byler being queerbaiting is so frustrating and i just. want to never ship another gay ship again but. honestly i fear its my nature to be baited.....
the problem is that gay relationships in tv that are spelled out to be gay immediately and don't get the will they won't they push pull misunderstandings deeply intense friendship evolving naturally and passionately into romance thing are always soooo boring.
i love friends to lovers. i love will they won't they. i love slowburns. i love characters not acting on their attraction to each other for so long it makes you scream. i love an internalized homophobia arc. i love characters fucking up and hurting people because they can't accept their sexuality.
like idk there's types of ships can sometimes be cool as a novelty thing ig. i will appreciate what it is but it just isn't interesting.
like i was excited when i was a kid and found out glee was letting kurt kiss boys and santana kiss girls (crazy that glee is better rep than ANYTHING let alone ST which was supposed to be good, but here we are) but i always find those dynamics super plain otherwise.
they just don't scratch the itch for me, they lack all of the things that make a ship interesting to me. like personally i've never watched a show where the gay couple was a sure thing from the jump and been like, ah, yes, this is done so well, how romantic. they just always move so fast and when they're kept apart its always by something very arbitrary or annoying to watch ngl.
its the yearning.....the uncertainty.... the coding and longing glances and the intensity of the relationship. gay relationships that are spelled out immediately always feel so much more tell than show.
they're heavy handed and introduce problems into the relationship that aren't interesting to watch like cheating or petty arguments just for them to have something to do. they stop focusing on building the friendship and focus only on either the sexual aspect or the gooey aspect. there's no chemistry because they aren't friends. they're crushes too quickly. they move through the milestones like a checklist and there's nothing really to like... care about? when they do?
idk. it is just unfortunate that the choice is always ambiguous/queerbait, tragic, or boring & surface level. just once i want a will they/ won't they where they actually do and don't get punished by the narrative just for being gay. but whatever. god forbid ig
