The Chaotic Cosmos (a poem)
I was ravished at the sight of you
And the selfless saving you’ve done to me
Until you’ve taken me and my enamoured lips desperately agreed,
I vowed as you vowed, to give our all and risk everything
You’ve always known what you were up to
But my need of you didn’t perceive the risks
Thats when it all began, when i loved you whole
All the venerably good in you,
All that there is to accept,
Even the most abominable of parts
We are the chaotic cosmos
You worship me as the brightest of constellations
But then when i dimmed even just a little, you turned your sight away from me
As for me, I loathe you for your stubbornness and arrogance
While still glorifying you for your power and magnificence
I love you as high as the heavens even when i hate you to the deepest of hells
You hate my anger but it turns you on too
You love it when I burn you with my fire
Immeasurable and ceaseless no matter how much it exhausts all of me
I know my body can continue existing without you
But how you fill it with a breathing soul composed of operatic melodramas
Is a rare miracle you’ve made indispensable
To my supposed independent divinity
Out of love, out of pride
Because i can’t stand the thought
This is how you conquered me,
You weakened my knees to kneel to your promises
And since then i’ve been settling for what they believe i do not deserve
Yet who are they to tell me what is right for my well-being?
Loving you may be a slow torment to myself
But denying my heart and ending the love I have for you
Is an immediate suicide i can never dare commit
I’ll always be by your side
Out of love, out of pride
Because you can’t stand the thought
Of us not withstanding through eternity
We can never tear ourselves to be apart
Because we live for the truth
That swirl into a comic tune
So we’d forget the tragedy
Brought by our love’s lack of rationality
We are the chaotic cosmos
Opposing energies that battle
We were meant to ignite and fuse
You and me becoming a stellar beauty
A celestial reaction that occur only once in an aeon
And for that I’ll always love you
Out of love, only for the reason of love
But would it ever run out?
Not for you, never for a god like you