Cold

She swallowed her tears until they drowned her lungs

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

And if I'm meant to be alone, please take away my desire to be loved.

k.b. // unknown

[apo-calyp-se]

How can emptiness be so heavy?

[somber-chrysalism]

I didn’t want you to be another lesson.

Fuck.

[neckkiss]

Eclipse in Athens 

[somber-chrysalism]

But now I'm home, the sun’s out, and I feel empty.

- Sea

[remanence-of-love]

[eleminim]

This!

[bitesizedpoetry]

Sylvia Plath

[r-girl]

[daddysdisappointment]

[selfdistractive-blog]

[weltenwellen]

Ilya Kaminsky, from “A City Like a Guillotine Shivers on Its Way to the Neck”, Deaf Republic

[somber-chrysalism]

How is it that You made Me feel like the monster?!

You projected so much onto me I forgot where I ended and you began.

But since when does a monster hide in fear rather than to spread it?

You hurt me and told me it was my fault.

You had me believing for so long I was this villain.

I hadn’t yet realized it was your reflection in my eyes that you were talking to.

[somber-chrysalism]

[somber-chrysalism]

I just want peace. Please. Just let me go.

[somber-chrysalism]

Forgive me, but god I’ve never felt so hard to love.

[somber-chrysalism]

Repetition

Eyes open to darkness.

I notice your absence.

Next to me, someone else, failing greatly, their task to fill the void.

Look how they sleep in the spot where your head used to rest.

Battery acid drips down my throat and disintegrates my bones.

Who could’ve thought loosing yourself could happen so fast?

I did.

I forgot.

The slope, slicker than silver and oh so easy to slide down.

Again.

And it’s been so long but I’m tired.

Distract.

Numb.

Escape.

Avoid.

I’m tired.

So I let myself fall again.

Back to what I know.

I’m not me..

What if this is?

Disgust.

Hatred.

Destruction.

Defeat.

How I loathe who I am.

Who I’ve always been.

I can’t breathe.

I pray to death like she is my goddess.

I beg of her to take me.

Take my heart.

Take my soul.

Take it all so I may be free of this anguish.

This infinite empty canyon that lives in my ribcage.

She doesn’t answer.

Ignore.

Pretend.

Swallow the bile.

They’re not you.. but they are my life support.

Their arms firmly cradling my body.

I fear if they let go, I will unravel.

How strange for a stranger to hold one together whom they barely know.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

You’re okay.

Just pretend.

Pretend you’re someone else.

Living another life.

Disappear into the moment.

Escape.

Escape.

Escape.

-S.E.A 2025

[wedarkacademia]

Louise Glück's

[broken-depressed-hearts]