The name's Mushi. I write reader-inserts and, occasionally, rarepair fics.
I also accept requests for scenarios, imagines, and my headcanons. I am currently most interested in receiving requests for Golden Kamuy, but I will also accept RVB and Kaiju no. 8.
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I've been wanting to send this ask in ever since you posted those Abrams relationship headcanons. I love how in-depth you got, and was wondering if you'd mind giving your thoughts on Shiv in a relationship?
Shiv Relationship Headcanons
Content Warnings | None, I don't think
Synopsis | Headcanons for Shiv
Word Count | 1.4k
Notes | When Iām on a roll as Haze, honestly, this MF is like the only one who scares me because I do NOT play a very tanky Haze at ALL broā¦ Like can you stop reaping my very being with so much swag thanks </3
Also, I wanna add this here: I apologize for never acknowledging nice things you guys say when asking or commenting. I really do appreciate them, I swear! Iām just incredibly shy and very awkward with acknowledging compliments or praise and stuff so I end up acting like some cold, distant one night stand who busts then ghosts LMAO
š”Slow burn. S L O W. B U R N.
š”Shiv will NOT rush into anything, even if the chemistry is beyond obvious. This is for several reasons.
š”He has some trust issues. Not the worst out there, donāt get me wrong. The issues also donāt necessarily lie with his trust in his partner, rather, theyāre with how much he trusts himself.
š”These trust issues arenāt so bad to the point where heās become celibate or anything; I mean, heās (canonically) a really attractive dude; heās gotten around. His trust issues start becoming more of an issue when his relationship with someone starts becoming more than short term and casual, as the deeper the bond, the more emotions go into it, and the more the other person is naturally going to rely on him and let themselves become more vulnerable.
š”Shivās afraid that, with those things, the chance of him hurting someone becomes more likely. Heās okay with hurting people when itās necessary, but what heās not okay with is taking advantage of trust put in him to hurt people who havenāt done anything to deserve it.
š”Because of all of this, he goes from the suave, chill hot guy, to the cool dude you start hitting it off with, and then once you start hitting it off too well, he goes back to being kind of aloof. He doesnāt ghost entirely, or become resentful at all, but the shift in behaviour is evident. He thinks heās being lowkey about it, and stays just close enough for you to not notice, or that you wont care enough to mention it.
š”Honestly, this approach has worked in achieving what itās meant to; getting people to grow bored and give up. Very rarely are people invested in him enough beyond a superficial level for them to find it worth the trouble of working through this distant stage. Like I said; itās a slow burn, and when most people only got with him for the pretty face to start, well, itās not a very solid foundation letās just put it that way. Building trust and reliability will come before any true romance or intimacy.
š”When that bridge is finally crossed though, that slow burn sparks into a blazing inferno; he gets excited, and the enthusiasm he tries so hard to suppress starts seeping through the cracks of his ācool guyā persona.
š”One thing thatāll surprisingly make him fall kind of hard is if youāre able to pump the breaks a little, at least at the start. Not in a way that kills the vibe, but in a way that shows youāre conscious and concerned over his excitement possibly making him move things a little too fast, even for himself. You wonāt have to babysit him; heāll reel himself in eventually.
š”Shiv can definitely talk, but verbal affection isnāt his strong suit. He shows he cares through subtle actions; when youāre out he watches your blind spots or positions himself on the side of the sidewalk closest to the road. Heāll make sure your tools or weapons or other supplies are stocked, or that you have the stuff you need to maintain them. If he notices youāre in an uncomfortable situation, heāll step in; not in a loud or defensive way, but quietly, either just as a comforting presence, or to gently usher you away if itās particularly bad.
š”He has a habit of standing really close. Not even just in dangerous situations. Just in general. Heās clingy.
š”Heās protective and clingy, but not possessive. As much as he likes being as physically close to you as possible whenever even somewhat convenient, he also values autonomy too much to ever think of taking that away from you.
š”Once you get closer to him, youāll get to see a really dry sense of humour that he doesnāt share with a lot of people.
š”Shiv remembers small details about you, even if he never points them out. Youāll only notice when he does something that perfectly matches what you said three weeks ago, once in passing. Heās probably as observant as people like Haze or Abrams, which people donāt expect a lot of the time.
š”If anything goes wrong, whether you get hurt, or the two of you encounter any conflict, itās always handled the same way. Thereās no yelling, he takes long pauses to think things through, and he chooses his words carefully. But, even when everything is said and done, you can notice that his hands were shaking and his shoulders held tension that only settles when he knows things are okay.
š”Sometimes he needs space, not cause heās pulling away, but because he processes things internally and needs the time to think things through when they start getting to him.
š”As mentioned earlier, heās clingy. Heās like, always touching you; a hand on your shoulder, fingers brushing yours or leaning close without a word. He doesnāt say āI love youā often, instead, it comes out as ābe carefulā or āI got you -insert favorite flowers you mentioned once-ā. Heāll claim that he saw them ājust along the wayā but you damn well know he had to go a block out of his way to get them. As time goes on, āI love youā becomes a bit more common though. When he says things that are emotionally direct it hits hard because he means every single word. Not to say he doesnāt mean what heās trying to convey otherwise, itās just that the extra layer of vulnerability isā¦ different.
š”He softens when alone with you; his voice is lower, posture less rigid. Not in a way where heās censoring himself, but more so handling himself in a way that lets him be more eye-to-eye with you; everyone always has to perform when in public, some more than others. Here, he wants to shed that performance entirely.
š”He hates raunchy PDA, but LOVES innocent, sweet PDA.
š”Shiv, once heās committed, is unshakably loyal.
š”When it comes to the kind of person heād be into, I feel like heās much more versatile than, say, Abrams. What matters with Shiv is having someone who is empathetic, patient, some level of kind, and trustworthy. Reliability is also a big one, and he dislikes people who are shallow. I feel like he also wouldnāt be super attracted to very naive or innocent people. Nothing against them, theyāre just typically not his speed. He also likes a hint of mischief, IMO.
š”He tries to rely on himself, but there are times where all of these traits prove their importance. He will be incredibly slow to speak about his past in depth, but when he does itāll be at a pace thatās deliberate and sincere.
š”As much as he tries to hide it or convince himself otherwise, his insecurities about whether he truly is some dangerous person, or even a monster bubble up. Thatās when the trust issues set in bad; heās worried about hurting the people he cares about. Itās why he tries so hard to make up for the bad heās done, but on these days it feels like nothing he can ever do will be enough. Being able to reassure him without discrediting his concerns is really important.
š”Shivāll put a lot of effort into helping you with your troubles as a way to redirect his own, too. He genuinely enjoys being a very giving partner, emotionally and physically, donāt get me wrong, but youād need to make sure that you remind him that that support goes both ways. Donāt push him, let him take space as he needs it, but also be there when heās ready to lean on you as he lets you do to him.
I just want to say I really love your Tsukishima reader fic!! The historical accuracy is a treat. And I cant wait to see his inner romantic come out, or some angst over Igogusa ;;;
Thank you for sharing your story, I appreciate your hard work! Im cheering you on!!
This really made my day, thank you so much!! ;w;
I'm glad I can share this story, and that there are people who love it as much as I do. I honestly can't wait to get to those parts myself! I don't wanna reveal too much, but Igogusa is definitely going to get her time to haunt the narrative. There will still be plenty of sweet Tsukishima moments of course, tho. ;)
Thank you for your support!!! You've given me a burst of energy to get back to it!!!!
Wanna talk about one of my modern AU Ogatas real quick--
He's a pretty different guy. A lot of the same stuff happens in his childhood (mom is his dad's mistress, dad abandons them when he's a baby, she neglects him and only makes anglerfish nabe, etc.)-- EXCEPT!! Before Ogata's old enough to have the idea to poison her, Tome is actually recognized to be having a psychotic break, and his grandparents intervene with the help of a social worker.
In the modern day, Tome wasn't a geisha, and her parents didn't have to shoulder the burden of paying off her debt after she got pregnant and had to move back home. They had a closer relationship with their daughter and grandson as a result, and Tome became an inpatient at a psychiatric hospital with a good reputation. In turn, Ogata didn't experience emotional neglect for quite as long, and has gone from being a grandma's boy to actually considering his grandma more his mom than Tome (who he actually just calls "Tome" now instead of "mom"). Even now that he's moved out, he still has dinner with his grandparents pretty regularly, and will "disappear" every now and then to just spend a long weekend staying with his grandma whenever things get overwhelming in his life. Saves money to take her for spa trips on her birthday and Grandparent's Day (he used to try to do Mother's Day with her too, but she's always insisted Tome should still have that day to thank her for bringing him into the world).
This Ogata is pretty well-adjusted and has some degree of emotional intelligence, but is still a real smug asshole who butts heads with most people, and has a dark sense of humor. He just has some lines he won't cross now, because his grandma raised him to be a good boy and he doesn't want to disappoint her. He has a few close friends, and this is one of the only universes where Usami genuinely likes him because he's a pretty stand-up guy instead of a pathetic, self-absorbed incel.
Still meets Yuusaku in his mid-20s and resents him for being the golden child his dad abandoned him and Tome for, but instead of trying to kill Yuusaku, Ogata just uses him for free meals at nice restaurants for a bit since he's a trust fund baby and has money. Their relationship is pretty neutral. Worst thing Ogata does is probably sleep with Yuusaku's crush after he introduces them at his birthday party he invited Ogata to.
I think maybe Tome was discharged from the hospital when Ogata was in his late teens, and they have an amicable but distant relationship now. She offered, but didn't try to take over being his mom again, and he actually really appreciated that. It helped him let go of a lot of his resentment toward her, too. Now she lives the hot single lady life, and has friends she goes out clubbing with pretty regularly.
Tome and Ogata don't make any effort to spend time together (outside of joining him and her parents for dinner on special occasions), but they run into each other in public every now and then and have a short, friendly chat. Based on how they interact and how young Tome looks (since she had Ogata young), someone who doesn't know them might make the assumption that she's just an old friend, and not even a relative. He once got a "was that an ex-girlfriend?" and went through every stage of grief on the spot.
Hey! I've been working on a TsukishimaxReader story on AO3 for over a year now, called "I Accidentally Married the Military Despot's Right Hand Man". I would really like some beta readers for it, if anyone is interested. Unfortunately, I don't have any friends who are into both Golden Kamuy and reader inserts, so getting feedback to polish my writing has been difficult. I've got some OgataxReader and others, too, I'd like someone to look over so I can finally post them.
If you're interested, go ahead and dm me. No need for formalities. :)
I know I donāt post often on here, and when I do itās art. But I have this one headcanon that Felix from Red vs Blue would be into booktok girls. Or at least make a profile, have a mask, and definitely feed into them and there delusions.
Maybe Tex was the first fragment because Alpha's first response to stress was the desire for someone to come save him, like how Allison once saved Dr. Church from bullies. Maybe thatās why she wants to save him, and keeps coming back?...
How Agents York, North, South, and Connecticut behave in committed relationships.
York: Bad jokes bad pick-up lines bad puns. His partner gets the worst of the worst at all hours of the day. No place, and no time is sacred. Theyād be filthy rich if they got a penny for every time he ruined the moment. Has a latent possessiveness that doesnāt come into play very often, but still very much exists. Means well, but takes a lot of things at face value, and has misunderstood his partnerās actions and feelings plenty in the past. Otherwise, heās very accepting, and very rarely judges (if ever). Heās the type to feel loved when spending quality time with you, and he rarely if ever turns down an opportunity to do just that. In fact, it doesnāt even matter what you do together-- just that itās together.
North Dakota: Ridiculously lovey-dovey, ESPECIALLY in public. Doesnāt stop no matter how long youāve been together, even decades down the line. Gives you all the attention you could possibly need, and then some. To say heās a bit of a nag is an understatement. Worries like a momma bird, and will go into disapproving big brother mode whenever youāre doing something he deems unhealthy or dangerous. Likes picking you up and carrying you, and is strong enough to bench-press you no matter how big you are. Heās the one in the relationship who remembers all the important dates, including all your friendsā and relativesā birthdays. Definitely remembers anything and everything that has to do with you: allergies, what you like and dislike, and that one offhand comment you made once about needing to get a new wallet soon. Overprotective, and gets jealous easily.
South Dakota: Also strong enough to bench-press you, and often does so. Again, doesnāt matter how big you are. If you thought her temper would decline--or even vanish--around a romantic partner, youād be wrong. Itās still as explosive and unmanageable as ever, but if youāre visibly cowed by her yelling and hitting things, she starts being more conscientious of it-- and at the very least, puts physical distance between the two of you when sheās in one of her moods. As your relationship progresses and her feelings deepen, you become her rock. The person she trusts to hear her out and help her come back down. When sheās calm, sheās a totalĀ showoffĀ with the biggest smirks and grins, and says the dirtiestĀ things. Making you blush is one of her absolute favorite pastimes. Like North, sheās prone to jealousy, but even more so. Donāt tell her I said this, but sheās pretty clingy too...
Connie / CT: Connie is a complicated woman. She has many, many secrets, and you know barely a third of them. According to her, youāre safer that way. The secrecy can put a strain on your relationship, but she does her best to make up for it in other ways. Sheās not only a great listener, but she's the person who gets angry on your behalf, and raises the standard for how people are allowed to treat you. If someoneās giving you trouble and she finds out about it... well, she deals with it, but once again youāre safer not knowing how. Just as itās important to her that she have your back, itās important she knows that you have hers, too. Youāre the only person whoās still allowed to call her Connie. She makes you keep a single bag packed with essentials at all times just in case she needs to spirit you away in the middle of the night without explanation.
Hey something that seems real obvious to me, that I think a lot of people missed: In the season 14 merc trilogy, Locus doesnāt have makeup covering his scar because heās ashamed of it. Maybe he is, maybe he isnāt, but itās not why he had makeup on THEN--
Heās covering it because itās a very unique identifying mark, and theyāre doing a very dangerous job where anonymity is important. Like someone covering up their tattoos when theyāre robbing a bank.
Imagine dating Usami in the modern day, and having Ogata as a mutual friend. Maybe you met them at the same time, or Usami introduced Ogata as his roommate in college. Maybe you even knew Ogata first, and Usami swept in after he introduced the two of you at a party.
(More under the cut. Open the post if you don't see a readmore.)
Whatever the case, Ogata has been secretly pining after you for a long-ass time. Usami picked up on it almost immediately, and has been lording his relationship with you over Ogata ever since, just to fuck with the guy (because of course he is). It doesn't help that Ogata's being kind of an incel about the whole thing, wondering how you could go for an asshole like Usami. Ignoring, of course, the fact that he himself is kind of a dick to you most of the time...
Ogata has it built up in his head that Usami is a terrible boyfriend, and it's only a matter of time until you break up and he can have his shot... but no, that's completely wishful thinking. Usami is an exemplary boyfriend, actually. Loving, attentive, always showing up for you, and spoiling you with fun dates and presents (and he remembers exactly what you like, too!). Doing the lion's share of the housework if you move in together, and making you breakfast every morning before he leaves for work because he wants to make sure you're eating properly. Not to mention the sex--if you have it--is phenomenal...
Ogata is left coming home to an empty, messy apartment every night, to eat a microwaved meal and watch gun historian videos on YouTube with the lights out. Wondering how an asshole like Usami has you so fooled. He knows what that guy's really like...
In the interests of becoming active again, I'm going to start posting non-RVB stuff I've written for fun. This will hopefully get the ball rolling.
I am still accepting requests for imagines and headcanons! I cannot promise fanfiction at this time, because I have no medication for my excessive amounts of ADHD, but you are still free to request. I may love the idea so much I write it on the spot, but I can't make any promises. All I'm trying to do as of this moment is counteract whatever shame is keeping me from using this blog.
MUSHI!!!!! :D I'm so glad to see you online! How are you? How have the last five years treated you?
Hiiiii!! Wow, it's been so long, I wasn't expecting to get an ask like this. ;;;;
I'm alright. These past five years have been crazy. A lot of big, sudden life changes, for better and for worse. I'm in my early 30s now, living the domestic life with one of my partners and our dog Chai. Money's usually tight, but I'm able to fully relax while in my own home for the first time in my life. It's WILD what kind of difference that makes.
The fandom bug hit me hard a few months back (Golden Kamuy), and it got me writing again. It's been really nice. I'm going to continue doing some writing for RVB, but this is definitely going to become a multi-fandom blog again. I think it maybe needs a new look, too... but I'm not sure what yet. Tumblr is so different now, it's a bit of a shock!!
I really appreciate you checking up on me. Thank you, anon. ;_;
Can you do the ladies of PFL with an s/o that is just a civilian but is impossibly durable? Like if they got shot by a bullet it wouldn't go through them/barely would or if they got run over by a tank they'd get out mostly fine except for maybe a sprained or broken limb, not an absolutely crushed one. They could probably take a point blank explosion and walk away with only slight burns and minor pain from impact.
Tex actually really appreciates how durable her partner is. She's used them as a meat shield before in a pinch, but she doesn't like making a habit of it, and generally doesn't involve them in her business to begin with. She likes that she can wrestle and be rough with them and they can take it like a champ, even with her enhanced strength. She does get a little huffy that she can't leave bite marks and hickeys on them that easily, but she doesn't dwell on that. She gives them affectionate punches in the arm as often as kisses.
Carolina is honestly a little disturbed whenever she bears witness to her partner's freakish durability, but seeing them survive is still more of a relief than anything else. She feels guilty about it, but she's used them as a meat shield at least once. It's on instinct! Somewhere along the way, some wires got crossed, and she subconsciously put them in the mental basket Maine used to inhabit of being the bulwark at her back. The absolute last thing she ever wants to do is make them feel like she doesn't care about their well-being, though, and the shame makes her get defensive and try to hide. She always comes around in the end though, with apologetic kisses and some kind of present.
South ABSOLUTELY uses her partner as a meat shield-- but never in combat. She just goes out of her way to instigate things, so she can dive behind them with a cackle. She's like a kid with a toy that doubles as a stress ball. Whenever she's in a good mood she'll give them a few punches, whenever she's antsy she'll given them a few punches-- she'll gnaw on them, wrestle them, pick them up and toss them around like a beanbag. Maybe lay on her back and treat them like she's rolling a barrel with her feet whenever it's leg day. It gets pretty excessive, but she'll stop and pout if they get annoyed and tell her that's enough. They're her hyper-durable teddy bear, and she falls asleep squeezing them more often than she'd care to admit. Having them on hand relaxes her.
Connie is nonplussed. She's the only one of the PFL ladies who has never used her partner as a meat shield even once. It was a shock the first time she saw them survive something crazy, and she questioned them thoroughly--ex-SPARTAN? Another unethical UNSC project to try and win the war?--before she added the new information to her mental dossier, and continued on as if nothing happened (although that's not true at all. She's still to this day digging into their background and family history in her spare time trying to figure out where they got it from, to find out if there are any unpleasant side-effects to watch out for down the line). She's relieved they survive what they do, but plans meticulously to keep them out of harms way all the same. The fact that they're a civilian is never forgotten.
479er goes from a verbal "what the fuck?" the first time she witnesses her partner survive an explosion, to thinking it's the absolute funniest shit ever. Whenever company's around and she's had a few beers, she wants her partner to do stunts to show it off. She cackles at all the shocked expressions. Otherwise, it doesn't really come up, beyond her insisting they be the one to climb ladders, and stick their hand down the garbage disposal to fish stuff out whenever she's home. She hasn't needed to use them as a meat shield before, but absolutely would without a second thought, if it ever came up. Don't look at her like that! Some of us are ordinary, non-bulletproof humans, okay?
(NSFW under the cut. Open the post directly if you donāt see a readmore.)
š- hickies, kisses, licking, etc.He usually has his mouth on his partner at all times (assuming he isnāt making some dumb joke or smart comment). Hickeys are sparing, as heās hesitant to make any sort of āclaimā on his partnerās body, but kissing! Heās definitely a fan. Kisses over mouth, neck, shoulder, chest, stomach... he kisses everything in his reach basically. And licks their cheek at least once to gross them out along the way.
š- Where are their hands/ what are their favorite parts to grab? The places youād expect. Boobs, butt. Anything fleshy, on man or woman (or both). He likes getting a handful.
š- How experienced are they? Pretty experienced. Heās had more than a few partners, and he knows how to please. He knows well the most important rule: listening to and figuring out what his partner likes best.
āļø - How long do they last? York has some pretty good stamina on him. He aims to please, and knows how to edge himself if heās getting too close. Heās not into edging, per se-- heās purely interested in getting his partner off first. Thatās the be all end all.
Howdy! So, I was thinking,, hear me out, lmao; Felix taking care of a drunk reader.
Felix thinks youāre hilarious, first off. He eggs you on too. Every time you say something, he goes āoh yeah?ā and waits to see what you follow up with. He keeps his arm around you the whole night. Kissing your cheek, and chuckling whenever you get flustered. You donāt have to worry while heās around, he keeps an eye on you and makes sure nobody tries anything funny. He buys your drinks too. By the end of it, he gets you to down at least one glass of water, and takes you home for cuddles. He made out with you a little bit at first, but huffed and backed off as soon as he realized just how drunk you were. He gives you his favorite hangover remedy in the morning.Ā
