i exist in two places, here and with you

call me adelaide | 20s | she/her | bi

[movie-gifs]

Don't be afraid. I'll go away and never come back. I don't deserve to be with you. You are beautiful. I am a monster. Beauty and the Beast (Panna a netvor, 1978) dir. Juraj Herz

[stuckinapril]

when James Baldwin said I can’t be a pessimist because I’m alive

[stuckinapril]

when James Baldwin said to be a pessimist means that you have agreed that human life is an academic matter. So I am forced to be an optimist. I am forced to believe that we can survive whatever we must survive.

[noelledeltarune]

before pride month ends does anyone wanna admit they have a crush on me

[noelledeltarune]

posting this on the first day of june so you all have plenty of time to gather your nerves and whatnot

[motherblackcap]

I heard it was that time of year again.

[pathos-logical]

[ID copied from alt: Jedediah and Octavius from the Night at the Museum films. They are shown embracing and laughing together, and are on a rainbow background superimposed over a field of buffalo. Text in the image reads “Happy Pride Month 2026. I ain’t quittin’ you…”. End ID]

[kaijuno]

[tsunderebird]

[malwarechips]

"i think", i say, about my own ocs, who i made,

[donniesdorm]

Arthur (orthurrr) from Malevolent … (and John mention)

[kawuli]

random PSA, I know a lot of people use duckduckgo as a Google alternative search engine, but it always kind of annoyed me when I was using it because it felt like No Name Brand Google

I have switched to using Startpage.com and vastly prefer it. for one thing, instead of displaying an "AI summary" at the top of the search results (unless you turn it off, yes I know), it displays the first paragraph of the Wikipedia article, with link, whenever it finds one that's relevant.

also a waaayyyyy better sense of design than duckduckgo

also private, European based, least annoying search I've used lately (RIP old "don't be evil" Google)

[yomikoreadsbooks]

Keeping a list of Google alternatives just in case…

[saxifraga-x-urbium]

i have one of those, scraped from multiple different rec posts:

Search Engines

Infinity Search is an alternative search engine with a special focus on privacy

DuckDuckGo is a popular search engine for those who value their privacy and are put off by the thought of their every query being tracked and logged. Uses bangs, ![site] for in-page search (sells your data to microsoft and draws from fucking bing)

WolframAlpha is a privately owned search engine that allows you to “compute expert-level answers using Wolfram’s breakthrough algorithms, knowledgebase, and AI technology.” A data search engine.

Boardreader is a search engine for forums and message boards. It allows you to search forums and then filter down results by date and language.

Based in France, Qwant is a privacy-based search engine that won’t record your searches or use your personal details for advertising. Uses “&” as a bang search.

Another privacy-based search engine is Search Encrypt, which uses local encryption to ensure that users’ identifiable information cannot be tracked. Metasearch across multiple engines. 

Offering unbiased results from several sources, SearX is a metasearch engine that aims to present a free, decentralized view of the internet. Can be self-hosted. 

Gibiru’s tagline is “Unfiltered private search” and that’s exactly what it offers. Requires AnonymoX Firefox add-on for privacy. 

Disconnect allows you to conduct anonymous searches through a search engine of your choice.

Swisscows provides fully encrypted searches to protect your privacy and security. Built-in violence/porn filter cannot be overridden. 

MetaGer offers “Privacy Protected Search & Find” through its anonymised search. A plugin will allow it to be made a default.

Gigablast is a private search engine that indexes millions of websites and servers real-time information without tracking your data, keeping you hidden from marketers and spammers. Variety of filtration and refinement options for searching. 

Oscobo is a search engine that protects your privacy while you search the web. By not using any third-party tools or scripts, your data is protected from hacking and misuse. Has a Chrome extension to allow use in toolbar. 

https://search.marginalia.nu/ an independent DIY search engine that focuses on non-commercial content, and attempts to show you sites you perhaps weren't aware of in favor of the sort of sites you probably already knew existed. Use old-school searching rather than query-based for the best results. 

https://www.mojeek.com/ 

https://wiby.me/ - It’s goal is to index as many personalized websites as possible, and NOT commercial sites. 

https://4get.ca/ it works a lot like SearX, but honestly better. It doesn’t have its own index, but pulls from many others. I think it’s the best for research, since it allows you to search for answers from different indexes, is easy to configure, add free, and avoids censorship as much as it can.

https://www.searchenginemap.com/ for more on how search engines relate to each other.

https://yep.com/ is a crawler

https://www.etools.ch/ retrieves from Google, Mojeek, Bing, and Yandex, like Searx

https://www.dogpile.com/ 

https://searxng.org/ (next gen Searx)

https://luxxle.com/ - possibly conservative?

https://presearch.com/ - good for academic?

https://kagi.com/smallweb - free/randomised Kagi.

Other Searchers

www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.

www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.

https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.

www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.

http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.

www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.

www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free.https://cosine.club/ is an electronic music similarity search engine

[thomaszzen]

Sooooo..... I started reading Moby-Dick........

[pepminttea]

rb with your most common recurring theme in your nightmares. mine is pregnancy

[fairycosmos]

apparently youre supposed to perform. they love it when you perform. but it has to be authentic. they hate it when it's not authentic. but you have to perform.

[aphrostiel]

whatever, go my rare trio

i love tumblr because it's the only place i will find fanart and stories about dear underrated characters i love... these 3 being a good example. thank you all you rock. hoping to do more of them soon

[andrewrannellsfr]

When i was in falsettos, the guy playing marvin had an identical twin. Sometimes he'd come onto set during rehearsal and we'd call him evil marvin.

[doublism]

"bruce springsteen came out as bisexual" no i don't think that's true "bruce springsteen is openly bisexual" this we can't possibly refute

[galileosballs]

The darts on Apollo Justice's vest don't make any sense. It's bothering me.

[galileosballs]

I'll return with a more thorough analysis tomorrow but: it's weird that he has a fisheye dart on each side that opens up before the pocket (roughly at the natural waist) and then another dart facing in a different direction below it. Who is your tailor, Mr. Justice?

[galileosballs]

So. Here's Mr. Justice. Looking very stylish, I might add. I would say that I'd wear this outfit myself, but I basically already do.

But there's something wrong with the darts.

For anyone unfamiliar with the term, a dart is a wedge of fabric that gets folded in on itself to provide shape to a flat piece of fabric. They're ubiquitous in all tailoring, both for breast-havers and non-breast-havers. Most torsos are a very shallow cone that peaks at the pectoral muscle, so darts typically point directly nipple-ward. There are two basic kinds of darts: open-ended darts, which go from the bust apex to a seamline, and fisheye darts, which go in and then back out, with their widest point usually at the natural waist.

Apollo Justice's waistcoat looks like it's mostly constructed in a standard way. There's a long waist dart running down the front, and a small bust dart going into the armhole. The bust dart is hard to see from some angles, but it is always there. Normally this would be just fine - that's how I construct plenty of my own waistcoats.

But there is a problem at the pockets. It looks like the waist dart takes a little break for the welt pocket before continuing back down again afterwards. If we take it literally, that means that this is a fisheye dart that releases its fullness above the pocket (which is at the natural waist) and then another one below the pocket. If you did this on a real garment, you'd see a noticeable bulge at the level of the pocket, where the fullness lets out and then gets taken back in again. That's not how it works! When you have a welt pocket where there's a dart (as is common) you just have to put the welt pocket on top of the dart. They intersect.

Now, I could let this go as 'artistic license' - as the artist who drew the sprites not wanting too many lines piled up on each other.

But then I got to the 3D games. And they doubled down.

These are now much more obviously seamlines. And they clearly stop and restart over the pocket. (also we seem to have lost the bust dart for some reason). And what's worse, the lower dart, below the pocket, is now pointing in a different direction.

See? It's at this weird angle now. That's not actually a tailoring problem (you can rotate darts around their apex as much as you like) but it does look very odd. And it makes it even clearer that this is not the same dart continued. They don't just change directions like that.

And the worst part is? They get this right on Athena's sprite.

See that dart line going right into the welt pocket? That's how this is supposed to look! Who is your tailor, Apollo? I want a word.

[galileosballs]

Also, for the record, Phoenix's darts are also too high up on his 3D model.

His bust apex is just above the top button of his waistcoat. But the dart goes up a solid 3" further. This is not how darts work! The darts are also much too far towards the center, which means they're not hitting the region of maximum curvature - that is, the whole reason you want darts in the first place. Also, this jacket is too small. Bad fit in the arms. But that might just be indicating that ol' Naruhodo hasn't bought a new suit in 8 years, so I'll let it slide.

This is not the case in his 2D art, which correctly terminates the darts just at the line of his pecs and fits correctly.

[agoraphobe]

[oldbutchdanielmolloy]

how it feels when the character doesn’t break the cycle and in fact actively perpetrates it