the spiritual side

new place for the specific stuff i do regardin my practice since ive kinda upgraded it recently n figured i should track it kinda

[spirituallyunhinged]

Hi there! Welcome to my blog!!

My name is Pixie! im 21 n i use they/them pronouns. im a chronically n mentally ill lil guy doin my best :D

this is gonna be my new place to put all my spiritual practice stuffs mainly for myself haha especially since im kinda shifting a lil in my practice to better incorporate hellenic polytheism

my main is @stupidlyunhinged btw but its mainly where i post my hyperfixations n fandom stuff so

link to my current timeline for my practice:

SO in this post i wanted to kinda track myself up until now to better see my progress throughout my practice but, as my own shit memory work

[sleepnowmychild]

Hypnos of the chronically fatigued, unable to walk for long

Hypnos of the chronic pain sufferers, stuck in bed for days

Hypnos of the recovering, having to rest for long periods

Hypnos of the comatose, protecting them in their fragile state

Hypnos of those with endometriosis, unable to get out of bed from the cramping pain

Hypnos of the narcoleptic, unable to control their sleep-wake cycle

Hypnos of the hypersomniacs, unable to stay awake very long

Hypnos of the insomniacs, unable to fall asleep at all

Hypnos of the sleep walkers, keeping them from running into something in their sleep

Hypnos of the sleep paralysis, fighting the visions off when you can’t move

Hypnos of those who faint and black out, making sure they don’t hit the ground too hard

Hypnos of the dizzy and lightheaded, who have to lie down more often

Hypnos of the sick, disabled and chronically tired.

[spirituallyunhinged]

sooo ive been feelin oddly floaty lately n like im not doing anything different but i feel like im even more sensitive to energy n ish all the sudden

anyone got any ideas whats goin on or like what to do about it like unless i focus it to the like front of my face jn my nose cuz it was freaking me out bad last week but like since then ive just chilling but it keeps comin n goin

i feel like it has to do with spirits n sensing them but idk anymore

[spirituallyunhinged]

whats good yall im trying to do better with my worship again so i figured id do a lil updatey post

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what ive been up to…

still doing energy offerings every night (i missed two days in the whole time ive been doing them so im pre proud of myself!) who gets some has changed a bit every few months BUT i think its been helpful to do that as i change

restructuring my weekly offerings atm but keeping the health deities i worship on tuesdays n everyone else is floatin around atm

reading encyclopedia of spirits as an act for Hecate n lovin it

want to make a few things as offerings on my altar buttt havent quite figured out when/how to do it tbf ill prolly try it tomorrow n see how it goes

i said i was going to wash all my bedding for Hypnos then forgot to so when i was about to lay down i found a bug on my shit(it wasnt moving n was on my shorts i set on my bed) promptly yeeted it away n freaked out (abandoned my room for an hour) only to come back n search finding the mfer dead on the floor so feeling icky i then changed my sheets n realized i had that shit coming 🤷🏻 should’ve actually done what i said i was gonna but its cool now

ive been lurking on the hellenic polytheist subreddit n offering help (mainly book recs n things for altars) for the last few days

been thinking about making a post on here or reddit about altar stuff (diys the basics) or book recs BUT theyd be big lists type posts so idk yet.

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this ish mainly applies to the last few weeks but still!! im counting it as an update n im hoping it makes me wanna post more again haha

[luca-is-a-pengu]

Jason would propably not recommend driving with your sibling who just recently got his drivers licence

Full comic in not seperated pictures below the cut

This was very much inspired by that one tiktok sound.

edit upcoming i guess

[busket]

"im tired of living through major historical events" is now "dear lord please let me witness a high profile political assassination in the next 1-2 years. amen"

[hymneminium]

Not that there's anything wrong with having something wrong with you

[probablyautistic-definitleygay]

[aggressive-positivity-network]

When someone gives the advice of “don’t be afraid to disappoint your parents” they don’t just mean taking music theory in college or starting a YouTube channel.

It also means wearing things they might not approve of. Using accommodations that they might not think you need. Not falling for their guilt trips. Eating when you’re hungry, not when it suits them and their idea of your weight or health. Making your own friends instead of seeking the stamp of approval from them.

Of course, some parents are stricter than others, and some use abuse to keep you from expressing yourself. But do what you can, even if it seems small.

Otherwise, when your parents are no longer in the picture, you’ll try to find it somewhere else to get validation. A strict boss, an abusive partner, a selfish friend.

Going against your parent’s wishes is developmentally healthy. Not doing so stunts your independence and self-regulation. You shouldn’t be living to constantly please others, even the people who love you.

[the-clumsywitch]

[buddyblanc]

cash me out, money cat!

[black-quadrant]

when in doubt about whether or not to make a thing, do it for your 3 hardcore fans.

[black-quadrant]

nothing is too niche. even if it's 1 person. even if the 1 person is you. just create. make it exist.

[crafty-butch]

having one of those executive function days where everything is too many steps

[crafty-butch]

by which i mean, like, here's how my brain parses the steps in making coffee

good day:

make coffee

regular day:

put water in coffee maker

put coffee in coffee maker

turn on coffee maker

bad day:

take pot from coffee maker

turn on sink

fill up coffee pot

turn off sink

pour water into coffee maker

put coffee pot in coffee maker

open cupboard

get coffee filter from cupboard

get coffee beans from cupboard

put filter in coffee pot

measure coffee

pour coffee into filter

close coffee maker

turn coffee maker on

anyway this is a "14 steps to make coffee" kind of day

[kieraelieson]

This is actually a really good way of explaining this

[spirituallyunhinged]

AH update on yesterdays craftin time

so i was aiming to make a like pendant for the health deities as i tend to worship them alot n while i already made a crochet snake a while ago i also kinda wanted a necklace so since theyre mad expensive for a cute one id make on myself first n see how it went

for a first try i think they came out pre cute but i def like the one on the left better due to the paper seam being way less noticeable but i do like the snake on the right better

i might just make another one tbh n see if i can make it better BUT i am still pre proud of myself for trying

for this staff its like a walkin stick n therefore has the bump on top n isn’t supposed to be super smooth but this is smaller than my forefinger haha the snake technically isnt a specific color n alotta ppl depicted it green BUT i went with the snake thats tied to asclepius which is the two toned brown lil guys

[spirituallyunhinged]

peep a crafty move

first was a shitty mock up then middle was first true try n last i just finished the base for

ill paint both of them n see which i actually like best i think cuz while i like the glue on the second the best i like the paper bit best on the last so

can yall guess what it is 👀

[stupidlyunhinged]

i had this thought n this meme of john mulaney wont leave my head so

me whos been getting back into the “ill just kill myself” mindset n actively joking about it to myself again after not doing that for a year or two: *shaking ass to hits that came out when i was a child until 2am n then reading fanfics on my phone for another two hours*

meanwhile the spirits around me as well as my spirit guides are watching me absolutely just continuously get shit to mourn like every three ish weeks over the past three months

like this is us fr rn

[stupidlyunhinged]

my spirit guides watching me have three breakdowns last night and another four to seven ive had today:

me grieving all kinds of shit non stop for the past two months as shit just continues to get worse:

[theoxenia]

Zeus does not send rain, he actually rains. ... The rainstorm and snowstorm are particular to him: they are Zeus’s rainstorm or Zeus’s snow flurries. And the clouds are Zeus’s and the rays of sunlight are Zeus’s. I think we should hear in this the expression of piety in a traditional society, a sort of religious humility faced with the weather. More generally, Homer’s Zeus brings clouds together (he is nephelegereta – ‘cloud gatherer’) and specialises in black clouds (he is kelainephes – ‘black-clouded’). Together with lightning we now have the ingredients for all sorts of storms, particularly those that spring up out of a clear sky or cluster around a mountain as rainclouds do, demonstrating beyond doubt that there is a great god at work.

Zeus by Ken Dowden, from Routledge's Gods and Heroes of the Ancient World series

[evilios]

Thrilled that Dowden's work is getting attention, his little guide to Zeus is so useful! This part was my favorite when I read it and I don't recall if he gives examples of A. Greek usage of that sentence so I apologize if I'm just repeating the omitted text but I'm fairly sure he refers to Alcaeus' f. 34:

ὔει μὲν ὀ Ζεῦς͵ ἐκ δ΄ ὀράνω μέγας χείμων͵ πεπάγαισιν δ΄ ὐδάτων ῤόαι [...]

Zeus rains, and from the sky great storm descends, and frozen are the waters' flowings [...]

[ link to translation ]

This is linguistically fantastic, actually. We can find similar impersonal [it] rains like constructions in some European languages (e.g. Russian дождит, French il pleut, etc.) and this is so interesting to me.

[spirituallyunhinged]

as i give offerings to epione, asclepius, iaso, aegle, aceso, panacea, hygieia, and apollo for help with my chronic illness ive been trying so hard to start taking my meds again cuz i havent taken some of them in like a year (i get the side effects really bad so) n ive been taking the one thats like an upped vitamin for like a week ish now and like that was a fucking hurtle BUT i did it for them because i really only take my allergy meds for me n everything else for them atm

so yea since tuesday is the day i give them physical offerings i worked myself up n just took the cancer med that used to make me feel fucking awful n i only took one n i feel really anxious about it rn n ljke im gonna throw up but im trying not to ok

but yea its a really big thing for me to even take it tbh so while im kinda spiraling rn im tryin to keep positive i asked them to help me with the side effects so theyre not so bad so that i can actually take my meds for them but yea

the first med i did this with last week made my stomach feel awful for like three days n then it mellowed out so if we can do that with this one ill keep trying to take it — if not i will not take this fuckin med idgaf cuz its what caused some suicidal vibes of mkne to heighten from how if made my quality of life so fucking bad so oooooo okokk sorry tryjn to be positive about it

i havent thrown up yet but im concerned its gonna hit later when im trying to sleep so ://