do you mean barty crouch sr by bcsr??? because omg plz tell me what you think about sirius’s relationship w him, i find the crouches so interesting, i would love to hear about that
YESS i LOVE you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont actually know how much of what i imagine for them can be fit into canon/is canon but like sglkfd.
so barty jr and sirius probably met during their childhood i think, bcjr was intelligent and well mannered and a respectable kid in sirius' age range, and ofc there's the hc that he was close friends w regulus, too. i hc he was pretty distant w bcjr himself but i just knoww sirius 'daddy issues' black needed everyone's parents' approval. orion was a negligent asshole sawr i think its a pretty valid course of action yk
and ofc bcsr loved him !! he was intelligent, he was quick, he was charming, well mannered, all the shit he wishes his bastard of a son was. and barty sr is a bit manipulative too yk he would definitely try to steal sirius away from his family and friends because he knows what sirius needs.
and like !! bcsr. he knows his son is death eater, he does use sirius as a replacement. he doesnt hide it, either, which he thinks justifies using a very obviously traumatized young boy to forget about the guilt in his heart about abusing, traumatizing and neglecting his own son. that being said, he gives sirius the watered down version of abuse his parents do - which sirius has grown comfortable enough with. that being said, the main reason sirius ran away isnt there: he's not a supporter of voldemort. he's actively fighting against him. (also hehe i hc walburga as bipolar so sirius is just happy he doesnt have a timebomb in the house 24/7) (or at least the timebomb doesnt explode around him !!). bcsr still mentions who sirius should associate himself with, still is disappointed when he doesnt get a good grade (an E instead of an O), he yells at sirius, maybe he raises a hand at him too - but at the end of the day sirius finds him justified because he's the one who took sirius under his wing, and is helping him, and is nice to him, and this is really what parents do to their children, right?
here is also when the post comes in btw: bcsr feels entitled to sirius' life, his idea of a parent/child relationship is ownership, and unfortunately that's sirius' view of it too, but bcsr is a lot calmer and quieter than walburga, he cares more than orion - to sirius its really the best of both worlds. bcsr wants sirius to go in politics which sirius does not want because he already has whatever career he's chosen for himself, and bcsr feels it necessary that sirius follow his - his own son wont.
bcsr does need sirius, he confides in him, he loves him (in his own fucked up way). sirius moves on, he runs away and gets farther and farther away from everything that reminds him of Before and feels resentment that bcsr (a man who he's considered his strongest father figure for years) doesn't even reach out to him once. bcsr feels that its a child's responsibility to reach out every time - he feels betrayed that sirius didn't runaway to him, that he didnt even know sirius had runaway till someone told him in passing. the letters they exchanged come to an abrupt end and it just feels like everything ended in the middle of it yk. barty crouch sr doesnt see sirius till sirius is arrested, soon after his own bio son is x
(also, yes sirius does still have the potters, but the potters are a completely different world to him. he's not used to that kind of completely unconditional love, he's not used to seeing how they shower their heir son in love. its a little bittersweet, it feels like a fantasy, sirius feels like he's intruding, he feels resentment to james for being raised with parents who love him and ofc he doesnt want that so he finds solace elsewhere. he thinks the potters are angels on earth, his relationship with bcsr is what the normal parent/child relationship is for him. if walburga and orion are a 10 on the scale of what sirius considers to be 'bad parents', euphemia and fleamont are in the negative. bcsr falls somewhere in the middle, like a 2 or 3 to sirius. to bcjr, sirius can recognize, that bcsr is horrible. he yells, may hit, he's permanently disappointed when they do interact. they barely ever do - bcsr is always busy, he makes special time for sirius (which makes sirius giddy bc wowzers am i that important?) which cuts out even more time from bcsr and bcjr to interact. ofc bcsr is horrible to sirius, too, but sirius doesnt recognise it. what regulus was to walburga is what sirius is to bcsr. also, bcsr calls sirius son and he doesnt call bcjr son. sirius is lowk a homewrecker i love him.).
'RUNNING' BY NF BUT IT'S BARTY AND HIS DAD IN THE YEARS AFTER HIS MUM DIES
"I love you but not enough to allow you to continue to drown the both of us, you're
Holding me back, you're pulling me down, you're making me hate myself, I
Don't wanna leave, but that's what I need, I ain't got a choice, I can't just
Let you deceive and make me believe that I don't deserve to be loved
I am not gonna stand aside
And watch you attempt to rob and steal and sabotage
What little faith I have left, yeah, haven't I sacrificed enough for you?
Hate seeing you cry, but I think it's time to let go and say our goodbyes
Yeah, I'm gonna miss you, but I am not gonna spend the rest of my life running
From you
Spent my whole life in your shadow
Scared of who I'd be if I
Said goodbye and I didn't have you here
I wish you well but I can no longer stand aside
And watch you sabotage the two of us
I love you to death, but I can't spent the rest of my
Life in this darkness, I'm done
I'm done"
SCREAMING FROM THE ROOFTOPS I NEED YALL TO HEAR ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
the summer camp i love working at, BCSR, actually has the stuff to make stained glass art. i’m surprised they have it, since they’re a non profit. Most of their art stuff is donated. i’m also surprised they have it, because letting 12-15 year olds near buckeye of broken glass sounds like a disaster waiting to happen
I don’t know what 16 yr old needs to hear this but you DO NOT want to go to Bard College at Simon’s Rock. I will literally beg you not to go. It is not a safe place, it is not a supportive place.
You will be geographically isolated, the student body is so small that if anything happens that results in you wishing to avoid even just one person, it is almost impossible.
Adult upperclassmen will and do prey on minors with virtually no consequences. A petition was just put forth to remove their current title ix coordinator, including student stories of manipulation and further harm caused BY the coordinator.
Systems in place that supposedly support and protect students are useless. I was told there was no emergency rooming available so “could you figure something out on your own?” This was after MONTHS of already sleeping on the floors of my friends. When I finally reached out for help they said sorry, there’s nothing we can really do until after the break. Can you fix it urself? I stayed in a dorm I couldn’t even access from the outside after 9pm.
I was a bystander during a call for help situation. A student was having a drug related crisis and I was heavily involved in getting this student help, I stayed with them as we waited for on call staff to arrive and I did not leave their side until they were loaded into an ambulance. I was followed up with ONCE, informally while eating breakfast. I didn’t even consider looking for staff support after I was triggered following this situation when I found a group of first term 15-16 yr old girls drunk, who told me a second year student gave them the alcohol before a function.
I left this school after one school year, but I wanted to leave after one week. And my experience isn’t even remotely as bad compared to others.
DO NOT go to this school. If you are a student in the US, look into dual enrollment at your local CC, or get ur GED and enroll at ur CC. If possible, STAY at ur high school. BCSR should be your absolute LAST resort. I know plenty of queer students who were attracted to the idea of being away from toxic school and family situations only to find themselves in an isolated environment that was toxic in different ways. I don’t know other options for international students, but please do not isolate yourself to this hell hole.
I know my pinned post says DNI minors but I WILL make an exception for this. If you are considering this school, send me a message. It is largely not worth the pain you and your peers will experience.
