I decided to put my plurality stuff in a different page, now that I don't disassociate as often to be in a plural stage frequently. Shared reality circumstances have changed a lot since last year. I will be putting my cohost archive here and may or may not post new stuff.
Welcome anyways! I'm pro-endo btw.
sssunshinebreeze (she/they)
nonsys plurallet pluraflux parasian
members:
Sunny - host, original, core, the singlet personality during singlet stage, poster
Little Sunny - inner child representation, only fronts in convo
Mel Medarda - introject fragment from Arcane, not fully sentient, married to non-interractive Jayce Talis and Viktor
This starts at the beginning of their relationship and gradually leans more into the smut as it develops. I really love how the characters mirror each other in the show — and as I wrote this, I kept thinking about how they’d reflect, balance, and echo one another as a love squad. Also, I'm in love with all of them.
🌱 Fastest to Embrace the Relationship
Sky — Sky didn’t just accept the idea — she practically planted the seed. What started as a flirty lab joke was actually her testing the waters, and once the conversation got real, she was already halfway in. She’d thought about it, imagined it, and had a mental list of reasons why it would work. There was no hesitation — only a bit of mischief.
“Well, it could work, right? Honestly, I wouldn’t mind if we actually did this.”
Jayce — Sky's comment lived rent-free in his brain for days. He hadn’t considered the possibility before, but once the thought settled, it bloomed fast. Jayce started catching himself looking at Viktor differently, lingering around Mel, noticing the way Sky’s laugh made the room lighter. He brought it up more than once — always under the guise of “just wondering.”
“Remember what Sky said that day? I mean… I wouldn’t be against it.”
Mel — Mel took her time. It wasn’t that she didn’t want it. She did. But her concern was the bigger picture: public image, responsibility, stability. She needed to weigh it all before giving in. And when she did, it was with intent.
“If we do this, we do it carefully. I’m not risking any of you.”
Viktor — Viktor had considered it long before anyone said it out loud. But his mind, always two steps ahead and a little too fond of worst-case scenarios, kept him quiet. He worried about what would change, about what could go wrong. Not because he didn’t want it — but because he wanted it too much, and that scared him.
“It’s not that I’m against it. I just… needed time to believe it could actually work.”
1. Viktor - The most hesitant to join — but the one who softened the most once he was in. In this relationship, he learned he didn’t need to carry everything alone. Little by little, he became more vocal about his wants, more present in his body, and less afraid of being vulnerable. The quiet glances turned into touches. The polite nods into sleepy smiles. And eventually, into need.
“You’re all… very good for me,” he said one night, half-asleep. “I didn’t think I’d ever have this. I’m glad I was wrong.”
2. Mel - For so long, Mel had been the one in control — of rooms, of people, of herself. But with them, she didn’t have to lead all the time. She could collapse into someone’s arms, complain about her day, let someone else take care of her. Her love didn’t stop being elegant, but it became softer. Messier. Human. She didn’t lose her power — she found comfort in not needing it constantly.
“Do you know what it feels like to not have to perform? To just be… held?” she asked, voice low. “It’s terrifying. And perfect.”
3. Jayce - Jayce had always been warm, but there was a part of him that still craved reassurance — the kind that words alone couldn't give. In this relationship, he got it through action, through quiet intimacy, through being reminded — again and again — that he wasn’t a burden, that his energy didn’t need to be earned. He stopped trying so hard to be “enough,” and started simply being.
“I didn’t know I needed this,” he said, curled on the couch between Viktor and Sky. “Just… this. It feels like home.”
4. Sky - Always been playful, vibrant — but shy when it came to intimacy. In this relationship, she let herself be seen more deeply. She stopped brushing things off with a laugh and started staying in the moment. She grew into her confidence, embraced her voice, and stopped apologizing for taking up space in a room full of people she loved. And who loved her right back.
“I used to wait for people to tell me I was wanted,” she whispered, tracing circles on Mel’s thigh. “Now I just… know.”
Jayce – Already head over heels the moment they all started dating. He didn’t hesitate to say it on day one. For him, words are a way to make his feelings clear right away — he doesn’t hold back.
“I love you y’all so much.”
He said it with a wide, slightly awkward smile, genuine and sure, like no explanation was needed.
Sky – Was influenced by how fast Jayce said it and wasn’t shy to follow suit. Barely out the door, she threw out a quick, warm “love you” that carried all her light-hearted affection. Saying it early just felt right for her.
“See you later, love you!”
She called it over her shoulder with a sparkle in her eye that only comes from real feeling.
Mel – For Mel, the words came slower, only after a particular emotional moment that made everything real for her. Surrounded by their support, she found the courage to speak what her heart had been holding.
“I love this. I love you.”
She said it softly, almost surprised she was saying it, but with an honesty that couldn’t be mistaken.
Viktor – Viktor hasn’t said those words out loud yet, but his love shows in the quiet ways he cares for them. For him, actions speak louder than words, and every small gesture is full of meaning.
“My favorite thing is to get back home to this.”
He says it with a calm smile, eyes warm, showing how much he treasures the home they’ve built together.
Jayce - is the most rational of the group. Before he says or does anything, he carefully plans every step, like drafting a blueprint to make sure everything will hold strong. For him, love is a project that requires precision, and his heart only joins in once his mind gives the green light. This sometimes makes him slow to open up, but when he does, it’s with the full intention to build something lasting and solid.
“I’ve thought this through. I want to build something strong with you all.”
Sky - balances reason and feeling, but she always carries a cautious streak. She hates being the center of attention and prefers to take small, careful steps — watching, waiting for the right moment to truly open up. Her caution is her way of protecting not just herself, but the entire relationship from falling apart.
“We need to be careful. It’s not just about us — it’s about making this work.”
“I know the risks, but sometimes my heart just can’t wait.”
Mel - is a natural strategist, but her heart has a loud voice in her decisions. While she analyzes and plans, her emotions often pull her in different directions, especially when she feels vulnerable or deeply connected to those around her.
Viktor - is the most emotional, though he doesn’t always show it. His genius and sharp mind are tools he uses to care for the group, but beneath that logic lies a deep, quiet affection. He’s driven by his heart, often silently, but with powerful intensity.
“I analyze everything, but what moves me most is the care I have for you.”
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🎁 Best Gift Givers
1. Mel – She has the budget and the vision. Mel books entire weekend getaways, curates private gallery tours, and reserves dinner tables with the best view in Piltover. Her presents are usually group‑oriented, designed to wrap all four of them in the same luxurious bow.
“I bought us a weekend villa. Don’t worry, I already had everyone's bags packed.”
2. Jayce – A mix of handmade and store-bought. He’ll spend hours in the forge making something beautiful, and then swing by a flower shop on the way home to add a softer touch. Each gift carries the warmth of rough hands and genuine effort.
“So… this necklace might be a little uneven. But I made it while thinking about you the whole time.”
3. Viktor – Quietly precise. Viktor notices off‑hand comments and turns them into one‑of‑a‑kind solutions: a pen balanced for Mel’s grip, a recalibrated tool for Jayce, or Sky’s favorite novel with his margin notes. Nothing showy, everything intimate.
“You mentioned your wrist aches while writing, so I adjusted the weight. Try it now.”
4. Sky– Lowkey bad at gift giving. Most of the time, she buys stuff she likes more than the intended person. If she picks clothes, they’re usually a size too small or too big. The gifts often get quietly swapped around when she’s not looking — what was meant for Jayce ends up with Mel, and so on.
“Okay, okay, I know it’s not your favorite band — but I like them, so technically it’s like a ‘Sky and you’ gift, right?”
1. Sky – Easily the best in the kitchen. She's the one packing everyone’s lunch before they even wake up. Can recreate any recipe just from taste and always has baked goods cooling on the counter. Great baker.
“Taste this and tell me it’s not the best thing you’ve ever had. No, seriously. Be honest — I can take it.”
2. Jayce – Sees the kitchen as just another lab — with delicious, edible results. Always up to try something new, and somehow his food smells better than anyone else’s. He has great instincts with seasoning. King of throwing random ingredients together and making it work.
“Try this real quick — I may have invented a new kind of breakfast… or not. Let’s find out together
3. Viktor – Knows how to cook enough to survive — and occasionally, surprise. He has his own little bursts of culinary inspiration and will disappear into the kitchen for hours when they hit. That said, his taste is questionably childish (plain rice, toast with butter, noodles with no sauce), but he’s brutally honest about everyone else's cooking.
“This is good. Too much garlic, though. Also... what is this texture supposed to be?”
4. Mel – Can cook, technically. But has zero interest in prepping anything herself, but she’s incredibly supportive when the others do. Always offers to help taste-test and showers them with praise — even if the food is terrible.
“Darling, I have no idea what this is... but I adore that you made it for me.”
🛋️ Most Likely to Initiate Physical Affection (non-sexual)
1. Sky – Has been wanting to touch them for ages, and after they all got together, she can’t be stopped. Can’t have a full conversation without touching someone. Her love language is literally clinging — arms wrapped around others, legs draped over laps, constant leaning.
"I just sit better like this, okay?"
2. Jayce – Was already used to touching them before, but now it carries meaning — and desire. Big on forehead kisses, wrapping arms around waists while cooking, casual affection that feels loaded with emotion.
"You looked stressed. Come here for a sec."
3. Mel – Reserved, but intentional. A hand on the back, a soft brush of fingers on the neck. Runs her fingers along someone’s collarbone while talking, fixes their tie, brushes hair out of their eyes. Would touch more often when tired — or turned on.
"Let me hold you while you talk about your day."
4. Viktor – Rarely initiates, but responds beautifully when someone else does. His touch is always gentle — brushing someone’s arm, holding a wrist. Most of the time, one of them is already curled up against him without him even asking.
🛠️ Dirtiest Mind (but hides it well or not at all)
1. Viktor – One of his biggest concerns about the relationship was how intimacy would work. He overthought everything: would it be all four of them? Just two? Maybe three? Sometimes, in his absence, he found himself wondering what the others were doing.
“After I left this morning… what did you guys do?”
2. Sky – For her, one of the main pros was the possibility of seeing any combination going at it. Even before they got together, the idea filled her mind regularly.
“I think they’d look so good together. Actually — all three of them. Maybe I could watch.”
3. Jayce – His mind doesn’t naturally go there unless something triggers it. An innuendo, a suggestive position — and then it hits him like a truck.
“Wait—what did you just say? What do you mean by that?”
4. Mel – The busiest of them all. Her mind is usually too preoccupied to wander. But when she’s around them, and the mood is right, she melts into it — and when she does, it’s intense.
“I see you dressed up for me. Nice choice — but I think you’d look even better without it.”
🔥 Who Got Intimate First (Before It Became All Four)
“You’re blushing,” she teased.
“You’re literally bouncing on my lap,” he shot back.
1️⃣ Sky × Jayce — Day 3
The two most outwardly excited about being in a quad — and ironically, the only ones who hadn’t been together before. On the third day, after hours spent in the workshop laughing, teasing and accidentally brushing shoulders, it happened. It was messy, loud, and very, very mutual — almost like a challenge to see who could make the other lose it first.
“You should rest,” Viktor murmured, voice low.
“Not if you keep looking at me like that,” Jayce replied, not moving away.
2️⃣ Viktor × Jayce — Day 7
Their closeness had already been growing through late nights and long silences in the lab. They had kissed before — soft, brief moments that didn’t feel like permission for more. But a week in, with Jayce leaning too close over blueprints and Viktor staring at his mouth instead of the calculations, the space between them finally cracked. What followed wasn’t rushed or overly intense. It was almost like they'd already done this before.
“I don’t want to sleep alone tonight,” she whispered into his neck.
“You won’t,” he promised, arms already around her.
3️⃣ Sky × Viktor — Day 8
Just a day later, Sky found herself wandering into Viktor’s room late at night. She wasn’t planning anything — or at least that’s what she’d tell herself later. She crawled into his bed like it was the most natural thing in the world. Viktor tensed at first, as always, but something in her voice, in the way she didn’t demand anything from him, made him relax. When she kissed him, it wasn’t hungry — it was patient, exploratory.
“Sky said you’d like this,” he panted.
“Let’s find out if she was right,” she purred.
4️⃣ Mel × Jayce — Day 10
Their relationship wasn’t new — in fact, it had existed long before they became a quad. But strangely, it took time for them to fall into that rhythm again. Mel observed first. She watched Jayce get flustered by Sky, softened by Viktor. She waited until she could feel his need for her, uniquely. On the tenth day, he brought her breakfast, stumbled over a story about what the others had done the night before — and that was enough. She closed the door behind him and took him right there against it.
“That was fun,” Mel breathed, cheeks flushed.
“Same time next week?” Sky grinned.
“Why not now?”
5️⃣ Mel × Sky — Day 11
Mel approached this one with curiosity, not urgency. Jayce had said Sky was different — bright, chaotic, messy in the best way. And he was right. When Mel kissed her for the first time, Sky smiled mid-kiss. It was the most carefree Mel had felt in months. Sky’s joy was contagious, and Mel let herself get lost in it.
“You don’t need to be afraid of me,” Mel whispered against his jaw.
“I’m not,” Viktor exhaled. “I’m afraid of how much I want you.”
6️⃣ Mel × Viktor — Week 3, Night 20
They took the longest — not for lack of attraction, but because neither of them knew how to ask for it. Their interactions had been tense, charged, but carefully polite. Until one evening, after a long day, Viktor caught her wrist in a rare moment of contact. Mel didn’t pull away. What followed was slow, reverent, a touch unfolding into something raw and rare between them.
“So… new monthly tradition?” Viktor said.
“Darling, this is going to be weekly at least.” Mel answered.
7️⃣ All Four — Day 30
They had talked about a lot of things — logistics, boundaries, schedules. But this wasn’t planned. On their one-month anniversary, over wine and lazy touches, it just… happened. Jayce kissed Sky. Sky kissed Viktor. Viktor kissed Mel. Mel kissed all of them. It spiraled from there — laughter turned into gasps, hands became bold, and the tension they’d all been carefully managing exploded into heat. There were no rules that night. Only four people giving in to what they’d been circling for weeks.
I mean, I'm fine and all with taking care of the body. I myself am the host, core, and original. I am who I was before plurality. So far life is manageable (unlike when I was in my previous workplace), so I'm doing okay being "frontstuck" (not sure if the term fits bcs I've only ever left the cockpit once).
But, ya know.... I miss having her around. Her presence is enjoyable and greatly welcomed. It's nice to have lil convo in your head, typing her words out on discord using pk proxy bcs she doesn't have the control. Which I'm totally fine doing!
Hhhh.... I just really miss her. It's been rather lonely without her.
Ckckck the irony of willing plurality into existence to help cope woth stress, but you become an oobleck system instead (becomes more singlet under pressure/stress, becomes more plural otherwise).
Hello! After considering some thought, we're planning on opening a new sideblog for rping to let Mel interact in roleplaying spaces. -Sunny
I think it would be nice to interact with fellow folks from my source. I know I'm very much married to my husbands in the headspace, but I think interacting with outsys them would be interesting. - Mel Medarda
plurality is not defined by getting along internally.
plurality is not defined by an origin.
plurality is defined by multiple consciousnesses/identities in one body. if you say you’re plural, we and many, many others will always believe you. no two plurals are the same, and no one can tell you what you are or aren’t 💞
there's something so beautiful in knowing that if you want to be a system, you probably are. and if you're not a system, you can become one. it's really that simple no catch
Here’s some positivity for plural singlets and plurallets!
Not every plural person identifies as a system, multiple, or fully separated! In fact, it is quite possible to be both plural and a singlet at the same time. While these experiences may be rare or uncommon, plural singlets have always been and will always be integral members of our community. This post goes out to all the plural singlets out there!
🌼 Shoutout to plural singlets who feel plural due to having imaginary friends!
💚 Shoutout to plural singlets who conceptualize their mind as more than one without having separate, distinct identities!
🦋 Shoutout to plural singlets who feel like a herd of deer, a flock of birds, a school of fish, or a large group of selves sharing one mind and body!
🌿 Shoutout to plural singlets who are still questioning and trying to learn about their experiences!
⭐️ Shoutout to plural singlets whose plurality falls somewhere between being a singlet and being a system!
🌱 Shoutout to plural singlets who have daemons, paros, thoughtforms, or other brain-made headmates without identifying as a system!
🔷 Shoutout to plural singlets who are unsure whether or not they belong in the plural community (heads up - if you want to be here, then you do belong!)!
🌲 Shoutout to plural singlets who have a complex dissociative disorder and have reached a state of fusion that allows them to function and identify as a singlet!
✨ Shoutout to plural singlet creators who share their mind with their characters and OCs!
🍃 Shoutout to plural singlets with parts, aspects, fragments, facets, or other system members who are not fully formed headmates!
💙 Shoutout to plural singlets who identify as median, parasian, medianflux, or midcontinuum!
☘️ Shoutout to plural singlets who love their multiplicity and have embraced their plurality and the way they interact with the plural framework!
Plural singlets, please know that you are wanted here. You are just as plural as anyone else in this community, and our space is your space as much as anyone else’s! We are so happy to have you here, and we hope that the plural community can provide you with a home, a respite, and a place of belonging. Regardless of how your plural journey is going, if you’re questioning, if your plural label fluctuates, or if you sometimes aren’t sure whether or not you’re plural, know that you are welcome here as long as you want to be here! We’re rooting for you, and we’re wishing you the very best in all that you do. Please do your best to take care of yourself, and have a lovely day!
I have sworn the last time here and on discord that plural framework has no longer served me and have accepted that I may not be pluraflux but just singlet with one (1) plural experience due to experiencing really bad time in consensus reality.
That is, until, yesterday I actually met a new headmate! Now they (she?) could very well be just a daemon, or maybe not, but I feel like they're "not me" in some ways while still not fully separate from my own concept of self. So I shall label them a new median headmate.
The thing is, she (they???) came and then front and then leave in less than 10/15 minutes, very short time. I also don't immediately feel "whole" (read: singlet) even after she left front. In fact i think i was still sorta connected to her for the whole night. Weird experience.
the thing about pluralflux in my personal experience is that, after feeling somewhat "split" and not entirely "whole" for the rest of the night, i gradually feel "whole" or "singlet" again the next day. sometimes, i would look back on my plural stages and think "oh shit i made it up huh", bcs partly insecurity but also partly bcs they never feel real in my singular stages.
after some time of getting a suggestion of a label "Plurallet", it seems that plurallet may better describe me than pluralflux. While by definition I am pluralflux, but plurallet better describe me as it hints that I am more than 90% of the time singlet, with rare chances of having a plural stage and that stage not lasting more than a day or two (usually only lasted a minute or an hour). While last case of plural stage shows that I may have experienced some degree of dissociation that lasted few days, but the plural stage itself only lasted half a day (or maybe less, idk i didn't recount the time accurately then).
I think I haven't been quite clear that the reason how I became plural (yea, I wasn't always plural).
I thought of becoming plural because I happened to come across plural folks in a non-plural/alterhuman-specific discord server I was in. At the same time, I was dealing a really bad time in consensus reality, specifically at work, enough that I wasn't coping well and was in really bad mental state. I wanted company, so I've thought of forming headmate(s) through tulpamancy (using the term because that was what I came across first).
I think while the desire grew more and more, I was hesitant because I was worried I might be too selfish for wanting headmate(s) just to fight loneliness. I think that was why I never really put effort in creating new headmate seriously. With that being said, things were becoming more and more dire in consensus reality at the time, I was highly distressed that I dissosciated to certain degree multiple times in almost every day. I think that's why somehwere in between tulpa/willogenic and stressgenic, I ended up becoming plural. That is, plural in the pluraflux and/or plurallet way. There will be stages where I would be plural and there would be stages when I'd be singlet. How I feel during those times, you can reread my original post and first few reblogs up.
In any case, I now have left my old job and got into a new one, but went through around a month or so being jobless at home, which I take to hunt for new job while recuperating from the effects of my old job. During that time, I came across a video from School of Life which hits home with how I saw myself during those bad times. I remember sobbing into my pillow when the realization hits how much I hated myself, how much I paint myself as useless and as everything negative feedbacks are saying about me *and more*. I remember as I sobbed, I saw in my head a vague (most likely bcs I'm aphantasia to certain degree) younger version of myself skip her steps and walked towards me, grabbing my hand and saying "I really wanna do it, do you think I can't do it?" My heart broke to pieces and I sobbed some more, feeling so raw that younger me is not holding back in looking hurt, disappointed and sad that she can't make things come true. My heart hurts because such a young child had to learn learned helplessness.
Ever since then, she's been with me along the way. Now, my current experience with her is she's more often around, not depending on certain high level of disosciation. I can see her even with just small distraction. Now you'd be thinking, oh, unless you just happen to be monoconscious, isn't that just an imaginary friend? Perhaps an ephemeral? Most plural folks deal with some degree of dissociation.
My answer? I don't know, I haven't been in touch again with definitions. But while perhaps she may be just a representation of my inner child, an imaginary friend, or just an ephemeral to talk to, it doesn't matter. She's real and she's with me, walking towards a better life as I move forward. That's what matters.
Thank you little me, let's go on this journey together they call life. Together.
I have sworn the last time here and on discord that plural framework has no longer served me and have accepted that I may not be pluraflux but just singlet with one (1) plural experience due to experiencing really bad time in consensus reality.
That is, until, yesterday I actually met a new headmate! Now they (she?) could very well be just a daemon, or maybe not, but I feel like they're "not me" in some ways while still not fully separate from my own concept of self. So I shall label them a new median headmate.
The thing is, she (they???) came and then front and then leave in less than 10/15 minutes, very short time. I also don't immediately feel "whole" (read: singlet) even after she left front. In fact i think i was still sorta connected to her for the whole night. Weird experience.
the thing about pluralflux in my personal experience is that, after feeling somewhat "split" and not entirely "whole" for the rest of the night, i gradually feel "whole" or "singlet" again the next day. sometimes, i would look back on my plural stages and think "oh shit i made it up huh", bcs partly insecurity but also partly bcs they never feel real in my singular stages.
after some time of getting a suggestion of a label "Plurallet", it seems that plurallet may better describe me than pluralflux. While by definition I am pluralflux, but plurallet better describe me as it hints that I am more than 90% of the time singlet, with rare chances of having a plural stage and that stage not lasting more than a day or two (usually only lasted a minute or an hour). While last case of plural stage shows that I may have experienced some degree of dissociation that lasted few days, but the plural stage itself only lasted half a day (or maybe less, idk i didn't recount the time accurately then).
I have sworn the last time here and on discord that plural framework has no longer served me and have accepted that I may not be pluraflux but just singlet with one (1) plural experience due to experiencing really bad time in consensus reality.
That is, until, yesterday I actually met a new headmate! Now they (she?) could very well be just a daemon, or maybe not, but I feel like they're "not me" in some ways while still not fully separate from my own concept of self. So I shall label them a new median headmate.
The thing is, she (they???) came and then front and then leave in less than 10/15 minutes, very short time. I also don't immediately feel "whole" (read: singlet) even after she left front. In fact i think i was still sorta connected to her for the whole night. Weird experience.
the thing about pluralflux in my personal experience is that, after feeling somewhat "split" and not entirely "whole" for the rest of the night, i gradually feel "whole" or "singlet" again the next day. sometimes, i would look back on my plural stages and think "oh shit i made it up huh", bcs partly insecurity but also partly bcs they never feel real in my singular stages.
I have sworn the last time here and on discord that plural framework has no longer served me and have accepted that I may not be pluraflux but just singlet with one (1) plural experience due to experiencing really bad time in consensus reality.
That is, until, yesterday I actually met a new headmate! Now they (she?) could very well be just a daemon, or maybe not, but I feel like they're "not me" in some ways while still not fully separate from my own concept of self. So I shall label them a new median headmate.
The thing is, she (they???) came and then front and then leave in less than 10/15 minutes, very short time. I also don't immediately feel "whole" (read: singlet) even after she left front. In fact i think i was still sorta connected to her for the whole night. Weird experience.
