#visual hallucinations

[masquerade-flags]

Could I get a mixed hallucinations flag for visual, tactile, and auditory? Please and thanks

with and without this hallucinations symbol the colors are just a mix of the other flags

[theangryfaerie]

Trying to figure out what I think is mentally wrong with me and I’m not having a fun time. I don’t want to have my child growing up with a parent that’s all fucked up.

Went down the rabbit hole of BP with psychotic features. I match some but not all of the criteria. I don’t think I experience true mania or hypo mania, but damn, do I experience the mood swings but on a shorter term scale.

Looked at Schizophrenia, not a match for most.

Psychosis, a lot more matches, but hallucinations, grandiose ideas, and paranoia match a lot of different mental illnesses as a symptom rather than its own diagnosis.

OCD, feels like I’m getting closer. I overthink myself into panic attacks. I’ll overthink small insignificant things people say, until I spiral. I have rituals I have to do or I’ll think about it all day or night. I have to clean things a certain way. If I touch something I deem gross, my arms/hands/whatever will feel different than the one that didn’t touch it until I wash myself. I’m quick to anger when things are done in a way that I do them bc that’s more work for me to have to redo them.

I’ve also been looking at when people are usually diagnosed as well, age range wise. How common it is to be a comorbidity with Autism. I love research but this feels a little more like hell than research. I want to have a better understanding of what I think is wrong with me, so if I get help, maybe they won’t misdiagnose me. I just hate being on meds and I’m scared of losing myself.

Not all of my hallucinations are bad. The physical ones of being grabbed are bad. The ones where I see hands reaching for my child on the monitor are bad. The hearing my name called when it’s just me and my child is unnerving, but liveable.

The paranoia feels like it keeps me safe. I’m more cautious and I hardly break the rules because of it.

The grandiose ideas I could do without. I’m not a main character, I’m not some alien hybrid or not quite human creature meant to change the world. I’m a human, trying to survive late stage capitalism. (And having horrible time about it.)

What if when I go to someone they try and toss me into a psych ward? My family can’t afford me to be off of work. I’m the breadwinner. I may be potentially MAD but I’m not a danger to others so I don’t want to be put in a psych ward.

[dallomi]

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[spread-your-wings-love]

Dear exquisite human beings,

Today I gave myself permission to rest reminding me that even though I have to deal with schizoaffective disorder type depression I can give myself compassion especially when I find myself starting to argue with the voices in my head about their disgusting, disturbing and disregulating content but I also know thats what fuels the negative voices in my head so by talking back and becoming more aggravated it increases the symptoms that I hate the most and that is a hard pill to swallow. So this evening instead of talking back I will embrace the peace of mind I am capable of receiving as I struggle to maneuver the world around me for when my symptoms are more present. Today may not have been a perfect day but today I was able to recognize that not only is surrender is a key component to my recovery from my eating disorder and substance abuse disorder but it is a key component to living with Schizoaffective Disorder type depression. Today I can also recognize that each day I wake up eating disorder behavior free, each day I wake up clean and sober, and each day I wake up feeling rested and ready for another day is something I should be proud of. I have experienced what I thought would be my worst days in life and I am here to prove that I can do hard things and still come through on the other side with self-compassion and compassion for others, self-love and love of others, and finally a stronger sense of self that also allows me to be me instead of being who others want me to be. In conclusion I say this do not let your diagnosis keep you in a box that others in your life can use against you because you are far more then just your diagnosis.

[just-another-yan]

Visual hallucinations are so weird sometimes like WTF DO YOU MEAN WHY IS EVERYTHING GREENISH BLUE WTFF

[suusaido-pareeedo]

sleep deprivation might actually be making me crazy because i keep staring at the wall and enjoying what the colourful static makes. sometimes it's waves, sometimes it's thick parallel lines, it's nice

[spidersinthecorner]

my hallucinations are getting worse

[kingofkingsschizo]

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