#disjointed thoughts

[muddy-pawprints-on-my-mp3-player]

Something something Coalition Of Iron. something something iron being the last element stars can fuse atoms into before they run out of crushing power. something something blood carrying iron and carrying us with it, iron & steel being humanity’s biggest technological discovery after fire. Something something ruling with an iron fist. something something Simon, nameless, in a sea of blood in a failing lung of iron carrying the seed of a new universe like an embryo.

[thecatcherintherye]

“Here in the US, people beg you to vote for the democrats every 4 years to ‘save democracy.’ Then, when the democrats are in power, they have the same repressive and regressive policies as the Republicans or even worse. If you point that out, those people will tell you that’s the way things are and that presidents can’t do everything. 4 years will pass and they will beg for you to vote blue no matter what and swear the they will actually do everything they promised 4 years ago. You are also bashed for caring about people of other countries. They think having a black south asian woman as president will solve everything because they view everything as a Barbie Marvel co-production and you can’t point that out because then they label you as a racist woman-hating homophobe transphobe who hates all minorities and is to blame for everything and will be blamed for everything that will happen no matter which of the two bourgeois parties are in power”

[thecouncil-aac]

Hello, welcome to The Council's AAC-oriented sideblog! We're a plural system (main blog is @thecouncilofidiots) who uses plural they/it pronouns and are 21+

We are verbalflux due to language/speaking skill regression caused by schizophrenia. We have disjointed/disorganized speech/thoughts, as well as speech loss episodes. We are autistic, which influences our speech capabilities, but isn't significantly impactful. However, we do have selective mutism due to chronic anxiety (managed by anti-anxiety medication), and non-vox alters

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[no-nic]

im sooo intruiged by the konoha spin-off of that kakasaku au... and also by the actual au tbh. are sasuke+ naruto still in konoha? what role does rin play in konoha's politics? is she a jounin sensei? what was the team minato dynamic like without kakashi? how do sakura and kakashi's lives go? how weird is rin being about interpersonal relationships (if she has any)? and id be interested to hear pretty much anything about this au lol feel free to infodump :3

⭐️ i have. a lot to say ⭐️

point of divergence?

at first i wanted to swap sakumo with a kiri shinobi. then i realized, nothing ever changes. one man doesn't start or stop a war. he didn't change the system. fandom misconception: apparently sakumo gets blamed for a mission that started a war? what are timelines? who said that? i know that when one is writing a fic it's easy to conspiracy-brain this & say something like "root sabotaged the mission" to keep sakumo like... "perfect"? or that danzo for some reason staged his death? we're just adding crimes to the old man's portfolio huh sakumo's kiri existence leads to sakura's parents -- in this they are civilian merchants -- settling in the land of water and having a child earlier. let's say they are originally from around wave. they are fairly shinobi-positive: "our bloodthirsty little girl wants to learn to stab people? okay sweetie :)" ...sakura may or may not have younger siblings (who remain civilians) i'm keeping some fun sakumo & kakashi material to myself for now ^^

topics to explore in the future:

[story] sword legacies, expectations

[meta] girls with big weapons

[meta & story] lack of tragic backstory for sakura

meanwhile in konoha

let's be real, you're here because of rin. some of this is just my unwillingness to derail canon too much. rin follows canon kakashi's path: anbu, maybe a short stint in root, jonin, some more anbu work alongside visible jonin missions, and finally jonin-sensei! she doesn't spend hours staring at the memorial stone; she carries everything on her. she stares at people. all the time. sometimes hidden with genjutsu, sometimes just standing there like a statue. blink goes the sharingan. don't mind her. canon kakashi came to meet his new team late; rin was standing in the (ceiling) corner since early morning

don't worry, she still has terrible identity issues; the shared eyeball stuff really messed her up. "i will see the future through you" but twice. she is team 7 now. there's a monologue about team roles brewing in her head, you can bet edo tensei'd minato will hear it as soon as he leaves the coffin! hiroto (our hyuga oc; born to rage and die) & obito bring major "fuck the clans" energy.

rin sees the aftermath of eyeball politics:

fact: obito voluntarily gave a body part to an allied combatant (who previously lost an eye)

was obito's body his to give away? or does it belong to his village? or his clan?

decision: hiroto can keep the sharingan but he's on thin ice

fact: hiroto later gave the same body part to another allied combatant

fact: rin was part of the original team, obito's other friend, so she's someone who could have received the eye then if the situation was a tiny bit different

suddenly it's all "would obito want rin to have the sharingan?" and "we don't know that", obito's decision is now the law, not hiroto's, so please give it back to the uchiha

thankfully obito's dying words weren't "go be hokage"; she would burn the hat

decision: rin can keep the sharingan but can't even think about gifting it to anyone else, since her original team is gone (and minato doesn't want it)

when the uchiha die, rin's first thought is "who gets to keep the eyeballs?"

(answer: danzo. probably)

rin has a complicated relationship with being a medic. as in, she refuses to be called that anymore. when she meets tsunade it's going to get messy -- whether it's upon waking from the itachi mind torture special or not. “no medic ninja shall ever die until they are the last of their platoon” <- all-consuming Rage 🔥

most of rin's relationships are... weird. people think she's weird; she agrees, but their reasons are so wrong. (someone misunderstanding rin? never seen that before...) however she has a best friend, who deserves a whole separate post. who is it? not that hard to guess, but very hard to describe what they have going on. that relationship is built. they could feature in any "siblings or dating?" game. the answer is obviously neither. (most adult interactions to be fleshed out later)

topics to explore in the future:

[meta & story] seals & flying thunder god jutsu

[story] what to do with a sharingan

[story] Not A Medic

[story] from terrible misunderstandings to mutual character growth

next generation

rin-sensei gets team 7: naruto, sasuke & third character (anime only, so not quite an oc). sakura is very lucky to Not Be There yeah, this too is getting its own post later. not much material yet

#pink tsunami au; the konoha spinoff is taking form

[foxy-aac]

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What a limitation of AAC you wish was "fixed"?

Wish AAC help with brain scramble, sometimes hard for use when can't put sentence right... is why prefer low tech and phrase buttons instead build sentence

DNI anti-endo/sysmeds, radqueer/transID, queerphobes, ableism, saneism, hostility

[psychotic-system-culture-is]

Psychotic System Culture is...

Not realizing until way later that you may be having a psychotic episode

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Since going on meds, we haven't really had any delusions or hallucinations

Today, however, they've been cropping up here and there (primarily auditory and visual)

Plus, there were several hours during which we had disjointed/disorganized thoughts/speech - which is fairly "normal", but it had worsened to the point of being noticeable even by someone who doesn't usually notice these things

I don't know... we don't FEEL like we're having an episode

But we are so new to our psychosis that we don't know what our baseline is

:(

I have more to say, but the thoughts are sliding back to incoherence, so we should go to sleep

[lokiinmediasideblog]

Random disjointed thought, but is it me, or does MCU!Loki (especifically/most notably) in the Avengers (2012) movie, have A LOT of similarities to Dracula and it's not just the pasty skin and jet-black hair. I think this is most likely due to villain queer-coding.

Loki used the scepter on other men, has a multiple "Renfields", and it feels coded similarly to biting. Avengers (2012), is technically a "What if the West gets invaded?" narrative, a popular narrative in Victorian literature such as Dracula and War of the Worlds.

[dowagergreen]

look i know i’ve seen a lot of edits with would’ve could’ve should’ve for a.licent and v.iserys. very valid. but has anyone considered the second verse of high infidelity bc.... 

storm coming good husband, bad omen dragged my feet right down the aisle  at the house lonely, good money  i’d pay if you’d just know me seemed like the right thing at the time you know there’s many different ways that you can kill the one you love the slowest way is never loving them enough