Warnings: oral sex(f! receiving), face sitting, pet names, praising, spanking, fingering
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Ni-ki x fem reader
It's yet another day when Niki lays in his favorite place — between your thighs. He promised you he'd just rest his head there and cuddle while you two watch a movie, but he's not afraid to break a promise — especially one like this one.
He started slow, with light kisses on your inner thighs, his hands tracing slow patterns on your soft skin. “Niki, the movie…” you reminded him, letting out a big sigh as you realized he's completely ignoring you and focusing on something else. His kisses became rougher, more eager, adding desperate bites and licks. You felt his hands all over your legs and waist , he traced his fingers along your hips and occasionally shifted under your top, near your bra, when he finally reached his destination — the edge of your shorts. He gave you a pleading look, making sure he's not crossing any boundaries because technically you wanted to watch a movie together. You responded with a small nod, your hands found their way over to his hair, your fingers tangling in it. Niki eagerly took your shorts and panties in one go — throwing them somewhere across the room. You swear you could see his eyes light up when he saw you bare, admiring it like an art piece. His hands locked harshly on your hips, wanting to keep you steady, as he planted passionate kisses on your inner thighs, getting closer and closer to your pussy with each small lick. Your whimper and small tug on his hair made him smirk — he always loved seeing how desperate you are for him, how eager you can get. “You need something, darling?” he asked you, acting clueless even though he knew exactly what you meant. “Niki, please…” you answered with a pout, your fingers playing with his hair. “Please what? Use your words, pretty.” he teased you, kissing near your knees now, getting away from where you desperately want him. “Please, can you eat me out…?” you asked shyly, you always hated saying this type of stuff out loud, and he knew it, yet he couldn't help himself. The view of your reddish cheeks, a small pout, and begging but embarrassed eyes made his heart beat faster and, well, his cock harder. “Hmm, let me think…” he said between little bites alongside your hip and waist. His hands pushed up your shirt, uncovering your lacy pink bra with a little bow — Niki's favorite. His breath hitched at the view, tracing his long fingers on the lace, admiring how sexy you look under him right now. “Fuck, you knew what to wear, right?” he groaned as he squeezed your boobs together, placing small kisses on them. “Fine, I think you deserve it,” he murmured, kissing and licking your stomach as he got down between your legs again.
This time, without teasing, he placed a kiss right on your clit and savored your reaction — a small shake of your thighs and the cutest whimper. His hands kept you in place as his whole focus was on your clit — sucking on it, giving it small kisses from time to time. You tugged on his soft hair, letting out small moans while admiring your favorite view. Niki looked as if he was hypnotized, nothing could take him away from your pussy. He savored every drop of your juices, every little taste of your cunt. He became even faster, eating you out from your clit to your hole — pushing his tongue in and licking the entrance before getting back to focusing on your clit. Your thighs shook and your back arched before his hands grabbed you down on the bed, one of them sliding under your bra and squeezing your boob, his thumb tracing gentle circles around your nipple. You could hear him letting out small sounds as he got lost in you completely, all that existed for him right now was your pussy. He could feel that you're getting closer — shaky thighs, louder moans, his scalp burning because of your tugging, and let's be honest, he loves that pain. His pace quickened even more, sucking harshly on your clit as his two fingers found your entrance, pushing in smoothly because of how wet you are. The curl of his fingers brought you to the edge, your thighs almost smashing Niki's head, yet he stayed in his place, letting you ride out your orgasm. He continued with small licks and slow movements of his fingers inside you till you calmed down a bit.
Once he realized your breathing came back to normal and your legs stopped shaking this much, he flipped you over — positioning you right over his face. Your clit gently touched his nose as you grabbed the headboard to keep steady. “Niki, what are you—” before you could finish, he cut you off. “Come on, sit on me,” he interrupted while pushing your hips down, but you didn't completely let him. You put a little weight on him, scared to suffocate him, but it only made him groan. “Can't you listen? I said sit, the whole weight, don't play with me, Y/N,” he gave your ass a sharp smack, using your lack of focus at the moment to bring your hips down, finally letting him taste your pussy again. The overwhelming feeling was strong, making you forget about the possibility of suffocating Niki. He ate you out like he was a starved man, circling your clit, giving you gentle bites once in a while, meanwhile, his hands gripped your thighs and hips so tightly he left marks, but both of you didn't care — in fact, you loved them. Seeing all the marks he leaves on your body even several days after conjures up memories and makes your stomach flip. His tongue sped up again after sensing you're close, he kept you in place when your hips automatically bucked up. When you reached your orgasm again, he completely slowed down and became gentle again, with small licks and kisses before flipping you on your back. He left small kisses and licks on your neck while whispering into your ear, “My girl did so good,” “You're so tasty, I already miss it,” “You're so pretty, darling.” When you lifted your head, you saw the final credits showing on your TV screen, making you remember that you were supposed to be doing something else, but the movie was probably shitty anyway.
synopsis: in which your reckless driving leads to you spending your summer babysitting your father’s business partners son.
genre: rich dad au
pairing: chaebol!jay x younger bratty!reader
warnings: 12 year age gap! reader is 23 and jay is 35, lots and lots of tension, bratty!reader, meandom!jay, possessive!jay, bickering, lots of cornering (like a lot), forced submission, spanking ass + pussy, dub-con in some instances, (oral f. rec), fingering, choking, manhandling, binding with belt, rough p in v (unprotected), forced confession of feelings, cum eating, lots of talk about age. i think that’s it ….
wc: 22.4k
a/n: holy fuck balls you guys. this was the longest piece i’ve written and i feel like ive lost my mind. i feel like a changed woman with all this plot and the minimal smut… like what happened. also wtf is a 1000 block limit…? i had to go back and merge paragraphs because tumblr has a limit apparently. so now, it’s just merged together which is so annoying. anyways, this is for those who voted for babysitter jay! stay tuned i plan on putting another pole out for the next fic. thank you for all the love on my fics <33 notes, comments and reblogs are always appreciated. enjoy :)))
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you should've known something like this would happen. when your father instructed you to go to his office to pick up some papers for him, you had a gut feeling that something bad was going to happen.
it was your father's fault, really. if he hadn't called you in the middle of the day, nagging about how you needed to "grow up" and "take responsibility" and "learn a thing or two from your old man," you wouldn't have been so distracted. and if you hadn't been so distracted, you wouldn't have slammed your car straight into the back of someone else's.
a very expensive looking car at that.
your heart was still hammering against your ribs as you sat stiffly on the sidewalk, your car parked haphazardly next to the damaged luxury vehicle you had just rear-ended. you stumbled out of your car, not having the guts to walk up to the car you had absolutely demolished to talk to the owner.
people passing by casted you pitying glances, but none of them could possibly understand the deep, all-consuming regret swirling in your chest.
your father was going to kill you.
worse, the owner of the car was going to kill you.
"you've got to be fucking kidding me."
a deep voice cut through the sound of honking cars and murmuring pedestrians. you squeezed your eyes shut, already dreading the moment you'd have to turn around. but you had no choice, so with a slow inhale, you finally lifted your gaze.
oh fuck my life.
and immediately wanted to crawl into a hole.
"oh, you've really done it this time," you muttered under your breath, swallowing harshly as the man you recognized as jay park, your father's business partner, the ceo of a multimillion-dollar company, and the man whose car you just destroyed—stood in front of you.
looking absolutely livid.
jay was wearing a crisp black suit, but his jacket was slung over his arm, and the top buttons of his white dress shirt were undone. despite the clear annoyance twisting his sharp features, he still managed to look ridiculously handsome. infuriatingly handsome. disregarding your history with the man, you didn't know if you wanted to jump his bones or get on your knees and beg for forgiveness.
his dark eyes flickered from the dent in his car's bumper to where you sat on the sidewalk, one brow raising as realization dawned on him.
"you have got to be kidding me," he repeated, voice laced with disbelief. "of course it's you". his dark eyes narrowed down on your smaller frame, his mouth twisted in a scowl as he ran his hand through his thick black locks in frustration.
you scowled, crossing your arms. "what the hell is that supposed to mean?"
fuck his forgiveness.
jay let out a sharp laugh, rubbing a hand down his face. "it means i'm not even surprised. reckless, irresponsible, and spoiled? sounds exactly like you."
"let me guess? daddy's going to take care of this for you? typical," he sneers down at you.
your blood boiled, immediately getting up from the sidewalk so you could stalk up to him. "oh, please. don't act like you know me." he scoffed, leaning down slightly so that his face was closer to yours. "i don't need to know you. your reputation does all the talking, brat."
you clenched your jaw at the name.
he wasn't completely wrong, but you'd rather die than admit that.
jay exhaled heavily, moving back up and pulling out his phone. "i'm calling your father."
your eyes widened in panic. "wait! no, you don't have to do that—"
but it was too late. jay was already dialing, his expression unreadable as he brought the phone to his ear.
you felt like you were about to throw up.
you didn't hear the full conversation, but based on the way jay's jaw tightened and the glance he shot you, you could tell it wasn't going well. after a few more exchanges, he hung up, slipping his phone back into his pocket.
"so?" you asked hesitantly, already bracing yourself for the worst. jay crossed his arms, looking far too pleased with himself. "your father and i came to an agreement."
you narrowed your eyes. "what kind of agreement?"
jay smirked. "instead of paying for the damage, you're going to babysit my son as reparation."
you stared at him. blinked. "what?"
he checked his watch, clearly done with the conversation. "i'll send you the details later. don't be late." and just like that, he walked off, leaving you standing by the sidewalk, utterly speechless.
this could not be happening.
babysitting? you?
you groaned, letting your head drop back.
this was going to be a nightmare, and you needed to wake up.
you make your way to your car, your fists clenching as you mentally prepare yourself to talk to your father.
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"this is so unnecessary, dad."
your father scoffs half heartedly, "you made a mistake, this is the least you could do, __."
"why can't we pay for the repairs, this is completely unnecessary!" you exclaim, your perfectly maintained brows shooting up as you cross your arms—staring at your father with a pointed look.
"besides, he could get anyone who's actually good with children to babysit his kid," you add on with a huff.
he sighs, his eyes shutting in temporary defeat, "__," he says with a warning tone. "mr.park is being nice enough to not file a report and get points deducted from your licence and possibly have your permit suspended. the least you could do is babysit his son, it shows that you are remorseful for your actions. the kids well behaved and you only need to be there for a few hours."
you roll your eyes, this was stupid. it's not like he even cared about the car, so what you crashed into it.
"fine, but just this once. this isn't going to be a reoccurring thing, right?" you hiss at the end, looking at your father with resentment when his face changes into one of relief.
"i may have mentioned that you're not taking classes in the summer, and that you're free throughout the week so we'll see..." he trails off, watching your expression morph into one of disbelief.
"are you ser—" you begin only for knocking at the door to interrupt your sentence. you whip your head around harshly, ready to verbally abuse whoever had dared to interrupt you.
"come in."
the door opened slightly, a house maid peering her head between the crack. "mr.__, mr.kim is here," she informs timidly, catching onto the bad energy in the room.
your father smiles, "we'll be right down, thank you teresa."
you scowl at her, her eyes widening for a moment before she scurries off—shutting the door behind her.
"dad i—" he cuts you off, "—__, we will continue this conversation next time. mr.kim is waiting for us downstairs, you know what to do when mr.park contacts you, right?" his eyebrows furrowed as he stares at you with narrowed eyes.
you let out a frustrated sigh, "yes, dad."
"good, be on your best behaviour."
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later that evening, you had sufficiently screamed into your pillow and considered packing your bags to flee the country. you were on the phone with one of your best friends, minho, who attempted to comfort you through your mental break down.
"you don't understand, minho. my life is ending," you wailed softly, pressing your face against your pillow—almost suffocating yourself.
minho rolls his eyes behind the screen, he was lucky you weren't on facetime or you'd have his neck.
"__, you're literally just babysitting for the man. you'll be fine."
"no, minho. you're still not getting it! it's the fact that i have to babysit for that asshole. i swear to god i've had beef with him for the last 4 years. he always has a stick up his ass," you ramble.
"are you sure you have beef with him? sounds one sided to me.." he trails off making you let out a gasp—offended at his words.
"you're supposed to be on my side, dick. whatever, i'll talk to you later. if i'm not dead," you whine dramatically.
minho scoffs, "yeah, yeah. love you, talk soon."
"love you too, bitch. bye."
you hang up the phone, staring mindlessly at your roof as you think about the events of today. jay wouldn't be so bad if he wasn't so uptight all the time. he was actually hot. really, hot.
you think back to the times where the two of you interacted, the fake polite nods you sent his ways and the way he tried to hide his dislike for you behind his charming smile whenever there were others around. the way he'd brush up against you whenever he walked by you, or how his voice deepened when he said your name.
you had noticed his gaze slide up and down your frame on multiple occasions, choosing to ignore it but secretly loving the way he looked like he hated you. however, all these moments get pushed aside when you remember all the times he was an absolute dick towards you.
jay had a way of making himself the most infuriating person on the planet—whether he did it on purpose or not. and judging by the smug way his lips always curled whenever he got under your skin, you knew it was always on purpose. he liked seeing you riled up, he liked it when you bit back at him.
the first time you met him, he completely ignored you. it was at some stupid business dinner your father had forced you to attend. while everyone exchanged pleasantries, jay didn't even acknowledge you. not a single glance. not even when you introduced yourself. instead, he sipped his whiskey, eyes trained on anything but you. it wasn't until you had walked past him that he finally said something.
"spoiled little princess, huh?"
you turned back, eyebrows furrowed in confusion. "what did you just say to me?" this was the first time he had talked to you, and this is what he has to say?
he smirked over the rim of his glass. "nothing."
you scoffed, rolling your eyes in distaste before sauntering away. jay's eyes following every movement of your hips as you slowly get lost in the crowd.
he loved pointing out your mistakes.
when you got a flat tire outside your father's office, jay happened to be walking by. you were already frustrated, struggling with your phone to call for roadside assistance, when his voice rang out behind you.
"let me guess. you don't even know how to change a tire, do you?"
you scoffed, glaring at him. "do you?"
he chuckled, shaking his head. "of course i do. but i don't help people who look at me like they'd rather set me on fire."
he always had a comment about your attitude.
"you pout too much."
you blinked, pausing mid-sip of your drink. "excuse me?"
jay leaned against the bar counter at yet another business event, swirling the ice in his glass as he looked at you with mild amusement. "you pout too much. like a brat who didn't get what she wanted."
you scoffed, setting your glass down with a little too much force. "maybe that's just my face."
he smirked, eyes flickering to your lips before meeting your gaze again. "yeah? then why do you only do it around me?"
it was safe to say that you hated him and overall wanted nothing to do with him or his kid.
you groan into your pillow, "why me," you whine. suddenly, your phone pings.
you received a text from an unknown number.
jay: 9 am sharp. don't be late. i don't tolerate irresponsibility.
you rolled your eyes so hard they nearly got stuck in the back of your head.
you: don't worry, i wouldn't dare disappoint you, your highness.
his reply came almost immediately.
jay: that's mr. park to you.
you: my deepest apologies, park jongseong.
he didn't respond after that.
dickwad.
you tossed your phone onto your bed, groaning into your hands.
this was going to be a very, very long summer.
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you were not a morning person, and your lack of sleep was not helping. so when your alarm blared at an ungodly hour, your first instinct was to throw your phone across the room and go back to sleep—but you couldn't. because you had a job to do.
a job that you weren't getting compensated for.
or, more accurately, a job you were being forced into doing. it was unpaid labor by your father.
"consider it a way to build character and experience," he had said to you, sipping his coffee without a shred of sympathy or remorse as you gaped at him.
"consider it a way to ruin my life," you had shot back, but it hadn't mattered.
so here you were, running on three hours of sleep and a whole lot of resentment, pulling up to jay park's house—a sleek, modern mansion that screamed wealth. the kind of wealth that made you roll your eyes but also, begrudgingly, admire just a little. the driveway alone could fit at least six cars, and the front door? massive, dark wood, and intimidating as hell.
jay displayed his wealth proudly, whereas your father preferred to keep himself grounded. you get out of the car, your father had insisted that the driver drop you off.
"we don't need you crashing into another one of mr.park's cars," he had said, ushering you out the door.
you rolled your eyes, begrudgingly agreeing, not because you agreed that you were a terrible driver. but because you were tired and didn't have it in you to argue with him and get your way.
"when shall i pick you up ma'am?" your driver asked you.
you think for a second, "i'll inform you when."
you sighed, running a hand through your hair before pressing the doorbell.
within seconds, the door swung open. revealing a rather, dare you say, scandalous looking jongseong.
his typically neatly slicked back hair was frazzled, strands of his dark locks picking onto his forehead. he was wearing a thin white dress shirt with his sleeves rolled up to his elbows and the first few buttons of his shirt undone, a thin silver chain adorned on his neck and his exposed collar bone. his plump lips were pulled into a rather lazy smirk in contrast to his typical scowl that you were used to him greeting you with. his sharp gaze flickering over you like he was already unimpressed.
it was entirely unfair how good he looked this early in the morning.
his lips curved into something that wasn't quite a smirk but wasn't exactly friendly either.
"you're late."
your eyes narrowed, glancing at your phone. "it's 9:02."
jay raised a brow. "exactly."
your jaw clenched. two minutes. he was seriously acting like two damn minutes was a crime.
you forced a tight-lipped smile. "where's the kid?"
before jay could respond, a small figure peeked out from behind him—a little boy, no older than five, with round cheeks and big, curious eyes.
jay made a cute kid, you'll give him that. jay placed a hand on his head, his expression softening just slightly. "this is seojun. seojun, this is __. she's going to be taking care of you today."
he steps aside, allowing you into his home. you admire the interior, mouth opening in awe as you take off your shoes.
seojun blinked up at you before stepping forward, arms crossed in a stance far too judgmental for a five-year-old.
"do you know how to make pancakes?"
what happened to 'hello, how are you?'
you hesitated for a moment, looking up at jay in confusion only for him to give you a 'well, do you?' look. "uh... sure?"
seojun narrowed his eyes. "do you actually, or are you lying?" jay let out a soft chuckle, and you immediately shot him a glare.
"i can make pancakes," you insisted, then quickly added, "probably."
seojun sighed like a man three times his age, shaking his head. "we're doomed."
jay patted his son's head, lips twitching. "good luck," he says. he reaches for his trench coat and bag that were set neatly by the door on a cushioned bench.
your eyes widened. "wait, you're leaving?"
"that's usually how work goes."
"you could at least pretend to care about abandoning your child with a stranger."
jay gave you a pointed look. "you crashed into my car. this is me pretending. and i have 911 on speed dial." you opened your mouth to argue but stopped when you felt a tiny hand grip your wrist.
"you're wasting time," seojun said seriously, already pulling you toward the kitchen. "if you burn my breakfast, i'm calling the cops."
jay smirked as you shot him one last glare before getting dragged away by his tiny, opinionated son.
ten minutes later, and you were already regretting everything. you stumbled around the kitchen blindly, allowing the spawn of satan to boss you around.
"that's too much flour."
"are you sure you cracked that egg right?"
"why does the batter look like that?"
"are you even qualified to be in a kitchen?"
you turned slowly to seojun, who was sitting on the counter with his arms crossed, watching your every move with a level of scrutiny that made you nervous. truth be told, you had never made pancakes. you were going off memory of what your housemaids had put into the batter when you asked for pancakes one morning—happening to pay attention to them cooking.
"do you wanna make the pancakes?" you asked, raising a brow—getting tired of his attitude and critiques.
"no," he said simply. "i just don't want to die eating them."
you exhaled sharply. "listen here, you little—"
"language," seojun cut in, and you swore you heard jay's smug influence in that tone.
you were never having kids.
ever.
despite his relentless judgment, you somehow managed to make edible pancakes. you plated them with a dramatic flourish, sliding one in front of seojun before grabbing a plate for yourself. he stared at it for a long moment before finally taking a bite. you held your breath.
"...not bad," he muttered.
you gasped, pressing a hand to your chest dramatically. "was that a compliment?"
he rolled his eyes. "don't get used to it."
little shit.
you smirked, finally digging into your own breakfast, only to be interrupted by the sound of the front door opening.
jay was home. already?
he stepped into the kitchen, shrugging off his coat, his eyes scanning the scene in front of him. the not-burnt pancakes. seojun eating without complaint. and much to his disappointment—you, still alive.
his brow lifted in shock, "huh."
you glared at him, "what?"
jay leaned against the counter, arms crossed, "i figured you'd give up by now."
you scoffed. "sorry to disappoint."
seojun swallowed his bite, glancing between the two of you before shaking his head. "you guys fight too much. i thought adults were mature."
jay smirked. "we don't fight."
you scoffed. "we absolutely do."
"no, you just get mad when i say things that are true."
your eye twitched. "i literally hate you."
"see? fighting," seojun interrupts.
"oh my god."
seojun groaned, dropping his fork. "i liked it better when you were just burning pancakes."
jay chuckled, grabbing a coffee mug from the cabinet. "get used to it, kid."
you narrowed your eyes at him. if you weren't being forced into this, you would have walked out already.
but you were being forced into this.
which meant you had no choice but to deal with jay fucking park.
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babysitting, as you had quickly come to realize, was hell.
seojun was a tiny dictator with far too many opinions for a five-year-old. after breakfast, he interrogated you about your ability to tie shoelaces, your knowledge of dinosaurs, and whether or not you knew how to build a proper lego tower.
you did not, apparently.
"how do you not know how to build legos," he exclaims, his tiny hands waving in the air dramatically as he watches you go through a mental break down.
"well, i'm sorry. i didn't play with legos as a kid, i played with barbie's."
seojun twists his face in disgust, "barbie's? that's for girls."
you look at him with a deadpan expression, "i'm a girl."
"oh."
"what do you even do all day?" he asks, hands on his hips as he watched you struggle to connect two lego pieces. "i exist," you grumbled, scowling at the colorful bricks in front of you. "isn't that enough?"
seojun sighed. "you need better life skills."
"oh, i'm sorry, i didn't realize i was signing up for a performance review."
"i'm just saying," he shrugged, "i expected more from someone who's supposed to be an adult."
this kid.
"i'm only 23," you grumble to yourself. you exhaled sharply, deciding to ignore his judgment as you tried again to build something that wouldn't collapse within seconds.
but then—the sound of the front door opening.
jay was home. again.
you weren't sure why this surprised you. maybe because most ceos didn't have time to just pop in and out of their mansions all day. you begin to wonder, what was the point of having you babysit his son if he wasn't going to fuck off?
seojun perked up at the sound, immediately abandoning you and your lego struggles to run toward the living room. you followed, stopping just before the hallway, eyes landing on jay.
he was pulling off his coat, dressed in a fitted dress shirt and slacks, the sleeves rolled up just enough to reveal his forearms.
his oh so veiny and thick forearms.
not that you were looking.
except you were. damn it.
"why are you back?" you asked, forcing yourself to look anywhere else.
jay glanced at you, expression unreadable. "this is my house." answering you as if you were stupid and unable to comprehend basic knowledge.
"you know what i meant. don't you have stuff to do?" he walked past you, ruffling seojun's hair before grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge.
"had a meeting nearby," he said, twisting the cap off. "figured i'd check in."
"to make sure i haven't killed your son yet?"
jay smirked. "basically."
you rolled your eyes. "wow. the trust is overwhelming."
before jay could respond, seojun tugged at his sleeve.
"dad, she sucks at legos."
you gasped, glaring at the boy. "excuse me?"
jay chuckled, taking a sip of his water before glancing at you, "i can't say i'm surprised."
oh, that was it.
"you know what?" you huffed, hands on your hips. "if i suck so much, why don't you do it?"
jay's brow lifted. "you want me to build legos?"
"i want you to prove you're better," you challenged. "unless you're all talk, park."
then, to your absolute horror, he smirked. "fine," he said, setting his water down. "let's play."
oh.
you immediately regretted this.
twenty minutes later, and you had never felt so humiliated in your life.
"how the hell—" you gaped at the fully functional lego castle jay had built. "this is rigged."
jay leaned back, completely smug. "some of us have talent."
you glared. "some of us have jobs that should keep them too busy for this. old man."
seojun, sitting beside his dad, was thrilled.
"you suck at this," he declared.
"okay, you don't have to rub it in," you muttered, feeling sad that the older man had beat you.
jay stood, dusting off his hands. "guess that settles it. you suck, i don't. end of discussion."
you groaned. "i hate you."
jay smirked. "i know."
seojun clapped. "yay! dad wins!"
you slumped onto the couch, staring up at the ceiling. you were never agreeing to anything ever again. jay checked his watch. "i have another meeting. try not to lose to a five-year-old while i'm gone."
you didn't even have the energy to glare at him. but you did flip him off.
jay just laughed, disappearing out of your sight.
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babysitting seojun had somehow turned into babysitting jay's goddamn ego.
he was infuriating.
it had been a full week since you started watching seojun, and in that time, jay had developed an annoying habit of randomly showing up at home between meetings, offering you nothing but sarcasm, smugness, and unsolicited criticism.
"you can't cook."
"your attention span is worse than my son's."
"what do you actually contribute to society?"
you had held your tongue, barely, choosing to channel your rage into rolling your eyes so hard it was a miracle they hadn't gotten stuck.
but today? oh, today you were done playing nice.
"__, can we please go to the park?"
the boy had asked you nicely and hadn't bullied you all day, so you said yes as a reward. seojun had wanted to go to the park, so you took him. simple. no issues.
until jay called.
"where are you?" his voice came through the speaker, low and sharp.
did the fucker have a tracker on his kid or something?
"out," you answered, watching seojun run toward the swings. a small smile makes its way on your face as you watch him giggle and make himself comfortable on the swing. he waves his hands around, trying to catch your attention.
"push me, noona!" he squeals. you grin, making your way to seojun.
"out where?" you almost forget he was on the phone.
"does it matter?" you roll your eyes with a huff.
"jesus, __." his frustration crackled through the line. "you're with my kid. tell me where you are."
you sighed. "we're at the park five minutes from your house. calm down, dad of the year."
there was a pause."stay there. i'm coming."
he hung up before you could argue.
okay then...
you huffed, shoving your phone into your pocket.
"jay's being dramatic again," you muttered to yourself, giving the little boy a push as he squeals and giggles to himself.
"he does that a lot," seojun said wisely.
even his son agrees.
when jay arrived, he looked pissed. tight jaw. furrowed brows. stiff shoulders. his hair was tousled and his shirt was ruffled slightly as he stalked his way up to you.
hot.
not the point.
"you didn't tell me you were taking him out," he said, crossing his arms. his biceps bulged in his shirt, your mouth watering slightly before seojun's giggles break you out of your trance.
you mentally slap yourself for thirsting over the man. "because it wasn't a big deal," you shot back.
"it is when you're responsible for a five-year-old who isn't yours."
you groaned. "god, you're so controlling."
jay took a step closer. "and you're reckless."
"it's a park, not a battlefield."
"it's about responsibility, __." his voice dropped, tone edged with irritation. "but i wouldn't expect you to understand that."
you froze. "excuse me?"
jay tilted his head, eyes narrowing slightly. "you heard me."
oh, hell no.
you stepped closer, chin lifting defiantly. "what exactly is that supposed to mean?"
his gaze flickered over your face before settling on your eyes. "it means you're a little spoiled brat who doesn't know how to take care of herself let alone another person."
you scoffed. "oh, i'm sorry, are you my father now?"
"god, no," he muttered, running a hand through his hair. "i don't have the patience for that. but if i was, trust me, you'd be put in your place a long time ago."
you pause, your mind blanking at his words. "then stop acting like you know me."
jay let out a dry laugh. "oh, i know you just fine."
"bullshit."
his brows raised. "you think i don't see it? the way you pout when things don't go your way? how you expect everything to be handed to you? the way you act like the world owes you something?"
your hands clenched at your sides. "you don't know a damn thing about me."
fuck you. he did know you.
jay leaned in, his breath warm against your face. "i know enough."
your heartbeat spiked. not from anger. not entirely.
because up close, jay was all heat and intensity, his cologne clouding your senses, his voice a slow drag down your spine. your lips parted, a sharp retort on the tip of your tongue—but then he smirked.
that arrogant, knowing smirk.
and just like that, the spell broke.
you shoved him back, ignoring the way his chest was way too solid under your hands. "get over yourself, park." his expression darkens at your touch, the heat of your palms against his chest making his body twitch.
jay barely budged from your shove. but his smirk did fade.
his jaw tensed. his fingers curled into fists.
"watch yourself, __," he murmured, his voice darker than before. "you're playing a dangerous game."
so why did it feel like he wanted you to keep playing?
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
your entire body was on fire.
standing in jay's kitchen, chest heaving, hands curled into fists at your sides, you couldn't decide whether you wanted to slap him or...
no. not that.
for the past eight hours, you had been subjected to jay's controlling and condescending attitude. the constant comments, the smug little smirks, the way he seemed to take way too much pleasure in watching you struggle. you had tried, really tried, to keep your cool.
but now, standing in his sleek, modern kitchen, you were done.
"are you kidding me?" you scoffed, slamming the fridge shut. "you don't even have juice? what kind of psychopath only stocks sparkling water and black coffee?"
you were crashing out over some juice, for fucks sake.
jay barely looked up from his position, leaning against the counter, arms crossed over his broad chest. "a grown man who doesn't drink sugar like a child?"
your eyes narrowed. "oh, fuck off."
his lips twitched. "watch your mouth, princess."
princess. you hated when he called you that. hated the way it sent a pulse of heat through you, how it made your stomach twist and your thighs clench. you turned to glare at him. "why are you even here? don't you have some billionaire meeting to attend?"
he shrugged. "i cleared my schedule."
"why?"
jay's smirk deepened. "because i don't trust you alone in my house."
your jaw dropped. "excuse me? i think i've proved myself trust worthy in the last few weeks."
he pushed off the counter, stepping closer, his gaze lazy and unimpressed. "you're reckless. irresponsible. spoiled."
it was always the same few adjectives that he used to describe you, it was starting to grow old. your nails dug into your palms. "and you're a control freak." he hummed, pretending to consider. "maybe. but at least i don't go around crashing into people's cars and then whining when there are consequences."
oh, fuck him.
your nostrils flared. "it was a tiny scratch!"
jay arched a brow. "a tiny scratch that cost six figures."
you gritted your teeth. "maybe if you didn't drive a car worth more than some people's houses—"
"maybe if you learned how to drive—"
your breath came short, your heart pounding in your ears as you held yourself back from launching yourself onto jay and tackling him to the ground.
"you're so fucking full of yourself," you seethed, eyes locked on his, fury bubbling under your skin. "you walk around like you own the whole damn world." jay smirked, taking another step forward, forcing you to lift your head to keep glaring at him. "maybe because i do." you let out a humorless laugh, crossing your arms which, unbeknownst to you, pushed up your chest under your tank top. "god, you're insufferable."
jay swallowed a groan, he held in everything in him whenever you'd show up in your tiny shirts and skirts. giving a clear opportunity for his gaze to wander down your form.
he wondered if you wore those things intentionally— if you’d bend down in front of him with purpose, and genuinely, he was starting to think so. all the times you'd brush up against him when wearing your little skirts — how you'd push up your chest when you'd cross your arms in frustration — it was slowly driving him insane.
his eyes flickered over your posture, his smirk deepening as he watched your chest rise and fall heavily. "and yet, you're still here."
"i didn’t have a choice!" you snapped. "if it were up to me, i wouldn't be within ten miles of you."
he hummed, looking entirely too amused. "funny, considering the way you're looking at me right now."
your jaw clenched as you glared at him, "and how am i looking at you exactly?" jay tilted his head, studying you like he knew your every thought, every single fucking move you made. like he could see right through you— the way your breath came a little quicker, the way your fists weren't just curled in anger but in restraint of jumping his bones.
his voice dropped, soft but teasing. "like you want me."
your stomach flipped violently.
"fuck you," you spat.
his smirk didn't waver. "say the word, princess."
your whole body burned.
you wanted to wipe that arrogant smirk off his face, to shove him away, to yell at him until you couldn’t. but you also wanted to have him bend you over in the kitchen right then and now.
you sucked in a sharp breath, shaking your head. "this is ridiculous." jay took another step forward, erasing the last bit of space between you. his chest nearly brushed yours, his scent clean, musky, and undeniably him—flooding your senses.
thank god, seojun was asleep.
you refused to back down. refused to be the first to move. you maintain eye contact, your eyes flickering to his lips occasionally making your breath stutter.
his voice dropped lower, rough around the edges. "tell me to stop."
you should.
but you didn't.
because deep down, you knew this had been building for years. every heated glance, every sharp-tongued remark, every little touch that lasted a second too long—it had all been leading to this very moment.
you liked pushing him.
you weren't stupid, you knew there was an age gap—and that's what was holding him back.
12 years.
you were 23, and jay was 35.
so what?
it wasn't like he was some old man. if anything, he was in his prime—successful, powerful, hot as fuck. he carried himself like a man who had already conquered the world and wasn't pressed about proving anything to anyone.
except, apparently, to you.
because you made him nervous.
you saw it. the way his jaw clenched whenever you got too close, the way his eyes lingered on your legs when you crossed them or how they glanced down at your chest, the way he gripped his glass just a little tighter whenever you threw some bratty comment his way.
you knew he wanted you.
so why was he still fighting it? you knew the answer before you even asked yourself.
it was the age gap. he thought it was a big deal. he thought it mattered, and that pissed you off.
because to you, it wasn't about age. it was about power.
jay hated that he wanted you. hated that you weren't intimidated by him. hated that you saw right through his self-control. that you saw the way he stiffened when you brushed past him, saw the way his eyes darkened when you tested his patience.
you liked seeing him unravel.
he acted like he was above it, like he was some mature, responsible man who didn't get affected by a girl like you.
but you knew better.
because every time you got too close, every time you laughed at his scolding—you could see his self control break.
jay's fingers brushed against your waist, testing his limits.
your breath stuttered.
his smirk widened, "what's wrong?" he murmured. "cat got your tongue?"
"noona? dad?"
jay immediately pulls back as if your touch suddenly burned him. he looks at you in shock, as if you had made the first move.
little seojun had woken up from his nap, now stumbling into the kitchen half asleep. he immediately makes his way to you when he sees you cornered into the kitchens counters. "noona, i'm hungry," he mumbles before he's reaching his arms out indicating that he wants you to pick him up. you swallow harshly, leaning down to carry him before you shoot jay a sharp glare.
"how'd you sleep, jun?" you ask the boy, rubbing his back as he slowly regains his energy.
jay watches the scene with a heavy heart, seeing you and seojun get along was endearing. he never expected to see his son get close to another woman this way, let alone you—not after his wife.
"good. what were you and dad doing?"
you immediately whip your head around to stare at jay who looked equally as shocked.
"uhm."
"i was just helping, __ with her uh...hair. it got stuck in her necklace," jay fibbed, nervous that his son would catch onto his lies. he mentally curses himself for making his son so smart.
seojun just nods, still half asleep. "__, hair is long. pretty."
you smile down at seojun who has his head leaned against your chest. it was a rare occurrence that the little boy wasn't on your ass and teasing you, so you basked in his innocent silence.
"well, i'll be going now," jay coughs out lamely, turning around and walking out of the kitchen.
you roll your eyes, "what does junnie want to eat?"
"grilled cheese!"
"grilled cheese it is."
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
the day had been long and draining, filled with the usual chaos of babysitting seojun.
"noona, you burnt this side."
"the waters too cold, you're going to turn me into a popsicle!"
"it's a shame that you're not improving on your lego skills."
you had spent most of your day absorbed in your own thoughts, determined to keep your distance from jay's constant, prickly presence. you didn't know what was going between the two of you, but the constant teasing and proximity was starting to affect you—and you did not like that. but nothing could have prepared you for the moment when you saw his car pull into the driveway again.
it was late in the afternoon, your mind occupied with tidying up the living room after seojun's afternoon nap when you heard footsteps approaching. you looked up just in time to see jay step through the front door—this time, accompanied by a woman whose presence sent an unfamiliar twist of jealousy and confusion through your chest.
she was striking: tall, elegantly dressed, her dark hair falling perfectly around her shoulders. for a split second, your mind raced with possibilities. was she just a friend? a casual companion? or something more? the answer was not provided—jay made no attempt to introduce her with any clarity. he simply walked past you with a polite nod, the woman silently following at his side—not acknowledging your presence.
the bitter taste of jealousy swarmed you, she was exactly what you'd think jay would go for in a woman. beautiful and sophisticated.
you forced a neutral expression as you went about your tasks, though inside you seethed. you couldn't help but notice the way jay's hand briefly brushed against hers, the soft laughter they exchanged in the hallway, as if they shared an intimacy that you weren't meant to be a part of. every detail stung, and you kept your face impassive, not wanting to give him the satisfaction of seeing you riled up.
the rest of the night passed in a haze of quiet tension. seojun remained asleep in his room, unaware of the storm brewing between you and jay. you moved through your duties with mechanical efficiency, silently cursing the timing of his unexpected guest. every time you caught a glimpse of jay glancing in her direction or sharing a private smile, a bitter mixture of jealousy and humiliation washed over you. you had no idea why you felt this way—jay was never yours, and you were only here to babysit his son. yet, every little detail of that moment lingered painfully in your mind.
you wondered if the woman was seojun's mother, they shared a resemblance of some kind. jay had never mentioned seojun's mother before, and you had never asked. all you knew was jay was a single parent and the mother of his child was simply not in the picture.
unable to bear the emotional turmoil, you decided to leave earlier than usual. you slipped out of the house quietly, leaving a brief note on the counter that simply read, "i'm done for today." the cool night air hit your face as you got into the car, your driver picking you up.
the next morning, you arrived at jay's house for your babysitting shift, your mood still dark and distant. as usual, jay greeted you at the door with his characteristic calm, yet something in his eyes held a note of confusion. "good morning, __," he said, his tone neutral. "i'm glad you're here."
oh, are you now?
you gave a curt nod and stepped inside without making eye contact. throughout the day, you kept your responses short and your distance intentional. jay tried several times to spark small talk, commenting on seojun's behavior, asking how your night was—but you offered nothing more than a hum and silent stubborn stares.
by late afternoon, the tension had grown almost unbearable. the usual spark that might have accompanied a playful banter was replaced by a wall of silence that left the air thick. finally, after seojun was settled in his room for a nap, jay approached you in the quiet of the kitchen.
the silence in the room was palpable as you stood there, hands on your hips, glaring at jay. his presence in the room felt overwhelming, his posture relaxed, but his eyes sharp, never leaving yours. you were getting under his skin, and you could feel it.
the problem was, you liked it.
"you've been so difficult all day," he muttered, his voice low, almost a growl. "what's your problem?"
you crossed your arms, taking an exaggerated step back, trying to assert some space between you and him. the way his eyes followed you made the hairs on your neck stand up, and you hated it. you hated the effect he had on you. you hated how badly you wanted him even though you knew you never could.
"my problem? you're the one being impossible! i didn't sign up for this. i'm not your babysitter," you snapped, fighting the urge to back down. "your son isn't even the issue. it's you."
actually, it's the woman you brought home yesterday.
he raised an eyebrow, a smug smirk forming on his lips. "me? you're the one acting like a spoiled brat. maybe you should learn some patience."
your fingers clenched at your sides. the way he spoke to you, like he was trying to control you, was beyond irritating. you took another step back, but jay didn't move. instead, he shifted, closing the distance between the two of you in one fluid motion, trapping you against the counter. his chest was a mere inch from yours, his presence suffocating. it humoured you that you two always ended up on the same position, jay closing in on you.
"i don't need a bratty attitude right now. i've had a long day, and the last thing i need is you making it worse," he said, his voice barely above a whisper, but the edge to it sent a shiver down your spine.
"long day? you've been home all day! what's even the point of me being here if you're going to be up my ass," you hiss.
"__, enough," his tone low as he warned you.
your heart raced as you stared up at him. "what are you going to do about it, huh?" you shot back, not wanting to back down. you didn't know what it was about the situation. maybe it was the tension, how he made you feel when he was this close, or maybe it was just that damned smirk on his face.
jay's eyes darkened, a spark of something dangerous in them. "i think you need a reminder of who's in charge here."
your breath hitched, and you could feel the heat building between you, but you refused to give in. you had enough, you didn't need to deal with him. you pushed past him, walking toward the kitchen, only to feel a firm grip on your arm—strong, unyielding.
"don't walk away from me," jay growled, spinning you around to face him. you were so close now, you could feel the heat radiating off of his body.
his grip on your arm was firm and rough, but not rough enough to where it hurt. his knuckles turned white as he tries to hold himself back from pushing you against the nearest wall and have you at his mercy.
you glared up at him, your face flushed from the proximity and the argument, but you knew you weren't going to let him win. "you don't control me, jay," you said, trying to keep the defiance in your voice.
he smirked again, stepping closer so your arm was planted against his chest, forcing you to tilt your head just enough to meet his gaze. the air between you crackled with uncontrollable tension, keeping you on your toes for god knows how long. "you keep acting like this, and i'll make sure you know exactly who's in charge."
your breath caught. something shifted in the way he looked at you—a warning, a promise, a dare. the line between anger and attraction was blurring, and you weren't sure where one ended and the other began.
before you could respond, he stepped forward, backing you against the kitchen counter, again. his hand found the counter beside your hip, trapping you in place. his gaze dropped to your lips, then back to your eyes, his jaw tense.
"look at me," he said, voice low, almost a rasp. "if you want to keep pushing my buttons, go ahead. but i'll make sure you regret it."
your heart raced in your chest, your breath shallow, but you kept the same defiant expression. "you think you can scare me, jay?"
he leaned in closer, his breath warm against your ear. "i don't need to scare you, __. i just need to show you what happens when you push too far."
you stood there, rooted to the spot — your body trembling under the weight of his words, the unbreakable tension that had emerged between you two. his fingers brushed against your arm, and for a moment, you could feel the undeniable pull. the fight between you was reaching a breaking point, and you didn't know which way it would go.
but for the first time, you weren't sure if you wanted to fight anymore.
the tension was unbearable, and in the silence that followed, jay's hand moved to the back of your neck, pulling you closer. your body responded before your mind could—his lips brushed against yours in the smallest of touches, enough to send your pulse skyrocketing. he pulled back just as quickly, a dangerous smirk on his lips. "you're lucky i don't have time for this right now," he muttered, his tone sharp, but there was something else beneath it—a flicker of something more intense. "but don't think for a second this is over."
with that, he stepped back, giving you space to breathe again. you were left standing there, caught between fury and something else you couldn't quite name. your heart was racing, your mind spinning, but you refused to let him see how much he affected you. you turned away, trying to steady your breath, but the tension between you two was getting overbearing. it wasn't over. you both knew that.
but one thing was for sure—you were both playing a dangerous game. and neither of you was ready to stop.
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
the kitchen was quiet, the only sound being the slow, rhythmic ticking of the clock on the wall. you leaned your head against your hand, staring off into space and you rethink all of your life decisions.
you had spent more time at jay's home than your own for the last month—not that you minded. as much as you hated to admit, seojun had grown on you. what you hated was how you didn't get to enjoy your summer how you originally wished, with your friends—getting drunk and high, maybe dosing on random shit at some frat party.
minho had been blowing up your phone for the last few weeks, asking, no—begging to hang out.
"__, why have you left me?" he groaned dramatically into your ear when you finally picked up his calls.
you rolled your eyes, "i told you i was going to be trapped, but no, you didn't want to take me seriously."
"i didn't think that you'd have any days off. can you ask for one day off, please? i miss my best friend," he pleas. if you could see him right now, he'd most definitely be flashing puppy dog eyes at you.
you sighed, "fine, i'll try to ask jay. but if he says no and i get scolded, i swear to god.” you'd ask jay if you could have the weekend off when he got back home.
you sat perched on one of the barstools, one knee drawn up, the other foot lazily swinging. your fingers traced the rim of a glass of water you hadn't even taken a sip from. seojun had gone to bed over an hour ago, his tiny body curled up under his blankets, blissfully unaware that his father still wasn't home.
you, on the other hand, were all too aware.
your phone sat face-up on the counter beside you, dark and undisturbed. no messages. no missed calls. nothing.
jay was late. really late.
your brows knitted together in irritation. you weren't sure why you cared so much—it wasn't your problem if he wanted to stay out all night. you weren't his wife, his girlfriend, or even someone he owed an explanation to. you were just the babysitter, forced into the role by your father's guilt. but something about his absence, about the way he hadn't even bothered to check in, made irritation simmer beneath your skin.
your knee bounced impatiently as you stared at the front door, waiting.
then, finally—the sound of keys jingling.
the door swung open, and jay stepped inside, looking unfairly put together for someone who had clearly spent the night out. his dark button-up was slightly unbuttoned at the top, the sleeves rolled up just enough to reveal his forearms. his black dress pants hung low on his hips, and his hair—slightly tousled like he'd run his fingers through it. he looked so good it made your stomach twist in frustration.
he barely even looked at you at first. instead, he sighed, rubbing the back of his neck as he kicked off his shoes. it was only when he turned toward the kitchen that his eyes finally met yours.
he slowed to a stop.
you pretended not to notice the way his gaze flickered down, the momentary pause as his eyes dragged over your frame. you were only wearing a thin tank top and an old pair of shorts—the kind you only ever wore to bed, soft and barely covering your thighs. but the way jay's eyes darkened for just a split second, the way his jaw tensed, told you everything you needed to know.
he was flustered.
good.
he covered it quickly, masking whatever flicker of thoughts had just crossed his mind with that insufferable smirk of his.
"you're still up?" he asked, his voice as smooth as ever.
you rolled your eyes, shifting in your seat just enough to make the hem of your shorts ride up slightly. "obviously."
jay's gaze flickered downward again, just for a second. you caught it, and your lips twitched. "what, were you waiting for me?"
you scoffed, tilting your head. "don't flatter yourself. but since i'm responsible for your kid while you're off doing god knows what, yeah, i was expecting you to come home at a reasonable hour." jay exhaled sharply, finally stepping fully into the kitchen. he walked past you to the fridge, and you didn't miss the way his shoulders squared slightly—like he was trying to shake off whatever thoughts had just plagued his mind.
"seojun was fine, wasn't he?" he asked, grabbing a bottle of water and twisting the cap off.
"that's not the point," you shot back, crossing your arms over your chest. "the least you could do is let me know when you're coming home late. or is common courtesy too much to ask from a man like you?"
"plus, what's this sudden trust coming from? just a week ago you talked about how you had to monitor me because you didn't trust me to take care of seojun." jay let out a low chuckle, taking a slow sip of water before leaning back against the counter.
"jesus, you're dramatic," he muttered, shaking his head. "were you worried about me?" completely ignoring the other things you had said.
you clenched your jaw. "no," you lied smoothly. "i just don't appreciate being left in the dark. i'm not some live-in nanny, jay. if i'm stuck here, i at least deserve to know when you're coming home. look at the time, it's 1am, what time do i even go home?” his tongue ran over his bottom lip as he tilted his head slightly. "you're acting like i abandoned you here with seojun."
"you might as well have."
jay exhaled through his nose, clearly annoyed now. "you really don't let shit go, do you?" you smiled sweetly. "not when it's my time being wasted."
he shook his head, muttering something under his breath. then, after a beat, he glanced back up at you, his gaze sharp and unreadable."or maybe," he said, voice slower, "this isn't about me coming home late at all."
your stomach twisted, but you refused to let your expression falter. jay took a step closer, arms crossing over his chest. "maybe this is about something else." you scoffed. "like what?" his lips twitched like he knew something you didn't. "like the other night," he murmured. your brows furrowed, but he didn't give you time to respond.
"you're mad about the woman i brought home." your body tensed before you could stop it, and that slight reaction was all jay needed to confirm his suspicions. his smirk widened.
"i don't care who you bring home," you said quickly, hoping he wouldn't call you out on how unconvincing you sounded. "mm," jay hummed, unconvinced. "so if i told you that woman was mi-na, my sister, you wouldn't feel stupid for being jealous?"
you blinked. the irritation in your chest fizzled out for a moment, replaced by confusion. "your—your sister?" jay's grin widened. "yeah. my little sister. the one who came to visit for the weekend." your face burned. you had spent the past two days brooding over nothing.
but you refused to let him win.
"whatever," you muttered, crossing your arms again—the action causing your tits to spill out of from the top. "i wasn't jealous." his eyes immediately zero in on your chest, swallowing harshly before he lets out a chuckle—stepping closer. you could feel the warmth of his body now, his scent lingering in the space between you. "yeah?" he murmured, voice dipping. "then why are you blushing?"
"i'm not."
jay reached out, his fingers grazing the hem of your shorts before ghosting over your hip. his touch was barely there, but it made your breath hitch, "you sure?"
your heart pounded. your skin tingled where his fingers had been. but you refused to back down. "you're insufferable," you gritted out. jay smirked, his fingers teasing along your hip before pulling away just as quickly. "and yet, you're still here."
"forced to be here," you mutter under your breath, but jay heard it. your body was on fire, your skin still warm from where he had touched you. but you wouldn't give him the satisfaction of a reaction. "i hate you," you muttered, turning away. jay only chuckled, voice rich with amusement. "whatever you say, princess."
you rolled your eyes at him, getting off of the barstool as you make your way to the living room to grab your belongings and change out of your clothes—preparing to go home. "wait. stay the night, it's late," he says coolly, his eyes racking down your frame as you bend down to grab your things.
your shorts had bunched over your ass, your legs on full display to his hungry eyes. jay mentally slaps himself for his gaze, but it continues to linger. you scoff, "and who's fault is that?" jay sighs, his brows furrowing, "quit being a brat. i'll get a room set up for you," and with that he walks away—setting his decision into stone.
as much as you wanted to argue, to remind him that you had your own place to go back to. jay had already walked off, leaving no room for discussion. "asshole," you muttered under your breath, but you still set your bag down on the couch with an annoyed sigh.
jay's house was big—too big for just him and seojun. it had that cold, modern look, with spotless marble floors and sleek furniture, the kind that felt more like a showroom than a home. you doubted he spent much time here outside of work and parenting, and somehow, that made it worse.
you waited a few minutes before deciding to move, begrudgingly heading toward the guest room he'd set up for you. it was next to his, with seojun just down the hall. as you stepped inside, you had to admit—he at least had good taste. the bed was huge, covered in soft gray sheets, and the room smelled faintly of clean linen.
but there was one problem.
the pillows sucked. they were flat and thin, one would think that someone as rich as jay had good quality pillows. with a dramatic huff, you rolled onto your back, staring at the ceiling before finally giving in to your annoyance. you deserved at least one decent pillow if you were being forced to stay here. without much thought, you swung your legs off the bed and padded down the hall toward jay's room. the door was slightly ajar, and you didn't bother knocking—if he was going to boss you around all night, you had no problem returning the favor.
"hey, do you have—"
you stopped dead in your tracks, mouth suddenly dry.
jay was standing near his dresser, shirtless, his toned back facing you as he ruffled a towel through his damp hair. he must have just taken a shower because his skin still glistened slightly, water droplets trailing down the sharp lines of his shoulders and back. your eyes dipped lower, taking in the way his sweatpants hung low on his hips, revealing just enough of the defined v-line that disappeared beneath the waistband. you should've looked away. you should've turned around and walked out like you hadn't just shamelessly checked him out.
but you didn't.
instead, you stood there, gripping the doorframe a little too hard as heat crept up your neck. jay finally noticed your presence, turning slightly to glance over his shoulder. his dark eyes flickered with amusement as he caught the way you quickly averted your gaze.
"something you need?" his voice was deeper, rougher, probably from exhaustion, but it still sent an embarrassing shiver down your spine. you cleared your throat, forcing yourself to meet his gaze. "i need another pillow." his lips twitched, and you hated the way his smirk made your stomach flip. "you barged into my room for a pillow?"
"it's not my fault the ones in the guest room suck," you shot back, crossing your arms over your chest. jay turned fully now, walking toward you with that lazy confidence that always managed to get under your skin. you took an instinctive step back, but he reached the doorway before you could fully escape, his tall frame now blocking your path.
"you always this demanding, or do you just save it for me?" he mused, tilting his head slightly as his eyes dragged over your face, down to the curve of your throat, lingering there a second too long. your breath caught, but you refused to let him have the satisfaction of seeing you flustered. "i wouldn't have to demand anything if you had done it right the first time."
jay let out a quiet chuckle, shaking his head. "always got an attitude." you were about to snap back when you noticed his gaze flicker downward, his smirk faltering for just a second. it was quick, barely noticeable, but you caught it—the way his eyes lingered on your tank top. his eyes zeroed in on your chest, you had taken off your bra when you got into the room—your nipples poking out of the thin fabric.
you raised an eyebrow, a slow smirk tugging at your lips now. "something wrong?" jay's jaw ticked, and just like that, his expression was back to that unreadable mask. "go to bed, __." you should've listened. you should've taken the damn pillow he handed you and walked out. but the way his voice had dropped an octave, the way his fingers had brushed against yours when he passed it to you, sent a thrill through you that you weren't ready to let go of just yet.
so instead, you lingered.
"why? am i making you nervous?" you teased, tilting your head up at him, watching for any crack in his composure. jay let out a low breath, his hand gripping the doorframe as he leaned in just slightly. "trust me," he murmured, his voice low and dangerous, "if you were making me nervous, you'd know." the air between you was heavy, thick with something unspoken, something that neither of you were willing to address just yet.
but it was there. and it wasn't going anywhere.
jay finally took a step back, running a hand through his still-damp hair before nodding toward the hall. "go to bed, __." this time, you listened. but as you walked back to your room, pillow in hand, you couldn't ignore the way your skin still burned from his gaze. and from the way he had looked at you, you knew you weren't the only one feeling it.
it was just a matter of time before one of your cracked.
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
the sizzle of bacon filled the kitchen as you flipped another pancake onto the growing stack. you had seriously improved on your cooking skills in the last month you had been taking care of seojun. the pancakes were round, crispy and the perfect shade of golden brown.
the morning light streamed in through the floor-to-ceiling windows, casting a golden glow over the countertops. you had woken up early, deciding to make seojun's favorite breakfast before he got up.
but, apparently, you weren't the only one awake.
a warm presence appeared behind you, and before you could react, a large hand reached out toward the plate. without looking, you smacked it away. "ow," jay muttered, shaking his hand. "what the hell?"
"it's for seojun." you barely spared him a glance as you poured more pancake batter into the pan. jay let out a low, sleepy sigh, ruffling his already messy hair. his dark strands fell over his forehead, making him look effortlessly good despite just rolling out of bed. dressed in sweatpants and a fitted t-shirt, he leaned against the counter, watching you with a lazy gaze.
curse him for looking so good.
"so i don't get breakfast?" he asked, a small pout gracing his face.
"nope," you said simply, reaching for another egg. he scoffed, pushing off the counter to stand beside you, crowding your space. "wow. what kind of babysitter are you? neglecting the person who actually pays you." you rolled your eyes. "oh, please. you don't pay me."
"you live in my house, eat my food, use my water." his voice was dripping with smugness. "sounds like payment to me." you narrowed your eyes at him. "your house? last i checked, my dad is the reason you even have half your company's assets."
jay just smirked, watching the way your brows furrowed in irritation. he loved getting under your skin. before you could throw another insult his way, you decided to change the subject. "anyway, i wanted to ask if i could have the weekend off. i wanna go out with my friends." jay, who had just taken a sip of his coffee, barely reacted. "fine."
you blinked. that was easy. too easy.
"minho's driving, so i don't have to worry about taking my car, that means no chance for accident. he's a pretty good driver, i actually learned how to drive from him," you added casually, turning back to the stove. jay froze. the silence was thick enough to make you glance over your shoulder. his expression had darkened. his grip on his coffee mug tightened.
"he?"
you frowned. "yeah. minho. my friend." jay set his mug down slowly, the sound of ceramic meeting marble eerily sharp. "no."
you turned fully to face him. "no?"
jay leaned against the counter, his posture too relaxed, too controlled. but the tension in his shoulders betrayed him. "you're not going."
your brows shot up. "why not?" jay took another sip of his coffee, completely unfazed. "i need you here."
you scoffed. "for what?"
"seojun likes having you around."
"seojun will be fine for one weekend,” you retorted. jay tilted his head, pretending to think. "hmm. no, i don't think so."
you let out an exasperated laugh. "you literally just said i could go." jay shrugged. "i changed my mind."
"bullshit," you snapped. jay's eyes flickered with something dangerous. "watch your mouth."
you rolled your eyes. "you're just mad because minho is a guy." jay didn't react at first. then, slowly, he placed his coffee cup down and took a step closer to you.
got him.
you refused to back away. "you don't know what you're talking about," he said, voice low, controlled. "don't i?" you shot back, all of sudden feeling smug. "it's not my fault you can't stand the idea of me spending time with another man."
jay's jaw ticked. "this isn't about me." you let out a humorless laugh. "sure it isn't." he stepped even closer, forcing you to tilt your head up to meet his gaze. the space between you was nonexistent, his body radiating heat.
"you think i care that much?" his voice was nearly a whisper now, but there was an edge to it. "you think i'm losing sleep over who you spend your time with?" you smirked. "seems like it."
you were right.
jay's fingers curled into fists at his sides. you could feel the restrained tension rolling off of him in waves. "you're not going," he said again, this time firmer. you crossed your arms. "and what if i do?"
jay exhaled through his nose, his patience running thin. "you won't," he said simply, his confidence making your skin prickle with irritation. "watch me," you challenged. jay's lips curled into something that wasn't quite a smirk but wasn't amusement either. "you really wanna test me right now?" the way he said it sent a shiver down your spine, but you refused to show weakness.
"maybe i do," you whispered. jay's gaze dropped to your lips for the briefest second before he clenched his jaw and stepped back, running a hand through his hair. "fine," he muttered, grabbing his coffee. "do whatever the hell you want."
you frowned. that was... unexpected.
he turned on his heel and walked toward the living room. but then, just as he reached the doorway, he glanced over his shoulder. "but don't come crawling back when you realize no one else can handle you like i do."
and with that, he disappeared down the hall, leaving you standing there, heart pounding, fists clenched.
jay cursed at himself for wearing his feels on his sleeve. it felt wrong for him to feel the way he did about you. jay hated thinking about the numbers.
12 years. he was 12 years older than you. it shouldn't have mattered.
right?
jay had spent his whole life doing whatever the hell he wanted, without a single care for what people thought. he made decisions with confidence, stood by them, and never looked back. but with you? you made him hesitate.
you were 23. young, reckless, still figuring out life. and jay? he was 35, a father, a man who had seen and done everything—a man who should have known better. but fuck, he didn't feel old when he was around you.
you were a problem. not because you were immature. no, that wasn't it. you were sharp, stubborn as hell, constantly challenging him, constantly making him feel like he was the one being tested. but that was the problem.
you weren't a little girl with naive ideas about love and life. you were a grown woman, a dangerous woman, who looked at him like he was something worth teasing, something worth playing with.
and he let you. god, he let you.
you tested his patience like no one else. you talked back, you got under his skin, you pushed him to his limit. you walked around his house like you belonged there, like you belonged to him. in those tiny shorts and tight tops, throwing him looks you knew would drive him up the wall.
it wasn't just the way you looked. it was the way you knew. you knew exactly what you were doing to him, and jay hated himself for liking it. because he shouldn't want you.
he shouldn't want you the way he did—shouldn't think about you at night. he shouldn't imagine what it would be like to take what you clearly wanted to give him. he told himself, over and over, that it was just a stupid attraction. that it was nothing more than an itch he could ignore. he had to hold himself back from giving into your temptations every time he had you cornered, telling himself that it was wrong.
but his restraint was starting to fall weak.
but then you'd bite your lip and roll your eyes at him. or you'd throw some snarky remark his way, just to get a reaction. or worse—you'd act like he wasn't a threat at all, like he was just some older guy who didn't intimidate you in the slightest.
it fucking killed him. because the truth was, the age gap only mattered when it worked against him. when it made him hesitate. when it made him question himself.
but when you smiled at him like that—when you pushed his buttons and made him feel like a man, not a father, not a boss, not some guy who should be acting his age.
he didn't give a fuck about the numbers. and he surely didn't give a fuck about some boy who thought he could have you, when you belonged here—with him.
this wasn't over. not by a long shot.
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
you had been looking forward to this all week.
a night out. no responsibilities. no bratty five-year-old testing your patience. no jay fucking park. the music was loud, the bass thrumming through your body as you nursed your drink. the club was packed, neon lights flickering against a sea of bodies, and for once, you could finally breathe.
"so," minho drawled, draping an arm over your shoulders, "you gonna tell me why you've been checking your phone like a girl waiting for a text from her sneaky link?" you rolled your eyes, shoving his arm off. "i have not been checking my phone."
minho gave you a knowing look, sipping his beer. "uh-huh. so you're just casually looking down at your bag every five minutes? right." you huffed, taking a sip of your cocktail instead of responding. but then, as if on cue, your phone buzzed again.
you peeked at the screen.
jay (23 missed calls).
you turned the phone face down. minho whistled. "jesus. who the hell is blowing you up like that?"
"no one important," you muttered. minho smirked. "sure. that's why you look like you're about to throw your phone across the club."
"it's just—" you sighed, running a hand through your hair. "it's jay. he thinks he owns my time." minho raised an eyebrow. "the rich, single-dad jay?"
"the asshole jay," you corrected.
"so why don't you answer?"
"because i'm off tonight," you said, exasperated. "and whatever he wants can wait." minho chuckled. "damn. he must be real desperate if he's calling you this much."
you were about to brush it off, but then another buzz. you groaned. "i swear to god, if this man does not—"
but then you read the message.
jay: seojun has a fever. it's bad. he keeps asking for you.
your stomach dropped. "shit," you muttered, grabbing your bag.
"it's not for him," you said quickly. "it's for seojun." minho sighed, grabbing your wrist before you could dart off. "you really think this isn't a setup?"
you hesitated.
minho's voice softened. "look, i don't know this dude. but if he's calling this much, and now suddenly the kid is sick on the one night you're not there? sounds sketchy as hell."
"minho," you sighed. "i don't have time for this." minho raised his hands in surrender. "fine, fine. but if he's lying, you owe me a drink."
"deal." you had practically sprinted out of the club, gotten into a cab, and rushed over in record time.
when you got to jay's house, you were pissed. the second you stepped inside, you knew something was off. the house was dimly lit, silent. too silent. you stormed down the hall toward seojun's room, but before you could even reach for the door the sound of clapping stops you.
slow, deliberate claps echoed behind you. you turned, and there he was. jay park, leaning against the wall, arms crossed over his broad chest, wearing a smirk that made your blood boil. "look who finally decided to show up."
your heart was still racing, the adrenaline from the panic you felt for seojun's health still surging through your veins. but now, it wasn't panic—it was anger. "what the hell is wrong with you?" his voice was low, rough, his grip firm around your wrist as he yanked you away from seojun's room and into his own—slamming the door shut behind you.
your heart pounded, still catching up to everything. rushing out of the party, speeding over here, the sickening worry that had settled in your gut the moment you saw his message about seojun. but now, standing here, looking at him, you soon realized. seojun wasn't sick.
the house was quiet, the lights dim. you peeked past jay, your brows furrowing. "where's seojun?"
"asleep," he said, his tone maddeningly casual. your eyes snapped back to his. "what?" jay didn't let go of your wrist, his grip tightening just slightly as he stepped closer. "he's asleep," he repeated, slower this time, like he was spelling it out for you.
the realization hit, sharp and cold. "you lied to me?" his jaw clenched. "what was i supposed to do, huh?" you yanked your arm back, glaring. "i don't know, maybe not fucking manipulate me?"
jay's lips curled into something that wasn't quite a smirk, but held just enough arrogance to make you want to slap it off his face. "and if i didn't? you would've stayed out all night with him?" you exhaled sharply through your nose, shaking your head. "are you serious?" jay stepped forward, closing the space between you in an instant. your breath caught when your back hit the wall, his body mere inches from yours.
"tell me," he murmured, voice lower now, softer—but no less dangerous. "did he touch you?" your stomach flipped, heat rushing up your spine. "minho is my friend," you gritted out.
jay's hand lifted, fingers brushing against your chin. "did he touch you?" he asks again, his tone threatening. you turned your head away, jaw clenching. "you're insane." his fingers caught your chin, gently but firmly turning your face back to his. "i don't like repeating myself, sweetheart."
the pet name sent something electric through your veins. you hated that it did. "and i don't like being controlled," you shot back, voice sharp.
jay let out a quiet chuckle, dark and humorless. "funny, because you sure came running when i told you to." your face burned. you hated that he was right. his thumb brushed over your bottom lip, almost absentmindedly, like he was testing something. his eyes flickered down for a fraction of a second, then back up. you hated that even now, with how pissed you were, your body still reacted to him. the way he carried himself, the way he looked at you, the way his voice dipped just low enough to make your stomach flip. you shook your head, trying to push past him, but jay grabbed your wrist, pulling you back.
"let me go," you snapped. "or what?" his grip didn't tighten, but he didn't let go either. "you gonna run back to him?"
your brows furrowed. "what?" jay exhaled a short, humorless laugh. "minho," he bit out, like the name itself annoyed him. "you think i don't know where you were? at the club. surrounded by men. men that would eat you alive if you gave them the chance."
you glared. "you don't get to be mad about that." his eyes darkened. "the hell i don't." you tugged your arm back, finally breaking free. "you're not my fucking boyfriend, jay. i don't owe you anything."
his jaw ticked, but he didn't say anything. you scoffed. "god, this is ridiculous. i'm leaving." before you could take another step, jay moved. one second you were standing there, and the next, your back was against the wall, jay towering over you, his hands planted beside your head.
"you're not going anywhere," he murmured. your breath hitched. "you ran the second you thought seojun needed you," he said, voice lower now, rougher. "but what about when i need you, huh?"
your chest tightened. "you—" jay leaned in, his lips barely an inch from yours. "you think i don't see it?" your pulse pounded against your skin. "see what?" you respond, almost breathless. his hand lifted, fingers brushing over your jaw, tilting your face up to meet his, "how bad you want me."
your breath stuttered. "you can play your little games all you want, sweetheart," jay murmured. "but we both know where you belong."
"you belong here," he murmured. "not out there, playing games with some guy who doesn't even know what to do with you." your breath hitched. "and you do?" jay didn't answer immediately. he just looked at you—really looked at you. his hand moved, sliding down the side of your neck, fingers grazing over your pulse point, feeling the rapid beat beneath his touch.
then, he leaned in, voice barely above a whisper. "you have no idea."
your breath hitched. he was so close now, his cologne wrapping around you, his body heat pressing into yours. you swallowed hard. "you don't own me, jay."
his jaw ticked. "maybe not." his gaze dropped, trailing down your frame. you were still in your club outfit—tight dress, heels, your skin still warm from the alcohol. his tongue darted out, running over his bottom lip. "but you still came running, didn't you?"
your pulse pounded in your ears, attempting to move out of his hold only for him to pin you down with his hips. "you're not leaving," he murmured, voice dangerously low. you lifted your chin defiantly. "watch me."
jay exhaled a sharp laugh, shaking his head. "you're so fucking difficult."
"because i don't let you control me?" you shot back. he tilted his head. "because you pretend you don't like it."
your stomach flipped. jay leaned in, so close his breath ghosted over your cheek. "you want me to let you go?" he asked, his tone deceptively soft.
your throat bobbed. his fingers traced the inside of your wrist, featherlight, sending shivers up your arm. "say the word," he whispered. "say you don't like it when i tell you what to do."
your heart hammered against your ribs. but you didn't say anything.
because you didn't want to lie.
jay smirked. "thought so." his thumb brushed against your jaw, tilting your chin up. your lips were inches apart. you were still angry. furious. but that fury burned into something else, something hotter, something more dangerous. you should leave. you should shove him away.
but you didn't move. neither did he.
and in that moment, you both knew. you weren't going anywhere.
his eyes narrow down to your lips, something switches in his gaze—almost as if he had finally had enough.
"fuck this," he mutters lowkey before he's crashing his lips onto yours. your eyes widen in surprise, feeling his lips mold onto your own as you stand frozen in shock. you feel jay run his hands down your side, situating themselves on your ass as he squeezes your fleshy mounds. you gasp into his mouth, jay seizing the opportunity to push his tongue into your mouth.
you moan when you feel jay grip your bare ass, lifting your short dress up to your hips—your arms wrapping around his neck as you push yourself up against him. "you think you can go see other men while you spend your days with me and my son?" he says against your lips, his grip on you getting rougher as pushes your dress up higher. you groan against him, "minho is my—" you try to explain only for a sharp smack to interrupt you.
he had spanked you.
your mouth drops open in shock, "what the f—" jay's hauling you up, your legs now wrapped around his waist as he pushes you down on his painfully hard cock. "i don't care who he is. you're not to be alone with another man," he says gruffly, dropping you down onto his bed.
you're flat against his soft linen sheets, legs now spread apart roughly by jay who stares down at you with a dark glint in his eyes. you glare up at him, breathless. "you can't tell me what to do." jay scoffs, leaning over you, one hand gripping your thigh as he spreads you open further. "the hell i can't," he murmurs, voice low and rough. "you think you can act like a brat, push me to my limit, and then run off to another man?"
"it's not like that," you argue, voice shaking, but he just smirks, eyes flickering down to where your dress is bunched up around your waist. "doesn't matter," he says, dragging a rough hand up your thigh. "you're mine. do you understand that?" you bite your lip, refusing to answer, which only makes jay angrier. he grips your chin, forcing you to look at him. "say it," he demands. "say you're mine."
you tilt your head defiantly. "make me." jay lets out a dark chuckle, his grip tightening. "oh, you don't want me to do that, sweetheart." he leans in, lips brushing against your ear. "because if i do, you won't be able to walk out of here, much less run to him."
"yeah right," you scoff, taking his threats lightly but your heart still stutters in your chest. his chest heaves up and down erratically, as if he was fighting himself from what he was about to do to you. his expression turning grim at his words yet his eyes sparking up in excitement. he finally had you where he wanted you, and not even god could pull him away.
he reaches to pull off his shirt, your mouth watering when you see his toned abdomen come into sight. jay took pride in his body, eating well and working out consistently to maintain himself throughout his years.
he grabs your hips roughly, a small squeal leaving your mouth when he drags you to the edge of the bed—your core connecting with his crotch. your legs wrap around his waist automatically while he kneels on the bed—looming over you. jay's hand grips your waist firmly as he stares down at you, his jaw tight with frustration. "you really don't listen, do you?"
you smirk up at him, still feeling defiant. "i listen just fine. i just don't take orders from you." his eyes darken at your words, and before you can react, his palm comes down sharply against your thigh. the sharp sting makes you yelp, your body jerking against the bed.
your mouth drops open in shock. "jay, what the—" another smack lands, this time on the curve of your ass, harder. your whole body tenses, the heat from his palm lingering. "you don't take orders from me?" jay scoffs, pushing your legs off of him before he's flipping you over and dragging you up so you're on your hands and knees—arching your back just the way he wants. "then why do you keep acting out just to get my attention?"
"i'm not—ah!" you gasp when another slap lands, harder than before, making your skin burn. jay leans over you, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear. "minho doesn't get to see you like this," he growls, his hand smoothing over the spot he just punished, before giving you another harsh slap.
smack!
smack!
smack!
your fingers clutch at the sheets as you let out a broken whimper. "you belong to me," he murmurs, his voice thick with possession. "and i'm going to make sure you never forget that." he looks down at the sight in front of him, just how he had always wanted you to end up. bent over for him, battling submission as he forces you into it. your behind was a bright red, your panties doing a poor job at hiding your soaked core.
"fuck," jay groans, his palm smoothing over the burning skin of your ass before landing another sharp slap. you jolt, gasping, but his grip on your waist keeps you from moving an inch. "such a fucking brat. but you love this, don't you?" you bite your lip, refusing to answer, but jay sees right through you. his fingers trail up your spine, sending shivers down your back. "you fight me, you push me, but at the end of the day—" he lands another slap, harder this time, making you cry out. "—you always end up right here."
his voice dips lower, rough with something dangerous. something raw. "you don't even realize what you do to me, do you?" he mutters, his lips brushing against your temple as he pulls you up against his chest. his breath is hot against your ear. "watching you play house with me and seojun. cooking breakfast, tucking him into bed, walking around my home like you belong here." his hands tighten on your hips, and you can feel how hard he is, pressing against you with no shame.
his lips graze your jaw. "you love it too, don't you?"
"jay—"
"shh." his grip slides up, fingers curling around your throat—not tight, just enough to remind you who's in control. "you act like you don't, but i see the way you are with him. how soft you get when you think no one's watching. how you look at me when i come home late and you're the first thing i see standing in my kitchen." he chuckles darkly, dragging his lips down your neck. "you play the role so fucking well, baby. the perfect little wife—except you're still a goddamn brat." his confession makes your breath hitch. you can feel it now, how deep this runs for him. how much he's wanted this—wanted you.
"you think i don't see the way you tease me?" jay murmurs against your skin, his teeth grazing the shell of your ear. "walking around my house in those tiny fucking shorts, looking at me with those defiant little eyes, making me chase after you like some desperate idiot." his hand lands sharp smack on your thigh, and you let out a whimper before you can stop yourself. jay groans, gripping your throat even tighter. "fuck, i love that sound. love every little thing about you."
his words send a thrill through you, heat pooling low in your stomach. "i love this, baby," he murmurs, voice thick with hunger. "love your bratty little mouth. love putting you in your place. love how you fight me just so i can take you apart like this." he kisses the corner of your mouth, his grip firm, unrelenting. "and you love it too, don't you?" your breath is shaky, but you refuse to give in so easily. "i hate you," you whisper, even as your body melts against his. jay chuckles, dark and knowing. "you hate how much you love this."
"you're delusional."
his hands roam lower, his lips finding yours in a heated, possessive kiss. you're drowning in him, in the fire between you. and as much as you want to fight it, you already know—jay park always gets what he wants. and right now, what he wants is you. he grips your arms, a small whine escaping your mouth when he manhandles them behind you. he pushes you back down, "oh, princess. you're going to eat your own words."
you feel something wrap around your wrists, your eyes widening when you realize what he was doing. he had taken off his belt, wrapping the leather material around your arms to stop you from moving around. everything happens so quick, your pushed flat against your back with jay now face to face with your throbbing core. his fingers dug into the plush of your thigh, holding them back from closing. "look at you," he coos softly, looking at giant wet patch on your panties as you squirm in shame.
"fuck you," you spit weakly. he smirks, "we'll get to that, princess. we have all night." you mewl when you feel him lick up your covered slit, his tongue tracing up your cunt as he digs into your thighs. you buck your hips up, jay's laughter making you stop your actions. "so fucking needy. you must be so used to getting what you want, hm? my spoiled bratty princess," he hums.
you huff, "do it." he raises his eyebrows in faux confusion, "do what?"
you rolls your eyes, "take them off and eat my pussy."
his smug expression drops at your bratty words, "seems like you haven't learned anything from earlier." you open your mouth to retort only for a sharp pain between your legs to stop you. you squeal out in surprise, jay landed another strong smack to your centre. "it's okay, by the end of this i'll have you begging and crying. then you'll finally behave yourself."
your body jolts at the sharp sting between your legs, a breathy gasp slipping past your lips before you can stop it. jay tilts his head, watching you with dark amusement, his hands never loosening their grip on your thighs. "there she is," he murmurs, fingers tracing slow, teasing circles along your skin. "i was starting to think you'd never stop running your mouth." your wrists pull against the restraint of his belt, but it's useless—he's tied you up too well. the frustration bubbles in your chest, mixing with the unbearable heat pooling in your stomach.
"you're such an ass," you hiss, glaring up at him. jay only smirks, completely unfazed. "and yet, you're still here. still dripping for me." his fingers ghost over the soaked fabric of your panties, pressing down just enough to make you whimper. you try to twist away from his touch, refusing to give him the satisfaction, but jay isn't having it. he grips your hips firmly, keeping you in place, his strength making it clear that resistance is pointless.
"you keep fighting me like you have a choice," he scoffs, his lips brushing against the sensitive skin of your inner thigh. "but we both know how this ends, don't we, princess?" your breathing is ragged, your body betraying you as he drags his lips higher. your skin burns where he touches, and the worst part is—you want more. but you refuse to admit it.
"you're crazy," you bite out, even as your body shudders at his touch. jay chuckles, his breath hot against your core. "am i?" his fingers curl around the waistband of your panties, tugging them down at an agonizing pace. "because from where i'm sitting, you're the one desperate for me." the flimsy fabric landing on the floor as he situates himself right front of your leaking cunt. he pauses, eyes locking onto yours with a wicked glint. "and the best part? you know i'm right."
your lips part, a sharp retort on the tip of your tongue—but before you can say anything, jay moves, leaving you utterly speechless. his tongue comes down to run over your bare slit, moaning at the taste before he's yanking you down by your hips—nose buried into your cunt, you squeak at the sensation, his tongue gliding up at down your clenching hole as his nose nudges your clit with each movement.
"f-fuck, jay," you pant softly, your body writhing as you fight against his belt. jay grins against your pussy, his fingers digging into your thighs as he holds your legs back from completely suffocating him. his tongue moves slowly and skillfully, circling your clit before making its way down to your sopping hole.
he moans at your taste, not afraid of getting messy with his movements. he peers up, watching your head lull back as he begins to lick figure 8s on your clit repeatedly. your thighs tremble, your back arching off the bed as jay's tongue flicks over your swollen clit with torturous precision.
every swipe sends sparks shooting through your veins, your breath coming in ragged gasps. you tug uselessly against the belt binding your wrists, the leather only tightening the more you struggle. you whine at the almost painful sensation of being bound, his leather belt now digging into your wrists—slowly cutting of circulation. jay hums against your soaking cunt, the vibrations making you whimper. his grip on your thighs is ironclad, refusing to let you squirm away—not that you really wanted to.
you gasp when you feel his digits intrude your walls, a load moan escaping you before you could even hold yourself back. "fuck look at you, princess. you're sucking my fingers in so well," he groans, watching your cunt greedily take in his digits as he begins to roughly pound them in.
your mouth stays open in an 'o' shape as you move your hips in hopes of catching more of what he was offering. jay catches on to your movements, clicking his tongue as he looks at you smugly. "so desperate hm, princess? look at you, so fucking filthy." you whine at his words, "go fuck yours—" jay removes his fingers from your sopping cunt and smacks them down on your clit. "—oh fuck!" you sob out.
"you're going to learn to control that mouth, __. and here i was, being so gentle and kind with you. but clearly, bratty girls like you don't deserve such treatment," he tsks while teasingly rubbing your clit in small firm circles with his thumb. you scrounge your mind for an insult to throw at him before his actions take your breath.
literally.
jay moves quickly, suddenly his hand is wrapped around your throat and he's looking over your shaking and twitching body. he moves behind you, letting you lean against his strong chest as he spreads your thighs wide open—hooking his legs with your own, leaving you unable to squirm.
he clamps down his hand firmly between your legs, cupping your cunt as you look up at him dumbfounded.
he gives you no answer, looking down at you with what you could only assume was pure deep dark desire. you moan out in pain, the stretch of his fingers making your eyes rolls back as jay leaves you no time to adjust. his begins to fuck three of his fingers into your cunt, his grip on your throat tightening.
"who knew you took things in you so well, hm? look at you, gushing all over my fingers," he murmurs darkly into your ear. his pace was ruthless, his palm smacking your clit with each thrust. you're a moaning mess, crying out everytime jay pushes into your gummy walls. jay had enough of the noise, moving his hand from your neck to stuff two fingers down your throat—gagging you.
you choke against his digits, looking up at him with bloodshot eyes. your makeup was smeared, your mascara running down your cheeks and your lipstick smudged around your mouth—yet jay thought you looked beautiful. he could see tears run down your cheeks and saliva running down his fingers and you struggled to contain yourself. "you close, princess? i can feel you clenching around me," he grins, curling his fingers in you in a 'come here' motion.
"m'close," you try to say only for it to come out as muffled sobs due to his fingers down your throat. he smirks against your skin, "so fucking greedy. come on princess, cum for me. cum all over my fingers," he murmurs in your ear, your eyes rolling back as you feel your body violently convulse at your high. jay looks at you in surprise.
you had squirted.
"holy shit, princess." he removes his fingers from your mouth, finally letting your aching jaw rest—his thumb still rubbing at your clit, helping you ride out your high. "do you know what you just did?" he asks, his hands grabbing at your waist before hes pulling off your dress completely. you lay against him, unable to comprehend anything after you came. when you don't respond he continues, "you just squirted, princess. that's not going to waste."
he moves you away from his chest, letting you lay back against the bed before he's between your parted thighs again. he doesn't give you a chance to recover before his tongue is licking up your slit, his hands gripping the plush of your thighs—holding them back from closing in on his head. "you taste so fucking good," he growls, lifting his head just enough to watch your face twist in painful pleasure. "all that attitude, and here you are, shaking for me like a good little slut." you slowly regain your sense of thought, still hazy from before—but not enough to stop you from acting out.
you bite your lip, glaring down at him through hooded and now swollen eyes. "fuck—you," you pant, but your words lose all their venom when he dips his tongue back inside you, curling just right against that sweet spot that makes your toes curl. jay chuckles darkly, the sound sending another jolt of heat straight to your core. "still talking shit?" he pulls back, smirking at the way your hips chase his mouth. "maybe i should just leave you here, all tied up and desperate. let you think about how badly you need me."
your stomach clenches at the thought, but you force yourself to let out a weak scoff. "like you could walk away." jay's eyes darken, his fingers trailing up to circle your clit, pressing just enough to make you gasp. "try me."
you don't get the chance to respond. in one fluid motion, jay flips you onto your stomach. his weight pins you down, his hard clothed cock pressing into the curve of your ass.
"you don't get to call the shots here," he murmurs, his lips brushing the shell of your ear. "not until i say you've earned it." you whine as he grinds against you, the friction maddening. "jay—"
"what?" his hand tangles in your hair, yanking your head back. "use your words, princess. tell me what you want." you swallow hard, pride and desire warring inside you. but the way his fingers tighten in your hair, the way his cock pulses against your ass—it's too much.
"i want—fuck—i want you to fuck me," you finally admit, your voice shaking. "i'll fuck you when you stop being a brat and admit it."
you whine, shaking your head in defiance. you had made it this far without admitting your feelings, what's a bit longer?
"say it."
you shake your head furiously, breath shaky as you glare up at him. "no." jay clicks his tongue, his grip on your waist tightening. "wrong answer, princess." you whimper, body trembling, but you still refuse to give in. you won't let him win—not like this. jay leans down, his lips brushing against your ear as he whispers, "you're so fucking stubborn. but you'll say it. we both know you will." your fingers curl into the sheets, your pride the only thing keeping you from giving him what he wants.
"fuck you," you grit out.
jay only laughs, shaking his head. "not until you tell me the truth." you squeeze your eyes shut, refusing to look at him. you can't. not when he's so close, not when his voice drips with that dangerous confidence that makes your heart race. he grabs your chin, forcing you to meet his gaze. "look at me." you do, reluctantly, your body burning under the weight of his stare.
his eyes darken. "you love this. you love me." you inhale sharply. "i—"
"say it," he commands. "say you love me, or you don't get my cock." your pride wars with your need, but jay is relentless. he watches you like he already knows he's won. you try to hold out, but his smirk deepens as he pulls away slightly, putting even more distance between you. your chest rises and falls rapidly. you can't take it anymore.
"i—" you hesitate, jaw clenching. jay waits, patient but smug. you hate him for this. you hate him for making you want him so badly.
"i love you," you finally gasp out, the words falling from your lips like a confession you've been holding in for too long. jay exhales, his smirk turning into something deeper, something real. "that's my girl," he murmurs, pressing a slow, possessive kiss to your lips.
you barely have time to recover before he pulls back, eyes locking onto yours with a dark promise. "now," he breathes, "let me show you just how much i love you too." in one swift motion, he flips you back over, his hands sliding under your thighs to hook your legs over his shoulders. he leans down, his lips brushing yours, so close you can taste yourself on his tongue.
"good girls get what they want," he murmurs, his hands pulling down his boxers. and then he's pushing inside you in one sharp thrust, stretching you, filling you, stealing the breath from your lungs. your back arches off the bed, a broken moan tearing from your throat as jay bottoms out inside you, his grip bruising on your hips. you cry out in pain and pleasure, the stretch of his cock making you dizzy as your walls flutter around him—struggling to adjust.
"mine," he growls, his voice rough with possession. and as he starts to move, hard and deep, you realize—you always have been. the years of back and fourth bickering, dirty glares and snarky comments. all of that, had led to this moment.
jay's hips snap forward, each brutal thrust driving the air from your lungs. his cock is relentless, pistoning into your slick cunt with a rhythm that leaves no inch of you untouched. the slap of skin against skin echoes in the room, mingling with your desperate whimpers as he fucks you into the mattress. your bound hands twist against the belt, the leather biting into your wrists, but the burn only feeds the fire coursing through you. jay's fingers dig into the soft flesh of your thighs, his grip possessive, claiming—like he wants to leave bruises. like he wants you to remember this tomorrow when you try to walk away like you always do.
"f-fuck, jay—" his name spills from your lips, ragged and broken, as he drags his cock almost all the way out before slamming back in, the tip hitting that perfect spot deep inside that makes your vision blur. jay feels you clench around him, grunting as he fucks into you—making sure there was no inch of you that he hadn't touched.
one of his hands come down to grab at your tit, pinching your nipple almost painfully when you begin to close your eyes—making you whine. he leans down, his lips brushing yours in a mockery of tenderness. "what, baby? gonna come already?" his voice is rough, dripping with amusement. "you're so fucking tight around me. bet you're close, aren't you?"
you squeeze around him involuntarily, your walls fluttering as pleasure coils tighter in your belly. you don't answer, you can't. he's angling his hips just right, grinding against that swollen spot inside you with every thrust—your orgasm is right there, hovering just out of reach. jay growls, sensing it, and suddenly his thumb is on your clit, rubbing tight little circles that make your whole body jerk.
"come on," he demands, his breath hot against your ear. "cum on my cock like the greedy little spoiled slut you are." you shatter. your back arches off the bed, a scream tearing from your throat as pleasure explodes through you, white-hot and consuming. your cunt clamps down around jay's cock, milking him as waves of ecstasy crash over you. he doesn't stop.
jay fucks you through it, his thrusts turning erratic as he chases his own release. his fingers dig harder into your hips, the pain of your high coursing through you. "gonna fill you up," he snarls, his voice thick with need. "gonna pump you so fucking full of me, you'll drip with it." the filthy promise sends another shiver through you, your oversensitive body trembling beneath his. and then he's burying himself deep, his cock twitching as he spills inside you with a groan, his hips grinding against yours to make sure every last drop is where it belongs.
you pant beneath him, boneless and wrecked, the only sound in the room the ragged pull of your breaths. jay finally pulls out, his cum already leaking from your well-used cunt. he leans down, his lips brushing yours in a slow, filthy kiss. "now," he murmurs, his thumb swiping through the mess between your thighs before pushing it past your lips, "tell me again how you feel about me."
you suck his thumb clean, your eyes locked with his. and this time, you don't bother lying.
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
you wake up to the warm morning light slipping past the curtains, painting soft lines across jay's sheets. your body aches, sore in places you didn't even know could ache. your throat dry from the sounds he pulled out of you the night before.
you blink slowly, adjusting to the light. the bed is cold beside you. jay is gone. you groan softly as you shift, the soreness between your thighs making it nearly impossible to move without wincing. "jesus christ," you mutter under your breath, rolling onto your side. your fingers instinctively brush the soft cotton clinging to your skin. it's a plain white t-shirt, oversized and hanging low on your frame. his scent clings to it, to you.
your legs dangle over the side of the bed, and you wince as you slowly stand. every step is careful, every movement a reminder of what he did to you—what you let him do. you spot your phone on the nightstand and grab it with shaky fingers. it lights up immediately.
minho (12 missed calls)
dad (8 messages)
dad (4 missed calls)
you sigh, heart sinking a little. it all comes rushing back—what you left behind last night. the party. the lie. jay's anger. and now... the aftermath. you pull your hair up loosely and make your way downstairs, your bare feet padding softly against the wooden floor. the house is eerily quiet. no tv, no kitchen sounds, no jay.
your heart sinks in your chest. your eyes dart around as you descend down the flight of stairs—no trace of him. the living room is spotless, the kitchen untouched. not even a half-drunk cup of coffee left behind.
your heart skips for a second.
did he leave?
you glance toward the hallway and peek your head into seojun's room. the little boy is still curled up under his blankets, breathing soft and steady. safe. peaceful. you step back out and stand in the middle of the quiet house, unsure of what to do with yourself. "where the hell did you go, jay..." you mutter, fingers tightening around your phone.
your thumb hovers over minho's name, but you can't bring yourself to call him. not yet. not when your body still carries evidence of last night. not when you still smell like jay. the silence around you is loud—too loud. and the way your mind spins with questions only makes it worse.
what did last night mean?
why did he leave you alone like this?
is he even coming back?
you let out a soft sigh and head toward the kitchen, aimlessly grabbing a glass of water just to keep your hands busy. your reflection catches in the oven door—jay's shirt draped over your frame, legs bare, lips still a little swollen. you noticed that your face was clean and bare, jay had taken off your makeup last night.
well, whatever was left of it.
you look like you belong here. but for the first time. you're not sure if that's a good thing.
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
the sound of the front door unlocking makes you flinch slightly as you're crouched down in the living room, gathering all of seojun's toys. jay walks in like he didn't flip your world upside down last night.
"hey," he says casually, shrugging off his coat and kicking off his shoes. his voice is easy—too easy. like nothing happened. like he didn't press every button you had until you broke, until you confessed things you'd been biting your tongue about for weeks. "morning," you mutter without looking up, trying to keep your expression neutral as you tug the lid of his toy basket open.
jay steps into the living room, eyes glancing over the scene— the living room now spotless as you sit on the floor with your legs folded awkwardly under you like you hadn't spent the entire night being ruined by the man. the same man who was now acting like your confession wasn't still echoing in his ears. your phone buzzes again beside you on the couch. minho's name flashes across the screen for the sixth time that morning. you finally texted him.
minho: hey u get there ok?
minho: heeelllloooo
minho: istg if ur getting dicked down rn
minho: U SO R
minho: OMGGG
minho: u slut
minho: call me after or ill acc burn ur house down
minho: u so owe me a drink
you: i'll call u later ..
minho: U BETTERR
your dad had also called twice. he was worried, demanding to know where you'd disappeared last night. you told him the lie you'd practiced in your head: i stayed over at minho's. i'm at work now.
jay gives you a glance then, brief and unreadable. "he still asleep?" he asks, nodding toward the stairs. you nod once, "should be up soon."
jay hums. he runs a hand through his hair, moving past you both to grab a bottle of water from the fridge. no acknowledgment. not of your night together. not of your confessions. not even the smallest smirk or sly comment he's usually so quick to throw your way. it stings more than you thought it would.
"so this is just nothing?" you say quietly. you keep your voice low, tense. "you're really going to pretend nothing happened?" jay doesn't turn around. he twists the cap off the bottle, takes a sip. "didn't say that."
"then what are you doing?" you snap, standing. you're still in his clothes—his t-shirt drowning your frame and his sweatpants tied loose around your waist. "you spent all night dragging it out of me. making me say things i wasn't ready to admit, and now what? you ignore me?" jay finally turns, his jaw set, expression unreadable. "what did you expect?" he says flatly. "you think we can just pretend like that shit doesn't complicate everything?"
you blink, stung. "you complicated it. not me. you crossed the boundaries. not me." he takes a step toward you. "you think i didn't feel it too?" he snaps. "you think this is easy for me?"
"you sure act like it is." jay's breathing hard now, his eyes dark as they search your face. "i'm trying not to make things worse. you said what you said, and yeah, i heard you. but i don't know what the hell to do with it yet. it's not like i didn't tell you how i felt."
your throat feels tight, heart racing with hurt and frustration. "then maybe you shouldn't have forced it out of me." he doesn't respond right away. just stares, like he's trying to figure out whether to argue or admit you're right. you glance away, swallowing hard. "i meant what i said," you whisper, "and i hate that i did."
jay steps closer then, enough that you can feel the heat from his body. he's silent, watching you, torn between his own emotions. "...i didn't hate hearing it," he finally says, voice lower, softer. "but i can't pretend i know what to do with it either." you don't say anything, just cross your arms tighter over your chest.
it's quiet for a long moment. then jay murmurs, "but if it means anything... i don't want you with anyone else." your gaze snaps to his. "last night wasn't just sex," he says, voice rough. "and you damn well know it." you swallow around the lump in your throat, arms still crossed tight like it'll protect you from how exposed you feel. like it'll keep your heart from beating too loud.
"so... what now?" you ask, your voice quieter than before. more hesitant. "what are we supposed to do?" jay's eyes drop, his thumb tapping against the water bottle in his hand. he looks like he wants to pace but forces himself to stay still. "i don't know," he admits. "i've been trying to figure that out since last night."
you frown. "what's stopping you?" he exhales sharply. "everything. you're 23, i'm 35. your dad would kill me if he knew what happened last night." he glances up at you. "you were just a kid when i met you."
you flinch at that. "i'm not a kid now." "i know," he says quickly, his jaw clenching. "believe me, i know. last night proved that more than anything." you look away, chewing the inside of your cheek. "you think this is just a phase? that i'll grow out of it?" jay steps closer, his voice low. "no. i think that's what scares me the most."
you meet his gaze again, your heart thudding. "...was it ever just me?" you ask, needing to know, needing to hear it. "or am i just filling a space someone else left behind?" his expression hardens slightly, like the question caught him off guard.
"is this about her?" you push, barely whispering. "seojun's mom?" jay's face shifts, something bitter and tired flashing through his features. he looks away, jaw tight. "she left the second he was born." your eyes widen in shock, "what?"
"she didn't want to be a mom," he says flatly. "we were never in love. it was a mistake. she got pregnant, and i told her i'd raise him. she agreed and walked out of the hospital with a suitcase and a plane ticket." you stare at him, stunned. he's never talked about her. never even hinted.
"so it's just been you," you murmur. he nods. "just me. for the last 5 years." you don't know what to say. you feel your chest ache for him—for the boy upstairs, for the man who's been carrying the weight of parenthood alone, pretending like it never crushed him.
"and then you," he says, voice quieter now. "you crash into my life, literally. and then suddenly you're here, and seojun loves you, and i—" he cuts himself off. you blink. "and you...?"
his eyes lock with yours, expression unreadable as he forces himself to swallow his words, "—and i don't know how to let myself want something that feels like it'll ruin everything." you step forward this time, closing the space between you. "what if it doesn't?" jay looks at you like he wants to believe it. like the hope hurts more than the fear. you reach up slowly, resting your hand against his chest. his heart's pounding under your palm. "you don't have to protect me from this," you whisper. "just... tell me what you want."
he looks at you, his voice hoarse. "i want you." you feel it in the way he says it—like it's been sitting on his tongue for days, weeks, maybe years. like it's the one thing he's been trying not to say. your breath catches. "then why are you acting like last night never happened?"
jay exhales, finally turning away from you—unable to look you in the eye. he runs a hand through his hair and mutters, "because i don't know how to be around you without wanting more." you bite the inside of your cheek, heart pounding. "you think i don't want more too?" his back is still to you, shoulders tense. "you don't understand what more looks like with me. it's not just cute dates and taking seojun to the park. it's complicated. it's messy."
you step toward him, slowly. "i'm not scared of messy." he finally turns around, eyes meeting yours again—and this time, it's all there. the frustration. the want. the guilt. the hunger. "i forced you to say it last night," he says quietly. "i made you admit you loved me just so i could hear it. do you know how fucked up that is?"
your chest tightens. "maybe. but it doesn't make it a lie." jay doesn't say anything. his eyes just search your face like he's trying to make sense of you. the silence stretches, so loud it feels like it might shatter between you when suddenly— "daddy? noona?" a sleepy voice calls from the stairs.
you both snap your heads toward the sound. seojun stands there in his pajamas, hair sticking up in every direction, clutching his stuffed lion. jay's face softens instantly. "hey, buddy."
you blink away the emotions clogging your throat, quickly moving toward the stairs. "come on," you say gently, crouching down to his level. "you want breakfast?"
he nods, rubbing his eyes. "pancakes." you laugh softly. "you always want pancakes."
as you lead him into the kitchen, you feel jay's eyes on you the whole time. there's so much unsaid between you both, but right now, you fall into routine—mixing batter, pouring it onto the hot pan, seojun sitting on the counter watching you with half-lidded eyes. it looked like a scene out of a movie, jay admires your relationship with his son based one the circumstances the two of you had bonded. seojun loves you, and as complicated as his feelings make things—jay loves you too.
jay joins eventually, helping slice fruit, moving around you like muscle memory. and then he brushes past you to grab a plate, and his hand lingers a second too long on your waist. your breath hitches.
you don't look at him. but you feel it.
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
the house was finally quiet. seojun had gone down for his nap without a fuss, leaving you sprawled across the couch in jay's living room, phone pressed to your ear.
"okay, wait—start from the beginning," minho's voice crackled through your speaker. "did he take his shirt off or did you rip it off?" you rolled your eyes with a laugh. "neither! i wasn't some feral animal."
"please, you definitely were," he teased. "i know that tone in your voice. you're trying to act like it wasn't the hottest night of your life."
"shut up," you said, biting back a smile. "you're so annoying."
"you moaned his name, didn't you? tell me you did." he then pauses, clearing his throat as he prepares his best girly impression, "oh jay! jay right there." you roll your eyes, letting out a small laugh before glancing down at the little scratch marks on your thighs. "...maybe."
minho gasped like he'd just won the lottery. "i knew it! i need the full play-by-play. what was he like? slow and sensual? aggressive? did he say something like—'you're mine now, princess'?" he deepened his voice dramatically. you snorted. "why are you like this?"
"i live through your drama. and honestly? the hot single-dad boss fantasy? ten out of ten." you rolled your eyes again, but the smile stayed on your face. "you're insane."
"no, i'm just invested. i mean, your dad's going to lose his mind when he finds out you're hooking up with his business partner. this is better than any k-drama." you were mid-laugh when a throat cleared from the doorway.
you froze. you turned your head slowly to find jay standing there—back early from his meeting, suit jacket slung over his shoulder, eyes fixed on you with that unreadable expression he wore when he was annoyed... or worse, jealous. your heart dropped.
"i gotta go," you mumbled into the phone.
"why? what's—" you hung up before minho could finish. jay didn't say anything at first. he walked in slowly, setting his keys on the counter. his gaze stayed on you the entire time."minho, huh?" he said finally, his voice casual—but the edge was there, sharp and unmistakable. you shifted on the couch. "he's just a friend. you know that."
"yeah, i know," he said, but he didn't sound convinced. "didn't realize your 'just a friend' needed all the juicy details about what happens in my bed." you flushed. "you were eavesdropping?"
"i walked into my own house," he said coolly, raising an eyebrow. "and caught you giggling about our sex life." "we weren't giggling,” you murmur, embarrassed. "sure," he said, stepping closer. "so you didn't tell him how good i made you feel? how you squirted all over the bed? how loud you got when i—"
"okay, stop," you cut in, face burning. "you're being jealous over nothing." he tilted his head. "maybe. or maybe i just don't like the idea of some boy thinking he's got a chance with you." you blinked in confusion, "minho doesn't—"
"he does," jay interrupted, stepping even closer. you crossed your arms, not backing down, "and what exactly are we, jay? we haven't talked about last night properly. what we did, what we are. so you suddenly get to be possessive now?" his jaw flexed. "i don't know."
that caught you off guard. "i don't know," he repeated, softer now. "i didn't plan for this to happen. i didn't plan for you. but now you're in my house, you're in my bed, and my son asks for you before he asks for me." you blinked, heart stuttering.
"i think about what this means," he said. "what your dad would say. how he'd probably try to kill me." you cracked a smile. "he would. slowly and painfully." jay didn't smile back, not finding amusement in having to deal with your father, "and what seojun would think... if he knew. if he understood."
your expression sobered. "i don't want to confuse him," jay said quietly. "he's already had to grow up without a real mother. your chest ached.
"so it's always been just me and him," jay continued. "and now... there's you." you looked at him, your voice gentle. "do you want me to be there?" his eyes met yours, something raw in them, "yeah," he said. "i do." your breath hitched.
"but this won't be easy," he said. "not with the age gap. not with your dad. not with the way i feel when some kid like minho calls you and makes you laugh like that." you stepped closer. "i'll deal with my dad, and you know minho is my friend." jay scoffs at the last bit. "and seojun?" you paused, a smile appearing on your face when jay mentions the little twerp, "he loves me."
jay softened, "he does." you looked up at him. "so maybe this can work. maybe we just take it one day at a time." he studied you, then nodded slowly. "one day at a time."
and just like that, you felt the air between you shift—something fragile and uncertain, but also real. jay reaches for your hand, the warmth of his fingers interlocking with your own. you sigh in content. "no more secrets," he said.
you nodded. "no more eavesdropping." he smirked. "we'll see."
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
"are you and appa married now?"
the question drops like a bomb in the middle of the warm living room. you freeze where you're kneeling, halfway through tying seojun's tiny sneaker. your eyes snap up to meet his, wide and innocent—but there's something suspiciously knowing behind them. he had a small grin on his face, looking at you mischievously.
smart ass.
"what?" you blink, confused and shocked. "what makes you say that?"
"because appa never lets anyone touch his hair, not even me!" seojun says seriously, eyes narrowed like he's putting the clues together in his tiny head. "but you touched it yesterday and he didn't even yell. and you didn't yell at him either. you said 'thank you' when he brought you water."
"i always say thank you," you mumble, suddenly very interested in the velcro strap you're adjusting. you begin wondering if they make velcro sneakers for adults. "no you don't," he says bluntly. "you fight all the time. but now you smile. and he smiles too. and he puts his hand here when you walk." he pats the small of his back, mimicking jay's subtle touches. "so... are you his wife now?"
you sigh, resting your forehead lightly against his, "no, junnie. i'm not his wife."
"but do you love him?" your heart lurches. you swallow at his bluntness, "you ask a lot of questions for a 5 year old." he shrugs like an old man. "i'm smart. i know things."
you pull back, smiling softly at him, "yeah, you really do." just then, jay walks into the room, ruffling seojun's hair. "ready to go, bud?"
"appa," seojun turns to him seriously. "if she's not your wife yet, you better hurry. i want her to stay. she makes good pancakes." you look at the boy offended, gasping at his words, "so you only want me here for pancakes?" seojun grins in response, squealing when you attack him with tickles on his tummy.
jay glances at you—eyes dark, flickering with something unspoken and then he chuckles, low and affectionate. "working on it, buddy," he murmurs.
you roll your eyes, cheeks burning at his words "liar." jay smirks when he sees your face turn red, "brat."
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
jay gave you a quick pep talk before you left his home to finally see your father.
you chew at your lip nervously as you stand in front of your father's study door, your fingers twitching by your sides. he had texted earlier asking where you'd been the night before, and you lied—again. but you're not sure if he believed you this time. not when he knows how close you've gotten with jay. not when he's always been a little too observant for your liking. you take a deep breath, knock once, and step inside.
he looks up from his laptop, brow furrowed. "so. you're alive." you wince. "hi, dad."
he leans back in his chair, arms folding. "i'm guessing you didn't spend the night at minho's like you said." you hesitate. "no."
"then where?" you glance down, then back up. "jay's."
he doesn't respond at first. the silence thickens. "and?" he finally asks, voice tight. "is there something you want to tell me?" you swallow hard, fingers locking together. "we've... gotten close." his eyes narrow slightly at the term, repeating it with distaste, "close."
"i care about him," you admit. "and seojun. it's not just... it's not a fling, dad. i know he's older, and i know he's your business partner, but—"
"23 and 35, sweetheart." his voice is low, clipped. "he has a child. responsibilities. baggage. you really think you're ready for all that?"
"i've already been dealing with it," you fire back, trying to stay calm. "i've been helping take care of seojun for months. i love that kid. and jay... he's—he's good to me. in his own grumpy way." your father scoffs. "grumpy is one word for it." you cross your arms. "you don't get to judge him. you've worked with him for years. you know he's not some asshole." he sighs, rubbing his temples. "i know. i know he's not. he's a good man. he's just... not who i pictured for you."
"me neither," you say quietly. he looks up at you again—less angry now, more tired. "does he make you happy?" you nod. "yeah. even when we fight. especially when we fight." he huffs out a reluctant laugh, knowing that jay at the very least was able to deal with his daughter's attitude, "sounds like you two deserve each other."
"but that doesn't mean that i'm fully okay with this. i need to chat with mr.park as well, about this." you nod at his word, a small laugh escaping you as you watch your father struggle to contain his protectiveness.
a beat of silence passes. "just... be careful," he says finally. "this changes a lot of things."
"i know," you say softly. "but i think it's worth it." he nods once, slowly. "alright." and just like that, a line has been crossed. awkward tension still lingers in the air, but there's something softer now. something almost like acceptance.
you step forward to hug him, and after a beat, his arms wrap around you too. "just don't let him break your heart," he mutters.
you smile. "i'll break his first."
he groans. "god, you're still your mother's child."
° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° ° °
it's been a few weeks since everything changed—since your father reluctantly accepted the relationship, since seojun's wide eyes and perceptive little voice called both you and jay out, and since you finally stopped pretending what was happening between you and jay was just physical. things had shifted. not abruptly, but with slow ease.
the mornings in jay's house were no longer just routine—they had rhythm. you're in the kitchen, barefoot and sleepy, stirring the oatmeal you promised seojun the night before. the little boy's perched on the counter next to you, legs swinging as he munches on an apple slice with a bag of gummy bears wound tightly in his palms—humming some made-up song under his breath.
"you gonna tell your dad i let you have gummy bears before breakfast?" you tease, bumping his knee with your hip. seojun giggles. "hmm... depends. will you make pancakes this weekend?"
"blackmail? wow, you really are his son."
"damn right," jay's voice cuts in from behind, gravelly and amused, his hair still damp from the shower. he's buttoning up his shirt slowly, eyes scanning the scene in front of him like it's his favorite sight in the world. his son and you in his kitchen, soft morning light catching the curve of your cheek, your voice warm and teasing. he lives for this now. these little domestic moments of peace. "don't tell me you're bribing my kid," he mutters, brushing a kiss against your temple as he grabs his coffee.
you roll your eyes, "he's blackmailing me and bribing implies i'm getting something out of it." jay smirks, "you get to wake up in my bed. that's gotta count for something." you shoot him a look, but your cheeks warm anyway. he never misses a chance to fluster you, and he knows exactly how to do it—especially when seojun's around and your only defense is a quiet huff and a shake of your head.
breakfast is chaotic in the way that all good families are. seojun accidentally knocks over his juice, you forget the toast in the oven, jay's tie somehow ends up in the butter dish, and yet... it all works. it's loud and messy and full of laughter.
later, after jay drops seojun off at school, it's just the two of you again. you're curled up on the couch with your laptop, trying to work as the summer was over and you no long had the pleasure of rotting around. you can feel his eyes on you from across the room. he's supposed to be reviewing contracts, but instead, he's watching you—his bratty, stubborn girl who somehow wormed her way into the quiet places of his life and made them glow.
"what?" you ask, not looking up. he shrugs. "nothing. just thinking." you lift a brow, "dangerous."
"about how you were made for this," he adds quietly. "for me. for him. for all of this. even though the beginning of our relationship revolved around constant bickering.” you scoff, half touched, half embarrassed. "so dramatic." but he doesn't deny it. just leans back, arms crossed, eyes soft. "tell me i'm wrong."
you don't. not because you can't, but because for once—you don't want to.
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→ summary: stuck sharing a motel room with him, you finally give into your craving for thee park jimin
→ pairing: bts!jimin x femsub!reader
→ tags: park jimin x reader, jimin x you, bts x reader, friends to lovers, slow burn, motel, one bed trope, forced proximity, rainy night, road trip, spring getaway, friends vacation, smut, fluff, angst (light), romance, cozy, intimate, first time, pining, mutual pining, soft jimin, confident jimin, explicit sexual content, oral sex, praise kink, multiple orgasms, aftercare, fanfiction, bts fanfiction, oneshot, bts au, body worship, kissing, creampie
→ word count: 2.8k
→ a/n: I enjoyed this ALOT. it's very cozy and sweet. I love body worshippppp...and yes I made namjoon drive now that he's got his license LMAO sue me
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the rain hammered against the windows of the van, a steady beat that matched the thrum of excitement in your chest. you were sandwiched between jimin and taehyung, the latter already dozing with his mouth slightly agape, his head lolling against his girlfriend's shoulder.
jimin, however, was wide awake. his knee kept bumping yours, a small, rhythmic touch that sent little jolts of electricity through you each time. he'd catch your eye in the dim glow of the dashboard lights and offer a small, secretive smile, one that was just for you.
"almost there," namjoon called from the driver's seat, his deep voice a comforting rumble. "the 'pines motel'. sounds… rustic."
jungkook snorted from the back. "as long as it's dry and has beds, i don't care if it's rustic."
you did care. you cared a lot. because this trip, this spontaneous getaway to see the spring grass and blooming flowers, was the first time you and jimin would be properly sharing a space. you weren't officially anything, not yet. you were a mixture of stolen glances, lingering touches, and conversations that stretched late into the night when everyone else had gone to bed. the unspoken thing between you was growing too big to contain, and this weekend felt like the tipping point.
the van pulled into a gravel lot, the headlights cutting through the pouring rain to illuminate a small, rectangle shaped building with a neon sign that flickered ever so slightly. it was exactly as advertised: cozy. a little dated, maybe, with its faded green carpet and wood-paneled walls, but charming in a retro way. hoseok, ever the planner, had booked three rooms. you watched with a sinking heart as he began doling out keys.
"okay, so me and namjoon, jin and his girlfriend, and…" hoseok paused, looking at the last key, then at you, jimin, and the remaining couples. "hmm. i think i messed up the booking. i only got three rooms, but there are… more of us."
a moment of chaotic silence descended. jungkook and his girlfriend were already looking at each other with a 'we can share' expression, as were taehyung and his partner. that left you and jimin. and one double bed.
"it's fine," jimin said, his voice disarmingly calm as he took the key from hoseok's hand. "we can share. right?" he turned to you, his eyes soft, questioning. there was no trace of awkwardness on his face, only a quiet confidence that made your stomach flip.
"right," you managed, your voice a little thin.
the room was small, dominated by a queen bed covered in a kitschy floral bedspread. the air smelled faintly of pine cleaner and something else, something clean and warm. jimin dropped your single bag and his own by the door and turned the lock with a soft click. the sound seemed to echo in the sudden quiet, sealing you in together.
"well," he said, a small laugh escaping him as he gestured to the bed. "cozy."
you couldn't help but laugh with him, the tension breaking. "rustic, too."
you both stood there for a moment, just looking at each other. the rain outside had softened to a gentle patter, creating a cocoon of intimacy around the small room. jimin took a step closer, his eyes never leaving yours. he reached out, his fingers gently tucking a stray piece of hair behind your ear. his touch was feather light, but it burned a trail down your neck.
"you know," he began, his voice dropping to that low, honeyed tone he used when he was being sincere, "i've been wanting to get you alone all night."
your breath hitched. "jimin…"
the tension in the room shifted, and you tilted your head towards him.
"is this okay?" he asked, his thumb stroking your cheek. he was always so careful, so considerate, even when his eyes were dark with a hunger that mirrored your own.
you answered by closing the small distance between you and pressing your lips to his. it wasn't a frantic kiss, but a deep, searching one. his lips were soft, tasting faintly of the strawberry gum he'd been chewing earlier. he sighed into your mouth, his hands coming up to frame your face, holding you gently but firmly, like he was afraid you might disappear.
the kiss deepened, slow and tender. his tongue traced the seam of your lips, and you opened for him willingly. the kiss became wetter, more urgent, a silent conversation of months of pent up desire. one of his hands slid from your face down the curve of your neck, his fingers tracing your collarbone before coming to rest on your hip, pulling you against him. you could feel the hard line of his arousal through his jeans, and a fresh wave of heat pooled inside of you.
he broke the kiss, both of you were breathing heavily. "i've wanted this for so long," he confessed, his voice raspy. "just you, like this."
"me too," you whispered, your hands fisting in the soft material of his sweater.
he smiled, a genuine, breathtaking smile that reached his eyes. "good." he leaned in for another kiss, this one shorter, sweeter, before taking your hand. "come on. let's get more comfortable."
he led you to the bed, sitting down on the edge and pulling you to stand between his knees. he looked up at you, his expression a mixture of adoration and raw desire. his hands roamed up your sides, from your hips to your waist, his thumbs stroking the soft fabric of your shirt.
"you're so beautiful," he murmured, his gaze roaming over your face, your body. he leaned forward and pressed a soft kiss to your stomach, right through your shirt. the gesture was so tender it made your heart ache. he continued his exploration, his lips tracing a path up your body as his hands slowly, torturously, inched your shirt upward. he kissed your ribs, the valley between your breasts, the hollow of your throat. each touch was deliberate and intentional.
you raised your arms, allowing him to pull the shirt over your head. he tossed it aside, his eyes darkening as he took in the sight of you in your simple lace bra. he didn't say anything, just watched for a moment, his adam's apple bobbing as he swallowed. then he reached around, his fingers fumbling slightly with the clasp before it sprang free. he slid the straps from your shoulders, his gaze never leaving your skin as the bra fell away.
he leaned in, pressing a kiss to the swell of one breast, his tongue darting out to taste your skin. he took his time, worshiping every inch of you with his mouth and hands. he palmed the weight of your breasts, his thumbs brushing over your nipples.
"jimin, please," you breathed, the need building to an almost unbearable pitch.
he looked up at you, a wicked glint in his eyes. "please what, baby?"
"touch me," you begged. "everywhere."
he chuckled, a low, husky sound. "that's the plan." he stood up, quickly shedding his own sweater and t-shirt, revealing the smooth, toned expanse of his chest and stomach. your eyes traced the lines of his muscles and the line art of his nevermind tattoo, and you reached out, wanting to feel him under your palms. he caught your hands, bringing them to his lips and kissing your knuckles before guiding them to his chest. your fingers splayed across his warm skin, feeling the steady beat of his heart.
he kissed you again, hard and deep, as he walked you backward until your legs hit the bed. you fell back onto the floral comforter, and he followed, covering your body with his. the weight of him felt perfect, grounding. he kissed you until you were dizzy, his hips pressing into yours in a slow, teasing rhythm that drove you wild.
his hands deftly unbuttoned your jeans, and he lifted his hips just enough to slide them down your legs, taking your panties with them. he paused, kneeling between your thighs, just looking at you, laid bare for him. the vulnerability should have been scary, but the look in his eyes; a pure desire made you feel powerful.
"you're perfect," he said, his voice thick with emotion.
he lowered his head, pressing a kiss to your inner thigh, so close to where you needed him but not quite there. he repeated the action on the other side, his stubble scraping deliciously against your sensitive skin. you were squirming, whimpering, by the time he finally parted your folds with his thumbs and gave you what you were craving.
the first swipe of his tongue was pure bliss. he was skilled, knowing exactly how to tease and torment, building the pressure slowly. he circled your clit, flicking it with the tip of his tongue before sucking it gently into his mouth. your fingers tightened in his hair, holding him to you as waves of pleasure washed over you. he slid one finger inside you, then another, curling them just right to hit that spot that made you stare up at the ceiling.
"jimin," you gasped, your back arching off the bed. "don't stop."
jimin didn't stop immediately, but slowed his movements, his tongue and fingers gentling you through the waves of your orgasm, drawing out every last bit of pleasure until you were a helpless, panting mess beneath him.
he kissed his way back up your body, his lips soft and worshipful against your still flushed skin. when he reached your mouth, you could taste yourself on him, a heady, intimate flavor that made a fresh surge of arousal course through you. you kissed him deeply, pouring all the gratitude and desire you felt into it.
"you're incredible," he murmured against your lips, his voice thick with awe.
"you are," you countered, your hands roaming over the smooth, warm skin of his back. you could feel the tension coiled in his muscles, the evidence of his own desire pressing insistently against your thigh. you wanted, needed, to give him the same release he had just given you.
you pushed gently at his shoulder, rolling him over so you were straddling his hips. the look of surprise on his face quickly melted into one of dark appreciation as you leaned down, your hair cascading around both of your faces, and kissed him. you took your time, exploring his chest with your hands and mouth, tracing the defined lines of his abs with your tongue, feeling the way his muscles quivered in response. you loved having this power over him, the ability to make him gasp and shiver with just a simple touch.
you worked your way down, your eyes never leaving his. you could see the desperate need building in his gaze, the way his jaw was clenched with restraint. you reached the waistband of his jeans, your fingers making quick work of the button and zipper. he lifted his hips, allowing you to slide both his jeans and his boxers down his legs. his cock sprang free, hard and thick, the tip already glistening with precum.
you'd imagined this, fantasized about it, but the reality of him was so much more intense. you wrapped your hand around his length, feeling the velvety skin over the steel-hard shaft. he let out a choked moan, his head falling back against the pillows. you stroked him slowly, watching his face as you did, learning what he liked.
"baby," he breathed, his voice strained. "please."
you leaned down and took him into your mouth, swirling your tongue around the head before taking him deeper. the taste of him was sweet and uniquely jimin. he groaned, one of his hands coming to rest gently on the back of your head, his fingers tangling in your hair as you set a rhythm, bobbing your head, taking him as deep as you could. you used your hand to stroke what you couldn't fit into your mouth, your movements sure and confident.
you could feel him getting closer, his hips beginning to thrust up to meet your mouth, his breathing becoming ragged. but just as you felt him start to tense, he gently tugged on your hair.
"stop," he gasped. "come here. i want to be inside you when i cum."
you released him with a final, lingering lick and crawled back up his body. he captured your lips in a searing kiss, rolling you over once more so he was on top. he settled between your thighs, his propped on his elbows as he looked down at you. the rain had slowed to a misty drizzle, and the only light in the room was the soft, golden glow from the bedside lamp. it cast his features in a warm, gentle light, making his eyes shine.
"are you sure?" he asked, his voice serious, even as his body trembled with need.
you reached up, cupping his face in your hands. "i've never been more sure of anything."
he smiled, that beautiful, genuine smile that you loved so much. and then he was pushing into you, slow and steady. the stretch was exquisite, a slight burn that quickly melted into a deep, full pleasure. he filled you completely, and for a moment, you both just lay there, savoring the feeling of finally being connected, skin to skin, heart to heart.
he began to move, his hips rolling in a slow, deep rhythm that was both tender and possessive. each thrust was deliberate, stoking the fire that was already smoldering in your belly. this wasn't frantic or desperate; it was a deep, soulful connection. he looked into your eyes the entire time, his gaze so intense it felt like he was seeing straight into your soul.
"you feel so good," he panted, his forehead dropping to yours. "so perfect and made for me."
the words sent a thrill through you. you wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him deeper, meeting him thrust for thrust. the room was filled with the sounds of your soft moans, the slick sound of your bodies joining, and the gentle patter of rain against the window. it was the most intimate music you had ever heard.
he shifted his angle slightly, and suddenly he was hitting that spot inside you that made your toes curl. a sharp cry escaped your lips, and you felt him smile against your skin.
"hold it," he murmured, his voice smug. he began to aim for that spot with each thrust, sending sparks of pleasure shooting through your entire body. the pressure began to build again, higher and higher than before, a tight coil of tension in your core.
"jimin," you gasped, your nails digging into his shoulders. "i'm… i'm close."
"let go then, baby," he urged, his own rhythm becoming more erratic. "cum with me. let me feel you."
his words were your downfall. with a few more perfectly aimed thrusts, the coil inside you snapped, and you were flying. your orgasm crashed over you, more intense than the first, your body arching off the bed as a silent scream tore from your throat. your inner walls clenched around him, and with a guttural groan, he followed you over the edge. you felt him pulse inside you as he found his release, his body shuddering with the force of it, a gush of warm liquid filling you up.
he collapsed on top of you, his face buried in the crook of your neck, both of you breathing heavily, your bodies slick with sweat. the weight of him was comforting, and you ran your hands up and down his back, feeling his heart hammering against your chest.
after a few moments, he rolled off of you before grabbing some tissues off of the rusty motel desk and cleaning you up as best as he could. he tossed the tissue and plopped down onto the bed, pulling you into his arms. he tucked you against his side, your head resting on his chest, his heartbeat a steady, soothing rhythm in your ear. he pulled the floral comforter over both of you, creating a warm, contented nest.
neither of you spoke for a long time, just lay there in the quiet, listening to the rain and the sound of each other's breathing. it was comfortable, peaceful. the unspoken thing was no longer hanging between you; it had been acknowledged, explored, and sealed in the most intimate way possible.
finally, he pressed a soft kiss to the top of your head. "so," he said, his voice a low rumble in his chest. "does this mean i get to call you my girlfriend?"
you tilted your head up to look at him, a wide smile spreading across your face. "i think that's probably a good idea jimin."
he beamed, his eyes crinkling at the corners. "good." he tightened his arms around you. "because i'm not letting you go now, never."
you snuggled closer, pressing a kiss to his chest. as you drifted off to sleep in his arms, the rain finally stopping outside, you knew this cozy, rainy night at a rundown motel was just the beginning of something magical.
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⌗ 𝒔𝒚𝒏𝒐𝒑𝒔𝒊𝒔 — Jake chose Fortnite over his girlfriend for 4 hours. Now he’s hard, ignored, and emotionally destroyed. Lesson learned: Never skip skincare night for a Victory Royale.
⌗𝒘𝒄: 3k┆ ⌗𝒕𝒘: smut (MDNI), oral (male rec), suggestive themes, strong language, bratty reader, blue balls(kinda?), references to period sex, jake has zero shame/horny (are we surprised). Lmk if missing any!
⌗ 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 ⟢ idol bf jake x female reader
⌗ 愛 like 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒏𝒊𝒕𝒆 i‘ma need your skin, don’t give a fuck where the penis been ⋆⭒˚.⋆
Jake was in her goddamn chair again.
Her chair. The one she picked out in pastel pink and white, the one she assembled herself while watching “Love Island” reruns and drinking strawberry milk. But no, of course, he had claimed it like it was his birthright—just because she traded him the gaming space for unlimited takeout. A fair deal at the time, but she hadn’t known it meant selling her soul.
And what was he doing now?
Fucking Fortnite.
“BROOOOOOOOOO—GET FUCKED!! GET ABSOLUTELY SHITTED ON,” Jake roared into his mic like a frat boy in a Monster energy ad. His stupid-ass GFuel cup rattled beside him while his legs swung like a happy child on a swing.
On her bed, in front of her vanity, YN was trying to live her best life.
Pink bunny headband on? Yes
Face mask freshly spread? Yes
Taylor Swift playing softly in the background? Yes
Peace? NO
Because Ni-ki, over the headphones, screamed at the top of his lungs:
“JAAAAAAKE YOU NOOOOOOB, YOU GOT SNIPED BY A BOT?!”
She blinked at her reflection. Breathed in. Breathed out. Ignored it.
She continued applying her lip mask like a classy bitch, mouthing along to “Cruel Summer.” She had plans tonight. Plans to feel soft and pretty and hydrated, not listen to her boyfriend verbally assault teenagers on the internet.
But then.
Then.
“HEESEUNG YOU CAN’T AIM FOR SHIT, WHY ARE YOU EVEN IN THIS SQUAD?!”
Jake’s voice literally rattled her moisturizer bottles.
That was the final fucking straw.
She ripped off her bunny headband like a WWE wrestler ready to throw down and screamed:
“SIM JAEYUN, SHUT THE FUCK UP!”
There was silence for a glorious two seconds.
“…Sorry baby,” he said, innocent. “I’ll lower it—”
He didn’t. He got louder.
Then louder, even louder: “NIKI COVER ME I GOTTA HEAL—AHH SHIT HE’S ON ME!!”
Oh.
Oh okay.
This motherfucker.
YN stood, her feet silent on the floor as she approached, the smirk already curling her lips. If he wanted to play games tonight, then so would she. Just not the kind with pixels and victory royales.
Because she was about to get him good. Distract him so hard he’d never look at a loot box again.
Four hours of gaming and zero hours of her?
Yeah.
Not on her watch.
ᯓ★
She had a plan.
A devious, sinful, girlfriend-of-the-year level plan.
Jake wanted to act like she didn’t exist? Bet.
In the bathroom, she slipped out of her bunny pajamas and into a tight black shorts clinging like a second skin, and that tank top—the one hugging her chest in all the right ways, the one with the slightly loose strap that always made Jake’s brain melt into soup. A peek of her lace bra for extra devastation.
He was gonna suffer.
She peeked out of the bathroom door like a little villain.
And what the fuck.
This man—her boyfriend, her love, the person who once cried over a scratch on her finger—had not moved. Not one fucking inch. He was still hunched over like a shrimp in her damn pink chair, headset on, mouth moving at the speed of light.
“YOU STUPID—NIKI, YOU USED THE RIFT TOO EARLY! I SWEAR TO GOD—”
“HEESEUNG, BACK ME UP I’M GETTING THIRD-PARTIED!!”
Voice louder than ever. Hands flailing. Jake was in full gamer mode.
She stared at him like he just slapped her with a fish.
Then—oh of course—the screen lit up with a glowing banner:
#1 VICTORY ROYALE
The characters on screen, all dressed in Fortnite-fied outfits, were now dancing to their own damn choreo. Their Fortnite emote. The bass of XO thundered through his headphones as they celebrated.
“LET’S GOOOOOOO,” Jake screamed like he just won the lottery. “WE’RE BUILT DIFFERENT!”
Niki was screeching. Heeseung was singing. Jake was basically twerking in her chair out of joy.
YN blinked.
YN sighed.
YN turned her ass right around and went back into the bathroom.
Fine.
She’d really doll herself up now.
If he wasn’t gonna pay attention to her willingly, then she’d make sure he had no fucking choice but to notice—and then suffer when she left him high, dry, and with a very inconvenient… problem to solve.
Because tonight?
The only thing Jake was gonna win was a raging case of blue balls.
ᯓ★
Smacking on her gloss with finality, YN stared hard at her reflection. Just gloss and a little blush. No heavy glam. No effort, really. And yet—she looked hot. Hair tied back, lips glistening, shorts practically painted on, and that smug little sparkle in her eyes.
Jake was about to get humbled.
Hard.
She stepped out, confident, ready to watch his jaw hit the fucking desk.
Instead?
There he was.
Still in the goddamn chair.
Her chair.
Lobby screen on.
Ready for another fucking round.
Mouse clicking like he was solving world hunger.
She blinked.
No.
Nope.
Not today.
She strutted toward him like a lioness to her prey, arms crossed, hips swaying with silent murder vibes.
“Jake,” she called, her voice sweet with venom.
He grunted. Not even a glance. Not even a full syllable.
Just a half-muttered, “Mm, sorry babe… one sec…”
Oh.
One sec?
Not a look. Not a turn. Just vibes of disrespect.
As she stood there, dead silent, she watched his screen—and saw the moment.
Jake’s health bar was flashing red. Panic in the game. Some 12-year-old Fortnite demon was taking him out with a gold pump shotgun.
And so—she did it.
She reached forward… and pressed Exit Match.
Just one little click.
And then—
“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO—BABE, WHAT THE FUCK?!”
Jake let out a scream so visceral, it could’ve summoned demons. He spun toward her, arms flailing like he just lost custody of his firstborn child.
“You ruined it! I was about to clutch! Heeseung gave me his flopper and everything—OH MY GOD I WAS TOP THREE, BABE, I WAS TOP THREE!!”
She didn’t flinch.
Didn’t blink.
Just stared at him dead in the eye.
Unbothered. Lip gloss gleaming. Arms folded.
Jake, mid-rant, stopped.
And then he saw her.
Really saw her.
What the fuck?
His anger? Gone.
His words? Gone.
His breath? Gone.
His dic—yeah, never mind.
All that came out of his mouth was:
“…oh fuck.”
Jake was done.
Like—cooked, fried, and served.
Because what the actual fuck.
Why hadn’t he noticed earlier?
This wasn’t her usual pastel PJs with the little clouds on them. This wasn’t her bunny slippers and fuzzy robe.
No.
She was in that tank top.
Those shorts.
The ones he had specifically told her should be “illegal in this household.” The ones that had him malfunctioning every time she bent over to grab her charger.
And now?
She was standing in front of him, all glossed lips and evil smirks, like the goddamn final boss to his horny little heart.
Jake’s tongue darted out to lick his lips, his teeth pulling at the bottom one as his eyes slowly dragged over her body like a man in a trance.
“Babe… you look—fucking hell, you look so hot right now,” he muttered, like he couldn’t believe it himself.
YN scoffed hard, rolling her eyes like it physically hurt her.
“Oh now I’m hot? What happened during the last four hours, huh? Did your mic deafen your common sense?”
Jake had the audacity to look sheepish, his hand rubbing the back of his neck like some rom-com himbo.
“…I was just, y’know… focused.”
“Focused?” she repeated. “Right. On Fortnite. Not your girlfriend.”
She turned to walk away, the shake of her hips pure evil—but he was fast.
Jake caught her wrist, tugging her gently back.
“Babe—c’mon. I didn’t mean to ignore you. I just… got carried away. I missed you.”
She narrowed her eyes, pretending to be annoyed, but the smirk on her face was already creeping back in. She resisted… or at least made it look like she was.
But they both knew.
Jake was weak for her.
And she? She thrived off it.
He pulled her onto his lap, one arm slipping around her waist while the other slid along her back, warm and possessive. She barely settled before she felt it—his hard-on pressing into her through his sweats.
“Oh my God,” she scoffed again, louder this time, eyes wide. “You’re actually hard? From that? Are you that easy?”
Jake groaned softly, burying his face into her neck. “Can you blame me? Look at you…”
She smirked as he kissed her skin, lips trailing up her jaw, hands gripping her hips like he was anchoring himself to reality. Their lips met—It started soft but only for a second.
Because then Jake kissed her like he was starving.
Teeth. Tongue. A low, muffled groan from his throat as she bit down on his bottom lip, tugging it just enough to make him growl under his breath. His hands roamed—sliding up her tank, gripping at the dip of her waist, tracing the curve of her spine like he wanted to memorize her skin.
She shifted in his lap, slowly grinding down, and God—Jake swore under his breath.
“Shit—baby,” he gasped, holding onto her tighter.
His lips left hers only to trail down her jaw, kissing down to her neck like he had no control. Like her skin was the only thing anchoring him to the earth.
One hand was already sneaking under her shirt, inching higher, fingertips brushing the edge of her bra—
Until she stopped him.
Deadpan.
Eyes locked on his.
“I’m on my period.”
Silence.
Jake blinked once.
Twice.
His jaw dropped open like someone had disconnected his Wi-Fi.
“You’re WHAT?!” he choked, voice breaking like a 13-year-old boy. “You—BABE. You did all that—grinding—and—and—making out—and you’re telling me NOW?!”
She shrugged innocently. “Didn’t think it was relevant… until you started acting like a horny puppy.”
Jake collapsed dramatically into her shoulder with a loud groan. “I’ve never been played like this in my life.”
“Aww,” she cooed mockingly, patting his head. “Poor baby.”
He looked up at her, eyes wide with desperation and zero shame.
“…But you can still help me, right? I mean—it’s not illegal. There’s other ways—”
SLAP.
Right across his arm.
“I am not jerking you off because you ignored me for Fortnite.”
Jake whimpered. “But you’re so hot when you’re mean.”
“Jake, shut up before I make it worse.”
He blinked. “Worse how—?”
She leaned close, lips brushing his ear, voice a soft dangerous whisper.
“Next time, I’ll put on the red lingerie you love… and then go to sleep. Alone.”
Jake’s soul left his body.
And YN?
Well, she’d never felt more powerful in her life.
YN walked off, hips swaying like a taunt, lip gloss still gleaming, shorts still hugging her just right—and Jake?
Jake was following.
Actually, more like stumbling after her. Sweats hanging dangerously low, hair a mess, breath ragged.
And yeah, he was still hard. Painfully. Desperately.
Tragically.
“Baby, please—fuck, you can’t just do that to me,” he groaned, voice wrecked, practically dragging his feet behind her. “You got me standing here with a full-on situation. This is evil. This is, like—relationship abuse.”
She snorted as she reached the fridge, casually pulling out a bottle of water like her boyfriend wasn’t behind her dying a slow, horny death.
He leaned against the counter, palming himself shamelessly like a man with zero pride left.
“I’ll do anything,” Jake said, eyes wild. “I’m literally begging here. Mouth, hand, I don’t care. You could breathe in my direction and I’d probably—fuck—please.”
YN turned slowly, sipping her water, completely unbothered. “You should’ve thought of that four hours ago, when I was putting on my face mask and you were yelling at Ni-ki for stealing your kill.”
Jake groaned like she stabbed him. “Ni-ki did steal my kill.”
“And now you want me to breathe on it now?” she asked, voice low, sultry. “Damn, Fortnite really got you down bad.”
“Fortnite didn’t do this,” Jake snapped, eyes dropping to her body for the hundredth time. “You did. Walking around like a fucking fantasy with those shorts and that top—baby, I swear to god, I’m one second away from dropping to my knees and praying for release.”
“Not my problem, lover boy.”
And then—then she dropped to her knees.
Right there in front of him, like a literal fantasy scene. Jake’s brain short-circuited on the spot.
“Holy shit,” he whispered, watching her fingers toy with the drawstring of his sweats. His breath caught as her fingertips brushed low, eyes locked on his while she tilted her head—smirking.
“Baby…” he whispered, hands already tangling in her hair.
She tugged the waistband slightly, just enough to expose the waistband of his boxers, just enough to see his hips twitch beneath her touch. Her lips curled into a smirk as she looked up at him.
He looked destroyed. Jaw clenched. Knuckles white on the counter. Eyes glazed over like he was trying so hard not to lose it.
“Babe,” he croaked. “Please.”
And then—
She stood up.
Looked him dead in the eyes.
And said, “Nah.”
Jake stared at her like he just got divorced mid-proposal.
“WHAT?!”
She winked, skipping past him like a Disney villain in booty shorts. “You got hands, baby. Use ’em.”
“Wait, wait—baby, please, I’m actually in pain. Like real, physical pain. My dick thinks we’re in a hostage situation.”
She giggled. Actually giggled.
And that sound alone made him throb harder.
Jake dropped his head against the fridge.
“I swear to God, I’ve never been played like this in my life.”
And that night, Jake learned two things:
1. Ignoring your girlfriend for four hours is never a good idea.
2. And cold showers? Do nothing.
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# 𝒃𝒐𝒏𝒖𝒔 𝒔𝒄𝒆𝒏𝒆 — MDNI (18+)
Jake was barely holding himself together, every breath coming out shaky and thick with need. His hands trembled at her waist, eyes dark and desperate. “Baby, please… I’m this close to losing my goddamn mind.”
YN’s fingers slid under the waistband of his sweats, tracing just enough to make him shiver. “You want me to fix you, don’t you?”
He groaned, biting his lip hard, eyes fluttering shut as her mouth brushed against his hip, teasing at the edge of his waistband.
“Yeah,” he rasped. “Please. I need you… I need you to fucking take care of this.”
Her lips curled into a wicked smile before she dipped lower, tongue flicking teasingly over his skin as she slowly, deliberately peeled back the fabric.
His body tensed, every nerve ending alive as he trembled beneath her. His low, needy moans filled the room, his grip tightening, voice breaking with raw want.
“Fuck, babe… harder, please. Don’t fucking stop,” he begged, voice hoarse but urgent, eyes dark and desperate.
YN smiled against his cock, taking him even deeper to drive him wild, letting him unravel under her touch, drawing out every shudder and gasp.
Jake’s head fell back, a low, guttural groan ripping from his throat. “Fuck, babe… yeah—just like that.”
Her mouth moved with expert patience, warm and slick, every touch and flick designed to unravel him completely.
His fingers tangled in her hair, pulling her closer as his moans grew louder, desperate and raw. “God, you’re killing me. Don’t stop—please, don’t stop.”
Her hands pressed firmly against his hips, steadying him as he trembled, breath catching in ragged gasps.
“Shit, yeah—right there,” he panted, voice breaking with need. “I’m gonna—fuck!”
With a strangled cry, Jake lost himself, his whole body shuddering as she worked him through every pulse and wave of release.
Jake was still breathless, sweat-damp hair sticking to his forehead as he leaned down, brushing YN’s cheek with a thumb—gentle, affectionate, eyes full of that stupidly soft post-release gaze.
“You did so good, baby…” he murmured, voice low and wrecked. “Like… Olympic gold medal level good.”
YN rolled her eyes, still catching her own breath, lips glossy and smug. “Yeah, well. Maybe next time don’t ignore me for four goddamn hours.”
He brushed his fingers along YN’s jaw with the kind of softness that almost made her forget he’d just spent four hours screaming about Fortnite.
“You’re literally… the love of my life,” he whispered, voice hoarse and still riding the high. “Like, if I died right now, I’d go peacefully. Possibly with a boner, but peacefully.”
YN raised an unimpressed brow. “Don’t start.”
“I’m serious,” he grinned, nuzzling into her neck. “I think my soul left my body. You gave me closure. You should charge for this.”
She rolled her eyes. “Okay, Romeo. Go take a cold shower.”
But Jake just hummed, dragging his fingers down her arm slowly. “Mmm… or… hear me out…”
“Nope.”
“What if,” he said, lips brushing her ear, “we stopped letting a tiny biological inconvenience get in the way of love? I’m talking… spiritual bonding. Ritualistic passion. Like ancient tribes did before tampons.”
YN pulled back slowly, blinking. “I swear to God, if this is about period sex—”
“I’m just saying,” Jake said, voice dipping low, lips dangerously close to her ear, “if it ever… drips or stains or, y’know, gets a little messy…”
She pulled back slowly. “Jake.”
“I don’t care.”
“Jake.”
He smirked. “I’ll clean the sheets. I’ll wash ‘em twice. I’ll throw out the mattress, baby—I’ll buy us a whole new bed. Hell, I’ll get it custom made. Blood and cumproof.”
YN stared, deadpan.
“A bed,” she repeated, “that’s blood and cumproof.”
“For us,” he said proudly, like he was pitching a Shark Tank idea. “Sturdy. Memory foam. Possibly water-resistant. And red sheets, so you won’t even notice the—”
She threw her hair tie at him so hard it snapped off his forehead.
“You’re unwell.”
Jake winced but laughed anyway. “Tell me that’s not the most romantic shit you’ve ever heard.”
“Oh, it’s something,” she muttered, walking away. “Something I’m reporting to the authorities.”
He followed her down the hallway like a puppy. “So that’s a soft yes? Medium yes?”
YN didn’t look back. “That’s a go sleep in your Fortnite chair.”
Jake groaned. “I’m not afraid of a little bodily fluid! That’s love!”
⌗ 𝒂𝒖𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒆 — first time writing smut….. I tried, I really did sorry if it wasn’t that good cus I deadass dk how to write smut. Do you guys prefer the longer fics or just short ones like this? Lmk >_<. Thank you for reading <3
Mingyu has always been tall, broad, all long limbs and easy confidence—but it’s his hands that get you.
Big, warm, possessive hands.
You notice it first in private, when there’s no one around to call him out on it. You’ll be standing in the kitchen of his apartment, phone in hand while you scroll mindlessly, and suddenly there he is behind you. No warning. No sound. Just his chest pressing into your back and his hand settling shamelessly on your ass like it belongs there—because, to him, it does.
“Mingyu,” you mumble, trying to sound annoyed while failing miserably.
He just hums, low and pleased, chin dropping to your shoulder. “Mm? I’m just sayin’ hi.”
His fingers squeeze once, slow and deliberate, like he’s testing your patience. You swat at his arm, but you’re smiling, and he knows it. He always knows.
The thing is—he doesn’t stop in public either. That’s the real problem.
You’re walking through a crowded street, fingers laced together, masks on, when you feel it. His hand slides from your waist just a little too low, palm settling comfortably against you like it’s the most natural thing in the world. You hiss his name under your breath, glancing around, heat rushing to your cheeks.
“There are people,” you whisper.
“So?” he replies innocently, lips twitching. “They don’t know.”
You shoot him a look. He grins back at you—wide, dimpled, unapologetic—and gives you the slightest squeeze before pulling his hand away like he’s done nothing wrong.
He absolutely has.
When you’re out with the boys, it’s worse. They’re all laughing, teasing, talking over one another, and Mingyu’s arm is slung around your shoulders like usual. From the outside, it looks harmless. Protective. Sweet.
Only you know his hand has wandered.
You elbow him lightly, warning. “Behave.”
He leans down, mouth brushing your ear as he murmurs, “You’re the one wearin’ these jeans.”
You regret everything immediately.
Later, when you’re sitting on the sofa together, legs tangled, he’s restless. Always touching—thumb tracing circles on your thigh, fingers absentmindedly flexing like he needs to feel you just to stay grounded. When you shift to get comfortable, his hand follows, settling right back where it clearly loves being.
“You’re so annoying,” you tell him.
He looks at you like you’re his favourite thing in the world, eyes soft but dark, smile lazy. “You love it.”
And the worst part?
He’s right.
Later, when it’s just the two of you, he pulls you close, forehead resting against yours, hands finally still.
“For the record,” he murmurs, voice low and warm, “I grab you ‘cause I like you. A lot.”
You roll your eyes, but you’re smiling as you wrap your arms around his neck. “You grab me because you have zero self-control.”
He laughs, deep and soft, and gives you one last, gentle squeeze before kissing your temple.
Your marriage to Jay was already hanging by a thread, cold silences, dead love, secrets thick enough to choke on. But everything shatters the night you discover the truth: you’re assassins on opposite sides, and your entire relationship was engineered to end with one of you dead. When a mission goes sideways and Jay collapses bleeding in your arms, the two of you are forced into a feral, desperate partnership to outrun the kill orders now targeting you both. What follows is pure chaos: rooftop fights, a mini-heist gone wrong, explosions, marriage counseling sessions that definitely weren’t meant for combat couples, and the kind of chemistry that only hits when hatred and love coexist in the same breath. Trust breaks. Trust rebuilds. Guns misfire. Hearts don’t.
𝓖enre: action-thriller, marriage-on-the-rocks, morally gray romance, espionage drama, slow-burn rebuilding trust, hurt/comfort, dark comedy in chaos.
𝓟airing: assassin spy husband!Jay x assassin spy wife!reader
𝓦arnings: morally gray MCs, marriage built on lies, toxic-but-entertaining dynamics, secret identities, spy/assassin themes, high-stakes missions, violence, guns, blades, bombs, explosions, gore/blood, injury detail, near-death scenes, betrayal, psychological manipulation, chasing, interrogations, emotional whiplash, mutual attempted murder (married-core), and overall thriller chaos, power imbalance, flirting, cheesy lines.
𝓦arnings (SMUT!): explicit sexual content, rough/angry sex, bruising intimacy, dominance/power struggle, breathy pinning/grappling, semi-public tension, clothes half-on type scenes, fingering/oral implications, marking (handprints/bruises), messy desperate pacing, and emotionally charged sex between two very hot, very unhinged assassins.
𝓒ameos: Lee Heeseung/Evan from Enhypen (the bait/enemy), Yang Jungwon from Enhypen (Jay's best friend/ handler)
𝓘nspired 𝓑y: Mr and Mrs. Smith
𝓦ord 𝓒ount: 35K
Sam: Please they get so unserious :D One of my fav fav fav movies ever!
[Better Than The Movies] [Masterlist]
THE MARRIAGE COUNSELOR.
You stared at it for a long moment, the brass letters catching the light like they were mocking you. The metal nameplate read like a joke, The Marriage Counselor, as if couples didn’t already know what they were signing up for when they crossed that sterile white threshold.
The plaque glinted under the soft fluorescent light, its polished edges reflecting back a room that was far too clean for the kind of damage that usually entered it. You could’ve been anywhere else, preferably doing something productive, like chasing down a target who owed you blood and money, but instead you were here, legs crossed, back straight, wasting two hours in a room that smelled like lavender and futility. As if this expensive, ineffective junk would magically bring back a ship that had already sunk.
Across from you, Jay tapped his watch. Again. The sound was rhythmic, deliberate, like he wanted you to notice it. You didn’t look up from your nails, filing them into sharp, immaculate ovals that gleamed under the dull lighting. You could feel his eyes flick toward you anyway, just a brief, silent assessment, habitual, detached.
The therapist’s office looked like it had been curated for calm. Light beige walls, two steel-framed chairs facing each other, a small table between them stacked with tissues and mint candies. A diffuser hummed softly in the corner, puffing out a lazy curl of scented air. The smell was supposed to be soothing. It wasn’t.
You shifted your leg slightly, the heel of your boot clicking against the floor. Jay’s gaze followed the movement for a second before he went back to adjusting the cuff of his shirt, his fingers running down the smooth white fabric until it was perfectly aligned with his wristwatch. He did everything that way, precise, practiced, exacting.
He looked good, as always. That was part of the problem. Hair slicked back in that calculatedly careless way, sleeves rolled to his forearms, veins visible, posture so relaxed it bordered on arrogant. He didn’t have to speak for you to know he’d rather be anywhere else, preferably in a room where there were more weapons than words.
The counselor, a woman in her fifties with kind eyes and too much perfume, shifted in her seat, her pen hovering over the open notebook in her lap. She was waiting for something. For anything.
You could hear the clock ticking behind her. Every second dragged.
When she finally spoke, her voice was warm, measured, professional. “So,” she began, glancing between the two of you like she was approaching a pair of unpredictable animals. “Why are you here today?”
You didn’t answer. Neither did he.
Her pen hovered. The silence settled, heavy and stale, stretching thin like glass that refused to shatter.
Jay exhaled through his nose, low and impatient. The sound wasn’t loud, but it carried enough weight to fill the room. His eyes flicked toward the clock, then the window, then you. You caught the glance from your peripheral vision, but you didn’t bother to meet it. You simply continued filing your nails, slow, deliberate strokes, tiny sparks of metal scraping against the emery board.
The counselor cleared her throat. The sound was tentative, like she didn’t want to startle either of you. “It’s okay,” she tried again, forcing a small, placid smile. “There’s no wrong way to start. Most couples feel uncomfortable at first.”
Still, neither of you said a word. If silence could kill, this room would have been a crime scene already. The counselor shifted again, that nervous little smile faltering when neither of you took the bait. Her pen made a soft click as she pressed the end compulsively, as if the noise might fill the silence neither of you seemed willing to break.
“Why don’t we start simple?” she tried, voice lilting, hopeful in the way of someone trying not to drown. “Who’d like to share first?”
Still nothing. You sat with your ankle crossed neatly over your knee, back straight, every inch of your posture polished and controlled. The kind of stillness that took years to learn. Inside, though, inside you were ticking like a bomb. You could feel Jay’s attention like static at the edge of your awareness, brushing against your skin even as he looked away, pretending to check the time on that damned expensive watch. He didn’t need to look at you to make you feel watched.
It had always been like that with him. A quiet, constant pressure. A touch that wasn’t a touch. Finally, you sighed, a deliberate, theatrical exhale, and muttered, “He left the door open again.”
Jay’s head tilted slightly, the smallest shift, but you caught it. “Excuse me?” “The door,” you repeated, voice flat, still not meeting his eyes. “Front door. Wide open. Again.” He blinked slowly, as if replaying the memory frame by frame. A faint tick pulsed in his jaw. “It was locked.” “It was open.”
A pause, long enough to taste. Then, smoothly, “You sure you weren’t too distracted rearranging the kitchen to notice?” That made you look at him. Finally. The counselor blinked, pen frozen midair. “Rearranging?” You smiled, small, sharp, surgical. “He hates the new layout.”
Jay returned it, equally thin. “Because it doesn’t make sense. The knives are nowhere near the cutting board.” “They’re decorative knives, Jay.” He leaned back slightly, voice deceptively soft. “Knives are never decorative.” “Depends,” you murmured, “on what you use them for.” The air thickened like smoke. The counselor let out a shaky, misplaced laugh, mistaking the sharpness for humor. “Well, it’s good that you can joke—” “We’re not joking,” you both said, almost in unison.
The silence that followed wasn’t empty, it was pressurized. A held breath waiting for something to explode. The counselor swallowed, adjusting her glasses, her pen trembling just slightly as she tried to look at one of you without staring too long at either. Her voice came out thinner this time. “Alright, um… let’s try to keep things constructive. Maybe talk about what’s working?”
You ignored her. Jay did too. Instead, you tilted your head toward him, almost lazy. “He replaced my coffee beans,” you said, like it was an accusation. Jay’s brows lifted. “Because yours taste like burnt rubber.” “They’re imported,” you shot back, just a little too fast. “You wouldn’t know the difference.” “I’d know poison if I tasted it.”
That earned you a low hum from him, barely audible, but his gaze was locked on yours now, steady, calm, dangerous. There was nothing romantic about it. It was the stillness before the pull of a trigger, the charged quiet of two professionals who’d memorized each other’s tells: the flick of a wrist, the dilation of a pupil, the heartbeat quickening just slightly when the line was crossed.
The counselor scribbled something down, uncommunicative, defensive, mutual hostility, as if any of those words came close to describing this. Jay leaned back slightly, one arm draped over the side of his chair, the picture of lazy indifference, but you caught the twitch in his fingers, the way his thumb brushed absently over his ring, like a tic. You wondered if he realized he was doing it. You wondered if he’d kill you before or after he stopped pretending to love you.
You noticed because you always noticed. Every tic, every micro-expression. It was a habit you couldn’t unlearn, observing him was survival. And maybe, somewhere deep down, compulsion. He noticed your glance. He didn’t stop. “So,” the counselor tried again, her smile stretching thin as paper. “You two have been together… how long?”
“Seven years,” you said. “Eight,” Jay corrected. You turned to him, brows arching. “Eight?” He met your look evenly. “You always forget the first year.” You let out a faint, humorless breath. “That’s because we were pretending to be other people the whole time.”
Jay’s lips twitched, but his eyes didn’t. “You make it sound like it stopped.” The counselor laughed again, high, nervous, sharp around the edges. “Ah! So you’re both very… um… playful.” “Sure,” you said lightly, crossing your arms. “Let’s call it that.”
Jay’s tone was even smoother now, honey over glass. “She’s always been creative with her definitions.” You tilted your head toward him, eyes narrowed just enough to pass as teasing. “You’d know.” He smiled back, slow and deliberate, that same charming smile he used in interrogation rooms right before the subject broke. The one that never reached his eyes. “I do.”
The counselor’s pen stuttered against her notepad, a faint tap-tap-tap. Her gaze darted between you again, searching for a foothold, some way to steer this shipwreck of a session back to shore. “Why,” she asked carefully, “do you think you’re here today?” The question hung in the air, too light for how heavy the room had become.
You looked at Jay. Jay looked at you. And neither of you answered. Outside, a car door slammed somewhere down the street. Inside, the hum of the diffuser filled the silence like a heartbeat. The counselor waited, blinking, as if time itself might coax the truth out of you. Jay’s thumb tapped once more against his ring before he finally spoke, voice low enough that it barely reached the other side of the room. “Because someone thinks one of us might snap.”
You didn’t flinch. Just smiled. “They’re wrong.” He looked at you again, longer this time, slower, and something unreadable passed through his expression. A flash of recognition. A memory, maybe. Or the ghost of the night he’d wiped blood from his hands and kissed you before the body had even cooled.
Flash: White walls. Fluorescent lights. A man tied to a chair, shaking. You stood over him, one gloved hand wrapped around his jaw, the other holding a blade so sharp it glimmered even under the cheap light.
“Who paid you?” you asked softly. He whimpered something useless. The knife pressed closer, the point grazing his pulse. His eyes darted, terrified. You smiled faintly. Professional. Detached. “You’ve got one more chance.” The man spoke. You didn’t even need to hear the words, you could tell from the tremor in his voice that he was lying. By the time you left the room, the floor was a Rorschach painting of red.
Flash: Different lighting. Different silence.
A lab, sterile, humming, too bright. The air reeked of ozone and burnt circuitry. Jay stood in front of a dismantled computer tower, hands gloved, wiping blood from the barrel of a silencer with an efficiency that was almost tender. The man slumped over the desk beside him had stopped breathing five minutes ago. Jay didn’t look at him. Didn’t need to.
He wiped his hands, slipped his phone out of his pocket, and typed a brief message. Target acquired. Cleanup in process. Then, like nothing had happened, he removed his gloves, adjusted his cuffs, and walked out.
Now. The therapist’s office. The scent of lavender diffusing through stale air. Your pulse in your throat. The counselor cleared her throat again, too loud this time. “Okay, let’s try something different. I’d like each of you to share one thing you admire about the other.” Jay leaned back, that half-smile ghosting across his lips again. “She’s good at lying.”
You didn’t miss a beat. “He’s good at pretending it bothers him.” The counselor’s pen stilled. The silence returned, heavier than before. And beneath it all, the quiet hum of mutual recognition, the tension between love and annihilation, the unspoken truth that neither of you would ever walk away first.
Because in your world, leaving was just another way of dying. The counselor blinks at the two of you like she’s trying to decode a foreign language. Her pen stills halfway through an unhelpful note, the faint scratching noise fading into the hum of the too-cold air conditioner. You and Jay sit in the same metallic chairs, same careful distance apart, enough space for a ghost to sit between you, maybe two.
She clears her throat again, voice pitched in the way people do when they’re trying too hard to be gentle. “You two seem… distant.” You don’t even look at him when you answer. “We work on communication.” Jay leans back, arms crossing, it’s almost lazy, but you know that posture is defensive, practiced. His jaw flexes just enough to betray irritation. “Not effectively,” he says.
The counselor blinks again. “Right. And what does that mean to you?” You shrug, the corner of your mouth lifting into something almost resembling a smile. “It means we’re talking, aren’t we?” Jay scoffs softly, it’s not cruel, but it’s edged. “If you call this talking.” “Better than silence,” you shoot back. She looks between you, a human metronome of confusion, before scribbling something again, probably deflection or passive hostility. You’d bet a bullet on it.
The silence that follows is weighted, brittle. You stare at the wall clock ticking away the seconds of your so-called therapy, while Jay stares at you. You can feel it, that sharp, assessing gaze that’s less husband and more… analyst. The air between you feels like it’s been split by a blade neither of you has drawn.
He shifts slightly. “So. How long do we have to do this?” The counselor blinks. “It’s a fifty-minute session.” “Feels longer,” you murmur. Jay smirks, and it’s infuriating, that same smirk that used to melt you, now just fans the irritation in your chest.
The counselor forces a smile, her voice catching somewhere between concern and exhaustion. “Maybe we can start small. What’s something you both… appreciate about each other?” A pause. You open your mouth, then close it. Jay’s hand twitches like he’s about to speak but doesn’t. You can see her hope crumble a little more with every second that passes.
Finally, you say, “He’s punctual.” Jay turns to look at you, a glint of amusement cutting through the cold. “She’s efficient.” You both smile, but it’s nothing close to warmth. It’s choreography, neat, sharp, and deadly in its precision. The counselor sighs. “Right. Okay. I think that’s… progress.”
You almost laugh. Jay does, quietly, under his breath. The counselor mistakes it for relief. When the session ends, you both stand at the same time. No words exchanged, just the scrape of metal chairs against tiled floor. The door clicks shut behind you, and the silence is louder than anything said in that room.
You drive home with the radio off. Streetlights flash through the windshield, slicing your reflection into fragments. In the corner of your eye, Jay’s hands stay perfectly steady on the steering wheel, controlled, precise. He always drives like that, like he’s calculating escape routes rather than directions. Neither of you speaks. You haven’t, not since the door closed behind the counselor’s polite wave. The hum of the tires on asphalt fills the space between you. You glance out the window, rain threatens in the distance, smudging the city skyline into streaks of gray and gold.
At a red light, your phone buzzes against your thigh. You glance down, thumb flicking open the hidden compartment under the console. The burner glows faintly, one message. Target confirmed. 0300 hours.
You lock it before Jay can see. Not that he’s looking. He’s too busy checking the reflection in the rearview mirror, not for traffic, but for tails. He exhales, almost a sigh, and you can tell he’s somewhere far from the present. Maybe a lab, maybe a mission. You wouldn’t know. Eight years, and you’ve never told him what you do when you “work late.” You’ve never mentioned the sound a man makes when a blade touches his throat, or how steady your hands stay during interrogation.
Little do you know, he’s never told you what he does in those “overnight meetings,” or why there’s always a faint scent of gun oil on his collar. You turn your head toward the window, eyes following the blur of passing lights. Jay’s profile is calm, unreadable, and for a moment, the silence feels like confession. Eight years of marriage. Zero truths. And yet somehow, both of you think you’re winning.
The traffic light flicks green. He doesn’t move right away. Just watches the intersection ahead like he’s waiting for someone to step out of the shadows. When he finally drives, it’s slower, deliberate. “Are you cold?” he asks suddenly, voice quiet enough that it almost startles you. You glance over. His tone is neutral, too neutral. “I’m fine.”
He hums in acknowledgment, eyes still fixed on the road. “You were shaking.” “I wasn’t.” (You were.) His hand tightens on the steering wheel. “You don’t have to lie.”
You smile faintly, the reflection of streetlights catching in your eyes. “That’s rich, coming from you.” He looks at you now, just for a second, long enough for tension to spark across the console like static. The air feels thinner somehow. You can almost hear the beat of his pulse under the hum of the engine.
“Why do you always assume the worst?” he asks softly. “Because I’ve met you,” you say, matching his tone. “And I’ve seen the worst.”
A pause. The car’s interior feels suddenly too small. The smell of leather, the low vibration of the engine, it’s all too intimate for two people so armed. He laughs once, quietly. “Fair.” You don’t say anything. Neither does he. The silence stretches again, elastic and dangerous. You reach the apartment building at the edge of the city. He parks neatly, kills the engine, and unbuckles his seatbelt, but doesn’t get out. Just sits there, fingers drumming once against the steering wheel. You wait. He finally says, “You told her I left the door open.”
You tilt your head. “You did.” “I didn’t.” “Then someone else did.” His eyes narrow, just a fraction. “Who would that be?” You smile, small and sharp. “You tell me. You’re the paranoid one.” “Cautious,” he corrects. “Same thing.”
You both sit in the dark, the only light coming from the streetlamp flickering outside. You can feel his gaze again, heavy, deliberate. Not cruel, but dissecting. “Do you ever wonder,” he says after a moment, “what she’d write down if she knew who we really were?”
A beat, what was that supposed to mean? You let the question hang, then murmur, “She wouldn’t have time to write.” He looked at you more carefully, studying the way your cold eyes were fixed ahead, the bridge of your nose, the curve of your lips— he chuckles, low, dangerous, and it makes your skin prickle. “That’s what I thought.”
You open the door first, stepping into the cool night air. He follows a moment later, his footsteps matching yours out of habit, synchronized, as always. The elevator ride up is silent, the kind of silence that hums. You both stare straight ahead, watching the floor numbers blink past. At the 14th floor, the doors slide open, and he gestures for you to go first. Always the gentleman. Always the predator. Inside the apartment, everything is too neat. Too sterile. The faint scent of jasmine from the diffuser tries, and fails, to soften the tension. You take off your coat. He doesn’t.
You turn to him. “You hungry?” He shakes his head. “Already ate.” You hum. “Where?” He meets your eyes. “Work.” You nod once. “Long day?” “Always.” You stand there, an arm’s length apart. Married. Civil. Strangers. And under it all, that same question neither of you has ever asked aloud: Who will pull the trigger first?
The morning begins the way it always does, too quiet, too clean, too precise.
The sun filters weakly through the curtains, painting the kitchen in thin bars of gold. It’s the kind of light that should make everything look warm, but somehow, here, it only sharpens the edges.
Jay is already at the table, the newspaper folded into perfect thirds. He doesn’t eat. He never does in the mornings, just sits there, sleeves rolled up, reading headlines that don’t really interest him, coffee cooling untouched by his elbow. The faint sound of the clock fills the silence between you, measured and mechanical. You move around him soundlessly. The choreography is familiar: kettle, mug, filter, grind. Your movements are exact, like a dance you’ve performed too many times to ever forget the steps. You don’t look at him when you pass by. You don’t need to. You can feel him. The shift of air when he turns a page, the subtle creak of the chair when he crosses one leg over the other. Every sound in this apartment is catalogued, memorized, understood.
The smell of roasted beans fills the air, a comfort to anyone else, but not to you. To you, it’s strategy. Distraction. Something to do with your hands. Jay’s voice breaks the quiet, smooth but cool. “You’re up late.” You don’t glance at him. “You’re up early.” He hums, a neutral, noncommittal sound, and returns to the paper. The kettle clicks off, a neat punctuation mark.
You pour the water slowly, deliberately, watching the dark bloom of coffee spread through the filter. The faint hiss of the pour-over fills the silence again. You used to talk, once. There used to be laughter here. The sound of him humming along to some old record while you burned toast and pretended not to care. Now it’s just this, ritual without warmth.
When you finally speak again, it’s because you have to. “You used all the sugar.” Jay doesn’t look up. “I measured it.” “You measured it wrong.” A flicker of a smirk ghosts across his face, there and gone. “I don’t measure wrong.” You place your mug down with a quiet, deliberate clink. “You do when you’re distracted.” That earns you a glance, brief and razor-sharp. “I don’t get distracted.” “Of course not.”
You take a sip, too hot, and let the burn sit on your tongue longer than necessary. You wonder if he’s watching. He is. Always. Jay folds the newspaper with surgical precision, every line crisp, every edge aligned. “You have plans today?” “Work,” you say simply.
He nods, pretending to read again. “Late?” “Probably.” He hums again, and the silence stretches out between you like a tripwire. You used to ask him the same thing. You used to care. Now you both just trade questions like moves on a chessboard, predictable, sterile, practiced.
Your cover story is pristine. You’re the Director of The Firm, a high-end “corporate solutions” company that handles sensitive acquisitions and “problem resolution.” In reality, it’s a global assassination network disguised as a consultancy firm for CEOs with blood on their ledgers. You sit behind smoked glass, dressed in sharp suits, managing death as if it’s logistics. Your business cards say: Precision. Discretion. Permanence.
Jay, for his part, is an IT recruiter for a cybersecurity firm, or so the neighborhood believes. In truth, he runs his own cover operation, a shell company that builds defensive systems for covert agencies and offensive ones for whoever pays more. His world is lines of code and encrypted servers, networks so deep you can drown in them.
Between the two of you, you’ve destabilized governments, erased identities, and orchestrated coups. But here, in this quiet suburb, your greatest operation is keeping the façade of marriage intact. A faint breeze stirs the curtains. Outside, the city is waking up, car horns, dogs, a neighbor’s radio bleeding faintly through the walls. Normal sounds. Civilian sounds. They don’t fit here.
You glance at him over the rim of your mug. His tie is straight. His shirt immaculate. He looks like the picture of control. But you know that stillness, have seen it before, in interrogation rooms, on rooftops, in the moments before someone decides to pull a trigger.
“You’re thinking too loud,” you say, mostly to fill the air. He lowers the newspaper. “And you’re listening too hard.” You smile faintly. “Occupational hazard.” That earns you another silence, but it’s different this time, denser. His eyes linger a second too long, and you can almost feel the air change, heavier, charged. For a heartbeat, the kitchen feels smaller. Then he blinks, the spell breaks, and he stands.
His chair scrapes back quietly, too controlled to be careless. He sets the paper down in its exact place and walks past you, close enough for his sleeve to brush your arm. The touch is brief but electric, leaving a shiver that you hide behind another sip of coffee. “Don’t wait up,” he says, reaching for his jacket. “I wasn’t planning to.” He pauses at the door. You don’t look at him, but you can feel the weight of his gaze. There’s something like amusement in it, cold, knowing. “You say that every time.”
“And I mean it every time.” His hand lingers on the doorknob. For a second, you think he might say something else. But he just exhales softly, the kind of breath that carries too many unsaid things, and leaves. The door clicks shut behind him. The sound echoes through the apartment like a gunshot.
The silence after he’s gone feels heavier than his presence ever does. You set the mug down, stare at the faint ring it leaves on the counter. A perfect circle. Unbroken. You rinse the cup, wipe the counter, straighten the chair he moved, because that’s what you do. Maintain order. Keep things clean. Keep the edges sharp and the routine tighter than the lies holding it all together. Your reflection stares back at you from the dark window. Same face. Same calm. Same invisible hairline crack beneath the surface.
You check your watch. 08:03. Plenty of time. You reach under the sink, hand brushing past cleaning supplies until your fingers find the cool metal of the lockbox. A code. A click. The lid opens with a soft hiss. Inside: a gun, two flash drives, a sealed envelope marked in red. You touch none of it. Just look. Inventory. Confirm. Close.
By the time you’re done, the kitchen looks normal again. Domestic. Safe. You take your coat, grab your keys, and step into the hallway. The air smells faintly of detergent and someone else’s perfume. For a moment, you imagine what it might be like to live an ordinary life, to argue about bills, about laundry, about love. Then you lock the door behind you, and the thought dissolves.
Jay takes the elevator down alone. He doesn’t press the ground floor, he presses the basement. The ride hums softly, the mechanical buzz like white noise over the sound of his own heartbeat. When the doors open, the fluorescent light flickers once, twice. He walks through rows of cars, past the one he drives to work, to another parked deeper in the shadows. The trunk opens with a coded click.
Inside: a weapon case, neatly organized. Two suppressors. A map. A folder labeled Asset 42. He doesn’t look at the map long, just enough to memorize. Then he closes it again, adjusts his tie, and checks his reflection in the rearview mirror. Calm. Composed. Civilian. He glances at his watch. 08:11. He’s got two hours before the briefing. Four before the first target moves.
He drives. Back upstairs, the sun has shifted. The kitchen is filled with light now, bright, almost cheerful. The scent of coffee still lingers. The newspaper headline stares up from the table where he left it. Diplomat’s Car Bomb Kills Three – Suspects Unknown.
Your mug sits beside it, lipstick mark smudged at the rim.
Two halves of the same scene. A life that looks ordinary from the outside. And a marriage built on the art of pretending.
— — —
“Morning, Jay! Morning, sweetheart!” You look up from clipping the hedge to see Linda from next door, a hurricane of floral perfume and gossip, waving like you’re her favorite soap opera couple. Her husband mows the lawn behind her, humming to himself, the picture of cheerful obedience.
“Morning, Linda,” Jay says smoothly, lowering his sunglasses. His smile is crisp, calculated, perfect. You can almost hear the click of it being deployed. “Oh, you two are just adorable!” she gushes, leaning over the fence like she’s confiding in an old friend. “Always so composed! I tell Gary all the time, you could teach us a thing or two about marriage.”
You meet Jay’s gaze over the hedge, and the irony almost makes you laugh. Almost. “Well,” you say, voice sweet enough to rot. “Discipline helps.” Linda laughs, oblivious. “Oh, absolutely! By the way, don’t forget the HOA meeting this evening. We’re discussing mailbox uniformity, again!”
Your fingers tighten slightly on the hedge clippers. “Wouldn’t miss it.” When she finally retreats into her pastel house, you exhale, setting the clippers down with surgical precision. Jay’s smirk is small, sharp. “Mailbox uniformity,” he murmurs. “How will we ever survive the chaos?”
“Maybe I’ll volunteer to lead the discussion,” you reply. “You know how I am with problem-solving.” He glances at you, a flicker of amusement, and something darker, passing through his eyes. “That’s what I’m afraid of.”
You smile, stepping past him to collect the mail. The sunlight glints off your wedding ring, sterile, reflective, a weapon in its own right. Inside, the house hummed with the practiced life of perfect suburbia: the faint scent of vanilla candles, the distant whir of the washing machine, the immaculate surfaces that hid everything they were meant to hide. On the refrigerator door a grocery list in your handwriting read like an accusation: Milk. Eggs. Lemons. Lies.
Jay’s voice called from the living room, easy, casual. “You’ll be home for dinner?” You paused, sorting the mail, bills, glossy coupons, a charity leaflet, and one unmarked envelope that didn’t belong with the polite clutter of everyday life. It lay there like a promise wrapped in neutral paper. “Depends,” you said, slipping the envelope between your fingers. “Work might run late.”
He made that soft, ambiguous hum again, the sound that meant nothing and everything. “Of course.” Neither of you specified what “work” meant. In this house the word was elastic, an execution in a foreign warehouse, a midnight breach into a fortified server room, a phone call that made people stop breathing. Saying any of it aloud would be dangerous in more ways than one, so you let the sentence remain small and tidy like a lie folded into a napkin. The air in the hallway felt thick with polite deceit, as if the wallpaper itself had learned to keep secrets. You slid the unmarked envelope into your blazer pocket, no ceremony, no examining the edges, and walked up the stairs. Jay watched you go, eyes unreadable above the rim of his coffee mug, the quiet of his stare cataloguing you in ways words never could.
Outside, the street looked exactly as it should: children shrieking in a cluster of summer laughter, sprinklers hissing in tidy arcs, hedges clipped to friendly angles. The neighborhood was a tableau of smiling façades and hollow certainties. You and Jay were its crown jewel, polished, enviable, quietly rotting behind the same clean windows everyone admired.
The meeting takes place in Linda’s living room, beige, symmetrical, aggressively normal. Everything smells faintly of lemon cleaner and desperation. You and Jay arrive exactly on time. Not early enough to seem overeager, not late enough to be rude. The performance begins at the door, his hand on the small of your back, your polite laugh at something you didn’t hear.
The neighborhood royalty is all here: Linda and Gary from next door, Karen and Tom from across the street, a handful of retirees who seem to feed on complaint. A tray of deviled eggs sits untouched in the center of the coffee table, next to a bowl of hummus that’s trying very hard to look artisanal. “Jay! Y/N!” Linda beams, ushering you in. “So glad you could make it!”
“Wouldn’t miss it,” you say, smiling like it doesn’t hurt. Jay takes the seat beside you on the couch, close enough that your knees brush, a reminder, maybe, of the part you’re both playing. His cologne lingers, sharp and clean. You can feel the eyes of every neighbor on you two: the perfect pair, the aspirational marriage. Linda claps her hands. “Alright, everyone! Let’s get started. First item on the agenda: mailbox uniformity!”
Jay’s fingers twitch against his knee. You almost smirk. Karen, who runs the neighborhood Facebook group like a dictatorship, raises a manicured hand. “I personally think everyone should have the same model, black, metal, with a lock. It looks more professional.” Tom, her husband, nods obediently. “We don’t want inconsistency. It lowers property value.”
Gary chuckles. “Tell that to the Johnsons and their flamingo mailbox.” The group murmurs, scandalized. You exchange a glance with Jay, your lips parting in a whisper only he can hear. “Riveting, isn’t it?” He doesn’t look at you, but you can see the twitch of amusement at the corner of his mouth. “Almost as exciting as your last board meeting, I bet.”
You tilt your head slightly, voice soft and dangerous. “The last board meeting ended with someone bleeding out in the restroom. This one’s just… louder.” He covers a smile with his knuckles, and the sight of it, the faint curve of his mouth, the warmth that flickers and dies too fast, makes your stomach twist, traitorous.
Linda’s voice cuts through. “Y/N, you’ve got such a good eye for aesthetics, what do you think?” The room turns to you. Every gaze expectant. You rest your chin on your hand, feigning thoughtfulness. “Uniformity can be… stifling. But structure’s good for discipline.” Jay glances sideways, the ghost of a smirk betraying him. “She’s always been a fan of discipline.”
A few polite chuckles ripple through the group. You turn to him, smiling sweetly, the kind of smile that hides a knife. “And he’s always been a fan of control.” Something electric shifts in the air. Just for a second. Linda, blissfully unaware, scribbles something on her notepad. “Wonderful points! Alright, moving on! The community watch program…”
You tune out the next fifteen minutes, conversations about porch lights, unfamiliar cars, and a mysterious “teenager in a hoodie” sighting. The irony isn’t lost on you. If they knew what kind of surveillance systems you both ran from your basement, the HOA would probably dissolve itself out of existential dread. Jay leans closer, whispering under the hum of small talk. “You could run this whole thing if you wanted.” You hum, still staring at Linda’s notes. “Maybe I already do.” He laughs under his breath, low, quiet, genuine. It almost sounds like affection.
When the meeting finally ends, there’s a flurry of thank-yous and casserole invitations. You and Jay play your roles to perfection: smiling, nodding, engaging in small talk about the weather and recycling schedules. Linda hugs you both at the door, her perfume clinging like static. “You’re such a lovely couple,” she coos. “You remind me that marriage can be so stable when both people work at it.”
Jay’s smile is polite, sharp enough to cut glass. “Oh, we work at it.” The door closes behind you. The night air tastes clean, finally. You walk down the driveway in silence, the sound of your heels echoing on the pavement. Jay unlocks the car, but you don’t get in right away. You look up at the rows of glowing windows, every family inside pretending just as hard as you are.
“Stable,” you repeat, under your breath. Jay glances at you, that faint, assessing squint returning. “What?” You turn toward him, voice smooth. “She called us stable.” He chuckles softly. “We are. Statistically.” You cross your arms. “Statistically, most marriages fail.”
He meets your gaze then, something unspoken tightening between you. “So let’s make sure ours doesn’t.” The words sound like a promise. Or a threat.
Later, back home, the lights are dim. You hang your coat, he loosens his tie. The performance lingers even now, two actors unwilling to break character. On the kitchen counter, your phone buzzes once. A single message flashes across the screen. CLIENT CONFIRMED. NEW TARGET: Evan. Your breath stills. The initials hit like a pulse of static.
You glance toward the living room, Jay, unbuttoning his cuffs, unaware. Or maybe not. He looks up, meets your eyes. His expression doesn’t change, but there’s a weight to it now, like he’s reading more than your face. “Everything alright?” he asks. You smile, sliding the phone face down. “Perfect.” He studies you a second longer, then nods. The hum of the refrigerator fills the silence. You pour yourself a glass of water, watching your reflection ripple in it. Jay passes behind you, brushing close enough that his sleeve grazes your arm. It’s nothing. And it’s everything. Domestic bliss. Just another mission, perfectly executed.
The day unravels in silence. By noon, the house has settled into its perfect performance, sterile, still, and utterly convincing. The kind of silence that feels deliberate. You work at the desk in the upstairs office, light slanting in through blinds like prison bars. Files are open on your screen, innocent spreadsheets, dummy emails, HR reports. All camouflage. Beneath the desktop, another monitor hums quietly, encrypted. A hidden window blinks to life every forty seconds, asking for authorization. You don’t answer it yet.
Jay’s absence fills the house like a ghost. You can feel him even when he’s gone, his watch ticking on the dresser, his jacket hanging too neatly, the faint trace of his cologne in the air. Everything he leaves behind is a placeholder for the things he doesn’t say.
You tell yourself the marriage is fine. That silence is safer than honesty. But lately, something in the quiet feels off. Like a wire pulled too tight. You open the window, let in the city hum. And under the sound of traffic, you think, Something’s missing. Not affection. Not even trust. Something else, something you can’t name. A piece of the game you can’t see. Down in the basement of a downtown office tower, Jay sits at his desk, surrounded by monitors that cast his face in pale light. His reflection flickers in the glass, a man who could be anyone. Who is anyone.
He scrolls through lines of code that no civilian should ever have access to, eyes scanning, calculating. The pattern of movement is almost graceful, like a pianist playing a dangerous song only he understands. He should be focused. He should be calm. But a thought keeps needling at him, looping back no matter how many firewalls he builds around it.
Something’s missing. He doesn’t know if it’s her, or him, or whatever used to fill the air between them before it all went quiet. Maybe it’s the sound of truth, and he’s forgotten what that even feels like. The phone rings. Not his personal one. The other one, the matte-black satellite phone buried beneath a stack of meaningless reports.
He stares at it for half a second before answering. “Smith.” A pause. Then a voice, smooth and precise. “You’re being reassigned.” Jay leans back in his chair, eyes narrowing. “Reassigned?”
“Temporary directive. DIA asset transfer. Codename: Evan. Prisoner extraction. You’ll receive coordinates within the hour.” He’s silent for a beat too long. The voice doesn’t wait for a reply. “High value, high discretion. You know the drill.”
The line clicks dead. Jay exhales slowly, jaw tightening. The name Evan sticks in his head like a shard of glass. He’s heard it before, once, months ago, buried in chatter that never made sense. A rumor about a prisoner too valuable to kill and too dangerous to keep.
He pulls up the encrypted database. The same blinking authorization window appears, the one he’s been ignoring. This time, he types in his code. The screen floods with classified data. Coordinates. Transfer schedules. Escort routes. He scrolls once, twice, and freezes.
Because in the logistics roster, beside the operation ID, there’s a familiar name listed under “Field Operative – Alternate Contractor.”
Yours.
–––
You’re in the kitchen when your phone vibrates against the counter. Not your phone, the other one. The one that doesn’t have a ringtone, only a low, steady pulse. You dry your hands, glance once toward the living room. The clock ticks steadily, the kind of rhythm that hides secrets. Then you swipe to answer. “Report,” a voice says, low, modulated, genderless. Your handler. You stand still, eyes on the window. “Listening.”
“Priority job. DIA prisoner transfer. Codename: Evan. Extraction on transport route Alpha-Nine. Two-day window. You’ll receive the drop point at 0600.” You nod once, even though no one can see you. “Parameters?” “Alive,” the voice says. “For now. Full debrief later.” The call ends with a soft tone, no goodbye, no confirmation. You stand there a moment, the hum of the refrigerator filling the silence.
Evan. You’ve heard the name too. Whispered across encrypted lines, pinned on bulletin boards that only exist in the dark. You set the phone down, but your hand lingers on it longer than it should. Upstairs, the faint creak of the bedroom floor makes you look up. Empty. But the air feels wrong, as if the house is holding its breath. You close your eyes and inhale slowly, the way you do before every mission. Focus. Compartmentalize. The lies keep you alive. Still, beneath the precision of your thoughts, the same phantom pulse thrums like an aftershock. Something’s missing.
–––
By evening, Jay and you will sit across from each other again, pretending at normalcy. The distance between you will hum like a live wire, and neither of you will say a word about the missions, the phones, the target. But somewhere between your silence and his restraint, both of you will know, whatever’s missing is about to find you first. And its name is Evan.
— — —
By the time Jay gets home, the light has turned the color of smoke. The street outside hums with the soft sounds of suburbia, sprinklers, car doors, someone’s dog barking like a metronome. Inside, the house smells faintly of lemon soap and silence. You hear the lock turn before you hear his footsteps. It’s always the same rhythm: two steps, pause, another three. He doesn’t call out. Neither do you. The door shuts, the shoes come off, the keys land with a soft clink in the ceramic bowl by the stairs. Precision. Control. Predictability, the same way you both survive.
“Long day?” you ask, voice smooth, neutral. It’s not a question so much as a ritual line in a well-rehearsed play. “Same as usual,” Jay says. His tie’s gone, the collar of his shirt undone just enough to look human. He moves through the kitchen like a man walking through his own dream, touching nothing, seeing everything. “You?”
You hum. “Paperwork. Endless.” He glances at your laptop on the counter. The screen shows only an open spreadsheet, columns of meaningless data. He doesn’t look close enough to notice the faint flicker of the hidden window beneath it. You know, because he never does. He trusts your surface. And you’ve made an art of keeping it polished.
Jay opens the fridge. “We’re out of milk.” You shrug. “I’ll add it to the list.” He leans against the counter, watching you. You can feel the weight of it, not affection, not suspicion, but something quieter. The way a soldier studies the field before a fight. You break eye contact first, reaching for a glass. The water runs clear and cold. He watches the stream hit the rim, the condensation bead and slide down your fingers. “Dinner?” he asks.
“I ordered in,” you say. “Thai.” He nods. It’s the same answer every Thursday, Thai, then silence, then bed. The rhythm holds the illusion together. Predictable marriages don’t draw attention. Predictable marriages don’t raise flags.
You plate the food in silence. The radio hums low in the background, soft jazz, warm and domestic. Jay sits across from you at the dining table, sleeves rolled, wristwatch glinting faintly in the lamplight. The watch you bought him two years ago. He still wears it every day, though you doubt it’s sentiment. More likely habit. Or guilt. You push a grain of rice around your plate. “They called me in for another presentation next week,” you lie.
Jay looks up. “Another one?” “Mhm. New client. Potential merger.” “Anyone I’d know?” You smile. “Doubt it.” He nods, accepting it. You feel something almost cruel twist in your chest. Because you could say it, you could tell him what The Firm really does, how the mergers you lead end in body bags. But you don’t. You won’t. And the worst part is, a small, self-protective part of you wonders if he’d even be surprised.
Jay cuts into his food, slow, deliberate. “Linda mentioned the HOA might raise the community fees again.” “Of course she did,” you murmur, reaching for your glass. “It’s her love language.” That earns a quiet snort from him, an almost laugh. It’s the first sound that feels remotely alive all evening. You both linger in that pause longer than you should. Then the clock ticks again, loud and sharp, and whatever flicker of warmth was there dissolves like sugar in water.
Later, in the living room, you sit beside him on the couch. The TV glows faintly, some nature documentary, muted. On the screen, a lion stalks a herd of gazelles through long grass. The irony isn’t lost on you. Jay scrolls through his phone. You pretend to read a book. Both of you are elsewhere, running coordinates, decoding patterns, mapping exits in your heads. Every quiet second feels like reconnaissance.
At some point, he reaches out, resting a hand lightly on your thigh. Not possessive. Not tender. Just contact, the kind of touch that says, we’re still here. It almost undoes you. You look at him. His profile in the low light, sharp, immaculate, distant. You wonder if he’d still look at you like that if he knew how much blood your hands have seen. “Jay,” you say before you can stop yourself. The sound of his name feels strange, heavy on your tongue.
He turns, eyes softening a fraction. “Yeah?” You open your mouth. Close it. Smile. “Never mind.” He studies you for a moment, then nods, like he knows not to press. You both go back to your respective silences. On screen, the lion strikes. Midnight comes like a held breath. The house is dark. The air conditioner hums, the clock ticks, the world pretends to sleep.
Downstairs, in the quiet glow of the kitchen, your phone vibrates once, the secure one, the one hidden in the breadbox behind the false panel. You move like smoke, bare feet soundless on tile. You lift the lid, thumb brushing the cold glass. TRANSFER ROUTE CONFIRMED. ALPHA-NINE. 0600 HOURS.
Across town, Jay sits in his own office, the blue light of his monitors painting his face in fractured shadows. His satellite phone lies open on the desk beside a map. ASSET EVAN. LOCATION LOCKED. EXTRACT, NOT ELIMINATE. HIGH PRIORITY.
Two different rooms. Two different missions. One collision course. Jay rubs a hand over his jaw, exhaustion setting in behind his eyes. He doesn’t notice the photo frame at the edge of his desk, the two of you on your wedding day, smiling under white light. You look happy. He looks human. Both illusions, perfectly preserved.
In bed, the space between you feels colder than the sheets. He sleeps on his side, one arm beneath the pillow. You lie awake, watching the shadows slide across the ceiling. Every breath you take feels counted. You know how this will go. Two days from now, somewhere along Route Alpha-Nine, your paths will cross. He won’t know it’s you behind the trigger. You won’t know he’s the extraction agent keeping your target alive.The lie has always been your safety net. Now it’s the knife pressed between your ribs. And as you finally close your eyes, you think: if love is just another form of loyalty, what happens when you’re assigned to betray it?
— — —
Eight years ago.
Florence glows like a dream set on fire. The Palazzo Vecchio blazes with chandeliers, laughter, and the low hum of moneyed indulgence. Gilded masks glint beneath candlelight; the air hums with strings, perfume, and the faintest edge of danger. Gold dust clings to the night like a secret that refuses to fade. You move through it all like smoke, silver gown, dark mask, smile sharpened to perfection. You’ve been here before, though never under this name. Never with this mark. Tonight’s target: a black-market art broker selling information under the guise of a charity auction. Tonight’s mission: simple. Blend, charm, retrieve. And never, ever get caught.
A waiter offers you wine. You take it, the stem cool between your fingers, the glass catching slivers of light as though even it can’t stay still. The ballroom is a maze of mirrors and murmurs. A watch chain flashes. A coded gesture passes between two men by the fountain. Somewhere near the orchestra pit, you hear the unmistakable click of a gun’s safety being released and reset. Every sound, every glint, every careless whisper, you catalogue them all.
And then you see him. At first, it’s nothing, a shimmer in your peripheral. A man leaning against a marble column, mask of black and gold, tuxedo cut sharp enough to wound. He looks impossibly calm, as though the chaos around him is a play he’s already read the ending to. But his gaze moves with purpose, slow and assessing, never idle. You recognize that look. Not from memory, but instinct. Predator. Still, when his eyes find yours, when that slight, knowing smile curves his mouth, you don’t look away. You never do.
He notices you before the orchestra reaches its second crescendo. Red wine, silver silk, the faintest edge of steel beneath your grace. You linger too long on the exits, your attention flicking over the crowd like a scanner. Not a debutante. Not a diplomat’s bored wife. He doesn’t know your name, but he knows the type, careful, calculated, deliberate. The kind who never comes anywhere unarmed, even if the only weapon is a smile. He should leave you alone. He knows better. But curiosity, that old, dangerous thing, has always been his favorite sin.
The auction begins. A Van Gogh replica is unveiled to reverent sighs and polite applause. You raise your glass, play your part, your earpiece crackling softly, a voice confirming your target’s position near the north balcony. Focus, you remind yourself. But his gaze is still on you. You can feel it, that invisible thread pulling tight between your spine and his. The air shifts, charged. A song changes, and something in you does too. You take a step left. So does he. You reach for another glass of champagne, and he’s already there, hand brushing yours as he offers one.
“Looks like we’ve got the same taste,” he says, voice smooth enough to make the room feel smaller. You turn, meeting his eyes through the mask’s dark edge. “In wine or in trouble?” He grins, slow, devastating, the kind of grin that feels like a confession. “Depends which one you’re offering.”
Your heart shouldn’t skip. But it does. Florence has that effect; it makes even ruin look romantic. You study him for a beat too long. His mask hides half his face, but not the way his eyes soften when he looks at you. Not the flicker of curiosity there, like he’s wondering what kind of storm you’d be if he let you close enough. He tilts his glass toward yours. A quiet toast. No words. Just the soft clink of crystal beneath candlelight, and something unspoken in the air, something dangerous, but almost tender. “I don’t believe we’ve met,” he says finally. “That’s because we weren’t supposed to.”
He laughs, and you almost forget where you are. The music swells, violins sweeping through the silence between you. His presence feels magnetic, an anchor in a sea of masks and lies. For a fleeting second, you imagine meeting him in another life. One without missions, or aliases, or marks on your wrist. One where Florence isn’t a cover, but a promise.
But then the earpiece hums again, a reminder, sharp and cold. The spell breaks. You smile, polite, distant, perfect. “Enjoy the auction, Mr...?” “Jay,” he offers, after the smallest hesitation. “Jay,” you echo, letting the name linger on your tongue like the last sip of wine. “Try not to get into too much trouble.”
He leans closer, voice low enough to melt into the music. “I was about to tell you the same thing.” And just like that, two strangers in a city made of light and lies, caught in the flicker of something that shouldn’t exist at all, you walk away first. But you can feel his eyes following you, long after the song ends.
— — —
The orchestra shifted into a darker, slower rhythm, a waltz meant for people who liked to play with fire. The kind of melody that made secrets lean closer.
He crossed the marble floor toward you, each step unhurried, deliberate, the kind of confidence that didn’t need to be announced. You could feel him before he reached you, that quiet gravity that some men carried like a weapon. “Would you dance with me?” His voice was low, smooth, perfectly even, too even to be real.
You tilted your head, feigning a kind of lazy curiosity. “That depends. Are you a good dancer?” He smiled, slow, restrained, the kind that didn’t bother showing teeth because it didn’t need to. “I don’t make a habit of disappointing.”
And perhaps that should’ve been your warning. You took his hand. The moment his palm met yours, the air changed. The sound dulled, the light thickened, as though Florence itself had paused to watch. His touch was warm, steady. Too steady. You recognized that composure, the kind of calm people build when they’ve seen blood before and learned how to wash it off.
He led you onto the floor, and the crowd swallowed you both. Masks turned, diamonds gleamed, and violins sighed like confession. You moved together like you’d done it before, step, turn, glide. His hand on your back, your palm against his shoulder, every motion measured and exact. But beneath the elegance was tension, the friction of two people reading each other like code, testing limits without ever breaking character.
His fingers brushed the small of your back, light as breath. The briefest contact, yet it burned. You wondered if he could feel the knife strapped to your thigh, if he knew what kind of woman he was holding. “I don’t think I’ve seen you before,” he said, tone casual, but his eyes far too observant. “That’s the point of a masquerade,” you replied, voice soft but edged. “Some people come to be seen.”
“And some people come to disappear.” His laugh was quiet, a single note that didn’t reach his eyes. “Which are you?” “Tonight?” you said, spinning under his arm, letting your dress flare like liquid silver before you fell neatly back against him. “Still deciding.” He twirled you again, slower this time, his gaze never breaking from yours. When he caught you, his mouth was dangerously close to your ear.
“Be careful,” he murmured. “Florence has a habit of burning people who don’t pay attention.” You exhaled, pulse thrumming against his palm. “Good thing I like fire.” He studied you like he was committing the line to memory. “You shouldn’t.” The music swelled, lush, decadent, almost too slow for propriety. But you didn’t care. Neither did he. The space between you was too charged, too deliberate. It wasn’t romance, not really. It was recognition. The kind of understanding that only predators share when they see themselves reflected in someone else’s eyes.
“You’re not here for the art auction,” you said softly. He smirked, every inch of arrogance perfectly measured. “And you are?” “Maybe I like pretty things.” His hand flexed against your waist, a silent pressure that said he didn’t believe you. “Then you’re in the wrong room.” You laughedm quiet, bright, disarming. A sound meant to draw attention just long enough to deflect it. “And what do you think I’m here for, then?”
He leaned in, the scent of him sharp and clean, cedar, smoke, and something darker beneath. “The same thing I am.” For a heartbeat, the world narrowed, to the press of his hand, the rhythm of the waltz, and the pull of something reckless inside your chest. You didn’t know who he was, but you knew what he was. You could feel it, that coiled stillness, the awareness of exits, the constant calculation behind his eyes.
“Interesting guess,” you murmured, smile ghosting your lips as your mask brushed his. “But you shouldn’t assume.” “Neither should you.” The song ended in a slow, aching note. Applause broke out, brittle, hollow, meaningless. Couples separated. Champagne glasses chimed. The room exhaled. But not you. Not him. You both stood still, still caught in the invisible pull between you, pretending you hadn’t just recognized something fatal in each other.
He was the first to move, offering his hand again, not as an invitation, but as a dare. “Balcony?” You should’ve declined. You didn’t. You took it. Outside, Florence was quieter, the air cooled by the river, the night spilling over the city in strokes of gold and ink. The Duomo glowed against the horizon, its dome like a candle cupped in the hands of heaven. From below, you could hear laughter drifting up from the streets, muffled by distance, softened by time.
For a moment, it almost looked peaceful. Almost. He leaned against the railing, loosening his tie, half removing his mask. Candlelight from the ballroom pooled over his jaw, catching the sharpness of his cheekbone, the curve of his mouth. “You don’t seem like the type who gets nervous,” he said, voice low and easy. You set your glass down on the stone ledge. “That’s because I don’t.”
“Everyone gets nervous,” he said lightly. “It’s just a matter of what they’re hiding.” You stepped closer, skirts whispering against the marble. “And what are you hiding?” He looked at you then, really looked. And something in his expression changed. The arrogance softened, replaced by something quieter, more dangerous. “If I told you,” he murmured, “you wouldn’t believe me.”
“Try me.” For a second, he almost did. You saw the hesitation, the flicker of truth just behind his eyes, but then it was gone, replaced by that immaculate calm, the kind built from years of lies and necessity. “You’re dangerous,” he said finally, like it was a compliment. Like he already knew what you could do with a single look. You smiled. “You have no idea.”
The wind stirred, carrying the faint scent of jasmine, the distant hum of the orchestra, the echo of a world that didn’t belong to either of you. Somewhere below, a bell tolled, and for just that instant, Florence felt suspended, breathless, waiting. He moved first, closing the last few inches between you. Not touching, not yet, but close enough that you could feel the heat of him through the silk, could hear the quiet control in his breathing.
“Do you always walk into danger this willingly?” he asked, voice barely a whisper. “Only when it’s worth the risk.” His lips curved, softer now. “And am I?” You met his gaze, heart hammering. “I haven’t decided yet.” The air between you felt alive, vibrating with the weight of things unsaid. The kind of pull that wasn’t attraction, not at first, something older, more instinctual. Recognition. Challenge. The dangerous thrill of someone who might understand you too well.
Inside, the orchestra began another song, brighter, faster, a reminder that the night wasn’t done. Laughter spilled out from the open doors, glittering and hollow. Neither of you moved.
And in that golden hush of the Florentine night, two assassins stood inches apart, each one a secret the other shouldn’t want to keep, each one about to become the other’s most beautiful mistake. “You shouldn’t stare,” you said, keeping your tone even. He smiled faintly. “Maybe I’m just waiting to see if you’ll run.” “Why would I?” “Because you look like someone who knows when she’s in danger.” You tilted your head, lips curving into a slow, deliberate smile. “Maybe I like danger.” That did it, the air shifted, sharp with static. Neither of you moved, yet the space between you seemed to close on its own, drawn by something magnetic and merciless.
He took one step closer. The balcony was narrow; his shadow merged with yours against the stone wall. Candlelight flickered across his mask, gilding the edges of his jaw. You could feel his breath brush your cheek, warm against the cool night air. “You’re not afraid of much, are you?” he asked quietly. “Not usually.”
“What about now?” You laughed, soft and breathless, the sound catching on something deeper. “You’ll have to try harder.” His hand rose, unhurried, fingers grazing the edge of your mask. “May I?” You didn’t answer, not yes, not no, just held his gaze, letting him decide what kind of trouble he wanted to be.
He traced the ribbon at your temple, touch impossibly gentle. The kind of careful that wasn’t restraint but study, like he was learning the map of you with every pass of his fingers. Your breath faltered, betraying you. You caught his wrist before he could untie it, your nails pressing just enough to make his pulse stutter.
“Careful,” you whispered. “You might ruin the mystery.” He leaned closer, the corner of his mouth curving. “Maybe I want to.” And then it happened, no warning, no pause. The distance between you snapped like tensioned wire.
The first kiss wasn’t gentle. It wasn’t the kind that asked for permission; it was collision, heat, breath, surprise. The kind that started like a mistake and felt like gravity. His mouth was warm and sure, the kind of kiss that burned too fast to stop. Your hand fisted in his shirt; his fingers slid into your hair, tilting your head until you had no choice but to fall into it. You tried to pull back. You did. Once, twice. But every time you broke the kiss, breath ragged, his thumb brushed your jaw and you found yourself leaning in again, chasing the taste you shouldn’t want.
“Stop,” you managed between breaths, though your hands were still on him, holding, pulling. “I am,” he murmured against your mouth, though he clearly wasn’t. You laughed, breathless, wrecked, and he kissed the sound right off your lips.
The railing pressed cold against your back. The city stretched below, golden and silent, the Duomo gleaming like a witness. His hand slid up your arm, over your shoulder, fingertips tracing your pulse. Every movement was deliberate, not hungry, but patient, measured, as if he was memorizing the cadence of your restraint.
“This is—” you started, meaning to say wrong. “—inevitable,” he finished, barely audible. His lips found yours again before you could argue. This one slower, deeper. He tasted like red wine and smoke, and something darker, control, maybe. The kind of man who kissed like he was used to having the upper hand and terrified when he didn’t.
Your mask tilted slightly under his touch. You almost let it fall, almost let him see, but instinct flared and you broke the kiss, chest rising, breath catching. His eyes searched yours, still close enough that you could feel the words before he said them. “You keep running from it.”
“I’m not running,” you whispered. “I’m surviving.” His smile was soft this time, almost sad. “Same thing.” He leaned in again, slower, careful, and your resolve cracked. The world blurred into motion and warmth, his mouth on yours, your heartbeat deafening in your ears. The kiss deepened until you forgot the reason you’d come out here at all.
And then, crackle. A sound cut through the night, sharp and surgical, right in your ear. “Target’s on the move. This is your chance.” The words sliced through the haze like a blade. You froze. Lips still inches from his, still wet from his. eyes wide. His expression flickered, too fast to read, too smooth to trust. For a moment, you thought he’d heard something too.
But no. Impossible. You swallowed hard, forcing your pulse to steady, forcing air back into your lungs. You took a step back, fingers trembling as you reached for your glass. Anything to mask the sudden shift.
“I should—” your voice faltered, the taste of him still on your lips. “—get back inside.”
He didn’t stop you, but his gaze followed every move, tracking, assessing, remembering. The mask between you was back in place, but it didn’t feel like enough. “Leaving already?” His voice was low, almost lazy, but there was something beneath it now, something thin and dangerous, like the edge of a knife.
“Duty calls,” you said, and forced a smile that didn’t quite hold. He tilted his head, a mock toast in your direction. “Then I won’t keep you.” You hesitated for a heartbeat, not sure why, then turned, heels sharp against marble. You didn’t look back. You couldn’t. Inside, the ballroom swallowed you whole. Perfume. Laughter. Gold. The glittering noise of people oblivious to the storm around them. Your pulse hadn’t calmed. You touched your earpiece, voice a whisper of steel.
“Confirmed. Visual acquired. Moving in.”
Across the balcony doors, behind the veil of curtains, Jay exhaled slowly. Almost a laugh, low, disbelieving. He dragged a thumb over his lower lip, smudging the faint trace of your lipstick there. Then his own earpiece hissed to life. “Target’s on the move. This is your chance.”
For half a second, he stilled. Looked toward the door you’d just vanished through. The sound of your heels still echoed faintly, and his mouth curved into something almost fond. “Already on it,” he murmured. He straightened his mask, stepped back into the golden noise of the ballroom, and neither of you noticed just how close your paths were about to cross again. Not as strangers. Not as lovers. But as executioners chasing the same prey, each unknowingly aimed at the other.
Outside, Florence gleams. The city is a fever dream of light and stone, domes glinting under moonlight, rain slicking down the marble saints that watch from cathedral spires. Somewhere far below, the Arno catches the moon and breaks it to silver shards. You move fast. The streets twist like veins beneath your heels, narrow, ancient, full of echoes. A blur of a tuxedo flashes ahead, your target. You don’t hesitate. You sprint.
Your pulse syncs to the city: the slap of your boots against cobblestone, the rasp of breath in your throat, the click of metal in your grip. Right turn, an alley, tight and stinking of wine and smoke. Left, a market stall overturned, oranges rolling like spilled gold. Somewhere close, another rhythm matches yours. Footsteps. Controlled. Trained. Not the target. You don’t look. You can’t.
A shadow drops cleanly from a balcony, lands without a sound. Then: a muted thwip. A silenced round cuts the air; the guard beside you jerks once and collapses. You don’t pause to wonder who fired it. You vault the body and keep going, heartbeat climbing like it’s chasing the end of the world. You don’t think of his mouth. Or the way he’d kissed you like it was a challenge. But the memory cuts through anyway, heat and danger, your pulse tangled with his. Focus. The word hits like an order. You obey it.
The target darts into a narrow lane between shuttered cafés, knocking over crates and glass. You follow. Rain starts, first a shimmer, then a downpour. It slicks your hair to your neck, turns your dress heavy. Somewhere above, thunder mutters across the hills.
Ahead, movement. You raise your weapon.And freeze. Another figure stands at the mouth of the alley, dark suit, wet shoulders, gun already leveled. Both masked. Both steady. Both certain the other shouldn’t be here.
The silence holds, drawn tight as wire. Then, gunfire.
Stone explodes inches from your cheek. You dive behind a pillar, glass raining down, the scent of gunpowder thick and metallic. Return fire. Two rounds. Miss. You curse, roll, reload. The echo of his shots comes sharp and disciplined, military precision. Whoever he is, he’s good. Too good.
Rain hisses down, plastering silk to your skin. You break cover, sprint. Footsteps follow, fast, relentless. The chase twists through Florence’s back arteries: under laundry lines, across empty piazzas glowing gold with lamplight. A bell tolls, slow and ancient. You move faster. Jay cuts through a side street, his jaw set, his breathing even despite the sprint. The voice in his ear crackles: “Suspect’s turning east, toward the river.” Yours says the same. You both turn.
The city splits between you, parallel routes divided by one stone wall, one alley, one heartbeat. You pause under an archway, chest rising and falling. Steam curls from your lips into the rain. You press your back to the wall, eyes scanning corners. On the other side, Jay mirrors you exactly, pistol up, breath controlled, pulse heavy under the thunder.
Neither of you knows how close you are. One step. One corner. One second from recognition. The comm hisses again. “Copy that,” you whisper. At the same time, he whispers it too.
Then the line cuts, dead silence, and the rain swallows everything. For a moment, only the city breathes. Then you move. Both of you. Toward the river. Toward the target. Toward each other. Rain slicks the terracotta rooftops into mirrors. Florence is half-asleep, half-burning, lamplight leaking from shuttered windows, church bells shivering through the mist. You move across the skyline like a whisper, one heel digging into wet clay after another, breath measured, heartbeat locked to the rhythm of the storm.
“Target moving east,” your handler’s voice cuts through the static. “Do not lose visual.”
Copy. You vault a low wall; the slick edge bites into your palms. The world is a blur of rain and stone, wind and distance. Below, the Arno glitters in fractured silver, rippling with the pulse of thunder. You barely feel the cold anymore. You’ve become it, precise, silent, relentless.
But something else moves with you. It starts as a whisper, the faint percussion of steps that match yours too cleanly to be chance. You don’t look back. The rooftops demand all your focus, and the night feels too delicate to trust. One wrong glance, one hesitation, and you’ll vanish into the dark like smoke. Still, the presence clings to you, a pulse in the corner of your awareness. Too close to ignore. Too far to confirm.
Across the river, Jay runs in near-perfect sync. His silhouette cuts through rain, black coat streaming like ink, eyes locked on the faint shape ahead. The same ghost. The same target. The same hunt. “Target’s on the move. Confirm pursuit.” His handler’s voice crackles through the earpiece. He doesn’t reply. The rain drowns everything but breath and metal. He moves faster.
The city below has gone still, Florence folded into itself like a held breath. Only the rooftops are alive, slick with rain and shadows, streaked with the motion of two predators who don’t know they’re circling each other. You catch movement ahead, a glint of metal, a flutter of a coat, the suggestion of someone watching. You push harder, knees burning, lungs tightening. The edge of the roof ends abruptly. You leap, roll, come up hard against scaffolding. Rust flakes beneath your grip; a loose pipe clangs against concrete. A flicker of motion ahead, the target. Gone before you can fire.
“Visual reacquired,” you start to say, but the words falter. The space ahead is empty. Only rain. Only echoes. Jay turns down a side street two blocks away. His shoes slap water, his hand steady on the grip of his gun. For a second, he sees it too, that same half-formed shadow slipping behind glass, swallowed by fog. He stops, scanning rooftops, breathing through his teeth. Just mist. Just the sound of his own heart.
“Visual lost,” you say, your tone clipped, professional, even as your jaw tightens.
At that same instant, Jay murmurs the same words into the same open frequency. Neither of you knows you’ve spoken in unison. Neither knows that the signal is bleeding across both lines, syncing you like reflections. A long pause. Rain patters through static. Then the command: “Return to safe point.”
You lower your weapon. Exhale. The tension leaves you in controlled increments, muscle by muscle, breath by breath, until only the hollow throb of adrenaline remains. You wipe the water from your cheek and glance across the river. There, just for a moment, a movement. A silhouette stepping onto the parallel roof, framed by lightning. Broad shoulders, deliberate stride. A stranger. A shadow. Something in your chest flinches, recognition without reason.
And then he’s gone. Jay pauses in the same heartbeat, head lifting toward the opposite bank. Through the rain, through the fog, he swears he sees someone, small frame, deliberate motion, the glint of a weapon lowered too slowly. Lightning blinks, and she’s gone too. The bells toll the hour, low and distant. The sound drips through the rain like a heartbeat fading.
You disappear down one stairwell. He disappears down another. Two ghosts descending into the arteries of a city that never even saw them. No witnesses. No confirmation. Mission failed.
Just rain. And the faint, unshakable sense that somewhere out there, in another storm, another night, the chase isn’t over yet. The gala hums when you step back inside, strings swelling, laughter floating, perfume hanging thick in the air. Gold light flickers against the marble; glasses clink like small detonations. The world pretends nothing happened. You don’t. The storm is still in you, heartbeat still ragged, breath still half-missing. The memory of rain and rooftops hasn’t left your skin. You move through the glittering crowd as if surfacing from another world, each step too sharp, too careful.
Then you see him. Jay. By the bar. Hair mussed, collar open, a faint smear of dust near his jaw like evidence of the chaos you both just survived. His suit fits too well to be innocent, his glass of whiskey half-finished, his expression too calm to be real. He looks like sin that dressed itself in a tuxedo, and almost convinced the world it belonged here.
Your pulse betrays you. You shouldn’t look twice. You do anyway. He notices immediately, of course he does. His gaze hooks into yours across the room, slow and deliberate. The smallest flicker of amusement breaks the surface, the kind of smile that says I know something you don’t.
When he moves, the crowd parts for him. Effortless. Predatory. Everyone turns, but he’s already looking at you. “Rough night?” he murmurs when he reaches you, voice threaded with smoke and velvet. You take a sip of champagne you don’t remember picking up. “You could say that.” His eyes drag over you, the faint smear of rain on your shoulder, the damp curl at your temple, the tiny tremor in your fingers you thought you’d hidden. “You look like you ran a marathon.”
“And you look like you started it.” His laugh is low and warm, too human for what he is, too easy for the edge in his posture. “Maybe I did.” You don’t smile. You don’t move. For a breathless moment, there’s no orchestra, no people, no noise. Just the static between you. The kind that feels like something alive.
He tilts his head, eyes catching the light. “Dance with me.” The words shouldn’t sound like an order, but they do. You glance down at his hand, steady, offered, dangerous. “I don’t even know your name.” “Good,” he says softly. “Keeps it interesting.”
Temptation wins. You take it. The music slows into a waltz, sweet and heavy. He pulls you closer, not indecently, but close enough that your perfume mixes with his cologne, sharp and woodsy. His hand rests against your back, the other guiding your palm to his. You follow his lead before you realize you’re doing it.
Every step feels like a secret traded in plain sight, your heartbeat betraying you, his gaze memorizing it. Around you, the ballroom spins in slow gold blur, chandeliers catching light like fire trapped in glass. “You’re trouble,” you whisper, eyes on his collarbone, your mouth brushing the edge of a smile. He leans in until his lips almost touch your ear. “You have no idea.”
The words hum against your skin, low and certain. You feel the pull, familiar, fatal. For a second, it feels like that kiss on the balcony never ended, just rewound itself into something more dangerous.
When the song fades, you step back first. The space between you feels too wide and too narrow all at once. “This was fun,” you say, because it’s easier than saying what it really was. “Just fun?” His tone is light, teasing, but his eyes don’t match. “You’ll live.” You turn, half-grinning, ready to disappear back into the crowd, but his hand catches your wrist, not rough, just enough pressure to stop time for a single breath. His skin is warm, his pulse steady.
He slips something into your hand. Smooth. Small. Quick. A folded napkin. “Emergency contact,” he says, smirk curving back into place. “In case you ever get lost again.” You roll your eyes, but it’s mostly for show. “You’re assuming I’d call.” “Oh, you will,” he says easily, already walking away. “Curiosity always wins.”
You watch him go, the straight line of his back, the confidence that shouldn’t be as compelling as it is. He doesn’t look back. He doesn’t need to. You unfold the napkin. A number, written in dark ink. No name. No flourish. Just a number. You stare at it longer than you mean to. Your fingers hover over your phone. You tell yourself not to. You do anyway.
You: You’re insufferable.
The reply comes faster than it should.
Unknown: Tomorrow, 8 p.m.?
You hesitate. One heartbeat. Two. The city hums around you, but all you hear is the echo of his voice.
You: Fine. But I’m picking the place.
A pause. Then:
Unknown: Wouldn’t have it any other way.
You slip the napkin into your clutch, close your phone, and take one last look at the crowd where he disappeared. He’s gone. But the ghost of his hand, his mouth, his voice, all of it lingers like smoke.
You shouldn’t feel this much electricity from a stranger. But then again, he never really felt like one.
The city glows like an open secret, streets slick with rain, lamps flickering gold over cobblestones, the air heavy with the scent of wine and basil. Somewhere in the distance, a Vespa hums past, laughter spilling into the night. Church bells murmur from the Duomo, their echoes carrying like whispers across the Arno. You arrive first. The café is tucked between two narrow alleys, small enough to miss if you weren’t looking. One outdoor table. Two flickering candles. A violin playing softly from an open window upstairs. The sound weaves through the air like silk, mournful, romantic, old.
You sit, order something just to keep your hands busy, and let your eyes trace the crowd, tourists, locals, lovers. You spot reflections in windows, movements in shadows. You can’t quite shake the instinct to scan every corner. Old habits.
Jay arrives late, not enough to annoy you, just enough to make you notice. He moves through the streetlight like he owns it. His shirt is black this time, sleeves rolled to his forearms, hair still slightly tousled from the wind. When he smiles, the world sharpens into focus, like someone twisted the lens and suddenly everything else blurred except him.
“You’re punctual,” he says, voice smooth, teasing. “You’re not,” you reply. “Had to make an entrance.” You roll your eyes, but you’re already smiling. The waiter pours wine, deep red, rich, the kind that burns slow. You watch the reflection of candlelight swirl in your glass as he speaks.
It starts easy. Talk of cities, of art, of music. The kind of small talk that feels like testing fences for weaknesses. Every question sounds casual, but neither of you really believes in coincidence. Then it starts to deepen.
He asks, “Why Florence?” You say, “Why not?” He tilts his head, watching you over the rim of his glass. You can feel him studying the shape of your lies, how smoothly you let them pass. You notice he does the same. Every truth feels half-dressed, every smile too measured. But you don’t stop. You laugh. You lean in. You let the warmth of the wine make you bold. He tells you a story about getting lost in Venice; you tell him one about a painting that made you cry. Somewhere between the laughter and the silences, something clicks, not comfort, not trust, but recognition.
When the bill comes, he pays without asking, sliding enough cash to cover both and a little extra. His fingers brush yours on the table, casual but deliberate. You reach for your coat, but he stops you with a look that feels like an invitation and a dare all at once.
“Walk with me?” You do.
Florence at night is cinematic, streets washed in gold and shadow, bridges glowing like veins of light across the river. The air hums with music and memory. You walk without purpose, trading stories that sound true enough to believe. He gestures when he talks, animated, half-distracting you from the way he keeps glancing at your lips.
And somewhere between a joke and a silence, his hand brushes yours. Once. Twice. Then stays. You look at him, really look, and it hits you how dangerous this feels. Not because of who you are or what you’re hiding, but because it feels too easy. Too real. He’s smiling when you glance up at him, like he knows he shouldn’t, but can’t help it. His thumb grazes your knuckles, a touch soft enough to feel accidental, certain enough to say otherwise.
You’re the one who kisses him first, quick, reckless, testing. He’s the one who deepens it, slow, sure, undoing. It tastes like red wine and rain, and something you can’t name yet. And when you finally pull away, the city keeps glowing like it knows something you don’t. Jay pulls back just an inch, lips still brushing yours, breath warm and uneven. There’s a question in his eyes, not permission, not hesitance, but something quieter. Something like want.
And then he says, voice low enough to scrape against your spine: “Come with me.” You blink once, pulse stuttering. “Where?” His smile curves, slow, deliberate, confident in a way that shouldn’t be legal. “My place. It’s… close.”
He means dangerously close. You mean dangerously tempting. Before you can overthink it, before you can remind yourself that you don’t do this, don’t follow strangers into elevators and penthouses with views of entire cities, your hand is already in his. He leads you through the rain-glossed streets, past shuttered boutiques and glowing trattorias, until the marble lobby of an old Renaissance-restored building rises out of the dark. Inside, the floors gleam. The chandeliers drip light. The concierge greets him by name.
Of course he has a penthouse. Of course he does. The elevator ride is silent, but not empty. You can feel him watching your, not with hunger, but with curiosity. Like he’s trying to solve a puzzle with no corners. When the doors slide open, the city spills in. His penthouse is all glass and shadow, floor-to-ceiling windows overlooking the Arno, dark wood floors reflecting the city lights, a bottle of unopened scotch on the counter, a jacket tossed across the sofa.
It smells faintly like cedar and something clean, expensive. He steps inside first, loosening his collar. You follow, dripping rain onto his immaculate floor. Jay turns to you, and for a second, neither of you speaks. There’s the hum of the city. The faint echo of your pulse in your ears. The knowledge that this is a bad idea wrapped in a perfect one.
Then softly, almost shyly, impossibly, he asks: “Can I take your coat?” You laugh under your breath, handing it over. “You kiss someone like that and then you ask for my coat?” He hangs it up carefully, almost too carefully, then looks back at you with a grin that is anything but careful. “Trying to be a gentleman,” he says. “It’s not working.”
He takes that step toward you, the one that erases distance. His fingers graze your jaw. Your breath catches. The air tilts. “Then I won’t pretend to be one,” he murmurs. His mouth finds yours again, slower this time. Deeper. The room fades, the world dissolves, and Florence hums beneath your feet like it’s holding its breath. You don’t know his name. You don’t know his secrets. You don’t know the life he leads.
But tonight, in the soft glow of a city that has seen too much love to warn you away, you let yourself want him. And when he leads you through the dim hallway toward his bedroom, you follow. Not because you trust him. Not because you should. But because something about him sets every nerve alight, a match struck in the dark a taste of danger a heartbeat you shouldn’t be hearing this close. And because for the first time in a long time, you’re not thinking about lies or missions or escape routes. Just him. Just tonight. Just the way he looks back at you like he’s already memorizing the moment you walked into his life.
The door closes with a soft click behind you, sealing the room in a hush that feels almost sacred. The only light is the thin strip of gold leaking from the hallway under the door and the faint glow of the bedside lamp, dimmed so low it barely exists. Shadows stretch up the walls, long and trembling, and Jay stands in front of you like he was carved out of one. He doesn’t speak. He just steps closer.
“Sit.” A whisper, low, rough, almost like the command scrapes the air. His fingers brush your hip as he guides you backward, barely there, but enough to make your breath stick. The mattress dips when the backs of your knees hit it, and then you’re sinking down, palms sliding across the sheets, heartbeat pounding through your skin. Jay stands over you, chest rising slow, deliberate. You can’t see his expression clearly, not with the light falling only from the side, but you can feel it, the intent, the heaviness, the focus. His gaze drags over you like a touch.
He steps into your space. Knees brushing yours. Breath ghosting your forehead. His hands rise, but he doesn’t touch you yet. He hovers, knuckles grazing the air just shy of your jaw, your collarbone, the hem of your shirt. You can feel the heat of him without the contact, and something tightens inside you.
“Look at me.” Another whisper. Not soft. Just precise. You raise your eyes, and whatever he sees in yours pulls a slow exhale from him, the kind that sounds like restraint unspooling. His fingers finally touch your skin, first the underside of your jaw, tracing the line of it with the backs of his knuckles, then the column of your throat. He doesn’t squeeze. He doesn’t rush. He maps you with a patience that borders on reverence.
His thumb hooks into the neckline of your top. “I’m taking this off,” he murmurs, voice so close it vibrates against your lips even though he’s not kissing you. “Slowly.” And he does. The fabric peels upward inch by inch, his hands never leaving you. His fingers slide beneath the hem, gliding over your stomach, your ribs, the curve beneath your breasts, not groping, not grabbing, just learning you, marking the shape of you into his palms. He lifts the shirt higher, the soft scrape of cotton passing over your skin making every nerve spark awake.
When the fabric hits your arms, he stops again.
“Arms up.” Breath against your ear, warm and quiet. You raise them, and he pulls the top off in one smooth, unbroken motion, dropping it beside him without breaking eye contact. His gaze runs over your bare skin like he’s memorizing the moment cell by cell. No smile. No tease. Just heat. Stark and focused.
Then he kneels. Right between your knees. His hands slide up the outside of your thighs, slow enough that your breathing stutters. He doesn’t rush to your waistband; he traces circles into your skin with his thumbs, following the curve of your hips, pressing just enough to ground you. His head is down, dark hair falling into his eyes, breathing steady but deep, like he’s trying not to lose himself too fast.
Your shorts sit low on your hips now, his fingers hooked into each side, waiting. “You want them off?” Barely a whisper. You nod, and he shakes his head slightly. “Say it.” Your voice barely works, but the word comes out, small and trembling: “Take them off.” His fingers tighten. He pulls.
The fabric slides downward, dragging along your thighs, your knees, your calves. He doesn’t look away from your body as he works them off, folding them once, placing them neatly beside your discarded shirt, something about the neatness only making the moment feel more intense, more intentional. When he rises back up, his hands cup your calves, sliding slowly up, over your knees, along the tender inside of your thighs. The higher he goes, the slower he moves, like he’s savoring every inch of skin he uncovers. Your breathing catches halfway through, and he pauses, not pulling back, just holding you there, letting the tension coil tighter.
His thumbs stroke lazily along the inner edges of your thighs, and he leans in, voice just a breath: “Tell me if you want me to stop.” You whisper back, “Don’t stop.” A muscle in his jaw twitches, sharp in the dim light. His hands roam upward again, tracing your hips, your waist, the sides of your ribs, every inch taken with an almost cinematic patience, as though he’s unwrapping someone precious, someone he’s waited too long to touch like this. He stands again, towering over you, shadow falling across your bare skin. His fingertips brush your shoulders, glide down your arms, then return to your torso like he can’t decide which part of you he wants to touch first. Every pass of his hands leaves you warmer.
Then he leans close enough that his forehead nearly touches yours. “Lie back.” A whisper that trembles at the edges. You sink into the pillows, and he follows, palms dragging down your sides one more time, mapping you all over again, slower, deeper, more deliberate.
Like he’s memorizing the moment he finally has you stripped, open, waiting under him. Like he’s worshipping you in silence. Like the room itself is holding its breath for what comes next.
The door closes with a soft click behind you, sealing the room in a hush that feels almost sacred. The only light is the thin strip of gold leaking from the hallway under the door and the faint glow of the bedside lamp, dimmed so low it barely exists. Shadows stretch up the walls, long and trembling, and Jay stands in front of you like he was carved out of one. He doesn’t speak. He just steps closer.
“Sit.” A whisper, low, rough, almost like the command scrapes the air. His fingers brush your hip as he guides you backward, barely there, but enough to make your breath stick. The mattress dips when the backs of your knees hit it, and then you’re sinking down, palms sliding across the sheets, heartbeat pounding through your skin.
Jay stands over you, chest rising slow, deliberate. You can’t see his expression clearly, not with the light falling only from the side, but you can feel it, the intent, the heaviness, the focus. His gaze drags over you like a touch. He steps into your space. Knees brushing yours. Breath ghosting your forehead. His hands rise, but he doesn’t touch you yet. He hovers, knuckles grazing the air just shy of your jaw, your collarbone, the hem of your shirt. You can feel the heat of him without the contact, and something tightens inside you.
“Look at me.” Another whisper. Not soft. Just precise. You raise your eyes, and whatever he sees in yours pulls a slow exhale from him, the kind that sounds like restraint unspooling. His fingers finally touch your skin, first the underside of your jaw, tracing the line of it with the backs of his knuckles, then the column of your throat. He doesn’t squeeze. He doesn’t rush. He maps you with a patience that borders on reverence.
His thumb hooks into the neckline of your top. “I’m taking this off,” he murmurs, voice so close it vibrates against your lips even though he’s not kissing you. “Slowly.” And he does.
The fabric peels upward inch by inch, his hands never leaving you. His fingers slide beneath the hem, gliding over your stomach, your ribs, the curve beneath your breasts, not groping, not grabbing, just learning you, marking the shape of you into his palms. He lifts the shirt higher, the soft scrape of cotton passing over your skin making every nerve spark awake. When the fabric hits your arms, he stops again.
“Arms up.” Breath against your ear, warm and quiet. You raise them, and he pulls the top off in one smooth, unbroken motion, dropping it beside him without breaking eye contact. His gaze runs over your bare skin like he’s memorizing the moment cell by cell. No smile. No tease. Just heat. Stark and focused. Then he kneels. Right between your knees.
His hands slide up the outside of your thighs, slow enough that your breathing stutters. He doesn’t rush to your waistband; he traces circles into your skin with his thumbs, following the curve of your hips, pressing just enough to ground you. His head is down, dark hair falling into his eyes, breathing steady but deep, like he’s trying not to lose himself too fast.
Your shorts sit low on your hips now, his fingers hooked into each side, waiting. “You want them off?” Barely a whisper. You nod, and he shakes his head slightly. “Say it.” Your voice barely works, but the word comes out, small and trembling: “Take them off.” His fingers tighten.
He pulls. The fabric slides downward, dragging along your thighs, your knees, your calves. He doesn’t look away from your body as he works them off, folding them once, placing them neatly beside your discarded shirt, something about the neatness only making the moment feel more intense, more intentional.
When he rises back up, his hands cup your calves, sliding slowly up, over your knees, along the tender inside of your thighs. The higher he goes, the slower he moves, like he’s savoring every inch of skin he uncovers. Your breathing catches halfway through, and he pauses, not pulling back, just holding you there, letting the tension coil tighter.
His thumbs stroke lazily along the inner edges of your thighs, and he leans in, voice just a breath: “Tell me if you want me to stop.”
You whisper back, “Don’t stop.” A muscle in his jaw twitches, sharp in the dim light. His hands roam upward again, tracing your hips, your waist, the sides of your ribs, every inch taken with an almost cinematic patience, as though he’s unwrapping someone precious, someone he’s waited too long to touch like this.
He stands again, towering over you, shadow falling across your bare skin. His fingertips brush your shoulders, glide down your arms, then return to your torso like he can’t decide which part of you he wants to touch first. Every pass of his hands leaves you warmer. Then he leans close enough that his forehead nearly touches yours. “Lie back.” A whisper that trembles at the edges.
You sink into the pillows, and he follows, palms dragging down your sides one more time, mapping you all over again, slower, deeper, more deliberate. Like he’s memorizing the moment he finally has you stripped, open, waiting under him. Like he’s worshipping you in silence. Like the room itself is holding its breath for what comes next.
Jay lowers himself over you without letting his weight touch you yet, just hovering, his breath warm and uneven. The bed dips under his knees, and the shadows shift across his face, cutting him into sharp angles. His eyes drag over you, slow enough to make your chest tighten. His fingers find your waist again. Not grabbing. Not rushing. Just claiming the space. “You’re so still,” he whispers, the words brushing your lips even though he’s not kissing you. “Are you nervous?”
You swallow, but your voice is steady when you breathe out, “A little.” His fingertips slide inward… just under your ribs… tracing the slope down to your stomach. His thumb presses lightly, drawing a line that makes your hips jerk. His gaze flicks down, watching the reaction.
Quietly, with a breath that sounds like he’s already losing control: “Good.” Then his lips touch your skin, right beneath your ribs. A single kiss. Deep, slow, warm. His mouth moves lower, pausing between each kiss just long enough to let the heat build. He doesn’t kiss like a man in a hurry. He kisses like he’s studying you, tasting your reactions, choosing his next move with surgical precision.
Your breath stutters when he reaches the softest part of your stomach. He hears it. His voice is a whisper against your skin, low, restrained, almost pained: “Don’t hide that from me.” One of his hands slides up, cupping the underside of your breast. He doesn’t squeeze, he just holds you there, thumb stroking a slow, almost cruelly gentle rhythm. His mouth trails higher, his hair brushing your skin, his lips tracing the line under your breast with a slowness that makes your whole body arch.
When his mouth finally closes around your nipple, your inhale breaks. He groans, a low, quiet sound, muffled against your skin as his tongue circles you, slow and deliberate. His other hand moves to your thigh, fingers digging in, holding you open as he takes his time sucking, kissing, tasting you like he’s trying to keep himself from devouring you too fast.
He switches sides, lips closing around your other nipple with a deeper pull, and you feel every controlled tremor radiating from him. Then he lifts his head and whispers against your breast: “You’re already shaking. Lie still for me.” You try. But when he moves lower, when his tongue traces a line down the center of your stomach, slow enough that your toes curl, your hips lift on their own.
He catches them with one hand, pressing you flat to the bed. “Don’t.” Just one word. But said so softly, so dangerously, it forces stillness into your bones. His lips are at your waistband now, the last barrier, thin and useless. He looks up at you through the shadows. Not smiling. Not teasing. Just hungry. “Open your legs for me.”
Your thighs fall apart, breath hitching. Jay exhales like he’s been waiting for that moment. Two fingers hook the edge of your last piece of clothing, pulling it down slowly, slower than his patience should allow, dragging the thin fabric over your hips, your thighs, your knees, your ankles. He drops it somewhere behind him without looking.
And then he sees you fully. His jaw tightens. His breath leaves him in a slow, shaky exhale. “Beautiful,” he whispers, not soft, but reverent, like the word forces itself out. He spreads your thighs wider with his hands, thumbs stroking the inside, and lowers himself between them. His face hovers inches from you, his breath warm where you need him most. He looks up again. Voice deeper. Rougher.
“Before I taste you,” he murmurs, “tell me what you want.” Your voice is barely a whisper. “You.” Jay shuts his eyes for half a second, just half, like the word hits him too hard. Then he leans in. Slow. Inevitable. Pinning you with his hands on your thighs. His lips touch you. One slow, deep lick. Your back arches, involuntary, sharp, and he grips your thighs harder, holding you open as he does it again… slower this time… deeper.
A whisper against you: “Good… keep giving me reactions like that.” He starts to eat you out with a quiet, consuming intensity, no loud sounds, just heavy breathing, the wet pull of his mouth, the soft drag of his tongue. Every movement is deliberate, like he’s building you from the inside out, like he wants to memorize every tremor. And when you start to beg, breathless, whispering his name, he just moans into you and murmurs:
“I’m not stopping until you break for me.” Then he licks you. From bottom to top, one slow, devastating stripe of tongue that makes your whole spine curve off the mattress. He stops at the top, tongue flattening against your clit for a second, pressing just hard enough to make your breath crack, then he pulls back with a quiet inhale like he’s savoring your taste.
“Oh, fuck…” he whispers, voice roughened. “You taste better than I imagined.”
He doesn’t give you time to recover. His tongue returns, this time soft and slow, lazily stroking you, mapping you, tasting you like he’s learning your body one wet, trembling flick at a time. His hands grip your thighs harder, holding them open as he settles his mouth deeper against you. He chooses a rhythm, deliberate, focused, steady.
Long, deep licks. Followed by soft circles. Followed by slow, pulsing pressure. Your hips twitch up, and he pins them immediately, fingers tightening. “Stay still,” he murmurs against you, voice vibrating through your core. “Let me do the work.” He slides his tongue lower, dipping inside you with a slow push that makes your legs shake. He groans, actually groans, the sound muffled and sinful, and your body answers it with a pulse he feels immediately.
His fingers dig in. “There it is,” he whispers, breath hot against you. “Give me that again.” Then he gets rougher. His mouth latches onto your clit with a sudden, hungry pressure, and he sucks, deep, slow, controlled, the kind of suction that makes you grab the sheets and gasp his name. He reacts to that.
He growls. Not loud, low, quiet, primal, and the vibration rolls through you. Jay keeps sucking, tongue flicking in perfect, devastating pulses, alternating between gentle strokes and sharper, firmer pressure until your voice breaks into airless sounds you can’t control.
Your thighs try to close around his head. He doesn’t let them. He shoves them open, grip firm, voice so dark it borders on a warning: “Don’t… fucking… run.” He buries his face deeper into you, eating you out with an intensity that’s almost desperate, messy now, wet sounds filling the room as his tongue works you faster, harder, his jaw moving with purpose.
He moans into you again when you tug his hair, the sound sending another sharp wave through your body. “You’re close,” he whispers, his voice shaking with how badly he wants it. “I can feel it, don’t fight it. Come for me. Right here. On my tongue.” He sucks harder, the perfect pressure, tongue circling your clit in tight, relentless movements. Your breath breaks, your hips lift, and he holds you down, forcing you to stay exactly where he wants you.
You fall apart. Your gasp turns into a cry, your thighs trembling, your whole body tightening and unraveling all at once, and Jay doesn’t stop. Not for a second. He keeps licking you through it, slow and hungry, drawing every last shake out of you until you’re limp against the mattress. Only then does he pull back, lips glistening, breath ragged, eyes dark.
He wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, slow, deliberate, and whispers: “Again.” Your pulse is still stuttering from his mouth, your thighs trembling against the sheets, when Jay lifts his head. His lips are swollen, wet from you, his breath sharp and uneven. He climbs up your body with a slow, predatory steadiness, each movement deliberate, like he’s savoring the moment before he finally breaks.
His hands bracket your hips first, fingers digging in just enough to remind you who’s in control. Then he drags them up your sides, over your ribs, up to your wrists, pinning both your hands above your head in one smooth motion. He leans down until his forehead nearly touches yours.
“You’re still shaking,” he whispers, voice low, rough. “Good.” His body settles between your thighs like it was made to fit there, warm, heavy, solid. You feel the hard length of him press against your inner thigh, and the jolt that shoots through you is so sharp your breath catches. He feels it. His jaw clenches. “Look at me.” Your eyes lift to meet his, and he holds your wrists tighter, the weight of his stare heavy, consuming.
“I’m going to fuck you,” he murmurs, voice barely audible. “Slow enough that you feel every inch.” You nod, breathless, but he shakes his head. “Say you want it.” “I want it,” you whisper. He exhales, slow, shaky, like those words hit him deeper than they should. Then he lets go of your wrists just long enough to guide himself, the tip of him brushing your entrance. The contact alone steals your breath. He presses forward just a little, barely parting you, just enough to make you whimper.
A soft, dark whisper at your lips: “Relax… let me in.” And then he pushes. Slow. Deep. Unstoppable. Your breath breaks. Your nails dig into his shoulders. Your body tightens around him immediately, involuntarily, and Jay feels it. His head drops to your neck, his breath coming out in a strained, bitten-off groan. “Fuck… you’re tight—”
He stops himself, pulling in a slow, shaking breath like he’s on the edge of losing control already. He presses deeper inch by inch, your body stretching around him, taking him, pulling him in. You gasp his name. His hand shoots to your jaw, tilting your face toward his. “Don’t look away,” he whispers again, voice trembling now. “I want to see everything you feel.”
He sinks deeper. Deeper. Deeper until his hips meet yours and there’s no space left between you. You’re full. Breathless. Pinned under him. Jay’s forehead drops to yours, his hair brushing your cheeks, his breath sharp and uneven. “Shit…” he breathes out, voice cracking at the edges. “You feel—” He cuts off with another shuddering exhale. “You feel too good.”
His hands slide under your thighs, lifting them higher around his hips, opening you wider, pulling you closer, pulling you onto him. He holds still for a moment, letting your body adjust, letting the pressure settle deep and heavy between you. Then he whispers: “Tell me when you’re ready for me to move.” You can’t find your voice, so you pull your hips up into him, small, shaky, desperate.
His breath catches. “Okay…” A whisper that sounds like surrender. “Okay.” He pulls out slowly, every inch a drag that makes your eyes flutter, and then pushes back in with a deep, deliberate thrust that knocks a breathy sound from your chest. Jay groans into your neck, the sound low and ragged, his control slipping. His pace stays slow at first, deep, grinding strokes that make your whole body lift off the mattress each time. His hand slides behind your knee, pushing your thigh up higher, opening you more, letting him sink deeper, hit deeper.
Your breath starts breaking, your voice catching with each thrust. And Jay murmurs against your mouth, breath trembling: “That’s it… take it… take all of it…”
He thrusts again, deeper, harder, the sound of your bodies meeting sharp and wet in the quiet room. Your fingers claw into his back. He groans, low, guttural. His voice drops to a whisper so dark it shakes through you: “I’m going to ruin you for anyone else.” Jay’s thrusts get heavier, deeper, the kind that shake the mattress, the kind that force sound out of your throat no matter how hard you try to hold it back. His breathing is ragged now, brushing hot against your cheek, every exhale trembling like he’s fighting something in himself.
He’s not winning. You can feel it. His hips snap forward again, harder than before, and your gasp breaks into his mouth. His hand slides up your throat, not squeezing, just holding you there, anchoring you, guiding the angle of your head as he kisses you. A deep, messy, open-mouth kiss that tastes like desperation and heat. He pulls back only far enough to whisper against your lips:
“I can’t—” His breath shudders. “I can’t stay gentle anymore.” Your body clenches around him, and the reaction rips something raw from his chest. “That,” he growls softly, forehead pressing to yours, “don’t do that unless you want me completely gone.” You whisper, broken: “I want you gone. Lose it.”
Jay freezes, only for a heartbeat. That’s all it takes. His control snaps. His hand slides down your thigh, grabbing hard, and he flips you onto your stomach in one fluid, effortless motion. You gasp as the sheets brush your skin, your body still trembling from the shock of being moved so fast. He’s already behind you. Already pulling your hips up to meet his. Already pressing himself back inside you with a deep, brutal thrust that makes your arms collapse.
Your forehead drops to the pillow, your fingers fisting the sheets. Jay groans behind you, long, low, dragged from his chest like he’s been holding it back for too long. “Fuck… this position…” Another thrust, harder. “You’re gripping me like you don’t want to let go.” He leans over you, chest pressed to your back, his hand sliding around your waist, fingers finding the softness just above your hip. He pulls you back onto him, matching his thrusts to the desperate rhythm of your breath.
Your voice breaks into the pillow. Jay hears it. He slides one hand into your hair, gripping at the base of your neck, pulling your head back until your mouth opens on a gasp. His lips find your ear, hot, panting, trembling with feral restraint. “You want it rough?” Another snap of his hips. “Take it.”
He slams into you, deep, precise, punishing in the best way. Your body jolts, back arching, legs shaking. His whisper cuts right into the sound of your breath: “Every… single… drop of me—” Thrust. “You’re taking it.” Thrust. “You hear me?” You try to answer, but it comes out a whimper. He growls, quiet but sharp, and tightens his grip in your hair.
“Use your words.” “Y—yes,” you choke out. “I’m taking it.” He bites your shoulder, hard enough to make your breath stutter, then licks the spot slowly, soothing it with a soft drag of his tongue.
“Good,” he whispers against your skin. “Keep saying yes.” He lifts your hips higher, the new angle letting him sink impossibly deeper. The sounds of your bodies meeting fill the room, sharp, wet, rhythmic. You feel him everywhere. His breath on your neck. His chest on your back. His fingers bruising your hips. His cock dragging so deep each thrust feels like it reaches your breath.
Your voice cracks with every movement. And Jay loses the last piece of control he’s holding. His thrusts turn rougher, faster, his pace hungry and relentless. His hand slides between your thighs, fingers finding your clit and rubbing tight, fast circles that make your entire body jerk. “That’s it,” he whispers, voice shaking. “Come on my cock. Come for me while I’m inside you.”
Your fingers claw at the sheets. Your knees buckle. Your vision whites out. “Jay—” He snaps his hips into you harder, hand working you with ruthless precision. “Say my name again.” “Jay—fuck—Jay—” “That’s it,” he whispers, breath breaking. “Give it to me. Now.” And when your climax hits, sudden, violent, overwhelming, Jay moans into your shoulder, grabbing your hips, thrusting through your orgasm like he’s trying to lose himself inside the feeling of you coming apart around him. Your body collapses forward.
Jay follows you down, still buried deep, chest pressed to your back, breath hot and shaking against your skin. “Don’t move,” he whispers into your neck. “I’m not done with you yet.”
— — —
It happens fast. Not the falling, that part was slow. Weeks of stolen nights. Rain on penthouse windows. Jay learning the shape of your mouth like it was a map he’d forgotten how to read. You pretending you weren’t already lost in him. Two ghosts who had chased each other without knowing it. But the moment he asks, truly asks, isn’t dramatic. It’s raining again. Same rain. Same city. Different you.
You’re standing under a stone overhang outside the old courthouse, both of you dripping, both of you laughing because this is ridiculous, utterly, impossibly ridiculous, and yet you’ve never been more certain of anything.
Jay’s hair is plastered to his forehead. His shirt is damp at the collar. He looks at you like the world finally stopped spinning. “Marry me,” he says. Quiet. Breathless. No theatrics. No ring. Just him.
You don’t even pretend to think. “Okay.” That’s how you end up inside the courthouse, rain streaking every window, thunder shaking the old wooden floorboards. The lights buzz faintly. The judge looks half-asleep. Your clothes are still wet. Jay can’t stop staring at you. It’s small. It’s messy. It’s real. You hold each other’s hands, cold fingers, warm palms, and the rain outside becomes the only witness.
Jay steps closer, thumb brushing over your knuckles like he’s grounding himself. His voice is barely above a whisper: “’Til death do us part.” You lift your chin, eyes locked on his. “You first.” Jay lets out a broken laugh, the kind that sounds like surrender, and kisses you right there, before the judge even finishes the sentence. The world blurs into rain and lips and the taste of something terrifyingly close to forever.
But you don’t end there. Hours later, the storm has quieted into a drizzle as he drives you through narrow streets until the Florence Cathedral rises, luminous, ancient, impossibly beautiful. No crowds tonight. Just candlelight pooling through stained glass, flickering in ruby and sapphire across marble floors. Jay leads you inside, not to marry you again, not for formality, but because he wants this memory carved into something sacred.
He stands with you in the center of the vast nave, rain dripping from your coat onto centuries-old stone. His hand finds yours. Your wedding bands, simple silver, glint under the candles.
The silence feels holy. Jay turns to you, jaw softening, rain still clinging to his lashes. “You know,” he murmurs, voice reverent, “if you ever walk away from me, this place won’t survive it. I won’t survive it.” You lean in until your foreheads touch, breath mingling in the chill of the cathedral. “Good,” you whisper. “Because I’m not going anywhere.” Outside, the bells begin to ring, slow, deep, echoing through every stone archway like a blessing.
Two ghosts who once chased each other across rooftops now stand inside a church older than every name they’ve worn, bound by a rain-soaked vow whispered too quietly for the world, but loud enough to last.A courthouse wedding in a storm. A kiss beneath a vaulted ceiling of angels. And a promise neither of you ever planned to keep, yet couldn’t imagine breaking. Til death do you part. You first.
— — —
The present burns colder than memory. Gone is Florence. Gone is warmth. Gone is the taste of Jay’s mouth on yours, hot and reverent, like he was learning you cell by cell. All that remains is the mission room. An unmarked building. An unlabeled door. A table so cold it might as well be carved from absence. A folder hits the metal with the blunt weight of inevitability. Your handler doesn’t sit. He doesn’t blink. His voice is a monotone blade when he says:
“Target identified.”
You open the file. At the top lies a grainy surveillance still, taped in with a single yellowing strip of medical tape, like the print is alive and might try to run. LEE HEESEUNG. Codename: EVAN. Black hair. A sharp, unsmiling mouth. Eyes that look like they’ve witnessed the wrong side of hell and decided not to come back. Below, in stark block letters:
HIGH-VALUE TARGET.DIA PRISONER – ESCAPED CUSTODY. A HIGHEST PRIORITY FOR ELIMINATION.POTENTIAL RISK: EXTREME.
You keep your expression neutral, professional. Your pulse betrays you anyway, tightening in your wrists, fluttering too fast in your neck. Your handler continues, tone flat: “Intel confirms he resurfaced three days ago. Multiple agencies want him dead. We’re pulling international contractors to lock down the grid. You’ll have first contact. Coordinates on dispatch only when his location stabilizes.”
Stabilizes. A strange word. A stranger implication. You close the folder with a soft, decisive snap. “When do I move?” “Tonight.” You nod, controlled, composed, a ghost wearing your skin. But your stomach twists tight, curling around a feeling you can’t name. Something is wrong. The lights above flicker as if agreeing. You slide the file into your coat and walk out like nothing inside you has shifted at all. Except everything has.
—
Different city. Different agency. Same fluorescent hum of dread. Jay sits across from his director, legs spread loose, posture careless enough to fool anyone who hasn’t watched him kill. But the tight vein in his jaw pulses once, barely there, but real. “Your assignment,” the director says, pushing a folder across the steel table. Jay flips it open with two bored fingers. Then he sees the photo. A small taped polaroid. Same face. Same eyes. Same ghost. LEE HEESEUNG. Codename: EVAN.
Jay goes still. Not visibly. But he forgets to breathe for half a second.
His director doesn’t notice. “Target escaped custody. Too dangerous to leave in circulation. Termination authorized, no retrieval, no arbitration.” Jay turns the page. Dense black text. Red stamps that read like they were carved instead of printed.
HIGH-VALUE. PRIORITY ONE. ELIMINATE ON SIGHT.
His voice comes out low, edged with something he doesn’t let surface often. “Solo contract?” “Yes. Clean. Quiet. No footprint.” Of course. Jay is a ghost maker. “Location?” he asks. “You’ll receive coordinates in transit. Target is migrating.” Jay closes the folder, leans back, tongue pressing once against the inside of his cheek, a tell he never allows. Not unless something feels off. He didn’t expect the sensation clawing through his chest now.He doesn’t like it. Like he’s standing at the mouth of a memory he hasn’t lived yet. Like the world has tilted one degree and he’s the only one who noticed. Like fate just cracked its knuckles.
He stands. “When do I depart?” “Now.” Jay leaves without another word.
Your safehouse greets you with silence and stale air. You drop the folder onto the bed. It flips open on impact. Heeseung’s eyes stare up, dark, hollow, too knowing. Something in you recoils. Not in fear. In recognition you can’t justify. A familiarity that feels like a bruise you don’t remember getting.
You press your palm over his image until your skin hides the photo entirely. Your comms vibrate.
MISSION ACTIVE.STANDBY FOR COORDINATES.
The unease slithers deeper, coiling in your ribs. This is just another job. Just another shadow to neutralize. That’s what you tell yourself. You don’t know Jay is reading the same photo in another part of the city. You don’t know he’s already moving. You don’t know the mission has already tied your fates too tight to pull apart. Outside, the wind picks up. Somewhere, the storm shifts. And the moment the coordinates hit both your phones… everything begins to break.
The desert wind cuts like glass. You stand among the guards, helmet low, visor down, uniform crisp. Breath steady. Pulse measured. The armored convoy crawls across the dirt road in front of you like a beast made of steel and secrets. Engines hum. Radios crackle. Boots crunch.
Evan, Heeseung, is in the third vehicle. Chained. Drugged. Supposed to be harmless. He isn’t. You grip your rifle tighter. Up on the ridge, unseen, Jay lies flat against red stone, rifle braced on a bipod. Sun cutting across his scope in a thin, lethal line. He’s still. Focused. A shadow carved from patience. His handler’s voice whispers in his ear: “Confirmed visual on Evan?”
Jay exhales. “Confirmed.” Your handler whispers the same into your comm, almost word-for-word. Neither of you knows the other is listening to the exact same briefing.
The transport halts. Guards reposition. You blend among them, steps silent, movements practiced. Your disguise holds. No one looks twice. Jay adjusts his aim, tracking the man being escorted out of the armored vehicle. Evan’s hair is longer than the file photo. His face gaunt. But his eyes, sharp and aware, cut through everyone around him.
Jay’s finger settles on the trigger. So does yours. The plan is clean: You draw fire and chaos from the inside. Jay snipes from the ridge. Evan dies between both shots.
Flawless. Mathematically perfect. Zero risk of failure. Until the sun shifts. Until Jay’s scope catches the smallest sliver of reflection, your reflection. Helmets down. Uniform standard. Should’ve been nothing. But he sees the tilt of your chin. The tension in your shoulders. The way you steady your rifle. He knows bodies. He knows yours. Jay’s breath stops.
…No. It can’t be. Not here.
He blinks once, and, you look up. Your eyes meet his through the glint of his scope. Instant. Electric. Catastrophic. Recognition hits you like a punch to the ribs. Your lips part beneath the helmet, shock flooding ice-cold down your spine. Jay. Jay is the sniper. Jay is the second operative. Jay is on the same hit.
What the hell—
“Shooter One, take the shot,” your handler orders. “Shooter Two, green light,” his handler echoes. Neither of you pulls the trigger. That hesitation, one heartbeat, ruins everything. Evan, ever perceptive, looks directly where Jay is hiding. Then directly at you. His mouth twitches. Not into a smile. Into readiness. He moves first. A knee to a guard. A ripped weapon. A shot fired into a fuel tank.
You dive, Jay curses and rolls, and the world explodes. Fire erupts through the convoy. Guards scatter. Bullets rain. Smoke eats the sky. Through the flames, Evan slips free, fast, trained, terrifyingly calm, and vanishes into the burning horizon. Mission blown. Target alive. You and Jay exposed. You scramble behind an overturned truck, helmet half-melted, lungs burning with smoke. Jay slides down the ridge, grabs his gear, and disappears into the canyon. Both of you escape. Barely. Both of you are shaking. More from the recognition than the blast.
You drive with white-knuckled hands, headlights slicing through dusk, replaying his face in your mind. Jay. At the ridge. Rifle aimed at the same man. Your stomach refuses to settle. Across the city, Jay drives just as hard, jaw tight, music off, mind racing. You. At the convoy. In uniform. Holding a rifle. Too coincidental. Too precise. He isn’t stupid. Neither are you. You both know exactly what this means.
Your apartment is warm. Your clothes are clean. Your pulse is anything but steady. Jay arrives right on time. You don’t hug him. He doesn’t kiss you. The tension is a living thing between you, sharp, metallic, almost visible.
You cook because it gives your hands something to do. He stands behind you, silent, watching the knife move. You speak first. “Traffic?” Your voice doesn’t sound like yours. He shrugs. “Not bad.”
You sit. You both eat too quietly. Then you slip. You don’t realize you’ve said it until the air collapses. “I thought you were in Itaewon today.” You freeze. Jay lifts his gaze slowly. A smirk forms, slow, subtle, cutting. “You always think you know where I am.”
It’s not flirtation. It’s a test. Your pulse spikes. “Where were you?” you ask. He places his chopsticks down, leans back, eyes on yours with unnerving calm. “In the heat,” he says. “In the open.” “Wind was bad. Distance was… manageable.”
Your heart stops. Only a sniper would phrase it that way. He watches your reaction carefully. Then, softly, almost gently: “Funny thing, though. Someone down there hesitated too.”
Your blood turns to ice. He knows. And worse, he knows you know. The silence that follows isn’t awkward. It’s lethal.Two operatives. Two lies. Two truths cracking open all at once. One failed mission. One escaped target. One inevitable collision. Jay’s smile fades. His voice drops to something dangerous and intimate: “Tell me, sweetheart…” His eyes glint. “…were you aiming for Evan today?”
You inhale. Exhale. Lie or tell the truth. Either way, everything changes here.
The morning after the botched prisoner transfer tastes like the inside of a bullet casing, metallic, bitter, and humming with the memory of heat. Your apartment is too still. Too neat. Too unbroken for what you both witnessed yesterday. Jay moves through the kitchen like someone daring it to betray him. His shoulders are loose, relaxed, casual, the exact posture he wears right before he puts a knife through someone’s ribs. You’ve studied that body language in your enemies. In him, it’s worse. Because it isn’t foreign. It’s familiar.
You woke up to him breathing beside you, warm, steady. The kind of breathing only a man who slept well produces. He shouldn’t have slept well. Not after seeing you in that convoy. Not after recognizing your eyes through the sniper glint.
Not after realizing the truth. Neither should you. But assassins adapt. And marriage, even a forged, accidental, courthouse one, teaches you how to lie through breakfast. Jay opens a drawer and pulls out a mug. He doesn’t reach for your favorite one. He reaches for the one he bought, the newer one, the one that doesn’t have your fingerprints memorized. He’s telling you without saying a word:
I’m not predictable today. Don’t assume anything.
Good. You weren’t planning to. “Coffee?” you ask, voice light. Sweet. Dangerous. “Please.” Jay leans a hip against the counter and watches you with eyes that give nothing away. Not fear. Not anger. Not confusion. Just calculation. You grind the beans by hand, slow, methodical. You measure the water temperature. You test the bitterness. You make it perfect.
And then, when you pour it into his mug, your finger taps the hidden capsule against the rim. It dissolves instantl, micro-poison, nearly undetectable, designed to mimic food poisoning for the first nine minutes, then shut down the heart. You stir it once. Twice. Jay’s gaze flicks to your wrist. A single raised brow.
He knows. You slide the mug toward him anyway, like the world’s deadliest waitress. Jay picks it up, inhales the steam, and smiles. “Looks good.” His fingers curl around the ceramic. You watch his pulse.
He takes a sip. Swallows. And smirks. “I love when you make things strong,” he murmurs, eyes lifting to meet yours, deliberate. “It wakes me up.” You keep your face serene, completely still, but your blood chills. Because Jay doesn’t set the mug down. He doesn’t drink it again. He just… holds it. Letting you wonder whether he swallowed anything at all. Letting you imagine him spitting it out behind your back this morning. Or swapping the mug. Or taking the antidote he always keeps in his back pocket.
He’s playing with his life like it’s his wedding ring. The same way you just played with his. He takes another sip. You stop breathing. Then he sets the mug down, pushes it a few centimeters toward the center of the counter, and taps the handle twice with one finger.
Message loud and brutal: Try harder.
Your body warms, adrenaline or arousal, you can’t tell. With Jay it’s always been that fine, lethal line. “Early mission today?” you ask casually, rinsing the spoon you stirred his coffee with. Jay’s eyes follow the spoon’s path. Your wrist. Your stance. He’s mapping where your weapons could be hidden. Where you could run. How fast he could catch you.
“Something like that,” he says lightly. “And you?” “Same.” “Ah.” He stretches, neck cracking slightly as he rolls his shoulders. “Busy couple. Always on the move.” His tone is teasing. His eyes are not. You both move at the same time, him reaching for his phone; you turning for your jacket. Your fingers brush the drawer of the entryway table, where you usually keep your keys.
Only today, your keys aren’t there. Jay took them. Jay knows you noticed. You meet his eyes. He smiles. “Borrowed your car,” he says simply. No apology. No reason. Just theft. Just war. You school your expression. “When?” “This morning.” “That early?” “Hm.” Jay gives a small shrug. “I had… errands.” Translation: He was checking everything you own for traps. He didn’t find the ones you wanted him to. But he found enough.
“Yours is still here,” he adds. “What’s left of it,” you say under your breath, so quiet a regular husband wouldn’t catch it. Jay is not a regular husband. He hears it. His smirk sharpens. “You say something?” You look up through your lashes. “Just wondering why you look so tired.”
That lands. A small, precise hit. He steps closer. Not touching. Just close enough that your breath shifts. His hand lifts, thumb grazing a strand of hair behind your ear. It would be tender, if it weren’t a threat. “Oh?” Jay murmurs. “I slept like a baby.” You didn’t. He knows. “Didn’t you?”
You tilt your chin. “Lighter sleeper,” you say simply. “You know that.” Jay’s smile is too soft to be safe. “I do.” A beat of silence. Heavy. Charged. Loaded like a chambered bullet. Then he steps back, grabs his jacket, and says: “I’ll see you tonight.”
A normal line. Too normal. You nod once. “Dinner at eight.” “Eight,” he echoes. Neither of you says if we both make it. When he leaves, the air collapses. Your spine straightens. Your pupils narrow. Today is the day. The first strike. The first real attempt. You check the time. Jay will reach the parking garage in seven minutes. You have the detonator in your hand.
You flip open the blinds just a sliver. The view of the street below is clear. Your husband crosses the road, calm, unhurried, unaware (or pretending to be). He reaches the elevator to the garage.
Six minutes. You move through the apartment quickly, silently, retrieving your backup keys, your boots, the bag under the sink with a gun no one but you knows about. You breathe once. Then you press the detonator.
The explosion shakes the city block. Flame ruptures upward, glass shattering, concrete cracking. People scream. Birds scatter. Smoke billows like a beast unleashed. Your pulse spikes.
You scan the wreckage. Burning metal. Twisted doors. Fire licking the hood of your husband’s car. And then, through the smoke, a silhouette steps out. Untouched. Unrushed.
Unburned.
Jay walks through the flames like he’s leaving a photoshoot, not a murder attempt. His jaw is sharp, his hair slightly wind-tossed, suit jacket thrown over one shoulder like the explosion was an inconvenience at best. He lifts his gaze straight to your window.
And smiles. Slow. Infuriating. Devastatingly amused. He mouths: Cute. You exhale a curse. War has officially begun. Your phone lights up before the smoke even clears.
1 new message — JAY 💍
You open it with a thumb that doesn’t tremble.
You won’t give him that. The message contains no text. Just a photo.
Him. Standing in front of the burning remains of his car. Two fingers raised in a peace sign. A heart emoji drawn in smoke behind him. You clench your jaw. Smug bastard.
You’re still staring at the photo when your door unlocks behind you. Not forced. Not picked. Not kicked in. Unlocked. From the inside. Your stomach drops. You reach for your gun, too slow.
Jay presses the muzzle of his gun behind your ribs, so gentle it feels like a greeting. “Good morning again, sweetheart,” he says, voice low, warm, mocking. “Miss me?” You don’t let your spine stiffen. “Doors lock for a reason.” “Oh, I know.” His breath brushes your neck as he steps around you, gun still resting at your side like an affectionate hand. “I just don’t care.”
He doesn’t shoot. He doesn’t need to. He walks in, calm as ever, dropping his jacket on the couch. You watch him move, fluid, confident, unbothered.
He survived your bomb. He broke into your home. And he’s making himself comfortable. “Coffee was good,” he says lightly as he toes off his shoes. “Bold flavor. Slightly poisonous aftertaste, but still smooth.” You grit your teeth. “You drank it.” “Did I?” Jay tilts his head. “Or did I pour it into the pothos plant when you blinked?”
You glance at the plant. It’s wilted. You exhale sharply. “…you asshole.” Jay beams. “I love when you notice.” He walks past you without a care in the world, crossing to your desk. Your laptop sits there. Closed. Untouched. Or so you thought. Jay sits in your chair, spins once, and props his feet on your notebook. “Can I ask you something?” he says casually.
You cross your arms. “No.” He continues anyway. “Why did you think blowing up my car would work?” he asks. “You know I’ve survived worse.” You force your heartbeat to steady. “It was worth a try.” He looks at you for a long, quiet moment. “Yeah,” he murmurs. “It was.” And then he opens your laptop. Your breath catches. “Jay.” Warning. Threat. Plea.
He ignores all three. The screen comes to life, your wallpaper, your folders, your encrypted files, Except it’s not your normal login screen. It’s a new one. White text on a black background:
HELLO, SUNSHINE.ENTER PASSWORD TO SIGN YOUR RESIGNATION LETTER.
Your blood goes ice-cold. Jay glances up sweetly. “You didn’t think I’d let you be the only one to leave surprises today, did you?” “If you touched my files—” “Oh, I touched everything.” He taps a few keys. Windows flicker open—your missions, your photos, your kill records, your handler’s notes. “Your entire professional history is so… intimate. Like reading your diary. Except more murder-y.”
You lunge forward. Jay lifts a finger. One finger. Barely a motion. You stop. Your body responds to him before your mind does. “Baby,” he murmurs. “Do you really want to fight me this early? We haven’t even discussed lunch.” You want to hit him. You want to kiss him. You want to strangle him with the charging cable.
He continues typing with lazy, deadly precision. “Your firm thinks you’re resigning effective immediately,” he says. “I drafted a lovely, heartfelt letter. You talk about burnout. Wanting to reconnect with your spouse. Wanting a quiet life.” “I would never write that.” Jay grins. “I know. That’s why it’s funny.” You step closer. “Jay, undo it.”
“Can’t.” “Undo it.” “No.” You slam your palm on the desk beside him. “Now.” His eyes lift to yours with slow, thrilling danger. “You blew up my car.” “You drank poison.” “You tried to stab me in your sleep.” “You dodged. That’s not my fault.” “Oh, please,” he scoffs, fingers flying across the keyboard. “You were aiming for my shoulder.” Your jaw tics. He noticed. Of course he did.
Jay’s tone shifts, softens. “You don’t want to kill me.” You ignore the sting in your chest. “That’s not the point.” “Then what is?” he asks quietly. Silence drapes over you both. Thick. Heavy. Truth-shaped. You break it with steel rather than vulnerability. “You’re compromising my mission.” Jay laughs under his breath. “Sweetheart, you are the mission.” You freeze. He doesn’t. He clicks one last button, and your laptop pings. Your heart stops. On the screen is the confirmation:
RESIGNATION SENT.
ACCESS TO FIRM FILES LOCKED.
GOOD LUCK IN YOUR FUTURE ENDEAVORS.
You breathe out slowly, deadly calm. “You’re insane.” Jay stands slowly, stepping into your space like he owns it. Like he owns you. “Maybe,” he says. “But I’m your problem now.” You grab his collar, hard. “Undo it.” He dips his head so your noses almost touch. “Make me.” You shove him away. He lets you, only because he wants to see what you’ll do next. “You’ll pay for that,” you say under your breath.
Jay smirks. “Promise?” You turn on your heel. He follows. Every step you take, he mirrors, calm, close, unshakable. Like you’re dancing. Like you’ve always been dancing. Like you were both trained for this moment without knowing it. “Where are you going?” he asks lightly.
“To fix what you broke.” He hums. “Try. I’ll enjoy watching you.” You reach for your weapons bag. Jay reaches the other side of it at the same time. Your hands brush. He freezes. You freeze. Then his smile curls sharp and dark. “Married couple things,” he says softly. “Sharing the murder kit.”
You grab the bag first. Jay lets it go. “This is war,” you tell him. He shrugs. “It’s Tuesday.” You don’t bother responding. You storm toward the door. Jay calls after you: “Dinner at eight!” You flip him off without looking back. “Can’t wait!” he shouts cheerfully.
The smile drops. His eyes narrow. His entire posture shifts from amused husband to operative. He sits back at your desk, pulls out a flash drive, and inserts it quietly. A new screen pops up:
TRANSFER COMPLETE.TARGET: EVAN — LOCATION UNKNOWN.SECONDARY TARGETS: YOU.
Jay stares at the screen. His jaw ticks. He whispers: “…you weren’t supposed to be on this mission.” He closes the laptop gently. Then stands, stoic, tense, deadly. No more jokes. No more flirting. For the first time since the wedding,
Jay looks scared. Not for himself. For you. The moment you hit the street, the cool air cuts through the lingering smoke clinging to your clothes. You breathe once, deep, steady, calculated. Then your phone vibrates.
JAY 💍: Miss you already.
You turn the phone off. No, you slam it off.
You hit your firm’s satellite tech hub in under twenty minutes. Not the front door. Not even the side entrance. You take the maintenance stairs, four levels up, two down, a narrow hall, a biometric scanner you bypass with a thin strip of heated wire and a practiced twist, and you’re in. The room is dark, humming with servers and fluorescent lights that flicker like dying stars. Your handler, Mira, sits at the central monitor wall, boots up on the desk, chewing gum like she’s bored with the world.
She doesn’t look surprised when you appear behind her. “Bad day?” she asks. You toss your locked-out credentials onto her lap. “My login’s dead. Who did it?” Mira leans back, chewing slowing. “Didn’t come from us. It came from you.”
Your blood chills. “Someone hacked it,” you say. “No.” Mira taps her screen. “Someone with physical access logged in as you and sent a resignation letter manually.” You inhale through your teeth. “Jay.” Mira whistles softly. “You got married fast.”
You don’t answer. Her gum pops. “Look, I don’t care about your love life, but if you’re out, you’re out. I can’t reverse this.” “Give me access,” you say. Voice low. Controlled. Deadly. She studies you. Then sighs. Then types. Her gaze flicks up once. “If anyone finds out—” “No one will.” A temporary access tunnel opens on her screen, thirty minutes before it self-erasers.
You pull out your phone to re-route your handler keys, but the phone isn’t in your pocket. Your pulse spikes. Mira raises a brow. “Lose something?” You exhale. “Jay.”
You return home like a shadow, silent, poised, lethal. Your apartment is dark. Too dark. Jay never leaves it dark. He hates the dark. You move slow, every step measured. The door clicks behind you. And the moment it shuts, a hand covers your mouth. Not rough. Not panicked.
Purposeful. Jay’s body presses yours into the wall, his breath warm against your ear. “You left without saying goodbye,” he murmurs. You sink your teeth into his palm. He hisses, pulling back, hand flexing. “You bite harder at home than on missions,” he says lightly.
You elbow him in the ribs. He dodges, laughs, and spins you, pinning your wrist to the wall with a grip that’s firm, not bruising.
“Are we fighting?” he asks, eyes bright, wild, excited. “Please say yes.” You twist your wrist. He tightens grip. “Let go,” you whisper. “No.” You slam your knee toward his thigh, he blocks, catches your leg, hooks it around his waist. Too close. Too intimate. Too familiar. Your breath stutters. He notices. His voice softens. “Where were you?” It’s not jealousy. It’s not suspicion. It’s fear. Real fear. “Don’t,” you say. Jay leans in, forehead brushing yours. “Tell me.”
“Why?” Your pulse stings. “So you can report it?” He freezes. Slowly, his hand drops from your wrist. “You think I’d turn you in?” “You hacked my firm.” “You blew up my car.” “You poisoned me.” “You stabbed me.” “You started it.” “You married me.”
You both blink. Everything stops.Jay takes a slow step back. Something flickers in his eyes, hurt, sharp, unguarded for a fraction of a second. “You don’t get to use that,” he says quietly.
“…Jay—” “No.” He shakes his head once. “That was real. Whatever else we are, whatever game we’re playing, that wasn’t the game.” His voice cracks just a little. Barely there. Barely audible.
It hits harder than any weapon. You swallow. Your chest feels too tight. He steps around you, slow, cautious, like approaching a wounded animal. “If you keep treating this like a mission,” Jay says softly, “I’ll start fighting like it is one.” That’s the warning. The last one he’ll give. Your voice is thin. “I didn’t ask you to follow me.” “You never have to ask,” he says. “I just do.”
You turn away, fast. Too fast. It gives him the opening. Jay reaches into his back pocket and tosses something onto the table. Your phone. Completely wiped. Factory reset. SIM ejected. Firmware updated. “Jay.” The word isn't anger. It’s disbelief.
“I told you I was good with tech,” he says. You stare at the dead device. “You wiped my tracking. My contacts.” “Yes.” “My encrypted notes.” “Yes.” “My mission tags.” “Yes.” You take a step toward him, voice lethal. “Why?” Jay stares at you. Not smirking. Not teasing.
Serious. “Because someone else put you on the Evan hit,” he says quietly. “Someone who wasn’t supposed to. And your firm isn’t the one pulling strings.” Your heart stops. “…what?” He walks closer, slowly, the way he always does when the truth is the most dangerous thing in the room. “The target?” Jay says softly. “Everything around him?” “The hit that went wrong?” “The explosion?” “The double assignment?” He exhales. “It wasn’t an accident.” Your breath stutters. “Jay, what the fuck do you know that I don’t?”
He shakes his head. “Not here.” He reaches out, slowly, like a truce. His fingers hover near yours. “If we’re going to survive this,” he murmurs, “you need to trust me.”You stare at his hand. Trust. You haven’t trusted anyone in five years. You don’t know how.
So you do the only thing you can. You don’t take his hand. But you don’t walk away either. Jay’s breath shakes. A tiny, almost imperceptible release of tension. It’s enough. He nods. Steps back. Gives you space. “We’re in this together now,” he says. You swallow. “Not by choice.”
Jay holds your gaze. “Marriage never is.” You almost laugh. Almost. And that’s when both your phones buzz at the same time. You look at each other. Then at the notification.
Your pulse spikes. Jay’s eyes flick to you, fear, fury, devotion all tangled into one sharp, explosive truth: Someone is hunting you both. And they know exactly where to find you. Your notification blinks twice before the screen goes black. Jay’s does the same. A synchronized kill-switch. An external override.
Someone just shut down your comms. Someone inside your network. Someone inside his. Your pulse spikes. Jay’s jaw tightens. “Back room,” he says. You don’t argue.
The two of you move in perfect sync, terrifyingly perfect, crossing the living room in three strides. You reach for the emergency drawer beneath the bar; Jay grabs the floor-plate latch behind the bookshelf. Your fingers brush cold metal. Glock. Silencer. Knife. Jay pulls up a case you didn’t even know he hid beneath the floorboards.
“Really?” you whisper, motioning to the hidden compartment. “I said I was good at tech, not that I was boring.” He flips the case open. Guns. Ammo. A tracking beacon the size of a grain of rice. You don’t have time to question it. A soft click echoes through the apartment. Then another.
Then—
WHRRR—
The building’s automatic locks engage. Jay’s head snaps up. “Someone triggered the internal seal.” “From outside?” “No.” He cocks his gun. “Someone who has access to both of our profiles.” Meaning: Someone who knows you’re assassins. Someone who knows you’re married. Someone who wants you trapped.
Your breath goes thin. Jay moves first, pushing you behind the kitchen island just as the glass balcony doors SHATTER. Wind. Glass. Gunfire. The first bullet whistles past your ear. The next embeds in the marble countertop. Jay shoves you down with a sharp, “Stay low,” then fires three quick, precise shots through the broken glass.
Two bodies drop. A third retreats behind the balcony railing. You slide across the floor, snagging a spare pistol he’d left under the table (of course he has guns everywhere), and pop off a shot toward the movement. Jay glances at you. Not surprised. Not impressed. Something like relief.
Then an echoing THUNK. A grappling hook hits the floor, metal claws digging into the tile. “They’re coming in from the roof,” you hiss. “No, they’re coming in from everywhere.” As if on cue, the hallway door explodes inward, splintering wood across the floor. Four men enter. Black gear. Custom rifles. Zero insignia.
Not government. Not mercenaries. Something worse. “Down!” Jay barks. You duck behind the overturned chair as Jay fires again, his shots sharp and clean even in chaos. One intruder drops, but the others fan out, forcing you into a crossfire. You roll sideways, sliding behind the dining table, heart hammering. You fire twice, one bullet taking a man’s shoulder, another grazing his thigh.
Jay shouts, “Left!” You spin, knife out, just as another intruder lunges. You bury the blade between his ribs. Jay’s breath catches. Not from fear. From something closer to awe. But there’s no time to acknowledge it. More footsteps thunder down the hall. “Jay,” you breathe, “we need an exit.” “We’re not making it to the stairs.” He reloads. “We take the balcony.”
“That’s a ten-story drop.” “I didn’t say jump.” He hits a switch on the wall, a switch you’ve never noticed, and a thin metal cable unspools toward the balcony like a steel lifeline. You stare. He winks. Of course he has a zipline.But before either of you can reach it—CRACK.
A bullet hits the floor inches from your hand. You dive. Jay turns to cover you, and in that one second, you see it. The sniper on the roof. The glint of a scope. The trajectory aligning perfectly with Jay’s chest. Your breath freezes.
“JAY—!” The gun fires.Jay turns, but not fast enough. THUD. The bullet slams into his shoulder, jerking his body backward. You scream his name, raw, unfiltered, instinctive, and launch forward, catching him before he hits the floor. Blood spreads fast beneath your fingers. “Fuck—Jay—no—stay with me—” He grits his teeth, breath ragged, eyes squeezing shut for a second too long.
“I’m fine,” he pants. “You’re bleeding out,” you snap. His grin is shaky, defiant. “You should’ve seen the other guy.” Another bullet smashes into the wall behind you. “Move!” you hiss, dragging him behind the couch. He tries to push you away. Fails. His arm trembles.
Your chest feels like it’s collapsing. Not from panic. From realization. You are not supposed to care this much. You are absolutely caring this much. Jay leans his head back, breath heaving. “You’re… worried about me,” he says weakly. “Shut up.” “You are.” He smiles again. It’s soft. It’s stupid. It’s killing you.
“Jay, I swear to god—” “Your hands are shaking,” he whispers. You look down. They are. Another blast from the hallway makes the floor tremble. You grab him by the jaw, forcing his eyes open. “Listen to me. If you pass out, I’m killing you myself.” Jay breathes a broken laugh. “I knew you cared.” You press your forehead to his, just for a second, because fear is a physical thing in your throat.
“We’re getting you out,” you whisper. Then you stand. Gun ready. Heart burning. A shadow moves in the hall. You fire before you think. Two shots. One body drops. Jay watches you through half-lidded eyes, dazed and bleeding but still tracking your every move. “Jesus,” he murmurs, “you’re beautiful.”
“Jay, shut the fuck up—” Another volley of gunfire cuts into your words. Jay forces himself to his feet, pressing a hand to his wound, face going white. You grab his arm. “Don’t you dare—” “I’m not leaving you,” he says hoarsely. “You can barely stand—” “Then you’ll hold me up.”
He raises his gun with his good arm. You stare at him, angry. Terrified. A little in love. Just a little. “On three,” you say. Jay nods, breath stuttering. “Three.”
You don’t even say one or two. You both burst from cover, you firing left, Jay firing right, two bodies drop, and Jay stumbles. You catch him with an arm around the waist, hauling him toward the balcony.
Glass crunches under your boots. The wind screams through the broken doors. Jay gasps, “We zipline.” “You can’t grip it.” “You’re not carrying me.” “Watch me.”
He opens his mouth to argue, but gunfire erupts behind you and he has no time. The cable swings wildly in the wind. Jay sways. You grab the harness, loop his arm through it, cinch it across his chest. “Hold on to me,” you demand. His hand grips your shirt weakly. “Always,” he whispers. You kick off the balcony.
Bullets chase you through the air. Wind tears at your clothes. Jay’s blood smears your arm where he’s clinging to you. You hit the opposite balcony too hard. You nearly fall. Jay groans, collapsing against you. But you’re alive. You’re out. For now. You drag him inside the empty apartment, slam the door shut, and drop to your knees beside him.
Jay looks at you through hazy eyes. Smile faint. Voice faint. “You saved me.” “Don’t.” Your voice cracks. “Don’t say it like that.” Jay lifts a hand, shaking, bloodied, and touches your cheek.“You’re shaking again,” he whispers.
Your vision blurs for a second. “You took a bullet for me,” you breathe. His lips part. “Of course I did.” The truth of it hangs between you, dangerous, unspoken, blinding. And that’s when you realize:You are not his enemy. You never were. Someone else is. Someone who wants you both dead. Someone who just forced you onto the same side.
Jay’s head lolls forward, barely conscious. “Stay with me,” you whisper, grabbing his face, forcing his eyes open. He breathes a tiny laugh. “As long as you’re here,” he murmurs, “I’m not going anywhere.” And he doesn’t let go of your shirt.
His head lolls forward before you catch it, your hands sliding under his jaw, guiding him back against the wall. His skin is cold. Too cold. “Jay—Jay, stay with me,” you breathe, panic tearing up your throat like barbed wire. Not even when his eyes finally close do you let yourself blink. “No… no, no— Jay.” You shake him, voice breaking. “Wake up! Wake—” Your vision blurs. Hot, stinging tears gather so fast you barely feel them until they fall, hitting his cheek, mixing with the rain and blood.
Jay’s lashes flutter. His eyes open only a sliver, unfocused but stubborn. “Relax, princess…” he murmurs, and the nickname sounds wrong on dying lips. He coughs, hard, body shaking, blood splattering across your wrist. You flinch, but only for a second before cupping his face again. “Don’t talk,” you whisper. It comes out harsher than intended. “Please. Don’t talk.” He tries to laugh, but it breaks in his chest. “Bossy…”
“Shut up.” You press your forehead to his, breathing him in, counting his breaths like you can hold them steady with sheer will. “I’m gonna, I’m gonna fix this, okay? Just— just hold on.” Your hands move before your thoughts do, tearing open the med pack strapped to your thigh. Your fingers shake so violently you drop the gauze twice before slamming it against the wound in his side.
Jay groans, low, guttural, teeth gritted. “I know,” you whisper, voice cracking. “I know, I know— I’m sorry—” You press harder. His blood seeps through instantly, hot and slick against your palms. You’re losing him. If you don’t stop the bleed, he’ll— “I’ve had worse,” he rasps.
You glare at him through your tears. “Stop trying to be charming while you’re dying.” “Worked on you before,” he whispers, mouth twitching. “Jay.” Your voice breaks again. “Please. Let me help you.” He lifts a shaky hand, blood-soaked fingers brushing your cheek, smearing red across your skin like paint. “You’re beautiful when you worry.”
Your breath leaves you in a shudder. “I’m not— I’m not losing you,” you choke out. “Not now. Not like this.” You rip open another roll of gauze, press harder, feel for the bullet. You can’t pull it out here, not without killing him faster, so you stabilize, bind, improvise a pressure pack using your own torn shirt.
Jay watches you through half-lidded eyes, like memorizing you is the only thing keeping him awake. “You’re shaking,” he murmurs.“Because you’re bleeding out, you idiot.” He tries for a smile, fails. “Still bossy.” You swallow a sob. “Jay, don’t close your eyes.” “I’m tired.”“No.” Your voice snaps, sharp and terrified. “You don’t get to sleep. Look at me. Keep looking.”
His gaze slips, then steadies. “I’m right here,” you whisper, pressing your lips to his temple. “Stay with me.” He exhales, long and shaky, leaning into you like it’s instinct. “Thought you hated me,” he mumbles. “I do,” you whisper. “But you’re not allowed to die.”
His hand finds your wrist weakly. “Selfish.” “I don’t care.” For a moment, there’s only rain, blood, your breath shaking against his. Then, “Princess…?” His voice breaks. “Don’t… leave.” “I’m not going anywhere,” you swear, gripping his hand so hard your knuckles ache. “I’ve got you. I’ve got you.” And even as his eyes start to flutter closed again, you keep holding him together with your hands, your voice, your heartbeat pressed to his. You won’t let him go. Not tonight. Not ever.
You press your palm to the wound, breath shaking. “Stay with me, Jay, don’t you dare—” His eyes slip half-shut, lashes wet. “Relax, princess… I’m fine.” He’s not. Blood spreads warm under your fingers.
“Fine?” you snap, voice breaking. “You took a bullet for me. I could’ve—” A sharp clatter echoes from outside the safehouse. Both your heads snap up. Jay inhales sharply, forcing himself upright despite your hands. “We need to move.” You sling his arm over your shoulder, practically dragging him out the back. The moment the door bursts open, the sky greets you with a cold, merciless downpour. Rain soaks through your clothes instantly, mixing with the blood on your hands.
You stop in the alleyway, chest heaving. Everything hits you at once. “You shouldn’t have done that,” you whisper, rain sliding down your face like tears you refuse to let fall. “You shouldn’t… I could’ve taken the damn bullet, Jay.” He opens his mouth, but you step back from him, shaking your head hard.“ You don’t get to make that choice for me.” Your voice is raw, trembling. “Not anymore.” Then you turn, heart pounding, rain drowning out every sound except the shatter of something breaking inside you, and you walk away from him.
You slam the door behind you so hard the frame rattles. Jay’s eyes follow you, bruised from the shrapnel, and still somehow infuriatingly calm. The apartment smells like smoke and adrenaline. You smell like panic. He saved you. You hate that he saved you. You hate even more that he almost died doing it.
You wheel around on him, chest heaving. “What the hell was that?”
Jay pauses, one hand braced on the wall as he toes off his boots, rainwater pooling beneath him. There’s a cut across his cheekbone he hasn’t even bothered to wipe. He glances up at you, slow, measured, knowing exactly how to piss you off. “What was what?” he says lightly.
Your hands curl into fists. “You were reckless.”
His brows lift, just a little. His breath hitches, just a little. And then he laughs under his breath, soft and disbelieving. “That’s what I get for saving your life?” “It’s not—” you start, voice cracking with more emotion than you’d ever allow if you weren’t this wrung out. “It’s not like that, Jay.”
He pushes off the wall, stepping closer, wiping the blood from his cheek with the back of his hand. “Really? Because from where I was standing, you were about two seconds away from becoming modern art on that wall.” “That was the job.” Your throat burns. “And you— you didn’t have to—” “Didn’t have to what?” he interrupts. “Jump in? Blow my cover? Pick you over the target? Yeah. I’m aware.”
You stare at him, stunned. He says it like it’s nothing. Like it didn’t cost him. Like he didn’t just choose you over a multimillion-dollar bounty. Like he didn’t almost get shot in the throat because he was too busy making sure you stayed alive.
“You can’t do that,” you whisper. He laughs again, but this time it’s not amused. It’s sharp, frayed, ripped out of him. “Can’t do what?” He gestures wildly toward you. “Care if you get killed?” Your nails dig half-moons into your palms. “You’re not supposed to. That’s the point.” “Oh, right,” he snaps. “Because we’re professionals. Cold. Detached. Dead inside. Pick your favorite cliché.”
“This isn’t funny.” “You think I’m laughing?” You shut up. Silence slams into the room like a bullet. Jay inhales deeply, trying, failing, to steady himself. There’s soot on his collar. A bruise blooming over his ribs. He looks wrecked. And somehow, still… looking at you like you’re the only thing in the room worth keeping track of.
He steps closer. “You scared the shit out of me,” he says quietly. Almost brokenly. His voice is low enough that if the thunder outside were louder, you’d miss it entirely. Your breath catches. Your heart forgets what it’s supposed to do. “Jay…” you say softly. But he’s already shaking his head, pushing past whatever softness was threatening to break him open.
“Don’t twist it,” he mutters. “You’d have done the same for me.” You don’t answer. Because he’s right. And that terrifies you more than anything. His eyes search yours, messy, raw, too honest for two people who signed a marriage certificate under false names and lies.
Then he says, quieter still: “Tell me it didn’t mean anything.” A challenge. A plea. You swallow hard, and say nothing. Because you can’t lie to him anymore. Not in this moment. Jay exhales sharply, stepping back like he’s been hit. “Yeah,” he whispers. “That’s what I thought.” The storm outside cracks open the sky. Inside, the tension is a different kind of thunder. “Jay, wait—” “Don’t,” he says, turning away, jaw clenched. “Just… don’t.”
But you cross the distance before he can escape into the hallway, grabbing his wrist. His pulse jumps beneath your fingers. “Listen to me,” you say, breath shaking. “I wasn’t angry because you saved me. I was angry because you didn’t think about yourself.” He scoffs. But you see the way his shoulders loosen, just barely. “How noble of you,” he mutters. “Concern for the man you tried to poison with his morning coffee.” You wince. “You know why I did that.”
“Do I?” he says, spinning to face you, eyes burning. “Because from my perspective, our marriage turned into a battleground before breakfast.” “Because I thought you were going to kill me first,” you snap. Jay’s jaw flexes. He stares at you, stunned. “No,” he says slowly. “I wasn’t.”
“I knew,” you whisper. “I knew the second you hesitated at the briefing. You were never going to take the hit.” “And you were?” There’s no accusation. Just hurt. You close your eyes. “I don’t know,” you admit. Jay’s breath leaves him in one long, exhausted sigh. “Then what are we doing?” he says. The question isn't rhetorical. It’s the most honest thing he’s ever asked you.
“We’re surviving,” you say. “Together?” he asks. You don’t answer. You can’t answer. Not yet. But you don’t let go of his wrist. And he doesn’t pull away.
“I think not letting you die is the bare minimum of being your husba—” He cuts himself off, jaw flexing, voice cracking on the word he suddenly seems afraid to say. Husband. The one word neither of you had dared to use since the reveal. Your heart thunders. “You can’t—Jay, you can’t just—” “Just what?” His hand wraps around your wrist and slams it above your head. “Care? Worry? Interfere?”
“Get shot!” you snap. “Better me than you,” he snaps back. And that, that is what breaks something open in you. The fear. The fury. The adrenaline. Everything you’d been holding together with duct tape and denial. Your hand goes to your thigh holster so fast he doesn’t even register the movement, but he does when you jam the barrel of your pistol into the center of his chest.
You feel the jolt run through him. A shiver. A hesitation. He looks down at the gun, then up at you. Slowly. A smile, sharp, crooked, infuriating, crawls onto his lips. “Finally,” he murmurs. “There you are.” You pull the trigger half a millimeter, just enough to make the metal click. He exhales like you’ve kissed him. Then he moves. His hand knocks the gun sideways; the shot fires into the ceiling, plaster raining down. At the same time he sweeps your legs, fast, elegant, brutal, and the two of you crash onto the floor in a snarl of limbs and curses.
You roll, flip, pin him. He twists, grabs your waist, flips you back. Your knee drives into his ribs. His elbow catches the floor beside your head, inches from smashing your skull. A grunt. A gasp. The scrape of skin on hardwood. Your breaths tangling like wire. He manages to get on top of you, thighs bracketing your hips, hands gripping your wrists so tightly you feel the pulse pounding through his palms.
His face is flushed, chest heaving, eyes burning with equal parts fury and want. “You’re out of your mind,” you breathe. Jay leans down, lips brushing your ear. “So are you.”
You buck your hips to throw him off just as he lowers himself onto you, and it backfires. His hips grind into yours, the friction sharp, scorching. A moan breaks in your throat. He hears it. His breath stutters. And then everything changes. His grip on your wrists tightens. His hips pin yours harder. The fight hums into something darker.
He drags your hands above your head and holds both with one palm, the veins in his forearm rising like tension cables. His other hand slides down your throat, not choking, just feeling your pulse slam against his skin. “You were scared,” he says quietly. The softness of the words clashes with the ferocity of his hold. “No,” you lie. His thumb brushes the hollow of your throat. “You were terrified something would happen to me.”
Your breath shakes. “Jay—” He kisses you. Not gentle. Not careful. A violent, hungry collision of teeth and breath and heat. You bite his lip and he groans into your mouth, his hand sliding down your throat, along your collarbone, under your shirt. His fingers splay across your stomach, dragging the fabric up.
Your legs lock around his waist without your permission. He breaks the kiss only to drag his mouth down your jaw, biting just hard enough to leave marks. “You wanted to kill me five minutes ago.” “I still might,” you pant. “Do it after.” He grinds down against you, slow and deliberate, and your back arches off the floor. His hand releases your wrists just long enough to rip your shirt open, the buttons snapping, scattering across the hardwood.
You shove him onto his back and straddle him, your hands braced on his chest. He looks up at you like you’re a miracle and a threat. “Fuck,” he whispers, head falling back. “Hit me again.” You punch him in the shoulder so hard it echoes. He groans, long, deep, wrecked.
You drag your hips down against his and his entire body jerks. He grabs your waist, thumbs digging into your skin, guiding your movement with frustrated, desperate precision. “Harder,” he gets out, voice fraying. “Don’t—don’t hold back.” You lean down and bite his neck, the taste of his skin hot and sharp between your teeth. He bucks so violently you have to grab his shoulders to stay balanced.
His hands slide under you, gripping your ass, pulling you against him rhythmically, hungry, demanding, each motion a dare. You kiss him again, even messier this time, both of you gasping into each other’s mouths, tearing at clothing, at control. At sanity. He flips you again, your breath knocks out as your back hits the floor, and then he’s on you, between your legs, pinning your wrists above your head with one hand while the other drags down your stomach, down your hip, down, you gasp when he reaches between your legs through what’s left of your underwear.
His thumb strokes you once, experimentally. Your hips jerk. Jay exhales shakily, forehead pressing to yours. “God, you’re—” He cuts himself off with a shudder. “You’re killing me.” “Good,” you breathe. He kisses you again, slow for half a second, then brutal, full of teeth, his fingers sliding against you, stroking harder, deeper, pushing you toward a fall neither of you planned for. Your nails drag down his back. He hisses. He bites your shoulder. You moan.
Every movement is anger and need and unstoppable momentum. He shifts, lining himself up, breath hitching, but then he stills. Completely. His forehead presses to yours. His breathing stumbles. You feel the tremor run through him. “You sure?” he whispers. You grab his jaw, forcing him to look at you. “Jay. Shut up.” He laughs once, wrecked, breathless, then pushes into you.
Your breath catches, your hands fly to his shoulders, nails digging in as he thrusts again, harder this time, hips snapping forward with the same precision he fights with. A broken sound leaves your throat. He answers with one of his own. His rhythm is fast, rough, hungry, each thrust driving your back across the floor, your fingers scrambling for purchase, your legs tightening around his waist, pulling him closer, deeper. He kisses your mouth. Your neck. Your jaw. Whispering curses and confessions against your skin.
“I shouldn’t want you like this,” he growls. “Then stop.” “You know I can’t.” Your bodies snap together in a frantic, violent rhythm, fighting and clinging and devouring each other, the line between combat and desire shredded beyond recognition. Your climax hits like a gunshot, sharp, overwhelming, ripping a cry from you that you try and fail to swallow. Jay feels it. His whole body shudders. “Don’t—stop—” you gasp.
He doesn’t. He can’t. He moves faster, hips slamming into yours, hands gripping your throat and waist like he can’t decide whether he wants to worship you or pin you to the floor forever.
When he finally comes, it’s with a broken, strangled sound, his face buried in your neck, his body shaking through the final thrusts, breath hot and shattered against your skin. For a long moment, neither of you move. The only sounds: your breathing, his breathing, the distant hum of the fridge, the soft clatter of a gun rolling across the floor. Slowly, carefully, Jay lifts his head. His hair falls over his forehead, damp with sweat. His eyes meet yours. And there it is. The truth you’ve been avoiding, fearing, hating.
Neither of you will ever kill the other. Not because you can’t. But because you won’t. He collapses beside you, chest heaving, arm thrown over his face. You stare at the ceiling, heart still racing, your body still trembling with the shock of everything that just happened. After a long silence, Jay speaks, voice quiet, wrecked:“…We’re in so much trouble.”
You laugh, soft, disbelieving, broken. “Yeah,” you breathe. “We are.” His hand blindly finds yours on the floor. You let him take it. You don’t let go.
Morning breaks through shattered glass like an apology that comes too late. The living room is a battlefield wearing sunlight. A cracked lamp. A chair on its side. Guns scattered across the floor. Your ripped shirt dangling from the edge of the couch like a white flag no one surrendered.
You’re the first to wake. Your body aches, bruises blooming purple, muscles trembling in ways that have nothing to do with fighting. Jay is asleep on the floor beside you, one arm thrown over his eyes, chest rising slow and steady despite the deep, angry bruise blooming across his ribs.
Right where your knee hit him. You swallow. Last night had been a war. This morning feels like the ceasefire no one signed. You push yourself up, wincing. Jay stirs at the sound. His voice is rough, sleep-heavy, almost gentle enough to hurt: “…Morning.” He moves to sit up and instantly stiffens, pain flashing across his face. His hand goes to his shoulder. You reach out without thinking. “Hey, stop. You're injured—”
He bats your hand away, offended. “I’m fine.” “You’re literally bleeding, Jay.” He looks down at the dried streak of red along his side, unimpressed. “Occupational hazard.” “You need rest.” He snorts. “I need coffee.”
He pushes himself to his feet anyway, stubborn as hell, favoring his left side. He winces only once, and only because he thinks you’re not looking. You are. You follow him into the kitchen, the air between you still… charged. Last night sits on your skin like phantom fingerprints. Jay grabs the French press. Pauses. Glances at you.
And in a quiet voice that sounds like truce, like surrender, like something you’re not ready to name,“Coffee?” You hesitate.Not because you don’t want it. Because accepting anything from him feels too much like trust. Your silence makes something flicker through his eyes, hurt, maybe, or fear he’d never admit to. He turns away. “It’s not poisoned.” You let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding. “I know.”
He pours two cups. You take yours. His shoulders drop the smallest amount, as if that simple gesture, coffee accepted, means he can breathe for the first time since last night. You open your mouth to say something, apology, maybe, or warning, but your phone vibrates on the counter. A single alert. Your blood runs cold. Jay’s phone buzzes at the exact same time. You pull yours open. He does the same. Two identical messages. Two identical contract codes. Two identical targets.
Specter. Jay’s codename. Nightshade. Yours. Your firm gave you a kill order. On him. His firm gave him a kill order. On you. Jay’s eyes meet yours, quiet, hollow, stunned. “…They teamed up,” he says. “Yeah.” Your throat feels tight. “They did.” “Because we survived.” “Because we didn’t kill each other.” Silence stretches between you, long, sharp, terrifying. Then, A shadow moves behind the frosted glass of the front door.
Jay reacts first. Gun drawn. Body tense despite the pain ripping through his ribs. You move beside him, back-to-back, mirroring his stance. Your hands tremble just slightly. “…Jay?” you whisper. “I see him.” The doorknob turns. Jay raises his gun. The door opens. A man steps inside, hands lifted, expression calm, but eyes alert, scanning the room in one sweep. Black jacket. Messy brown hair. Sharp, intelligent gaze. Yang Jungwon. Jay’s handler. His closest friend.
Jungwon shuts the door behind him and lets out a soft whistle at the destruction. “Well,” he says lightly, “at least you two finally consummated something.” “Jungwon,” Jay warns through his teeth.
Jungwon ignores him. He looks at you, not as an enemy, not even as competition. As someone whose life is equally hanging by a thread. “They know,” Jungwon says simply. You force your voice steady. “About last night?” “No.” Jungwon steps further inside, lowering his hands. “About the prison transfer. About the botched hit. About Evan.”
Your pulse kicks hard. Lee Heeseung. Codename: Evan. The target both firms wanted dead. The target who escaped because you and Jay were too busy staring each other down to finish the job. Jungwon continues, tone flat: “You’re both liabilities now. Loose ends. They teamed up to erase you.”
Jay tenses beside you. “How long do we have?” “Hours. Maybe less.” Jungwon’s eyes settle on Jay’s side. “You’re hurt.” “He’s fine,” you say automatically. “I didn’t ask you,” Jungwon replies, but not unkindly. Jay straightens despite the clear pain. “What’s the plan?” Jungwon hesitates for the first time. He looks at both of you, at the bruises, the tension, the silent terror beneath your defiance.
Then: “You need leverage. Big leverage.” A beat. “Grab Evan.” You blink. “He escaped. He could be anywhere—” “He’s not.” Jungwon reaches into his jacket, pulls out a tracking photo. Grainy but clear. “He’s wounded. Hiding. He won’t get far without help.” Jay exhales slowly, jaw tightening. “You want us to use a DIA prisoner as a bargaining chip.”
Jungwon nods. “It’s the only thing that stops both firms from wiping you off the map.” You step back, shaking your head. “Jay needs rest. He can’t—” Jungwon raises a brow. “Jay has hours until a kill squad kicks down this door.” You turn to Jay. “We can do it tomorrow. You’re injured—”
Jay laughs once, dry, disbelieving. “Tomorrow?” “Jay—” “Tomorrow?” he repeats, stepping closer, his voice quietly furious. “We don’t have a tomorrow if we sit here.” You grab his arm. “You’re not at full capacity—” “I don’t care.” “You’re bleeding—” “I. Don’t. Care.” His voice cracks on the last word. Not with anger.
With fear. He looks at you, really looks, eyes raw, chest rising too fast, his ribs clearly killing him. “I’m not losing you,” he says. It’s barely louder than a breath. Your heart stumbles in your chest. Jungwon clears his throat. “So… shall we?” Jay grabs his jacket, his gun, the keys to the ruined car you blew up yesterday. You take a breath, steady yourself, and follow him out.
Because even injured, even furious, even hunted, Jay doesn’t hesitate. And neither do you. The plan should’ve waited. You said it three times. Jay ignored it three times. He’s still moving like someone stitched him together with adrenaline and pure spite; his ribs are wrapped, his lip is split, and every few minutes he winces like his body is reminding him what you did to each other last night.
But he still holsters his weapons like nothing hurts. “Jay,” you hiss as you crouch behind the concrete barriers overlooking the transport route. “You’re injured.” He cocks his head, expression maddeningly casual. “And you’re bossy. We all have our burdens.”
“Jay—” “Look,” he murmurs, adjusting his scope despite the tremor in his grip. “We do this now or they move him underground forever. You want to spend the rest of our lives being hunted? Because I would like at least one morning where our coffee isn’t poisoned.”
You smack his shoulder. He smirks. “See? You care.” “Shut up.” The convoy rumbles into view, six armored cars, two decoy vans, the kind of escort pattern reserved for nuclear weapons or very, very important men. Like Evan. Heeseung. The reason your entire world is burning.
Jay gives you a look, a question disguised as a shrug. “Ready?” You exhale. “Don’t die.” His jaw softens, but only for a second. “Not planning to. Not until you say I can.” And then, chaos. You drop smoke onto the road. Jay shoots out the front wheels of the lead truck. The transport jolts, metal screaming as it swerves off the roadside barrier.
Soldiers scatter. Jay moves fast, too fast for someone stitched with bruises, sliding over the hood of a van, taking two guards down with clean, silent precision. You match his rhythm: a blade to a throat, a chokehold, a sweep, a disarm. The two of you could’ve coordinated this in your sleep, and maybe you had, in the old life, the life before rings, before truth.
He catches your eye mid-spin. “You always were sloppy with exits.” You duck a punch, elbow a guard in the temple. “You liked that about me.” He laughs, breathless, wicked. “You’re not wrong.” Together you reach the transport, override the manual lock, and haul the reinforced door open. Inside, cuffed to a steel bench, sits Evan. He looks… calm. Almost forgiving. “You came,” he says softly, like he expected you. Jay points a gun at him. “Move and I’ll put three in your leg.”
Evan tilts his head. “Jay Park. DIA’s worst hire and their biggest headache. You’re looking a little rough.” “Thanks,” Jay says flatly. “We had marital issues.” You shove Jay. “Shut up.” Evan smiles like he knows exactly what that means.You cut his restraints. Jay yanks him out by the collar. “We’re using you as leverage,” Jay says. “Don’t get sentimental.”
Evan’s eyes flick toward you. “You still think I’m the mission?” You stiffen. “What?” Jay narrows his eyes. “Don’t play games.” Evan sighs, rolling his wrists where the cuffs had bitten skin. “You really don’t know.” “Know what?” you demand. He looks between you, slow, almost pitying. “You weren’t sent to kill me.” His voice is calm. Too calm. “I was bait.” Jay stops breathing. “What?” you whisper.
Evan steps out of the truck like a condemned man walking himself to the gallows. His voice is steady, but there’s a tremor beneath it, fear or grief, you can’t tell. “You were meant to kill each other.” The world goes very quiet. Your firms. The double kill order. The impossible mission overlap. The repeated “no survivors” clause.
Everything clicks. Everything shatters. Jay closes his eyes for one heartbeat, then another. “…Fuck,” he breathes. You swallow. Hard. “We walked into a setup.” “You didn’t walk,” Evan says gently. “You ran.” Jay’s fingers twitch toward yours, barely a brush, barely a breath, but you feel it like impact. You’re both shaking. Not from fear. From realization. From betrayal.
From the knowledge that the only person who didn’t try to kill you… is the same person you were ordered to kill. The wind circles the wrecked transport, carrying smoke and dust and the faint metallic bite of blood. Evan waits several paces away, smart enough to give you distance, smart enough to know the real explosion hasn’t happened yet.
It’s between you and Jay. Jay’s breathing is uneven, like his body can’t decide whether to collapse or fight. The morning sun cuts across his cheekbone, highlighting the bruise you gave him, the split lip he earned, the exhaustion he’s hiding badly.
He looks at you. And for the first time since the night you married him… you can’t read him at all. You take a half-step back. “Don’t,” he says quietly. Your throat feels scraped raw. “Jay—” “No.” He runs a hand through his hair, wincing when his ribs protest. “Let me, just, try to say something before this gets worse.” You stay silent. You don’t trust your voice. He breathes in slow, controlled, like he’s defusing a bomb strapped to his own spine. “So that’s what we were,” he says. “A mission. An assignment that went on too long.” Your mouth trembles. You hate that he can see it.
“We were set up to fail,” you say. “Set up to kill each other.” Jay nods, grim, bitter. “Yeah. I guess the joke’s on them.” His eyes meet yours, something breaking underneath. “Because I didn’t.” You swallow hard. He takes one step closer.
“Maybe it started as a mission.” His voice softens in a way that hurts more than any bullet ever could. “But I fell anyway.” The world steadies for one impossible heartbeat. Jay doesn’t look away. He doesn’t lie. He doesn’t hide. He just stands there, bruised, cut, breathing too shallow, offering the one thing that could destroy you more thoroughly than any firm ever has: the truth.
Your fingers curl into fists. You want to scream. You want to kiss him. You want to go back in time and drag your past self by the throat for letting this happen. Instead, your voice comes out barely audible. “That’s the problem.” Jay’s jaw clenches. Not in anger. In pain. He knows exactly what you mean. You fell too. And that, that, is the one variable neither of you were trained to survive.
Smoke drifts from the cracked asphalt. The transport alarms wail faintly in the distance, glitching in and out like a dying heartbeat. You and Jay stand there in the tension of something raw and newly broken, your confession hanging between you like a live wire. Jay’s chest rises and falls too fast. You can tell he wants to step toward you again. You can tell you’d let him. But before either of you move, a voice slices in: “Romantic,” Evan deadpans. “Touching, even. But unless you both want to be buried here, we should RUN.”
You turn sharply, Evan is limping toward you, a stolen pistol in one hand, blood drying on his collar. He looks pissed, exhausted, and somehow still completely unimpressed. Jay mutters, “You always had terrible timing.” “Yeah?” Evan snaps. “Well, your welcoming committees are two minutes out. Drones, thermal sweeps, and eight agents who don’t miss.” He points at you with his gun. “Especially at you.” You exhale through your nose. “Wonderful.”
He gestures wildly. “You think I wanted to be bait? They framed me just to trap you two idiots. So unless you feel like dying for a failed marriage, MOVE.” Jay flinches at the word marriage. You do too. But Evan isn’t done. He jabs a thumb behind him. “Your firms have teamed up. They know you’re alive. They want a clean slate. And guess what cleans a slate real nice and shiny?”
Jay groans. “…our corpses.” “Ding ding,” Evan says. A distant drone hum rises over the ridge. Jay meets your eyes. The argument. The confession. The truth. All of it collapses into one silent decision.
“Come on,” he murmurs, grabbing your wrist, not rough, but firm. “We’re not dying here.” “For once,” Evan mutters, “I agree with the husband.” You shoot him a glare. “He’s not—” But Jay interrupts. “Later.” The three of you sprint across the dirt, weaving between charred vehicles. The drone’s beam sweeps across the ground, searching. Jay shoves you behind a wrecked armored van just as gunfire sparks against the metal.
Evan dives in beside you, panting. “They brought the elites. Perfect. Fantastic. Love this journey for us.” Jay peeks over the edge. “We can take the valley road. It’s unscannable for at least five kilometers.”
You wipe blood from your cheek. “And after that?” Jay hesitates. Evan answers for him: “We improvise. Badly, based on your track record.” Jay throws him a glare. “You’re welcome for pulling you out of that transport.” “I didn’t ask to be saved!” “Doesn’t mean you weren’t going to die.” “GUYS,” you snap. They shut up. Gunfire hits closer.
Jay reaches out, not grabbing your hand, but hovering near it. Almost asking. Almost touching. “Stay close,” he says softly. And you do. Not because he’s right. Not because he’s wrong. But because everything inside you is already moving toward him. Evan sighs dramatically. “If you
You all break from cover. Running. Breath burning. Heart pounding. Behind you, the drones rise like angry steel hornets. The valley road is nothing more than a cracked stretch of asphalt carved between cliffs, no lights, no railings, just moonlight and danger. Jay’s SUV fishtails as he guns the engine, gravel spraying behind you in flashes. Evan is half-conscious in the back seat, muttering insults between pained breaths. Jay keeps glancing at you through the reflection in the windshield. Not checking if you’re okay, checking if you’re still here.
Drones rise behind the ridge like a dark swarm, red eyes pulsing. “Tell me that’s not four,” you say. Jay doesn’t blink. “It’s six.” “Perfect.”
You’re already climbing into the back, popping open the trunk compartment. Jay keeps one hand on the wheel, the other reaching blindly to grab a spare mag you slap into his palm. The swarm locks onto the car’s heat signature. Beep—beep—beep. “That’s a missile lock,” Evan groans. “Missile. As in things that blow up. You two love ignoring those.”
Jay’s voice drops into something low, focused, lethal. “You want to complain, or do you want to grab the EMP?” Evan coughs. “Which one’s the EMP?” “The one that looks like it’ll kill you if you sneeze on it,” you say. “Oh,” Evan mutters. “Right.”
The beeping quickens. You vault over the seat, shove the hatch open, and balance yourself against the frame as the wind tears at your clothes. Jay yells, “Are you insane?” “Do you have a better idea?” “Yes! Not dying!” “Then drive faster!” Behind you, the drones tighten formation, sleek, military, unrelenting. You yank the EMP sphere from Evan’s shaking hands and twist the dial. The device warms instantly, humming with unstable power.
Jay swerves hard. The world tilts. Wind howls. The beeping hits a fever pitch. You look over your shoulder, a missile flare ignites. “Jay—” “NOW!” he shouts. You slam the EMP button. A pulse of blue light erupts, rippling through the air like a shockwave. The missile flickers, stutters, then drops dead midair. The drones short-circuit, spiraling into the canyon like dying birds.
Jay lets out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. You collapse back into your seat, chest heaving. Evan wheezes, “I… hate… you both.” Jay glances sideways, finally letting the relief, and something softer, show for half a second. “You okay?” he asks. You meet his eyes. “You’re reckless.” He smirks. “You knew that when you married me.” Evan coughs loudly. “Oh my god, is this really the time—”
BANG. Gunfire explodes against the rear glass, cracking it like ice. Jay curses. “They sent the ground teams.” “Of course they did,” you mutter. Ahead, headlights bloom, three black armored transports blocking the road. Jay’s grip tightens on the wheel. “Baby,” you say, “don’t you dare—” Jay floors it. Evan screams. The SUV slams through the barricade in a shower of sparks, spinning out onto the main highway. Jay wrestles the wheel, gravel spitting in all directions until the tires grip and the car rockets forward again.
You’re all thrown back in your seats. More headlights appear over the hill. Evan groans, “Please tell me that’s ordinary traffic.” Jay snorts, feral. “At this hour?” You draw your gun and chamber a round. “So what now?” Jay’s jaw flexes. “We lose them.” “How?” He slams the turn signal even though no one is looking. And cuts across lanes into oncoming traffic.
Evan shrieks. Jay grins. You swear under your breath but reach for the dashboard to stabilize yourself. “You’re insane.” “Married me anyway,” he says.
Bullets spray from the pursuing convoy, shattering the side mirror, shredding the back tire. The SUV fishtails again. Jay growls under his breath, correcting. “We need cover!” you shout. Jay nods. “I know a place.” “Is it stable?”
“No.” “Safe?” “Not a chance.” “Jay.” He gives you a reckless, stupidly beautiful half-smile. “You trust me?” The car skids around a blind corner. And you see it. A hotel. Lit up like a beacon. Crowded with civilians. Your stomach drops. “Jay—no—” “We’ll shake them inside.”
“That is a terrible idea—”
“You married me.” “That was BEFORE I realized how insane you are!” Jay slams the brakes, yanks the wheel, and the SUV rockets toward the hotel’s front entrance. Evan screams again. “WE ARE NOT DRIVING INTO A—” CRASH.
Glass explodes. The lobby floods with smoke and gunfire. And the chase becomes a war. The SUV skids to a brutal stop in the middle of the marble lobby, tires smoking, chandeliers trembling from the impact. Guests scream and scatter, champagne flutes smashing across polished floors. You shove the door open first, coughing through the dust cloud. Jay emerges on the driver’s side like he does this for morning cardio, rolling his shoulders, grabbing his gun, unfazed.
Evan limps out behind you both, wheezing. “You two need therapy. Separately.” No time to answer, because the glass front shatters again as three tactical teams charge into the lobby, rifles raised. You duck behind a toppled luggage cart, pulling Evan down with you. Jay rolls across the floor, sliding behind a display of fake plants.
Gunfire erupts in a violent percussion. Marble chips fly. A statue of some Renaissance noble loses its head. Jay shouts over the chaos, “You take left, I’ll take the right!” You grit your teeth. “What about the middle?” Jay’s smile is audible. “Trust me!”
You pop up and fire three quick rounds, two hit body armor, one finds a jaw. The man drops. You pivot, grab a server’s overturned tray, and use the polished steel to catch reflections behind you. Two more. You shoot through the tray like a mirror sight.
Jay mirrors you on the other side, sliding across the lobby floor, grabbing a weapon off a fallen guard, and firing with surgical precision. Evan crawls toward a decorative fountain like he’s seeking baptism. “This is—this is not—this is—holy sh—” A grenade clinks onto the floor.
You and Jay shout in unison: “DOWN!” It detonates, smoke spilling in thick white plumes. Vision drops to zero. Your ears ring. Boots thunder closer. Through the fog, you hear Jay’s voice, low, controlled: “Two incoming to your right!” You twist on instinct, catching only silhouettes, dark, hulking, moving fast. One lunges.
You grab his wrist, twist, and slam his head into the marble. He goes down but tackles you with him, rolling both of you across the floor. He pins you. You jam your knee upward. He chokes, loosens. You elbow his face and finish him with a point-blank shot. Your chest heaves. Jay’s figure cuts through the smoke, expression sharp with adrenaline. “You good?” he asks.
“I’m busy,” you snap, firing past him to pick off someone aiming at his back. Jay doesn’t even look. “Thank you, sweetheart.” “This is NOT the time!” “Later then?” More gunfire. More bodies. The smoke thins just in time for you both to see the second wave enter through the blown-out glass front, armored, masked, efficient. Jay clicks his tongue. “They brought the expensive ones.”
You reload. “Great. Let’s be cost-effective and kill them fast.” He grins. “God, I love you.” You fire twice. “Shut up.” They move in a tight formation, sweeping through the lobby. Jay tugs your arm. “We need high ground.” “What high ground? It’s a lobby.”
He nods toward the enormous crystal chandelier above. “We jump.” You stare at him. “Jay. That is a terrible—” He grabs your waist. “On three.” “Jay—” “Three!” He launches the two of you upward, one hand on your hip, one on the broken banister of the second-floor balcony, using the momentum to swing both your bodies upward. Your stomach drops. Your hands scramble for purchase, but you make it.
The two of you land hard on the balcony floor, breathless but alive. Below, the squads fire up at you. Jay yells, “Go left!” You sprint, ducking behind decorative pillars. Jay takes the opposite direction. Bullets tear through the railings. The balcony trembles. You fire back, picking off the commanders first. Jay’s shots sync with yours, like choreography forged in war.
A guard climbs up the far stairwell. You see him first. Jay’s busy taking down three at once. “Jay, head’s up!” Jay turns, too late. The guard fires.You leap, tackling Jay behind a bust of Julius Caesar. The bullet hits Caesar’s face. Jay breathes hard. “He ruined history.” You shove him. “Stay focused.” But you’re both smiling. Because this is what you are, two storms that somehow learned to move in orbit.
A rocket launcher beeps. You freeze. Jay freezes. Evan screams from downstairs, “DUCK!” The entire left wall detonates, ripping a hole through the lobby, blasting marble, wood, plaster in a bloom of fire and dust. You shield Jay with your body. He drags you down with him. The world tilts, groans, and finally settles. Silence. Then, Jay coughs. “Okay. New plan.”
You rub the blood from your lip. “Yeah?” “Run.” “Run where?” He points toward the emergency exit sign flickering over a side door. You blink. “You want to escape?” “Temporarily.” “That’s new.” “You’re rubbing off on me.” “Jay—” He grabs your hand. Warm. Steady. Infuriating. “Come on.”
And the two of you sprint through the ruined lobby, through fire, through smoke, through broken marble and gunfire, until you slam into the alley behind the hotel, lungs burning.
And for one tiny, fragile second, you’re alive. Together. Just long enough for Jay to say: “…they’re still tracking us.” You turn. A drone hums overhead. Jay sighs. “Great.” You reload your gun. “Where to next?” Jay jerks his head down the alley. “The one place they’ll never expect.” You raise a brow. “And that is—?”
Jay smirks. “A home décor store.” You skid into the fluorescent-lit entrance like two escaped zoo exhibits, guns out, drenched, bleeding, adrenaline-soaked.
The bell above the door chimes politely. Jay looks at it, offended. “We’re literally being hunted by black-ops kill teams and they give us a cute little ding?” You grab his wrist and yank him inside. “Move.” The place is enormousm a warehouse-style labyrinth of staged living rooms, fake kitchens, throw pillows, and more plants than any single store should legally be allowed to sell. Soft jazz plays over the speakers, which feels personally disrespectful considering the number of bullets you’re both carrying.
Jay’s eyes scan the aisles. “Okay. Everything in here is soft. And useless.” You kick over a wicker basket full of blankets. “We’ll adapt.” “I hate adapting.” “You married me.” “Exactly.” You shoot him a look. He grins, even bleeding from the eyebrow. Somewhere behind you, the front door gets kicked in. Boots pound the ground. Jay grabs your hand. “C’mon.”
You drag him between two couch displays, both the same beige color that speaks of hopelessness, and duck behind the one labeled NORDIC DREAM: Minimalist Elegance.
Jay snorts. “This couch has better marketing than I do.” “Focus.” “I AM focused. I’m focused on how ugly this couch is.” You smack his arm. Hard. Behind you, motors whirr, a drone floats up the aisle, sweeping blue light beams across the furniture. You flatten. Jay pulls you tighter against the back of the couch.
And thenm Jay whispers, “We’re really hiding behind a couch set?” You whisper back, “It’s 30% off.” A beat. Then he shakes with silent laughter. “God, I fell for a menace.” The drone draws closer. You tilt your head just enough to see it. Sleek. Armed. Deadly. Jay meets your eyes. You nod once. Timing. One— Two— THREE— You both pop up. You shoot the drone once — Jay shoots twice, it jerks, sparks, then spirals into a Rustic Autumn Display, setting several decorative pumpkins on fire.
Jay winces. “Seasonal items. Tragic.” You don’t get to scold him, because the next wave of agents storm in, black armor, LED visors, full tactical gear. Six of them. Jay mutters, “They seriously brought the deluxe edition.” You grab his wrist. “Split?” He nods. “Rejoin in… kids’ furniture?” “Deal.” You break off, sprinting behind a row of Scandinavian storage units. Jay peels left toward the lamps.
Gunfire erupts immediately, rounds punching through walls, splintering wood, sending ceramic mugs exploding into shard clouds. One agent rushes your aisle. You duck behind a wardrobe closet. He swings it open. You shoot him point-blank inside the wardrobe. He collapses neatly into the storage space. You mutter, “Narnia’s closed.”
Another agent charges. You grab the nearest object, a coat rack, and swing it like a medieval halberd. He goes down. Jay, on the other side of the store, grabs a lamp off a display and smashes it over someone’s helmet. You hear him shout: “THAT WAS FIFTY EUROS!”
You almost smile. Almost. Two more agents sprint your way, coordinated, fast. You vault over a dining table and land on the other side, grabbing a steak knife from a staged place setting. You fling it, it buries itself in the thigh plate of the first agent. He stumbles. You seize the opportunity, rushing in, tackling him to the ground, slamming his helmet into the floor until the visor cracks.
Gunfire ricochets behind you. Jay yells, “Left side! Two incoming!” You spin, sliding across the floor behind a coffee table. One bullet grazes your arm; the sting burns through you.
Jay sees it, and his voice drops to something lethal. “You okay?” “Keep shooting!”
He does, with unnerving accuracy, even while limping, even while bleeding. You take down the last one together, one shot from you, one from him, the bodies hitting the ground in a synchronized thud. Silence. Smoke wafts between bookshelves and model kitchens. Designer rugs are shredded. Fake fruit is EVERYWHERE. Your chest heaves. Jay’s, too.
He walks toward you through the chaos, brushing debris off his bloodstained shirt, hair a mess, expression fierce. You don’t even realize you’re shaking until he’s right in front of you. Jay gently touches your cheek. “You’re hurt.” You whisper, “You’re worse.”
He huffs a half-laugh. “Yeah. But I’m prettier, so it balances out.” You smack his chest. He catches your wrist. You pull back, he pulls you forward. Your bodies crash together in the ruined remains of Modern Elegance: Cherrywood Collection. His forehead rests against yours. Your breath mingles. Chaos hums around you.
Jay murmurs, “They’re not stopping.” “I know.” “They’ll chase us until one of us is dead.” “I know.” “And you still want to run with me?” You swallow. A nod. He exhales, part relief, part fear. Then someone coughs behind you. You jerk apart, guns drawn, Evan limps out from behind a plant shelf holding two throw pillows, looking traumatized.
“Not to interrupt your, whatever that was, but we should probably MOVE. Like, now.” Jay blinks. “Were you hiding in the plants?” Evan glares. “I have been shot at eighteen times in the last twenty minutes. I will hide in whatever I want.” You grab Jay’s hand again.
“We go out the back,” you say. “Steal a car. Disappear.” Evan waves a pillow. “Yes. Please. Let’s do that.” And as the three of you sprint through the emergency exit, alarms blaring, sprinklers erupting overhead, Jay looks at you sideways. “You know,” he pants, “this could be our thing.” You snort. “Running for our lives?” He grins. “No. Making terrible decisions together.”
You squeeze his hand. “Yeah. Same thing.” The wind outside the safehouse screamed like it wanted to skin the walls. Evan limped ahead of you and Jay, muttering curses under his breath as he shoved open the back exit. “Go,” he hissed, eyes wide with a terror you’d never seen on him, not even on missions gone nuclear. “They’re already here.”
Jay tried to steady him, but Evan shoved him off. “No, idiot. I’m slowing you down. And if they catch me, they’ll keep me alive long enough to track you. So run.” Jay opened his mouth, probably to argue, probably to be noble and self-sacrificial and infuriating, but Evan jabbed a finger into his chest. “Don’t make this sentimental,” Evan snapped. “I will punch you.”
The building shuddered. A boom echoed from somewhere above, heavy boots, breaching charges, the entire damn alphabet soup of elite killers descending the stairwells. You grabbed Jay’s wrist. “We need to go. Now.” Evan stepped back into the shadows, lifting the gun you’d stolen from the transport convoy. His stance was shaky. His jaw was set.
“Buy me a beer when you somehow survive this,” he said, already firing toward the stairwell. Jay hesitated for a fraction of a second, the kind that gets people killed, before you yanked him through the emergency door, into the alley’s morning haze. The explosion behind you rattled the street. Jay flinched. You didn’t let go of his hand.
The car was a battered sedan Jay hot-wired in under seven seconds. You climbed in, slamming the door, but before he could pull away, bullets punched through the rear window. “Drive!” you snapped. “I am driving!” He floored it, tires screaming. Black SUVs surged into the intersection behind you, windows dropping. Muzzle flashes lit up the fog.
“Who the hell did they send?” Jay muttered. “Everyone,” you said. “They want us erased.” A bullet grazed the side mirror, exploding it into shards. Jay tilted his head, avoiding the spray. “Still think we could’ve done this tomorrow?” he snapped, throwing the car into a turn so sharp your shoulder slammed into the door. You shot him a glare. “I said you’re injured, genius! Your ribs are barely—” “Oh my god, not this again,” he cut in. “We’re being hunted by two governments and three private intelligence corps, and you’re nagging me about my ribs—”
“That’s because you don’t value your own life—” “That’s what I get for saving yours?” You froze. The words hit you harder than the crash you narrowly avoided when he swerved around a delivery truck. “It’s not—” You gritted your teeth. “It’s not like that.”
Jay’s jaw flexed. But he didn’t push. Not now, not when the streets behind you filled with vehicles, shadows, drones, a whole strike team sent to wipe their hands clean. Ahead of you, the highway unfurled like a silver throat. A perfect kill box. Jay cursed under his breath. “We’re not making it out on wheels.” You checked your mag. “Then we improvise.” “You always did love improvising.” “You always did hate it.” “And yet,” he said, meeting your eyes with a wild, reckless smirk, “You married me.”
— — —
The counselor’s office hadn’t changed. Same soft beige walls. Same too-sweet diffuser scent. Same watercolor painting of a boat that made Jay snort every time you came in. The only difference was you. Both of you dressed in black, not intentionally matching, yet somehow perfectly coordinated. Your bruises had turned from deep violet to faint amber-yellow. Jay’s lip still held the slightest cut, healed enough to look rakish rather than dangerous.
You sat on the left side of the couch. Jay sat on the right. Somewhere in the middle, your knees brushed, but neither of you acknowledged it.
The counselor, bless her soul, tried to hide the tremor in her hands as she adjusted her glasses.
“So,” she began, voice bright in that therapist way people use when they’re silently praying, “I… hear things are… better?”
Jay smiled. That slow, clean, lethal smile that made people confess state secrets without realizing it.
“Much,” he said.
You nodded once. “We communicate more now.”
Jay added, “Explosively.”
You elbowed him. He didn’t even flinch. The counselor laughed, the brittle kind that shatters like cheap glass. “That’s wonderful. Can you give me an example of, uh… improved communication?” You and Jay exchanged a glance. Dangerous. Shared. Almost amused.
You shrugged. “We’re more open about our needs.” Jay leaned back, stretching an arm along the couch, behind you, not touching, but close enough to feel the heat.
“She tells me when I’m being unreasonable,” he said.
“And he tells me,” you countered, “when I’m being reckless.”
The counselor nodded, scribbling notes frantically. “Good, good. And how do you handle disagreements now?” Jay tilted his head. “Non-violently.” You coughed. He coughed louder. The counselor frowned.
“Mostly non-violently,” you amended. “Emphasis on ‘mostly,’” Jay added, helpful as ever. The counselor blinked rapidly. “And… intimacy?” Jay’s lips twitched. You stared at the wall and prayed.
He answered anyway. “We’re bonding,” Jay said, voice dark silk. “Deepening trust exercises.” You choked. The counselor didn’t understand but blushed anyway.
“That’s… very good to hear.” She cleared her throat. “And your shared activities? Are you spending more quality time together?”
Jay laced his fingers loosely in front of him. “Well, we’ve started a joint workout routine.” You nodded. “And we cook more.” “Travel together.”
“We run.” “Sometimes sprint.” You sighed. “That’s when we’re being shot at.”
The counselor froze. Pen hovering in the air. “Shot… at?” Jay smiled politely. “We process stress differently.” “And together,” you added. It wasn’t a lie. Not anymore.
The counselor shuffled her papers. “Well,” she said weakly, “despite the… intense phrasing… I’m glad you’re finding ways to reconnect. Marriage can be challenging. It’s wonderful you’re trying.” Jay hummed. You leaned back. Silence fell.
Not awkward. Not sharp. Just… easy. The kind of silence you’d both earned. The counselor exhaled softly, relief creeping into her voice. “I… think we’ve made real progress. If you two keep communicating this well, your marriage will absolutely thrive.” Jay looked at you. You looked at him. A beat. Then, you both laughed. Low, quiet, shared.
A secret. A promise. A survival. You leave the counselor’s office side by side, the hallway glowing with cheap fluorescent lighting. Jay’s hand brushes yours once, twice… then stays. Outside, the sky hangs low with clouds, soft and silver. Rain threatens, it always does around the two of you.
Jay opens the door for you. Not to be polite. To watch your back. You step into the street.
— — —
Waves smashing against jagged cliffs. Vineyards rolling down green hills. A stone house with blue shutters and a terracotta roof. Your laundry clips onto a line in the sun. Jay is terrible at it. He pretends not to hear your laughter. A cat you absolutely did not adopt lounges on your windowsill like it owns the world.
Jay at a sleek laptop, glasses sliding down his nose. Freelance “security consultant.” (He pretends that doesn’t mean occasional assassination.) You, leaning over architectural blueprints at the dining table. Freelance “restoration expert.” (You pretend that doesn’t mean breaking into high-security estates at 3AM.) Your passports line the drawer. Five each. All believable. All dangerous.
He watches you zip a duffel bag. You watch him check a handgun’s magazine. Neither of you tells the other to be careful. You don’t have to.
Gnocchi. Fresh tomatoes. White wine. Jay chopping basil in a way that is objectively illegal. You lean over from behind and correct his knife angle. He complains. You kiss his shoulder. He pretends to complain louder. The kitchen smells like garlic and warmth and something that feels frighteningly close to peace. Music plays low, old Italian jazz humming through the small speaker near the window.
You steal pieces of bread off his cutting board. He pretends not to notice. Jay steals kisses. You pretend not to notice. A storm rolls in. Rain taps against the roof. He lights a candle. You open the window anyway, letting in the scent of wet earth. The cat knocks something off the counter. Jay swears. You laugh so hard you snort.
He looks at you like you hung the moon. You ignore the way your chest tightens.
Dinner done. Dishes in the sink. Rain whispering against the glass. The house dim and soft, lit only by candlelight and lightning far off the coast. Jay steps behind you as you wipe the counter. His hands slip around your waist, confident, warm, familiar in a way that still startles you.
He kisses your neck once. Slow. Claiming. Home-making.
You inhale sharply. He murmurs against your skin, voice velvet-dark: “Til death do us part.”
You turn in his arms, tug his shirt, pull him closer, your smile brushing his mouth, dangerous and adoring all at once.
“You first.”
The screen cuts to black.
Fade out.
The nameplate hung on your door tilts, Mr and Mrs. Park.
