Asexual Sherlock Pt. 2 [Bookmarks & MFLs]
Asexual Sherlock (updated Aug 22/22)
Ace Sherlock Pt. 1.5 (MFL)
Demisexual Sherlock (Feb 2026)
Queerplatonic / Ace Relationships (Updated Jun 2023)
It's the third week of pride, and this week I shall grace you with an update to my 3 Ace Sherlock lists!
Enjoy, and if you have any to add, please do so I can make a proper next part! :)
Two Exceptions by aceofhearts61 (T, 2,117 w., 1 Ch. || Asexual Sherlock, Platonic Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Establish Relationship, Non-Sexual Soulmates) – In which Sherlock fears what he has with John won't last and John tells him why he's an idiot.
All Forms of Relationships by inatshej (T, 10,426 w., 1 Ch. || POV Sherlock, Asexual Sherlock, Light Angst, Light Plot, Angst with Happy Ending, Requited Love, Light Case Fic) – Relationships can take all kinds of forms. People creating them are much less adaptable, their preferences, needs, and culture limiting them to a great extent. Sherlock believes he has to renounce relationships; he is wrong.
Rupert Street by WritingOutLoud (M, 27,262 w., 9 Ch. || Alternate First Meeting || Case Fic, Sexuality, Demisexual Sherlock, Drugging, Smart John, Sherlock Has Internalized Biphobia, Fluff, Angst with Happy Ending, Gay Bar, Flirting, John Manipulates Sherlock to Eat, John Deduces, Arguments, Kidnapping/Torture, Hospitalization, John Whump) – Discharged from the war with nothing but the clothes on his back and a realisation of his bisexuality, John Watson has to learn who he’s become. He can’t afford London on an army pension, but the city is the only friend he has. In an effort to understand his newfound queer identity, he heads to a bar one night, where he stumbles across a mysterious stranger who turns his life upside down. ‘I dug around inside myself, and I'm not quite sure what I found, but it was beautiful and terrifying all at the same time.’
A Love with No Name Series by aceofhearts61 (G to M, 49,955 w. across 20 stories || Asexual Sherlock / Straight John, Est. Rel, Queerplatonic Relationship, Romance, Cuddling, Fluff, Platonic Romance, Domestics, Rape/Non-Con) – In which Asexual!Sherlock and Straight!John are platonically in love life partners.
A Goose Quill Dipped in Venom by Polyphony (M, 52,748 w., 16 Ch. || Celebrity John AU || Alternate First Meeting, TV Host John, Supermodel Mary, Character Death, Mystery, Romance, Case Fic, First Kiss/Time, Meddling Mycroft, Drug Abuse, Doctor John, PDA, Deductions, POV Sherlock, Demisexual Sherlock, Toplock, Sexual Tension, Angry/Rough Sex, Hopeful Ending, Asperger’s Sherlock) – Sherlock Holmes, consulting detective, is called in to a very ordinary although brutal murder. Something is badly out of tune with the whole scenario and Sherlock finds himself becoming more and more obsessed with the crime - and also with the victim.
Swallow the Night by ArwaMachine (E, 87,873 w., 15 Ch. || TSo3/Stag Night Fix It, TAB/S4 Divergence, Toplock, Mutual Pining, PWP, Drunk / Public Sex, Anal Fingering/Sex, Alcohol-Induced Amnesia, Everyone Knows Except Them, Emotional Love Confession, Demisexual Sherlock, Internalized Homophobia [John], Parentlock with Rosie, First Kiss, Drug Relapse, Infidelity, Texting, Masturbation, Oblivious John, Emotional Love Making, Angst with Happy Ending, Dreams and Nightmares) – “Do you know how long,” John panted, his cheek scraping against the wall, looking back at Sherlock through half-closed eyes, “I’ve wanted this?” Sherlock pressed himself against John’s back, biting at John’s ear. “Not nearly as long as I have,” he whispered.
The Summer Boy by khorazir (T, 94,706 w., 6 Ch. || Post S3/Post TAB/Alternate S4, Friends to Lovers, Flashbacks, Sussex, Bullying, 1980′s Kid Sherlock, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Inexperienced Sherlock, Grief/Mourning, Pining Sherlock, Background Case Fic) – About half a year after the fateful events at Appledore, Sherlock and John embark on a private case in Sussex. For Sherlock, it’s a journey into his past, bringing up memories both happy and sad that he has locked away for almost thirty years. For John, it means coming to terms with the present – and a potential future with Sherlock. Part 1 of the The Summer Boy series
The Lost Special: Family Matters (As Do Relationships) by ShirleyCarlton (M, 144,688 w., 40 Ch. || S4 Fix It Fic / Meta Fic, Unreliable Narrator, John’s Mind Bungalow, Friends to Lovers, Happy Ending, Demisexual Sherlock, Holmes Family, John Whump, Gay Mycroft, Misunderstandings, Drug Addiction, Parenting, TFP is a Nightmare, Virgin Sherlock, Slow Burn, Minor Character Death, Switchlock, John’s Past, Sherlock’s Past, Eurus, Love Confessions) –Sherrinford is not really the name of some high security prison. That was just a figment of John’s frantic coma dream. And Eurus is not actually Sherlock’s sister. That’s just something random she said to John before shooting him. Sherlock and John were never actually estranged. That was just their act to cover up what really happened to Mary – or Rosamund Moran, as her real name has turned out to be. Sherlock does have a secret sibling, though, and his name is Sherrinford. After finally eliminating Moran – though in a rather dramatically different way than they had envisioned – and exposing the truth about Eurus, John encourages Sherlock to delve into his past and to find out whether the reasons to keep Sherrinford away from Sherlock were the right ones, and to discover what really happened in 1981. Along the way, Sherlock and John gradually, finally, stop keeping each other at a distance, and eventually become a proper family of their own.
Deck the Halls However You See Fit by Yuliares (G, 752 w., 1 Ch. || Canon Divergence, Developing Relationship, Asexual Sherlock, Holiday Fluff, Mary Ships It) – Relaxed domestic holiday fluff. In a nebulous future where John and Mary move in downstairs after Mrs. Hudson retires, the gang preps for their annual Christmas party in 221B Baker Street.
Breakfast at 221B by AJHall (T, 2,885 w., 1 Ch. || Asexuality, Toxic Family Relationships) – "Anyway. Enough of my embarrassing sibling brothel stories. Tell me yours." A Sherlock conversation, over breakfast.
Unspoken Variables by sherlockian4evr (E, 2,951 w., 1 Ch. || Friends to Lovers, Demisexual Sherlock, Miscommunication, Pining Sherlock, Oblivious John, Bad Flirting, Developing Relationship, Happy Ending) – Sherlock, who is demisexual, tries to communicate his interest to John, but John doesn't notice. John is unable to see the evidence in front of him because everyone has convinced him that Sherlock is asexual. He gets suspicious after one of Sherlock's attempts at communication, but isn’t sure. It finally "clicks" when he realizes that everyone else has decided Sherlock is asexual because he wasn't interested in them. When sexy times occur, it is the final piece of evidence that finally convinces John.
Seven Ways to Fall Asleep by tartanfics (G, 3,772 w., 1 Ch. || PODFIC AVAILABLE || Asexuality, Dreams, Sleep, Cuddling/Snuggling, Injury) – John and Sherlock fall asleep together.
Physical by Boeshane42 (E, 4,753 w., 1 Ch. || Asexual Sherlock, Medical Kink) – All this time, all his efforts, and he’d had it all backwards; Sherlock is capable of sexual arousal (even with company), but it’s the clinical touch that stimulates him rather than the sexual one.
what if it was meant for me by crashingmeteorz (M, 5,225 w., 1 Ch. || Sherlock and Co. || Episode 1 Divergence, Miscommunication, First Kiss, Getting Together, Gray-Asexual Sherlock, Bisexual John, Sherlock's Crush) – John and Sherlock’s stakeout during “The Creeping Man” goes a little differently. But, I mean, come on - what were they expecting with that dialogue? Part 1 of Sherlock & Innuend-Co Series || Part 1 of A Four-Letter Word Series
The Discernment of Spirits by merripestin (E, 7,056 w., 1 Ch. || Voyeurism, Jealousy, Asexuality, Vaginal Sex, Oral Sex) – John was supposed to bring the suspect back to this hotel room to look at some fake Ming Dynasty pottery. Sherlock wasn't expecting John to run into Sarah, finish off the case, and bring her back to the hotel for sex. John wasn't expecting Sherlock to bug the room.
Lessons in friendship 5 - Practising to give by TheGracefulBlueCat (T, 8,518 w., 7 Ch. || Post-TBB, John's PTSD, Caring Sherlock, Panic Attacks, Flashbacks, Trust Issues, Touch Issues, Hurt/Comfort, John Whump, Asexual Sherlock, Autistic Sherlock, Mental Health Issues, Dissociation, Protective Greg, Forehead Touching, Insecure Sherlock, Triggers, Afghanistan/War Memories) – This takes place shortly after the Baskerville case. Sherlock had realised before how important John's friendship is to him and the need to practise arises. Then John has a flashback Sherlock is thrown into the cold water and needs to learn how to swim fast. No First Person POV but almost entirely from Sherlock's side, except the last chapter, which features what John thinks. Part 5 of Lessons in Friendship
Lessons in Friendship 6 - Danger Night by TheGracefulBlueCat (T, 13,663 w., 6 Ch. || Post-Hiatus Divergence, Sedation, Self-Medication, Self-Harm, Angst, Doctor John, Drug Use, Worried John, Caring Mycroft, Asexual Sherlock, Autistic Sherlock) – This takes place when Sherlock is back from the dead (after being away a few months, not years) and reunited with John and they live together at 221b again. But the aftermath of the fall is catching up with them (my version of the future does NOT include the possibility that John might get married). Part 6 of Lessons in Friendship
Half a Dozen Dances by CeruleanDarkangelis (E, 18,747 w., 6 Ch. || Dancing, OMCs) – “Seriously? You? You're going to be a stripper?” John tried to keep the amused incredulity off his face. Judging by the disgruntled look Sherlock gave him, he was not entirely successful in this endeavor. “I can dance, John.” Sherlock’s lower lip threatened to edge out into a full-fledged pout. “Yeah, okay, but...” John trailed off. Sure, he had seen Sherlock dance on rare occasions, but a waltz was a far cry from a strip tease, and his possibly asexual (virginal?) flatmate, was proposing to do just that. “...where will you hide your handcuffs?”
Octopus by ohlooktheresabee (T, 20,778 w., 3 Ch. || Fluff, Light Angst, Fluff and Angst, Developing Relationship, Asexual Sherlock, BAMF Sherlock, Hurt/Comfort, Feels, Romantic Fluff, Canon-Typical Violence, Injuries, Happy Ending) – Sherlock is starting to get used to the idea of being in a romantic relationship with John; slowly becoming more and more comfortable - that is until he overhears John say something that makes him question it all... Meanwhile, the boss of a foreign crime syndicate is not exactly thrilled to find out that Sherlock Holmes and John Watson have foiled his latest scheme - but with Sherlock suitably distracted, he wonders if he might just be able to pull of his plans after all...
On Feathers and Bacon Sandwiches by Kryptaria (T, 21,092 w., 8 Ch. || Winglock AU || Demon John, Asexual Sherlock) – No one has ever stayed with Sherlock longer than a month. At least, no human. Fortunately, John Watson isn't about to let the little things - like biohazardous experiments and the constant threat of danger - get in the way of his friendship with a very special, very brilliant man like Sherlock Holmes. Part 1 of Feathers 'verse
What Was Left After by KatriaBloom (T, 33,912 w., 21 Ch. || Post TRF, Kid Fic, Asexual Sherlock, Asexual Relationship, Unconventional Families, Holmes Brothers, Daddy Watson) – Six months after The Fall, John Watson arrives home to 221B to find a baby. In the three years Sherlock is presumed dead, John raises the child as his own. When Sherlock arrives home, the world he has rebuilt for himself starts to crumble all over again. Part 1 of What Was Left After
Blue Plaques by JRow (M, 36,266 w., 5 Ch. || Post TEH Divergence, Case Fic, First Kiss, Love Confessions, Happy Ending, Bisexual John, Past Drug Use, Demiromantic Sherlock, Asexual Sherlock, POV John, Pining) – John’s engagement is off, and he is back at the place he feels most at home — 221B Baker Street. It’s been a bit of an adjustment (he does miss the regular hugs and snuggles) but John is happy, and it seems like Sherlock is too. John certainly loves working on a good case with his mad flatmate, so he’s thrilled when Greg asks for their help in figuring out how Colin Mahon is continuing to run his drugs operation while out on bail and under constant surveillance. It must have something to do with Mahon’s daily travels (on foot) to a slew of seemingly boring London sights. But in the process of solving this little mystery, will John accidentally reveal a secret of his own?
A Penny Dreadful by Popcornjones (E, 36,551 w., 12 Ch. || Post-S3, Fluff, Angst, References to Drugs, First Kiss/Time, Virgin Sherlock, Memory Loss, Asperger's Sherlock, Hurt/Comfort, Asexual Sherlock, Bottom Sherlock, Jealous Sherlock, Established Relationship, Top John, Bisexual John, Friendship, Angry John, John-centric) – John wakes in hospital having lost his memory – how does Sherlock explain their life together? "...he was tall. OF COURSE he was tall. Why couldn't John have a short boyfriend?! (Or a girlfriend! John thought rebelliously. Why couldn't I wake up with a beautiful woman telling me we were TOGETHER together?!)" A little bit of everything - hurt John, action John, soft John, wanker John, their first time together, the (hopefully not) last time they were together, the whole love story we all love so much and the truth about Major Sholto.
A Thing With Peas by khorazir (M, 39,537 w., 3 Ch. || Post-S3/Post-TLD/TFP Doesn't Exist, Fluff and Angst, Communication, Demisexual Sherlock, Asexuality, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Pining, Idiots in Love, Friends to Lovers, Developing Relationship, Implied / Referenced Drug Use, Parentlock, First Kiss) – Sherlock does the laundry. John cooks a thing with peas. They talk. Finally.
Quarantine by wendymarlowe (T, 53,950 w., 200 Ch. || PODFIC AVAILABLE || Coronavirus / Quarantine, John’s Blog, Asexual Sherlock, Slow Burn, Epistolary, Developing Relationship, Real Time, Case Fic) – John and Sherlock are stuck at 221B together due to coronavirus concerns. Sherlock slowly drives John barmy. [TRANSLATIONS: Русский]
Indecorous by Basingstoke (E, 55,424 w., 25 Ch. || Asexual Sherlock, Bondage, Squirting, Hangover, Nightmares, PTSD, Threesome [J/S/Mary], Triggers) – In which John learns to balance a kinky girlfriend, an asexual boyfriend, a ten-inch cock, his sister, the neighbours, his friends, and his blog. Some are more balanced than others. Part 2 of the Yes Yes Yes series || Part 23 of the Author’s Favorites series
Something Unusual, Something Strange by viklikesfic (E, 56,521 w., 14 Ch. || Threesome w/ Lestrade, Asexuality, Trans Character, Genderfluid Character, Bisexuality, BDSM, Polyamory, Developing Relationship, Aftercare, Service Submission, Protectiveness, Sounding, Punching, Rope Bondage, Negotiation, Power Exchange, Safe Words) - Because really, how can you explain a polyamorous relationship consisting of an asexual domme, a gay sub, and a vanilla bisexual?
Communication by ohlooktheresabee (E, 60,835 w., 7 Ch. || Friends to Lovers, Miscommunication, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Angst with Happy Ending, Vulnerable Sherlock, Undernegotiated Kink, Demisexuality, Asexual Relationship, First Kiss, Consent Issues, Panic Attacks, Anxiety, Aftercare, No Aftercare, Implied / Referenced Drug Addiction, Relationship Issues, Bad BDSM Etiquette, Dom / Sub undertones, Sexual Inexperience, Vanilla Kink, John is a Bit Not Good, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Heavy Angst, Eventual Fluff, Therapy, Love) – Sherlock and John finally make the leap from friends to lovers, but skip the discussion beforehand. That’s what makes it fun and sexy, right? WRONG. Both eager to please the other, but both making too many assumptions, Sherlock and John make a few missteps before they finally manage to reach an understanding. Or: An exploration of navigating relationships and intimacy when you're asexual, but don't know what that means... YET.
To Be Human by ohlooktheresabee (NR, 78,437 w., 13 Ch. || Post-THoB, Graphic Violence, Synesthesia, Case Fic, Serial Killers, Kidnapping, BAMF John, Sherlock is a Mess, Asexuality/Demisexuality, Torture, Protective John, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Angst, Medical Procedures, Queerplatonic Relationships, Asperger Syndrome, Thriller, Insecure Sherlock, Touching, Caring John, Affection, Hurt Sherlock, Touch Starvation) – There is a serial killer on the loose with a penchant for collecting the brains of his victims. Sherlock, John and Scotland Yard are on the case, but something about the chosen victims has Sherlock on edge. While they piece together the clues that will lead to the killer, John begins to realize that the way his best friend thinks may sometimes be more a hindrance than a help...
Thermocline by J_Baillier (M, 83,557 w., 14 Ch. || Scuba Diving AU || Adventure, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Marine Archaeology, Asexual Sherlock, Horny John, Relationship Drama, Technical/Scuba/Wreck Diving, Slow Burn, Underwater / Medical Peril, Doctor John, Hurt Sherlock, Anxious Sherlock, John POV, Protective John, Body Appreciation) – John "Five Oceans" Watson — technical dive instructor, dive accident analyst and weapon of mass seduction — meets recluse professor of maritime archaeology Holmes. As they head out to a remote archipelago off the coast of Guatemala to study and film its shipwrecks for a documentary, will sparks fly or fizzle out?
It's All Okay by nadie2 (M, 110,959 w., 61 Ch. || Pre-Canon AU || Asexual Sherlock, Idiots in Love, Bisexual John, Bisexual Greg, Misunderstandings, Fluff and Angst, Awkwardness, Slow Burn, Friends to Lovers, Unrequited Love, Romance, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with Happy Ending, Teen Sherlock, Substance Abuse, Suicidal Thoughts, Coming Out, Mental Health Issues, Big Brother Mycroft, Grief/Mourning) – Sherlock Holmes would never understand why people could be interested in dull things like emotions and friends in a world which also contained microbes, cryptography, and the great mystery of internal organs. That final mystery, in fact, was what at handed him in the psychologist’s office for long dull tests and questions in the first place.
Of Ice and Men by SinceWhenDoYouCallMe_John (E, 176,906 w., 20 Ch. || Olympics AU || Paralympics, Prosthesis, Disability, Established Relationship, Threesome - Johnlockstrade, Angst with Happy Ending, Coming Out, Secret Relationship, Asexual Sherlock, Pilot John) – Greg wants Sherlock to win his first Olympic Gold medal. Sherlock wants John to win his first Olympic Gold medal. John wants Greg to come to bed wearing all four of his Olympic Gold medals, and you didn't really think this would be that terribly serious after reading that title, did you? Bundle up, it's a Winter Olympics OT3!
You're more than what happened to you (Over teatime) by writing5ever (T, 4,377+ w., 4/5 Ch. || WiP || Character Study, Tea, Developing Relationship, Asexual Sherlock, Implied Childhood Sexual Abuse, Drug Use, Four and One) – Four Times John and Sherlock talk about feelings over tea. And One time where they don't have to. - OR - a character study on Sherlock Holmes done through a plotless storyline.
It Takes a Village by Lock_John_Silver (M, 6,118+ w., 3/11 Ch. || WiP || Alternate Occupations Universe || Hairdresser Sherlock, Writer John, POV Alternating, Established Relationship, Bisexual John, Asexual Sherlock, Secrets, Light Angst, Domestic Fluff, Tragedy, Grief / Mourning, Trauma, Parenthood, Miscommunication, Minor Character Death, Car Accidents, Hurt/Comfort, Hair Braiding, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Back Story, Cooking / Baking, Dogs, Misunderstandings, Adoption, Brotherly Love, Languages, Humour, Family Dynamics, Slow Dancing, Intercrural Sex, Endearments, Marriage Proposal, Blow Jobs, Wedding Rings, London, Drawing Research, Christmas, Music, Emotional Sex, Bickering, Idiots in Love, Found Family) – Sherlock is alone in his hair salon, tidying up after some hectic weeks. Most of the work is muscle memory, allowing his thoughts to wander freely. Unsurprisingly, they opt to relive his first meeting with John, which took place in this very establishment. Years later, the man is still an enigma to Sherlock, and he's no closer to deducing John's secret, but when the bell over the salon door chimes, announcing new customers, the mystery solves itself, and Sherlock's heart is about to break.
Bonded Series by ClaireBHypno (M, 20,602+ w. across 2 works || Series WiP || Omegaverse || Omega John, Alpha Sherlock, Bonding, Broken John, Whump, Mpreg) – John and Sherlock are childhood friends, and when Sherlock has to go away to school, they decided to bond to ensure they can stay together. Because they are young, and do not know that sex is a part of the bonding process, the bite appears to be harmless, and events that follow on lead to both boys forgetting their attempt. Years later, John and Sherlock come together again as flatmates, but neither realises the other is the boy he knew from childhood. John's heats have always been suppressed because of his pseudo-bond with Sherlock, but he has always simply thought he is broken. Sherlock has always been asexual, but proximity to his bonded Omega sets fire to his libido, and it is only a matter of time until the two of them will end up in bed... triggering the rest of the bonding process.
What Makes Us Rich Series by flawedamythyst (E, 31,537 w. across 2 works || Asexual Sherlock) – Sherlock attempts an experiment and John gives something up.
Chaos and Codependency - A Case Study by SincerelyChaos (E, 59,394+ w., 15/? Ch. || WiP || Mental Health Issues, Developing Relationship, Codependency, Autism Spectrum, Internalized Homophobia, Light Dom/Sub, Asexuality Spectrum, PTSD, Falling in Love, Kink Negotiation, BPD, ADHD, Past Drug Addiction, Under-Negotiated Kink, Awkward Sex, Sensory Processing Disorder, Implied Self-Harm, Complicated Relationship) – In which love is not a solution, codependency might not always be the worst option and chaos is slightly similar to 'sense of belonging'. This is perhaps a love story, but it's also a story that attempts to illustrate psychological or psychiatric terms and theories. Most of all, it's a story about how two people attempt love when they are not quite prepared for it.
The Chemist by TheGracefulBlueCat (M, 166,803 w., 49/? Ch. || WiP || TLD Fix-It, Drug Use and Withdrawal, Hurt/Comfort, Doctor John, Protective Mycroft, Sick Sherlock, Medical Procedures, Grief/Mourning, Sherlock’s Mind Palace, Nightmares, Mental Health Issues, Victorian Sherlock, Asperger’s Sherlock, Sherlock Is Not Okay, Papa Lestrade, Drunkenness, Autistic Sherlock, Synesthesia, Insecure Sherlock, Angst, Sick Fic, Case Fic, Asylums) – Sherlock returns to Baker Street and faces detox. But he feels too exhausted and bad to go through it fully conscious, so he - once more - uses his mind palace to distract him with an old case. But due to his drug issues and the tension between him and John things don’t work as smoothly as everyone hoped they would, confronting Sherlock and all his friends with more of their demons than they would have liked to.
All is Violent, All is Bright Series by randomquadballpun (T, 205,645+ w. across 3 works || Dystopian / Augmented Reality Future AU || Depression, Hallucinations, First Meeting, Canon-Typical Violence, Bisexual John, Asexual Sherlock, Pining John, Alternating POV, Loosely Follows Show Canon) – The world as we know it is gone. The lands lay barren and all that remains of the places of old are rubble and ruins. The only way out is down. But humankind persists, adapts, evolves and reinvents itself. And underground the cities of old rise once more. Where bunkers developed into settlements, and settlements into towns new alliances were formed. And the world soon begins to wonder who is friend and who is foe. What starts as a fairytale might just evolve into a curse. A curse so realistic that soon no one can tell apart what is truly there and what might just be an illusion. And far above it all, storms and rain continue to beat down on the hostile wastelands. Nature is ever so uncaring about who might fall next. This is the story of Sherlock and John in a futuristic version of London, a city located beneath the ruins of Old London and divided by money, status, technology, concrete and steel. With the help of technology and modern medicine, humans have moved far beyond their inherent biological capabilities. In a world like that, how do you know what is fake and what is real and how do you fight something that might just be all in your head?
Shadow Child by Kourion (M, 289,207+ w., 44/? Ch. || WiP || Aftermath of Violence, Past Abuse, Sharing a Bed, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Injury Recovery, Eating Disorders, Asexual Sherlock, First Person POV) – What the hell does it matter if my words upset him, when he's so obviously out of control? “I think you know what this is. I think you know that you have an eating disorder. And I think you are scared.” Sherlock blinks at me, his throat still swallowing. He has a wild look in his eyes that I don't like, so I push back against my chair, stand up, and go towards him.