I feel guilty to be a somewhat harmful stereotype of schizospec people, despite being myself schizospec.
I see many posts on here trying to fight against the received idea that schizospec people can't love, even in times of (quasi-)psychosis; which is great, and I heavily agree with the gist of it.
But for me, that is not true. I don't feel love; sexual, romantic, platonic, familial, animals and pets, even most objects... Every type of love that one can experience for another being, I am, at best, lacking of it.
It took me a while to acknowledge it, mainly because I am caring and warm towards others, even if I rarely feel it. Same with empathy, I have fluctuating/low/no emotional empathy; but I do have high cognitive empathy, high sympathy, and high compassion. I guess that it makes me mask all of it well... Another thing may be because I experience obsession and dependency, which may look like love, but isn't.
I guess that some people here relate to that, and some others that do, but that cannot mask that; whether it is by only being schizospec, or by other comorbid disorder(s). In any case, you are valid and matter as much as those who do love!!
I feel that this experience is just the opposite of: 《feeling (deep) love but being unable to care (, to even be unable to want to care)》 often seen in Cluster B PDs { AsPD-BPD-HPD-NPD]
