#feeling dirty

[traumasurvivors]

Something I learned on my healing journey is that for me, while they made me feel dirty, there was no getting clean. I tried so hard. But in the end, I realized that I couldn't get clean because I'd never been dirty.

Their hands may have been dirty. They may have been dirty. But they couldn't taint me.

[dysphoresque]

— James Baldwin, Giovanni's Room

Text ID: Sometimes I thought / but this is your life. Stop fighting it. Stop fighting. Or I thought / I will never let him touch me again. Then / when he touched me / I thought / it doesn't matter / it is only the body / it will soon be over. When it was over / I lay in the dark and listened to his breathing / and dreamed of the touch of hands / of Giovanni's hands / or anybody's hands / hands which will have the power to crush me / and make me whole again.

[dying-weeds]

[dying-weeds]

[dying-weeds]

Ouch

Ouch

Ouch

You hurt me again!

[maskedmochii]

I feel dirty.....

[xbainekox]

Can’t believe I had to delete my selfie post because I was getting unsolicited messages. Y’all freaks.