worse because he does seek joker out specifically. joker is the one person who remains a priority for him because joker is the single person he currently cares about, whether he admits it or not. it's possible to read 2/2 as a double failsafe on maruki's part, then, because it could be a way of signaling "your friends don't actually need you deep down. you are nothing but a tool to fix their problems. there is one single person who doesn't view you that way, who actually values you, and I will take him away from you if you don't comply."

I dont think the pts actually dont care for joker of course. my optimistic reading is that it's an internal logic error: ren came into their lives as a consequence of something they lost or needed, so once that thing is returned or fixed their history is wiped. this can be seen whenever joker reminds one of them, i.e. ryuji or morgana, about how they met and they become confused. it's difficult to form a deep bond with someone you don't have history with; I have friends in passing that I'm not close with and I treat them with the same general pleasantness the pts do to joker during the start of third sem. obviously if they dont remember him their feelings won't run as deeply. I think this is also supported by the fact that that when they start to have doubts, even before fully snapping out of it, they go to Leblanc to seek joker out. that single act of wanting to right a wrong or sort out a misunderstanding makes me feel as though they do have a vested interest in their friendships-- it's just unfortunate joker isn't there to see it happen.

I know that the reason joker seeks the thieves out and earns their priority during normal gameplay is because he is the player character and that is the way the video game must work, but again, akechi shows that there's still a difference there. and regardless, I think it says something interesting about joker, if you choose to read it in such a way. the abandonment is undoubtedly bad, yes, but there's more to grapple with there when joker feels the need to return the true reality not just out of a sense of justice, but a desire for control. a desire to become the center of his friends' world again, even if just subconsciously, and get their attention back. and then, when 2/2 rolls around, he must make the decision of whether or not to hand over that control of his friends for a more minuscule control of akechi-- which he now might delicately view as one of the only "real" connections he currently has after all. and if he does, the horrible irony is that on the other side, that connection will also become just as fake as the others are.