I haven't posted much this week because honestly I just couldn't. I haven't watched the full video and I have no intention of ever watching it because I have seen enough death in the last 3 months, thank you very much, and I do not need to witness a murder to know that it is wrong. We have all been through this countless times since... well just since. Still, I am unsure of why this one, out of the many, has caused this much uproar. I can only say what affected me the most : the absolute comfort of the officer kneeling on #GeorgeFloyd's neck. The certainty that seemed to shine through that though he was being filmed, it would be ok for him. The fact that 3 other officers stood there and ensured that a murder went uninterrupted. I have always been sad and angry after these events, but this time I have been filled with rage. A burning, uncomfortable thing that I dare not look at too hard for fear I will start screaming and will never stop. I understand the protestors. Hell, I understand the rioters. Many people still seem obsessed with the disorder and violence towards property that is happening, hastening to call once again that this is not the way. They love to drag MLK's memory up and down the street asking what would he do. We'll never know. He was murdered by the majority while being non-violent. You see, protests aren't supposed to be comfortable. They are supposed to make people look, make people angry, make people inconvenienced. They are supposed to make you say this experience is terrible and upsetting, how do I ensure it doesn't happen again. That feeling you get when you watch a car burning in the middle of the street, that feeling when you want to go somewhere and are unsure if you will get there because there are so many obstacles in the way? That's what we're aiming for. Now take that feeling and ask yourself again, how do I make sure this never happens again. If your answer stops at what to do with the protestors and not how to fix the cause of the protesting, congratulations. You've identified your bias.