#asd feels

[talesofanautisticwoman]

Chronically tired

I hate how autism somehow makes me tired all day everyday 24/7. It's often after finishing small tasks my tiredness hits me like a brick.

1. Going for a walk?= tired 2. wanna go the mall?= tired upon arrival 3. wanna go grocery shopping?= tired 4. Oh you wanna go for a car ride=tired 5. Oh you wanna bake a cake?= tired I also somehow manage to only feel like a fully functioning human being for like 2-4 hours a day or less. These days i'm also so burnt out i don't have the energy to do stuff i actually love and are passionate about.. and not having something to hyperfixiate on makes my feel empty inside.

A thing that also makes me feel burnt out is when i accidentally say yes to something i don't want to because i panic. Then i have to gather the courage to call back and say i'm not able to come.

[autistic-bibliophile]

Art interpretation in class today and the prof kept asking us what we “see” from the body language and what the subjects were thinking and I’m just sitting here like… what now

Sir I’m autistic I had to memorize what smiling meant

[shmoots-universe]

Neurodivergents, help me out here y'all ever have those days where you're outside and you can just FEEL how autistic/adhd you are. Like I went into a mall, someone liked at me for like a second and I was like HMMM DONT LIKE THAT!!

[talesofanautisticwoman]

That moment when you tell somebody that you are autistic, and then they compare your to their five year old nephew/niece or somebody else they know. This has happen to many times, and i'm tired of it tbh. I just wanna be me in my own way.

[talesofanautisticwoman]

Autistic experience

(this was last edited on april 15th 2020 lmao im so lazy. I have like 12 other drafts as well)

Talking to your parents/guardian etc. about autism can be.. well hard. Because when you talk about autism to them (about your experiences) they kinda always try to compare it their/other neurotypical people’s experience. Or other autistic people.

“Everyone does that” “That’s not an autism thing” I’m sure (almost) everyone of you have heard these phrase’s at least once. I don’t want to be compared to other autistic people. Because we’re so different from one another like everybody else on this planet. Sometimes all that comparing makes me feel like an imposter, also because i’m quite good at masking i must say.

[talesofanautisticwoman]

Struggling with communication

Anyone else who tends to leave out important pieces of information when communicating with other people? I tend to leave huge important chunks of information. Apparently I expect them to know the information.. because if I know it, then they must know it too... Not. Then they have to dig out the information,, lets just say it's a work in progress. I don't want people to misunderstand when i'm saying.

[talesofanautisticwoman]

A lil messy rant

So i hit a milestone today. I applied for a job since i'm starting my gap year. It's a temporary employment agency.. so you end up in different places and gets assigned different tasks depending on where it is. I hope i get the job to be honest... i really want to earn my own money. I have felt like a failure because i didn't have a part time job when i was a teenager. I still feel like i lack in so many aspects of life regarding relationships, friendgroups, work, education etc. I really need an extra push to get out of my comfort zone, which my parents does a lot. It's mostly my dad, i feel like he gaslights me a lot regarding my struggles. So much so that i don't even talk about my problems anymore to anyone really. I feel like every person has a person to talk to in their life and rant to (i know i'm not the only one). I don't want to burden anyone with my problems and struggles, so i just keep it to myself.

[talesofanautisticwoman]

Nothing better than laying in my bed after i have done my nighttime routine + taken my meds (one which helps me sleep)... and doing some of my special interests!