it's just really fucking frustrating that we live in a world where I grew up being trained to believe that addicts are unloveable. and then I became an addict and I was still told that addicts are unloveable. and I just have to deal with the fact that there are people out there who believe that I don't deserve love, or that my partner is brave for loving me, or that my family and friends are suffering just from me existing. and that's fine that's just the way it is
but then on top of that. I have to deal with tumblr users telling me (an addict!!!) that they hate addicts in a cool new way that I should be totally sympathetic towards. see, they had a family member who was the most evil person on the planet! and that family member was an addict! so they can't help the fact that they now want all addicts to die! they can't help it! blast them all.
"addicts are unloveable" isn't often said in exactly those words, of course. it's fictional addicts being framed as morally corrupt for being addicts. it's famous addicts being treated as circus animals in the media. it's "homeless people are mostly just addicts" and "they should all be in prison" and "don't give them money, they'll spend it on drugs". it's talking about parents of addicts in these hushed tones that indicate that they're all heroes for supporting their child in this difficult time. it's talking about parents who are addicts as if they're the most selfish and irresponsible and uniquely evil people on the planet. it's everywhere and it's all the time and it never ends














