#autism feels

[galacticscrotum]

I didn’t fully realize the extent to which I am affected by sensory overload until I decided to accommodate myself anyway. Wearing headphones in public keeps my anxiety so much lower.

It’s kinda ironic that the reason I didn’t notice I’m autistic is because I’m autistic. My struggles with interoception made it hard for me to recognize my sensory issues.

[therapy-gems]

[anonymoustigress]

yes I am happy with my life and I love myself and I am grateful for everything I have but I would love to have a friend… haha… just one… maybe two if that’s okay… haha…

[leotheweirdo123]

Not sure about what counts as a xenogender or xenoidentity but i want to be a boy trapped inside a neon 80's arcade game! Like Cabinet Man by Lemon Demon :D

Trapped behind a barrier yet so close to the real world - Autism

Being a guy but in a way that isn't connected to the norms of boyhood- Transmasc

Checks all the boxes, including my love for 80's and 90's aesthetics ✨️

[autumnsvoice87]

I don't get society. People who are autistic I've noticed, struggle to live. They found out sometime in the 90s that high functioning individuals can mask and still mainstream in society. Half of us struggle, and there aren't many supports out there for adult autistics.

Sometimes, the jobs we end up doing don't even let us use accommodations like noise canceling headphones or an email option for those of us who struggle with verbal communication yet they always say "you don't look autistic" or "pull up your big girl pants and just deal with it"

Well, how about you deal with this crippling anxiety and executive function issues. Why don't you try and deal with the mutism that happens when we are overwhelmed by NT societal demands and expectations that you dont fully understand to begin with? Yet there are people and politicians who want to abolish social security and disability. (Project 25)

I feel angry. This Ablism needs to stop. If society wants us all to work, then make it accessible to us to do so in the first place, and it would be nice if yall stopped cutting disability and education. That would probably help. Thanks...

Signed

Diary of a Mad Autistic

[probablypeoplepleasering]

I am angry all the time. Every time something happens to make me feel out of control, I respond with anger. Lately, it has been my sister. Whenever she does something that makes me feel out of control, I shout at her and I can't control it. Then when I get angry at her, she responds by hitting at me (shes 10) , and by that point, I feel so ripped away from my authority all I can do is hit back. In that moment, I can't stop it. When I feel out of control, I feel this burning in the pit of my stomach. It feels so excruciating. When i shout, it goes away. When i shout, i feel in control again. I used to run away from it, burying it down. I used to pride myself in that I'm never angry. But now that's who I am. That's what I do. It's like my brain is no longer thinking rational, it needs to be in control, and if it's not something needs to be done. I feel like such a horrible, selfish person.

I'm not a violent dog, I don't know why I bite.

[heirtofire]

Neurotypical: “It’s not loud in here, you don’t need to leave. It’s fine”

Me:

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[lay-my-body-down]

does anyone have concrete examples of what "difficulty to switch between activities" can look like in autism/neurodivergency?

because i always answer no to this question, but i realized that it could explain why i like to do "one thing a day" or don’t feel like picking up another activity once I’m done with one?¿

i have periods where i dissociate a lot and during these times i feel very scattered and have trouble focusing so i was always like, "yeah i always switch between activities [during these times] without even realizing" but at the same time i don’t like when i finish one activity and have to take up another immediately, i need like. a cooldown time.

could that apply to the "difficulty to switch activities" criteria? or is it just a question of preference in this case? because idk, maybe i can but i just don’t like to? i’m not very clear on how i feel, I need to think more about it, but for that I’d like concrete examples and explanations. If anyone can help me I’d be grateful! 🫶