Now you're just somebody that i used to know (part 2)
Warnings: Angst, very much angst, talk about traumas, about trust, lies, Vergil being emotionally constipated, brief mentions of V, Reader's gender is not specified, minor smut but nothing major, Mentions of violence (Reader hits Vergil), Canon divergency. English is not my first language so apologize any mispellings. DO NOT FEED MY WORK INTO AI, I DO NOT ALLOW YOU TO, I WILL SUE YOU. The dividers were catched from Pinterest but if you're the true owner please comment for the credits
Weeks passed since that day...Since i lost V and the return of Vergil came to be
I choosed to stay away, Nero understood better than no one else (or so i like to think) and Dante even tried to explain and even apologize for something it wasn't his fault
But the pain, it was too fresh...It lingered on my skin like a disease, one i had no cure to
I decided to comeback home, to the memories of something that was supposed to last. My house was by the outskirts of Fortuna, it was simple and modest but it was home either way
Unlocking the door, the first thing i miss is the smell of herbal tea and the faint sound of turning pages...I stay at the door, my mind plays the memory like a movie
The camomile tea's hot in the stove, i finished making the dinner and leave the kettle on the turned off stove...Walking to the living room, V's reading another book and his nose a little scrutched in concentration...
I kiss his temple, smiling against his skin
"Your tea's ready, dear...Come to eat with me?" I asked softly
"Of course, my muse...Any poetry can wait while i enjoy the presence of your being" He chuckled softly and closed his book
The memory fades as the door closes behind me, the eco seems louder than ever
I notice the piles and piles of books, the twin mugs that rested on the clean sink...Mine was a black one and V was the white one, we shared drinks and he used to caress my hair as he read me poetry in bed
Walking by the house felt like walking in a ghost town...Memories of someone who's not there...
I hesitated at the bedroom door
My hands shaked and my eyes glossy...It was painfull, maybe i was a damn masochist
I opened the door, the scent knocks out my senses and twists my heart out
The bed was messy...Some clothes on the floor...I approach the bed, my fingers touch the sheets and another bittersweet memory came to me
I moaned and gasped, V's body covered mine and out hands intertwined
"V...Oh God" I hid my face in his neck
"Do not hide, my muse...Let me hear the sounds of our love-making ecooed by your lips" V moaned against my cheek
Our bodies rocked, slowly but deep...V loved missionary...The intimacy it gave us
Love-making...To V, love was the most pure form of art...How two bodies mingled and reached the clímax of pleasure to one another
I moaned and arched my back, feeling his seed filling me up...He kept moving his hips slowly, pumping his seed deeper
"I adore you, my muse...I love and cherish you...Uhm, let me flood you with my seed and my love" He whispered into my skin
I didn't even noticed the tears coming
My body trembled as i sobbed into my hands, each corner of this house was touched and lived and loved by V and me
"You haunt me, my love" I whispered among my sobs
Crawling into the bed, his scent in the sheets makes me sob even more...I curled into a ball, holding his pillow and trying to fill the hole inside my heart and soul
I have no memory of seeing the days passing...
Most of the time I slept, woke up, daydreamed, cried and went to sleep again
It was a painfull cycle...Delirious even
I was mourning in life for a man that maybe i never trully knew...
I only knew part of him, in both literally and figurative sense
My skin felt itchy...My bones popping into place as i rolled in the bed
I felt dirty...Stinking...
The door opened and closed...
"Oh fuck..." Someone mumbled behind me, i didn't had the strenght to look
"The fuck he done to you, sweetie?" A second voice spoke
Someone took me off the bed, my vision blurry so i couldn't see much straight
I was carried to the bathroom, stripped naked and placed in the warm water...I closed my eyes and let myself be washed
"Nero said you went back home...Took us awhile to find your house..." The voice was smooth as hands washed my hair
I slowly opened my eyes, my face cleaned
My gaze meets Trish and Lady's eyes
"You both..." My voice was too hoarse, from the days without use
"Don't. Let us care for you, okay? We hate seeing you like this" Lady reprehends me
I only nodded and let them help me regain some sense of humanity again...
After bathed and dressed, i tried to comb my hair even if my limbs hurted and burned like hell
"Im gonna try and wrap something for you...If the food's still intact" Trish grimaced and left the bedroom
I stared at Lady through the mirror
"No need to thanks...Just...Dante told us how you looked after it all happened" She explained " And how that was probably affecting you but maybe it was even intenser than we thought"
"So everyone knows I'm being a fucked up mess?" My eyes looked down
"Don't talk about yourself like that! You're grieving, you're hurting and is okay-"
"Is NOT okay, Lady!" I exploded in anger for the first time in days
Lady was taken back by that
"I...I-I don't even know if what i had with V was real! Or if what i knew was not HIM fully...Did he ever existed to me?!" I sighed and clenched my fists
The hunter sighed and approached me
"What you and V had...Was real, it was love...He never lied to you, did he? He was fully human and he lived that intensily" She reassured me
I gulped hard, looking at her
"Im sorry im yelled at you" I mumbled
"Is fine, i've heard worst" She gives me a friendly pat on the shoulder
A small smile made it's way to my lips
Me and Lady went to the kitchen, Trish assembled a PB&J for me
"Eh, it was all i could do with the remaining food...Most was rotten already" Trish shrruged
"It's fine, thanks...I'll try and buy some stuff tomorrow, not to starve" I bit into the sandwhich
"Sounds like a good routine...Maybe me and Lady could join you, since Nero and Nico's taking care of everything with his Devil May Cry on wheels"
"And Dante and his brother?" I couldn't bring myself to say his name, or else i might be consumed in anger
"Dante and Vergil went to Hell, to cut the Qliphoth's roots and seal it shut forever" Lady replied
"Dante and his brother are locked in Hell?!" I said baffled
Lady and Trish looked at one another
"For now...They're both stubborn bastards, we have hope they'll comeback" Trish crossed her arms
"What she means is that you shouldn't worry...Think about yourself first before worrying about others problems okay?" Lady tried to change the focus
And she was right...Until moments ago i was drowned in my own depression for days at end, now i was trying to worry myself with Dante's situation?! I was fucking pathetic at this point
I nodded and went back to eat...
When the night falled, Trish and Lady left me to tend for myself but with the promise to go shopping groceries with me tomorrow morning
I decided for a tea, to help me sleep better...I warm up the water and wait the kettle to whistle, picking a tea package
My hands pick a favorite herbal tea, lemon balm...It soothed my sleep when i needed
The door opens behind me, i couldn't hear footsteps
"Trish? Lady? Did you girls forgot-" i turn around
My eyes widen and i drop the white mug...My body flinches as the porcelain smashes on the floor
There stood Vergil...His posture erect, cold and focused eyes...A predator in my kitchen
The words choke themselfs on my throat, speak and acknowledge him would make it all even more real
"Vergil..." The words flow from my lips without consent
The man stays quiet and approaches
The kettle whistles and snaps me out of my shock
I turn off the heat, finally looking away
"You were in Hell" I refused to look at him
"I was, it was simply a small...Predictment" His voice was calm, too colected
I scoffed, grabbing another mug and pouring my tea
"What you want, Vergil?" I asked, a bitter tone soaks my bones
He stays quiet, approaching but not too close
"You were V's human...Mate" He speaks as if the word was poisonous
I turned around, my hands shake and my heart beats on my ears
"I was his partner! I was his muse, his love! We were lovers, do not try to dimish what we were!" I approached Vergil, part of me tired to running like a scared mouse
He only stood there, watching me
"We shared a bed, feelings, plans for the future and even secrets!! But apparently not all of our secrets!! V was the only man i genuinely opened myself to, the only one that saw me for who I was, you do not have the RIGHT to come here and rot the memories i had of him!!" I was yelling at this point
My hand itched and before i could fully register my actions, i slapped his face...I groaned and backed away, my hand red and twitched
Always forget how strong half-demons are
And what annoyed me the most was that Vergil seemed unfazed by my slap, even if his pale skin turned a little pinkish
"Are you done...?" He asks after processing what had happened
"Just say what you want, Vergil and then go away..." I asked of him
The half-demon sighed and approached, cornering me against the counter
"I...I am plagued by you...By V's memories. Memories of your voice, your smile, your scent and...And the way you broke down in pleasure under him, it was all my dreams consisted of during those days in Hell" He spoke, his body tensed and coiled when he confessed that
As if the mere admission of such things would turn him weaker or vulnerable
"I did not lied when i said me and V became one again...All he lived with you, i remember and that...All of that, is part of me now" He whispered hoarse
My eyes were widen in shock
He remembered...He knew...Was he trully mine?
"I will let you heal, Mate...But as you heal, i'll linger until you're ready...To either be mine again or move on as a ghost of us" He vowed to me
Backing away, he used the front door to leave...
I felt like i could finally breath again
Caught in the clutches of a Predator like Vergil...Was I trully eager to escape?
Or did the longing for part of him would make me stay to be devoured?