Lgbtq+ And Uhh Stuff

He/They/It/[REDACTED] Funky little dude with so much identity confusion. This account will also contain mental health stuff because augh I don’t wanna make a new blog for it

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Chat this account is abandoned, only not deleted to save posts

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Happy Pride Month everyone can we please remember Aplatonic, Aqueerplatonic, Afamilial, Analterous (I probably spelt it wrong T0T), A-aesthetic (I also probably spelled that wrong-), and any other less known Aspec identities exist?

Also I’m very tired of seeing platonic and queerplatonic relationships becoming the new ‘All people experience this attraction’ of the Aspec community, cmon we can’t just repeat the cycle of doing this but with platonic and queerplatonic attraction instead of romantic and sexual attraction

I’m not saying to just stop having and portraying these types of relationships and stuff but just, remember we exist please

[someaccountidkanymore]

Real quick post that I’m gonna turn notifications off for:

Sometimes I hate being transmasc

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t at all, that I wish I was only agender or nonbinary

Just, anything but transmasc, it’s not like I’m lying to myself about being transmasc because I’m not lying. It’s just the self hate getting to me

Whenever I remember or see anything that’s ‘Man bad’ I begin to hate myself more and more and yet I feel so stupid for feeling anything negative because of it because I feel I have no reason to be mad because I deserve to be hated for being one

Hell its why I’m turning notifications off, I don’t want to any hate about me venting about this

Anyways, probably only post for a while

[someaccountidkanymore]

i’m so tired

I thought my partner took me completely seriously, but they just, don’t take me questioning anything THEY consider neurodivergent seriously.

BPD and NPD? Yep they take me seriously for those

Even just WONDERING about Autism and/or ADHD? Yeah no, but they constantly joke about it and make me feel even worse because of it. It feels like they’re mocking me

God I feel like I can only rely on myself now because no one actually cares about this. I’m actually alone on this

[someaccountidkanymore]

I found Frankie-

when the uh game show is messed up

(I wanted to draw the ‘Stop messing up my fucking gameshow’ video design w/ these specific eyes-)

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I’m too lazy to make a separate blog for this so uhh Barnaby fanart (I forgot to change the background so it ended up transparent but I dont wanna go back and fix it so sorry the colors are probably messed up for part of it-)

[someaccountidkanymore]

I absolutely hate and love playing Fisch (Roblox) at the same time. On one hand I love fishing games and getting rarer fish/fish with mutations because I feel so lucky and cool especially since it says in the chat when you get mutations/certain fish rarities

BUT my luck being terrible also makes it unbearable especially if someone else is holding a much rarer fish and I can’t block it by positioning my screen differently.

Also the fact people use like 50 crab cages and take up the entire area they can be in while I’m trying to get a single sea mine for my bestiary- I hope a limit to the amount of crab cages active is added (at least in public servers)-

Basically my NPD(probably) gives me conflicted feelings about whether I hate it or love it based on how annoying everyone else is to me(and partly my luck)

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I want to make a post telling people in a fandom to not attribute a character’s shitty and terrible behavior and actions to a personality disorder but I am gonna get so much hate

anyways lets hope I don’t see more ableism about NPD from the mouthwashing fandom.

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Oh boy this game that I like is having an update today! I can’t wait to play it with my fp/partner!

oh wait they’re subtly implying that they’re busy and they would literally abandon me for anyone else they know. I should just play it by myself and not bring up doing it together ever again even if it causes me to split or something

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I hate having to feel like I must be more skilled at things than my partner or their friends or else I’m disappointing and they like their friends more than me.

My partner is better at me than anatomy and perspective? I need to be far better at shading to make up for it and make it look prettier.

Their friend makes fanfics(I think)? I need to be better at writing and post something better and hope they see.

Something about a game and my partner’s friend(in relation to sprites)? I need to make an entire game and make it popular.

I need to be better.

If I don’t then I failed in their eyes.

[someaccountidkanymore]

I hate doing things outside in the summer with my family, a week or so ago I went to a mini golfing place and the heat was badly affecting me because I barely drank anything but they didn’t believe me when I said I wasn’t feeling well and ended up being dizzy upon finally sitting down.

Maybe it was my fault for not drinking anything because I should’ve and if I did It probably would’ve have happened? I don’t know

[someaccountidkanymore]

Tumblr decided to show me an account that believes in Narc abuse and also tags ASPD under these posts too :l

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Hey I need help figuring something out:

So I have multiple blankets on my bed that just sit there, the thing is I cannot let them touch the ground of fall off the bed in any way(including the back that has a space in it and between the wall and bed) because if that happens I automatically see it as ‘dirty’ because of the belief that it already has bugs on it despite bugs rarely appearing in my room and especially rare on bed but I still refuse to touch the blankets or let them near me because of them touching the ground and I have no clue what this classifies as because I can barely find anything like this scenerio

I know this isn’t like, ‘normal’ but I just don’t know what it is

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I’m absolutely terrified to look at a response to me being like ‘Hey are you available later today to play?’ to my FP because I don’t want to see the possibility of being told no even though the most likely reason is that they’re still like somewhere else augh

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LET'S GO GAMBLING !! (scrolling tumblr fictionfolk edition)

(Untagged unwanted ship-art) Aw dang it

(Gets infantalised) Aw dang it

(Weird human man version of me) Aw dang it

(Design or style that looks nothing like you) Aw dang it

(Angst art that hits too close to home in a bad way) Aw dang it

(Being represented with the wrong orientation) Aw dang it

(Fan children of you and someone's self insert) Aw dang it

(Incest) Aw dang it

(Someone makes you talk too differently) Aw dang i-

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I have never watched gameplay of or played this game myself(I’ve only listened to 1 fan song) but I wanted to draw the uhhhhhh axolotl

I do not know how accurate any of this drawing is for possibility

Edit: I messed up the tabs- I made them look like modern tabs aaaa

Eyestrain warning?? Just to be safe

Filter to make it look like this is on the main layer so this is the closest to base form:

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Edit related to FP: Apparently they’re just with a friend and forgot to respond, everything’s fine again BPD is making me overreact again

Life is just throwing stuff at me huh

I graduated around the end of last month and I absolutely hate it

I don’t have an actual schedule anymore, I don’t have a job because I don’t actually know anything about what I want to do and I know I’d struggle at a job so badly that I’m terrified of getting one besides maybe something online depending on what I can find.

I don’t even have a drivers license because again I’d struggle with driving, hell I don’t even know how to get to the nearest store or anywhere else

And now my FP just goes offline after 11 in the morning with 0 explanation and I’m beginning to not handle it well, I have no friends because of multiple reasons so I’m just, alone and about to cry because of it. Hell I might be getting abandoned without realizing it because why would they care about me? Do they even see me as a partner anymore?

Did they move? Am I never going to see them? Are they distancing from me because I’m a mess that no one wants around them? I don’t understand why they wouldn’t at least give me a warning beforehand

I hate this

I’m at a dead end