𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐈𝐓 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐏𝐓. 𝟐 ──── [𝐋.𝐃𝐇] 𓈒 𓈒 𓈒
( 이동혁 ) ; 𝐟𝐞𝗺!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐱 𝐥𝐞𝐞 𝐝𝗼𝐧𝐠𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐜𝐤
──in which your parents had always told you to stay away from boys like haechan. boys with cocky smirks, black eye liner, bruised knuckles, and a reputation that came with warning labels. you never had a reason to listen until you were assigned to tutor him after school. it should have been simple. help him pass, get it over with. but there’s something about him that drew you in, and you didn’t want to pull away.
✦ drama, fluff/angst, slow burn(ish). forbidden love? ; tags. goodgirl!reader x badboy!haechan, suggestive, your parents are literal jerks, swearing, mentions of fighting, kissing !!, protective!haechan, corruption? but not really , lmk if i missed any !
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▸ this is part two and part one can be found here .ᐟ (please read it first)
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your heart in your throat, your breath shallow as your mom stands in front of the both of you in the living room. ironically, the first time haechan was on there. she was watching you and haechan like she's just discovered the most unforgivable thing. the two of you are frozen, your lips still tingling from the kiss that was abruptly interrupted.
"what the hell was going on here?" your mom's voice cuts through the stillness, and you can see the flicker of shock and anger in her eyes. her gaze darts between you and haechan, her lips pressed into a thin line. the tension in the air is suffocating.
haechan steps back, but his eyes don't leave you. he looks like he's about to speak but holds back, his expression shifting into something unreadable.
your mom's gaze flicks from him to you. "this is what i've been worried about," she says, her voice sharp. "you're not a child anymore, but you're making reckless decisions. boys like him-they don't care about you."
your chest tightens. "you don't even know him," you reply, though your voice trembles slightly.
she shakes her head, disbelief written across her face. "i know enough." she takes a step into the room, her eyes narrowing. "you can't see it now, but you will. he's trouble, and if you keep going down this path-"
"mom, stop," you cut in, your voice rising before you can stop it. "this is my choice."
the room is thick with tension. haechan stands silently off to the side, still processing what's happening, his hands balled into fists at his sides. he's been silent, waiting for your mom to finish, but you can see the frustration on his face as she continues.
"you need to leave," your mom commands, her voice icy, cutting through the air like a knife.
haechan takes a breath, his chest rising and falling sharply. he's about to turn away, about to leave, when you step forward.
"wait," you whisper, a sharp sting of regret flooding through you. you didn't want this. you didn't want him to leave-not like this.
haechan stops, turning slowly back toward you, confusion written across his face. he doesn't speak, but the look in his eyes is soft, almost too soft for a situation like this. you take a step closer to him, your heart racing, and in a moment of vulnerability, you wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him into a tight hug.
"i'm sorry," you whisper, your voice barely audible, feeling the heat of his skin against your cheek. the words feel heavier than you expected, like a weight you didn't know you'd been carrying.
for a moment, neither of you moves, just standing there in the fragile silence of your embrace. then, he leans in slightly, his breath warm against your ear as he murmurs, "i'm not going anywhere, you know."
his voice is quiet, but there's a certain determination in it that makes your heart skip a beat. you want to say something, anything, but before you can, your mom interrupts.
"you need to go," she insists, her voice breaking through the moment.
reluctantly, you pull away from haechan, your hands lingering on his shoulders for just a second longer than necessary. you glance at your mom, who's watching you with a look of disappointment, and then back at haechan.
he takes a deep breath, eyes meeting yours one last time. "i’m sorry too," he says softly, his lips curving into a small, wistful smile that only you see.
without another word, he turns toward the door. you watch him leave, the weight of your mom's disapproval heavy in the air. but just before he steps out, he pauses and looks back at you once more, his gaze full of quiet determination. it's a look that says, i'm not giving up on us, even if everything else feels like it's falling apart.
the door clicks softly behind him, and you're left standing there, your heart racing, the silence in the room almost deafening. your mom's disappointment lingers, but you can't shake the feeling that whatever this is with haechan is far from over. "what did i tell you?" your mom's voice cuts through the stillness, sharp and furious. "how did he even get in here? you are grounded for... until i say so! now go to bed. your father and i will deal with you in the morning."
well, fuck.
—
after your mother’s furious words, the weight of reality settles over you. your heart is still racing, your skin still tingling from the way haechan had touched you, but now it’s mixed with something colder. hame, fear, the undeniable knowledge that you’ve been caught.
without another word, you turn on your heel and head to your room, shutting the door a little too forcefully behind you. you lean against it, exhaling shakily, trying to process everything. grounded indefinitely. your parents furious. and yet, all you can think about is the look in haechan’s eyes before he left—the quiet promise, the way he lingered just a second longer, like he didn’t want to leave you behind.
you pace the room, hands running through your hair, restless. you’re supposed to feel regret, supposed to feel ashamed, but instead, something else burns in your chest. defiance. yearning. maybe even something close to a thrill. because for the first time in your life, you aren’t just following the rules. you’re chasing something you actually want.
climbing into bed, you grab your phone from under your pillow, half-expecting a message from haechan. nothing. you sigh, staring at the dark ceiling, but just as you’re about to put your phone away, it vibrates in your palm.
[1:42 am] haechan: you still awake sunshine?
despite everything, a small smile tugs at your lips. you hesitate, but only for a second before replying.
[1:43 am] you: i hate you.
[1:43 am] haechan: no, you don’t.
[1:44 am] you: i’m grounded until further notice.
[1:44 am] haechan: damn. worth it though, right?
[1:45 am] you: go to sleep.
[1:45 am] haechan: not until you do.
you roll your eyes, but there’s no stopping the way your lips curve up, no denying the warmth spreading through your chest. you sigh, setting your phone on your chest, staring at the ceiling. you should be panicking about what’s to come, but instead, all you feel is him.
and maybe that’s the most dangerous part of all.
—
you wake to the sound of voices just outside your door—your parents, low but firm, clearly waiting for you to come out and face them. sunlight spills through the blinds, too bright, making your room feel smaller than usual. for a moment, you consider staying in bed, pretending to still be asleep, but you know that won’t work. you’re trapped, and you might as well get it over with.
dragging yourself out of bed, you pull on a hoodie over your sleep shirt and take a deep breath before opening the door. your parents are already at the kitchen table, your mom with her arms crossed tightly over her chest, your dad with a weary look, like he’s already disappointed before you’ve even said a word.
“sit.” your mom’s voice is clipped, no room for argument.
you sit.
the silence is heavy, thick with tension. then she takes a deep breath
“what were you thinking?” your mom demands, shaking her head. “letting that boy into your room, sneaking around behind our backs—do you have any idea how reckless that is?”
you bite the inside of your cheek, gripping the hem of your hoodie. “nothing happened.”
your dad exhales sharply, rubbing his temple. “nothing happened this time, because i walked in. but what about next time? do you even know what kind of trouble you’re getting yourself into?”
trouble. the word lingers in the air like smoke. you’ve heard it before, always in the same breath as haechan’s name. boys like him were nothing but trouble. you know that’s what they think. maybe it should be what you think too.
“we’ve warned you about him,” your mom continues, voice softer now, but no less serious. “he’s not—he’s not the kind of boy you should be involved with.”
you flinch, something defensive curling in your chest. “you don’t even know him.”
“we don’t need to know him,” your dad says, exasperated. “his reputation speaks for itself.”
you shake your head, frustration bubbling up. they don’t understand. they never have. if they knew the way he looked at you, the way he made you feel alive in a way nothing else ever had, maybe they wouldn’t be so quick to judge.
but they won’t listen. they never do.
your mom’s words settle like a weight on your chest. “you’re grounded. no phone, no going out. and we don’t want to hear another word about him.”
you stare at the table, jaw tight. the sessions were already over, but that wasn’t really the point. they wanted him out of your life completely. like he was some kind of bad habit you just needed to quit. like he wasn’t already tangled up in your thoughts, in your pulse, in the way your skin still burned from where he touched you.
“do you understand?” your dad asks, voice even but firm.
you swallow hard and nod, because it’s easier than fighting. because you know they won’t listen.
but as you sit there, hands clenched in your lap, you realize something.
they can take away your phone. they can take away your freedom. they can make rules and set curfews and keep a close eye on you.
but they can’t change what’s already happened.
they can’t change you.
—
monday feels different.
the hallways are the same, the usual chaos of students dragging themselves through the first day back after break, but you feel off. like you’re walking through a version of your life that doesn’t quite fit anymore.
it’s the lack of your phone, mostly. no morning texts, no unread messages waiting for you, no way to check if he even tried to reach out again. your parents had taken it first thing saturday morning, and the silence had settled in fast.
you tell yourself it doesn’t matter. that a few missed texts aren’t the end of the world. but as you step into the building, scanning the crowd without meaning to, you already know who you’re looking for.
and then—there he is.
leaning against the lockers like he always does, dressed in a black hoodie and ripped jeans, arms crossed, head tilted slightly as he listens to something one of his friends is saying. but his eyes aren’t on them.
they’re on you.
your breath catches, your steps faltering just slightly before you force yourself to keep moving. to act like everything is fine, like your parents didn’t just rip away the one thing tethering you to him over break.
but then he pushes off the lockers, shoving his hands into his pockets as he starts toward you, gaze dark and unreadable.
you barely make it to your locker before he’s there, sliding in beside you like it’s the most natural thing in the world.
“so,” he drawls, leaning in slightly, voice low enough that only you can hear. “thought you were dead for a second.”
you sigh, spinning your lock with unnecessary force. “my parents took my phone.”
he hums, like that explains everything.
“figured they’d do something like that,” he says, and when you glance at him, there’s something knowing in his expression, something frustrated. “so what, they think ignoring me is gonna make me disappear?”
you exhale sharply, finally yanking your locker open. “i don’t know what they think.”
he watches you for a second, then suddenly reaches out, fingers brushing against your wrist before you can move away. it’s quick, barely even a touch, but it’s enough to make you freeze.
“meet me after school,” he murmurs. it’s not a question.
you hesitate. it’s stupid, reckless. risky. and you should probably say no.
but you don’t.
you just nod.
—
the rest of the day crawls by, every second stretching longer than it should. you go through the motions—taking notes, nodding at the right times, pretending to listen—but your mind is elsewhere. stuck on him. on what you agreed to. on the way his fingers skimmed your wrist like he knew you wouldn’t pull away.
when the final bell rings, your heart stutters.
you could go home. act like today was normal, like nothing is pulling you in the opposite direction. but your feet have already made the choice for you, carrying you through the crowded halls, out the side doors where the air is crisp with early spring.
he’s there, waiting. leaning against the brick wall, one foot propped up behind him, hoodie pulled over his head. but the second you step outside, he straightens, dark eyes locking onto yours.
“thought you might chicken out,” he muses, lips curling at the corners.
you cross your arms, tilting your head. “thought you might get bored and leave.”
he grins, slow and lazy, but there’s something sharper beneath it. “not a chance.”
you exhale, glancing around. “so? where are we going?”
he nods toward the parking lot. “just walk with me.”
you hesitate. not because you don’t want to—because you do, more than you should. but this is dangerous, walking this line when you know exactly where it leads.
then his fingers brush yours again, like earlier, but this time he doesn’t pull away. just hooks his pinky around yours, barely holding on, like he’s leaving the choice up to you.
“come on, sunshine,” he murmurs, voice quieter now, rough at the edges. “just for a little.”
and that’s all it takes.
you don’t say anything, just step forward, closing that last bit of space between you. letting him lead you somewhere you probably shouldn’t go.
—
he leads you deeper into the park, past the usual paths and toward a hidden trail. the air shifts around you, growing quieter as the city noises fade into the distance. soon, you find yourself surrounded by towering trees, their branches swaying gently, the leaves rustling softly as though the earth itself is breathing with you.
you stop at the edge of a small pond, its still surface reflecting the warm, amber glow of the early afternoon sun. everything around it seems to settle into a peaceful hush, as if the world outside this moment has no place here.
he turns to you, and for a second, you’re not sure whether he’s showing you the pond for your sake or his. “this is where i come when i need to clear my head,” he says, his voice lower now, almost reverent. he gestures toward the water, his gaze lingering on the surface. “it’s quiet. no one bothers me here. i can just think.”
you take a deep breath, inhaling the earthy, fresh air. it’s hard to reconcile this calm, serene version of him with the boy who’s been impulsive, reckless, and unpredictable. yet, somehow, it feels right. this side of him, this peace.
“i didn’t think you’d have a place like this,” you admit, your voice barely above a whisper.
he glances at you, a small, almost sad smile tugging at the corner of his lips. “no one ever does,” he says, a glint of something dark flickering behind his eyes. “that’s kinda the point.”
the way he says it makes your stomach flip, and you can’t quite put your finger on why. maybe it’s the vulnerability that tugs at the edges of his words or the way he’s letting you see a part of him no one else does.
for a moment, you think he might say something more, but he simply steps a little closer, his hand brushing yours. the touch is casual, but it sends a spark of warmth shooting through you, a connection that seems to hum between you both.
“do you wanna see something else?” he asks, his voice dropping even lower, and there’s a soft challenge in his tone that makes you want to lean in, to see more, to feel more.
you nod, unable to resist. you find yourself drawn to him in ways you can’t explain, your breath catching when he doesn’t pull back. instead, he closes the gap between you, moving closer until the air between you thickens, charged with something unspoken.
his eyes lock with yours, and there’s something about the way he looks at you that sends your heart into a wild, erratic beat. he tilts his head slightly, and before you can think twice, his lips are on yours.
the kiss is soft at first, like he’s hesitant. but it doesn’t stay that way for long. as his hands find your waist, pulling you closer, the kiss deepens, the heat between you both growing with every brush of lips, every soft gasp that escapes. his fingers tangle in your hair, pulling you nearer, and your hands instinctively clutch at his hoodie, feeling the warmth of his chest against yours.
your heart races, the world around you nothing but the press of his lips, the warmth of his touch. you break away for a moment, gasping for air, but his forehead rests against yours, his breath coming in uneven bursts.
and then, he speaks, his voice low and rough. “i shouldn’t want this,” he murmurs, his lips brushing against yours as he speaks. “but i do. i want you.”
his words make your stomach flip, the intensity of them washing over you in waves. something about the rawness in his voice, the honesty, catches you off guard.
you swallow, trying to steady yourself. “i want this too,” you whisper back, your voice barely audible, like you’re afraid the moment will shatter if you speak too loudly.
there’s a quiet beat, just the two of you, caught in this fragile space between wanting and hesitation. but then, he presses another kiss to your lips, and you forget everything except the feel of him, the way his touch makes everything else fall away.
when you finally pull apart, breathless, he smiles—a small, almost wistful thing. “i think this place is special for more than one reason now,” he says, voice laced with an emotion you can’t quite place.
you smile back, though your heart is still racing. “yeah,” you whisper. “it is.”
—
that night, when the house is dark and quiet, you barely hear the sound of him climbing up the tree until there’s a soft thud against your window. your heart stutters in your chest as you rush over, pushing it open just in time to see him balance himself on the ledge.
the moment haechan lands in your room with a quiet thump, you glare at him, arms crossed. “you’re unbelievable,” you whisper harshly. “do you have any idea how much trouble i’d be in if we got caught?”
he grins, completely unfazed. “but we did get caught.”
you smack his arm, making him flinch. “not the point.”
he raises his hands in surrender, but the smirk stays. “yes, ma’am.”
you roll your eyes, ignoring the way your stomach flips at his teasing tone. “you’re impossible.”
“and yet, you still let me in.”
you don’t have a response to that, so you just sigh, motioning toward your bed. “sit down before you break something.”
he flops onto the mattress with a little too much enthusiasm, making you shake your head as you sit beside him. the room is quiet except for the hum of the night outside, the occasional rustle of leaves from the tree he just climbed. neither of you say anything for a moment, but you can feel the shift in his energy—less playful, more… tired.
“so,” you say softly, “what are you really doing here?”
he exhales, tilting his head back to stare at the ceiling. “couldn’t sleep.”
you glance at him, catching the way his jaw tightens before he looks away. “bad night?”
“something like that.”
his voice is quieter now, stripped of its usual bravado, and it makes your chest ache. you hesitate for a second before shifting slightly closer, your fingers barely grazing his on the comforter.
he notices. you feel it in the way his hand twitches, in the way he inhales just a little sharper. but he doesn’t pull away. instead, his pinky moves just the slightest bit, brushing against yours again.
“you ever feel like you’re running full speed toward a cliff,” he murmurs, “and you can’t stop?”
you swallow. “yeah.”
he huffs out a breath, shaking his head. “i don’t know what’s wrong with me.”
“there’s nothing wrong with you.”
he lets out a low, humorless chuckle. “you’re the only person who thinks that.”
you turn to look at him, really look at him, and for once, he doesn’t hide. his guard is down, his eyes raw with something you can’t quite name. and in that moment, he’s not the reckless boy who teases you endlessly, who smirks like he owns the world. he’s just a boy who’s trying to keep himself together.
you shift your pinky again, letting it hook around his for the briefest second before pulling away. his fingers twitch, like he wants to chase the touch, but he stays still.
“you’re not running off that cliff alone,” you murmur.
his throat bobs as he swallows, eyes flickering to your face. “you make it really hard to stay away, sunshine.”
you don’t know what to say to that, so you don’t say anything at all. you just sit there in the dim glow of your room, fingers barely brushing, hearts quietly syncing to the same rhythm.
—
the next school morning felt different.
it’s been just a few nights since you let haechan in through your window, since he talked to you so deeply; revealing himself to you in a way you never thought he would. you felt something deeper than just adrenaline when you whispered that you wanted him there. and now, stepping into school, that night feels fragile, like something you shouldn’t have touched, something that shouldn’t have followed you into the daylight.
because now the whispers have grown louder.
“did you hear? they were together again over the weekend.”
“she sneaks out with him. she’s not as innocent as she acts.”
“it’s cute how she thinks she’s different.”
you keep your head down, fingers curled tightly around the strap of your bag, trying to push past it. but it’s everywhere. in the halls, in the classroom, even when you sit down with your friends at lunch—where, for the first time, the usual chatter dies down when you approach.
“so,” giselle starts carefully, “is it true?”
“what?” your voice comes out sharper than intended.
“you and haechan.”
your stomach twists. you already know there’s no right answer. deny it, and you sound guilty. confirm it, and they’ll pick it apart.
“we just study together, karina, you know that,” you say evenly. “that’s it.”
a look is exchanged, one that makes your skin prickle.
“you don’t have to lie,” winter says. “we’re just… looking out for you.”
“looking out for me?” you let out a sharp laugh. “for what?”
“we’re just saying,” giselle chimes back in, quieter, hesitant. “he has a… reputation. you know that.”
“i know him,” you counter.
“do you?”
you don’t answer. you don’t need to. the air shifts awkwardly, and lunch carries on, but the words stick.
by the time the final bell rings, you feel raw, rubbed down by a day of passing glances and quiet judgments. you don’t know what’s worse—the people who whisper like you can’t hear them, or the ones who make sure you do.
you’re halfway to the front doors when someone else’s words catch your ear.
“he’s just playing with her. like he does with everyone.”
your breath stumbles.
“he gets bored fast. wonder how long she’ll last.”
yourchest tightens. you know you shouldn’t care. you know it’s just talk. but it digs in anyway, settling like lead in your stomach.
then a voice pulls you out of it.
“sunshine.”
you turn. haechan’s waiting near the steps, hands tucked into his pockets, eyes flicking over you like he can tell something’s off.
“hey,” he says, stepping closer. “you good?”
“fine.” it’s automatic, too quick. his brows pinch slightly, but he doesn’t push.
“come with me,” he says instead, nudging his head toward the doors. “let’s get out of here for a bit.”
you hesitate. for the first time, you aren’t sure if you want to go. because you can still hear their words. and worse—you can’t shake the fear that maybe they’re right.
but then you meet his eyes, warm and steady despite everything, and that fear doesn’t seem so loud anymore.
“okay,” you say.
and just like that, you follow him out.
—
he takes you somewhere quiet. away from the school, away from the weight of a thousand glances and whispers pressing down on you.
it’s a small clearing just past the neighborhood, tucked behind a line of trees, where the ground slopes gently toward a creek. the sky is wide here, open, stretching endless above you in soft hues of late afternoon.
“is this where you spend some of your time too?” you ask, looking around.
“one of the places.” haechan drops down onto the grass, leaning back on his palms. “not a bad spot, huh?”
“no,” you admit, sitting beside him. “it’s pretty.”
he grins. “figured you’d like it. you have that whole… poetic, pretty-things type of vibe.”
“oh, do i?” you glance at him.
“mhm.” he shifts closer, voice dropping slightly. “that’s why you like me, right?”
your stomach flips. you don’t answer, but the way you go quiet gives you away. his grin widens.
“i knew it.”
“shut up,” you mutter, shoving his shoulder lightly.
he laughs, but the teasing fades after a moment, leaving something quieter in its place.
“you don’t have to listen to them, you know.”
you tense. you don’t ask who he means—you both know.
“they don’t know me,” he says, eyes still on the sky. “not really. but you do.”
“do i?” the words slip out before you can stop them, laced with something you don’t quite recognize.
it makes him pause.
“do you think they’re right?” he asks after a moment, voice unreadable. “that i’m just messing around?”
you turn toward him. his expression is calm, but there’s something underneath it, something waiting.
you should say no. you should tell him that you trust him, that you don’t care what anyone else says.
but the doubt is still there, tangled up in everything else you feel for him.
“i don’t know,” you whisper.
his jaw tightens. he looks away.
the silence stretches, thick and heavy. your heart pounds.
and then, before you can stop yourself, the question leaves your lips.
“what are we, haechan?”
he stills.
for a long moment, he doesn’t answer. just watches you, his gaze flickering over your face like he’s searching for something.
then, slowly, he exhales.
“we’re whatever you want us to be.”
you blink. “what?”
he shifts closer, so close that you feel the warmth of his breath against your cheek. “if you want this to be nothing, i’ll leave it alone. if you want me to be just some guy you tutored, i’ll deal with it.”
his fingers reach for yours, tentative, brushing against your knuckles.
“but if you want more…” he trails off, voice low, gaze flickering down to your lips before meeting your eyes again.
your heart is a drum against your ribs.
“what if i don’t know what i want?” you whisper.
he lets out a quiet laugh, almost breathless. “then tell me what you do know.”
you swallow, pulse thrumming as you feel his fingers slowly interlace with yours.
“i know i don’t want you to be just some guy i tutored.”
his grip on your hand tightens.
“then you’ve already answered your own question, sunshine.”
the nickname is soft, almost reverent. and before you can second-guess it, before you can let the fear creep in, you squeeze his hand back.
he smiles—one of those small, secret ones, like you’ve just given him something he thought he’d never have.
and for now, that’s enough.
—
the evening was calm, the sun dipping lower in the sky as you walk with haechan beside you. the two of you had just finished the day at school, chatting and laughing, not realizing how close you were to your house until you were almost at the front steps. everything felt normal, easy, the way it had been recently, and you couldn’t have imagined what was about to happen.
you notice them—your mom and dad—standing in the doorway, watching. your stomach drops and you instinctively grip haechan’s hand tighter. his smile fades when he feels the change in you, his attention shifting to what you’re looking at.
“shit,” you mutter, but keep walking, praying they won’t notice you until you get inside. but just as you reach the steps, your mother’s voice cuts through the quiet air. “what did i tell you?” it’s sharp and furious, each word heavy with the threat of anger. “what is he doing here?”
you freeze. your dad steps into view beside her, arms crossed. his posture alone is enough to make your heart race.
“mom, i…” you start, but you’re immediately cut off.
“no excuses,” she snaps, voice dripping with disdain. “you think i don’t know what you’ve been doing? sneaking around with him? what do you think you’re doing?”
“mom, i—” you try again, but her dad’s icy glare silences you.
“you’re still grounded,” he says in a low, dangerous tone. “go inside. now.”
you glance at haechan. he’s standing beside you, quiet, his hands shoved into his pockets. he doesn’t know what to do. he probably doesn’t even know if he’s allowed to say anything.
your mom turns to him, her face contorting with barely-contained fury. “you. what are you doing here? you have no business with my daughter.”
“i’m not causing any trouble,” he says quietly, but his words hang in the air, useless against the tension.
“no,” your mother snaps, “you’re not just causing trouble, you’re ruining everything. you don’t belong here.”
you can feel the heat rising inside you, the pressure of everything that’s been building in the last few days, and you can’t hold it in anymore. “stop,” you say, your voice trembling but strong. “i—”
and then, before you can stop it, the words slip out, raw and unfiltered. “i love him.”
the air around you freezes. your mom’s eyes widen, her mouth parting slightly in shock. she takes a step back, clearly not understanding what she’s hearing. it was the first time you ever said it, hell even thought it. but it felt right.
“what did you just say?” her voice is cold now, sharp as a knife.
“i said it,” you repeat, but your voice is barely above a whisper. “i love him.”
her mother stares at you, disbelief and disgust flashing across her face. “you don’t know what you’re talking about. you’re just a kid, and you think you love him?” she sneers, voice full of derision. “you don’t know anything about love. this… this is just a phase. and he—he is not good for you.”
your dad doesn’t speak. he just stands there, arms crossed, his silence just as loud as your mom’s words. you feel yourself shrinking under their gaze, as if everything inside you is getting smaller, more insignificant.
“you will not see him again. do you understand me?” your mother’s voice rises now, almost breaking with fury. “you are grounded, and this… whatever you think this is, it ends now.”
“i love him,” you whisper again, more firmly this time, trying to hold onto something—anything—before everything falls apart. “i love him.”
“no,” your mother spits, “you don’t. and you will forget him. you will go to your room. and you will stay there. i won’t have this in my house.”
haechan looks at you, his face unreadable. the words you shared earlier seem to echo in his eyes, but something changes in him. he takes a small step back, like he’s retreating from something, unsure how to fix this.
“i think it’s better if i go,” he mutters, his voice tight, as he begins to pull away. “i don’t want to make things worse for you.”
before you can stop him, he’s turning, walking away. you reach out, your hand grasping for his wrist, but he pulls away gently, avoiding your gaze. “no..haechan,” you say, your voice shaking. “please. don’t leave.”
he doesn’t respond immediately, just looks at you for a long, agonizing moment. then he lets out a shaky sigh and turns to leave, his footsteps growing fainter as he walks away from you.
you stand frozen on the front steps, your heart racing. your mom’s voice cuts through the silence again. “you’ll go to your room. and you’ll stay there. you will not see him again. do you understand me?”
you can’t even answer, your throat tight, your mind spiraling. without saying another word, you walk silently into the house, up to your room, and shut the door behind you. hard
you sit there, the weight of your mother’s words crushing you. her disapproval and disappointment are suffocating, and you can feel the space between you and haechan growing larger with every passing second.
but the hardest part? the hardest part is knowing that you love him, and yet, here you are, too afraid to reach for him because of everything that’s standing in the way.
—
it’s been a few days since the argument with your parents. the silence between you and haechan feels heavy, almost suffocating. you can’t stop thinking about him, but you haven’t been able to reach him either. you’re grounded, no phone, and it’s like a piece of you is missing.
you’re sitting in your room, staring at the wall in front of your bed, when you hear a light tap. your heart races. you hurry over, parting the curtains to find haechan standing there, looking just as conflicted as you feel. he looks tired—like he hasn’t been able to sleep—but his eyes light up when they meet yours.
you open the window quickly, and without a word, he climbs inside. it’s the same familiar move, but there’s something different now. there’s an unspoken tension between you both, a hesitation in the way he moves toward you.
he steps closer but stops when he sees you retreat a little, like you’re unsure whether to welcome him or pull away. there’s a beat of silence before he speaks, his voice softer than usual.
“i couldn’t stay away,” he admits, running a hand through his messy hair. “but i didn’t want to make things worse. i thought… maybe i was doing the right thing.”
you meet his gaze, and for a moment, you both just look at each other. there’s no need for more words. you can tell he’s been thinking about this as much as you have. but there’s still the weight of your parents’ words, their expectations, hanging in the air. and you know they would never approve. you’re supposed to stay away from him.
“i don’t know why i’m even here,” he murmurs, eyes flickering down for a moment. “i knew things were gonna get messy.”
you step forward then, frustration and confusion bubbling inside you. “you left me hanging, haechan. i didn’t hear from you, i didn’t—”
“i know,” he interrupts, his voice laced with guilt. “but i thought maybe you’d be better off without me. i didn’t want to drag you into my mess.”
you don’t know how to respond to that. you want to be angry, but the truth is, you feel the same confusion. you wanted to hear from him. you missed him. but it’s hard to ignore the fact that your parents would never understand this. would never approve.
he takes a deep breath and steps closer again, almost as if he’s bracing himself. his fingers twitch at his sides, unsure of whether to reach out or not. you know the pull between you is undeniable, but there’s still a wall between you, the one built by fear and responsibility.
“i can’t stop thinking about you,” he says, his voice barely above a whisper. “i thought i could, but i can’t.”
you swallow hard, your chest tightening. “i can’t ignore everything, haechan. my parents—they won’t let this happen.”
he looks down, disappointment flickering in his eyes. then, slowly, he lifts his gaze to yours again. “i didn’t want to make things harder for you. i didn’t want to be the one who messed up your life.”
you feel a knot in your stomach. his words sting, but it’s clear that he’s not giving up. and neither are you.
“then why are you here?” you ask, voice barely above a whisper.
his answer isn’t one you expect. he steps forward and brushes a loose strand of hair from your face, his touch gentle, almost reverent. “because even if i shouldn’t, i can’t stay away. i don’t know how to.”
the words hang between you, unsaid but understood. your heart beats faster in your chest, and for the first time since the argument, you feel something other than confusion or anger.
“i can’t either,” you admit, your voice low.
before you can say anything else, haechan closes the distance, pressing his lips gently to yours. it’s tentative, careful, like he’s afraid you’ll pull away at any moment. but you don’t. you kiss him back, softly at first, savoring the moment, the closeness. and for a brief moment, the world outside seems to disappear.
when you pull away, you both stand there, breaths mingling. he looks at you, searching your face, as if trying to make sure he hasn’t crossed a line.
“i’ll make things right,” he says quietly, his voice filled with resolve. “somehow. i don’t want to lose you.”
you take a deep breath, the weight of the situation sinking in. your parents’ disapproval, the complications, the risks—it’s all still there, but in this moment, you can’t bring yourself to push him away.
“i don’t know what’s going to happen,” you murmur, your hand brushing lightly against his. “but i can’t stop wanting this. wanting you.”
he gives a small, bittersweet smile. “then we’ll figure it out together. i promise.”
and just like that, you feel the tension between you ease, even if only for a moment. the future is uncertain, but right now, all that matters is the warmth of his touch, the closeness you feel, and the quiet promise of something more between you two.
—
the tension in the living room is suffocating. it’s been a week since the small talk with haechan in your room. you two had been interacting a lot less at school, yet here you both were. your parents sit stiffly on the couch, their eyes locked onto haechan as if he’s something they need to purge from your life. he stands in front of them, his hands curled into loose fists at his sides, but he doesn’t lash out. doesn’t scoff or roll his eyes like they expect him to.
his usual confidence is still there, but tonight, there’s something else underneath it. something raw, something desperate. because this isn’t just about proving himself to your parents. it’s about proving himself to you, too. proving that he’s worth fighting for.
“this needs to stop,” your father says, his voice firm. “you sneaking around with him. whatever this is. it’s done.”
your mother shakes her head, exhaling sharply. “you don’t see it now, but this isn’t love. boys like him don’t stick around.”
boys like him.
haechan’s jaw clenches. he’s heard those words before, from teachers, from people in town, from kids at school who assumed they knew everything about him. reckless. dangerous. a mistake waiting to happen. but it’s different coming from your parents, because this time, it actually matters.
“you don’t know me,” he says, voice steady but edged with frustration. “you only see what you want to see.”
your mom crosses her arms. “oh, so tell us, then. tell us why we should believe you’re any different.” you eye her as she speaks so sharply to him.
please just give him a chance.
haechan hesitates for just a second, and your heart clenches. because you know he hates doing this. hates explaining himself to people who have already made up their minds. but he does it anyway. for you.
“i know i don’t look like the kind of guy you want your daughter with,” he says, voice quieter now, but no less firm. “i know i don’t come from some perfect family, and i know i’ve made mistakes. but i swear to you, i—i’m trying.” he swallows hard, his gaze flicking to you before going back to them. “i’m trying to be better. for her.”
your mother’s lips press into a thin line. “people don’t change overnight.”
“i’m not asking you to believe me overnight,” haechan says, his voice stronger now. “i’m just asking you to see me the way she does. not as some lost cause, but as someone who cares about her more than you could ever understand.”
silence stretches between all of you. your father looks away, exhaling through his nose. your mother’s expression is unreadable. you know they don’t fully accept him—not yet. maybe they never will. but there’s something in their faces that wasn’t there before. doubt. hesitation. a crack in the walls they’ve built around the idea of who he is.
your mother sighs, rubbing her temples. “this… this is a lot. i don’t know what to do with this right now.”
your father doesn’t say anything, but he doesn’t push the conversation further either.
it’s not approval. not even close. but it’s not outright rejection either.
haechan shifts beside you, his fingers brushing against yours—not holding, just there. grounding.
“can i…talk to her alone?” he asks.
your parents exchange a glance, and for a moment, you think they’ll say no. but then your mom sighs again, pinching the bridge of her nose. “five minutes.”
you don’t wait for them to change their minds, grabbing haechan’s wrist and tugging him down the hall to the guest bedroom. the moment the door clicks shut, you turn to him, taking him in—his disheveled hair, the way his rings catch the dim light, the way his shoulders are still tense.
—
the tension lingers even after your parents leave the room, their quiet murmurs fading down the hall. you stand there with haechan, his fingers still loosely tangled with yours, the weight of everything pressing down on you both.
he exhales sharply, running a hand through his hair before letting out a soft chuckle. “well… that went great, huh?”
you give him a look, half-exasperated, half-affectionate. “you really don’t know when to shut up, do you?”
he grins, but it doesn’t quite reach his eyes. “nah, guess not.”
you squeeze his hand, grounding him. “thank you. for standing up for yourself. for… for me.”
his expression shifts, something softer taking over. his thumb brushes over the back of your hand. “i meant everything i said,” he murmurs. “every damn word.”
there’s a beat of silence, heavy with unspoken things. then, without thinking, you step forward, wrapping your arms around his shoulders , pressing your face into his neck. he hesitates for half a second before melting into you, his arms coming up to hold you like he’s afraid to let go.
“i don’t know how this is gonna end,” you whisper.
haechan swallows hard, his fingers tracing absentminded patterns on your back. “me neither,” he admits. “but i know one thing.”
you pull back just enough to meet his gaze. “what?”
“that i love you,” his lips quirk into a small, lopsided smile—one that still holds a trace of mischief, but there’s something deeper beneath it. something real. “and i’m not letting you go that easily.”
your heart stumbles over itself, and before you can second-guess it, you surge forward, kissing him with every ounce of feeling you can’t put into words.
he responds instantly, his hands gripping your waist, pulling you impossibly closer. the kiss is slow, lingering, like a promise neither of you are willing to break.
when you finally pull away, your forehead resting against his, you whisper, “we’re kind of doomed, aren’t we?”
he huffs a quiet laugh, his breath warm against your lips. “probably. but at least we’re doomed together.”
and somehow, despite everything, that feels like enough.
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