#bill w

[sdhqmemories]

Victoire getting her hair done by Fleur. Taken by Bill, April 2005.

[mikefrawley]

Sometimes the good is the enemy of the best.

Bill W

[ask-the-anonymous-poster]

"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you are the world."

Bill Wilson

February 20th

2020

[cinematic-literature]

True Detective S03E06 (Hunters in the Dark)

Book title: Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions (1952) by Bill W. 

[edawgfire]

Never give up ❤❤❤

[alienk1ng]

Left to right.

Far left: 24hr A.A. chip.

Middle top: Newcomer N.A keytag.

Middle bottom: Newcomer H.A. keytag chip.

Far right: 30 day A.A. chip.

I got my 30 day A.A. chip today, and I wont lie, I didn't want to go to a meeting tonight. I just eantrd to sit st the halfway house and relax. Kick my feet up, watch a movie, bullshit with the guys, you know....just unwind. But I convinced myself to go. I am so glad I did too. People might think these chips/keytags are corner but it isn't to me. They are a reminder(and I absolutely do need to be constantly reminded.) that I am on the right path, although I didnt want to go to A.A. today I made, and am fulfilling my comittment to recovery. My 24 hour chip came from the first meeting I ever went to, it was a hospitals and institutions A.A. meeting held downstairs in the hospital that I did my inpatient at. I continue to go there every week, tonight I picked up my 30 day chip from that same meeting. I dont think I will make 90 meetings in 90 days like they suggest, but am going to a meeting almost every night. I havent get found a sponsor which they also suggest, I haven't really seeked one out, but I will. I haven't really done stepwork besides admitting my life has become unmanageable. I have been able to devote more time and energy toward my spiritual practices. I have been meditating. I am doing very well mentally, spirually, and emotionally. I have made great improvement, but there is so much more work to be done.

UPDATE: I have now received my 30 day N.A. keytag, as well as my 30 day H.A.

I hate patting myself on the back, but this is something I am genuinely proud of. I didn't think it was ever going to be possible to be happy with the idea of never using drugs again. Ive had clean time, but even then I knew one day I was going to be able to get high again. Not anymore. I dont ever want to. I am motivated, and I finally accept the fact that I can not, and will not ever be able to take drugs responsibly(pain medications for real pain.) I know that if I start I will not stop until I am stopped.(if that makes sense) I definitely would not survive another run. And I thank my higher power every day for giving me my beautiful girlfriend, the mother of my daughter, my soulmate. I know that if there was no higher power we never would have even met. Something beyond our understanding brought us together. And someone/something was definitely watching over us and protecting us when I crashed the car. The fact that we did not lose her in that car accident, and that Anna was able to walk away from it with very minor injuries(scratches and bruises) s nothing short of a miracle. Ivy was born happy and healthy. And Anna and Ivy are what give me that push to be the best father, and the best husband I can be. So these little milestones like 30 days clean, they mean a lot to me.

[thesoberbitch]

Yaaaas

[theoldtimemoan]

Jon & Bill W.