Feb 28, 2021
Me: I can't wait to find someone I trust and feel safe with and love! I can't wait to live the rest of my eternal life with that person and all our adopted kids and--
Also me: But almost anyone I marry will want sex and I don't want sex
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Me: I can't wait to find someone I trust and feel safe with and love! I can't wait to live the rest of my eternal life with that person and all our adopted kids and--
Also me: But almost anyone I marry will want sex and I don't want sex
Look at the dress I'm getting. It has ace pride colors. I got it so I can wear it to church. I needed a new dress for church because I don't fit in my old one.
It's calf length so past the knees. 100% fits church modesty standards 😄😄😄
Being asexual and Mormon is weird??? Because I want to have relationships with women too (I'd want to marry a woman tbh just because they're better at emotional reciprocation) but I want to get sealed but I don't want a sexual relationship but what's a "sin" is sexual relations with the same gender and technically by not having kids or not getting married and not wanting to get married I'm not eligible for that but I don't think that I'm going to get to the next life and suddenly be sexually interested in people because I'm not broken, I don't want this, but everyone talks so much about the way that relationships are so integral to the plan of salvation and basically I'm just an angry potato about the whole thing I don't want to go to church anymore because no one really tries to understand.
Me being innocent and naïve: Hey, premarital sex is discouraged in our church, right? So asexuality is probably no biggie--it might even be considered a strength!
Me, actually being smart and honest with myself: There's so much emphasis on postmarital sex and families and children in this church that I kind of just want to curl up into a ball and cry
The asexual Mormon experience: Growing up convinced that every Mormon had the superpower ability to never want sex like those poor normal folks out in the rest of the world. Then realizing that apparently Mormons want it too and they're just supposed to resist these strange urges you've never had. When did that happen?
Overthinking Asexuality 1:
"I'm probably not ace, I'm just really good at internalizing the law of chastity."