“ Legends say that those who climb the mountain never return. ”
wasian. 19yo. complex dissociative identity disorder. more info below.
we are autistic. we also have adhd, quiet-impulsive bpd, manic depression, c-ptsd, and ocd. we are currently attempting to move out and find a therapist that specializes in dissociative disorders.
dni: radqueer-transID, pro endo, proship-comship-darkship, bigoted/conservative, zionist, pro genAI
might post comics here eventually. this is just a public diary.
here's a list of freq fronters and the tags they'd like to use on this blog:
alright. it's super late at night, we're supposed to be up early, and my curiosity's getting to me
we are anti-endogenic, anti-willogenic, and anti-radqueer/transID. however, i have some questions i'd like to ask regarding the things i've seen on this site, and i'd like to have a civil discussion.
when answering these questions, please send them as asks. i'm more likely to see them that way. i will also be using pro endo tags, so i can get the answers i'd like
featuring my fursona, because i can
what do you believe causes plurality? (in addendum, what do you think the definitions of endogenic and willogenic are?)
what makes willogenic different from transDID? do you believe that it's a transID, and/or are you okay with that?
why do you use trans related terms for anti-endowillos? (sysmed ; originates from transmed) would spiritual related terms not be better?
if you do not believe that endowillos are cdd systems, why do you feel that it's ableist to believe that they aren't?
what are some things you'd like me as an anti-endo to know?
what terms do you think systems should use in place of plurality, and why? (i learned of multiplicity recently, but have never heard it in a medical context)
on the above note ; why do you gatekeep certain terms?
what are your sources for any of the above?
i hope these questions sound respectful. i do truly want to learn more. i do believe that endowillos's experiences occur, just that they are not plurality. i want to be civil, and learn more about what you believe.
oh lord. we forgot to eat ALL day and didn't realized that we hadn't. so the second we smelled food, even tho it's not smth any of us like, we felt super sick and started scarfing it down 😭😭😭 my stomaxh,,,,
can you tag this post either #syscourse or something similar? for filtering purposeses- its a trigger for a lot of people, especially as a cdd system with psychosis.
if you dont want to get interaction *from* that tag, you can also do #tw syscourse, lets people block it without advertising the post there
i think what endos and willos forget the most, is that alters are far from the only symptom of CDD disorders. alters aren't really even one of the main symptoms. dissociation, depersonalization, amnesia, headaches, co-morbid disorders, and in some cases, non-epileptic seizures, are some symptoms i can name off the top of my head
i truly believe that endos and willos are delusional. i don't mean that as an insult. i do believe that the things they go through are happening. but it's far more akin to psychosis, than systemhood. we've had delusions similar to what i believe they do, though nothing system related
though, i've lost any faith in the endos and willos that say that being anti-endo/willo is akin to being transphobic and homophobic. i don't think those two are comparable at all. i don't think homophobia and potential ableism should be compared at all, really
earlier this morning, we had to deal with the fuckin' smoke detector beeping. and the dogs were just barking and whining and shivering and crawling up on me. and like, okay. i feel bad for them. sure. i was so overstimulated. i fucking hate today already. i already KNOW it's gonna be worse later, cuz we gotta go grocery shopping, and then deal with our mother. goddddd.
unfortunately ironic that my name is somni, but i can't fuckin' sleep. it's 2am. i gotta be up soon. fuck this, man. only good thing about this is that i'm the only one fronting. everyone else pisses me off.
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