#especially theirs

[mounted-archer]

[ayo what that tongue do? 👅👅👅]

[castratecapuchin]

michael’s not really sure if the fact he calls luke just luke means anything. sam will ask about his family, or toff will, and michael will start with well, luke is… it’s luke, never my brother, luke. the distinction is probably trivial but michael notices, he thinks some people might too with the way they always have to clarify— your brother? hockey guys don’t do that, they want you to think that they’re the most informed person in the room. michael can’t really operate like that, he would embarrass luke growing up by asking questions, even worse when they were targeted at luke to clarify something he didn’t have the answer for.

he can remember luke keeping his face turned out the car window on the ride home from practice, never once turning to look at michael in the backseat. a lot of being brothers is like that, you look when he’s not and then you have to trust, or have to wonder, if he’s doing the same thing. luke doesn't make him guess for things too often though, easy to find at UPenn, and even easier in oakville. michael doesn’t have to go looking ever, even when luke was in the ohl on his own, he was only a few miles away. luke’s older so he went first, to mites, to juniors, to the ohl, to the draft both times. and then it was michael, who still turns back and has to ask okay, what now? but it’s different.

them in oakville. luke in mississauga and michael in oakville. luke in pennsylvania and michael in san jose. luke not in calgary and michael in san jose. michael wants to say that it’s not the cte that’s fucked his memory, he’s just not good at remembering, but some things he does— luke not looking back at him in the car; luke calling him over and over and over again until he picked up after michael broke curfew for the first time; luke sitting on the floor of their kitchen in oakville saying i don’t remember living here without you when he meant to say just living because he was two years old when michael was born, you can’t remember things then. michael doesn’t remember anything without luke lurking in the background of it, every story, even the ones that take place in san jose have luke somewhere else in the world as they were happening.

mack started talking training camps and michael first question was not when, or with who, or is your dad gonna be there the whole time, it was can luke come? luke, luke, luke, it doesn't matter if michael forgets to call him back, or text at all, or like his photos in the family group chat. it was michael sending the photo of him and luke together after the hlinka cup win to zayne and getting damn, what'd u do to luke??? back in response. he didn't do anything. it was their mom who had to sit michael down after the nhl draft, his, not luke's, and tell him that things might be different from that moment on. which doesn't make any sense because no matter how tall michael gets, or what team he plays for, or if he's 2ova, or 1ova, or 2C, or breaks his tibia for the second time and has to move back to oakville, luke is always going to be older.

it was all the same thing when michael was eleven and luke was thirteen and he found out they weren't friends anymore. stick to the gut and leaving michael hacking up his breakfast on the outdoor rink. and two days later, micahel watched nick lardis' older brother break his nose, watched no one blink an eye because you get to do that when you have a brother. except luke never broke his nose, just high sticks, and boarding, and telling michael that their cat died to see him weep, and promise to never forgive him when he found twizzler licking butter off the kitchen table. and they're friends again now, because michael still asks for him to come to places like vancouver, and luke still makes conversation so michael can sit there and ask an hour later, what do you think lardo meant when he said...

[sunflowerwemadeit]

Okay all of the discourse in this world put aside. All of the ship wars put on pause. All of the labelling forgotten for a bit. Just. The purity of Buck and Eddie's relationship???? I am very lucky to understand that. To get that. I'm someone who has never experienced romance or romantic love like most alloromantic people do. Because the people I genuinely fall in love with, I'll kill for and die for and have actually fought to live for? Have been my friends. Who love me with the same intensity as I love them. Who will trust me with their entire being as I will with them. It's. It's love. Idk what's romantic and what's platonic because to me platonic love has always been so so romantic. So yeah I guess why I fell in love with Buddie was because I could just see love. Immense amount of love that supports and understands and pulls you back from hell. And as someone who has had the absolute privilege and gift of having that kind of connections? I feel understood and seen.

So yeah. As someone who isn't alloromantic the way people normally state they are? Buck and Eddie are in love with each other. They love each other. It's the same thing. And it's so fucking beautiful and important and life-changing and vulnerable and solid. Yeah.

[bilbotargaryen]

Shots that make me livid 1/x

[p-h03n1-x]

Rio Xiaohongshu update 10.18.2022 with their 3D ad in Chongqing with Xiao Zhan

[lovemebitxh]

Okay but listen everytime Harry sings JALBOYH my heart shrinks because it's like... he's so gone for Louis. And don't even try to tell me the song's not about him because he literally wrote it while the whole Elounor stunt was going on and he sings "i can tell you were just with her" instead of "him". Like. That's what he wrote. Ariana didn't change the pronouns. Because. He originally wrote "her". And he keeps singing it every time he performs that song. And the thing is, he is so in love with Louis that he's literally telling him he loves him so much he can't handle not having him, and that even if he has just a bit of his heart that's okay. And like. I can imagine that back then, he wrote the song when he was in pain. But now when he sings it he does it with so much love, like you can tell by his voice and the way he sings "baby i'm a fool for you" that the meaning has changed. It's gone from pain because he couldn't have that person all to himself, to a declaration of love, like he's saying "baby i am so in love with you, you make me a fool" you know? like does that make sense? It's just i can totally picture Harry telling Louis with the most loving, sweet, soft voice "baby i'm a fool for you" and my 👏 heart 👏 freaking 👏 melts 👏

[bee-whistler]

As exciting as the upcoming show is, I kinda wonder why there's not much else ahead. I realize the booking at Wild Wild West Con is at the discretion of others and they're reducing the number of evening concerts there AND the con got Abney Park so that's enough to explain why SPG won't be there (because Abney Park is kind of a big attraction) but there's nothing showing on their calendar between January and July. It's a bit worrying. They were busy enough in the fall, though...

[wohltonend]

brojack is the best ship :')