So Says Samantha

This is my journey through the life of a 32 year old single mother.... worked my way through college and earned a BA... bought me and my daughter a home... we have definitely had struggles... but who hasn't? Makes us stronger... right? Also... I had bariatric surgery... the Gastric Sleeve. I have lost a little over 150lbs and have a lot to go... I welcome any advice... any tips for this crazy life... any questions I will try so hard to answer!

[sosayssamantha]

Hi how are you..?

Doing well!

And yourself!!?

[sosayssamantha]

Recents

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Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!! 🎄

[sosayssamantha]

Help me save my Abby!

My Abby is one of my kids... she has my heart and now it’s breaking because she is in need... Earlier this evening she started acting like

Any help for my Abby.... she means the absolute world to me...

[sosayssamantha]

too much...

When is enough, enough? As I said a week ago or so... I was going to write a little about what is going on in my life now... About 3.5 months ago I received my first foster kids... 2..sisters... ages 3 and 5. Absolutely beautiful and sweet girls... they definitely have some issues and the oldest has some anger issues. 3 months later Monday - Friday my day is booked. Monday we have speech therapy, tuesday we have speech and a visit with bio mom, wednesday we have occupational therapy, thursday we have speech and mental therapy and a group therapy, and friday we have visit with bio mom. However, bio mom has had 2 visits for the last 7 weeks and has only taken advantage of both visits in one week for 1 week only. She cancels visits, she shows up late to visits, apparently shows up high to a visit... She recently lost her job (allegedly from being high). However.... apparently from what I understand.... the state doesn’t really care... or know. I keep getting told time and time again from therapists and advocates that.. I am building a great foundation for when the girls come back to me... WTF... like... what the actual fuck. 

gahhhhhhh... I’ve got to move on... 

I am also in Graduate school... 3rd semester so far and I am maintaining a 3.25 GPA so far... Not too shabby for a working single mom of 3 girls with appointments every single night... I do need to make a plan to devote more time to my homework and lectures because... it should be higher than that. 

Last but not least... by far... My daughter... shes 13 and struggling... She hasnt seen her dad since August of 2017 and she is SOOOOOO angry. I know that is not the only reason she is angry, but I believe that is the most prevalent reason... she is also hurt that these girls will be leaving us soon and has made that known often. So, I have decided... after these girls go to their mom... we will not be taking anymore kids that have bio parents in the picture because we want to eventually adopt... and I can’t keep hurting my daughter in order to find 1 we can adopt. - Ive suggested therapy for my daughter and her dad and she hates the idea and asks me why i am on his side.... FAR FAR FAR from on his side.. but i hate to see her hurting. He texted her the other morning “good mornin” and she immediately asked ‘what do you want’... SMH.. anyways... now she is becoming defiant and argumentative at school and more so at home and i dont know what to do anymore. Shes already in therapy and goes to a teen group... 

Some times i feel like i am losing my mind... not sure what to do anymore... 

[sosayssamantha]

[humanfreedomextremist]

“A real man raises his voice against women and children abuse and not his hand on them”

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Mzilikazi wa Afrika‏@IamMzilikazi

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All 👏🏾 day 👏🏾 every 👏🏾 day 👏🏾 !

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Respect

[kysterr]

I love this so much.

[sosayssamantha]

More to come...

Later this evening I will be making a longer blog post about some updates to my life lately... Between Graduate school, full time work, my daughter (13) and her rebellious behaviors lately... I now have 2 foster daughters (3&5)... I’m so busy it’s stupid... but I wanted to at least say hello!!

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The best liar you know, is not the best liar you know

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Meeting the perfect partner at the wrong time, will fuck you up more then 99% of things that will go wrong in life

[sosayssamantha]

New furrrrrrrrry baby....... Meet Skye.

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She was sooooooo happy to see me!

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Flavors of the protein rainbow

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Heavy heart... had to say goodbye to my little couch cuddler, homework helper pain in the ass.... Cross Rainbow Bridge Hope-y.... Until I see you again... 🐾💔🐾

[sosayssamantha]

Trying to start over...