#becausehelives

[crochetcouch]

Because He Lives Afghan  Pattern available at:  https://thecrochetcouch.com/inspirational-afghan/because-he-lives

[yourgiftisgrace]

[theeternalinvestigator]

Provo City Center Temple (June 21, 2019)

[saintsandsuicide]

anyone want to compare patriarchal blessings? i’m curious about just how generic mine is...

[patriarichalgrip-blog]

[theeternalinvestigator]

Books, Baptism and Disapproval.

Well I'm pretty much decided to be baptized. In fact the missionaries and I have picked out a date for mw to work towards. (Which I will exlude until a few details are worked out). I took the step recently to tell my parents I was meeting with missionaries and they weren't happy, but the respected my decision and and thanked me for being honest with them.

I didn't tell them though that I am ready to be baptized into the church. I still am terrified of the conflict, I can handle the dissaproval, but I am petrified of creating a rift between my current amazing relationship with them.

I just keep praying that I can tell them soon enough. As for now I will just keep working towards my date.

[theeternalinvestigator]

I think the hardest thing I've been dealing with the church is the worship. I come from a church where worship was half of the entire service, where it was loud joyful and glorious. You could stand, sit, dance whatever you wanted. The music was full of the spirit, the singer's we're passionate with the love of Christ. We sang with all of our hearts, our hands held up high, you didn't feel uncomfortable for having a crappy voice.

Now we sit and sometimes joyfully sing to the sound of organ. It's miserable.

I can't explain it. But starting off the service this way is just turning me away from the church. Half the time after singing I want to leave or I start crying while we're singing and not because I'm happy... I'm not sure why this is such a challenge for me.

[theeternalinvestigator]

Why am I so scared of converting. I'm terrified. But with no real reason to be. I started investigating more than three years ago. I have felt my testimony and love the church, I believe the Book of Mormon, Smith, the temple and the ordinances but I just can't seem to make the leap. I use my parents opposition to the church as a flat out excuse not to convert. I use the idea of modesty and my difference of opinion as an excuse. I use the judgement of others as an excuse. But when it comes down to it, I know I feel the spirit with the church, whenever I visit and walk the temple grounds. I want to be sealed to my husband and know my family is eternal. I want all of that. So why do I fear. Please, I need help and advice. I'm tired of feeling my heart being torn in half.