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evangjcli:

“ our python boys are way cute and all but, ” she paused as she extended the bag of cheetos, “ girls are better. ” vera always enjoyed solana’s company, in fact the two girls had clicked instantly in college. “ ugh, i just loooove girls, ” vera chimed in, a wide smile spreading across her lips. she was reminded of one girl in particular – jade – who she now had the pleasure of calling her girlfriend. her thoughts drifted to jade momentarily, but she snapped herself back into the present quickly. vera let out a laugh, “ i know exactly what you mean. ” vera felt it was a testament of their friendship that they could communicate solely with gestures.

“By a long shot,” she agreed with a content smile. “They’re just... so cute and beautiful and lovely and ethereal.” Letting out a sigh, she slumped back in her seat and rested her head on the couch, looking towards Vera with pouted lips. Though she didn’t mention her name, the slightest bit of sadness in her eyes made it quite obvious who suddenly came to Solana’s mind. “I need to get out more,” she spoke to pick up her mood again. "Have a good time. Immerse myself in the island. --- I feel like it’s one thing to visit a place and see all the landmarks and tourist spots, but to actually be a part of the island is something completely different---makes the trip special... does that make sense?”

#c.#vera.

athcnvs:

“No, no, you’re fine, Sol,” Athena reassured, shaking her head. “I just—” she yawned, covering her mouth, “I just happened to wake up around the time you came by, no biggie.” She knew that she looked tired. Tiredness had become an integral part of her disposition as of late, but she just accepted it at this point. “I feel like I’ve been sleeping too much, if I’m being honest, so I’d say that it’s best if I keep out of my room, where beds for sleeping are. Thanks for the offer, though. I really appreciate it. Wouldn’t want someone to find me passed out on the floor.” She looked off to the side. “It’s not as comfortable as one would think.” Athena couldn’t help but find the girl’s situation amusing. She couldn’t imagine herself ever having a conversation like that with her family. “It’s a… solid argument, I suppose. You can’t really get pregnant all by yourself. Even with science, other people are involved, so.”

“Ah, I see.” Solana smiled, humming a relaxed chuckle. “Honestly, wouldn’t be surprised if someone accidentally tripped over your sleeping body.” She could already envision the scene in her head, one of their friends drunkily stumbling in, completely unaware of the sleeping girl on the floor. She shrugged and gave a nod, “Right? --- But I dunno, I don’t really think she has to worry about me getting pregnant. I don’t really... sleep around. And you know, if I did, probably wouldn’t be with a guy, anyway.” The thought didn’t appeal to her much, especially with her emotional state. Besides, she already began to believe that she was better alone. “Well... if you don’t wanna stay cooped up in your room, we should do something---anything. What have you done so far since we got here?”

#c.#athena.

kaiuhs:

“you’re not weird like that ? hm, i don’t know, sol. i’m just not buying it. that’s exactly what athena said when she told me she doesn’t collect nudes, but i swear to god that girl does. just like how my instinct is telling me now that you talk to your family about your sex dreams !” kaia laughed, pushing the topic to the center of attention once more as she tried to get answers and a response from solana. listening to sol talk about her family brought a smile to her face, but made her heart ache at the same time as it was a reminder of how her family was the opposite of that. “i heard it’s always heard the first time around, since you’re getting used to not seeing your family and all.” she said with a shrug, despite not being able to relate to that feeling. “ooo, you were a princeton girl, huh ? all of those big schools never do, honestly. it’s fucking terrible. but hey, if the two of us hadn’t gone to penn state we never would have met !” she pointed out, chuckling afterwards. “you applied to upenn ? dude, that’s great ! have they responded yet ? have they accepted you ?”

“Wait, Athena collects nudes?” Pouting her lips, she nodded in an almost approving matter. “Interesting... Well, you can believe what you want you weirdo. If thinking me sharing my sex dreams with my family satisfies your weird instincts, then I’ll let it be. --- Hey, might as well believe I’m secretly a popstar living a double life.” She poked Kaia’s side with a giggle, “Yeah, you’re right, though. I wouldn’t have met you, Vera...” Romina’s face appeared in her mind, but bringing her up might’ve lead to questions---questions she didn’t feel like addressing, “the rest of the Pythons. You guys really remind me of my family, and that definitely helped, you know, the whole college experience.” She gave a nod, her aura becoming slightly uneasy. “Mhm, I did all the paperwork before the trip, but I won’t find out the decision until around mid-December---it’s early decision.” It was expected that she had her application done months before the deadline. That’s just the way she did things. “I just wanted to be on top of it all, you know? Have the vacation be as stress free as possible.”

#c.#kaia.#IM SORRY IT TAKES ME SO LONG TO REPLY

jaewvns:

solana’s shove hit him like a soft nudge, his theatrics causing his balance to falter as he wrapped his fingers around the countertop to insinuate he needed it’s help. “first you make me choke, then you shove me. are you sure you want to be in a rebel subgroup with me, or are you trying to be the last man standing?” jae queried, a wary smile surfacing at the prospect. despite the banter, however, he nodded his head in acknowledgement of her thanks before swaying around the corner in order to sit back down next to her. with one foot propped underneath the chair, the other swinging mindlessly, he waited as she swam in deep thought before finally speaking. “you can have an average of five dreams a night, even up to seven. that’s weird that you can’t remember one of them,” he cooly stated before proceeding, “but that sounds like a good thing to me if it was a nightmare. that shit can stay in the dark.” jae humored, before swallowing harshly at her words. he could feel solana’s inquisitive gaze on him, and he almost felt relieved that he didn’t meet that as he dismissed her with a shrug. “i don’t remember my dreams, and when i do i usually forget them like, an hour after waking up. i don’t dream too often.”

She gave a playful eyeroll in response his statements, though, ‘last man standing’ was a title that intrigued her. “Yeah, I guess I’m just weird.” Dreams never carried much meaning for Solana, as she believed they were simply a twisted recap of your day or thoughts swimming around one’s subconscious. A giggle left her lips at the talk of nightmares, now those she did tend to remember. “Nightmares are stressful as hell, but at least you feel relieved when you wake up. Like, I’d rather that than have a really good dream and wake up disappointed. The latter gives false hope, and I feel like that hurts more in the long run.” Nonexistent apologies and imaginary reconciliations. Fictitious kisses. Fake happiness. “I think that’s normal. Besides, ‘it does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live,’” she quoted, holding out a finger as if to make a point. “Anyway, enough dream talk, what do you have planned for today?”

#c.#jaewon.#im the 69th note boi heh heh hehhh #also pls im p sure im the slowest replier in this rp bye

teagcn:

“amen!” teagan shouted as she clapped. solana was stating pure facts. “men out here doing the bare minimum and getting praised for it while everyone else is busting their asses to get at least half the praise they’re given on the daily. it’s a mess.” she shook her head. the world was disappointing, but what else was new? teagan laughed as she watched solana calm herself down before she got heated. it wasn’t new, this type of thing happened a lot. although they didn’t get a long at first, their saltiness for certain things was what brought them together and teagan lived for it. sol was the one person teags knew that she could bitch to about anything and everything without feeling bad about it. “it’s barbie as princess and the pauper, i’m having a barbie movie marathon right now. do you wanna join me? it’ll be fun!” she asked, lifting up the blanket she was cuddled in a little to offer solana a spot under it with her.

Hearing Teagan agree was music to her ears as she always appreciated her fellow salt mate. With a friendship built on being angry and annoyed at others, it was easy for Solana to go off about this type of thing with her. But although it was nice to voice her frustrations, she did promise herself to try and keep her complaining to a minimum on the trip. She was on vacation after all and owed it to herself to have a good time. “No way?” She looked back and forth from her friend to the television, suddenly feeling her heart become lighter. “Damn, I haven’t seen this movie in forever.” The corners of her mouth rose as she scooted under the blanket, My cousin and I used to dress up as the princess and the pauper. My bratty ass always wanted to be the princess, though," she admitted. "Even though I was more of a Bratz girl—not gonna lie—Barbie movies we're the shit."

#c.#teagan.

grahamfr:

graham with excitement bubbling up in him nearly choked on his carrot as he gathered the words, “oh shit.” he set the bowl aside and tapped his own chest, “i’m good. we’re good.” he told her before grabbing the bowl again and holding it to his chest, “anwyays, that was her?! she’s giving you life lessons on masturbating.” he smiled before taking a full baby carrot into his mouth, “i liked free food so i’d never complain.” he looked up at her with sly grin, “she’s right though about that, you know how much frustration masturbating gets you out of?” he laughed to himself now, “huh? what the heck..” he trailed, “don’t agree with her. i’m not that loud.” he mumbled before taking another bite, “the world is just too quiet. they ain’t ready for this.” he pointed to himself from head to toe.

She immediately grasped a hand on Graham's thigh, a mix of worry and horror masking her face. "God." Loudly exhaling, she put a hand to her own chest before pushing his leg away. "Yeah, she has an interesting sense of humor. Believe it or not, she's one of the wisest of my grandma's brothers and sisters. Though... she did ask me if you were still handsome. I said 'eh'," she teased, scrunching her nose. Grabbing another carrot, she took a bite as she listened to the other. "True. But it does make you feel lonely as well." The mood shifted for a moment before she switched the topic back to Graham. Enlightened by his response, she let out a laugh and nodded. "I admire your self-assurance. I think the world would benefit from being a little more like you sometimes."

#c.#graham.

benjamihn:

the last thing benjamin expected was for solana, in all of her glory, to sit down and expand on his joke. “uh huh.” was all he murmured at fist, eyebrows raised. a lopsided smile settling onto his face slowly as she kept talking. part of him, a very small part, wanted to push the conversation further. his playful nature coming into effect. but seeing her expression after they lapsed into silence, he decided not to. even though they weren’t good friends, benji knew enough about solana that she wouldn’t respond well to his unwarranted teasing. generally, he kept things simple with her. “a little bit.” he laughed. “do you want me to pretend that you didn’t say any of that, or…” benjamin trailed off questioningly. but still, a hint of teasing slipped into his tone. “i agree with all of it, though, by the way.”

Solana felt her heart rate increasing as she fixed her eyes on the television. Caffeine did that to her and she scolded herself for not having her mouth under control. Chuckling awkwardly, she put a hand to her temple, slightly hiding her face. "It's... whatever," she said, trying to play it of as it didn't bother her. But once he made another comment, Solana dropped her hand, making a face. "Really?" she responded, pretending to be unamused. She chuckled again shortly after, shaking her head as she looked to the ceiling in disbelief. "I mean I know what I said makes sense. And besides, guys talk about it all the time so why can't I?" Even with the most peculiar things, she always owned up to what she said. "'Masturbation is not a crime'. I saw that on a t-shirt once."

#c.#benjamin.#i legit saw that on a t-shirt once in the philippines lmaO

rcminas:

if romina was being honest, she missed the sun. as much as she couldsometimes casually complain about the heat, she was a warm weather enthusiast, and if it rained for too many days in a row her mood could very easily drop. which is why as soon as the rain stopped and the sun had come out again romina had decided to take advantage of it and lounge by the pool, a magazine in hand as she headed over. she could hear music playing so the girl was anticipating company, but what she wasn’t anticipating was for it to be solana. romina had found the sun after all but it wasn’t the star in the sky, it was her sun, the girl sprawled out on a chair not even a few feet away from her as she halted in her tracks. she avoided looking at the other, as if this too could blind her if she stared directly. romina avoided her eyes, which were probably filled with a pain raw enough to match her own, a pain she certainly wasn’t ready to decipher in fear it didn’t mean what hers did. she avoided looking at the exposed skin on display thanks to the other’s swim suit, the same tanned skin romina had brushed her fingers across more gentle than she’d ever done with anyone else before. instead her gaze was foolishly trained on the speakers, wishing for a moment the music had been a little louder so she could have pretended not to hear the other’s greeting. she hated everything about this, but most of all romina hated how she couldn’t bring herself to turn back and go inside. because if she was being honest then she’d have to say she missed being around solana, and even now when everything hurt there was still something so good about hearing her voice, about seeing her so close once more. “ hey. ” romina greeted back, still awkwardly standing there. she forced herself to move, still avoiding eye contact as she plopped down into the seat next to the other. “ don’t jinx it, i’ve been waiting for the weather to clear up for days. ” romina admitted, a half laugh passing from her lips.

Despite knowing how it’d affect her, she couldn’t help but look at the female, her long aureate locks the first the thing to catch her eye. Then her long slender legs, flawless skin, and a face possessing a classic type of beauty. It was the kind of beauty that became even more eminent in the sunlight, her shine putting Solana’s title of “Golden Girl” to shame. The kind that made people stop and stare, the kind that somehow always made it seem as if you were looking at her for the first time. And it hurt. A lot. A small part of her did wish she could go back to the beginning, do things differently. Maybe there was an alternate universe where they weren’t split, put aside the petty drama and opposition to realize that they were better together, and that their love was one of the best things to happen to either of them. It sounded cliche and unrealistically ideal, but it was something Solana thought about often. And she hoped and she prayed that one day that it’d happen. That she’d be able to look at Romina one day and feel nothing but joy.

But that day had yet to come. So for now, she was still hurting, the wound left from their split still fresh. Seeing her now stung like hell, but she wouldn’t never let it show---not in her face anyway. She wore a natural grin and chuckled brightly at her comment. “Some paradise,” she said, shaking her head. Before letting her gaze linger on her for too long, she tore her eyes away and shifted them to their view ahead. “Yeah, it really is beautiful out today,” she stated, staring at the line where the sky met the sea. The two seemed so close, but in reality were miles away. “If only it could just stay like this.” Glancing at Romina, she still had the grin plastered on her face as she attempted to briefly initiate small talk. “How’ve you been? You know, besides the fickle weather, have you been enjoying the trip so far?” She’d been so focused on trying to be cordial that she didn’t notice herself fiddling with her feet, a clear sign of uneasiness to those that knew her.