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Critical Role sideblog! Judith|28|She/Her #1 Marisha fan - Keyleth and Beau have my heart.

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THE VAMPIRE LESTAT reviews

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One of the MANY great moments from the episode. 

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Beau and Yasha being the first to reassure and/or take care of each other

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Astral Plane adventures part 1 and 2 post, for fun XD

[milfbestie]

what’s ur sign n ur opinion on beer

[marvelouspeterparker]

which celebrity’s chaotic energy do you match?

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Critical Role & Talks Machina Broadcast Updates | Critical Role

A very important announcement.

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the cutest ,Twiggy

[disasterhumans]

I have a lot of feelings about the fact that Beau is consistently trying so hard to help and show that she is competent and growing but she’s so dismissed, even in group. You could see how upset she was when Cad picked her to go into the tower and Nott immediately said that she ruins everything. I love that Cad and Jester have started to stand up for her more. Especially since she won’t seriously do it for herself because she thinks that the derision people throw at her is what she truly is.

Thinking that Nott/Beau exchange over, and I think that Nott may have a similar problem with Beau that Fjord has with Nott. Nott and Beau haven’t necessarily bonded a lot individually–a lot of their friendship seems borne of the fact that they both care about Caleb. This is not to say Nott doesn’t care about Beau–I think that she cares about her a lot–but I don’t think she fully understands her. I think Nott sees her surly exterior, and assumes it means that she’s really that confident and self-assured. I don’t think Nott comprehends the extent to which Beau has about as many self-loathing issues as Caleb that just manifest very differently. I don’t think that Nott actually meant “Beau ruins everything.” I think Nott was doing her fairly typical “belittle everyone else so that Caleb seems like the coolest,” schtick in order to get Caduceus to consider picking Caleb over Beau to join Yusa. Which is, to be clear, an unhealthy and unhelpful tendency that has caused similar problems in the past. 

Also, Nott hurt Beau’s feelings while simultaneously unaware of Caleb’s uncomfortability with the entire situation, because Nott was focused on how much she wanted Caleb to be a part of the meeting. I’m interested to see how Nott’s arc plays out, because I think Fjord’s arc allowed his individual relationships with the rest of the team to deepen or clarify. Even though Nott and Fjord’s relationship grew tense toward the end, there was still a much clearer dynamic between the two of them during Fjord’s arc than there had previously been. Nott and Beau both tend to obfuscate in similar ways, and hopefully having some of Nott’s walls knocked down will offer up some points of connection between the two of them. 

I do appreciate the fact that Fjord seemed to understand where he slipped up in this episode though. Fjord had no ill intent when he assumed Beau was making up a story–his relationships with Beau, Nott, and Jester all have a thread of “yanking your chain,” woven in. But when Beau does vocalize her feeling like she’s “inherently untrustworthy,” Fjord makes a point later in the episode to say, “I trust you, make good decisions.”

The friction between Caleb and Beau in this episode is trickier. When Caleb describes Beau and Caduceus as having “bullshitted” to Yusa, I don’t think he was talking about the literal things they said. Because, yes, it’s true that they told the truth during that exchange. And it’s true that they both did a fucking fantastic job. It’s also true that if Yusa had ill-intent, and far less patience, that he may have been more upset with the obvious half-truths and obfuscations. They were twisting the truth to their own ends. And while there’s nothing wrong with that, trying to manipulate a situation with a powerful person–who is likely skilled both a manipulating other and seeing through others’ machinations–is not always going to play out in their favor. And, as with Fjord, Caleb does make a point to apologize to Beau, even though that apology ended up going of the rails.

As far as others’ perceptions of Beau go, especially in-party, there seems to be a bit of a “two steps forward, one step back,” problem at play. I think everyone–Jester and Cad in particular–can see that she’s trying, and putting a whole lot of effort into trying. And that she’s changed and grown a lot in a pretty sort period of time. Caduceus, regardless of what he does or doesn’t know about Beau’s backstory, can easily see when things pierce the surface, and certainly understands there’s a lot more insecurity there than she leads on. Beau interacts with Jester–especially one-on-one–in a way that doesn’t look anything like her relationships with anyone else. Consequently, I think Jester views her as more vulnerable than the others do. None of this to say that it doesn’t deeply irritate me when people sell Beau short, or assume the worst of her. But in-game, and in-party, I do think it comes from a place of not fully understanding Beau precisely because of the way she puts walls up. And when her demeanor hasn’t changed all that much (she’s still “abrasive”), it may sometimes be difficult to see when Beau is being generous, or open, or caring. But, while Beau may never be a traditional “face,” character for the group, I do hope everyone begins to acknowledge more consistently how good Beau is at navigating complicated social situations. It may not be something she’s interested in right now, but I think Beau would make a damn good organizer and revolutionist.

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more campaign 2 drawings

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[jolynegarcia]

Cinematic Parallels

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my problem with the Nein, (other than Jester, Cad, and Yasha) treating Beau like she’s a screw up all the time, is the fact that historically and canonically, she’s not.  Like she probably has screwed up the least out of all of them (other than Yasha and Cad because she’s been there the longer and more consistently).Like I feel like ep 2 with her screwing up set the tone for her character despite her normal behavior showing that was an outlier than a definition of her. Like if you actually look at things and the episodes, Beau’s the least likely to fuck things up.  Out of the six characters that are always there, Beau’s been almost killed by 4 of them while she hasn’t almost killed any of them (the Jester bar fight did not count, Jester was in no danger of dying she was just at 0 hit points). 

To my recollection, she’s never actually made things worse in social situations, like she hasn’t always made things better, but she doesn’t make things worse.  And has shown to be at least decent at them and capable of talking herself around to at least a neutral outcome.  She hasn’t given out anyone’s secrets, she hasn’t touched something out of pure curiosity and led them to a deathtrap.

Outside of Cad, Beau is actually the most consistently responsible.  She might be abrasive and a bit of a fuck up when it comes to talking to women she’s attracted to, but she does her job and she does it without bringing personal things into it, she waits until it’s over 

Posted 1/21/19: I’m dating this post so if Beau does somehow screw up spectacularly in the future, you will know when this post was made

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I’m so glad Nugget is back!! (Poor Marion)

I had to draw this as I have been in this exact situation with a curious and overly friendly puppy trying to make friends with an upset and antisocial cat trying to use my studying body as a hiding spot..

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Some of you did not spend your childhoods making potions out of random leaves and berries and twigs and just throwing them all in a tub of water and stirring it with a big stick you found and it shows.

[jazzkolart]

I finally caught up with CR and I’m in love with Beau

[swallowtailed]

The Heroes and the Heart Eater: a legend from Shady Creek Run

Years and years ago, when the Savalierwood was still cursed, there was a demon called the Iron Shepherd. He was a monster in a man’s skin, and he stole travelers from the road and ate their hearts. Nobody had ever escaped from his lair, and nobody knew how to kill him.

Then, one autumn, the heroes came down the Glory Run Road. There were nine: seven on foot, and a cat of many coats, and behind them was the geist of Fate, though the heroes didn’t know that yet. (But the cat knew. Cats always know.)

So the Shepherd came down the road, and when he saw Fate following the heroes, he knew they would bring him power. In the night, he stole three away, planning to eat their hearts. The rest of the heroes chased down the Shepherd and dared him to fight them. So the Shepherd chose one of them and ate his heart there on the road.

They say that’s when the heroes learned the face of death.

The Shepherd left the last three alive so that they would carry the tale of his cruelty far and wide. As for the others, even he couldn’t catch the cat of many coats, and Fate is heartless. So he vanished back to his lair.

The heroes buried their friend beneath a sapling and hung his coat as a banner, and then they set off after the Shepherd. Now they knew they couldn’t fight the Shepherd alone, but Fate followed them, so they found friends along the road. They met a warrior in broken plate, and a speaker of trees, and the last son of the Blooming Grove. You know him, don’t you? He comes into town sometimes. Clay is his name, and the heroes gave him the itch for wandering. But that’s another story.

The heroes charged into the Shepherd’s lair, and when they saw the Shepherd, they struck at him with all their might, their hope and rage and grief— for you can only slay a demon if you’ve seen the face of death. The heroes fought for a day and a night, and when the sun rose, the Shepherd’s body turned to dust and blew away on the breeze, never to haunt these roads again. The heroes freed not just the Shepherd’s other captives, but all their friends.

All their friends but one. They never got back the heart the Shepherd ate— the heart of the hero they buried on the Glory Run Road. So the grave stands to this day, marked by a tree with branches bigger than your arms can reach around. No cold winds blow beneath that tree, and the brambles that crawl up its trunk always have blackberries.

And if you don’t believe it, then ask Mister Clay when he comes to town. He’ll tell you the story of the heroes and the heart eater, and all the other tales too. Though it might be a little different, now, since a story changes in the telling.

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Young Beauregard, 17 years old, heir of the Lionett family