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24 | it/its/he/him | heated rivalry / shadowhunters / 5sos

[deeplyobsessed]

troy barrett is the stray cat you find drenched from the rain hiding under your porch. he will hiss and scratch you until eventually you spend enough time with him and the next thing you know you have a new shadow lurking around the corner at any given moment

[sunsettercalum]

just learned that a lot of people headcanon troy as autistic ??? hello give me MORE ????? i related to shane and troy the most when reading the series for the first time, and when i learned shane is autistic i had one of those oh moments and now i’m having one of those with troy bc oh. so that’s why i relate to him so much. that’s also why, in my head, he and shane are besties. right. right.

[shaneposting]

i wanted to join in :>

[sunsettercalum]

oh yeahhhhh my favorite shane >:]

[pookieshane]

Heated Rivalry (2025-) | 1.01 - Rookies

[aretheregonbeproblem]

Prayer circle for Troy asking Ilya for Shane’s number to be included in HR S2

[bostonlilyofthevalley]

“wow. genetic.” might be my favorite line that wasn’t in the book like even when shane was a rabid little coyote in the throes of denial he’s still like wow. my man. he says silly little things and i love him <3

[jahsontodd]

Important to note that Troy is not just a wet dog but like a wet long haired german shepherd. Just kinda getting water everywhere, keeps trying to shake it off and everyone in his vicinity is like oh my god please stop shaking water off its everywhere. Probably has a bite history. Bummed that people are inherently wary of him despite you know. Growling and staring and snapping at people who get too close. Smart but in the way that’s not useful like it only gives him anxiety. Loves a job.

[sunsettercalum]

this is so important to me, actually. i unfortunately love him so bad

[darlingofdots]

the first time they say "my husband" and the first time somebody asks about "your husband" and the first time they realise they can take a picture they don't have to delete and the first time they don't instinctively take two steps away from each other when someone approaches and the first time it doesn't matter who pays at the restaurant and the first time they say "our house" and "our dog" and "our team" and the first time they sleep apart again and realise that they can't remember when they last slept apart and!

[sunsettercalum]

#myshane being a pain stimmer is so important to me. he’s pulling his own hair until his scalp stings, he’s clenching his jaw so hard his teeth ache, he’s pressing his nails into his skin so hard that it takes hours for the indentations to fade away, he’s scratching his chest and/or thighs until the skin feels raw, he’s hitting either side of his head with the heels of his hands ,, etc. etc. and these are only the “gentle” ones

[lexicanons]

Ilya wearing a pair of lace panties. Shane pulling them to the side and riding Ilya, loving how the lace feels rubbing against his skin.

[littlespoonevan]

vegas bathroom scene is really just like. ilya has the upperhand. ilya is using shane's desire for him to get what he wants and set the terms for their dynamic. ilya is controlling the game and telling shane how the night will go. but then. But Then. shane says 'when did your english get so good?' and ilya says, 'i read new yorker now' and shane's smile is so blisteringly infatuated and his 'really?' is so eager and all of a sudden. ilya is disarmed. shane (unknowingly) has the upperhand now. ilya turns away from shane and stops making eye contact. ilya beats back shane's every question with a flippant answer 'no new yorker is boring' 'ah so being boring is genetic'. but it literally doesn't matter what he says because shane is so enamoured and so weak-kneed and so taken with ilya that his earnestness is pouring out of him. he can't help it. he says 'my dad loves it' like he wants ilya to know him. he says 'wow, genetic' like it's a love confession. and ilya Cannot get back the upperhand. he can't get back the control. so he makes a deal and he sets the terms and it's fine. but then shane looks at him from under his lashes with watery eyes and says 'and if you win?'. and ilya's self-control shatters and he Has to kiss shane. he can't help it. in a second, he'll leave the bathroom and take everything he feels and lock it away in a box he won't allow himself to touch. and yes the aftermath will be agony but it's also. they're playing a game of chess and shane doesn't even know he's already won, y'know?????????????

[rainingpouringetc]

i have so many old man (like genuinely old) hollanov thoughts do you want to hear them ok cool

my sources and inspiration are that i work in assisted living/memory care and spend about 1/3 of my week with people between the ages of 80 to 100

to start, i think their kids have to spend a long time wearing them down before they are convinced to move into assisted living. i'm talking a minimum of a year before shane and ilya even agree to start looking at different senior living facilities. they're just convinced that they are fine and that they manage! but ilya has been using a cane for a couple decades and shane's strength isn't what it used to be, so they're worried about what happens if one of them falls and there isn't anyone to help them. plus, the house is big and upkeep is difficult. as much as they love their life, they eventually agree they will need more substantial help going forward.

in the end, they wait until after their dog passes away at the respectable age of 15 before they move (mostly because ilya could not stomach the thought of rehousing her, even if just to one of their children). they choose a facility that is about in the middle of where their kids all live. they will be able to maintain some independence while still receiving support from the care staff.

(the facility that they choose also has an additional wing for specialized memory care, a feature that their oldest brings up hesitantly during their search and that both shane and ilya silently agree not to discuss further)

it takes some time to adjust, having gone from living by themselves in a large home in suburban ottawa to sharing what is essentially a one-bedroom apartment with round-the-clock care. the nurses bring them their pills at scheduled hours, they have to be in the dining room at certain times or else they won't get a meal, and people are constantly knocking on their door inviting them to events and activities. it's. a bit exhausting.

after a couple weeks, though, they find a rhythm. ilya loves being surrounded by new people and makes an effort to learn not just about his fellow residents but also the care staff and administrators. being in his 80s doesn't mean he's lost his charm, but rather has had time to hone it. everybody loves him. and shane appreciates that if he doesn't like an activity or starts to feel tired, he can simply retire to his room upstairs without it being a whole ordeal.

they don't go out for all of the activities. they don't like the trivia games (the reminder of the fact that their memories aren't what they used to be always hits a bit too close to home), and the card games are somewhat hit or miss. but when they do go down for games, the old competitive spark never fails to rear its head.

the facility introduces a weekly bowling game shortly after they arrive, and it quickly becomes shane and ilya's goal to beat each other as often as they can. they never play on the same team and always spend the entire time chirping each other like they're back on the ice competing for a cup, not in the main hallway of an assisted living home competing for a small plastic trophy and bragging rights.

things are really good for a few years. sure, their health isn't getting any better—shane has to start using a walker after a fall that ended in a hospital trip, and ilya opts for a wheelchair as the stiffness in his legs only continues to get worse—but they're still together and that's what matters to them. their kids visit every weekend and bring the grandkids too.

it gets bad when ilya is officially diagnosed with alzheimer's. he had been getting easily confused and frequently forgetful for a few months before their kids scheduled him a doctor's appointment. he would forget the rules of a game they were in the middle of playing, tell the same joke multiple times in a short conversation, or even get upset about how long shane had been gone when he'd only just left to use the restroom for a couple minutes.

the decision to move ilya upstairs into the memory care wing is a difficult one. the decision for shane to stay in assisted living is nearly impossible. ilya will have his own room upstairs and shane can come visit him anytime while still retaining the freedoms living downstairs grants him.

ilya is hurt by the decision, a feeling compounded by the fact that his confusion means shane has to re-explain himself several times a day. it takes a while for him to feel comfortable in the new space, with the new people. he tries to make friends with the folks he sits with at dinner, but their dementia is more progressed than his and conversation is halting. he grows close with some of the nurses and activities staff, though he's blind to the fact that he asks them the same questions about themselves every time he sees them. they oblige him and chat with him happily, asking questions about his life and career that he doesn't quite have answers to.

things are better when shane is there to fill in the gaps he is missing. even after more than 50 years together, shane is able to settle something in ilya just by being present. after realizing how much ilya is struggling to adjust, shane decides to spend all of his meals with ilya. he spends the whole morning up there, really, going to the activities or just sitting in ilya's room watching tv.

after a few weeks, it becomes evident that splitting his time between memory care and assisted living isn't doing shane any good. he is distraught at ilya being distraught, and ilya is distraught anytime shane is not with him. so, even though he doesn't have the level of memory issues typically indicative of someone who should be in specialized care, he moves up to memory care to be with his husband.

he finds that he actually doesn't mind it. he still sees his friends from assisted living a couple times a month when the facility does big joint events. he prefers being with ilya over them anyway. and he was never the one who wanted to do all the special activities or be around people all the time either.

with shane around, ilya is calmer. he's more receptive to care with shane there to bully him into it, more engaged during activities trying to make his husband laugh, more distracted from his illness because he's so busy living in the moment.

one thing that doesn't change whether they're in assisted living or memory care (or just out in the world, for that matter) is people's reaction to learning they are the shane hollander and ilya rozanov. even with their fading memories, folks in ottawa remember the players that brought their team two stanley cups in their time on the centaurs. and, of course, there are plenty of residents' family members who come by and recognize them after chatting for a bit.

the memories that stick with ilya most, though, and thus the ones that get revisited and discussed the most, are his memories of domesticity with shane. he will talk to anybody who will listen about how their morning routine changed after they had kids, about what it was like traveling on the road together for work, and even about all of shane's little quirks and particularities. shane loves reliving these memories with ilya. they're happy together, and that's what matters.

now, i'll be honest, even though i work with old people i am really bad with death. so we're not going to go any further. they both live forever even after the sun explodes. the end.

[lavenderprose]

screaming crying on my knees begging pls share your thoughts on the shower scene in episode 4 i am SO intrigued

Okay so just to preface, I'm not the only person who has thoughts along this line regarding Ilya in the shower in episode four, and I think others have probably talked about it too, and probably more eloquently.

That being said, this has sort of been my interpretation of that scene from the beginning and some of this could be confirmation bias. I have no real direct evidence for a lot of it. However, I really think that there are indicators in the end of that scene that imply we're just fully inside Shane's head at that point. The non-exhaustive list goes something like:

The way that the staircase in Shane's apartment is framed when Rose is going up. There's a kind of vertigo-inducing quality to the whole thing, and I think also a mirrored aspect that we don't see the only other time we see a shot focused on that staircase i.e. when Shane and Ilya are kissing their way up the stairs in the montage at the beginning of the episode. This show is alllll about parallels, and it's crucial to me that everyone recognizes that the All The Things She Said scene could be interpreted as a direct parallel to the My Moon My Man Montage. Kissing up the stairs -> Rose climbing the stairs while Shane watches. Ilya holding Shane's face against the couch -> Shane patting Rose's hair while trying to fuck her. Showerhead Shower Head -> Ilya masturbating in the shower. I say not for the last time: I have no direct evidence for this. But the parallels are there, and they're important.

All The Things She Said by t.A.T.u is diegetic in the scene, i.e. it's actually supposed to be playing in the club. The Harrison version is NOT. To me, this is meant to be indicative of the sort of distortion that being drunk and upset can have on a memory. As soon as the Harrison version of ATTSS starts playing, we're inside Shane's mind--we're replaying the night as he remembers it.

(Small aside here: Another reason I think the Harrison needle drop is the point at which we enter Shane's recollection of the night, rather than what actually happened, is because I don't think Miles was actually kissing the back of his neck like that. If that had actually happened I don't think Shane would have been chill about it. I think that's a weird detail that Shane's very conflicted mind slipped in there when he was thinking about it later--crucially, while mid-sex. I have no evidence for this.)

This is further amplified by the rapidly switching POVs. We see Rose kissing Shane's stomach, and then we see Ilya in the club. We see Shane taking off his shirt and Rose dropping to her knees, and then we see Ilya in the shower. Voyeur perspective, as though watching from around a door. We see him (and this is crucial, I'm so serious) scratching his ass. Clearly, the idea is that he's alone. But the door is open! Who showers alone with the door open? Someone who lives alone, sure, but also--someone who doesn't mind if they can be seen? Someone who's comfortable with whoever might be in the next room?

(The sound of the shower when Ilya leaves the bed after taking Shane's virginity is loud. Almost as if the bathroom door is still open.)

Anyway. Immediately after we see Ilya in the shower for the first time we see Shane on the bed with Rose and he is fully hiding his face. He is not looking at her. He has his head in the bed and his eyes completely closed. Next time we see Ilya, the shot gets brighter. So bright that he's basically haloed. His arm is speeding up, he's getting close.

Ilya in the club again. Standing STILL. And Shane is looking at him and--hmm. Where did the champagne he had in his hand go? I've seen people explain the absence of it by saying that he dropped it when he saw Ilya. I think a large amount of broken glass on the floor would get more attention from the surroundings than is seen in that shot--that is to say, it would get SOME, but Shane is standing alone. So is Ilya. Everyone else is moving around them. More of the memory-distortion. That shot is what it FELT like to Shane, to see Ilya in that club.

Here's the really important part. (It's all important but this is the part that really drives me insane) At the very end of the scene we hear three things: Ilya moaning, Rose moaning, Shane moaning. Ilya's moans are distorted, breathy and have this dreamy quality which implies to me, at least, that they are not diegetic. They are not actually happening. And we only hear them when he's making eye contact with the camera (i.e., Shane). Crucially, the only time we hear Rose moan is at the very end of Ilya's, and they seem to almost bleed into one another. Rose's moans are also non-diegetic, as if they're not actually happening in that moment. The only diegetic moans in that entire scene are Shane's. And his moans are the only ones that don't come through in that weird, airy filtered way.

Interestingly--and you can take from this what you will--when Ilya comes (I think that's the implication of that last shot) it's in a close-up on his face, mouth open. Now obviously there's a Doyalist explanation for this, which is: they couldn't show his dick. But the camera could have stayed zoomed out on his body, on the motion of his hand. But it showed his face. Hmm. The same view you might have of him if you were. I don't know. Under him? While he came?

That's also when Shane comes. So.

Okay well that ended up being way more of an exhaustive list than I thought it would be. I do want to emphasize that the thing that blew this whole thing wide open for me is when I realized that the bathroom shown behind Ilya at the beginning of the scene is NOT the same one we see him in at the end. Various people have put forth the theory that it's the bathroom of the girl he went home with (I know he didn't do that in the book but we're talking show canon and the show never makes it clear what happens with that girl--in book canon, Shane ALSO does not go home with Rose that night, so) but this doesn't make sense to me because why?? would he be jerking off in the shower?? if that was the case.

("Maggie what about what you just said about Ilya in the bathroom after the deflowering--" I know what I said and to be clear SHANE is having a FANTASY. He's blending multiple things in his brain in the hope that one of those things will be enough to get him hard and make him come. So he thinks about Ilya and he thinks about Ilya some MORE and he thinks about Ilya that night when he felt so good and safe and good under him and then he thinks about watching Ilya shower in the aftermath and how intimate it felt and then he thinks about Ilya jerking it at him in the shower and then they all combine in his brain. Like. This is probably very similar to what happens in Shane's brain when he masturbates. 2+2 equals Ilya Rozanov.)

So yeah! I think that whole scene is purposefully framed to imply that Shane is thinking about Ilya while having sex with Rose and if some all-knowing being appeared before me and told me that I could ask it whatever I wanted, this would probably be near the top of the list. DID Jacob Tierney intend for this. I think yes, but I would really love to know.

[gatekeepslay]

my simple contribution to the editsphere tn with animals by maroon five bc this is SO hollanov might edit them to one more night too omg 😏

[martelldoran]

maybe it's my own biases showing, #mybias, but i really want shane to have a cat. i genuinely think he'd love lying with them curled up on his chest and making them their own little bowl of (only the best) atlantic salmon so that two of them can have matching dinners together.

said cat will come via the cat distribution system though. he's finding them under a bush outside the cantire centre one day after practice and taking them home in the front pocket of his hoodie like a kangaroo joey.

[cerberux]

let me project onto shane hollander real quick okay thnx

When Shane was little, growing up in Canada, he had chronic dry, split hands. This was likely only amplified by the time in the rink, the cold, the amount he uses his hands, and all that. The issue, though, is that it was a struggle to get hand lotion on him. He hated the slippery gross feeling and how he couldn’t hold onto things right and it was cold and gross and an absolute sensory nightmare. A few times Yuna made him do the Overnight Glove Thing™️ (hand lotion in glove, hand in glove, sleep in agony). It was an overall nightmare.

That is, until Shane discovered The Shane Way. He would put it on the back of his hand, and smooth it over both using only the backs. This avoided the slippery sensation he oh so despised, and was actually rather efficient.

He continues doing this into adult life, and perhaps it’s never questioned.

Or maybe Ilya sees it and takes a second to process what has just happened.

But in the end, there is always method to Shane Hollander’s madness

[mazzystar24]

You know what scene from the long game doesn’t get enough love? The Fabian concert scene like I was just explaining it to Louis and how good it sums up the difference of their internal struggles/thinking and how they each push themselves for the other and now I’m feral again

Ilyas inner monologue with the “kiss me, kiss me and hold me infront of all these people. pull me onstage and do it I don’t care anymore. please. I’m dying” ??? Would have been kinder to shoot me in the chest 35 times

The difference of Shane’s monologue with the hes mine the world doesn’t need to know it because I know it?? but then Shane immediately recognising something is wrong and Ilya tryna mask it?? Shane pressing close and putting his hand on the small of ilyas back to get Ilya to smile and then staying like that the rest of the show??? SHANE TRACING HEARTS ON THE SMALL OF HIS BACK???

My babiessss Shane defender till the day I die