random PSA, I know a lot of people use duckduckgo as a Google alternative search engine, but it always kind of annoyed me when I was using it because it felt like No Name Brand Google
I have switched to using Startpage.com and vastly prefer it. for one thing, instead of displaying an "AI summary" at the top of the search results (unless you turn it off, yes I know), it displays the first paragraph of the Wikipedia article, with link, whenever it finds one that's relevant.
also a waaayyyyy better sense of design than duckduckgo
also private, European based, least annoying search I've used lately (RIP old "don't be evil" Google)
i have one of those, scraped from multiple different rec posts:
Search Engines
Infinity Search is an alternative search engine with a special focus on privacy
DuckDuckGo is a popular search engine for those who value their privacy and are put off by the thought of their every query being tracked and logged. Uses bangs, ![site] for in-page search (sells your data to microsoft and draws from fucking bing)
WolframAlpha is a privately owned search engine that allows you to “compute expert-level answers using Wolfram’s breakthrough algorithms, knowledgebase, and AI technology.” A data search engine.
Boardreader is a search engine for forums and message boards. It allows you to search forums and then filter down results by date and language.
Based in France, Qwant is a privacy-based search engine that won’t record your searches or use your personal details for advertising. Uses “&” as a bang search.
Another privacy-based search engine is Search Encrypt, which uses local encryption to ensure that users’ identifiable information cannot be tracked. Metasearch across multiple engines.
Offering unbiased results from several sources, SearX is a metasearch engine that aims to present a free, decentralized view of the internet. Can be self-hosted.
Gibiru’s tagline is “Unfiltered private search” and that’s exactly what it offers. Requires AnonymoX Firefox add-on for privacy.
Disconnect allows you to conduct anonymous searches through a search engine of your choice.
Swisscows provides fully encrypted searches to protect your privacy and security. Built-in violence/porn filter cannot be overridden.
MetaGer offers “Privacy Protected Search & Find” through its anonymised search. A plugin will allow it to be made a default.
Gigablast is a private search engine that indexes millions of websites and servers real-time information without tracking your data, keeping you hidden from marketers and spammers. Variety of filtration and refinement options for searching.
Oscobo is a search engine that protects your privacy while you search the web. By not using any third-party tools or scripts, your data is protected from hacking and misuse. Has a Chrome extension to allow use in toolbar.
https://search.marginalia.nu/ an independent DIY search engine that focuses on non-commercial content, and attempts to show you sites you perhaps weren't aware of in favor of the sort of sites you probably already knew existed. Use old-school searching rather than query-based for the best results.
https://www.mojeek.com/
https://wiby.me/ - It’s goal is to index as many personalized websites as possible, and NOT commercial sites.
https://4get.ca/ it works a lot like SearX, but honestly better. It doesn’t have its own index, but pulls from many others. I think it’s the best for research, since it allows you to search for answers from different indexes, is easy to configure, add free, and avoids censorship as much as it can.
https://www.searchenginemap.com/ for more on how search engines relate to each other.
https://yep.com/ is a crawler
https://www.etools.ch/ retrieves from Google, Mojeek, Bing, and Yandex, like Searx
https://www.dogpile.com/
https://searxng.org/ (next gen Searx)
https://luxxle.com/ - possibly conservative?
https://presearch.com/ - good for academic?
https://kagi.com/smallweb - free/randomised Kagi.
Other Searchers
www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.
www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.
https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.
www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.
http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.
www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.
www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free.https://cosine.club/ is an electronic music similarity search engine
“Oh but why don’t white people ever get backlash for cosplaying anime characters like black and brown folk do?” Racism and also because they don’t view those characters as being Asian.
If a character has fair skin, blonde or blue eyes or something of that nature they will see them as white and nothing else. It doesn’t matter if the anime takes place in Japan or if the character has a Japanese name. If they can be perceived as white in any way that is how they will be perceived.
Which gives these people a sense of ownership and feel they have an authority over that the character in question because they view them as belonging to them.
And so when they cosplay a clearly Asian character it’s fine because they don’t see them as being Asian. But when a black or brown person does it, it “ruins” their little fantasy because they can no longer view that character as being white.
The only time you’ll see them recognise a character being Japanese is to erase other global majority folk from cosplaying or seeing themselves in them. Then suddenly it’s “X character isn’t black” but none of them will ever recon with the fact that character isn’t white either.
And obviously this goes without saying but Cosplay is for everyone but the thing is some people only apply that logic to themselves and harass and bully other people for trying to do the same.
Hiii do you have any Fic Rex’s where the foxes realise the extent of what kevin went through in the nest??
Kevin rarely reveals the full extent of what he went through growing up in the nest. I’ve gathered what I could find that comes closest. -A
also see:
Neil, Jean, Kevin post canon discussions here
pre canon Kevin & Andrew or kandrew here
Andrew helping Kevin through panic attack here
‘changes’ here (updated)
‘Honey, You’re Familiar’ here
‘Different Roads’ and ‘I Was Ruined From The Start’ here (both updated)
‘Shake My Tomb’ here
‘my one, my dear’ here
‘Exy Queen,’ ‘despite everything, i'm still human,’ and ‘learning to love’ here
‘and i'm hoping that you'll stay’ series, ‘fallback,’ and dance 'til you find someone to die for’ (updated) here
‘Hold the Line’ here
‘piece by piece, he restored my faith…’ here
‘Just Short Of A Fairy Tale’ here
‘To Be Certain We'll Be Tall Again’ here
‘A Falling Star’ series here
‘once more, with feeling’ (updated) here
‘stories from the last war’ and ‘Let me tell you what’s it like to be a zero’ here
‘Funeral Pyre’ (updated) and ‘Things you can tell just by looking at him’ here
‘Common Tongue’ here
‘(if you're feeling small) i'll love your shadow’ here (completed)
‘a crown’s a crown’ here
‘I'm Here (Except When You're Not)’ here
foxes sympathetic about kevin’s ptsd in general:
‘Damocles,’ ‘miscalculation,’ and ‘equilibrium’ here
‘(Pas) Peur,’ ‘My Favourite Colour Is You,’ ‘all of the things (that i'm not),’ and ‘I See You’ here
‘the life and times of kevin day,’ ‘Call it New,’ ‘Stand on your own feet’ (updated) and ‘Best of You’ (updated) here
‘Quitter le Nid’ here
‘Kevin Day appreciation hour’ series here
‘why am I like this?,’ ‘In the Blooms,’ ‘Proof of Life,’ ‘i should hate you, i feel stupid.,’ ‘Tell Me the Truth,’ ‘Kevin Day is keeping Celeste’ series, ‘You Gave Me A Key And Called It Home’ ch 31, and ‘A Series of H/C One-Shots…’ ch 4 here
‘Father’s Day, ‘08,’ ‘unexpected pride,’ ‘the lovers, the dreamers and me,’ and ‘And I wanna kiss you, make you feel alright’ here
‘Always in My Head’ here
‘It’s Just You and Me, Just Us, and Y(our) Friend Kevin’ here
‘Don't You Ever Leave Me Alone, My War Is Over (Not Really)’ here
‘All This and Heaven Too,’ ‘The Pit Within’ (both updated), and ‘A Sick Day’ here
‘Haunting Spirits’ and ‘Because, Despite, Still’ here
‘Fitting In,’ ‘a foxhole collection: on possibilities and digressions’ ch 30, and ‘Selfish’ here
‘How You Live On,’ ‘Missed Signs (accepting help),’ and ‘The Same’ here
‘Feed The Lie (That I'm Composed),’ ‘bury an enemy,’ ‘Long live the king,’ and ‘death in an egg’ here
‘Fear Can't Hurt You Anymore Than A Dream’ here
Kevin's Journey series by Dizzymixer [Rated M/E, Collection, 87634 Words, Updated Mar 2026]
Part 1: Waiting You Out [E, 15148 Words, Complete, 2025, Locked]
Renee is confronted by a very angry Kevin after she rescued Jean. This lights a fire in her to uncover more about Kevin, the biggest lingering question mark on their team. Kevin is closed off and none of them really know the man behind his latest mask. She couldn't have picked a better time. With Jean away in California and neither of them talking while he and Kevin are getting eviscerated by the press in the wake of Riko's death, Kevin isn't exactly finding it easy to keep himself together.
This has an emphasis on the growing friendship between Kevin and Renee, and the friendship dynamics between Kevin and Andrew. This is from Renee's POV.
Part 2: Kicking It In [E, 58740 Words, Incomplete, Updated Mar 2026]
Everyone has a perception of Kevin Day. Whether it was exy star, celebrity hunk, ruthless player, insufferable asshole, traitorous bitch... everyone has their take. The thing is Kevin Day doesn't even know who Kevin Day is. He's not sure he wants to know, either. Not with every part of him cracking under the weight of the Raven implosion, Jean's transition to USC, the impending court case, Riko's death and the fan backlash. Who he is, what he needs, and what he wants is irrelevant. And it always has been.
A continuation of the story in 'Waiting You Out'. This is set just before the end of that fic, where Renee gets shut out of Kevin's life. This is also set around the end of 'The Sunshine Court'. The story is now from Kevin's POV.
Part 4: The Sleepover In The Middle Of Our Dorm [M, 4829 Words, Complete, 2026]
A missing scene from my fic "Kicking It In". At the end of Chapter 3 and the start of Chapter 4 there is mention of Kevin, Andrew and Neil all falling asleep on the floor together after the big fight (and other events) of Chapter 3.
This is what happens between the fight and them waking up, told from Andrew's POV.
I wouldn't call this explicit Kandriel but there is definitely a lot of coding and implication there that it felt wrong not to tag as such.
Do not read without reading Kicking It In, it won't make sense.
Oh my Queen, we are here again by starryxdjh [Rated M, 4138 Words, Complete, 2020]
Previously recced here
Painkillers, a bottle of rum, and a dead end of a mouth.
That was all it took to land Kevin Day in the hospital.
That was what it took for Andrew to be the first one out of his chair when Kevin appeared in Wymack's living room. That was what it took for Neil to sit up straight and stare into the brokenness of Kevin Day and finally flinch in the face of it.
Kingdom Come by Minyard05 [Rated M, 82669 Words, Complete, 2026]
Kevin had been Riko's shadow for a decade and as much as he was happy and relieved to be free of him he also felt an empty ache like a chunk of himself had been removed, spliced and severed from him leaving a bloodied gash in its wake….
There were a million things Aaron could say that might actually be productive. That it made him irrationally angry that now even Andrew put him behind someone else, that he felt like Neil had stolen his family, that Neil had shown up and he and Kevin understood each other in a way he never could….
Rewrite the stars by sunndy2 [Rated M, 72569 Words, Complete 2025]
What if Kevin had never joined the Foxes and had met Aaron in a game against them, and who could have impressed him with his way of playing? What if the two of them started to have secret contact and what if more came out of it? Surely nothing bad would happen then, right?
RavenKevin x FoxAaron
to share the memory of frost by mnnyards [Rated T, 3132 Words, Complete, 2025]
Part 5 of the land is inhospitable
“It was more than once?” Abby asks.
“Uh, yes. A couple of times.” Kevin is aware that the amount of times he’s been choked is kind of a lot, but doesn't everyone get choked once or twice in their life?
“No, Kevin, it’s not normal to get strangled. Most people never get strangled at all.”
Oh.
or: everytime, kevin thinks he doesn't have any hope left. unfortunately for him, he always has more to lose.
Learn to let go by Skvaader [Rated G, 8592 Words, Complete, AFTG Mixtape Exchange 2021]
There’s a question on Kevin’s tongue, one he won’t let escape because it will lead to nothing and there’s no one to answer him. It weighs heavier each day. How do you grieve for someone who’s still alive, who might not be buried? Kevin doesn’t know how to tell Neil he’s already built him a funeral bouquet, that it’s heavy enough that the drawer won’t pry open as easily anymore. That it’s made from steel grey and rosy pink.
Their days are running out and yet here Neil is, buying fruit because Kevin doesn’t dare to ask for a midnight snack.
tw: violence, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: disordered eating, tw: implied/referenced alcohol abuse/alcoholism, tw: canonical character death
All for Kevin by adiha [Rated T, 10444 Words, Complete, 2025, Locked]
Kevin was hurt. And he was alone. Kevin had never been alone until a few months ago. After Baltimore, his chains to Andrew were broken just like their deal, and he has been left by himself in the dorm, in classes, or in Court whenever Andrew and Neil wanted to have alone time.
Misuse oh by tinywoop [Rated M, 7107 Words, Incomplete, Updated Feb 2026]
Kevin wasn’t used to thinking about his feelings, much less talking about them. Previously, he had no time to dwell on something as trivial as human emotions, when there were games to win and horrors to survive. Not even the familiar taste of alcohol on his tongue seems to be able to attenuate them anymore.
Aaron is up pretty early, more usually than not, not by choice. His nightmares keep him up most nights, afraid for the future he worked so hard for, but might not be able to have anymore. Aaron doesn’t know how to be vulnerable, he doesn’t know how to ask for help, much less does he know how to be this person everyone believes him to be.
Kevin and Aaron try to navigate their lives post-canon events and end up drifting closer than they ever thought possible, finding comfort in each other’s presence.
I Don’t Know What I’m Doing So I’ll Just Keep On Cutting (It’s Worth A Little Blood To Get Your Arms Free) by Caranthirwasalesbian [Rated M, 4185 Words, Complete, 2026]
‘Lydia Shetfield.’
Andrew’s expression didn’t visibly change but his fingers paused for a moment in their ministrations and he thought he saw a spark of alertness in his eyes.
‘What about her?’ His voice was measured but Kevin could hear an edge in it. Dread, he would have called it if it hadn’t been Andrew.
Homecoming King by FicWriterFirefly [Rated T, 2665 Words, Complete, 2017]
Kevin's life was rocky to begin with. He escaped by chance, but the past haunts even the best of us. Kevin didn't realise he had a place, really. His place was by Riko's side. In Riko's shadow. But he's learning to be the most important piece on his board. He's no longer content with second place. He didn't choose this life. But perhaps he can choose his future.
from flirting to festering shame by fivescocoa [Rated M, 1840 Words, Complete, 2024]
“Nightmare,” Kevin rasped. Andrew slid down the wall to sit next to him, knees up to his chest. The silence was comfortable as Kevin tried to rein in his galloping heart and take in some meaningful breaths.
Andrew sat silently, eyes watchful, but not pushing Kevin to explain further. After the conversation they had, it was half Andrew’s fault that Riko’s hot breath and bruising hands were haunting his dreams. No harm in telling him so.
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Or, post the mall scene in TRK where Kevin drops the “hetero for your career” line, Andrew prods an open wound and Kevin lets something slip.
Love me 'till I break my cover, I just wanna let it go (I just wanna lose myself) by allfortheBoyds [Rated E, 4664 Words, Complete, 2023, Locked]
Kevin swallows hard. “It’s my birthday,” he says eventually. “I didn’t realise.” Andrew motions for Kevin to get to the point so he does, “my birthdays in the nest weren’t good days.”
or
"The next year he gave me Jean.“
Kevin hates the memory, despises it with his entire being and still, he doesn’t stop talking. Doesn’t stop laying himself bare in front of Andrew and Neil, stripping himself off all facades and illusions. Kevin hates it but he tells them who he really is.
or
Kevin's birthday brings up a lot of unwanted memories
To Whom It May Concern by Andy_Day02 [Rated E, 4001 Words, Complete, 2025]
“It was bad sex.” Kevin shrugged. “I’d assume any sex I’d have wouldn’t feel very–”
“Did you want him to touch you.” Andrew’s voice was soft and damning.
“It’s complicated.”
“It shouldn’t be,” Andrew said. “Sex can be complicated, but wanting someone to touch you isn’t.”
“That didn’t matter to Riko.”
“I’m asking if it mattered to you.”
—
Andrew and Neil learn a new piece of Kevin's past in the Nest.
required readings by mmmmmbred [Rated M, 19540 Words, Incomplete, Updated Apr 2026]
Kevin is too busy surviving to have a chance to crash and burn. Between dating apps, liquor stores, bad haircuts, worse decisions, and therapy, he ends up in the even more dangerous position of being in love with Aaron Minyard.
tw: implied/referenced physical & emotional abuse, tw: negative self image, tw: sex as self harm
Heaven Can't Help Me Now by history11huh [Not Rated, 30126 Words, Complete, 2021]
“Please be quiet, I can’t even hear myself losing the will to live.” Kevin snapped from his hunched position over his desk. History books stacked on top of one another and notebooks full of his messy scrawl obscured the wooden surface from view.
“Did you even have one in the first place?” Aaron replied drily, hopping up onto the kitchen counter and making absolutely no effort to turn his music down.
______
Kevin and Aaron don't particularly like each other, but sometimes loneliness gets the best of people.
community service hours by wyverning [Rated M, 10376 Words, Complete, AFTG Fall Exchange 2024]
Have you acquired an anxious Kevin Day under mysterious circumstances? Well, you’re in luck. All you have to do is follow Andrew Minyard’s step-by-step guide for teaching him independence, and he’ll be back on the Exy court in no time! With a 100% success rate, this instructional manual teaches you how to utilize tools in your arsenal such as threats of bodily harm, brutally personal insults, copious amounts of alcohol, and friendly blowjobs so that you can help get your Kevin Day back to functioning in tip-top shape!
Tumblr Prompts by lipsstainedbloodred [Not Rated, Collection, 2018, Locked]
Chapter 12: Page 11: And The Illusion Shatters (Kevin, +Andreil) [T, 1841 Words]
Prompt: creation event (social media)It’s 7:56 in the morning when Neil Josten’s world comes crashing down around his feet. It’s rare for Kevin to be awake before him, even more rare for him to be up watching the news before Neil has had time to drink his morning coffee, but it’s summer break and Abby’s house is quiet except for the low murmur of the television and Kevin’s rapid breathing. It’s enough to make Neil break from his routine and wander into the living room to investigate.
tw: graphic depictions of violence
kevin talks to others about the nest:
When the war starts in my heart by adodora [Rated M, 42724 Words, Complete, 2025]
"Kevin struggles with the concept of home — he doesn't know if the image conjured from that word will ever stop being the dark and suffocating room he shared with Riko —, but he knows there must be some of it in the way his breathing comes easier when he is alongside Andrew."
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Kevin's perspective through the end of The King's Men and after it, dealing with anxiety, trauma and being in love with his best friends.
tw: violence, tw: implied/referenced physical & emotional abuse, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: alcohol abuse/alcoholism, tw: vomit, tw: panic attacks and extreme anxiety, tw: implied/referenced torture, tw: canonical character death
Lover's Rock series by latecambrian [Rated M/E, Collection, 2 complete works, Updated Dec 2025]
Part 1: i might say something stupid [M, 6078 Words]
Kevin has made too many mistakes to count, but this one? This one might take the cake – or, take the edible? Whatever he's taken, he's not so sure it's a good thing
or
being honest when you're high is still being honest, especially if you're with your lifelong crushes
Part 2: not allowed [E, 4293 Words]
They had made this plan a week ago. Kevin knows this to be true, but he is unable to remember anything concrete about any sort of plan other than he really, really wants to do it.
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healing & drugs & sex but not in that order
Dark Rooms by bittercup [Rated E, 225909 Words, Complete, 2025]
When Riko Moriyama dies, Kevin is forced to confront his past and all the secrets he has long buried—even from himself. As his former life in the Nest seems to resurface, Kevin tries to move forward in the only way he knows how, but years of pain and abuse drag him into a downward spiral. And as his past and present begin to intertwine, Kevin must decide what will become of his future.
a lot's gonna change by neverlyxox [Rated T, 7347 Words, Complete, 2023]
Kevin started going to therapy at the beginning of the fall semester. It hadn’t been his idea, nor was he particularly happy about it. He could barely talk to the Foxes about his issues– and when he did, he definitely wasn’t sober– so how was he supposed to talk to a total stranger about it?
don't say you need me by tropicalblend [Not Rated, 5947 Words, Complete, 2024]
“We’re supposed to play Court together, remember? The three of us.” A pitiful moaned escaped Neil’s throat as he leaned down and laid his head on Kevin’s chest “You can’t leave me” Neil whispered, with a type a desperate panic Kevin is not sure he’s heard from him before “Please”
Or
Kevin has been lost to the world for long enough, and he is tired of wasting time.
Sanctuary by Trash_tzar [Rated M, 20690 Words, Incomplete, Updated May 2026]
'He cannot take you,' Jean murmurs into Kevin's hair. Jeremy rubs his cheek against Kevin's knee in agreement. 'We will not let him.'"
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What starts as a reconciliation visit to California shatters into a make-shift psych hold for Kevin at Jean and Jeremy's when Tetsuji Moriyama announces his plan to force his godson into a conservatorship. Jean and Jeremy race to reexamine the story of Kevin Day they've been told before Kevin finds drastic means to escape returning to his own personal hell, and find that not even the son of exy could survive what went on behind closed doors alone.
beautiful crime by tropicalblend [Rated G (we say M), 48686 Words, Complete, 2022]
Kevin wanted to cry. He wanted to cry for his dad to find him. He wanted to cry for Andrew because he looked dead, slumped against the wheel. He wanted to cry because he didn't try hard enough to warn Neil, who’s now unconscious on the cement road, possibly dead too.
Or
Kevin grew up in the spotlight, he was used to fan encounters. But when he catches the eye of a certain fan that seems too watchful, Kevin doesn’t realize that he’s become prey until it's too late.
Lavender for Luck by Mercey [Rated M, 33270 Words, Complete, Daylight Savings Fest 2024]
‘There is someone whom I am fated to discover. With this spell, I entreat fate for another.’
Budding apothecary witch, Kevin Day, has always known that he has a soulmate, though he has no idea who they are. In a wild bid to protect them from the cruelty of his coven, the Ravens, Kevin decides to perform a "soulmate swap" spell and binds himself to someone who couldn't possibly exist. However, when Kevin finally escapes the Ravens years later, he manages to run into not one but two people who might just—impossibly—fit the bill.
Or is love a possibility for Kevin after all?
everyone talking about leaving this app for good is stronger than me. wheres that one post thats like "I'd be here even if you could only make posts with 3 letters at a time"
affirmations they will not kill me at work today. it is not in my job description to get killed. if they did kill me at work that would be weird and probably not worth it for them
