now, two weeks passed since you saw armin... and got back straight with eren.
it was like he was a brand new person. buying you more things, telling you where hes going and who hes with, y'know, the bare minimum according to him.
but for some odd reason, you couldn't shake the thought of armin.
maybe because you were tipsy right now, leaning against erens arm as he cracked jokes with the rest of the group, or If it was because of something else.
but whatever the reason was, you couldn't keep your eye off the boy.
ever since the second night you spent with him, not to mention the first, you haven't talked to him, but lord knows you wanted to.
but you have a boyfriend. who cares about whatever relationship you two had going on, right?
you looked away from armin and back to your cup as you felt erens arm hold you closer.
"hell naw connie, tell em bout the girl you fucked last night!" ony laughed, making all the boys in the group laugh. sasha rolled her eyes with a frown, "dont nobody wanna hear bout that shit but y'all nasty asses."
jean nudged connies arm. "she mad 'cus niccolo cant beat it up right." he muttered, just enough for her to hear.
connie bursted into a fit of laughter, pointing at sasha as she held her middle finger up. "fuck you, jean. when's the last time you had pussy?"
as jean went quiet, everyone started to laugh again, him waving everyone off. "what fuckin ever." he snatched the blunt from connie and hit it, sitting back.
you shook your head, sighing and getting off of eren. "im goin to the bathroom, ill be back in a minute." you said, patting his shoulder as he watched you walk towards the stairs of the house, eventually losing you in the big crowd of people that danced around and drunk.
you made your way to the bathrooms, rolling your eyes as you pushed past everyone upstairs to make it there.
"just for a fuckin bathroom..." you mumbled to yourself, huffing and closing the door behind you.
you checked yourself in the mirror, fixing your hair and lashes.
you hopped on the counter and pulled out your phone, checking your socials. truth is, you didn't even wanna be at the party you were at. reason being it was boring, and you really only went to make sure eren didn't fuck around.
yeah, maybe he fucked you senseless and then bought you gifts and took you shopping, but what did that truly prove?
you didn't 100% believe him, I mean, its eren. as much as you wanted to, you didn't let yourself go out like that.
and you knew you were probably just another idiot to him and his friends, but if you didn't trust him 100%, you cant be too much of an idiot.
yeah, you wore the necklace–your dream necklace–he gave you the day after you had sex that one night, twirling the jewel between your fingers. you also looked at your freshly done nails and toes, softly kicking your feet off the counter, but you didn't trust him.
he probably does the same thing for his side bitches.
whatever, a knock on the door disturbed your thought process anyways. you glanced at the door and looked back at your phone. "occupied." you said, unbothered by the knocking.
until it became constant. you frowned, reaching over to the door as you stayed on the counter. you unlocked it and opened it, "didn't I say- oh?" your brows raised at the sight of armin.
"you aint even doin shit in here." armin shook his head, closing the door as he let himself in. he locked it behind him and leaned on the wall in front of you.
you were kind of at loss for words, putting your phone down beside you and resting your hands on both sides of you. "and that gave you a reason to disturb me."
armin hummed for a while before shrugging his shoulders, looking at his phone. "its boring down there."
you tilt your head. "and you think it aint gon be boring in here?" you questioned, making armin look up at you from his phone.
"nah. cus we got sum to talk about."
you already knew where this was going, and you honestly didn't have the energy to explain yourself. "you think I ghosted you?"
armin sucked in air through his teeth and stepped closer to you, putting his phone on top of yours. "what else would you call it?"
you shrugged. "contemplating."
"on?" he raised a brow.
you shifted, resting your body. "textin you."
"or?"
you looked up to the ceiling as if you were thinking before looking back at armin, up and down. "being loyal to my man."
armins brows raised again and he took a step back. "oh, Ian realize yall was back cool. from the awkward ass way you laid on him, seemed like it was just a act for the group." he held his hands up, making you laugh a little.
"what you want, armin?" you leaned forward just the slightest. armins tongue ran across his bottom lip slowly, but he just shrugged.
"you to want me."
you stayed quiet for a minute, examining his face. he did the same with you.
you held your hands out and he grabbed them. you pulled him in closer, and somehow, his hands found their way around your waist. then hips, then onto your thighs, massaging them softly.
"Ion know if I want you." you looked you at armin with your hands on his arms. he only looked at your lips, leaning down to nuzzle his head on your neck, planting soft kisses with a "hmm?"
your arms moved to his neck, wrapping around him as he pulled you closer. "like... I like you.” you let out a breath at the feeling of him softly suck your neck. "but I cant say I want you."
he listened to you, but he yearned for your body so bad for what felt like so long, he honestly didn't pay any attention to the words you said. not too much anyways.
"you know how much I missed you since we saw each other?" he kissed your neck again, pulling away to meet your eyes. you shook your head, looking deeply into his. "not as much as I missed you."
you felt his hands trail to the bottom of your dress, which was already riding up your thigh.
"you really think that?"
you broke eye contact with armin and looked at his chest. honestly, you thought he'd be mad at you for the sudden disappearance.
but he was such a calm person.
way different from eren.
"look." he whispered. you looked back up at him and he grabbed your face, kissing you on the lips. you couldn't help but kiss him back, moving your arms from around his neck and using your hands to softly tug at his belt buckle.
armin broke the kiss to look down at your hand, and back up at you.
you gave him those innocent, dollish eyes.
he could see right through you though, from the small moments you both had together, he knows what type of girl you are.
and he loved it.
so much that he didn't even wanna fuck you. so he moved your hand, intertwining your fingers together and raising your dress just to your lower stomach.
"you always got the prettiest underwear on." he moved you back to where your back was against the mirror.
you giggled at his statement, causing him to smile.
armin let go of your hand and put his hands on the back of both of your knees, raising and spreading your legs so that your feet were on the edge of the counter.
"so pretty." he muttered, grabbing at your panties and raising them up your thighs and down your legs. he tucked them in the side of his pants to avoid having to sit them on the counter, and leaned towards you, giving you a quick kiss before making his way back down between your legs.
you didn't even say anything. you didn't know what to say. everything was happening so slowly but so quick.
armin licked his lips, spreading your thighs apart a little more before leaning down, dragging his tongue up your slit.
you let out a soft breath, heart racing. but for what?
he put all his focus on pleasuring you, softly gripping at your thighs as he glided his tongue in small O's on your clit.
you bit your lip, brows furrowed. you missed armin more than anything you could think about, if you could even think about anything in that moment.
as he moved his hand from your thigh to your clit, he pulled away.
his eyes were fixed on your pussy, using his thumb to coat it with your slick, if not only his saliva.
he slipped his middle finger smoothly in, causing you to arch your back with a twitch of your legs. "armin..."
"I know." he whispered, gliding his tongue softly around your clit again, slipping his ring finger again with his middle finger.
he softly sucked at your clit, transitioning from licking and sucking every now and then. your soft moans were like music to his ears, and he'd been waiting for that moment since you last fucked.
armins eyes flicked up to you as your hands tangled in his hair, one of his eyes thinning from the grip you had. but he didn't stop you. oh, he would never.
you looked down into his eyes, biting your lip to suppress as many moans as you could. but when his fingers started to curl and hit your sweet spot quicker than it did before, you couldn't help yourself.
"armin... fuck, armin.." your thighs tightened around his face, and he closed his eyes. you did too, resting your head back against the mirror as you reached your climax.
the warmth and flicks of his tongue didn't make it any better as you let his head go and gripped the counter, your whole body twitching and your legs opening and closing as you throbbed uncontrollably against his mouth.
armin pulled away, watching your face as you breathed heavily, eyes opening just to look at him.
armin gave one more kiss to your clit before pulling your panties out of the side of his pants and helping you put them back on. you stayed quiet as he helped you off the counter and fixed your dress for you.
you only looked at him, taking in his features.
his hair was messier from your hands, and his lips glistened the slightest from his tongue licking them.
as armin looked from your dress back to you, his head tilt a little.
"what's wrong?"
nothing. nothing at all.
you looked away from armin and shook your head, getting back on the counter, exhaling.
"nothing."
armin scanned your face for a few seconds, noticing how you looked away from him. "you know im not mad at you. you got a boyfriend, dont think I blame you." he ran his hand up and down your thigh.
you looked at armin. you didn't say anything, but he could tell from your eyes, you were reassured from his words.
armin tried to keep from the temptation, but he wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you closer as his chin rested on your shoulder. he looked at himself in the mirror.
he knows hes wrong for doing what he did and what hes doing, but god, you're all hes ever wanted in a girl.
you felt his soft breaths down your shoulder as you wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him into your embrace.
you closed tour eyes, his scent, his warmth, you haven't felt it in what seems like so long.
you hated yourself for thinking it, but in that moment, armin was exactly how you wanted eren to be. he was caring, and especially sentimental.
its not that eren didn't care about you, or didn't have feelings, but it seemed like whenever he reassured you about something, like the cheating situation, he was forcing it in fear that you'd leave him.
and the fucking right after just proves your point more.
"ion wanna leave you right now." armin sighed, pulling away, but surely keeping your hand in his. you held one of his with both of yours and looked at his phone. "but we been here for some minutes. you can go first, ima be back later on."
you pushed yourself off the counter, turning to look in the mirror.
armin put his hands in his pants pocket, looking at the way you fixed yourself through the mirror. a small, quick smile tugged at the corner of his lips as you fixed your dress once again.
you then turned to face him, smiling softly. you didn't say a word, but when you cupped his face and gave him a kiss, thats all he needed.
because believe it or not, you flustered him more than anything.
with his hands still In his pockets, he watched as you exited the bathroom, and as the door clicked, he exhaled, turning to the mirror and taking his hands from his pockets to fix his hair.
as you sat back down beside eren, he flung his arm around you.
"damn what took so long?" he pulled you closer to him, planting a kiss on your cheek.
you gave eren a smile and playfully wiped his kiss. "I was distracted on my phone." you crossed your legs towards him.
eren looked at you for a few seconds before focusing back on his phone.
a few minutes later, armin came back downstairs, wiping his hands on his shirt. eren looked up at him from his phone, "where you been?"
connie looked at armin, smirking. "prolly gettin pussy." he said, making everyone laugh. armin shook his head, sitting down and grabbing one of his drinks, sipping from it.
you only looked down at your phone, avoiding any eye contact with armin.
connie looked at you and then armin, and then eren, who looked directly at armin. seemingly confused, he then looked at connie, who looked down as soon as they locked eyes.
"fuck?" eren whispered under his breath. with the sound of jean and ony chattering, along with sashas laughter, you could barely hear what he said. but before you could ask, sasha grabbed your hand, standing you up.
"y/n and mikasa, wanna go drink?" she said, widening her eyes at mikasa a little.
mikasa stood up and sasha grabbed her hand, dragging both of you to the kitchen, where mostly all the drinks were.
when she finally made it, she let you both go, leaning against the counter no one was near before turning on her heels towards you.
"okay. what happened?"
you knew what she was referring to, and you reached in one of the coolers to grab a drink. "we aint do nothing, he just... ate it." you mumbled casually with a shrug.
"okay. lemme tell you now, as soon as armin left after you, eren looked suspicious as hell." mikasa said in a warning tone. sasha nodded along quickly. "girl yes, like it might just be cus he drunk, but he had that 'what the fuck?' face."
your head went back and forth to and from both of them as they frantically described the expression eren had, you quickly waved your hands, sitting your drink on the counter.
"wait, wait, wait. so he was confused." you tilt your head towards them and they both nodded. you hummed, looking at the floor to think.
while sasha and mikasa watched you twist at your necklace and stare at the floor, you suddenly heard erens name on the left of you, causing your head to snap up. so faint, you weren't sure it was his name, until someone said "eren yeager?"
that ultimately caught mikasa and sashas attention, causing them to scan the kitchen for whoever said it.
there she was. a girl with blonde hair, around a group of her friends.
"yeah, eren yeager. over there." you saw her point erens way.
"you goin over there?" one of her tall friends with brown hair asked. "dont he got a girlfriend?"
you looked at the girl as best as you could, due to all the passers by and people blocking your view, you could barely see her face. but, when you finally did, you knew exactly who she was.
"bitch, is that historia?" mikasa squinted.
the girl then smiled at her friend, shrugging her shoulders and pulling out her phone to fix her hair. "you don't think I know that? now move." she giggled as she playfully pushed her friend out the way and started walking towards where eren sat.
you felt like your eyes were deceiving you. like your mind played tricks on you, but it couldn't be because mikasa and sasha slowly turned their heads back towards you, just as you did them.
"no way we just witnessed that shit." sasha turned with her hand on her hip, watching as historia went over to eren, standing behind the couch he sat on.
a part of you wanted to go over there, just to see what she'd do, and what the fuck they had going on if they had anything.
another part of you just wanted to watch. cross your arms, lean back on the counter and watch what his reaction would be when she went towards him.
because not only was she someone who got around with boys, and a lot of boys.
she was eren's ex.
you watched her quietly, your head tilting and moving different ways from everyone that blocked your view every now and then.
she went over there just as happy, cheesing and smiling, touching his arm, a bunch of flirting shit. and he was letting it happen. you didn't know what she was saying, but you saw the rest of the group looking around, you'd assume they were trying to make sure you weren't around.
though, you didn't wanna assume anything.
surely eren cant be flirting back.
you thought that, before you saw him stand up and start to walk towards the stairs.
she followed right behind him.
you don't trust him. you told yourself that. so why's your heart pounding? mikasa and sasha, who watched the whole thing, looked back towards you.
"you gotta step up." mikasa shook her head in disappointment, looking at the expression on your face.
you loved eren, truly. but he was such a bitch, and he wasn't good for you. you're not stupid, you know this. so why sit there and let what just happened happen?
the only person you could think about when mikasa said what she said, was armin.
"so what you want me to do?" you looked at her. "I cheated first."
mikasa rolled her eyes and looked to the side before looking back at you. "girl dont be fuckin stupid. you don't gotta take shit from eren."
sasha watched as mikasa mildly scolded you. you looked at sasha, then back at mikasa. "so, what?"
mikasa gave you an 'are you serious?' type of look.
Kathy I'm sick please tell me a good thing about your day also also your most unhinged age gap thoughts for bucktommy. Please. 🥰🫶
lain. ill be honest im having a rough one today BUT i did get chinese takout for dinner and man i could eat 40 eggrolls shit is so good
the thing is i have been thinking a lot about closeted internalized homophobia tommy because i have a Normal and Healthy relationship with my own sexuality NOW but that was not always the case
anyway. this got long so its under a cut
take my hand and lets do a season one/pre-series AU a la Sick with it but fuck it buck went to LA right after he dropped out of university, tommy's somewhere in his mid/late 30s. and tommy hates him hates how this kid makes him feel the first time he lays eyes on him hates how bobby asks, "you'll take care of him right, tommy?" hates how eager he is to please and how those three thoughts roil in his head and bring up dreams of fucking the kid senseless in supply closets and in the bunk room and in the back of the engine
and that last one really becomes a problem when they're on their way to and from scenes and evan's knees are bumping against tommy's and all he can think about is their knees knocking while he fists both of their cocks in one hand, evan panting against his neck, hips stuttering into tommy's grip, and oh thank god turnouts hide boners because tommy's fucked
fucked in the head in so many ways. he finally admits he wants to fuck another dude but the kid isn't even old enough to drink yet and tommy's responsible for him that's his probie! it would be taking advantage and what the fuck is wrong with him that that just makes him feel hotter under the collar? its bad enough he's gay but he can't even do that in a normal way
meanwhile buck speedran his sexuality crisis after watching tommy in the shower a few too many times and hes like. washing the floors on his hands and knees in front of tommy. asking tommy to spot him at the gym and pulling up the bottom of his shirt to wipe the sweat off his face. making sure the volume for his grindr notifications is on max. just absolutely putting tommy through the torture nexus
until the 118 is out to celebrate buck finally turning 21 and its just buck and tommy at the table and buck is looking at tommy and tommy finally snaps. "what, kid?"
"has anyone ever called you daddy? you'd be a good one i think"
and tommy slams his head on the table and finds one of the 118 to tell them he's taking buck home because he got a little too drunk and tommy does take buck home. tommy's home. where they do their best to run through all of the fantasies they've had about each other ("do you have a desk? i had to go into bobby's office last week and the whole time i just thought about blowing you under it" "jesus kid. yeah, c'mon.")
★ c.w.: tension. drinking. reader embarrassing the hell out of herself omg. not beta'd
★ a/n: oh my god i was so excited after the amount of love i got on the last chapter that i absolutely had to rush this one out!!! i was literally ripping my shirt off bc of the tension i just want them to fuck omg. (Jk... not rlly tho stay tuned). anyway if you couldnt tell im super aki hungry lately. this chapter is the result of that. we get to see a different side to the cold blooded captain.... i think yall r gonna like it just trust me ;)
again i apologize for the fast pacing, pls remember that this is a short story! (though shameless was supposed to be short too so who knows i may rewrite it into a longfic teehee). you know the drill! leave lots and lots of comments for me to read and ill make that next chapter come out stat! get ready... its a long one lol xx
★ w.c: .5.2k
pornstar ; chapter index
THE NIGHT – for the most part – had just started. Your drinks, on the other hand, hadn't waited up. You were three beers deep, head perched on your hand, peering at Himeno, who was telling some wild recount of the mission you had just had. Everyone else was listening, too, heads turned, eyes wide while she described the way you had "swooped in and saved the day" (something Hayakawa had chewed you out for).
"She blew a hole straight through the building," She was saying. "But there were no casualties. Talk about precision, am I right?"
And, eyelids droopy as all hell, you laughed, swirling the piss yellow liquid around in your beer mug. The pleasant buzz from the few drinks you'd had were beginning to seep into your skin, warmth washing over you in slow, comforting waves. You basked in it for a moment, tuning out of the conversation being had only a few feet away.
You tuned out and, instead, your attention shifted. You see, it was hard to stay focused when a certain someone you hadn't expected to show up actually wound up pulling through, now seated at the other end of the table looking far too uptight to be at a friendly gathering. He was wearing his Public Safety uniform – the one you had never seen him out of... not that you were thinking about what he looked like out of uniform, or anything like that – and he looked good enough to have you questioning your own sanity.
You swore it was the alcohol – you swore it was. Nothing else could explain the way your pulse thrummed a little harder in your veins when he looked up and caught your gaze, cobalt eyes tearing you apart at the seams. Hair pulled back perfectly into his signature ponytail, not a strand out of place. He hadn't taken off his suit, but you were suddenly rather conscious of how much larger than you he was – of the way he seemed that much taller than you, even when he was sitting down, of the way his suit accentuated his broad shoulders. His jawline was sharp and angular, just like the rest of him, and his eyes... fuck, his eyes...
Were staring right at you.
Biting back a shriek, you averted your gaze, glaring into your lap like that would make the situation any better. You had to take the situation at face value – you had invited your superior out to drinks and were now making a complete and utter fool out of yourself by spending the evening making goo-goo eyes at him.
Oh, and not to mention the fact that you were supposed to hate his fucking guts.
Shaking yourself out of it, you tuned back into Himeno's conversation, trying to latch onto her words like a lifeline.
"So then, this asshole pops out of nowhere—like, I swear to God, he came out of thin air—and he goes for her throat. But!—" She punctuated her words with an exaggerated hand motion, nearly knocking over her beer in the process. "She dodges like it's nothing. I mean, I've never seen reflexes like that. It was unreal."
You managed a laugh, though it came out a little delayed, like your body had to remember how to react. The alcohol had made you sluggish, slow, and the warmth in your chest had turned sticky, clinging to your ribs. You weren't even sure what you were feeling anymore, but something about it didn't sit right.
Your gaze slid back to him—because of course it did. And this time, when you looked, he wasn't looking back.
Instead, Aki's attention was on something else entirely—on someone else. He was speaking to one of the girls from another division. Kobeni, you realized. She was nodding, awkward and stiff, while he spoke, his expression the same measured, unreadable one he always wore.
You let your head drop onto Himeno's shoulder, exhaling through your nose. What the hell is going on between us?
It wasn't like you. You weren't the type to get hung up on things like this. But tonight, the drinks had loosened something in you, and you could feel it unraveling, thread by thread. Aki was a pain in your ass. He was the one constantly calling you reckless, the one always tightening the reins when you stepped even a little out of line. You weren't supposed to care. You weren't supposed to notice how sharp his jaw looked under the dim bar lights or the way his hands moved when he spoke.
And yet.
Himeno, drunker than you were, said nothing about the way you leaned against her, only let her head tilt slightly against yours like it was the most natural thing in the world.
You shut your eyes for a moment. Maybe if you pretended you weren't watching him, pretended you weren't thinking about this at all, it would stop feeling like something.
But it didn't work.
No, once more, your gaze drifted back to the damn captain. This time, when he spoke to Kobeni, she smiled – wide enough to crease the skin at the corners of her eyes. She was a pretty, young thing. She had pretty eyes and pretty, chestnut brown hair. She was shy and timid and took orders very well – everything you were not.
I wonder if he likes her, You couldn't help but wonder, smile dropping from your face while you observed the two of them in conversation.
A strange feeling clawed its way over your chest. Something you couldn't name. It was a horrible, rotten feeling. One you hadn't felt since you were a highschooler. It sat in your stomach like a brick, burning its way through your arteries, prying at your lips for escape.
It was jealousy.
Oh, what the fuck?
She definitely likes him, you thought. That much was evident by the way she leaned into her superior's space, eagerly taking in every word that left his mouth. Her eyes glimmered with something that made your stomach churn.
It was jealousy, you knew that, but... why? Why him? Why now?
Why the fuck did you even care?
Why did you feel jealous over a man you hated?
Himeno's hand on your shoulder shook you out of your drunken gaze. You perked up, lifting your head from the crook in her shoulder, turning your attention away from the scene in front of you so you could dedicate all of your attention to someone more deserving of it.
"You know, kohai," She giggled, face flushed with a drunken shade. "You're really pretty."
Am I in the twilight zone?
You smiled at her, "That's coming from you."
"Oh, shut up," The woman replied, batting you away with your hands, laughing up a storm. "I wanna ask you... ask you 'sumthin."
You knit your brows together, pursing your lips. "What's up?"
She looked at you, then, lashes fluttering over her one good eye, mischief written all over her face. You knew you shouldn't have asked, but you were even more shocked by her answer, "Would you kiss me?"
You laughed at that – you couldn't help it, truly. Himeno had kissed just about every person in the division (though you weren't sure if that excluded a certain stuck-up bastard, and you were even less sure that you wanted to ask). Still, it was because of that fact that you knew her request was harmless. It was... just her way of showing love while drunk. She couldn't help it.
"I didn't know you could swing that way, Himeno," You laughed.
"I've never tried– hic– tried," She shrugged, as if she was asking the easiest question in the entire world. "'M jussst... curious, aren't you?"
You answered back, "Not really."
And she pouted at that – like she was a child and not a drunk-ass, grown-ass woman, "Why not? Am I not your type?"
No, but apparently someone else is.
Peering down at the table, vision a little hazy, you polished off the rest of your beer. Then, you added, "You could say that."
Why do I feel drunker than I did a few minutes ago?
"Who's your type, then?" She asked, leaning forward, all up into your personal space, and it would have bothered you if it was anyone else, "Do you like girls? Guys?"
"Never really explored, but..." You hummed. The beer made its way down the back of your throat, warming your vocal chords, your stomach, your chest. "Guys, I guess."
Then that devilish little grin of hers was back on her face. "If you could fuck anyone here, then, who would it be?"
"Sober or drunk?" You laughed, setting your empty mug down with a soft clink.
Himeno cackled, tipping forward slightly in her seat. The alcohol had turned her loose, made her limbs sluggish and her voice louder than she probably realized. "A few shots, maybe. Not drunk."
You hummed, drumming your fingers against the table, pretending to give it some thought. But the answer was already there, sitting heavy in the back of your mind, waiting for a moment of weakness to slip through the cracks.
Captain Hayakawa.
The name surfaced so quickly, so naturally, that it startled you. And before you could stop yourself, before you could even pretend to fight it, your gaze flickered back to him.
Big mistake.
Because Himeno caught it immediately.
She gasped, sharp and dramatic, smacking a hand over her mouth like she had just witnessed a crime scene. It was so loud, so cartoonish, that a few people turned to look, and you had to resist the urge to sink into your seat.
"No fucking way," she whispered, but there was nothing subtle about the gleam in her eye. She practically vibrated with excitement, like she'd just stumbled upon the juiciest piece of gossip imaginable. Then, with a grin, she leaned in, voice hushed but not nearly hushed enough. "You're hot for captain?"
You snapped your head toward her so fast you nearly gave yourself whiplash. "No—no, no," you hissed, gripping her forearm in a weak attempt to physically shut her up. "Shut up, Himeno."
She wasn't having it. She wiggled her brows at you, eyes twinkling with amusement. "No fucking way," she repeated, drawing out every syllable like she was savoring them. "I thought you hated his guts."
"I do," you shot back, a little too fast, a little too forceful. It was immediate. Instinctive. A reflex.
And she noticed.
The look on her face turned downright smug.
"I don't have the hots for him," you corrected, shaking your head, willing your face to cool down even as it burned. "Now would you keep it down?"
Himeno held up her hands in surrender, but there was something devious in the way she did it, like she was still holding onto the truth of the situation, just waiting for the right moment to pry it back open.
She sat back slightly, but then, after a beat—because of course she couldn't just leave it at that—she leaned in again, voice dipping lower, eyes gleaming. "If you were a little drunker, though..."
You groaned, slapping a hand over your face. "Enough," you hissed, dragging out the word, but your voice lacked bite.
She was full-on giggling now, shoulders shaking, thoroughly enjoying your suffering.
Then, her laughter faded—just a little—and she tilted her head, giving you a look that was too knowing, too amused. "Not even a kiss?"
"No," you said, firm. But somehow, it didn't feel quite as firm as it should have.
The night went smoothly after that. Drinks and conversation were flowing, you were sufficiently drunk, and the lot of you were laughing loud enough to disturb any of the other patrons who came to this poor izakaya to get moderately tipsy.
The drinks kept coming, conversation swelling louder with each round, the izakaya thick with smoke and the scent of grilled meat. You were properly drunk, the kind where your limbs felt loose, where laughter came too easily, where everything should've been fun, should've been easy.
Except it wasn't.
Because across the table, Aki was still talking to Kobeni.
And you didn't care. You didn't.
You had no reason to. You weren't friends. You weren't anything. If anything, you hated his guts—his quiet, know-it-all demeanor, his stupid pretty face, the way he always acted so fucking above it all. Like he was better than the rest of you just because he didn't get sloppy drunk, didn't fuck around, didn't let things get to him.
And yet—
Your drink was empty again. When had that happened? You barely remembered drinking it. You reached for the bottle to pour yourself more, but your hand wasn't as steady as you wanted it to be. Himeno laughed beside you, grabbing the bottle before you could knock it over.
"Take it easy," she teased, topping off your glass anyway.
You snorted. "I'm fine."
Himeno grinned, and for a moment, you let yourself focus on her instead. It was easier. She was warm, easy to be around, all teasing smiles and the kind of confidence that made everything feel simple.
But then—
Another laugh from across the table. Aki's.
You hadn't even known he could laugh like that, low and quiet, the kind that didn't come often. Your stomach twisted before you could stop it, your head snapping toward him on instinct.
Kobeni was leaning in, her hands curled in her lap, nodding at whatever he'd said. And Aki—he wasn't even looking at her anymore, just staring down at his drink, lips twitching like he wasn't sure if he should be amused or annoyed.
You clenched your jaw.
It wasn't like they were doing anything.
Aki wasn't flirting—he wasn't the type. You knew that. He wasn't the kind of guy to lean in too close, to lower his voice just enough to make someone's breath hitch, to toy with people the way Himeno did. He was the exact opposite—quiet, serious, all sharp edges and self-control.
And yet, there was something unbearable about the way he was sitting there, across the table, listening to Kobeni like she was worth listening to.
She was talking—some pointless, forgettable thing, probably about work—but her body language spoke louder than her words. The way she fidgeted with her glass, how she kept sneaking glances at him, how her voice wavered slightly before picking up again, like she was hesitating before every sentence. She was nervous. And that alone made you feel like something was pressing against your ribs, like a slow, smoldering ember was settling somewhere beneath your skin.
She was trying.
Trying to impress him. Trying to be seen by him.
And Aki—Aki, idiot that he was—just sat there, unreadable as ever, nodding along, responding just enough to keep the conversation going but not enough to give anything away. Not pushing her away. Not shutting her down.
Letting her talk. Letting her have his attention.
Your fingers tightened around your drink.
It was stupid.
You didn't even like him.
You weren't sure if you even respected him. Half the time, you couldn't stand him—his rules, his orders, the way he always acted so damn above it all. You'd seen him roll his eyes at you more times than you could count, seen the way he sighed when you got under his skin. You weren't his type, and he sure as hell wasn't yours.
So you had no reason—none at all—to feel that awful, simmering thing curling in your stomach.
Maybe it was just the alcohol.
Or maybe it was something uglier.
Maybe it was the fact that if Aki ever looked at you the way Kobeni looked at him, you wouldn't know what the fuck to do with it. Maybe it was the idea that he could like someone like her—quiet, nervous, too polite for her own good—when all he ever did with you was act like you were a fucking nuisance.
Maybe it was that, deep down, you had always assumed Aki didn't have the capacity to like anyone at all.
And now, watching him sit there, watching Kobeni work up the nerve to inch closer, to brush her fingers against the edge of his sleeve like she was testing the waters—you weren't so sure anymore.
You downed your drink, jaw tightening.
Himeno nudged you, her voice playful but perceptive. "You're awfully quiet," she mused, lips quirking.
You exhaled sharply, barely processing the words before your own were spilling out.
"I changed my mind."
Himeno blinked. "Huh?"
You didn't think.Didn't hesitate. Didn't second-guess yourself.
Your hand curled into the fabric of Himeno's collar, tugging her forward with more force than necessary. There was barely a beat of surprise before your lips crashed against hers, the alcohol burning hot in your veins, your pulse hammering in your ears.
The izakaya erupted around you. A chair scraping against the floor, a loud whistle, the sharp intake of breath from someone—Kobeni, probably. Laughter. Someone shouting something half-coherent in encouragement. The kind of scene that would normally make you self-conscious, make you want to shrink away from the attention.
But you didn't shrink away.
Because Himeno kissed you back.
And she kissed you like she meant it.
Her lips tasted like warm sake, sweet and sharp, the scent of cigarette smoke clinging faintly to her. Her fingers slid up your neck, slow and deliberate, curling at the base of your skull. She deepened the kiss, tilting her head just enough to press closer, her breath mingling with yours.
For a second, it was grounding.
For a second, the heat of it, the weight of her hands, the press of her body against yours—it was enough to drown out the gnawing, ugly feeling twisting in your stomach.
You could feel her smirk against your mouth. Himeno had always been good at this—at teasing, at making things feel light, easy. Like none of it had to mean anything.
When she pulled back, her grin was lazy, her eyes lidded and amused. Her fingers stayed in your hair, playing absently with the strands.
"Damn," she murmured, voice low enough that only you could hear, "You kiss like a man. I like it."
The words should've embarrassed you.
Should've made you regret it.
But you just laughed, breathless. It felt a little hollow.
Because when you glanced toward Aki's seat—
He was gone.
Your stomach dropped, the lightness of the moment collapsing in on itself.
And just like that, the heat you'd felt seconds ago twisted into something unbearable.
The room was too loud. Too warm. The laughter too sharp, the smell of alcohol suddenly cloying. Himeno was still watching you, her teasing smile lingering, but you couldn't focus on any of it.
Your hands curled into fists at your sides.
It shouldn't have mattered. It didn't matter. But your heart was pounding anyway, and suddenly the room felt too loud, the heat of it unbearable. Himeno was still looking at you, a teasing remark likely on the tip of her tongue, but you couldn't focus on any of it.
That asshole, you thought – ideas ruminating in your mind. I'm gonna give him a piece of my mind, leaving with no excuse like that.
You pushed your chair back, barely hearing the legs scrape against the floor.
"Where are you—?" Himeno started, but you were already moving, shoving past the press of bodies, stepping outside.
The night air hit you immediately, a sharp contrast to the stifling warmth of the izakaya. The street was damp from earlier rain, neon lights from nearby signs reflecting off the slick pavement. The noise from inside was muffled now, like it belonged to a different world.
You didn't stop until you came face-to-face with an intimidating figure. You exhaled slowly, breath curling in the cold. And then—
Aki.
He stood a few steps away, his back against the wall, a cigarette balanced between his fingers. He wasn't smoking it, not yet—just twirling it absently, gaze fixed on some distant point down the street. His expression was unreadable, the way it always was.
And he was devastatingly handsome, even now – fucking asshole.
Biting back a drunk little grin – and realizing that you knew damn well you would never, ever have done this sober – you approached him, hips swaying from side to side. Whether the motion was due to your trying to come off as enticing or due to the copious amounts of sake and beer you had ingested, you weren't sure. Hell, you weren't sure about anything anymore.
And, the moment those baby blues of his flicked up to meet your gaze, you immediately regretted coming out to find him. The fact that he was perceiving you now in such a drunken state was enough to have your heart beating against your ribs like an animal at the zoo (but not enough to make you back down now that you had him alone). You knew it was stupid, fuck, you should have turned back on your heel and gone back the way you had come, but you couldn't stop yourself.
No, I have to give him a piece of my mind.
His eyes dropped down to your outfit – the little black dress you definitely hadn't picked out with him in mind, making sure that it revealed just the right amount of cleavage, hugged you in all of the right places – and then back up to your face. The movement was small, almost perceptible, but in your wasted state, you were hyperconscious of his every move, of the way his eyes widened when they saw you, the way you could smell the scent of him from where you were standing, masculine, woody, ambery cologne mingled in with the faintest hint of smoke.
You were so drunk that you were practically seeing two of him until you refocused your eyes. So drunk that, for a moment, you couldn't say anything – realizing that you had forgotten to come up with an excuse to see him at that moment – and neither could he.
You were the first one to break the silence. "You're such an asshole."
He didn't look the slightest bit phased by your words. Instead, he reached into his pocket and searched for his lighter, holding it up to the end of the cigarette and striking the wheel until the flame took.
"You just... left," You swallowed, throat suddenly very dry.
He held the cigarette up to his lips, popping it between them like it was the most natural thing in the world, taking a deep breath. You watched the tension melt away from his shoulders, smelled the nicotine as it wafted up into the air around you.
Then, finally, he glanced at you, raising an eyebrow, "Yeah."
Your pulse jumped at the sound of his voice for no reason whatsoever. Pouting, you crossed your arms, damn near stumbling as you did so, "You didn't even say anything. No goodbye, no nothing."
"I was stepping out for a smoke," He breathed smoke out into the air. "Didn't think I needed to."
God, he pissed you off. Him and... his... his beautiful, blue eyes, and... fuck.
"You could at least pretend to be fun sometimes," You muttered – you thought it was beneath your breath, but when you caught the way his head tilted at your words, you knew that wasn't the case. So, instead of apologizing for insubordination like you probably should have done, you decided to dig your grave a little deeper. "You just sit in there– hic– all stiff, barely... barely drinkin', actin' like– like you're... too good for the rest of us."
"I'm tipsy enough," He hummed. "Not that that's any of your business, and I wasn't acting like anything."
Now, this was the point where any sane person would have dropped to their knees and apologized to him.
Not you, though.
No, the liquid courage coursing through your veins deluded you into thinking that you could talk some sense into him.
Actually, what came out was something entirely different.
"You were all over Kobeni," You narrowed your eyes. The words left your lips before you could even stop them. Immediately, regret settled in your chest, washing over you in waves – making your face burn.
There's no way I just said that to him, you chastised yourself internally, Fuck, I'm gonna be fired.
Aki didn't react at first. Just stared at you. Then, after a beat, he let out a short, dry sigh.
"You're drunk."
You pouted, "Not that drunk." (Which was a total lie. You were practically smelling colors).
He studied you again with those fucking... hawk eyes of his, gaze sharp in a way that made your skin crawl with anxiety. He wasn't looking at you the way Kobeni had looked at him – wasn't waiting for something, hoping for something. But he was looking at you.
Finally looking at you. And somehow, that was worse.
"She was asking me about an upcoming assignment," He commented, voice flat. You should have been grateful that he had even decided to humor you and your drunk interrogation, realistically. "That's it."
He's... surprisingly patient today.
I wonder how far I can push him until he snaps, you thought, not really knowing why – or, for that matter, what the hell had crawled into your brain to control you and make all of these stupid decisions.
You huffed, "Oh."
"Yeah," He pulled another hit from his cigarette, and this time, you observed him – the sinful way his lips wrapped around the end of it, cherry glowing orange while he took another deep breath. Then, you watched him breathe the smoke out through his nose. "You're a real pain in my ass. You know that?"
You didn't know why – the same way you didn't know why everything was happening, but you laughed. It was more like a giggle, really, a bubbly, drunken noise that you practically choked out. Either way, it was enough to have him looking at you like you had two heads.
You stumbled a little closer to him and, to your surprise, he didn't inch away. Instead, his gaze followed your sluggish movements, different, this time – like a cat eyeing up a naive little mouse. Like you were prey.
"What the hell's gotten into you tonight?" He asked.
Stumbling over your feet, you braced your hands on the wall in front of you, dropping your head and laughing a little harder. Truthfully, you didn't know why you were laughing. Nothing was funny. None of this was funny.
Even more truthfully – as you peeled your gaze up from the ground, from Aki's shoes, you realized that you weren't leaning on a wall at all.
You were leaning on him.
I'm fucking dead, you thought. If I wake up tomorrow, I'll be handed a letter of termination.
You met his gaze head-on, half-lidded eyes peering up at him through your lashes. He didn't break eye-contact this time. No, he was looking at you the same way you were looking at him – like neither of you knew why any of this was happening, like you weren't quite sure if you wanted it to stop, either, even though you knew it should.
You could see it again – the faint shift in his expression, in the way he looked at you. Something had definitely changed. There was an unreadable glint in his eyes. Maybe if you were sober, you would have been able to tell what it was.
Then again, if you were sober, you would have done the right thing tonight and stayed inside. You certainly wouldn't have been there, leaning on his shoulder, looking up at him and realizing that everything was different.
It wasn't just the alcohol. No, he was different.
"I hope you're not driving home," He commented, though his voice lacked its usual tenor, its usual confidence. "Not like this."
Why's he actin' so weird?
"Since when did you care?" You pouted. When he said nothing, you answered. "Okay, I walked here."
"Good," He sighed.
"You wanna walk me home?"
The words slurred out before you could even process them, and you immediately regretted asking. Aki, cigarette hanging loosely between his fingers, exhaled a cloud of smoke, watching you from the corner of his eye, but his gaze didn't soften.
"No."
His response was quick, firm, and just a little too cold. But the way his gaze flickered over you, almost a little too long, made you wonder if he wasn't as unaffected as he wanted you to think.
You blinked, not entirely sure what you were expecting but not that. "Why not?" you asked, and your voice came out more whiny than you'd intended.
Aki didn't immediately answer, flicking the cigarette ash onto the ground, the ember glowing brighter for a brief second. He looked at you, expression unreadable for a moment. Then, his voice was low and tired. "Because I don't feel like it."
You frowned, feeling the weight of his words tug at your chest, though you couldn't fully explain why. "Lame," you muttered. You weren't sure what you were even getting at anymore, but the thought of being alone tonight felt worse than anything else.
He eyed you for a second, but there was something softer in his expression now. Maybe it was the alcohol kicking in for him, too. "You're drunk," he said, rubbing the back of his neck, a gesture you weren't sure was out of discomfort or something else.
You smiled—more like a crooked grin, but you couldn't help it. "I'm not that drunk," you protested, but you swayed on your feet as you said it, and he didn't look convinced.
Aki's lips curled into something between a smirk and a sigh, clearly not buying it. "Uh-huh. Sure, you're not." His eyes flicked to yours again, a little too keen for someone who was supposed to be this dismissive.
"I just... don't wanna be alone," you muttered, the words coming out before you even realized you were saying them.
Aki stared at you for a long moment, and you swore there was a flicker of something in his gaze—annoyance? Amusement? But it passed just as quickly. "Well, that's your problem," he said with a dry chuckle, his tone flat, as though he were trying to make it clear he didn't want to hear it. "Not mine."
You stumbled slightly, both from the alcohol and the sting of his words. "Right," you muttered, trying to steady yourself, feeling the warm rush of liquid courage running through you. But as you stood there, looking up at him, something started to sink in. This was Aki. You knew him. Knew his moods. His indifference. But this, tonight—something was different.
"I... just," you began, trying to find the right words, but they came out jumbled. "Just... help me, okay?" The desperation was there, but you weren't sure if he saw it.
His eyes softened slightly, the sharpness in them dulling just a little as his cigarette burned down to a stub. "Help you? What, do you expect me to just babysit you?"
You winced at the word, the thought stinging more than it should have. "No," you murmured, taking a step closer to him. "I just..." You trailed off, biting your lip. The alcohol was starting to cloud your thoughts even more, but you couldn't shake the feeling that if you didn't convince him now, you'd really be on your own. And you couldn't handle that tonight.
Aki raised an eyebrow at you, clearly unsure of what you were getting at. "What?" he asked, a little too bluntly for your liking.
You stared up at him, breath a little shaky. "Please," you repeated, but this time, there was something more vulnerable in your tone. "Pleeeeeeeasee."
The words felt like a weight that had to be lifted, but they also made you feel foolish. You weren't that drunk. You weren't. But the world felt like it was spinning out of control, and you didn't know where to place your feet anymore.
Aki took a deep breath, dragging a hand down his face as if trying to process everything you'd just said. There was no edge in his voice anymore, just a weariness that made you wonder if you weren't the only one who'd had too much to drink.
"You're really something," he muttered, shaking his head. "I don't even know why I'm putting up with this."
"I'll cry," you said, half-laughing, half-serious. The words felt ridiculous, but they slipped out anyway, desperate in their simplicity.
Aki's gaze softened a little, though the smirk that tugged at his lips was almost imperceptible. "Go ahead," he said, voice flat, but his eyes held something deeper.
The silence stretched between you as you waited for him to backpedal, to somehow take back that easy dismissal. But instead, his shoulders sagged, and he sighed, long and loud. He took a last drag from his cigarette, flicked it to the ground, and ground it out beneath his heel.
"Fine," he muttered, and the words caught you off guard. "I'll walk you home."
For a moment, you didn't believe him, like the weight of what he was agreeing to was still sinking in. You blinked, slightly stunned. "Wait, really?"
He shot you an incredulous look, though his eyes softened just a little, like he was too tired to argue anymore. "Yeah, really. Can we go now, before you start actually crying?"
You blinked, a small, unsteady laugh slipping from your lips. You hadn't expected him to cave so easily, and it made you feel like you'd gotten away with something. But then, the weight of what you'd just gotten him to agree to settled in. You didn't want to push your luck any further.
Aki took a step back and gestured toward the door of the izakaya, his voice dropping lower. "We can't leave together. Not like this. If people see us leaving at the same time, it'll look weird."
The realization hit you. Of course. Everyone had been watching you all night, and there was no way you could just stroll out of there with him without someone noticing. "Right," you mumbled, feeling a little embarrassed at how quickly you'd forgotten about that. "Okay. You go first."
He nodded, his expression softening just a touch. "I'll wait a few minutes, make it look like I'm staying." He gave you a dry look, his lips curling into that familiar smirk. "Try not to make a scene on your way out. Himeno's gonna wonder what's going on."
You winced, the reminder of Himeno's playful teasing still fresh in your mind. "Yeah, yeah. I'll be fine," you muttered, more to yourself than to him. You were still trying to process the fact that Aki—Aki—had actually agreed to walk you home.
He gave you a brief nod before turning to head toward the back of the bar, disappearing behind a row of drunken patrons and laughter, the sound of his footsteps muffled by the noise inside.
You took a deep breath and steadied yourself, trying to ignore the swirl of thoughts that followed you like a second layer of fog. You'd barely had enough time to process everything that had happened between you two tonight, let alone now have to pretend like nothing was different.
You swayed a little as you turned back toward the group, feeling that odd combination of exhilaration and dread settling in your chest. When you reached Himeno's side, she was already watching you with that sly little grin of hers. She could probably read you like a book, even if you were still half-drunk.
You straightened your shoulders, trying to force a smile. "I'm heading out," you told her, your voice still a little shaky. "Long day tomorrow."
Himeno raised an eyebrow but said nothing for a moment, like she was trying to make sense of something you weren't telling her. "Uh-huh. Sure," she replied, her voice a little too casual for your liking. "Alright. Be careful. You arewalking home, right?"
You nodded quickly, swallowing down a lump in your throat. "Yeah, yeah. I'm fine. I'll be fine."
Himeno eyed you for a beat longer before shrugging. "Okay. Have a good night," she said, her smile unreadable.
With that, you gave her a brief wave and turned to walk out of the izakaya. The door swung open, the chilly night air rushing in and hitting you like a bucket of cold water. You paused just outside, feeling the weight of the night settle around you.
Aki had said he'd wait a few minutes, and you weren't sure whether to be nervous or relieved.
Your feet shifted restlessly, the cold air biting at your skin as you leaned against the brick of the building, trying to look casual—like you weren't waiting for him at all.
You glanced around. The street was quieter now, with fewer people out and about, but still, the idea of walking home with Aki felt... strange. The thought of him so close to you, especially after everything that had happened, was almost more than you could handle.
Just when you thought maybe it'd be better to leave and get it over with, you heard footsteps behind you. Aki's figure appeared through the dim light, moving with the usual purposeful strides that somehow felt different tonight.
Without saying anything, he walked past you, his shoulder brushing yours just slightly as he headed down the street. He didn't stop, didn't turn around, and you could feel the shift in the air. The tension between you was undeniable now.
For a moment, you just stood there, your feet feeling rooted to the spot. You weren't sure what to do. You didn't want to make it obvious that you were waiting for him, but at the same time, you couldn't shake the odd sense of unease creeping over you. What was happening? What wasn't happening?
Finally, you exhaled, pushing yourself off the wall and walking slowly toward him. You didn't call out; it wasn't like you had to. It was clear that he wasn't planning on walking that far away from you.
Aki moved at a steady pace, hands shoved into his pockets as he walked ahead, the cool breeze tugging at the collar of his jacket. You felt a weird, unfamiliar pressure building in your chest as you matched his steps, not sure if you were keeping your distance on purpose or if it was because you didn't know where to start.
When you reached his side, you glanced at him briefly. He didn't acknowledge you, not really. It was like you were walking side-by-side by accident, like this was just some strange, unspoken part of the night that neither of you could quite comprehend.
You couldn't help yourself. "So," you started, your voice a little wobbly. "I didn't think you'd actually do it."
Aki turned his head, those sharp eyes of his flicking over you. "What? Walk you home?" he asked, voice rough around the edges. He didn't look at you like he normally did. There was something more distant about it, almost like the alcohol had drawn a line between you.
You nodded, feeling the weight of his presence beside you. "Yeah. Didn't think you were... I don't know, the type."
He snorted softly, a smirk tugging at his lips. "I'm not," he muttered, as if it was obvious. "But you were whining enough to make me reconsider."
Your stomach twisted at the thought of how easily he gave in to you tonight, like it was no big deal. But then again, you weren't sure if that was comforting or more uncomfortable.
You walked a little further before speaking again, your voice barely above a whisper. "So, what now?" You were almost afraid to ask, but at the same time, you had to know. Was this just a one-off thing? Was he going to pretend none of this had happened?
Aki didn't answer right away. Instead, he kicked a small rock out of the way, his eyes focused straight ahead. "We're going to your place," he said, his tone back to its usual flatness. "Wherever that is."
You didn't know why, but you couldn't shake the knot of disappointment tightening in your chest.
Before you could process it, Aki's voice broke through your thoughts again, low and dry.
"You good, or you gonna keep asking me questions?"
You swallowed hard, suddenly too aware of your drunken haze. "I'm good."
A moment passed. You paid close attention to the sound of your heels on the pavement, the sound of his sneakers touching the same surface.
"I just realized I don't even know your address," He added, almost like he felt bad about shutting you up.
"I live at the– uh... you know where the post office is?" You rattled off the top of your head. He seemed like a man with a good sense of direction.
He nodded.
"Okay, well, I live right across from it. At the apartment complex," You finished.
His eyes narrowed, "That's only three blocks away."
"Yup," You nodded.
"You really couldn't walk that on your own?" He reiterated.
"Nope."
The cold air against your skin had sobered you just enough to think more clearly, but you still couldn't shake the feeling that something was... off. You weren't sure if it was the alcohol still buzzing through your system or the strange tension between the two of you, but the air felt heavy.
Aki was walking beside you, as stoic as ever, his hands tucked into the pockets of his jacket. He hadn't said much since you left the izakaya, and you weren't sure if that was his usual silence or if something else was bothering him. Either way, it had you on edge, and you couldn't resist breaking the silence.
"So... tonight's been pretty weird, huh?" you said, glancing sideways at him as you tried to read his expression. You needed something from him, but you weren't sure what.
Aki didn't respond right away. He just gave you a quick glance, his sharp eyes flickering over you before he answered. "Weird how?"
You shrugged, feeling the alcohol's effects still lingering on your tongue. "I don't know. You've been quieter than usual."
Aki didn't seem particularly moved by that observation. "I'm not in the mood for small talk."
You exhaled in frustration, rubbing your eyes with your sleeve. "I guess not. But it's just... I've been acting weird tonight. Doing things I wouldn't normally do."
"Like what?" Aki asked, his voice flat but with a slight hint of curiosity.
"I kissed Himeno," you blurted, half-smiling to yourself at how ridiculous it sounded coming out of your mouth. You almost regretted saying it. But it had to be said, right?
Aki's head turned just slightly, but his face didn't change. "Yeah, and?"
You blinked, a little caught off guard by how quickly he dismissed it. "You know... it was a kiss. Just... fun, I guess."
"Fun," Aki repeated, though his voice was laced with a certain dryness. "Right."
You kept walking, feeling an odd twist in your stomach at how unbothered he was. You'd expected more of a reaction—something. Maybe you were wrong about trying to make him jealous. Maybe he didn't care at all.
But you didn't want to admit that. Instead, you pressed on. "She's a good kisser, though. Didn't think she had it in her."
Aki shot you another glance, his lips pressed together in a thin line. You could see the faintest shift in his expression, but it was gone so quickly you weren't sure if you imagined it. "Himeno, huh? You really go for the easy ones, don't you?"
It was a subtle jab, but it still managed to hit something inside of you. "I wouldn't say 'easy,'" you muttered, trying to shrug it off. "But yeah, I guess I've got a thing for—what?—fun, spontaneous stuff. You know, the kind of thing you wouldn't normally do."
Aki didn't answer right away, and the silence stretched between you. You could feel his eyes on you, but it wasn't the usual detached kind of look. No, this time, it felt like something more. Something that tugged at you, made your chest tighten in a way that was impossible to ignore.
"I've heard she's kissed just about everyone in the division. Wanted to see what the hype is all about," You tried again, "Have you tried it?"
Finally, Aki spoke, his voice barely above a whisper. "I don't kiss my coworkers. If it was just fun, then why are you still talking about it?"
You stumbled in your step, feeling the knot in your stomach tighten. "I don't know," you admitted, your voice a little unsteady. "Maybe I just wanted to see if it would get a rise out of you."
What the fuck.
Why did I just say that?
Aki didn't look at you, but you could feel the slight shift in his posture. His shoulders tensed, just a little, as if he were trying to suppress something. "And what would you do if it did?"
"I don't know," you said, a little too quickly. "I just wanted to see if I could get you to show some... something. You know? Anything. You're always so cold towards me."
Aki was quiet for a moment, his jaw tightening as if he were holding something back. "You're a pain in the ass."
You almost laughed at that, a little breathless. "Yeah, I know."
But there was still something there. Something in the way he'd said it—something just beneath the surface. You weren't sure if it was jealousy, but it was definitely something. Aki wasn't being completely himself, and it was enough to make your heart beat just a little faster. But you weren't sure if it was what you thought it was.
"Did it work?"
Aki suddenly stopped walking, and you nearly collided with him. He turned to face you, his eyes locking onto yours in a way that made your breath catch. "Don't start up again. You're drunk."
You smiled, a little too wide, too tipsy to care. "I'm not that drunk," you said, though the slur in your words gave you away.
Aki's eyes narrowed just slightly, his expression unreadable. "You're still making me walk you home."
You shrugged, too giddy to care. "Yeah, guess so. I'm... not really in any shape to walk by myself."
He muttered something under his breath, a faint exhale through his nose that could have been a laugh, but it wasn't. It was something else. "You're lucky I'm not putting you in a cab."
You grinned at that, though you felt a twinge of something you couldn't quite explain. "You're just saying that 'cause you're being nice tonight."
Aki shot you a quick glance. For a moment, the playful banter fell away, and there was an unexpected quiet between you. You both kept walking, the sound of your footsteps the only thing filling the space between you. It was hard to tell if anything had changed, but it felt different somehow. The weight of the night was still there, but there was something new, too—a strange kind of closeness.
You turned to look at him again, but this time, the words caught in your throat. You didn't want to ask him, not now, not when you didn't know if it was a mistake.
But then, in a flash, you tripped.
Your heel caught on the uneven pavement, and you felt your body lurch forward. Before you could even react, Aki was there, his hand gripping your waist with surprising gentleness, steadying you before you could fall.
"Careful," he muttered, though his tone was almost... softer than usual.
He's so hot.
He's so hot and I'm tired of hiding it, you thought. Why do I want him?
Fuck! He's such an asshole.
"I'm fine," you said, shaking it off with a breathless laugh. "I'm just a mess tonight."
Aki didn't respond, but you felt his hand tighten around you just a little. The next thing you knew, he had shifted, his arm going around your waist and lifting you effortlessly over his shoulder.
"Hey!" you protested, half-laughing, half-protesting. "Put me down, asshat!"
Aki didn't even glance at you as he started walking again, his tone dry but with a hint of something else beneath it. "You can barely walk straight."
You grinned, a little more giddy than you should have been. "You're gonna hurt yourself!"
"Relax," He sighed. Still, he handled you with a dizzying ease. Like you didn't weigh anything at all.
I knew he was strong, but...
"Do you work out?" You spat out.
He didn't respond, his steps measured and steady, though there was something... different.
"Of course I do," He answered, like that should have been obvious. "Never know when I'll have to carry a drunk idiot back to their apartment."
His posture was firmer than usual, and for a split second, you could have sworn there was a small, satisfied edge to his voice. Maybe you weren't imagining it.
The night was still strange, but as Aki carried you through the darkened streets, you couldn't help but wonder just how much of this was real—and how much was a game you both were playing without even realizing it.
Aki carried you up the three blocks with the same steady pace, his grip around your waist unwavering as the night air nipped at your skin. Each step he took was deliberate, his posture firm, almost casual as though carrying you wasn't the slightest bit out of the ordinary. But you could feel his muscles shift under the weight of you, his body solid against yours, and it was hard to ignore how easy he made it look.
For a moment, it felt like the entire world had faded out—just you, him, and the soft thud of his footsteps on the pavement.
The dark streetlights flickered overhead, casting long shadows across the sidewalk as you glanced at the city around you. Aki's pace didn't falter as he walked, but you were still aware of how close you were to him, how warm the space between you had become. It was like there was an invisible tension that grew the further you got to your building, one that neither of you could shake, no matter how casual the night seemed.
You shifted on his shoulder, trying to adjust, but the dizzying sway made you a little unsteady. "You really don't have to carry me, you know," you muttered, half-laughing at the absurdity of it all. "I'm not a child."
Aki didn't respond immediately. His fingers tightened just a little, a firm grip that told you he wasn't letting go until you were safely where you needed to be. Finally, he let out a quiet breath and murmured, "You're acting like one."
You rolled your eyes, but it wasn't like you could do anything about it. You were too comfortable in his hold, too grateful for how effortlessly he was handling the situation. "Okay, Dad, fff-fuck you."
You really needed to learn how to hold your own liquor.
"Not my fault you need someone to take care of you when you drink," Aki muttered, but the words held a different meaning. You didn't know if it was the alcohol or just your imagination, but there was something softer, almost protective in his tone. The walls he usually kept up were still there, but they were cracked just enough for you to catch a glimpse of something else.
Before you knew it, the three blocks had passed, and Aki had stopped right in front of your apartment building. He gently set you down on your feet, but you wobbled as soon as your heels hit the ground.
"Careful," Aki said, his voice low but with an undercurrent of concern.
You gave a half-hearted attempt at standing straight, but it was futile. "I'm fine," you muttered, your fingers fumbling for your keys in your purse. The alcohol was still buzzing in your head, making it hard to concentrate, but you finally felt the familiar cool metal of the key between your fingers. "Just—just give me a second."
Then, you dropped the damn thing. It fell to the floor with a frustrating clatter. With a groan, you bent over, plucking them off the ground and–
For a moment, you could have sworn you saw his eyes lingering on your backside.
No, it's just a trick of the light, you thought, I'm fucking plastered.
Still, it made you straighten up a little faster than you probably should have, locking eyes with him as you regained your balance. His expression was unreadable, but you didn't miss the way his lips tightened slightly, like he was keeping himself in check. Or maybe it was just his usual lack of interest. Either way, the tension between you two wasn't lost on you.
"Thanks for walking me, Captain," you said, trying to brush it off and make light of the moment. You threw in a sloppy salute, the gesture clumsy and half-hearted. You weren't even sure why you'd done it. Maybe to break the silence. Maybe because you needed to be something other than nervous.
Aki raised an eyebrow, unimpressed. "You really trying to salute me now?"
You just grinned, more out of awkwardness than anything else, and straightened yourself up again. "It's the least I can do. I'm lucky I didn't trip over my own feet the whole way."
He rolled his eyes at your antics, but there was something softer in his gaze as it met yours. Maybe it was the alcohol, or maybe it was just the way the moment had lingered, but something felt a little different, like the usual distance between you both was starting to shrink.
Neither of you spoke for a beat, the silence hanging heavy in the air. You couldn't help but feel the weight of it. You knew you were both trying to act like this was just another night—nothing special, just a little drunk and out of place—but there was something in the quiet. Maybe it was the way Aki was standing a little closer, or how his usual guarded expression had softened, just a little, in a way you weren't used to.
You finally broke the stillness, desperate to fill the void. "You know," you started, your voice just a little slurred, "You're not as bad as you act."
Aki's eyes flicked over to you, his gaze narrowing in that familiar, assessing way. But you could've sworn there was a slight glimmer in his eye, something you couldn't quite read. "What's that supposed to mean?"
You grinned, not entirely sure what you were saying, but the words felt right. "You're actually kind of... cool, under all that grumpy, 'I hate everyone' thing you have going on."
Aki didn't respond right away. Instead, he just stared at you for a moment, like he was weighing the meaning of your words. You weren't sure if you meant it or not, but there was a certain honesty in the moment that you couldn't ignore.
"You don't know what you're saying," he finally muttered, his voice lower than usual, but not in the usual sarcastic way. He was almost... mellow, in a way you hadn't expected.
For a split second, you considered what he said—how he didn't shrug it off immediately, how his expression hadn't closed back up. It wasn't a compliment, not really, but it was something that almost felt like one.
You shifted awkwardly on your feet. "No, really. You're really cute when you're not being an asshole."
Why did I say that? Why did I say that? Why did I say that?
Oh, my god, You winced the moment the words left your lips. You were astronomically fumbling tonight – a feeling that made your whole face flush when you realized what you had said.
Aki said nothing at first. Instead, he just stared at you, his gaze a little too intense, like he was trying to read you, trying to figure out what the hell was going on in your head. You could feel the weight of his silence, his eyes on you, steady but unreadable.
Your heart was pounding, and all you could think about was how stupid you must have looked. You needed to get away from this, away from him, before you embarrassed yourself even more.
But before you could come up with an excuse to leave, Aki spoke again, voice slow and calculated, the usual bite of sarcasm absent. "Fuck you."
It didn't sound like a harsh retort. It didn't even sound annoyed. It sounded almost... amused. Like he wasn't angry, just a little perplexed by you. And you hated how that single, simple phrase made your heart race. You wanted to get away from the tension building between you two, but the magnetic pull only seemed to draw you closer.
"You'd be a hell of a lot cuter if you just... shut the hell up once in a while," you said, the words slipping out before you could stop them. There was no filter, no hesitation this time, just the raw honesty that came from being tipsy and irritated by how much you'd been holding in all night.
Aki didn't respond at first. His lips barely moved, but you noticed the subtle shift in his expression. Something in his eyes changed, a flicker of something almost... warm? Maybe it was just the alcohol messing with your mind, but you swore you saw it—his usual guardedness faltering, just a little.
You were standing there, staring at him, feeling that rush of warmth in your chest. There was something in the air, something electric and charged. The proximity between you two felt suddenly so close—and it wasn't just the alcohol making your head spin anymore. It was something else, something real.
You wanted to say something else, something to break the silence, but the words got caught in your throat. You could smell him now, that subtle, comforting scent of him that had always been there, but tonight it felt sharper, more intoxicating. His cologne mixed with the warmth of his skin, and it made your thoughts scatter, dizzy and disoriented.
Before you could stop yourself, your body was moving. You weren't sure why, but it was like something inside of you had completely snapped. You wanted him closer, wanted that distance between you erased.
You didn't think. You just acted.
You stumbled toward him, your hand reaching up without hesitation. In one swift movement, you grabbed him by the tie, yanking him down toward you. He was caught off guard for just a second, but his eyes never left yours. You could feel the tension radiating between you as you pulled him closer, your heart pounding in your chest like it was about to break free.
His breath hitched just barely, his body stiffening for the slightest moment, before he relaxed. The shift was subtle, but it was enough for you to notice. The air around you both thickened, the silence stretching between you until it felt suffocating.
Aki didn't speak. He didn't even try to stop you. He just stood there, still and silent, waiting for whatever you were about to do next.
And then, before you could talk yourself out of it, before you could think of all the reasons why this was a bad idea, you kissed him.
a/n: muaaahahaha.... MUAUAAAAAHAHAHAAAAAA!!!! OH MY GODDD AGRHJDSBG i fucking loved writing that last part. i know, hate me all u want for blue balling you. yall know i wont keep u waiting too long tho xx. (jk its a slow burn so i will). (at least the romance aspect is. the smutty aspect? maybe not). please please please let me know what yall thought in the comments, i love love love reading everything you guys have to say. seriously. yall have made my whole entire week LMFAOAOAO. im so glad u love this story as much as i do!! new update should be out soon (not as soon as this one was but who knows we'll see bc im an attention whore and u guys fw this story). ily all xx
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Thank you so much, first of all :3 and also THANK YOU SO MUCH- CAUSE I ACTUALLY HAVE COMPLETELY CHANGED MY UNDERTALE COPE AU AFTER CHAPTERS 3 AND 4, LIKE IT’S SO DIFFERENT AND- okay…
Im gonna separate my TADC and UT/DR AUs.
And because my TADC AUs are WAY shorter, they’ll go first
TADC
Ive said my peace on the Cope AU, not much else to add honestly…
But there is another one that I have, It’s called "temporarily demoted". The “plot” is pretty simple, Caine lost a bet with Bubble, and they have to swap places for 5 days.
That’s basically it- The main function it serves for me in my brain is exploring Caine and him discovering empathy through this experience, plus his relationship with Ragatha cause OMG THEY’RE SO SIMILAR
I also love imagining scenarios where Bubble ends up taking over and everyone has to work together to take him down (portal 2 reference/dialogue)
Thats basically all I have to say in terms of Digital Circus chicanery, time to get into the-
UNDERTALE DELTARUNE IM LOSING MY MIND AAAA
So basically I am completely retconning my original Cope AU because those are supposed to be completely pandering to me and me alone, and CHAPTER 3/4 GAVE ME NEW DESIRES FOR THESE CHARACTERS.
The original surrounded around the idea that Sans and Papyrus were ALWAYS really close, and is more or less a feel good story with a touch of angst tossed in for good measure. EVER SINCE THIS SHIT THOUGH-
Ive started really liking the idea that maybe Sans and Papyrus DIDN’T have that good of a relationship before, and after almost losing everything when they had to escape Deltarune for Undertale, Sans reevaluated a lot of things in his life.
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So NOW my Cope AU is less fiction based than before, now having some actual merit behind it. Buuuutttt since im just here to tell the story, im not planning on explaining much of evidence- BUT IF YOU WANT IT ILL GLADLY MAKE A DEEP DIVE ON THAT STUFF!
I MIGHT EVEN DO THAT ANYWAY! WHO KNOWS!!!
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Now FINALLY…the story…Once upon a time, grandpa semi died, yada yada, Sans took in Papyrus, it was a hard decision, all that remains the same. But this time, all that stress is getting to him, Sans is trying his best, but right now he’s honestly not being the greatest guardian for his brother. (JUST LIKE TORIEL :D).
(Also they’re a bit older, instead of Papyrus being like 10, he’s more around Kris’ age, 17-ish, while Sans is like late 20s, early 30s, cause IF HE WAS 18 LIKE IN THE ORIGINAL, THEN THAT JITTERBUG SCENE WOULD BE REALLY BAD 😭😭😭😭)
Papyrus is not doing very well because of yknow, his grandpa dying, but also the moving, and having a really hard time making friends/being understood. Sans alone is supporting his brother financially and emotionally, so, stressed. Also not doing too well. they’re just sort of drowning together right now.
Sans tries his best to get Papyrus to talk to people, inviting Kris over, but no matter what Papyrus is ADAMANT about not talking to anyone, which adds some frustration to Sans’ situation.
Skip to chapter 4/5, and Sans spent the night at Toriels house, drunk, when he wakes up and goes OH MY GOD and runs home, but the door is locked and Papyrus isnt answering the door. (They’ve only got one key- and its with Papyrus since he’s always home to let him inside. Sans was also hoping he’d take the opportunity and leave the house for a bit, but, yknow).
So anywho, Sans deduces that he’s pissed rn, which is- FAIR- so he just decides to attend the festival, then hopefully have a talk with him after, and apologize for not telling his brother where he was.
…Noteably when he tries to call Papyrus’ phone, its nothing but garbage noise
THAAAATS RIGHT :D While everyones out and about enjoying the festival, Dark Fountains are getting created in everyones homes assuming no one would NOT be at the festival!!! So THEN when everyone starts heading home, they discover and go OH NO!!!! WHAT IS THIS???
NOW TO TUNE IN ON SUSIE AND KRIS FOR A SEC! They’re like “for fuck sake”.
But before they even have time to panic, they take notice that Sans is talking frantically to Toriel, saying “MY BROTHER IS IN THERE 😭???” so ✨THE FUN GANG ✨ Goes on a little rescue mission like they did with Toriel :3
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I hate to cut it there- but thats honestly all I have in terms of story. I HAVNT HAD ENOUGH TIME TO PONDER ON IT FOR 500 DAYS AND NIGHTS LIKE I DID THE LAST AU, JUST LET ME COOK
ohhohoho buckle up i have a lot (ignore that this took 20 years for me to get to oopsies)
headache girly, she always has a headache
she talks to her loom, she's had it for so long that it's almost more of a constant in her life than odysseus at this point. telemachus used to tease her about it and then she caught him talking to a random owl one night thinking that it was athena so they're at a standstill
her hands are NOT smoothe or soft. her fingertips and palms have a ton of callouses from weaving.
15 years into odysseus’s absence, she started to mix up his voice versus telemachus's and panicked so hard that telemachus went silent for two days like that would help
so bad at sharing the bed and is always stealing odysseus's blanket and pillow (having the bed to herself for twenty years made this so much worse but odysseus won't complain)
more below the cut teehee
has escape routes planned from almost every corner of the palace just in case the suitors tried something
cat person but she's fallen in love with dogs since her husband and son prefer them. when her and odysseus retire to a cottage on the coast she gets a cat and treats it like a baby.
post-odyssey hates the smell of strong wine, like it genuinely makes her ill. she's pretty good at telling just how drunk someone is just by watching them.
gave melantho boy advice, not knowing that the boy she had a crush on was eurymachus
teasing is her love language, no one she loves is safe from her quips
cuts her hair to look less attractive to the suitors and quickly realizes it's sooooo much easier to work at a loom without long hair
ocd penelope hcs
im not an expert in ocd, I was diagnosed as a teenager but obviously everyones experience is different.
as a kid she would have been under so much scrutiny. I think she starts to develop habits and rituals that make her as perfect as possible, especially since she's being compared to helen all the time. I think she combs her hair a lot, to the point where maybe it's unhealthy, I think she weaves as a distraction but also because it's a crafty task that requires you things to be symmetrical/perfect. she compares herself to neurotypical helen A LOT
when she meets odysseus, she falls head over heels of course, but she's so worried about making the wrong choice, it doesn't help that icarius is yapping in her ear about how odysseus isn't good enough for her. odysseus notices how nervous she is and makes her a promise that fits within her schema "as long as olive trees exist i will love you" and that helps. penelope is so taken aback that someone wouldn't just laugh at her compulsions that she starts to fight for odysseus to her father, eventually going with him despite icarius's wishes
imagine her shock and joy when THEIR olive tree, the one he made that promise under is moved to ithaca and becomes part of their wedding bed adkfhfkzkdh they're so cute anyways.
weaving is her way of control. magical thinking, ocd is very much like "if I do __, this bad thing won't happen". hc that weaving as always been this for her, but especially when she meets odysseus and learns that athena is his patron. it becomes a "if i weave, athena won't let anything bad happen to odysseus (and later on telemachus)" and while ofysseus is gone its "if I keep weaving this shroud, odysseus is still alive and if I stop he is dead"
in the odyssey, the way she uses weaving mirrors a compulsive behavior which relies on the categories of: ritualistic, self-imposed, and performed as a way to stave off anxiety. the only aspect of her life she can truly control is the shroud, which becomes an attempt to delay change
specifically coming from the suitors is also her compulsively locking her door. she will have locked it a hundred times in a night and will still get up to check it again. i think this is a habit that doesn't go away even years after the whole thing is over.
adhd ody x ocd pen creates some ISSUES in their first few months of marriage bc he doesn't have routine and she cannot function without it. they adapt, she gets some routine and he gets to randomly take her to do fun things that get her out of her comfort zone
so yeah my grandpa's funeral was this morning and i didn't think it really did him justice. because it was so last minute and because we didnt know who to contact it was barely attended. the celebrant was nice but i hated his approach. it didn't feel tailored to my grandpa and some of the stuff he quoted after the eulogy literally contradicted stuff in the eulogy. he read this awful thing that looked like something a boomer would post on facebook that was like "back in our day weed was what was in the garden and hardware was on doors" bullshit. "when we were born people got married before living together". it pissed me off, my grandparents literally moved in together during uni, my granny got pregnant, so they got married in march 1964, graduated july 1964, and had my dad sept 1964. like it was such a long-winded bullshit boomer thing and it made me so angry!
but my dad did the bulk of the eulogy and i had a bit where i spoke about what he was like as a grandfather and i also spoke on behalf of neighbours who couldn't be there who sent me messages. so that went well i think. ALSO i guess my uncle and dad did not learn from my granny's funeral because AGAIN they played Memories from Cats WHICH OKAY WAS DEPRESSING BUT NOT ONLY WAS IT A BAD VERSION BUT IT ALSO WAS A VERSION THAT HAD STUPID DIALOGUE SO WHILE WE WERE WATCHING THE SLIDESHOW I MADE OF PICS OF MY GRANDPA, SOME DUDE STARTS TALKING ABOUT OLD DEUTERONOMY AND THE JELLICLE CATS. THE SAME THING HAPPENED AT ONE POINT AT MY GRANNY'S FUNERAL IN 2018. THE EXACT SAME SONG. WHY DID THIS HAPPEN AGAIN. I TRIED TO STOP IT. I REALLY DID. I BEGGED MY DAD TO CHOOSE THE JAZZ SONG MY GRANDPA LIKED THAT I LITERALLY ATTACHED TO THE SLIDESHOW. anyway that part made me laugh. there's actually a recording online and lowkey i want to post a clip so you can see me trying to hide my laughter.
also the whole thing felt bizarre and even though other people were crying ive been feeling numb. but ive also been crying at other times. but it's all so weird. honestly aside from what my dad said i didnt like the funeral. but i guess it had to be done. the family needed it.
my grandpa's ashes are going to be combined with my granny's and will be scattered in the bush behind his house where he used to take talks. which makes me emotional to think about. but i get to keep a scoop of them. i asked. it was a weird question but i thought might as well.
also im finding a lot of family stuff from various records im sorting through and i cant BELIEVE my dad never told us that my granny's family name (before her dad and uncle changed it bc they hated their dad) was ONIONS. told my brother today after he told the story about the time he was drunk and proclaimed his love of onions and ate half a raw onion like an apple on a dare.
yeah basically it didnt feel like a funeral. it felt insufficient for what an interesting man my grandpa was. he had a very interesting life and was so funny and kind and all round an amazing grandfather and person. i regret not hugging him the day before he died and telling him how much i loved him. ill miss him a lot. the family isnt going to be the same without him.
CARE TO SHARE MORE ABOUT UR CONFIDENT DRUNK WILL MIKE CHESS FIC???? (ITS SO PEAK OMG)
YEEESSS TWIN! i am currently editing this post and typing it as i speak, u gotta wait a little while tho because i type VERY slowly 😭
anyway, edited:
not sure if ur seeing this so il tag you! @gh0stgirlzz
context for other people (very summarised): will and mike are chess rivals, mike invited will to a bar to hangout the day before will’s match, theyre both drunk but will is INCREDIBLY drunk, mike takes him to his hotel room, a drunk will kisses mike they makeout do gay shit blah blah and will doesn’t remember anything the next day
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OK TWIN so you already saw the part where will got drunk kissed mike and stuff blah blah and then he wakes up the next day he doesn’t remember shit and so i thought that one of two things could happen (i havent formed a proper plan for the fic ahem im just winging it 💔💔)
Will can wake up the next day, see mike and be like hey why is he here? And he remembered that mike invited him to the bar and he assumes that he was probably just too drunk and mike brought him back and he asleep and stuff (mm you guys DEFINITELY didnt sleep.) and so he just quickly grabs a coat and his watch because he’s late for his match but before leaving he goes upto mike and ruffles his hair a little and a small smile spreads across his face and HERE there are two possibilities (damn is this inception or what 😭 )
> NOW, option one is that he doesnt see the hickeys, but he later realises that he’s the culprit, gets distracted, loses the match
> Option TWO, he sees the hickeys on mike’s neck (that HE left behind, he doesnt know it yet lol) and theres ANOTHER two options from here oh god this is DEFINITELY some nolan type shit
He IMMEDIATELY realises that HE’S the one who did that to mike and he will go into a SPIRAL for the rest of the day and it will also affect him a lot during his match, he’s gonna remain distracted and possibly lose/draw
Or he assumes that the hickeys were by a GIRL. and he still goes into a spiral because obviously its been a while and the owl has definitely fallen for the crow (il explain, mike is popularly called “the crow” by the media, and will is called “the owl” just for fun :D), but now his heart has just shattered completely, and obviously he loses the match and all he can think about is mike for the next couple of days
See, whatever happens, i need will to lose today’s match, it gonna play an important part since the game itself was pretty important, what a great move to get incredibly drunk the night before, but i guess if beth harmon can do it, so can will
I definitely want to go for the mike-got-attacked-by-a-girl-when-he-was-drunk option because oh my lord its gonna cause so much drama between the two of them and i also wanna make mike try and cover up the hickeys with help from a certain someone (cue madmax), because even HE thinks that it was just a spur-of-the-moment thing and that will doest like him at all and he was just drunk and blah blah (yearn white boy.) and i MAYBE wanna put max on both sides? madwise and madwheeler so she gets to see both sides of this whole thing but ill see what i wanna do, and will is just omg-mike-is-straight-wtf-was-i-thinking-im-so-stupid type shi (will im so sorry 😭)
but you tell me which option you like :)
i have even more ideas but this is all for now hehe
If i make more posts themed to chess-byler, theyre under the tag chessler and also mj yaps chess! (i need to go and edit the posts to add these tags tho 🥀)
also here’s another version of chessler made by my lovely moots @bylerbean and @rubyrider6000 !
