Oh, dear.

Torn to pieces by wolves disguised as sheep.

[doehdeer]

Guys, just because I have father issues, does not automatically mean that I am into men that are twice/thrice my age nor am I into anything depraved.

However, it does mean that in every possible relationship I'll be in in the future, I'll always be dysfunctional. Cooked, either way.

[doehdeer]

I need to stop with this chubby people obsession, it's getting unhealthy.

[doehdeer]

Touch-starved but not to the point where I want to be held in a sexual way.

Just the 'I want my head against your chest while you tell me you love me' kind of way.

[doehdeer]

When I'm upset for my reaction or action which caused hurt on another person: I starve myself, sleep on the ground, refuse to open any fan even though it's burning outside, dehydrate myself—all until I'm writhing on the floor and forgiven.

[doehdeer]

Lmfao. People these days push the ones they want to love them, then get confused when the person they pushed away don't actively chase after them. It's me, I'm people.

[doehdeer]

When I turn 18 next month, I'm rotten meat to these men and women. Good, I never want to see or hear from them again.

[doehdeer]

Missing your ab--3r is the worst feeling I could ever think of.

Why them? Why am I thinking about how they should use me again? Haven't I fucking learned.

[doehdeer]

I thought I was finally doing better.

I didn't know my 'low' could go any lower.

I haven't dug deep into my flesh, but I'm at the brink of doing so. I'm scared.

[doehdeer]

After wolves have torn through my flesh, and after a maggot hive consumes my remains.

Would you still pick up what's left of my bones and frame me?

[doehdeer]

Someone rip my uterus out, it fucking hurts.

[feelslikesugarinme777]

[doehdeer]

Whenever I find someone attractive, I remind myself of my physical, mental, and emotional flaws until I deem myself undeserving of love and unworthy of them.

[stupidbpdb1tch]

Yeah, I self isolate and then feel awful because no one seemed to care about it.

[doehdeer]

CW/TW: Self Mutilation(?)

I'd literally carve your name onto every inch my flesh and chant it a million times, if that's what it'll take to prove to you and everyone else that I'm your and yours alone.

[doehdeer]

I like imagining fake scenarios in my head.

Cuddling on the couch while I stare up at them with lovestruck eyes and their hands on my back, telling me that "everything's going to be okay."

[doehdeer]

The issues are issuing, and I just want to be hugged and cuddled right now.

[soberapathy-deactivated20250703]

𝜗𝜚 — i miss them all.